non-lucid

This was a few days ago, I forgot to type it down, but it seems resurfacing.

It's at night. I walk into a house. I walk fast through a room. I need to get to the other side of the house to pick up what in my mind looks like my work bag. All the rooms are illuminated, but as I'm going without stopping, I'm turning on all the light switches. Lights turn on. I'm scared. I know I can't let that be known, or that scary thing will know that I know and it will show itself. I walk through 4-5 rooms in a straight line. When I get to my bag in the back of the last room, I realize now I have to make the same trek back and I'm struggling not to run and scream in fear. I'm kicking myself why I even went there, why I didn't prepare my bag at the front door, why I waited till night time to go get it, why I even agreed to go and get it. Why didn't I just said no.

I get out and my mom, who was waiting in a car is already coming towards me. Looking for me, because I took longer than she thought I would. When she see me coming, she turns and I'm following to the car. But it's harder and harder for me to walk, as if invisible force was drawing me back to the house. I reach my arm and cry for her help to grab it and help pulling me forward. I was so scared.

Bed at 8":30 - 3:30am

Very detailed and long dream.

I'm on alien planet with someone. We are intruders, if they caught us, we would be in trouble. Investigating something going on. Or we just kinda fell into this situation and trying to get out.

Underground facility. Lots of civilians and scientists. Some are looking at us, knowing we don't belong there. Me and my female friend walk by some containment bio suits and decide to put them on so they don't recognize us. Lots of corridors, doors, bright rooms with medical looking scientific machines and tools. Something big is goin on.

We come to a place where a short, wide lift is taking people to the surface. We realize we need to get to the surface to escape, but also that the bad thing that's happening to civilians is on the surface. They are taking them there for some experiment disguised as something else. Something about mothers and having babies.

We get a care package which I first didn't want to get, but my friend puts it in front of her face so they don't recognize us. There is some drink with a straw in it too, so it makes it not very suspicious.

Whoa, 14 days since last entry : (

Finally recall tonight that I can actually put into words, haha.

1. I'm in my childhood house, but I don't know it at that time. In my brothers room. I'm swinging around and thrusting with a big, toy pirate sword. Two kids are looking at me. I say something like "this time, that person won who didn't win yet". One of them asks "so that second kid won?" And I say "nope, me again". Haha

2. I'm on doctors table. People are getting shots. It's my turn. I watch how the doc picks from a set of needles that are secured in a pouch, kinda like tools would be. He picks the biggest one. Actually, it's a she. She doesn't want me to straiten my arm out, just pokes me few times in the elbow area. Someone tells her to do it differently, because she is taking chunks of my skin off and I look and it's bloody.

3. - There were other dreams, feels like work, again. Dont recall that one, but happy with tonight.

Last night bed 9pm - 4:20am

Yesterday there was an ad - one of those videos that go fast to show you a lot in a short time. So it was a video of making chicken calabrese. Looked good!

DREAM
I made chicken calabrese. Stuffed with cheese and something else. We were all eating it. My dad came home later and also had some.

Last night bed at 9pm - 4:30am but couldn't fall asleep till well into 11 pm

DREAM

I'm at work. We need to move boxes and fix things. Director asks me to do stuff so I'm running around with a small black shopping cart, putting boxes in their right places.

DREAM YESTERDAY

I'm going to school on my bicycle. Ground is covered in deep snow, with tracks left by cars. It's a bit melted and so hard to go through. I see people cutting through a walkway between tall buildings, but I keep going, then turn left to my school. But the road is blocked by police with some K-bars. Now I know why everybody was cutting through the other way. I find a place where I can lift my bike over and I continue.

At school, a very common theme is not being able to find my class. I'm wandering the building, up and down the stairs, asking everybody, checking the rooms, but I cant find where they are. It's already into second lesson, and I'm still not in the class.

Last night bed around 8:30 pm - 4:30am

DREAM 1
I'm somewhere outdoors. There is a strange looking swimming pool, with slanted, concrete sides, with grass growing from between the slabs.

A kidnapper arranged 6 or 9 tied up girls in the slopes, with spaces between them. They are soon unconscious and slip into water. I know he doesn't want them to die, so even when I see them with mouth submerged, I somehow know or hope that they are gonna be ok.

Now I'm standing in some other pool. It has beautiful turquoise water with gentle waves. I put my head at water level and all I can see is this gorgeous water. I tell myself I'll have to take a picture of this so I remember it and I can dream about it.

Later I'm in a big city bus. Have a feeling it's NY. I tell the black woman bus driver about the girls in the pool. Then she whispers them to another passenger who is getting off, so they can alert the police.

Some kids in the back of the bus are cold, so I find some blanket and a comforter and give it to them.

Bed 8:30pm - 3:20 am

DREAM 1
Few of us have some luggage going on a luggage belt, so we decide to follow it as not to lose it. We get on a belt. I'm not sure if it's safe, more likely not safe. I see a guy sitting in front of me, so I assume the belt tunnel is not gonna get too low. But I still almost lay down as not to have my head sticking out.

There is a lady standing by the belt as we go by, kinda smiling understandably, so I'm reasonably sure it's gonna be safe. Even if the sign says there is a wrapping machine with some blades coming up.

DREAM 2
I'm in a warehouse. Someone is coming to visit so we suppose to clean it up. So someone takes some heavy equipment and pushes the whole isle over to the wall, so a new, clean isle got pulled in it's place. Done, haha.

DREAM 3
I'm sitting on top of some high box or cabinet. I'm all dirty, vaguely remembering that I had to escape through some muddy water or something.

I remembered this later on.

DREAM fragment:

We are establishing a family business and they are deciding who from the outside will be part of it. I'm worried if I will be included and I ask them about it. I think the answer was "yes".

Last night, bed at 6:50am

I took 3x 15 mg (6%) L-dopa at time of bed

Had lots of dreams, but I had that for the last week or so. So can't tell it was because of L-dopa.

DREAM at 9:03pm
Something about group called Dreamers Against Trump.

DREAM 11pm
Paying for photo ops
Driving heavy truck

DREAM 3:15am
I'm in a basement of a 1-2 story house. Looking out the small window with 2 kids, boy and a girl. There is some work being done outside. A bulldozer is pushing ground near the house and somehow he pushes a huge pile of dirt too close to the house. It makes the corner buckle and shift and a metal bars above the window come down. Just before it did, I yelled at the kids to get out. It I didn't, they would have been killed.

I'm outside yelling at the operator what the heck did he do, being so careless.

Then I'm on a street in Latin America, sitting in the middle of the road in a residential neighborhood. People walking around, kids playing and sitting around. I figure if I want to be friends with them, I should attempt to get to know them and talk. So I ask a girl sitting near me what's her name. Julia, she says. And she cuddles with me. (my grandma just passed away and her name is Julia).

Bed 8:45 pm

DREAM 1 10 pm

I'm looking at the skies with some others, trying to see the meteorites someone mentioned. First there are only stars, but then we see a meteorite and it's flying at us. It zooms over our heads, we quickly turn around and see it fall near by, making a big fireball on impact. I ran there to collect some meteorites. We were in US, but meteor fell in Canada.

But I start to see more fires in the neighborhood. I stop in front of a house that has corner of the yard and the front lawn on fire because of broken gas pipes. I start yelling fireeee in my native language. Then I realize we are in Canada, so I start yelling in english.

Little later after the event, people start lining up and joining militia. There are several groups and none have good weapons. And when I got back home, I had a new cat that was abandoned in Canada and it looks exactly the same as one I have now. They were twins.

DREAM 2 at 3 am

I'm buying a ticket for a train going to Budapest. I notice one of the T's advisors has a ticket to same booth as I do. When I board, I get to my compartment and there is a suitcase and clothes all over the place. I put my stuff neatly on one seat/sofa. I notice the cables to the internet and other media are brand new and tools and pieces of cables are all over.

In another part of a train, I have a seat number 4, but there is no TV in front of it, so I sit/lay in another seat. Some of my former classmates are there too. We are talking about how long this train ride is, why do we get to Budapest at 11 pm.

In another compartment, we put down pillows and blankets in front of our numbers to prepare for bed.


EDIT
I was just watching TV and a car with bicycle attached to the back of it came on. That reminded me of this dream from last night:

I'm riding my bike up the long hill, from the old theater to the city square where buses used to be. I look back and a guy is running up the hill. I think maybe he is running after me and I better keep an eye on him. As I think that, it really looks like he is running after me and when we reach the top, he is almost at my bike. I turn around with the bike and I wonder how come, since the momentum is taking me forward but now the bike is sideways and even backwards, how is it gonna hurt when I fall down. I yell at him to scare him away and at the same time I am whooshed in the air, spinning and turning still on the bike. Weird sensation of motion and not understanding how is it possible. Feels like transition motion, but I don't know it during the dream.

Nap soon after coming home from work.

DR:
I finished my work and still had 2 hrs from my shift. Me and my boss are stumped because that's the opposite of reality, kinda joking that I could go home. I decide to check on things that I don't have time for every day because of time constraints. I'm finding items in all kinds of strange places, expired long time ago and I'm pulling them off.

Nap yesterday.
I'm at home, house I grew up in. I'm trying to change some light bulbs in the living room that burned out. Many lights are not working. Finally one in the kitchen works. I'm sorry I didn't start turning them on earlier, because by then it's getting dark and I'm a bit scared.

Now I'm still feeling like I'm at home, but I don't recognize the house. My 2 cats in another room suddenly start to growl at some noise by the door. Someone just walked in. I yell at my dad in another room if he is home, that someone is in the house. I run to the kitchen and I'm grabbing a metal rod sitting in the sink, hoping it's a baseball bat. But it's just a shower curtain rod and I'm wondering if it's gonna be too light. I grab another rod for my dad.

I wake up and not a moment too soon, because this was turning into a nightmare.

Last night bed 8:40pm

I'm on alien planet, in a huge, modern building that is still partially under construction. I'm holding a tiny person in my hand, close to my chest. I don't want others to know it's a person. Some huge construction that's over the water outside the window is coming crashing down. I rush to the window and watch in amusement. I realize these are the "rings" someone was talking about.

Walking to few narrow, modern, metal, automatic doors. One leads to an office. People look at me and I back out. I end up in a large elevator. I have a few mental images of some distant places and I'm suppose to pick where to go. The elevator, which I now learned is a distance transportation device, like a shuttle, stops on a planet. Looking outside, I see rusted buildings, people dressed in worn out clothes, kinda military-ish. I ask myself if I want to get off here or in the next place. Because this one looks like they have war going on. But we get out.

Had 7-10 dreams. Every time I woke up I remembered 2-3.

Wine sellers and Deal grabbers

Shopping for 20x70 binoculars for my dad - detailed - monocular, clock on the building

Yesterday.

I'm standing on a large white, mediterranean style patio, overlooking ocean. We are about 100 feet up in the air. The distand shoreline can be seen directly ahead of us.

I hear a large jet above and it's engines give sound like the thrust was reversed. I look up and say "don't fall". The large BA/TWA jet makes a turn back to the land and starts falling down fast in a tight spiral. It makes a huge splash. I look down at the water and expect to see some large waves and sure enough, they come and hit the wall on the right.

1/28/2017

Bed 7pm – still sick since tuesday when I got back from europe

DR 9pm

Ophelia came to visit me. I wanted to ask her why she came and why she left us and didn’t talk, but I decided to just let her take the lead and do and say or not do and not say whatever she wants.

She started talking, not mentioning the past. Almost as if nothing happened. But I knew that it was on her mind and she is not sure how I will react.

Rest is gonna be in my personal DJ.