non-lucid

8/7/14

Last night bed at 11pm - 5:50am

Alarm woke me up just as I was taking pictures of wild mustangs on the hill from my window.

DR
Someone alerts me that I have left my dog outside. I remember letting him out to go potty, so as I look throught the sliding glass door to the backyard, I get a mental image of my black lab pooping.

But as I look, it's not him, but some shaggy black dog. I step out to make sure my lab doesn't attack him when he sees him. But the dog is hurrying away, following an older woman, who seems to be a transient.

They are walking off from my yard to the bushes on the hill righ behind my house. I see her dog is looking at something in the distance. I look and I see some animals. I'm thinking those are the usuall deer we get there often. But as I zoom in, I can tell they are a small herd of about 8 wild mustangs.

I'm amazed. I decide to ran and get my camera from upstairs. But I'm running up the long, dusty hill that is now how you get to upstairs. I grab the camera and rush to the window on the first floor. I can still see them, although I thought they will not be tere anymore, since the hill I had to ran up was so big and it took me a long time.

I see a black bronco rearing up and and I'm like "hell, I gotta take a picture of this, this is awesome". I push the button, but forgat to turn it on first. So I turn it on and bronco is still on his hind legs, as if fighting with the other horse. I see the indicator on my camera flashing red for the battery and I'm hoping I can snap at least one good picture.

DR
about the training that just ended yesterday : D

8/6/14

Last night bed 10pm - 3:30 am (work)

DR:

I'm in a room, and there is a woman on the far side, at the wall. Not sure what happens to her, but suddenly there is another woman, dressed in colorful clothes. She somehow jumps on the wall, while she is standing with her back facing the wall. )Like those guys in games dressed in velcro suits jumping on a vertical wall and getting stickied there.)

She is held to the wall by her back, while her arms and legs are moving. Now she is on fire, but only her edges. This is turning into a nightmare and a feel some dark force.

I hurl a large knife at her, to stop the evil. But my knife falls to the ground short of her.


DR:

I'm walking down a boardwalk at some recreation area. A guy tries to pour some water on me from his water bottle. I dodge it, then I see him as he walks few steps away from me. He looks drunk or high. His balding hair is all wet, so is his white wife-beater tanktop. Two people tackle him to the ground. I run there and put my knee up on the boardwalk to kneel on his chest. We are holding him down till police comes. Suddenly he is listless as he is laying face down and he starts to vomit. I look at my hand and his vomit is on it. I shake it off.

8/1/14

Last night bed past 11 - 8:30am?

DR
This was very intense. I'm on a shore of a wide river. Think Danube in northern Hungary. The water is very muddy. Some parts seem to be calm, but others have churning waves, small whirlpools and even tall waves going in direction from the shore. It's very fast flowing. Someone tells me that my brother is going to swim across, just because he wants to go to the other side. No serious reason. That makes me mad. Why would he risk his life for something like that.

So I'm running on the shore, yelling his name out. He can't hear me. I think I see him in the water. Somehow I am now on the other side, waiting for him to emerge. You can't really see him in the water, because of turbulent water.

I am really worried. Then I see him walking out of the river. He has some kind of a full body neoprene suit, including the hood, and something else over it.

Now I'm in some kind of a catle, or ruins rebuilt for turists, walking down a hallway built from large light - gray stones and I'm walking on sand.

DR
I'm walking with more adults and kids on some path in the outdoors. On a hill, no trees. We decide to split into 2 groups and I'm leading one group of kids into some summer camp.

DR
I'm standing on the city square in my hometown. It's in the past, maybe 50's. Communists rule the country. Everybody is dressed in period clothes and also eqipment is from that era. Some kind of commie action is going on. Parade or speech.

I look up and some confetti and propaganda flyers are raining down on us. My mom starts climbing on top of a bus or a van that's right behind us. There is a TV crew with camera on top, filming the event. My mom wants to look at the TV screen they have upthere.

DR
I'm with my best WL friend. In the dream, I can't remember her name, and after waking up it took me a while to recall it.

I'm giving her a single rose as a thank you. I gave some potted bluish plant to some other people, also as a thank you. She gets mad at me for giving it to her. I'm telling her that it's from some people that appreciate her's and mine work, and I'm just relaying the message from them to her.

Then I learn that she changed her name to Ophelia93. And I'm like "whoa, so you are Ophelia, and how about the other Ophelia, and is this just one person, or what is going oooooon?"

DR
I'm watching a canal in Venice from some higher vantage point, like a window maybe. I see a gondola with one gondolier. There is a large fish approaching his boat. It's like a giant goober. It's so big and fat and colorful.

7/31/14

Last night bed 9:15, bud didnt fall asleep till 10 - 3:35 am (training at another location)

I'm naked for some reason. Talking to some people from my past. The woman is giving me 60 pairs of underwear. They are all pink, and some are bit different in sizes. I know I don't like pink, but I don't have a choice.

She asks me if I'm gonna work nude. I say no, I'm gonna put on undies and a t-shirt. I sit behind the desk to shield myself from the male in the room. I'm waiting for him to leave so I can stand up and put on some clothes or a towel that I'm holding in my hand. But he sits on a sofa and puts the tv on.


Yesterday:
There are bunch of tall trees in some courtyard. I'm climbing through them to escape.

Last night bed 9pm-3:35am

Bunch of dreams:

- going down a hole in the grund, throwing dirt on bad people on the bottom
- fighting an ogre

- bunch of other stuff

- vacationing with Ophelia - we are laying on lounge chairs, bare legs, when alarm wakes me up : (

7/27/14

Last night bed 11-4:40am

DR1

I'm outside of my childhood house. Someone has a bird in a cage, and he is carrying it with him out of my view. When he comes back to the other cage, the door is opened and bird - parrot flew out. I did see that happen, but I thought it's suppose to be that way.

He is looking for the parrot, stretching his arm out, so the bird comes to him. Someone else is trying to help, but I'm affraid he is just gonna scare him away. (re-reading this, I realize it's the same feeling I have right now about a WL friend. Within reach, yet so far away.)

Bird flew up to the sky and we look up. There is a huge hawk after him and we are worried. Then we see that 2-3 other birds are there too and the hawk is after them now.

The hawk tries to grab one of the other birds with his wings, but as he puts his wings together as you would hands, the other bird slipps through the long "finger feathers". This happens one more time. This bird is so beautiful. Creamy white, with some redish/brownish color on shoulders.

After he escapes, he lands just feet from me and walks into a crack between some items on the sidewalk. I go there and look inside the wide crack. He looks back at me and I tell him not to be scared. He looks like a 45 cm tall owl, but I know it's also a boy. I think he has Jack's eyes.

We take him inside. He understands what I'm telling him. We walk around and everytime we come to more bright place, he squints, because it hurts his eyes. I think I carry him in my arms to comfort him.

It's weird, because it's a bird and I don't want to scare him away, but he is also a human in bird form.

DR2
This was the last dream of the night, but I don't remember as many details as the owl one.

I'm on a train with my mom and some other people. At some point I'm looking out the window and see a surfer on a humongous wave. Then I see either a shark or a black whale jump out in a wave. I yell at everybody else to look out. Now we see all kinds of seals and sharks and whales jumping out of water, as if also surfing the waves. (Looks just like the Shark week commercial I saw yesterday).

I ran to the other wagon where we left 2 bags for some reason, to my surprise. I have a bad feeling and when I reach to moms bag for a camera, bag is opened and camera is stolen.

Back in the other wagon, someone is saying not to be sorry for that crappy camera, but I tell them it's brand new Olympus.

7/25/14

Nap around 1pm - 3:30 pm.

DR before 3pm

I'm in a circular room, with one side missing a wall. Something like houses in tropics. Room is nicely furnished. We are expecting someones arrival. We know he is a very dangerous person. Someone behind me, who i think is my dad, has something in his hand. I know that we need to keep strict protocol and the visitor is not gonna like any deviance. I'm telling this person to hide it behind the chair, no put it in the closet, yea, closet. No put it in the basket.

The visitor is arriving by car. I stand up and and walk into the middle of the room. I'm realizing that this way I'm shielding Ophelia, who is sitting behind me now. I know I should not be standing in front of her, but I want to keep her safe, even if she will not like it.

The visitor is a young man. Incredibly friggin handsome, about 15 yrs old. He is smiling, and I bow my head, as protocol calls for it. I know if I don't get it right, our lives can be at stake. The young man is Pol Pot. He smiles back at me, and his smile is not threatening. I don't feel any danger, but I know it could go either way.

7/24/14

Last night, bed 11:20 - 8:30

DRs remembered in the morning

I'm at a party with my manager V. I see him clearly. I even remember his last name from WL. There is lots of milling about. At one point I walk outside. There is a large screen window that leads to the bathroom. I can hear someone going #1, and I see a shadow standing at the toilet. The lights are off. I'm thinking, ok, he is going into the potty, all is cool. Then someone comes there and he walks little further away from the house and there is someone peeing in the yard. He has a target on the fence and he is aiming for it. Apparently I was suppose to prevent that and I have failed. Now I'm inside, showing someone how long the pee stream was, and how strong it was, with my arms spread wide, as you would show how big of a fish you caught.

DR

I'm outside of some big, mansion style house. I'm suppose to be taking care of it while the owner is gone. So I'm going there to close some windows and shades, but I see someone is inside. So i tell him to close it all when he leaves, so I don't find intruders when I go there next day.

7/23/14

Today is second day of my WILD attempt - unsuccessful. Day off on monday and today - wednesday.

Last night, bed after midnight - 7:54am. Nap 10am - 1pm. Then second nap later.

FIRST nap dreams:

1.

I'm in Jamaica. We came just for a day. Arrived in the afternoon, then back next evening. As I'm walking outside on the evening of first day, I'm realizing that I don't have enough time to see everything. So I decide to walk to the town ro a beer.

I'm walking on this very rocky and winding path, among some piles or rocks. I sit down to the side to rest, but path is so narrow, I have to constantly move to let people pass.

Ophelia comes along and she asks me why is my ring on left ring finger. I tell her I keep switching with the right hand, when it feels like it should be on the other one. "Like you know, when you sleeping on one side and then you feel you need to turn to the other side, like that". She says "no, i don't know". I wanna talk some more, but she is walking away, turning back to me just to say a few time 'online, online".

I arrive to the town. It's quite modern. Highrise buildings in the center, and older ones around it. There is a tour through the town. It's a rickshaw for maybe 6 people, pulled by a guy on the bike. I watch them for a while, and decide I can walk the tour by myself.

I enter some permanent street fair. There are grilled vegetables and sausages hanging in restarant's windows. I'm sorry that I already ate. I really wanted to sample local cuisine and I don't understand how come I forgot about it.

I walk around looking for a postcard shop to get some nice postcards. A guy is buying a Kit-kat from a next stall, and they also have some coconut-rum chocolate balls that I'm going to buy later, if I don't find something more authentic.

I return back to the motel. Someone said there is a ghost someplace, and it may be exaclty in the building I'm at. Someone walks inside the larger room, where all the beds are. Like a communal sleeping room. The windows and doors close, and this someone starts a seanse. I feel like she is in a hurry to do that, before we have time to protest. She is summoning the ghost and saying that whoever touched the counter with the dead dog, he is someone affected.

2.
Something bad happened. There are some bad guys around us. I think they killed everybody. So me and another person lay down and pretend to be asleep. Suddenly the bad guy checks on me if I'm really asleep/dead, and he figures I'm not. I look at him and he is about to give me a shot. I knock it out of his hand and tell him it's not necessary, I'll cooperate. Then he gives me 2 jelly pills. Red one and green one. I throw them away telling him I'm not taking those either.

He has a station wagon, like in the old west. That somehow turns into a train with open top wagons. There is bunch of us in it. We are already escaping, or are going to escape, when we reach top of the hill. From there we ahve to go backwards on the tracks and train picks up some good spee. Train looks more like the wagons in the mines in Indiana Jones movies.

3.
Some awesome sex. Not sure with whom, but I have a feeling it was a dood.

7/14/14

Last night bed at midnight, exhausted from 2 jobs. Wanted to just take a nap and continue working. But woke up at 7 am.

Remembered 2 dreams. Seriously considered not writing one of them down, maybe would be better forgotten. Was not bad as in nightmare, I wasn't scared, but it was extremely uncomfortable. If I find out it was a result of my cat snuggling up to me again...

DR
So someone put a snake in my left chest. It's big. All coiled and twisted up. Everytime I move, it moves and stirrs. Tightens the coils, adjusts, moves a bit. So I stop moving, I'm barely even breathing now. But even then it moves a bit. God, i hate it. Someone is suppose to come to take it out. Now I'm looking into a room through a window. I see a man, holding a 4 ft long dead snake. Looks like he is gutted.

DR 2
I'm at work. Nobody is there though, only customers. Standing at a checkout, but lane is closed. No cashier. I'm there, trying to fix some gizmo, but I'm not a cashier. They are growing inpatient.

7/12/14

Up at 4:40

DR:

I'm walking on a sidewalk in some town in Siberia. I'm with my family I think and we went there shopping. Shopping for what? For shoes. Because I apparently went there without my shoes. So which was first, chicken or the egg?

Btw, not sure why, bet being without my shoes in dreams is very, very uncomfortable for me. Like I'm totally screwed, unprotected, exposed...

We are walking by some shops, that look like upscale mall. Lights are on in the stores, nice soft yellows, as they would be in winter evening.

We are stopping at a restaurant to eat. Only now we are in China. Some other male is with us now, and he is helping us read menus written in chinese and displayed outside, next to some very large wicker jars full of samples.

We sample here, then we are sitting down at low tables, kinda llike at japanese restaurants. They are serving some meat and we are discussing fat content.

7/9/14

Last night, bed at 12 - 6:37 WBTB 6:37 - 8

Got up at 8:20 to pee, all surprised that only 20 min had passed, and I was so relaxed and on the verge of lucid.

Woke up at 10:40

Was thinking about TOTM - eat lots of junk food, taking an elevator, going to another planet

Didn't get lucid, but got a nice dream with Ophelia.

DR:

I'm on my sofa, WILDing. I feel my head, and I'm almost lucid. Ophelia is standing at the foot of the sofa and asking me if I wanna go out. I lift my arm and I watch with curiosity if it actually lifts up, or my dream arm will - and I'm telling her with great effort (coz I should not be able to talk by now) that I'm >-< this close to be lucid.

She sits by the sofa and tells me that we could go and look at the shops, or just hang out. And I'm like "hell, I can't pass on hanging out with Ophelia". Then she leans over me and hugs me, holds my hand, and I'm thinking "shit, if somebody walks in, they will think something else". There is no way I'm gonna tell her to stop, but I say "hey, my dad just came home" and hoping she will get it. Then a guest came to the house and he is opening the glass door to room that we are in. But his head is turned away as he is talking to people behind him. I think we dodged the bullet.

7/3/14

Last night bed 1:30am, same as night before. Got up at 6:40am.

WBTB 6:40 - 8am. Got up from WILD nap at 10am.

I knew nap is going to be a good one. Got relaxed in matter of minutes. Cats were asleep and I was at the gates of a LD. Then my cat jumped on me and layed on me for a few minutes. I didn't let that bother me one bit. I was incredibly excited and played out scenarios I would like to dream about. So many cool ones.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD.

LD:
I'm in a place with some people. I look down and I'm in underwear and a bra. I quickly pull off the undies, while saying sorry to those around and telling them that I'm on a mission.

Next I'm in a long hallway. It's rather narrow, like maybe on a ship. But we are not on a ship. Doors made out of shiny lighter colored wood are lining the hall on both sides.

I decide to go door by door and find someone, so I can undress. First door has a female in. I realize this is doctors offices and doors have patients behind them waiting for the doctor. I quickly close the door.

Next door has 2 skinny people with body piercings. I can't tell if male or female. I'm hoping at least one is male. Not sure why I'm thinking I should undress only in front of males.

Another door has a person with blond hair, sitting in a chair facing away from me. I say hi in hope it will turn around and I can see if male or female.

Next door has a freaky huge machine in it, which I recognize as Iron lungs. I quickly close the door.

Next is an x-ray room, or some lab, with lots of females in white coat. I don't find this room suitable either.

Finally, there is a lonely male leaning against a door. I ask him to help me take my bra off. He is doing it with one hand and I praise him for being a pro. Dream cutts off here.

Dream ended and restarted many times. I remember lots of transitions.
1. Just a regular restart
2. I'm rolling out, fall on my knees and I'm thinking I'm actually awake. But have 8 fingers on one hand.
3. Pushing head backwards to get the falling feeling
When I stop pushing, I come back to the bed, so I make it a swinging sensation. Push down, come back up and higher. Untill I was standing on the bed and just stepped off. This one I did at least 2-3 times.


Next dream - I don't think I'm lucid here, because the whole time I'm desperately trying to WILD.

I'm in a large, L-shaped room. She is in the other part of the room in a bed with white sheets. I think a medic is treating her, because at one point she says with pain in her voice "damn, that stings". But that's the only complaint I hear from her.

When that person leaves, I come closer and ask if I can help. Make some food or anything else. But she declines every offer I make. Nothing new, I expected that. Makes me feel sad though, that she won't accept help even from me.

So I sit on a chair next to the bed and trying to figure out how to at least hold her hand without her rejecting it or making it look like some mushy move. All I really want is to transfer some healing energy to her and make her more comfortable.

She says something about her kidneys giving her hell.

She gets up and tries to do some chores. I trail her while desperately trying to WILD so I can treat her aura in a lucid. I'm pushing my head back while walking. I feel like I'm WILDing a few times, but those are all fake, not real lucids.

Now I see through the window that we are in LA. For a second I'm happy that she lives here but then i remember that she is only visiting. I have a few suveniers from my visits in LA and I'm rummiging through them picking out the one I want to give her. But I know she wont like them, so I stop doing that.

7/2/14

Last night bed 1:30 am. Watched a few episodes of th Dominion. New show about battle of good and bad angels to kill/save humans.

Woke up 7:40am.

DR:

I'm dumping some water into the sink. Water is yellowish, as from aquarium. There are also lots of aquarium plants. They are going down the drain and I'm surprised how.

Then I see a small froggy, smaller than half an inch, swimming in the water. I quickly scoop him up with my hands into a clear plastic cup. He get's out of my hand a few times, but I got him. Then I scoop few more handfulls of water before it all goes down. I add a bunch of plants. I see him happily swimming around in his new home.

6.24.14

Last night bed 11pm - 7am (woke up second day to aroma of coffee from my new coffeemaker)

Woke up at 2:50 from a bad dream

DR:
The devil is standing right next to me, telling me things in my ear, sometimes with demon voice. I don't wanna do what he is telling me, or I don't agree with his words. I'm fighting him, resisting, giving him hell.

Later on, remembered I just had a dream with OpheliaBlue, as I turn to the other side during micro awakening. Wanted to turn back to have beter recall, but thought I'll try this way, but fell aslee.

Well, it was some kind of a mild disagreement. It was longish, I'm sorry I don't remember more.

Last dream:
It's some kind of a work place retreat, or camp. This is a long dream.

We are in a building in a communal room. I walk out to do something and find 2 instructors playing a game of tossing something at the target. I should not be there.

Then I'm walking with a dog in my arms when he tells me to put him down, he would rather walk and run himself.

Something about large boats or machinery.