non-lucid

Tuesday, 1/10/12 Bed 11:45pm

Some first time sensations. Sitting on a bed, did some looking at hands mantra “tonight in my dream, I will look at my hands and realize I’m dreaming”.

Then laid down on my back, which I never do, put my hand on my side where I have and ache and repeated rhyming mantra “from my hand shoots an energy beam to heal my body with power supreme”. Also for just a minute, envisioned white energy coming in through my head on inhale and out my feet on exhale, then in reversed order.

First thing that happened was, that I almost fell out of myself. As I was on my back, suddenly, very fast movement of my perception/inner body , as if I moved to lay down on my left side. Completely unexpected and so much fun.

Then I felt a swaying motion, as if in a hammock. Then on every inhale, I felt my body move towards the head of the bed and with every exhale, towards the feet of my bed. As is the mattress was on ball bearings. Quite intense.

At the same time, with every inhale and exhale, I felt a rotating motion, as if my body was starting to rotate, just one degree at inhale and exhale. I felt I’m no longer parallel with bed, but at an angle of 20 degrees. Also had a rolling motion going on, like on a water bed.

I kept saying my mantra and also saying ‘to the window’, and ‘up’. Then my cat jumped up on a bed and settled down to sleep. The sensations slowly stopped. I was able to open my eyes a couple of times, my room looked normal. I also heard some popping sound in my left ear, as if there was an open can of soda. At one moment, I felt my inner body squirm and trying to get out. I was two bodies at the same time. So interesting. Throughout the whole time, I was perfectly aware.

Then I had some detailed dreams.
DR 1 - 5am

I’m with group of people on a trip. I’m sitting with my teacher K on top of the mountain with steep slopes. We talk and exchange gifts. She gives me some plastic bags. I can clearly see the rocks, boulders and grass with flowers on a slope. Couple of times I almost fall off.

Then we are getting something to drink. I realize, I have only 10 money and 3 beautiful, large, black, shiny commemorative Star Trek Voyager coins. One is for season one and 2 for season 2. I don’t want to spend these.

DR 2
I’m on a street P in NZ. Talking to someone.

Waking Life Element
Not sure in which dream, but I’m talking to someone about bad quality of oranges in stores. The other person agrees. I say, the oranges I bought tasted watery. And the pomelo was sour and dry, when it should be sweet. Then we ended the conversation but I wanted to add something about tangerines I have bought last time were not the best, either.

DR 3
I’m with E in a hotel with beautiful view of city. Clouds look like after rain, I see rooftops and buildings of an established town, not super modern. I ask him where we are and how did we get there. (Waking life element). He sais we are in town…. (I forgot the name) in Maine. He repeats it couple of times.

I think I say there is no water in the room, so we decide to go to the town. We walk through the streets. Come to entrance to a hotel restaurant. In the lobby, the lady is asking me for my ID. I say I don’t have it, we just ran out to get some water. Then E shows his ID. The lady sais - I could either let you in or not, but if I didn’t, we wouldn’t live in a free country that we live in.

Then I have a conversation with E, about how I like, that in US, the person in charge doesn’t have to adhere strictly to the rules, but is able to make a decision, whether to bend it or not, if situation warrants it. (Waking life element - I frequently think about this).

Inside, the restaurant is round, ground level, with large windows and a round bar in the middle. I stand by the window and suddenly see a big boulder rolling down a small hill, that’s landscaped. Boulder stops across the small street next to one of the cute little houses. I call E to see this. By then we notice 3 boys on the hill fiddling with the boulders, making them roll down. A lady holding a tennis racquet comes out of the house closest to us and I bang on the window to get her attention. I try to tell her to call the police on the boys. But she calls them in the house and I realize they are her sons. Then she comes all the way to the window and apologizes to E, thinking he is a police officer. The glass is tinted and you can’t see well from outside in.

Wednesday 1/4/2012
DR 5am - illegals crossing river; in class with teacher S; game show on TV

Thursday 1/4/2012
Took an evening nap - new HH - 1 tiny heart and 1 happy face

Friday Jan.6/2012 bed 11:55pm

Set up another experiment - put a small piece of paper with one letter and a colored pen on top of my kitchen cabinet to try to see it in OBE.

GM at 5am
woke up from OBE at 6:35am

OBE#6
I’m in my bed trying to OBE/WILD. I suddenly realize, I see my room from the correct vantage point, as I’m laying on my left side. It’s darker than in WL (I have some nightlights IWL). All I see is left side of the bed. Right next to me is my cat. I see her as energy in shape of sleeping, balled-up cat. I immediately start rolling out. It takes me a few tries, I’m amazed, she is like a little speed bump. I’m not worried about hurting her, because I know, IWL she is closer to my feet.

So I roll out and fall to the ground. I start crawling on all four towards the kitchen. IWL, its about 8 feet from my bed. As I’m crawling in total dark, I realize, I could feel my way. As I raise my right arm, I bump into a piece of furniture. I grab the round, smooth, cool leg of a desk/chair. Right behind it is a cabinet. I don’t know how, but next thing I’m looking at the top of the kitchen cabinet. It’s much brighter now and I can see a piece of paper identical to the one I put up there IWL and I clearly see capital letter T. Next to it is a small packet of handy-wipe and text on it is in orange cursive. I take it as a color of a pen I left up there. Other than this, there is a bunch of letters and postcards, addressed to me. I can clearly read my full name written in cursive, not in my handwriting. There is also a book. I really wish I could read that all, but I wake up.

After I wake up, I check , if I got the letter and color right. Nope, the paper I left up there has a big square on it and the pen is green.

I was disappointed, especially, because I don’t own any table or chair, that could account for the leg I grabbed in OBE, and I really wanted to go OOB in physical realm - identical or near identical to waking life. It took me almost 2 days to realize, that I actually do, and It’s exactly where I felt it.

I played back in my mind, how I rolled out and crawled and as I’m following my path, I see a small foot-rest, that has 4 6-inch legs and they look exactly as what it felt in my OBE.

WBTB 7am-817am

Regular Dream:
I’m in Mexico. Some nice resort. We go to the pool. Beautiful clear blue water. I dive in, feels good. Next time we come, the pool is closed. Someone with flu contaminated it. Bunch of people disappointed.

We decide to go to the beach, but we see dark clouds gathering in the distance. Wind is starting and I see something like a tornado. I take pictures. People are trying to take shelter in the yard of the hotel. I’m in the yard, next to the door. Someone is banging it, trying to get in. The white door is locked and padlocked. I open it anyway and in walk two children. More people come in. Also one female officer. We start to joke, saying wow, this is not a dream, unlike other, that were dreams. I agree with her, this is not a dream.

Then a big UFO appears in the sky. We are all looking up. I'm taking lots of pictures. The UFO separates into different shapes, it’s trying to tell us something. Suddenly, a pile of broken-up weapons appear on the ground. I have a feeling, they tell us to “take out the trash”, as in weapons are trash of the mankind and we should get rid of them.

Saturday, 1/7/2012 Bed 10pm
Traveling on train with my friend M. There are 3 different stations, that feel like videogame levels.

Sunday, 1/8/2012 Bed 12:45 am B-complex 50mg at 5pm
Lots of dreams, didn’t write them down

Sunday, Jan.1,2012

I'm shopping in the grocery store on H in NZ. I have a shopping cart thats taller than the other carts. I think it's ours, but I give it to another shopper anyway. Then I'm looking for my dad to ask him about it, but he left from the store and I can't find him. Finally I find him and mom in a pub on the corner.

Monday, Jan.2, 2012

I'm taking a shower in a huge open design apartment. The shower is right by the big glass window. I notice someone on the street looking, while trying to look innocent. So i drop to the floor and continue showering.
- I'm trying to get some kids to pick up the toys
- someone is offering me a taste of salad. he puts some vinegrette on it and I swear, I can taste it and I say I like it.

Thursday, 12/29/11
Bed 10:30pm
DR 4:42am I went to the yard at our house on RD10. I'm suppose to feed the rabbits some hay. There are 3 pieces of something, I pick it up and take it to the rabbits. Then I realize, it's some old wood, and I see, rabbits ar already eating hay, someone must have beet me to feeding them.

A storm is coming, I see flashes of light and hear thunder. In a place where neighbors yard is, now I see their living room. I try to close the french door to keep the rain out. I go upstairs to my place and tv is off and unplugged. I see a neighbour smoking a cigarette telling me he unpluged my electric apliances to keep them safe in case of lightning strike.

Got up at 5:34 for 1 hour of WBTB.
I got close to WILD, but didn't finish it.

Wednesday, 12/28/11

Bedtime 11:55pm. Had some champagne.

DR between 7 - 8am

1. I'm on a street C, next to my house on RD in NZ. It's a beautiful, sunny day. I look up and on a blue skies I see a grid of rectangles, like a table in Word, maybe 5x4, made out of nice, white, puffy clouds/airplane contrails. In one corner are angel wings also made out of clouds. I'm running in excitement and yell at the neighbour E in his apartment "Look up and see, look up and see".

2. I wake up in an apartment. There are 2 more people here. It's morning and we are getting some food ready for breakfast.
I look in a fridge. There is a bowl of corn and green peas, but I can't see it clearly, they seem to be moving, or maybe my eyes are twitching. They project a yellow glow.

I can see everything clearly, colors, details, it's bright, I just cant read. There is a box of cigars. It says CUBANS. I try to see the country of origin, but cant find it on the box.

One person leans towards me and looks at my eye to find out, why I can't read. Then I realize, I see through my eyelids.

Now I'm in kitchen on RD10. To test if I can really see through my eyelids, or if I just "see" the room from my memory, my dad is doing something. First he throws a big pink blanket towards the tv, then a smaller brown blanket, then he is pulling on a brown sweater with stripes and then he pretends to throw a baseball. I identify everything correctly. I see color of wall paint, light are on, sharp details, but I know, my eyes are closed.

I'm back in the apartment with the fridge and I tell to these guys - I thought I'm awake, but maybe I'm asleep, or maybe I was asleep before and now I'm awake - I couldn't make any sense of it.

3. I'm in a living room in RD10. I lay on a sofa, my cat is next to me. I try to see the color of her aura, but I decide to see color of aura of my friend (I don't know who she is). She is sitting on the floor, leaning against our green bookcase, holding a baby? I can't see the color directly, but I see the inside of the bookcase illuminated by light blue light. I ask her with laughter, if she want's to know the color of her aura.

I wake up and feel the headrush, that for me means transition through field of stars to Lucid Dream.

All dreams were super focused, sharp, colorfull, bright. I was talking to people, which I rarely do. I have a feeling I did have an LD or was very close to it, but can't confirm. Very good feeling from the whole thing.

Dec.22, Thursday. B-100 7pm, bed 2am.

DR1 - my former classmate M.H.
DR2 - Big museum like mansion, Family from LB likes to overnight there. I'm suppose to take one kid by my car to this place to sleep over. I don't like to be there, place is haunted. I talk to this friendly spirit and I'm not so scared anymore.

DR3 - I'm traveling on a blimp with my mom to Finland. The front and left side has huge windows with metal frame forming a grid. I look closer out the window - we are flying over bautifull icebergs. Sunlit place reminds me of Baltic sea when traveling IWL from Poland over Scandinavia and Greenland. The seats are in U shape, light brown colored wood. I sit next to a guy. Another guy sits on my next side and they start talking to each other, while blocking my view and squishing me. I say 'excuse me", but they are ignoring it. So I lean forward to get some space and I feel how they are leaning on my back with their elbows, making my spine pop up and down like an empty soda can. It hurts and I yell at them.

Friday, Dec.23, 2011. No supplements, bed 1 am.

DR ar 6:20 am
Some kind of a retreat/school for LDing.

DR later on
Im walking on a berm with some kids. Looks like NZ. It's fall. We see some dry tree branches on the ground. I notice bunch of snakes hidind there and show them to kids. One snake comes up to us and is slidering around the girl. She is laughing, but I'm worried.

We turn to go home, but after a while I realize, I put down my DJ somewhere on the ground when we sopped and forgot it there. We had to turn around and walk back. We came to a train station and we hop on a train that's only being repositioned on the tracks, but I hope it will take us closer to place where I left my DJ. Train goes the wrong way, we hop off and I finally see where we need to go. There is an obsticle between us, but we make it over.

Dec.21st, 2011, Wednesday. GM+Choline

I wrote a little contract again to have a lucid tonight. Read Waggoner’s book, did my RCs and my mantra. I also gave thanks for my previous LDs. And I got me my #9.

DR #1- I’m in a back seat behind a driver in my own car. I should be driving and I’m not happy that someone else is.
DR #2- My cousin K
I remembered lots more, but couldn’t wake myself up to write them down for good 20 minutes, and by then that’s all I remembered.

Took GM 4mg at 4:05am.
Tried to either WILD, or if that didn’t work, just fall asleep. Woke up from LD at 5:45

LD and the experience:
At first no visuals, my field of view is dark grey, just like proper backside of your eyelids should look like Then suddenly BAM. Lights turn on, my whole view gets bright and a graphic of top part of classic alarm clock shows up in bright golden color on white (like backlit) background, together with headrush.

I get all excited and I know I shouldn’t so I try to calm down. Then the movie strip starts with some black and white pictures. They are going by at blazing speed. All I can think of is “yes, yes, dream, dream”.

I start to feel/wish to get my dream body hover over my sleeping body and I feel my whole body levitate some inches above my bed. I see my room awash in dark green, as if I was in a pond with green water (just like last time, when I saw my room like this).

I start to will my body to move out of position over my bed. First my head moves over carpet, then my body follows. I’m still in laying down position, just turned by maybe 15 degrees, so my head leads the way.

I start to float over my carpet next to my bed. I’m going through the kitchen, speeding up a little. The whole time I keep saying “keep going”. Then there is a wall separating me from my neighbor’s apartment. I will myself to go through it.

Inside the wall is dark and longer than I thought it will be. I expect to enter neighbor’s room, but no. I emerge in a small room, I feel like its underground. Looks like something you would find in Italy - a cellar type of place. The room is whitewashed and the paint has fallen off in some places. You can see masonry underneath. I’m standing up now.

I don’t like this place. In a hurry to get out of there, I forget to RC or stabilize. By the way, I usually forget to do that when entering an LD by WILD. I go through the nearest wall and I visualize a nice beach behind it. But no, there is another room similar to previous one. I feel a need to get out.

I look to my right and there is a two wing glass door, with one side wide open. There is a street at night behind it. I decide to exit here. By the time I get to the door, I’m already flying. Just like I used to in my previous LD, but not in my very last one. I hover couple of feet over the street. Look up at the sky and see the moon. As I look better, I open my eyes and I’m awake in my bed. RC couple of times in disbelief that it’s over. But it’s over. I get up to write it down.

DR at 7:18am
A girl from church charity comes to the house and gives a boy and a girl living there some swimsuits. As I’m putting them away, I notice, that they change pattern and colors as I hold them. Decide to go and show it to people in the house. I show them the swimsuit, then hide it behind my back and when we see it again, it looks completely different. We are all amazed.

The lady in the house bought some old furniture and I notice, there are some bad forces associated with them. There is a lady, I don’t really remember what I have done to her, but we fought and next thing I see, she is floating in a canal with green water and some algae growing on the sides. She is looking at us and smirking, as if she wasn’t hurt.
A delivery guy brings another piece of furniture. He walks straight to the kitchen a pours himself a shot of vinegar. I told the lady, she has to send the furniture back.

I’m trying to sleep and LD.

Then I’m standing in front of some cages made of walls. First cage has a boarded-up window. I poke at it with a stick. An old, really dirty guy opens the board unexpectedly.
Next cage has two lions behind a screen window. I also poke at it.

Monday, Dec.19, 2011

DR at 7am.
I'm talking to two girls, we are in US. One of them is going home, but wants to return here. So I start explaining to her in detail, how to get visa and how to proceed (the info I gave her is exactly right IWL).
- Someone has a store. I'm in it, but I have nothing to do with the store. In walks some kind of a law enforcement person. The other person in the store tells me to identify myself to the officer. I get really mad and I tell her, that we are not in some police state (and I name couple of countries), where people are afraid of police, like in the country I grew up in. I proceed to say, that if the officer want's me show some ID, she can ask me herself.

Tuesday, Dec.20, 2011
I'm somewhere with someone in building with windows on the left side (looks like building of a bank in NZ).
I did remember more, but didn't right it down in time.

Sunday, Dec.18, 2011.

Some twins were mentally ill. I was carrying my stuff in a laundry basket.

Neighbors kid, who is all grown up now, got out of jail and pulled a gun on someone at the corner grocery store. We got away from there and called cops. We took refuge in and abandoned building nearby. Watched it all happen from there.

Mon.12/12 night
some dreams but no recall

Tue.12/13 B-100 at 4pm
long dream but no recall

Wedn.12/14 nothing

Thur. 12/15

DR 2:28am - something about LDing

8am - I'm in a forest campground with family. There is a cabin with small kitchen/common room and 2 bigger bedrooms. Logs are brown. More people are sitting in the kitchen. Restrooms are outside.

Someone tells me to go get batteries f/my camera? I go this tiny shack - there is a counter, and behind it some small shelfs with some bread items. Guy behind the counter is unloding stuff from box on the ground. I ask him if he sells batteries - he does not.

I walk outside but take the wrong exit - there is a yard with someone there. I appologise and find the right door out. I'm walking under some trees, it looks like its getting dark. But little bit ahead of me, there is a beautiful tree all lit up by sunshine. Pretty fall colors. I notice some people on a hill far from us looking down at us with binoculars. I fold my fingers around my eye. I know it's not binoculars, but I get a surprise, when for a split second I can see them clearly.

I have a feeling, I can see a big, futuristic or just modern town to the right through fog.

Dec. 9 Fri
-I'm in a really big mansion - the people are not home. I'm preparing dinner table with someone and chef G.R. is cooking!
-My friend M is sleeping over, we get up very early, my dad is not happy about her, mom made big breakfast

Dec.10 Sat
took GM 4mg + 300mg Choline at 3:45 am
went straight back to bed to try for a DILD - nothing
DR 5:06
Family friend J is visiting, sitting at kitchen table, getting ready for his trip - I bring him a DVD for the trip, so he can watch it when gets bored

Dec.11 Sun - nothing

Dec.7,2011. Bed 11:45pm. No supplement at bed time.

3:30am - no dream, or no recall
4:50am - I'm in house on RD street. We all sleep in different rooms. There is a star wars flying machine (one that young Luke piloted in the race to be freed from slavery). It makes a turn before it hits us and crashes into a neighbors house across the back yard.
Then we are in a town at night and my brother is in a race. Last discipline is swimming in a pool. I get in the water to cheer him up, he is tired.
My cousin brings some food - halves of bell peppers and grapes, but the fruit has been already eaten from it. There is a neighbor that IWL doesn't live there anymore.
I find my old pencil holder from school and decide I'll use it from now on.
Lots of people are going on a trip in colony of cars, I'm on a bus. There is a grey warship at the dock, 2 soldiers in camo, all dirty from white dust are impacting the dust into cubes and loading it on the ship with conveyor belts. As we arrived, they had some plants in planters ready for us to plant them outdoors.

WBTB 6:50am -7:45am GM 4mg + 300mg choline
Nothing. Lots of noise from outside. Couldn't fall asleep. Will take it next time at 4 am.

Dec. 5,2011 - B-Complex 50mg at 11:26 pm
bed at 2am

DR - something about fam in where I used to live

Dec.6, 2011 - no supps, bed at 12 am

DR - whole class went to get immunization, but I had a hidden agenda - wanted to get some testing done to catch somebody on the east coast

DR- I'm an alien arriving to earth? The FBI is already searching for me. Some friends have arranged hiding places for me and as I fly through the forest, I hide in a foliage in a middle of a trunk of a big tree. Then I'm on a sidewalk with friends and we all project fake images of ourselves. The agents trying to act inconspicuous are walking by on a sidewalk ogling us. I think we are fooling them and they think we are pretty blonds and they want to get into a jacuzzi with us.

DR - we are flying with friends to Australia. In the air we see an airplane that I recognize to be Australian Coast Guard with pretty aussie flag.

Dec.4,2011. Today, I got up at 6:48am, WBTB at 7:48am.

Don't recall much.
I was at home in SK. There was an aquarium, I guess we neglected to take care of it, because when we discovered it much later, it was overgrown and there were some fantastic animals living it. Like two huge - 3 feet long millipedes, multicolored, beautifull, but they gave me creeps. All kinds of different lifeforms. It's funny, this is not a first dream I have had about overgrown aquarium.

I'm very happy today - I get to update my LD count to 6. It was very short and remembered it when I woke up from it, but didn't write it down, because I was trying to WILD for 3 hours and this LD happend in a micro sleep somewhere in a midle of my effort. Then I forgot about it and I just remembered it almost 4 hours later. Imagine my surprise and my happiness

I slept from 12:30 am till 6:10am, got up for an hour and went back to bed to WILD.

So I'm walking down this town. It's an older, european town, especially to church tower I can see in the distance. I'm walking on a street level, but I see the town as a big 3D map, kinda in an angle infront of me. Then I think to myself that I would see better from birds eye view and raise my arms like a superman and without any effort I take off at an angle and fly over this town at very comfortable, leisurly pace. When I get up there, the beauty of the towns strikes me and I'm telling myself "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming" and feel the excitement build. [realized I'm dreaming while flying]

Then I woke up and continued my effort to recreate yesterday's incredible morning with great WILD elements.

[I have been playing GTA and I have been dreaming GTA for almost every night, but can't recall any specifics, untill today - I had a family business - ambulance services]- this was before my WBTB.

After WBTB - I was on a pleasure boat ride, that looked more like a simple fishing boat for 3-4 people, when we noticed it's filling up with water. Nobody got worried, but we started to make "floaties" for kids from pieces of wood and string. Then we realized, they are heavy and took them off to be used more as a flotation device - the one you just grab onto. Suddenly the boat is bigger and I'm still inside, just now making my way out and as I do, I can feel the boat is tilting more and more. I'm not worried, I know I'll get out ok and no one else was left inside, so I don't feel bad.