JoannaB

The was a man. I think he was a performer but looked more like a business man. He was black. He was from South Africa. There was something weird about his self identity as part of ethnic group, but I don't remember any more.

We were in some kind of hut. There were these huge killer bees. I am scared of bees and freeze. Alas with these bees if you freeze, they land on you and wait. If you move, that's when they kill you. There was some female scientist there who knew how to handle oneself with the bees. She was going to try to save me since a bee had landed on me and I now could not save myself. Luckily I was not really aware in this dream and my emotions were not realistic, because I have a phobia of bees in waking life.

While I no longer remember the dream, but I almost got out of bed immediately, because I thought my boss had just asked me to join him in his office. At 6am. On a Saturday. No.

In one dream my boss by mistake got contact info of someone he was not supposed to be a le to contact. This man could give my boss inside info on why certain decisions had been made that affected our system negatively.

In another dream we (was it family or coworkers not sure) visited some sort of farm, and there were tons of cats everywhere, and one of them had very unusual impossible green fur. Everyone came to get some coffee but there was no more cup left for me, so I drank out of some sort of weird pitcher, and it overflowed and watered some flowers on the table below.

my boss was driving a car, and some young man whom I don't know in waking life but who in the dream was a coworker, he tried to impress me by hanging out of the car when it was on the highway, and he almost fell out, and I told him I did not find stupidity impressive.

I was in a church with my father. At some point the woman reading the second reading had some sort of emotional breakdown in the middle of it, and could not go on. Those who ran this church, (strangely led by a woman, even though my father is Roman Cathoilic in real life) the church leaders insisted that now the service needs to start all over again, not just the reading, but the entire service.

I do not know whether there was a transition from the woman's breakdown to my issue with my father, but at some point in the service, I said to my father that maybe it is time that I sat on my own in church, or maybe went to a different church than him. For the rest of e service we just sat apart.

I then went to the home I shared with a room mate (who is a stranger in waking life), and I told her, I would have to move away, and also get a new job or new research project, that I need to do things my way.

I think this may have been part of this dream, where I found I had some sort of health issue, I think some hair falling out, and I thought it may have had something to do with a research project I participated in with my former research advisor / boss who in this dream was a medical doctor. my roommate advised me to go see him, but at first I said his appointments are booked, I would never get to see him, but she insisted that since I used to work with him, he would see me without an appointment.

Fragments: I also had some dream fragments about family I think, and maybe others I forgot now, but may have recalled when I woke up.

I remember remembering two or three very short fragments earlier, but all I remember now is that maybe one of the, was about money

5:35am
So I "remember" I got lucid briefly, but I do not now remember that dream nor how I got lucid. Maybe there was a lucid or maybe this part is a false memory and this dream was all about the non lucid false awakening? And e more I think about it the more likely I think that is because I really remember nothing about that lucid, so I think this was a false awakening with a lost false memory of a non existing lucid most likely.

I remember "waking up" and taking my iPad to the couch to write down my dream. notice I failed to RC upon waking up, argh! And almost did that again a moment ago, but remembered now.

So there I was about to write my dream down on iPad and I had huge trouble closing down the game app that was there.

This game up was loud, so it woke up almost everyone else, including a visitor staying over at our home. In waking life we have no such visitor and in fact do not know him, but I did not notice that in the dream. He was a boy, older than my sons, but not a teen yet. He was Asian perhaps Chinese American. Very polite. He came to me, and wanted to know if he could play games on my iPad. I said, no, I am using it, and got to write down my lucid dream before I forget. He accepted that and left. My husband briefly came too.

I started to have doubts, and thought that it was inhospitable of me to not let the guest have the iPad. and besides I was having trouble operating it. I rationalized that by thinking I must have upgraded the operating system alas. (I should have realized that this was a clue, and reality checked, but I did not!)

The visitor was in the bathroom, so I was going to prop my iPad on the floor next to the bathroom, so he could see it when he emerged. And that's when he emerged. It was a bit awkward with me still bent down to the floor. I told him, I changed my mind and would let him play. I said that the rules of using the iPad were that he needed to only do stuff on it that his parents would approve, follow his parents rules for electronic device usage. In my dream I think there was a second rule, but I forgot what it was. He politely thanked me.

So I went to the bedroom to write down my dream on my iPhone instead. y husband grumbled that I had to hurry up, there was not much time. I realized I had forgotten my lucid dream! Although I remembered that there wasn't much to it, just became lucid and woke up, but I wanted to remember what happened before that!

And that's when I actually woke up.

7:35am More fragments/dreams - later in the morning, but no awareness

I attended some sort of birthday party at someone I considered a neighbor in the dream. there was a pond. I noticed some dead fish, so I suggested that my almost 5 year old help pick up the dead fish and a banana and put them in a trash bag. I remember there were some amazing creatures in this pond, including a Betta fish that gracefully glided on top of the water surface and then transformed into a human and walked on the surface of the water. the neighbor got upset with my family for something, don't remember what, and for a while we feared revenge, but then he forgave us. I think especially one family member it was not certain whether he would forgive, but he did.

my boss and me and a few others were planning to do a job interview, and those who had arranged the interview (some strangers) were saying that maybe my boss would not like the person interviewed, They said it in another language that my boss could not understand, but I could. They said that he might no approve of this person because this person was overweight and American, and while they thought my boss might forgive obesity in a foreigner but not in an American. Meanwhile my boss only understood his name and demanded a translation. I told them they might as well translate or else I would tell him what they had said after they were gone.

My family was visiting my dad and step mother, but we were staying next door in some sort of rental. I did not notice that neither their home nor neighborhood were anything like they actually are.

My husband and sons and dad and step mother were going to go somewhere in a car, but I was not going. I was helping them to the car, carrying a booster seat for my almost 5 year old. I did not notice that the booster seat was a way more elaborate contraption than in reality. But suddenly they were gone, and I did not remember them having left, and I was left with the booster seat.

i did the finger through palm reality check, but it failed. Instead of seriously questioning reality or following up with another reality check, I started rationalizing that something must be mentally wrong with me, that I must not have long to live. I tried calling my dad on my cell phone, but he did not answer. I rationalized further that they must have had another booster seat in the car, and maybe the one I was carrying was not needed. I did not notice that the booster seat then disappeared.

I then tried finding the place where we were staying, but could not. The neighborhood was nothing like what I "remembered" it being - both not matching reality and not matching false memories. It in fact became a more and more elaborate neighborhood, the longer I walked. It was like a small tourist town with shops. I heard some tourist comment, how quaint it was, that they had no clue this charming town was there, that they needed to explore it more. I heard someone laugh.

I meanwhile was panicking more and more, and doubting my sanity. i did more reality checking. Again just the finger through palm attempt, but again without serious questioning, and again it failed. However, by then I was too panicked to stop and think. I tried calling my dad again and my husband in vain. I was crying, and thinking that this can't be happening to me.

And that's when I woke up, and realized that it was not happening to me. And that I checked reality repeatedly in this dream, but did not seriously question it, even though the reason I checked was because stuff was happening that should not be happening! Soooo close, and yet sooo far.

In my work I found out that entry level people do more complex work than I do (not true), and I suggested that from now on I should be involved when they are getting their assignments to see who is more appropriate for a task. It was not that they were doing a poor job alas, but rather i felt inadequate, like i should be doing more complex work than them. I also found out that someone in another team, who in my dream was a retirement age biologist (but in waking life is not), I found out that he knows a lot about creating charts and that we could learn from him, but that he alas is retiring now so we can't. He was leaving and I felt deep respect for him, and had the sense it was mutual. In waking life I know almost nothing about this man other than he works on the same floor as I do, and is much younger than in my dream.

My younger son was lost. My mother called, but I said I could not talk and hung up on her without explaining why. I was combing the streets shouting his name when suddenly my husband appeared with my son. my husband was supposed to take a flight somewhere, and apparently our son tried to stowaway in the luggage and come with him, but was discovered at the airport. I was so relieved to see him.

I was at some sort of party and there was a bowl of magnetized olives to play with.

A fragment about which James Bond films I like and which I don't. I pretty much don't like Goldfinger.

A security auditor called a former coworker of mine H still mistakenly thinking he works for our team, and he said that he would insist that H be fired if H still worked for us due to how he responded to auditor. The auditor met in person with me and with my coworker J. He was very pleased with J's response. By the time the dream ended the jury was still out on whether I passed this test. I knew my answer was not deemed as good as J's but better than H's. would I keep my job?

I was going to change the water in the fish tanks when I discovered that all the fish were swimming in the kitchen sink. The kitchen sink was much bigger than in reality and the layout of our home was different. I caught two of the fish at once into my bare hands and carried them into the fish tank. As I was carrying them they were struggling in my hands and it occurred to me that doing two at once may have been a mistake. I would have to transfer the rest of the fish one at a time. The fish tank was almost impossible to see into, so I cleaned the lights, and that improved visibility. Then I told a woman (don't remember who but in my dream she was familiar and belonged) "When I cleaned the lights that did it." She was amazed that all it took was the cleaning of the lights.

Fragment: there was a large maelstrom in our toilet but it was not going down.

Another dream "False Friend": I was giving advice to my older son. Apparently another kid had told him that he wanted to be friends with him again, and did something for my son, and expected my son to do something for him in return now. And my son had told that boy that all he ever wanted was to be friends again. And I rather thought that the kid wanted to be friends again because he wanted something from my son. I advised my son to tell this friend that if he betrays his friendship again, he will not be his friend for good.

In my dream I found what looked like pieces of scrap paper near the printer in our home office. I looked and they were pieces of copies of my family's birth certificates with highlighted notes on the back on sections of information that we still needed to provide. I recognized my mother in law's hand writing. I "remembered" that she was doing some project for us that required paper work with birth certificates.

That's when I noticed the "original" white out on my certificate. I got upset and told my husband "Your mother cut up the only original copy of my birth certificate." Him "No she didn't." Me "Yes, she did. Look at the white out." Him "Well, this is their fault." Me "What?" And that's when I woke up.

Notes: My birth certificate does not have any white out on it. My mother in law would not make such a mistake as to cut it up. I have not given her any such project, and she is currently in another state where she lives. I would not recognize my mother in law's handwriting by site. Whose fault was it supposed to be at the end there??

In this dream I got to rescue some fish from a fish tank that someone was closing down, and I put the fish loosely into my purse, and they somehow staid alive in there. Then I was actually inside a huge tank like a swimming pool, and I was supposed to release the fish. The challenge was how to release only the freshwater fish. When I opened my purse the saltwater fish got out and got away and I had no chance to catch them here. I consoled myself that even though they were saltwater fish in a freshwater tank, but all the fish in my purse had originated in one tank, and somehow survived, so maybe they would again.

When I woke up I remembered another dream or fragment, nut now it's mostly gone. I remembered there was something I wanted or wanted to do but my husband said it was obsolete, and then I got a phone call confirming it.

In my dream my husband wanted our almost 5 year old to take a potty training class (which he no longer needs). The class was to be held five times a week on every school day. he downside was that this class made cross dressing more likely. Now in waking life my five year old boy is in a phase where the idea of girl toys or the color pink are immediately dismissed as for girls, so cross dressing is more likely for my husband than for my son, and my husband is definitely not a cross dresser.

A strange woman? Troubleshooting?

I dreamed of identifying old stuff that needed to be gotten rid of because it was broken or unneeded. There were clothes there and electronics.

I also dreamed of doing comparisons which did not produce expected result, for example because of unexpected duplicates, or differences in emotions, or someone with ill will.