non-lucid

5.13.16

bed around 9:30-10pm.

2am dream:
I am at ophelia's house. It's sitting on top of a hill surrounded by fields and gardens. There is a few large wooden buildings that look like barns. I am in one of them. When I dig into the ground, I see that in the middle, there are tight rows of corn ears standing up in the ground, as if they were growing out. On the perimeter of the corn, in the vegetable bed, carrots are growing.

Next, we are returning from outside. It looks like where I used to live. There are some huge pipes we have to walk through. Inside they kinda turn into underground walkways, tunnels. I finally see ophelia's face. She is smiling and I think to myself that I finally see her and recognize her from her pictures.

5.12.16

It's thursday, and I started consistent day shifts this monday. I thought that will fix my recall and dreams and everything. But I guess not, or at least not yet. I'm barely remembering fragments from my night sleep.

Took a nap today after coming home from work. Was falling asleep on a sofa and getting images. I thought even if it's too late for a LD, I stil can practice falling asleep with intent and with keeping some awareness.

Well, it worked. After some random images, I got an image of a horizontal metal rail, about chest high. I grabed it and did a pull up on it. Then I pushed myself down, then back up again.

The movement was easy, as if I was in 0 gravity. This had happened often n my dreams and it was one of my favorite dreams when I was traveling this way up the side of a house pulling myself with ease on the railings of balconies.

I kept pushing myself up and down, untill after 4-5 push ups the movement took over by itself and I was getting higher and deeper down with every turn. Next thing I know I have my classic, favorite head rush, flying head first at warp speed over bumpy, turbulance like surface.

I remember that I opened my eyes once during flight like this and saw that I'm flying through space. So I opened my eyes and it looked like I opened my real eyes. Even so, it felt great, the whole experience.

Last night I had a dream with my "prehistoric" snake from few nights ago. He had red gloving tiny eyes and somehow he got on me and I yelled at someone to get it off.

5.5.16

Slept for almost 12 hrs after having a very short sleep of only 2 hrs last time, because not being able to adapt myself from dayshift to night shift.

Felt like I was dreaming all night.

Last dream:
Long and detailed. I'm visiting with friend K in AH. We talk a lot and laugh. She mentions that we always have good times together.

I start telling her about lucid dreams and how your daytime memory is accessible so you remember a lot that you normally don't remember in dreams.

5.3.16

Second day of night shifts.

Sleep 11am-2:30pm

DR:

I'm looking through some saddle baggs. Then I'm on a bicycle, riding up the hill on a deserted street, that has sand blown on it. In some places it's deeper than the others.

I something dark ahead of me and when I get closer I see the tail of a black snake. I keep riding and now I'm noticing more signs of snakes that had slithered that way accross the street. The classic snake shapes in the sand.

I get off to take a look at that first snake. I want to take a picture but I remember taking it out of my saddle bag. So I take his pic with my phone.

It's long, black and it has a mane like a comodo dragon. It goes near two guys who are sitting on the street around a campfire. I asked them if they saw that cool snake, but they didn't. They go look and start chasing him and the snake is now coming towards me. I know he can go fast. I get on a bike but it's not easy going in the sand. I know if the snake wanted to, he could go faster and reach me.

5.2.16

Night shift today and tomorrow. Took a 2 hr nap around noon, then slept about 4 hrs from 6:20-10:20pm.

Nap:
I'm at work and T, the manager from another store is there. there is a problem with a hose and he tells me to get the plastic end from an older hose to fix this one.

Bunch of "tourists" are riding on our carts.

Sleep:
My brother with his family is visiting my mom's place. She just got a new place, where I have my own room when I visit, my brother and his family have their own room and my mom and dad have theirs as well.

It's a big place, long hallways between rooms. Strange thing is that the house continues into public space and there is a lobby type of a place with tunnel that's Metro entrance. I look inside and people are allowed to only enter from that side, so no strangers are able to come up from the Metro to the house. But I still find it not safe and there is bunch of strange pedestrians walking around.

I just woke up, getting some snacks and I'm going to see if they are awake. My brothers son is up and I see him through door being ajar so I enter and I see my mom waking up as well.

I get an idea that I should go and live with her. Get a bigger place together from my rent money I pay now and we would still have some leftover from rent and we would save money.

4.30.16

Bed 9:45pm - 7:20am

Woke up at 2 from first recalled dream, but didn't write it down, instead I retold it to myself every time I woke up.

DR 2:15am

I am with lots of others in some place we are trying to escape from. We all have to go through some kind of a obstacle course that looks like child's playground. It's going slow because only 2 lanes of people are formed and only 2 people are able to cross an obstacle at the same time. Some don't know how to since some are quite elaborate and others in the line behind them are trying to tell them how to cross it.

It's my turn and I am on some elevated platform with steps going up and I have to align something so I can squeeze through a hole. I make it with my partner and on the other side we approach large white wall with large medium dark brown, shiny door. We enter and it's wery dark. All i can see is that we are upstairs and going down on wide and tall stairway. Walls are white. I ask others who are escaping with us what is that place and I'm told it's a church. I feel trapped again and going through some low, winding, round ceiling white corridors I'm telling my partner we need to find an exit quick and I know he he anxcious to get out of there as well. There is a door with red EXIT on top and we quickly, but not too quick as not to raise suspicion walk to it and get out. There was some church staff inside just watching us with mild smile, so we didn't want them to stop us.

It's nighttime outside. I'm walking alone. I suddenly feel lot smaller as if I was walking crouched so I'm not seen by others. Some soldiers start walking by, military vehicles full of soldiers. Everybody is dressed in hazmat suits. Even their armored personel carriers and trucks are wrapped in military greens and khaki, and even their wheels look like wrapped in paper. I get scared but I'm hoping that they are going to be filming a movie. It's interesting that I sense that most of the sodiers are females.

I think I better return to the "safety" of the church and I turn around. As I'm walking I know I made a good choice because I see civilian cars stopping other civilians and taking their wallets and even pushing some of them inside the cars and taking them away.

DR towards the morning
Long and detailed, but don't remember it as much.

Something about my friend scheduled to be there at 2 but she thought she is scheduled at 2:30 and her friend was already waiting for her to have a date in a bar. So I called her up to tell her but someone else took the phone from me and she talked to her instead.

4.29.16

Bed around 9 pm. Set my alarm at 4:30 for WBTB, recalled a dream, but didn't stay up.

DR 4:30am
We are looking out my mom's living room window into the yard. There is at least 50 puppies. We bring some of them up for a child.

Suddenly there is an invasion. Many people are in the house, not where we are upstairs, but they are downstairs. Somehow they grab my little brother and I decide to go get him. They will not recognize me in hat or work uniform.

DR 7:30am when I woke up
This was a very long dream. I'm walking, skating, driving through streets which I think is Chicago. (Watched a movie with B. Stiller how he was skateboarding on Island).

I have 2 backpacks that later turn into purses or something and the theme is that I always leave them behind unknowingly and when I get back, I am amazed that they are still there.

There is some disagreement between people of different nationalities.

Me, my mom and brother and some other people are at a house of a distant friend. My dad with some other man are deciding to kill us all. They are about to start, when I get behind my dad as he is sitting and stab him once. He dies. We are all very distraught.

After about an hour I tell my mom we need to call the police. After trying to find out the address of the house we are in on some junk mail, I call and go outside wait for them. A police SUV arrives and officers are heading towards me when my mom says goodby to me. But in the meantime my dad started to move and it looks like he was just playing games. So police is there but crime didnt happen and I'm confused.

4.27.16

Morning nap little over 2 hrs after waking up.

I want to revisit my desire to OBE/AP. Someone told me, that difference between LD and OBE is that in OBE we know it's OBE and not a dream. That we realize that.

So my falling asleep mantra was "I am out of body" and "explore my room". But I'm realizing, that I need to focus on getting out as normally into a WILD and then to remember I'm OBE.

Falling asleep I get a quick HH of my coworker A standing by magazines and he is about to write or draw in them. I turn back to watch him and I hope he is not gonna do it.

4.27.16

Bed around 11pm - 7:30am

I had a crappy day yesterday. Pinched a nerve or something and had incredible pain in the groin from it. Note to self: if you can't lift your foot to walk, walk backwards and drag it on the ground.

Dreams:

1.
I'm in a huge one story house. It spreads out like a country farm house, with all the little buildings all over the place. I'm walking outside and a huge crane just lifted a roof off of the neighbors house.

We are sitting outside at a large table with flat stove tops. I notice that another stove/bbq is smoking and I tell someone that he needs to turn it off so nobody gets burned. But he doesn't think it's on, or that it's dangerous. I think he just doesn't know why it's on or how to turn it off. I tell some kids to be careful and not touch it. You could feel heat from the black surface as you put your hand near it.

2.
Again I'm in a huge house. Many people. Visitors, maids, repair people. Different nationalities.
Me, another girl and a boy are trying to decide where we go out. But he wants all 3 of us drive our own car. Lots of stuff is going on here.

4.26.16

The whole day today I have this weird feeling. Like something important and cool happened, but for the life of me, I have no idea what that was. I'm trying to think of a dream, or if it was something I have read. I have been reading some posts about meditation, past lives, OBEs and such, but I don't remember anything that would give me this strong feeling the day after.

Lol, I think I just remembered. OB is coming back : DDD I just now put together the feeling with the news.

Last night early bed around 10 because 4am shift next morning.

I recall a dream of me being in some modernish church with some presence. Door was ajar, just a few steps from me and I was hoping to open it and get out without presence noticing it and stopping me. But as in so many of my "entity" dreams, the door was held by something that's closest described as "magnetic" force. Like when you trying to push together 2 magnets facing each other with same pole. You can almost do it, but there is this very strong and weird resistance and there is no way it can be done. But after brief struggle I opened the door and got out.

4.25.16

While I was visiting with family, I talked with my brother's son about dinosaurs a lot. Just yesterday I was wondering how come I didn't have a dream with dinos. And last night I did. Also about looking for shark teeth on the beach, which was another topic.

Today 11am nap after WBTB. Slept till 8 am in the morning.

As I am falling asleep, I'm trying too many things. Going down the latter to get into higher state of consciousness and also trying to AP.

I'm trying to visualize trees, walking between some trees that are next to my moms house.

Dream:
I am WILDing in some busy place. Lots of people around me. Somehow I am able to communicate with them after I fall asleep into a WILD. I can very slowly raise my hand and even show 1, 2, 3 fingers so they notice me.

I wake up, tell them about it then I WILD again and do the same 1 or 2 more times.

Then I decide to "wake up".

Few days ago I had a dream where I stepped through some door and ended up in another dimention. Looked like this physical reality but it wasn't this one.

4.14.16

Last night.

I'm at some huge party. Large room, full of people, some on patios as well. Looks like a hotel ball room with marble floor and columns. A caterer comes to my aunt M to ask her which of the desserts should they serve. I feel like it's celebration for 2 boys.

Now I'm walking just past the front gate at my grammas house in. As I walk through, I hear a womans voice calling my name. I look back and there is a middle aged, tallish woman in a long blue, button down dress walking with a limp and a cane. I am so surprised and amazed, because it's my dead gramma. She says "So I got lost on my way home from a sport game and you guys berry me as if I was dead." I'm speachless, my eyes are huge and I'm just looking at her all happy, walking towards her while she is telling me all this. I think I pull out a phone or just want to to let everybody know that she is alive.

After I woke up, I thought that I didn't really recognize her as my gramma, she only kinda looked like her. But later during the day, I was sitting in the kitchen and looking at the famili photos on the wall like I do often and I realized, that she looke exactly like on one of the photographs.

Wednesday april 13, 2016

I'm in my moms kitchen. There is a black male, female and younger male on the balcony. I don't know them and don't want them to come inside.

I tell the young man to close the door. He steps inside and closes it. I'm like naaaah, stay outside and close the door. We can talk through the window. But it's too late, he is inside.

I sense danger but don't want them to know so they don't start acting dangerously since I already know their secret.

When the older guy starts choking the woman over the kitchen sink, I usher some kids to the starway to run downstairs to my auntie.

I run behind them. I want to lock the door from the outside so they can't follow us, but I think they are already coming.

So I start running down the stairs while yelling my aunties name to open her door. The kids in front of me are so slow and that's infuriating me.

When we get to the door, little girl stops to take her shoes off and I get angry at her for stopping.

4.9.16

I am with my class on some vacation. We are in a one story glass building. I see in the distance that wind had picked up and I point it out. Within seconds it hits us very hard and brings sand clouds with it. I'm wondering how we will be able to find our way back to the hotel, even though I know it's nearby.

Later me and one of my friends are wandering through the town. It's night time and lots of pedestrians. Buildings are rather small, it's not like NY or LA. We are walking through some streets, trying to go someplace and trying to recognize streets and stores we have already walked through. We know the general direction but we don't know the exact route.

I walk into some building. Somehow I gather that it's a porn studio. They think I came there to act, but I'm just trying to get through the building.

They tell me to change into short shorts and lay down on an exam table. There are 4 women around me. All older and they seem educated and professional. One is closing the blinds while another one comes to me with a book of script and she is going through scenes with me. I am all just looking at her in amazement, baffled by what is goin on. One of them starts "prepping" me. Somehow I'm told that I will be with many others. I ask how many is "many". They say something like 20 and I'm like hell nah. They say well 5-6 is nothing, so 20 is a good number and not to worry.

There are cameraman, other actors, bunch of film staff all over the place.

I'm standing in a corner and some women walk in. They all start talking casually to each other and others in the room. One of them slowly walks up to me and I figure she is ther because of me. Then she starts fondling me while talking to me. I try hard not to laugh and I see she is barely containing a smile or laughter.

Another scene - I am in a corridor and Brad Pitt looking like in the movie Troy plus 2 other tall blond, long haired man are there, waiting for a scene with me and them to start. In a dream I knew all their names and they were demi-god looking hot like hell famous actors. Oh, they were shirtless and as I'm typing word "shirtless" I recalled that they pulled their equipment out for me to see and for them to get ready and one on the righ hand side was.... just wow. I couldn't believe the size and it was changing shape in front of my eyes.

Next - I walk into a large, almost ball room sized room and I'm looking around at what's going on in amazement. Someone talks to me and I look in that direction. It's a woman with a very old type video camera at her face, filming me. Telling me to turn my head a bit to the side and she is thrilled when I act like I just noticed her and I'm surprised and kinda scared. Even though I wasn't acting about that.

Now I'm in front of a camera man. He tells me to lift my shirt a bit. I do it and start posing. I'm so surprised because I don't pose and I don't know how to and I don't care to know how to. I know I'm bad at it but hey! if they like it, who am I to argue with?

Next there is a bunch of other female actors all gathered in one room, discussing something. I feel like impostor there but they seem to have accepted me.

Now I'm taken by car to some remote parking lot. I'm suppose to be with more guys but I'm not suppose to know details. I watch other cars arriving and drivers getting out. They are a far cry from Brad Pitt and if I had a choice, I would not do it with them.

saturday 4.9.16

So I'm at work, again, lol, nothing new. But this time it's unpleasant with mean and spitefull people. I'm trying to get away but I can't. I have to stay and pretend all is good. Boss is some kind of a boss with unlimited authority and at the end he pulls down some guys pants and is about to do him, but then the guy turns around and does something else. There is about 4-5 people just standing around in tight circle watching all this as if it was normal everyday stuff.

Work dreams are a hassle and I really don't care for them, and when they come "enhanced" like this, I really don't care for them. But hey, it was interesting. Anyway, can I pls get some dreams with spaceships or freedom fight or Tahity instead? Thanks : D