non-lucid

Tuesday 5/7/13

Last night bed 11pm - 9am nap 9:20 - 11:15am

DR - 12:45 Comminicating with tech admin, someone has 2 accounts

DR - 9am Hectic dream. Getting kids ready for school in the morning. They are dressed and ready, so we go and play on the street. Mom comes home, why they not ready? It takes them another hour to get ready. It's my fault.

DR - It's my first day at school - last year of highschool. It's already 9am, school starts at 9 and I'm still at home. I'll get there faster on bike, but it's snowing. Then I'm thinking where in the building will be my classroom. That's when I realize, I already graduated from there and today it's my first day at college. But I don't know which one, only that classes start later than at 9.

DR - Guy is standing at some metal panel and is being electrocuted. Some guys are getting ready to save him. They pull him off and one of them calls on a walkie-talkie for Rescue 1. They are in another city, but they are coming. Someone brings some medical instruments covered with paper towel. I'm suppose to take some of them to the school dentist, but I question if they are sterile. Girl says yeah, they are clean, I just washed them. I know they should be sterilized, not washed, so we argue for a while.

DR - Guy is making hot-dogs. All different kinds. I yell at him, because he has them on my new sofa, just like that, without plate or anything.

Sunday 5/5/13

Last night, bed 1:15am - 6am (Didn't fall asleep till 2am)

WBTB 6am-7am. Had a cup of one bag mint tea with green tea and one bag of peppermint tea just minutes before nap. Got up once at 8 to go potty. Dream afterwards. Got vibrations twice, after turned on my left side, but no LD.

Thought about ToTM. I imagined, how I will detach my thumb and put it back on with helo of either duct tape, or laser shooting from my other finger.

This is what I got:

Non-lucid nap DR: I'm walking down the street, that looks like is in village where my gramma lives. Single story houses. I'm going to a house I have previously been to. But I don't remember well how it looks like. I overhoot by a few houses and have to track back. I recognize the house now.

Inside, I'm standing at the kitchen sink with some older lady on the other side of it. I'm showing her my left middle finger. It looks bruised and deformed. She tells me "honey, you have ? fly worms in there". I look closer and I see heavy movement under the skin.

That's when my finger breaks open at the knuckle and out come pouring black worms. 1 inch long, kinda skinny, color of black, coagulated blood. And it seems like that's not enough, bunch of smallish beetles come rushing out too.

Worms fall in the sink and I wash them down with water. Lady is complaining "now I'm gonna have a worm smell in my sink". I can see, how that would be upseting.

Bugs scatter all over. But I chase them down, until there is just one left. It's little more colorful than others. It's a special bug. I keep swatting at it with a ruler, but keep missing. Then it gets under some stuff on the desk. As I move the items around, I see a sea of fleas on the desk. I figure, I better let them be. But I do get the last bug.

There was another dream after this one, but I only feel, what it was about. Will keep thinking about it.

Saturday 5/4/13

last night bed 2am-9:30am

DR: I'm debating with someone, how in US, people don't greet each other when they see each other in the morning, or don't say "bye" when hanging up a phone call.

Going for a nap 11:15am -

Thursday 5/2/13

last night bed 12am - 7:30am

DR: Lots of dreams in the morning. Didn't get up to write them down, just replayed with words. All I remember is that there was an Earth Invasion with some bots. (Watched the Iron man yesterday, scene where huge robots are shooting at crowds)

Nap 8am - 10:15am
So happy, because 15 min after I woke up, cleaners came to neighbors apartment to clean the carpet.

WILD+2 DEILDs

As soon as I felt it, I pushed my head back and got some intense falling sensation that ended in LD. I did this twice. One entry - as I'm laying, I think about looking at my hands, so I raise my dream hands and they are so cool. Black swirling, shiny fog. Then I decide I can get up now.

I pet one of my cats, it was MM. I could tell from the way she looked - just like in WL, and her coat felt exactly the same. I was gonna take it easy and stabilize by looking at the wall in my brothers bedroom. As I'm zooming in on details, I start floating backwards to the window, but I stop it, because want to look at the wall some more.

They were short, just 20 sec each.

Tuesday 4/30/12

last night bed at 1am -9am.

DR1:

I'm in a nightclub. A dead girl, all bruised up, is curled up on a bar stool. Two girls sitting on each side of her lean over her and start making out. There is another dead girl nearby, also no one pays any attention. (I watched Defiance IWL and they looked like some people from there.)

DR2:

I'm in school. It's empty, I'm looking for exit.

DR3:

I'm with my class in a long room. There is a few beds and I'm sitting on one of them. Another classmate is sitting opposite of me on another bed. A teacher brings plastic jug with clear liquid in it. It's Ayahuasca. Some of us are suppose to try it.

Classmate takes a sip and we watch him for a while. Everybody is watching. It's some kind of a lucid dreaming experiment. Then I take few sips. At first I feel nothing but then I feel something mildly strange with my head. Then I get the strongest vibrations. I brace myself for pain. I doesn't hurt, but I fell like it could.

The vibrations stopped and I'm wondering why am I not lucid. I decide to test it. I open the glass door to the balcony, which is not too high, just a first floor. I hop over the metal rail and start to hover - fly in the air, right between the balcony and a nice big green tree. Lots of people underneath. Pedestrian zone, some kind of a fair.

Then I'm back inside the class. I talk about how it didn't get me lucid, but then I conclude, that I was flying, so it must have been very vivid, real lifelike LD. I'm asking lots of questions where I can get ayahuasca and we debate it for a while. (There was a teaser on syfy channel yesterday, about new series and three words flashed on the screen - DMT, Ayahuasca and something else).

Had a really crappy dream last night. The mood stayed with me all day long. not even gonna write it down, hoping to forget it.

Nap dream:

I started to work in a huge, square shape, one story house. A girl is talking to someone through open door and I'm getting worried, that he is some stranger. So i'm asking around, if anybody knows him. By then he leaves and runs after a small yellow and green truck that was delivering stuff to the house to catch a ride. It's quite a distance to town.

Friday, 4/26/13

last night bed 12;30 - 8am

DR: I'm in a large house. Some people are harrasing us and coming to the house, trying to get in. I'm in a yard when a guy in red t-shirt riding on a horse breaks through and gets in. Somehow we get them to leave and I'm looking for a 4x4 or baseball bat to have some weapon for next time.

Tuesday, 4/23/13

Last night, bed at 12:45am - 6:50am

DR: Long and detailed

I'm with group of fighters. We are attacking or escaping from a glass, lit up corporate building. Running through corridors, at one point I go around to top of some rocks to see if the velaciraptor is waiting for us behind the corner.

As we come to the end, standing in a big hallway, next to glass exit doors, a guy in distant control room tells us, that someone needs to shut the blast doors somewhere halfway from start to finish. I have a feeling that my characted will volunteer and I kinda watch her from outside make decision. But then the guy said that he did it remotely.

So we are walking away, safe, no need to run. Walking by some glass display cases on left. In one of them is something that looks like 3 pieces of pink flower. Like the ones in Avatar, when you touch them, they detract themselfs. But they are not flowers, but a 3-piece comet hurtling through space. It was a live image of it.

NAP: 8;15 - 11:20am

- My dad is into foot fetish and I worry for the teenagers having a party in neighbors apartment, while he is out of town.
- I get upset at my mom and storm away from backyard carrying something.
- I'm leaving my hotel room. I'm not happy with the door in saloon style, because it gives no privacy. I'm locking it with lock and chain.

I'm attempting to land inside the dreamlet to be lucid. As I'm flying over some pleasant rolling hills, I see a house on the hill, which gets more sinister the closer I get to it. I say "I am there" but I know I don't mean it, so i don't transfer into LD. I change direction and land next to the tennis field. I ask some boys if they want me to throw their tennis balls over back to them.

Monday 4/22/13

Last night bed around 12:30am - 5:20am

DR: I'm floating in a hot air baloon over the barren fields near NZ. I ask the guy which way he thinks wind will take us. I see some sacks with what I think is chopped up meat on the fields, but they turn out to be onions. We land next to my parents house. I take a few onions with me. (Watched episode of Futurama, where they leave the sewers with hot air baloon.)

DR: I'm hiding in a house where people are walking around. I think they see me but I don't mind and they don't mind either. I have a small insect that is bioluminiscent bright green. I hold it in my hand, otherwise it would be flying infront of me. I think it's half bio, half mechanical. Like a little spy insect. (Watched Avatar, where little insect when disturbed jumped in the air and flew like a helicopter.)

Nap 8:30am - 9:50am
I'm in India. (Watched documentary about cotton farmers in India.) I'm in a huge house with tons of people. I'm suppose to be one of the babysitters. They show me some rooms, I introduce myself to gramma, other people introduce themself to me. I'm having hard time understanding because of their very thick accent. I lay under cover with one of the uncles. Apparently, it's a custom. The call me closer and I see they gonna sing happy birthday to someone.

Then they gonna show me my room. I come to to small house outside of the big one. There are two entry doors. Between them is a lot of old spiderwebs on dirty, whitewashed walls. I realize nothing will stop snakes and other things from crawling to my room. They open the door to the left for a boy who is suppose to live there. The room is barely two steps deep. He complains about it. Room is empty, just a concrete bench on the back wall, like in a jail.

My room is still under construction. Lots of concrete debree on the floor, dust, white paint, tools, buckets... Room is huge and now I notice light coming in there from right side. There are some chairs and sofas and people are sitting there from other parts of the house to watch tv, that's on the oppoiste wall on some cabinets filled with books and other stuff.

DR: I'm walking along the road at night in Kom. I don't ahve money so I ask some people and I think I can ask the bus driver to take me for free, because he knows my mom. I would pay him later, of course.

I'm walking in different part of that place. I hear a siren. It means some kind of a danger. I have no idea what kind, but alien invasion crosses my mind. I get off the road and start walking in some dusty ditch.

Before this, I'm crossing a river on some kind of a rope suspended between shores. No clue what I'm doing there, but to escape something I drop down. (Watched the axe man and their trouble with skyline cable suspended in air that draggs the timber.)

Sunday 4.21.13

Last night bed around 10pm - 7:30am

Today nap 10:30pm - 2pm

Got only indication that vibrations would start, but they didn't develop. Had a few non-lucids.

DR: I'm watching a bicyclist rushing down a steep, concrete slope to his buddy, who slid off the bike and kept sliding down. He landed on the bottom ledge, where ocean waves were breaking and making spray. I was surprised, because at first it looked like concrete banks of urban river, not ocean.

I'm walking through ruins of something, maybe factory. There is a small monster chasing us. It turns out to be a small dog with something on his face. We take him with us, give him a bath and he looks like a normal dog. As he is on a blanket next to us, I see an extra paw and I look closer and she is giving birth. Her former owner sais she lost the dog somehow and she wants it back. So there is a debate as to whom she belongs now.

I'm between tall houses, like projects in NY. There are kids playing outside without supervision. I'm really scared for them. As they are running around, some of them are pushing strollers. One has a newborn in it and the other one the puppy. I'm so scared for them.

A woman comes to me with big book. She opens it and tells me she had been gathering info about [girl's name]. I tell her I don't know her, thinking she wants to rant about my friends daughter. She says it doesn't matter and she reads me about her anyways.

Saturday 4/20/13

last night bed 1:30am - 8am

Had a few dreams about being chased by police. There ia about 4 of us. We are trying to escape from a house, where we did some bad things. We are going up and down the ladder. Then outside, it's late evening, dark. I'm crouching and walking to a corner to hide in a dark shaddow. As we go by a window, I hear a dog from inside of the house. A little puppy comes to where I'm hiding, but doesn't start barking. Police are walking nearby, looking for us. (Was watching manhunt for the Boston marathon bomber all day yesterday IWL)

This wasn't a fun chase dream I normally get. There was something sinister about me. I did something bad.

NAP: around 8:45am -12pm

Started getting vibrations while on back, got up to turn of sound on laptop and layed down on left side.

WILD: Suddenly I'm looking at my laptop screen and I see there is a new registered member. I can read everything very well. I think, that this is a great time to prove that I was seeing through my closed eyelids. So I wanna open my eyes and look at the screen to prove, that what I saw was real in WL. But I can't open my eyes. I realize, I'm sleeping and dreaming. I think to myself, well, if I'm dreaming, I may as well get up, because then I'm lucid. (IWL, I have been watching new registrations pretty closely. If you reading this venn99, it's becasue of you. Thank you for getting me lucid)

I get out of the window and start walking through the backyard in my parents house. There is a toll column made out of concrete bricks with two openings. I keep telling myself "I'm dreaming" and I'm confident I can keep my awareness, but I lose it suddenly.

LD1: Probably a DEILD. I get a headrush and hear someone dusting bedsheets few feet away, which turns into a chain saw soound right next to my head. I keep telling myself "I'm not scared, no matter what you do". And I really am not scared. Again, I'm getting out some window, this time it has consistency of liquid glass, but I still get out. I jump out of the kitchen balcony on first floor. As I'm falling fastand enjoing this awesome roller coaster feeling in my stomach, I'm determined to hit the ground and see what happens. But just before I hit, I get the smallest thought not to, although I still want to, but I switch direction and few inches above ground start flying paralel to the ground.

LD2: Not sure what type of LD this was. Wow, I even forgot, what it was about. I didn't get up after, just replayed it im my mind with words and went back to sleep hoping for moar. Oh, I just remembered. I was trying to summon Linkzelda. But someone else walked in through the door at fast pace.

Saturday 4/13/13

I was so tired yesterday, went to bed at 8:30pm - 7:50 am

Had a ton of long, detailed dreams. Wrote down only keywords and by now, don't remember much.

1. Something about Julie Watson. No clue who it is.

2. I'm in Saudi Arabia. (watched movie Kingdom, about FBI investigating bombing in SA).
At home, I'm showing my dad an atlas with pictures of Saudi Arabian beach. Few feet from sand, there are pits dug out in the dirt with bright blue ocean water and sand. Like a mini ocean. It's for the wives/women. They can't be on beach together with man.

As we looking at the atlas, we are suddenly standing on top of the steep cliff, overlooking the beach with little private oceans, same as the picture in the atlas.

3. I'm touring some tourist attractions in national forest in Saudi Arabia. At some tree, there is a sign in russian. Picture next to it is an orthodox christian. So that explains the sign in russian.

Friday, 4/12/13

I woke up at 6:30 am and went back for a nap at 8am.

I was going to WILD, but for some reason, I didn't get any indication of it.

Turned to my left side and fell asleep. When I woke up, I was sure I had a DILD, but didn't get uo, went back to sleep. Next time I woke up, I wasn't so sure about DILD anymore. Until I started to write down snippets. I was trying to recall, if I got any surprise or happiness when I realized I'm lucid, but I didn't remember any. Until now. Now I clearly remember telling someone "ok, I'll count my fingers, but it's pointless, I'm not dreaming". Then I counted 6-7 fingers on my left hand. I was completely surprised. I counted again and again, in awe, showing someone how many fingers I have. So DILD is confirmed.

Snippets for DILD and non-lucids mixed in my memory:

- I walked into my parents house. My dad had my mom's haircut and he was blond. With thin wire glasses. (just now I realized, he resembled the russian spy from The Americans show in his blond wig). My room looked the same way I had it when I was a child. I discovered, that my closet is haunted.

- My brother with his wife and child are visiting. I want to know when they leave, so I can go out and come back before they leave.

- I'm flying in controlled flight. Happy.

- I'm taking a cab home. 2 other passengers. We go by my house and I want to get out, but cabbie says it has to be in order we got in. So we go to two other places first. I decide not to give him a tip.

- I walk into a room and it's an interrogation room. A guy is behind a desk. (I was watching the show Revolution before bed)

- I'm escaping through the roof, but each time I break through a layer, there is another, different one behind it.

- I'm diving into a lake, wanting to swim in tropical sea. Water is dark and dirty, like a polluted river. I'm trying to make it brighter and it's getting brighter and I'm starting to see gravel on the bottom.

I suspect there was more, but don't remember it.

4/11/13

Just woke up from an unplanned nap.

In my DR I woke up from FA and I was telling someone, "you see, I just woke up from FA" and proceeded to tell him about lucid dreaming. Got bunch of stuff done and then I woke up for real.

Don't get that many FAs, so this one was fun. I believe, it was triggered by my WILD PM conversation with Allegory. Yup, talking about it makes it happen for me.

Last night, 4/7/13, Sunday - bed 12:30 - 9:20

2 very long and detailed dreams

1. I was driven in San Francisco, but only half way. When I'm walking, I'm trying to find out, where I am and how far I need to go. So I'm showing people a map - here is the river, I need to go on this main street and hang left to the main station. Something about bike rider, showing me his club, his friends showing up...

2. I'm visiting or doing something in a mansion in Beverly Hills. The place is huge, like 40 rooms or so. I'm ready to leave, so we are looking for our shoes. Someone tells us, that they have been shined for us. We go to a table and find our shoes sitting in yellow blankets with pink bows on them. I open my blanket, but there is only one shoe. It looks very nice, though.

So, I look everywhere for it. Open other blankets, look under table, asking people around. They have some kind of a party, so there is lots of very rich looking people there. I ask some of them, and I ask some of the staff in the house. They have buttlers, babysitters, some guys were putting up a wall full of posters and decorations, around 30 people on staff.

I'm walking through hallways and each is different. One is decorated with white marble statues set in walls, it creeps me out a bit. I go through bathrooms, other rooms.

I see lots of people sitting in a great hall room, there is people going in the bar with modern piano, there is an media room that has walls made of glass.

I didn't find my shoe. But the lady of the house cut me a check for 100 to buy me new pair.

Outside of the house, on a steep hill, a girl is playfully pushing another girl, while she is holding on to the tree. Someone else doesn't like it, because she could have pushed her down into the ravine.

3. I'm working in this big house with lots of lawns and green places. There is a huge, 20 ft long, white snake laying on the side of the walkway, in the green, all coiled up. I know he is there, but each time I walk buy, I forget and remember after I went buy.

I tell about snake to the lady of the house. I tell her, that I found another one, coiled up in a barrel. It's because she leaves the doggy door opened. She should keep it closed, and call a professional to look everywhere.

There is a miniature cow living in a hollowed out rock. It's size of a mouse. I take the rock and look for some nice, grassy place, away from snakes. When I see him first run to the rock, I'm thinking, how interesting, I have never seen an animal in my dream before.

I have some detailed converstions with her.