DJ of lucid goals and how it goes

I'm sitting on a train/bus of some kind. There are challenges where we collect point. I have collected 2 points. There are some challenges only girl can do so they all have 4 points each.

Notes: I watched The Silent Revolution yesterday. I think the bus/train I sat in came from there.

I'm tired and thinking if it is a dream. There are some weird patterns showing and I get a bit scared. I try to wake up but remember that it's only a dream. I try to keep myself in the dream but wake up.

I'm in a big house with some evil and good people. The evil person is able to kill us all and a good guy disables him and transform him into ash. The good guy takes the ash and throw it into a water pool next to us. The evil person survives and starts to chase us. We run away and I ask the good guy what the different fighting styles are called. He doesn't know.

Notes: My brother played a game yesterday and I saw a water pool there.

I'm in Håkanssons old TV-room where Diego lives now. It's like before Diego moved in. I'm sitting on the bed under the TV, Therese is sitting on the couch in front of me and William is sitting on the couch to my left. I watch out a window behind William. It's only plain grass and a demolition machine with a wrecking ball about 300 meters from here. It starts to swing the wrecking ball and the chain that hold it is really long. It comes against us and I start to panick. The wrecking ball destroys the wall where William was next to. William and Therese are calm. Peter comes and I know that it was he who used the machine. William and Therese have full confidnece in him. The wall where Therese was is also destroyed. William equips working clothes and starts to put up temporary fences around the house. I walk out and inspect the fence. I look at some cords that are holding the fence together and see how they tangle themselves up in some roots in the ground. I try to fix them.

Notes: Dad and I tried to call William yesterday.

I'm at a party and those who party have bad energy. They are dressed as different Batman characters such as Batman, Joker and Harley Quinn. There is a pillar where someone is tied up. It is maybe me but I'm not certain. Some of them punch the tied man and the person dressed as Harley is doing some kind of dance against the tied man.

Notes: I looked at a batman game some days ago.

I'm about to play table tennis but my racket is wrongly designed. The table tennis rubber and the layer under the table tennis rubber have changed places with each other. The racket feels heavy and I am about to rip the upper layer off. My mom is behind me and urge me not to destroy the racket. I tell her that I'm about to fix it and she is okey with me fixing it now. I rip it of and I feel how light and good it feels now. The rubber has a lot of spinn in it. There are some people next to me who are playing against a wall. I feel how heavy their rackets are even though I don't hold them. I could be one of them too.

Notes: My life just got much easier and this dream symbolises how I am the one responsible for my well being.

I'm walking in a forest with my family. Grandma E is also there. My mom holds a baby that I have never seen before. Mom walks in front of me and she starts to walk on a rusty iron floor that is elevated with some rusty iron rods, about 2 meters above the ground is a river we walk over. As I follow her on the iron floor she puts the baby on the elevated floor. We walk past the baby and leave it there. As we keep on walking the floor and rods start to wobble as we walk. I think about how we may crash down with this construction. I think about the baby and how it could be hurt. Mom is walking in a very clumpsy way so that the construction starts to wobble even more. I try to counter he wobbling with my own weight and balance. She says that I am doing a good job balancing the construction. The construction falls and I think about the baby. I'm by the river and lift the baby up from the water. It isn't sad even though it just dropped from a big fall. Recall gap. I'm holding the baby and washing it. I was able to wash it better than mom. Recall gap or new dream. I'm in a car with Gustav in the back seats. I have a hair spray and use it on my hair.

Notes: Haven't thought about grandma in a long time. The theme of saving children/babies once more shows up. Mom is sick now and is wobbling forward on her life. Maybe I can help mom balance her life so she doesn't fall? What would the baby symbolize then? Something that mom drops that I can save and wash clean? Yesterday my brother saw I movie. I watched some of it and there was a scene where a boy used hair spray

Notes: I woke up in the night and remembered the lucid and another dream. But then I forgot it when I woke up because I didn't write it down. I thought that I would remember it. From now on I'm going to suppose that all the dreams that I don't write down I will forget. Then I will probably write them down because I think my dreams are precious.

I'm walking out of Det Röda Huset and I'm under the tree. I'm lucid and know it's a dream. I lie on my back and hover over the ground backwards. The apple tree is big and prominent. The sky is purple with different layers of clouds, some of them are getting thinner and dissolving into purpleness. The quiet atmosphere is blissful and I am truly without a worry in the world. I think about how this is a dream. I imagine my real body lying in my bed and I see my sleeping face in the dream. I wonder what I want to do and fly up. I see a house with a window. I know there is someone inside so I try to break the window (my normal entrance into houses) but it's not working properly. It gets cracks but not enough. A big lady comes out from the door and tries to catch me. I lose my lucidity in the chase and I can't remember more.

Notes: I've been under that tree in really many dreams now. I am often lucid when I see it. I always get beautiful experiences when I'm lucid in Sturkö, it is an amazing place with many precious memories.

I'm walking in school and go to the guitar place. I want to see if the guitar is there. It is lying on the floor and I am feeling happy and relieved. Upon further inspectation I notice that the neck of the guitar is really thick. It is a steel-string acoustic guitar and I wonder why it got a thicker neck than a nylon-string guitar.

Notes: The school's public guitar has been missing for some days now and I often go and check if it has returned. Someone probably stole it or broke it which is sad because I really liked it.

I'm at a café with Albin. I ask him if it's a dream and he is confused. I tell him that it's nothing and that it's just a RC. I look into my plastic cup and see a straw. I take it up and wonder if I should unwrap it. I think about how it is bad for the environment if I trash it without using it. I unwrap it anyways and suck in air with it. I walk to the counter and watch the trash can and wonder if I should throw the straw. I walk out to the street with Albin and find myself in Centrum by the big hill outside Partaj.

Notes: I woke up early and didn't remember much from my dreams. I did have a strong impression that I was lucid or something like it. I remembered this dream 30 minutes after I woke up. I haven't seen Albin in a long time.

I meet Davie504 on the upper level in Det Röda Huset. I talk to him and wonder why he is here. He says that he was traveling to Germany (?) but got my letter and decided to go here on the way. We talk and decide to jam some music. I now sit in the TV room upstairs in our home and Davie sit in my room. He plays the guitar (lol) and I play the base. He plays some kind of chord progression and I play the A-minor pentatonic scale.

Notes: I haven't seen Davie in a long time. This is the first time my music playing felt realistic in a dream.

Didn't get that much sleep tonight.

I'm in the TV room upstairs and I'm talking with dad. Mom comes in and joins us.

Notes: The family except mom spent time in the TV room upstairs yesterday.

I'm in a group with some of my classmates. I remember Gabriel mostly. We walk and pick things up from the ground. I find a lot of carrots and other vegetables that I dig up. We come to a kitchen and I have already prepared a potato soup with carrots. There is supposed to be a food contest and my physics teacher Karin the judge. I prepare the soup and serve it. Alice has made a cup of water and serves it. Karin asks if she has only made a cup of water and Alice says yes in a way as if she doesn't care. They repeat this three times. The water is apparently hot and I tell Karin that I maybe should have made the soup cold so that there would be a contrast to the warm water. Karin says that it was just what she was about to tell me. Alice is putting some raspberries in a bowl and it looks very good. She puts the water on a brick and it suddenly looks professional.

Notes: The digging is just like in Rise of The Tomb Raider. The dungeon was just like the one in the game. I had a lesson with Karin yesterday.

I'm playing Zilong in in a game. I'm about to deny Lord from being taken but I couldn't because my vision is deceiving me and I can't see properly. The rest of my team comes and there is a laser beam that kills all of my team except me. I hear some voices that are complaining about how the laser got way too good in the latest patch.

Notes: I played Zilong with Diego yesterday.

Notes: I woke up 45 minutes ago and tried to remember my dreams but didn't succeed. I tried the new mantra "kom ihåg" (remember) and had a lucid on the second night. I have done more RC during daytime because I've wanted to have a lucid again. I haven't had any lucids in a very long time now.

I'm in Sturkö and do my reality check. It works perfectly but I'm only half lucid. I don't remember my dream goals but want to fly really much. I try to run and fly off but I only fall to the ground when I jump into the air. I suspect that it isn't going well because it was some weeks ago I had my latest lucid. I go to the water by the bridge and know that I will be able to fly if there is an obstacle under me that I "can't" go into (the water in this case). I jump out over the water and I am able to fly, but not very controlled. I look at the scenery and enjoy the view. I see the sun and the water in combination with the blue sky. It's like I can't get enough of it. I come across some ducks by a big stone in the water. I remember a dream when I fed some small birds and try to do the same thing here. I take out my right hand and suspect them to fly into it. Two of them try to but they are too big so only one fit. It's not as pleasant as I thought it would be. They are pretty agressive and are disrupting my calm mind.

Notes: This is what I love. Just calm flying, feeling completely free from all troubles and problems with a beautiful scenery.

I'm in a big shop with Albin. We look at different wares we want to buy. We walk to the ice cream and Albin says that a Piggelin costs 7 kr here and 8 kr at a different place. He wants to buy some ice
cream here and make a profit by selling it elsewhere. I tell him that it is a very bad deal and that he can get it much cheaper if he buys a big package. There is one with 30 Piggelines in it and the price/ice cream is 3 kr here. I tell him it is a much better deal. There is a package over the last one with 100 ice creams in it with a price/ice cream of 1.2 kr. I tell him that it is a fantastic deal and we grab a package. The package is full of frost and we can't quite see the package actually. I take away the frost and see that it is not Piggelin but a smaller twister ice cream. We put it back and walk away. I see Sezer and take up my phone. It has some weird phone case on it that looks like a balloon. I inspect my phone for a while and notice that I have really long hair. I wrap my hair around my hand that is holding the phone. New fragment. I'm in the jungle on a branch high up in a tree. I am adult and see another person that looks like me higher up but with a lot of beard. Lara Croft is above us and my other self is swinging with her in the branches. He's holding her and is doing some dangerous tricks. I'm just a spectator and doesn't have a body any longer.

Notes: My cousin bought a Piggelin four days ago. Edvard made a balloon phone case for some weeks ago. I played Rise of the Tomb Raider with Lara Croft yesterday. There is a character named Jacob in the last part that looks like me a bit. He was the other me in the jungle branches.

I'm in military training with a heavy backpack on me in the forest. There are a lot of people in front of me and two leaders just behind me. I try to run to the others but it's so heavy and hard. The leaders use a word I have never heard before that means that I will soon fail and be sent home. I am able to join the other troops in front of me. My old classmate Eric runs in front of me and he hasn't got a backpack on him. I understand that he actually doesn't want to be here and doesn't care about the rules. He turns his head around and I greet him but he greets someone else. I am ignored. We keep on running and come to a settled town with some people. There are three brown, big dogs playing with each other. Dina is running in front of me and all the troops gather in a circle. The leaders talk about something but everyone is unfocused and doesn't care.

Notes: I saw a video of military training in the forest some months ago. Yesterday I read about the Vietnam War for a school project. I thought it was very intresting and saw some army pictures. Me and Eric saw each other two weeks ago but there was a weird turn where it would be awkward to greet him so we just ignored each other.

I'm in Håkansson's house upstairs. There is trouble with Oskar. I go downstairs and see David in the kitchen. He is cleaning the table and I ask if I can help him. He says yes. I walk to the sink in order to wash my cloth. Peter comes and wants some water. I fix the water but there is an uneven pressure and Peter isn't satisfied.

Notes: I cleaned up after Håkansson's slept here some nights ago.

Woody and Buzz Lightgear from Toy Story are having a verbal fight about something. Buzz Lightgear betrays Woody and disappears. New fragment. There is an army of small Buzz Lightgears of different forms and colors. There is a Shhhhh Lightgear that hushes everyone quiet when they speak. There is a bubble Lightgear that is rolling in a bubble and much more. There are some big Buzz Lightgears that are talking to the small ones and Shhhh Lightgear is kicked out on the big ones because he hushes all the time.

Notes: The deceit from the last dream hasn't left me yet.

Notes: I woke up 15 minutes before my alarm went and made a challenge that I would be able to enter a dream before the alarm.

Two small cupcakes on a table are fighting with swords. One of them gets sliced but survives.

Notes: Haha, that was funny.

I'm in a line with smaller children. There is a leader that is calling us out one by one. The leader says "Oxygen, hydrogen... What comes next?". I am supposed to answer the question after I have run the obstacle course. I run to the course and have to go on small hinders. It seems pretty easy but I have a really bad sense of balance and almost fall all the time. When I am at the end of the course I sit down with William and watch some photos of us. There is a beautiful photo of me and William when we sit under the apple tree by the front door of Det Röda Huset in Sturkö. William is leaning against the tree and I am sitting closer to the camera and is watching up on the leaves. The leaves are really close to the ground and I could easily touch them if I streached my hand up when I sat down on the picture. The light is magical and is giving us a living feeling on the photo.

Notes: I have encountered photos of different things a lot in my past dreams. Me and my family watched some old photos of us some weeks ago.

I'm biking by Saltö to town but I'm lying with my stomach on the seat without my hands on the bicycle handlebars. It is hard to steer the bike and I almost crash with some cars because I can't follow the curves of the road very good. A kid bikes next to me and he is talking about something. We come to a playground site and there are a lot of kids playing there. It reminds me a lot of the Rosenfeldt playground. I walk into Subway that is in the place where the school actually is. There is a note on the wall that says that I have to do a cleaning task. I feel my energy disappear and I want to disappear too. I think about how I shouldn't have a cleaning task because I don't work this week. I walk out and there are Diego and Lisa (Håkansson's cousin). Lisa is jumping and is happy. I meet a monster that looks like a human but he is green and furry. He wants to hug me and I feel fear. I become semi lucid. I think to myself that if I think that he will tickle me he is going to tickle me. I can't resist the thought and he tickles me. I try to wake myself up but I jump in and out of the dream instead. I come in and out of his grip.

Notes: I saw a video of a man biking like I did a year ago.

I have a pillow that makes time go faster. Apparently it's Gustav's invention and David says that I can buy it. I say that I want to buy it and David says it costs 120 000 kr (13 500 USD). I feel bad because now I don't have any money left. I think to myself that it is worth it because this invention is amazing. I walk around and see Gustav in a room, he plays Minecraft. I think to myself that he will use my money so he doesn't need to work and that he is lazy. I walk to a factory and Klaus is there. I see some inflatable pillows and I get to know that they are wrongly designed. I notice that my pillow is one of the wrongly invented ones. I get to know that my pillow doesn't make time go faster, it is broken and sends electricity throughout your body so it feels like time goes faster. My inflatable pillow grows and attaches on me. I feel the electricity and it is painful.

Notes: I wonder what all the deceit means. Nobody has lied to me recently. 120 000 kr is important because it is the sum of my mission cost.

I set an alarm 07.00 and wanted to try to turn on my lamp and then try to sleep one hour again. I had an idéa that this would make me dream more vividly/have many dreams. I didn't recall any dreams from the night but remembered two dreams from the one hour nap.

I see my old french book in a shelf. I grab it and lie in my bed to read it. As I open it up my old french teacher Magnus enters. He asks what I am doing and I showcase my book and say that I am doing my homework. He says that I only have a C in french and that school lays a lot of money on us and that if I want to I can get extra help. New fragment. Someone is talking about how the world is going to be filled with water so that we can eat more fish. I see a big house under water as I hear this. I hear another voice that says that the water is way too cold and that it wouldn't be energy efficient. New fragment. I'm in the same room as I was before with the french book. There is a one meter long blue fish with some kind of fur on it on the floor. There is a girl that is fascinated by the fish and pets it. I pour some water on it so that it can feel comfortable. When I pour water on it I accidentaly rip the eye out from the fish. The eye falls out and fall on the floor. The eye looks like an olive. I look at the fish's eye and notice that there isn't any blood there and I wonder why. I feel really guilty and bad. Suddenly there is a grey transparent liquid coming out from the hole where the eye was before. New fragment. We have walked outside and Nellie and Sara is there. There is a big hole with water at the bottom. Nellie wants to jump into the water but she thinks it is too high to jump. She takes the stairs instead but because she is only a small child it takes a long time. I am annoyed because I am in a hurry for something. Sara takes a big sprint and tries to jump over the stair into the water but only comes halfway and hurt herself as she lands on the stone steps.

Notes: Today is the first day of school in a long time. I feel the pressure. I don't have french anymore but I think it will always be the subject that symbolizes school because it put so much pressure on me.

There is a big train and I see a group of children inside the train. There is another group of children somewhere else in the train too. The train is moving slowly and there are four guards outside the train with guns that is guarding them so they won't escape. The second group of children is talking to the first group about how the guards won't shoot the second group and that they can escape because of this. New fragment. The children are walking next to the rail. There is a spring on the rail that a child takes up and puts a trap on so that the train will break.

Notes: I read The Promised Neverland about two months ago and this reminded me of that serie.

I'm in our kitchen but it is in Japan. There are some people from church in Kristianstad there and they talk about fighting. I ask them if you can punch someone in a special way and one of them punch me that special way when I ask. He punches me so hard that I fall to the ground and can't stant up at first. When I lie on the ground I am supposed to do sit-ups. They tell me to take my hands to protect my face. The right hand is supposed to be just under the nose and the left hand over the nose. Every third sit-up I am supposed to punch the air two times. Benjamin and Samuel show me how to do it. They look very weak and they have a really hard time doing the sit-ups. I walk to the dining room and there are the Japanese family. There are some rings on the table and I look at them. They are bent in ways so you can't wear them anymore. Monica is there and she teaches me how to make a "burva" (In my dream a burva is a small paper cone). I succeed in the first try. I tell her that I will never have any use for this knowledge. She tells me that you must know these things in order to succeed in life. I say something mean about the Japanese family to dad but realizes that they might have heard me. I look around and find that no one is there. I wonder to myself why people travel the world, for example to Japan. I think that it is because humans are good to adapt. Therefore they can adapt to different countries and have a good time at different places.

Notes: The Japanese family was the rich mom and dad from the movie Parasite. We talked about Benjamin yesterday. I have just seen some bad sides of Samuel and I think that his weakness in the dream is a sign of how I view him. I often have conversations about how most things in school you learn is useless that reminds me a lot of the conversation I had with Monica in the dream.

I wake up 03.20 and try to wild but fail. It is frustrating that I can't succeed.

I had an alarm 10.00 and turned on the lamp. I wanted to remember some more of my dream so I went to my bed again and closed my eyes. I dreamt about the two next dreams after that.

My view is following my mom when she was about my age. She talks about how her seven scarfs disappointed her when she wore them. She and her famiy walk to a "trade your clothes for other cloth store". Someone of the girls is complaining about how poor they are. There is a room with different red and black striped shirts. Mom is becoming a bit crazy and grandma tell mom that she shouldn't have too many red and black striped shirts. I think it is weird to only have shirts of one style in your wardrobe. Mom already has a red and black striped shirt that looks about the same as the ones she takes. Grandma takes the shirts to the checkout and leaves two other shirts and takes mom's shirts. I get a body of my own now and walk to the exit. There is a painting on the ground about how you should not buy things if you can't afford it and a poor man that is standing alone in a store.

Notes: Mom's family was a bit poor when they were younger. I saw a poster about a store where you trade clothes for other clothes about two weeks ago. I wore a black and red striped shirt yesterday.

I'm outside our house and I am supposed to find out if the mini monsters are friendly or bad. Me and Morgan see the monsters behind a big house. The monsters comes to us and we wonder if they are evil.

I wake up 10.45

I'm by a big road and it is parted into two smaller roads. I walk to the left road and have some friends with me. There comes a wave of evil monsters and I have to protect my friends.

Notes: There was a really intense bond between me and my friends. I am fascinated of how dreams can make us believe we have known our dc:s our whole life. I watched some scary movies with my friends and cousins yesterday night. I had a dream about guns too.

I'm sitting on a chair and Linnea is doing some kind of robotic transaction and putting her stomach against mine so that my food will be properly digested. She's handling me like an object and tossing me around, it hurts some times. I walk away and there is a quiz with three answers. The question is what a tempesto is. There are three pictures with some different faces on. I think that the answer is the knight because tempesto sounds familiar to the swedish word "tempel-riddare" which means Knights Templar. The answer is correct and the picture starts to shine green to confirm that it was right. Linnea is cuddling with a man from school where I was before. I think it is a bit annoying. There are some photo albums to the right. I walk to them and see a class photo. Wencai's face is the only one I truly notice in the big crowd. I see some family albums and look inside them. I see mom's side of the family and I'm filled with such love for all of them. There are some photos on mom and all her siblings. There is a photo on Kajsa and it says that she is the "second woman" as if it was a title. I think to myself that it is weird because she is actually the fifth and last girl born in the family. Monica comes and says that I can have some more class photos if I want to as if I was wronged because I only got one class photo and the family got many photos on it. I am not harmed and says that it is okey.

Notes: Wencai is the person that represents my class in my dreams. I know I dreamed a very intresting dream but I can't recall it, it is so frustrating. I dreamt about stomachs yesterday too. I thought about Knights Templar yesterday when I talked with someone about the books she read.