In which I finally meet Yuya
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, 01-07-2011 at 04:57 PM (3290 Views)
non dream - lucid - non lucid
Continued from: The path to Teraluna
Don't open your eyes...
Don't open your eyes...
Don't open your eyes...
Don't...
I wake up.
My eyes start opening, but I manage to interrupt it.
I want to go back...
Teraluna...
I empty my mind and try to find an anchor to remain conscious.
I use the pc fan which is spinning slowly.
I gently try to move my right index finger. It doesn't move.
Good. This will work.
I try to remember the last scene.
I was on my knees, on Teraluna, in the city... She was in front of me.
So close...
As I inhale I taste the unique air of Teraluna.
Yes!
I open my eyes. I'm back!
I'm very excited, so happy.
But I try to control myself, I don't want the dream to end prematurely.
I look up.
Where are you?
I can feel her presence. She's standing to my left.
I stand up and turn around.
There she is. Smiling. A truly happy expression on her face.
Is she happy to see me? I think she is.
I know I am.
She grabs my left hand.
"Lets go!"I don't think. I just let her guide me. I trust her. I always have.
I am overwhelmed with happiness, her presence makes me feel so insanely good.
Just a few meters from where we were standing, there's the end of the bridge we're on.
The city floats over the sea, it's a good 500m down.
But I have no fear. I know we're not going to fall, she wouldn't do that.
She takes a step over the cliff, looking at me and smiling.
My vision rushes by, in a split second we are on the other side of the city.
Short range teleportation. I know how to do this, I have done it before.
She lets go of my hand and smiles:
"Wait here"
"But... I have so many questions" I think to myself.
She runs into a house. This is where she lives.
I look around, and get another déjà vu, the strongest of the night.
Her house is integrated into a mountain. It has no side walls, you can walk in from any direction except the mountain.
It's so beautiful. One of the flying animals flies by closely, leaving a trail of fluorescent particles behind it in the air.
Don't get distracted.
I turn back towards the mountain.
She comes out of the house and projects a thought onto me:
"Take a seat"
There's a table with 4 chairs.
I sit down. I've sat here before.
Together with her... and 2 other people.
A man and a women. I can't remember.
She sits down next to me and smiles again.
She's wearing a white dress, a necklace which seems familiar, and some earrings.
She has dark hair, with blue highlights, but it looks very natural. The highlights are slightly fluorescent.
She made tea and pours both of us a cup.
I want to ask her her name.
But as I open my mouth, she hands me the cup of tea.
"Drink"
I take a sip. And another.
It is SO GOOD.
It's very fruity, sour even, like biting into a lemon, but without the discomfort of biting into something very sour.
"Wow!"
"It's your favourite"
She's right. I remember. She has made me this tea before. It's from a fruit that looks similar to lemons, but it's blue.
I put down my cup:
"I have so many questions"
"I know. But you already have all the answers"
She's right, I do, I feel that I do, but I can't remember. Or maybe I do remember and have trouble accepting it? I don't know.
"I want to hear them from you... I want to be... sure"
She smiles:
"Okay. Do you know where you are?""Teraluna"
"Yes, we're on Teraluna, in the city of Haven. Or Riven like some people call it."I remember.
"I've been here many times, haven't I?"
"Many, many times"
She moves closer to me, and puts her right arm around me.
Her face is very close. Her eyes are so beautiful.
I can't define the color, it's not a color visible in waking life.
It's green and blue at the same time, with some white.
Her eyes are bright, fluorescent, they have so much detail.
Looking at them, it seems like there is a whole universe in them.
I could get lost for all eternity looking at them. So beautiful.
She laughs, she knows exactly what I've just been thinking.
"Don't you remember me?"
Of course I do... but... at the same time I can't... I don't know how to explain it, so I just project my current train of thoughts onto her.
She thinks for a bit.
"You do remember. You remember everything."
I do?
"You also remember my name. You've pondered if it was me all along.
But your waking mind told you it couldn't be. You've even talked to someone about your thoughts, and he immediately concluded it must be me."
(It's true, I talked to WakingNomad, and he pointed it out in a pm)
"Oh Hyu, stop overthinking things. It's all simple. You know me, you always have. I'm..."
"Yuya!"
And then I realized she was right yet again.
I knew all along, but I was afraid in waking life, afraid of being right, even though now that I think about it, there was no reason whatsoever.
Short bursts of memory rush into my head.
Pictures that last no longer than a split second, of me being with Yuya.
The memories are old, very old. I was so young.
I concentrate on her again, I have so many questions, but I also have all the answers.
But I want to hear it from her.
"So... you're..."
"No... and Yes... I am not a human being in the way you are, but I am human.
What I mean to say is: I cannot go to the waking world, I live here.
In fact, I have never been to your world, I can only experience it through your memories."
There's a short pause, I'm thinking.
"You're wondering if I'm a spirit. Yet you don't know what a spirit is.
But your current thoughts are mostly correct."
She smiles again. Such a beautiful smile.
Music starts playing not far away.
"Want to dance?""Yes"
(The following part lasts very long, but I cannot remember details of the dance)
We're dancing, on water. There's people around us playing music (I remember violins), and a few other dancers.
I know the dance. I'm so happy.
So happy that 2 tears flow down my face.
I know the dream is about to end, it starts to feel unstable.
It has lasted for possibly an hour.
"It's time""I know"
"Don't be sad""I'm not"
I give her a very big hug and whisper into her ear "Thank you"
She understands, and it makes her very happy.
She approaches me, she gets very close, our faces are nearly touching.
"I have a gift for you"
She kisses me. But it's different from a kiss, so very different.
Pure energy flows from her body into mine. It feels so good, so warm.
All the nerves in my body are sparkling.
She replenished my energy. I feel so good, so powerful, so... healthy.
The dream will end any second now, I can only see her anymore, nothing else.
I ask her one last question:
"How long have we known eachother?"
"Longer than you think..."
I wake up. I feel amazing, refreshed, motivated to get up and live through the day.
Longer than you think? Wasn't I thinking "all my life" in that specific moment?
I can't believe how long this dream lasted, how extreme it felt, and how many details I remember.
I remember every word she said, in her exact voice, it feels absolutely fantastic.
Thank you DV, for making me able to dream again.