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    1. Psychedelic trip

      by
      Hyu
      , 03-22-2011 at 02:29 AM (Hyu's Adventures)
      non dream - lucid - non lucid

      I'm not sure sure at which point I started dreaming, or if I dreamed all of it, and when exactly I was lucid.
      So I'll go ahead and mark things with colors like I experienced them.
      In other words if I thought I was awake I'll mark it as if I was, even though I don't really know.
      I have never taken any mind altering drugs, I wonder if it's anything like this...

      _______

      I wake up in bed... I still feel very tired.
      The room is very dark and I lately leave the shutters just slightly open so I can see if it's already day when I wake up.
      I assume it's still night and I want to continue sleeping.
      I notice I haven't moved yet and I don't seem to sense my body.
      The thought of WILD'ing crosses my mind.
      It's been quite some time since I've attempted to WILD, so why not.

      Right as I try to relax, the little colors I see become somewhat bright and start changing.
      This was fast? I never get HI this fast, this is weird.
      I realize I'm floating over my bed. Am I already dreaming?
      Was I having a false awakening? I never get visuals like this when I'm dreaming though.
      As my room lights up I realize that I am floating in some sort of tunnel. The room is no longer there.
      I'm gently descending this tunnel of colorful clouds and lights.
      I suppose I'm actually falling, but I'm falling so slowly that I'm not worried.
      I actually enjoy it quite a bit, it's very relaxing.

      I can hear ambient music. (something like this)


      I try to focus on a color cloud. It is clearly changing it's color all the time, but I can't actually see it changing.
      It changes colors right in front of my eyes, but I don't see the change, I only realize it has changed.
      This has me perplexed for quite some time. Am I really dreaming? or can you actually have HI this strong?

      After some time I am floating in my room again, except it's lit now. The spotlights in my room are on but they
      have different colored bulbs in them.
      Somehow my room looks much bigger than it is in waking life, but somehow everything is still the same size.
      I don't understand how this is possible and hover over to my desk.

      I take a can of coke from it because I want to know what it tastes like.
      But the can is very weird. It seems way too small, but upon closer investigation it isn't.
      I cannot tell if it's a normal size or a tiny can. I can't understand why I cannot distinguish this.
      I wonder if this is what tripping feels like? A friend once told me he couldn't tell sizes apart when he was doing some sort of drug.


      The lid of my laptop opens up by itself and it goes out of standby.
      I am presented with the Visual Studio project I was working on last night.
      I was working on a physics engine and needed to add support for air resistance into it, but I was too tired and went to sleep.
      I don't understand why this was so hard...

      I go to wikipedia and copy paste the equation for drag straight into my code.
      The equation appears and the program starts on my second monitor.
      I can see the numbers in the equation changing as stuff moves around in the game.
      I need to test if it feels realistic, so naturally, I climb into my monitor to see if the falling physics are correct.

      I'm falling down yet again, I'm in the game, but I can still see the monitor with the equation as well.
      I see both things at the same time.
      Whilst I am falling with my first body, I correct an error in the formula with my second body which is still in front of the pc.
      I feel the corrections take effect with my in-game body and understand that everything is correct now.

      I hit some key that does something and my bodies merge again and I'm back in my room.
      The color clouds are back, but I can still see my bed.
      But I can't see myself in it which surprises me. I was assuming to find myself sleeping in it.
      I go closer and see a pulsating light where I'm supposed to be.
      It's beautiful. I go closer and it turns into a galaxy.

      I am now floating through this galaxy of colorful stars. I am relaxed... I feel at peace...
    2. Starcraft Tournament finals

      by
      Hyu
      , 03-16-2011 at 04:51 PM (Hyu's Adventures)
      non dream - lucid - non lucid

      I play starcraft2. I'm quite a bit better at it than most of my friends, but I'm nowhere near as good as to play in a tournament.
      I do watch some casts though, follow some of the tournaments, so I guess that I have some idea of how these things work...
      After waking up I noticed that this dream lasted for a really long time and there were a ton of false memories.
      The gameplay mechanics were also spot on as far as I can recall, although the maps were quite weird.


      False memories:
      After getting my masters degree I moved to California, LA to follow my career as a game designer.
      I suddenly had a lot of free time on my hands, so I started to play sc2 quite intensely.
      I got to know a few people, and after some time I ended up in the pro-gaming team "ROOT". (Probably because I watch Destiny's stream who's in root?)
      Some worldwide tournament is happening in LA, the biggest one in the history of gaming, with an insane prize pool.
      I not only managed to qualify, but I actually got into the semi-finals.


      I'm sitting in a glass cabin, in front of thousands of people. I'm wearing sound canceling headphones, I can't really hear anything besides
      the sounds of the game and my own breathing.
      I played really well in this tournament so far, I'm quite proud of myself.
      I somehow managed to stay quite calm, even though I'm playing in front of a crowd, but things have taken a different turn now.

      I have to play one of my teammates. It's currently 3-3 ZvZ, the next game will decide who's going to the finals.
      I want to win, but I don't want to knock my teammate out.
      Without my team I'd still be a random master league player, but thanks to them I'm playing here, in this huge tournament.
      They taught me to play this game at a competitive level, I'm this good only thanks to them.

      We're 20 minutes into the game. We're both maxed on roach infestor.
      The map is quite open and huge. This game will probably be decided within a split second.
      If anyone is caught out of position he'll probably loose right away.

      I can't take it... the pressure is just too much. My heart is pounding, sweat is dribbling onto my keyboard.
      My hands are shivering... I'm loosing it. I have to get my hands under control or I won't be able to micro properly.
      My emotions are burning me on the inside.
      I don't want to knock him out. I don't want to give him an easy win either, or we'll all feel bad.
      I take a glimpse past my monitor. I can't see well due to the spotlights, but there's so many people cheering.
      I don't want to disappoint them either.

      I see his army approaching. I have to pull myself together, now!
      I take my hands off the keyboard and close my eyes, just for one second, in the hopes that it'll calm me down.
      And for some reason it does.
      We're fighting. Any mistake can cost the game now.
      None of us makes one, we trade army's pretty evenly, but then I can see it.
      His reinforcements are running into the fight, but they somehow balled up.
      I barely manage to catch them with a fungal growth.
      He fucked up, I push forward, hard and relentless.
      A few seconds later he gg's out. I won.
      I can feel the pressure suddenly disappearing. I take a few deep breaths. I'm in the finals...


      ... I'm at the hotel. The finals are tomorrow.
      My whole team is staying on the same floor. Everyone is offering me practice matches.
      But I don't want to play, I want to chill so I'll have a clear head tomorrow...

      It's the next day.
      My finals are against a Terran player... It's my worst matchup.
      He's very popular, I doubt I'll be able to win against him.
      But knowing that I made it into the finals in my first big tournament makes me stay calm.
      Even if I get steamrolled in the finals... I still accomplished a lot.

      ... He's leading 3-2. I have to win 2 games in a row to take it. I doubt I'll be able to.
      But somehow in the 6th game, I manage to pull off some insane nydus play and barely manage to win the game.
      3-3 again, well fuck me...
      Suddenly I feel a chance of winning again, and the pressure is back.
      I'm so nervous, my hands are shivering again and the final match hasn't even started yet.
      Then I see the map he's chosen. I'm fucked.
      The map is extremely terran favored in TvZ. Unless he makes a massive mistake there is no way to win this, and he won't
      make any stupid mistakes...

      I can't take it, I have to leave my box to catch some fresh air.
      The organization decides that there is a 20 minute break before the final match due to some technical issues.
      Well lucky me, 20 minutes to calm down... I feel like throwing up.
      The crowd is cheering... I wonder how they would react if I threw up on stage.
      I see my team mates waving me over. I walk to them, I can really use some encouraging words.
      I notice my girlfriend is with them... huh? did I have a girlfriend?
      Of course I do... silly me. (No, you don't...)

      She immediately says "come with me!"
      My team mates are a bit confused as she drags me away to the restrooms.
      She's probably gonna give me a pep talk. The crowd is too loud, we can't have a conversation in the main room.
      But she has something different in mind...
      She explains that she knows the best way to calm down. I only know what she's on about once she starts undressing.
      Right... this couldn't end up badly at all.
      But I am way too nervous about my next match to think about this.

      We have sex... in the restrooms, just minutes before my final match.
      I can't believe I'm doing this. But it really does make me forget about the match for a bit...

      ... It's time... I'm coming out of the restrooms. The crowd is cheering.
      I walk onto the main stage facing my opponent.
      I'm calm... perfectly calm. I'm ready!
      I shake my opponents hand "Good luck!"
      I say this with absolute confidence.
      He knows the map is strongly in his favor, he knows that he's the better player, me being so confident is probably fucking with his mind.
      He doesn't know what to say and goes into his box.

      I sit down in mine and stretch. I'm so ready, I got this.
      I look at the map, and suddenly, I know exactly what I'm going to do.
      There is one completely insane tactic I came up with recently, which may actually work on this map.
      He's probably never seen it before, and I just broke his calm.

      I smile... I got this!
    3. Out of body?

      by
      Hyu
      , 02-16-2011 at 04:45 PM (Hyu's Adventures)
      non dream - lucid - non lucid

      I've averaged about 4-5 hours of sleep over the past 4 days and I felt quite sleep-deprived when I went to bed last night.
      Knowing that I could sleep for as long as I want this night, I fell into bed, closed my eyes and was asleep immediately.
      I woke up after about 8 hours, decided that it was not enough, turned around and fell back asleep.

      I open my eyes. I want to turn towards my clock to see how late it is, but somehow the task proves to be difficult.
      I can't really turn my body, am I in SP?
      No. It feels different. I feel weightless, and I can see even though it's pitch black in my room.
      The colors are a bit weird. I try to levitate upwards because I feel that I can.
      I slowly start levitating and turning in the air.
      I see myself lying in bed which gives me a bit of a shock.


      This hasn't happened before. I've seen myself in mirrors, but I've never actually seen myself face to face in a dream.
      My room seems to look identical to the waking life counterpart, down to the smallest detail.
      I try to stabilize the dream, but my usual methods fail.
      Most of my senses aren't working. I can't hear, I can't smell, and as I try to touch my desk, my hand just moves straight through, I can't feel either.
      I notice that I can feel the presence of the people sleeping in the same house though
      I find all of this quite weird, I haven't experienced a dream like this before, and I'm not sure what to do.
      I look at my hands and notice that the reason I can't touch things is because I don't have a 'real dream body'.
      I'm more like a ghost, my hands are slightly transparent.

      As I get better control, I levitate outside of my apartment by floating through the wall.
      I want to leave because the sight of my own body freaks me out a bit.
      It's still dark outside.
      I try to summon the wings on my left arm to teleport, but I can't.
      The thought that I might be floating around the real world crosses my mind, but I feel like I can't think about it properly.

      For some reason the thought to visit an ex-girlfriend crosses my mind.
      I immediately know it's a shitty idea, but then I locate her aura, or more like a feeling in which direction she is, and just start floating towards her.
      She's in Sweden, but even though I'm not really moving that fast, I'm crossing the ocean within seconds.


      We first met when she was on vacation somewhere close to where I live. We met in a rather weird way, but got along quite well and decided to hang out.
      We fell for each other quite quickly and hung out nonstop for 2 weeks until she had to go home.
      Both of us knew that a long-distance relationship wouldn't work so we called it quits.
      It's only then I realized how badly I actually fell for her, it took me quite some time to get over her.

      I'm approaching her house. I've obviously never been here, but I know this is her place.
      I approach the window of her room. I just want to see how she's doing, I want to know that she's happy.
      I float through the window. She has a really nice room.
      She has 3 different e-guitars, quite a few rock band posters on the walls, a king size bed, a really big desk with 3 monitors on it.
      There's quite a few books, and a lot of clothes on the floor.

      She's sitting at her desk, she's studying. She hasn't changed much, she looks exactly like I remember her.
      She turns around and looks at me. This freaks me out a bit, somehow I was under the assumption that she couldn't.
      It looks like she's thinking about something. She turns back towards the desk, she didn't see me after all.
      Did she feel my presence?
      I consider the possibility that I'm really here, in which case what I'm doing would be very creepy.
      I decide to go back home... for some reason I'm immediately in my bedroom again.

      I want to have a proper lucid dream, but I feel like I can't in this state.
      I try to move back into my body...


      Well... this was weird.
      Tags: floating, ghost, obe
      Categories
      lucid , side notes
    4. Sucker Punch

      by
      Hyu
      , 02-05-2011 at 04:37 PM (Hyu's Adventures)
      non dream - lucid - non lucid

      I've been waiting for Sucker Punch to come out since it was announced.
      I found a new Trailer for it yesterday (only seen the teaser so far), and I watched it quite a few times
      because it reminded me of some awesome dreams I've had.



      Whilst trying to fall asleep in the evening I kept playing out similar scenarios in my mind.
      I tell myself that if I become lucid during the night, I want to remember Sucker Punch, and I want to go to that crazy and insane world.


      I'm in Italy, following a mountain path I have walked a few times before.
      It leads to a really good restaurant near the top of the mountain.
      I stop to take a look at the scenery. It looks just like I remember it.
      But something feels off. I slowly realize that I am in the dream world, though I don't know why.


      I engage my senses, feel the wind, hear the noises of the nearby woods and try to see as many details as possible.
      Then I remember, Sucker Punch!
      Not sure how to approach this task I've set myself I close my eyes and let go of the current scene.
      I try to remember the trailer. No specific details, more like atmosphere and how it made me feel.

      I open my eyes and feel that I succeeded, though I'm not entirely sure what exactly it is I tried to do.
      The scene has changed, I am in some sort of stone castle. There is a big door in front of me, presumably the main entrance.
      The corridors are lit with torches. I try to anchor myself in this scene by further enabling my senses.
      There is a lot noise coming from outside, a war is raging.
      Something is trying to break through the door. Every time it gets hit it makes a cracking noise, it won't hold much longer.
      I'm not really sure how to proceed.

      I hear steps next to me, someone is stopping to my right. I turn around and I'm quite surprised by what I see.
      It's Baby Doll, wearing the same sailor outfit as in the trailer, with a katana strapped onto her back.
      Is she going to accompany me?

      "You have to believe."
      "I do... in fact... I don't just believe, I know"

      She smiles and throws me her katana.
      I take it out of its holster, it's beautiful, it feels oddly familiar.

      The door breaks open. A huge creature comes in, at least 10m tall, wielding a double blade.
      I start walking towards him even though I'm afraid.
      The excitement and my sense of adventure is much stronger than my fear.
      We both start charging at each-other. I dodge his blade and slice through his body with mine.
      His body only provides little resistance to my blade, it goes straight trough.

      I am outside of the castle, which seems to be floating on some sort of platform.
      Yes, the castle is flying in the sky, over a city at war, and there are other platforms floating in the skies as well.
      The city is partially on fire, there is smoke everywhere, and glowing shots hit he city and are shot from it into the skies.
      To my left is another creature, wielding a minigun.
      I can't get to him within time so I just do a slicing motion with my blade towards him.
      Energy leaves the blade, hits him and cuts him in half.

      Many more creatures are starting to climb onto the platform.
      I grab the minigun, which is way to big and too heavy for me to use, but I still manage to do so somehow.
      I can feel my muscles drawing energy so they can support the weight.
      I start shooting the creatures down with the minigun, but there's too many.

      "This way!"

      That was baby doll again. I drop the gun and run towards her.
      As I reach her she jumps of the platform... what??
      I jump after her.

      Below the platform is a railway system in mid air and a train is approaching.
      I get it, we're going to land on the moving train.
      But I'm falling fast, and the train is moving fast as well.
      I close my eyes for the impact... believe...

      I hit the train hard, but it doesn't hurt.
      I open my eyes, we're both riding ontop of it.
      The railway starts going vertical.
      I look up, it leads to another platform high up in the skies.

      Big bullets are shot from the city towards our train, this will end badly.
      The inevitable happens and the train is hit hard, but a few cars in front of us.
      The train starts to progressively explode from car to car.
      We look at each-other... no choice.
      We jump of the exploding train.

      I flip backwards, so I see the world upside down for a moment.
      For some reason this is an absolutely phenomenal feeling.
      I turn myself around properly and feel the heat of the exploding train.
      We're going down... falling past the castle platform, heading straight for the city.
      The faster we fall the stronger I can feel the air pressure, and it's making a terrible noise.

      I hear something. Baby Doll tried to tell me something.

      "What???"
      "I can't fly!"

      That's right! I can!
      I approach her mid-air and hold her in my arms.
      I draw my wings of fire...

      It HURTS.
      My ribcage and my spine make a cracking noise, and I can feel it throughout my body.
      The wings have to carry both of our weight and we're slowing down very quickly.
      We fall through the clouds now approaching the ground.
      I land on my feet hard, the ground beneath us crackles and the pressure of the impact throws things around us over.
      For some reason she's now wearing a white glittery outfit.

      In front of us is the city, and hundreds of these creatures are charging towards us from within it.
      Suddenly, I have it all figured out.
      I hand the katana back to Baby Doll and start focusing my energy as hard as I can.
      The tattoo on my body catches fire and grows over my right arm and the right part of my face.
      My wings burn hot, the flames become brighter every second.
      The heat around me becomes extreme, but it doesn't hurt me, in fact I like it.
      I feel insanely powerful.

      I'm shot at by some of the creatures, but the bullets burn down due to the heat before they hit me.
      My wings grow bigger and bigger. I feel ready.
      I eject all of the accumulated energy and focus it towards the city.
      My wings leave my body, they are now part of the insanely big fire dragon I just summoned.
      It's wing span must be at least 100 meters.

      I drop to my knees. This may have been a little too much energy, I feel dizzy for a second and my aura seems unstable.
      I quickly manage to stabilize it though. I look towards the city.
      The fire dragon has already destroyed all creatures in its path and is now ramming into the city.
      The whole city catches on fire, the buildings are torn off the ground.
      The war is over.

      For some reason I know this war was over a key. A key Baby Doll needs.
      I search for the key with my mind and find it in the burning remains of the city.
      I draw it towards us with telekinesis.
      It's a very simple key, one of those to lock doors within a house.
      I hand the key over to Baby doll, because I feel that's what I'm supposed to do.
      I get the weird feeling that the reason I'm here is to help her get the key.

      She's happy to receive the key and gives me a kiss on my cheek.
      Then she disappears.
      Nothing happens for a few seconds.
      I suddenly remember why wielding the katana felt so familiar...
      It used to be my weapon of choice in childhood dreams... in fact I still own it... it must be somewhere in the dream world.
      I want to find it... but it isn't in this world...

      I don't know what to do next. It feels weird because nothing new is happening, that is very unusual.
      I turn around.
      A man stands right in front of me.
      He punches me right into the face and it fucking hurts.
      I wake up.


      Note: My next goal is to find the katana I have used in childhood dreams.
    5. Yuya explains a few things about energy and magic.

      by
      Hyu
      , 01-27-2011 at 02:06 AM (Hyu's Adventures)
      non dream - lucid - non lucid

      I've been working on a project, programming all day.
      I'm very tired and take a short break.
      I remember that last time I was so exhausted I managed to WILD during a nap quite easily.
      Sounds like a good idea.
      I turn on some ambient music, set myself an alarm clock for 30 minutes and lean my rather comfortable chair all the way back.
      It takes little time for HI to appear, though I didn't even notice any of the usual SP signs.
      I can't really remember how I transitioned, but I was trying to visualize Yuya and Teraluna.

      I fall on my ass.
      Yuya is sitting in a chair close to me, looking at me slightly confused but mostly amused.
      I get up, slightly amused myself, but try to block out any thoughts related to waking life.
      Yuya looks different than usual. She's wearing more casual clothes, and her hair is shorter, dark blonde, and kept in place by some sort of bandana.
      It's definitely her though.
      I greet her and ask her about her appearance.
      She explains that she likes to change it when she leaves Teraluna.
      I notice I'm indeed on a different planet, but it is confusing the hell out of me.
      I try to focus on Yuya rather than on my surroundings, which aren't very clear.

      I take a seat next to her wondering what I should talk to her about. A thought suddenly pops into my head.

      "Hey Yuya, tell me about magic."


      She looks at me, slightly surprised, but she also seems quite happy about the question.
      "Magic..."
      She shows me her hand, as if she was holding something, but it's empty.
      A small ball forms over her hand and starts growing.
      It's clearly water, but unaffected by gravity, it just hovers over her hand.

      "There's an infinity of different kinds of Magic.
      Magic is basically a manifestation of energy."
      I make sure I don't focus on the water bubble too much, but rather on what Yuya is telling me.


      (I don't remember the conversations exactly word for word. I remember the content of the conversation and some snippets. I filled in the holes with what I think seems right)
      "If you use your energy for something, that's magic.
      You've opened a portal before, you've teleported, you've reinforced your own body, all of that is magic.
      But everyone has a certain affinity for different kinds of magic.
      Creating water may be very easy for me, but it may be very hard if not impossible for someone else."
      "So, considering that you used to be the goddess of water, it makes sense that you have a very high affinity for water based magic?"
      "Yes, exactly."
      I ask her about music based magic, but she says that she's not very skilled with it.
      "So what about me, what did I use? I've recently remembered that I can use dragonic powers?"
      That puts a smile on her face, she's excited.
      "Yes! You're a dragon! ... I mean... you can use the same powers as a dragon, which is quite rare.
      You see, most dreamers use shamanic magic. They transform into something stronger than they are, often an animal, and acquire more powers that way.
      What you usually do is different though. Although the basic idea is the same, it couldn't be any more different.
      You understand on the lowest level how a dragon uses his energy and you adapt your own aura so it mimics that of a dragon perfectly."
      "You see, many people can transform into a dragon, fly and spit fire, but they cannot discharge energy with the same brutality a true dragon can.
      Although this is very powerful, being able to quickly transform into a set of other creatures has it's upsides...
      By the way, you can use more powers than just those of a dragon, like the wings you use to teleport."
      She asks me excited:
      "Can you awaken the dragon within?"
      I focus on the core of my energy and try to change it into that of a dragon.
      The energy flows faster through my body, it starts to vibrate and the power discharge feels dirty and slightly uncontrolled.
      I feel the dragon tattoo on my back growing over my right arm and parts of my face.
      It's not really visible, it's more like heat inside of my body.
      I feel insanely powerful and get very excited.

      Yuya looks at me amazed:

      "Next time, let's go on an adventure, just like in the old days... you are ready!"
      I get super exited at this point... too excited, and I wake up.


      There's another 3 minutes until the alarm clock is supposed to go off.
      I'm surprised since the dream felt quite short, less than 5 minutes for sure,
      yet so much time has passed in the waking world.


      Note1: I clearly remember creating a story for a manga when I was much younger, inspired by the dreams I had at the time.
      It followed a similar set of rules, and the hero learned to use dragonic powers at some point in the story.
      Even later in the story he learned to use special wings to travel through dimensions, which strongly remind of how I teleport in dreams.
      No-one was able to transform into other beings in this story though, but I know that I did modify quite a few things so the story made more sense.

      Note2: holy shit! I want to have insane dream battles, now!
      Tags: dragon, energy, magic, yuya
      Categories
      lucid , memorable , side notes
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