lucid

Lucid but too short

It seems like I am walking through a park late at night in calgary. Something like Proncess island park because I am coming from a bridge. I get a sense that I'm dreaming almost instantly. Because it is night out, a blackness fills my field of vision. I begin touching the ground where some sand is immediately to try and incorporate my senses into the dream. It stabalizes momentarily but then I remember an old DV post, from someone who once prolonged a dream by trying to eat a tree. becuase that incorporates many physical sensastions such as touch, taste, smell, texture etc. I then remember i had passed a tree by the bridge earlier. I seemilngly teleport there and try to eat it but fade out before anything happens. Damn...

Hate this dream

This dream involved Jamie but she wasn't necessarily in it.. Started I was getting a visit from my brother and we were walking around houses or open markets or something. He's visiting in real life since i can't make my trip to the USA because of travel restrictions due to the pandemic... In the dream I ask if he's watched Star Trek Picard yet? He says no. I tell him I'll get yet another month of Crave so we can watch it while he visits. He says okay but he is grossed out by something and leaves.

It appears I am surrounded by Gay people having orgies... umm okay. everything is very graphic. It's also on computer monitors throughout the street or houses I am in. It makes sense as I run into an old co worker from 2011 Gil. Who i know IS gay. We are in a room with some women in it and he says he knows Jamie and runs into her occasionally, there's a place or street he goes to and he runs into her 1 in 3 times. I find it odd that he might know her. One of the women says, "Oh no your another guy she's used." implying i'm a long list of guys she has discarded. in Her condition is makes sense. people with BPD rarely settle down with anyone for long periods of time, so many embrace a more open lifestyle, of never sticking with anyone. She DID give the impression of a serial dater when I knew her. and stopped talking to me altogether years ago... I ask the woman if we are talking about the same Jamie and give her her full name. and she says, "yes, that's the one." Gil says again, "We can still try to run into her there's a 1 in 3 chance." I stand there and try to justify myself for a second of trying to hold onto her. Fact: She can't even manage a simple "hi," after years. I am forever discarded, Even of she reads my dreams she would never ever talk to me again, I would get a fraction of a second of a look once she realizes who I am, and completely shut down towards me.

I wake up while thinking all these things. This dream really bothered me for a few days after... and it actually kind of upsets me to write it down.

Jamie

Another fraction of a second dream whew i am walking with jamie, and she seems "normal," walking arm in arm. But that's all I get for the week.

OGRE

Scary dream. i am in a house filled with monster or something. I find a kitchen where a mad scientist works. I walk past a living room where a giant guy about 8 feet tall is cutting hair off a lamb and muttering to himself, "Ah yess so smooth will be your skin, like butter it will be to eat..." I am frightened by the scene and hid above a shelf in the kitchen. The scientist is walking back into the kitchen. So I dart out past the living room again. Now a whole heard of 30 or so sheep are in the living room getting their wool cut off from the same guy. His brother enters the room who is like 16 feet and i realize the soft sheep are for his brother. I wonder if he eats them alive. I don't stick around to find out. The dream ends as soon as I leave.

Jamie

A good dream for once. Just sitting on a couch with Jamie with my arm around her and i think she is reciprocating. she's letting me know she still cares and feels good about me. but her mood suggests she is also angry with about something? Not sure.


Crazy

In a semi lucid. I'm in front of a haunted mirror? not sure but i am encased in mirror on all sides of me. I feel a really evil presence so i draw with my finger on the mirror in front of me a cross and say, "The power of Christ compels you!" I say it somewhat jokingly. Instantly I'm in sleep paralysis in my bed and i hear a baby laughing menacingly at me...

Alarm

Not sure what was happening but i had a false awakening because of an alarm clock going off in the dream i had a FA in. Which really woke me up even though in reality no alarm had gone off....

Jamie dreams

first one seems to be in direct response to a facebook dream i was having the previous week. In this dream Jamie is interacting with me on facebook, although the act is nice, she seems to have some attitude about it. doesn't come across very loving.

Second dream i am with her in high school. But she's too cool for school or even me for that matter. As she is too stuck up to even talk to me. She has a friend nearby who is an admirer and she says something like, "There's the most beautiful girl in the school, and then there's Her." Referring to jamie as if Jamie is above the rest.

Last dream we are in a field with some east indian girl. They find a bathroom or something whoch is their hangout. Jamie asks me to clean the entire bathroom for her. And I'm like, "No."

And quite frankly i'm not logging these dreams every week for her to play in a highschool popularity contest. Still miss my dream hugs.


floating

in this dream i am almost lucid. I'm in a room with a bunch of people and i start floating up and flying around. I start singing wierd al's Eat it, but with the pitch of michael jackson. The people below start staring at me.

Haunted

Me and someone are outside a bunch of abandoned houses looking for a haunted house. Seems to be the district close by that one dream i had with the black castle and the women demons who guarded it.

We go up to a house with a mirror. In the mirror is a scene of people in a house pretending to be ghosts. I remember the face of a girl of the family trying to make funny but spooky faces. I ask them where the haunted house is. They don't know. I ask if this is a haunted mirror. The pull out their own mirror and create a ghost lady that walks into their mirror. I can't tell if they mean a huanted mirror is something you can walk through to the other side in, or if they are inviting me to walk into their mirror?

We walk on and supposedly find the haunted house. We find a crawlspace inside which leads to... A large area something like a sears in a mall or something. There's all these women accompanied by really tall and pale men about 7-8 feet tall. I become semi lucid and begin to fly above them. I circle the area and fly up an escalator which has strange walls on the side. I become lucid for a moment and the dream fades.


FA, I'm in a room with Dara, The tarot card youtuber who deleted all her accounts and videos. I think she's jamie or something. She seems okay with me and i say she was mad but now she's cool. Dara looks at me perplexed and then shrugs whatver. i say it's cool like this to be just chill. she agrees.
work related

I'm at work when everyone becomes frightened. Dylan goes into the walk in freezer and discovers a dead girl's corpse in there. I begin hearing loud alien like Thwoms coming from the freezer. In a panic i go get changed to go home and leave. I'm having heart attack symptoms, it won't stop beating fast and i notice I'm really sweaty as I take off my shirt and look for the other one.

Scary

Im'm in some house and some evil guy that reminds me of thanos is there. Thanos is suddenly michael dorn without his worf makeup but he is still evil. I hide bhind a door and throw knives at him... they don't even hit him hard. He goes to attack me but I wake up.

Well, I've been dealing with some temptations lately. all I can say if Jamie can really sense these things... I really feel for her.

Had a few dreams that i can't recall now.

Lucid

Became lucid in my house and asuka was around. I asked her if she'd seen Jamie around. Asuka said: Yes but she's been hiding out in a parallel universe. Asuka holds up a mirror and I walk through it like a door. On the other side is a Giant mall. A bunch of people are walking around and they all look exactly the same. They look like Soji, from tar trek Picard... I ask one of them if she had seen Jamie, Ahe reluctantly said "yes." and started walking me down an aisle, butthen I woke up.

Other dreams were flashes so they don't really warrant titles.

I was laying in bed dosing off wondering about why I'm struggling with these temptations. I fall asleep into a micro dream and jesus is on the cross again and he says, "My son I am always with you."

Last sleep, I saw myself sleeping with someone who wasn't Jamie and i heard Jamie's voice as a voiceover, "No," Suddenly the girl under me vanished and I was suddenly outside and the girl's clothes were a heap on the ground. I saw text flash over the scene. "Jesus sent you this girl." Wasn't sure if the text was referring to the girl or jamie.

Okay in all history of having entities flash text prophetic messages in my dream, virtually none were true nor came to pass. So I don't trust it at all.

Dark

Just a dream of being in a dark room or something. Jamie was there holding me i think. I feel she's just letting me know she's still around.


Lucid

Was at my house outside.I flew up and became lucid. I wanted to visit Jamie. I was flying over a green field and saw a house with green peeling paint on the outside covered in branches. I tested to see if it was Jamie' house. knocked on the door and a young blonde woman answered. i asked if Jamie was there and she said, "yes,". I saw to the left a living room and a girl with long brown hair about Jamie's color got up from a couch and headed to the door. I was watching her friend, the blonde woman, Who was standing in front of a tv screen loading a game. The woman got sucked into the tv screen, and i saw another screen flash behind that one. I know me and Asuka Go into TV screens when we watch a movie... I wonder

Sometime later I'm not lucid, I'm on a couch cuddling with jamie watching a movie. She gets mad for seemingly no reason and transforms herself into a man to seem unattractive. she gets up and shuts off my TV and surrounds herself with 3 tvs and starts playing fortnite... umm ok. I ask for the remote back because I wanna finish watching me show. She says no.

Dumb dream.

I was with a friend I use to work with at Mcdonald's. We went to a mall and met up with a fortnite youtuber I don't really care for at all. He seems really depressed at the mall like he's sick of the game he's playing. I forget all of what happens.

partly lucid

I was in a dream before but found myself suddenly in some bathroom with no recollection of how I got there. I became lucid but everything went to black instantly.

Multi dreams

I was working in some warehouse that was also a clothing store or something. I kept shifting around the dream in some places. I was confused. Suddenly I was entering the place with some guy. He accused me of hiding in his truck. which I remember that part. He left me at the store and I started to work again.

FA, in the back of the guy's truck again. He got pissed at me and said ,"Not you again." then he had to drive me to the store AGAIN. This time he was mad and yelling. I was trying to explain to him that I have huge gaps in my memory and i have no idea how I got in his truck again. He dropped me off again and I went through a basement door. I turned a corner and went upstairs and ran into a co worker. She said i had been missing for hours but covered for me. I kept trying to explain that I have no idea How i got there and i have gaps in my memory but she wasn't hearing it.

Suddenly I was with Xereniak walking down some street. I was trying to explain to him that I had no idea where i was or how I got there. He didn't seem like he was listening so I stopped. After a few minutes he said, "Yes, I wanna hear about the gaps in your memory." So, I started to explain. But then he saw something and flew over to a giant window and broke a tile of it. then he started editing the windows into shapes like he was in a game of fortnite. WTF. Recall ends.

Nothing about Jamie for the past few days

night

Vague dream. I was on a hill at night time with someone. We look down the hill and see lights running along a path going up to us. When the lights arrive it turns out they are lions. But friendly lions.

Jamie seems disturbed.

I was walking along some street in a city. I found the gravity was light going up some steps and I started bouncing and floating up. Became lucid here and looked at my hands. The were blurry and so was the rest of the dream. I instinctively wanted to find Jamie. I kept walking around intending for the dream to change to find her but it didn't. I wound up in a market place with a bunch of blue faced people with large heads. "Does anyone know where Jamie is?" I asked. Most people walked by and said nothing. I kept asking and some blue faced guy said he knows her. He held up a picture or a mirror to me and I jumped in.


I found myself in a room. Jamie seemed to be in a corner by a mirror and she was writing something on a paper. She also seemed in her teens. I called her name. She seemed upset that I was there and wasn't saying anything. Oops. I held her shoulders and she transformed into a small animal that seemed to be dying. It was in my arms. I was just petting it saying sweet things. Can't remember what but i was just trying to be very kind. She began to transform into a human again when I woke up.

Other non lucids are too vague to even remember. One, i was just working with my dad.

Semi Lucid

Become lucid wandering in some house. There are some boxes everywhere. they are all white and every size you can imagine. I open one box and it takes me into another room that looks like the same house. The rest of it is foggy but I'm basically finding more hidden rooms which lead to different houses with more hidden rooms etc.

Oh no

I'm flying above drumheller with Jamie. Some force hits me from behind and I launch right into a rocky foothill. My mouth is bloody and full of sand.

Thank you

First as I'm falling asleep, I see Jesus in profile. He looks different in almost every dream. I remember in one he was actually a black man.

suddenly I'm in a dark room sitting on a chair in front of a screen, like a laptop or a TV. There is an electronic device under my hand. It could be a touch screen phone or a mouse. I feel another hand go over that hand I look to my right and it's Jamie. She's smiling and is warm. She nods and we both push the button on the device. She then goes and pulls out a Rolodex or something. My impression is that these are memory files she then has to sort through.

Days later while awake I decided to finish another message to her. Being more thorough this time. I spend hours typing, revising, deleting and rewriting. I fit it down to the 20,000 character limit that facebook messaging allows. Although there is so much more to say. I'm nervous as hell, take my dog for too many walks and smoke like crazy. when I am satisfied with my composition. i paste it all into the message box. go out smoke again go for another walk. go back to it. I have my hand over the mouse almost deciding again not to send. I then remember the dream, Jamie's hand over mine. We were pushing the send button together. Then going through memory files? are we finally going to compare notes? I click: send.

Here is a Jamie dream I forgot to add to last entry.

Voyager

Me and Jamie are wandering around Voyager from the TV show. We are in a turbo lift but only a small window opens. Janeway is on the other side. She is nice and talks to us but tells us to go around. the turbo lift goes down and we wind up in some construction area. We find staircases and go up them and wind up in the mess hall, where there is an alien race of Jocks or something. Me and Jamie just find a seat and wait and that's all I remember.


More recent.

Laundry room.

Asuka makes me do laundry and for a joke, she is playing a song by nirvana about being in a laundry room. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zknlwXuGJUg I was kind of annoyed because I hadn't heard the song in a decade. Jamie comes up behind me and I didn't notice she was there. she says, "What song is this?" she was asking in the same tone of when I played guitar for her and she kept asking ,"Who's this by? Are you making that up?"

Voices

I am with Jamie but she seems angry. There is a semi-invisible demonic creature on her shoulder whispering in her ear. He lustfully whispers to her. "negative thoughts, negative thoughts, negative thoughts..." She doesn't seem aware of it at all. "I hate you!" she says looking at me.

Annoying guide.

Some tall guy with glasses comes into my inner world. He says,"You need to let her go." implying Jamie? Fuck no.

Church

With Jamie feeling better we both go to a church to seek Jesus out for some help. He is not there. But we sit down anyway on a pugh. It turns into a bed with blankets and we both fall asleep on it.

Chelsea

I'm on facebook and C has a post I like or something and when I comment on it. Jamie comes out of the computer and says, "I don't want you talking to this girl." I try to explain she's only a friend and she's already with someone. I think jamie calmed down. I'm not sure.



Thumbnail confusion.

Jamie makes me look at her profile picture on facebook. She changes the picture to her and some guy giving me the middle finger. Maybe my brother because one of my first entries with Jamie I am in a parking lot giving her and my brother the middle finger as they walk by and aignore me. I've noticed that a lot of recent Jamie dreams seem to reflect my early ones. Like in one entry I am missing jamie by a balcony and thinking about having a smoke with her. And recently she's explaining things to me while we are both on a balcony smoking.
Interesting.

In another dream she is looking at my youtube channel and I have thumbnails with a purple background. Recently while awake I checked our old facebook messages and she indeed changed her picture with a purple background. Very Strange...

Jamie explains.

I'm in some high rise apartment building at night. It reminds me of Tilted Towers from fortnite. I am chasing some people or something when I notice Jamie on an outside landing. She's wearing a mcdonald's manager uniform and for a second I think it's Emily from mcdonald's. but when she starts talking I recognise Jamie. She keeps explaining that she wants to start having real conversations or contact someday, but she needs to sort out some things in her life first. but she does have the desire. I ask, "Do you remember dreams about me when awake?" "Yes, I remember kisses" I'm thinking back to something short I left out last month. where I was nodding off on a bus and fell asleep for a split second and for a short second jamie kissed me. I ask if there's anything I can do (ahould I message her again)" She says no, In fact no one should feel pressured to make contact or send messages. I agree to that.


Short lucid

I become lucid in a room. Some east indian girl is there and I spend most of the lucid trying to convince her it's a dream. She keeps saying, "No,No, that's not real don't talk about that."

More demons

I'm with Jamie at my house and she starts yelling at me. "Don't touch me." Asuka runs and looks at her. "She has another creature on her." Asuka says and pulls the creature off jamie that I couldn't even see until she grabs it. Then Asuka throws it outside. Asuka does something to heal Jamie for a bit. Jamie grabs my hand and says, "Do you want to hold hands?" and smiles. Me and Asuka just laugh at her, in a good way.

Boring

I'm wandering a large store like Canadian Tire or something. But the place has all been re arranged. I wander to an outside area where a bunch of farm animals are. I chase ducks and rodents around a grassy area.

Shut up

That annoying guide shows up again this time when Jamie is around. He keeps saying we have different paths to go on. I tell him hell no, This is the one I'm on right now and I'm not moving from it. He asks if it's such a good path why aren't we together? and points to Jamie. I say I don't know. Maybe it's because we both have severe emotional problems and don't want to harm one another. Maybe she doesn't have room for me in her life yet. He said maybe it has something to do with past life karma, Karma to work out with soul mates. I notice Jamie's eyes then and she looks really sad, i think there may have been a fight earlier, not sure. I said I don't believe in Past Lives. I believe in Jesus so there's only this life and the heaven he has planned. The guide looks flustered at that and says. Where was Jesus when you sought him last? he wasn't even there? I say sometimes Jesus is silent, it's even in the bible. And, where spirits and guides like you have previously told me to give up Jesus came into my dreams and blessed me and her. He's the only one who seems to respect our free will unlike you guides And he helped us when she was possessed in a dream, he put obvious work into us unlike you guys. And go ahead, send me your BS soul mates. I've met some before and weren't even single, or even in my country. How many more deal breakers are you guys going to send me? Jesus Even turned his head away from me when you guys threw Dara at me, so guess what? I gave up on that. And Chelsea? She's not even single and you guys kept throwing me into her dreams when jamie was in trouble. And you know what I find it funny that while you're here telling me to let go Jamie is getting attacked by demons in dreams. you know what I think you're all demons... I was ranting like that the whole dream I think.

video

Dreamed I was watching a video of Jamie talking to me, or we are video chatting. She was really upset and crying. I think she said she missed me and was regretful about something. I wish I could really recall more of conversation in dreams. She seemed upset and like she wanted something from me? But I can't recall what. Wish i knew how to help.


Attacked

First I'm walking my dog through some park. I get over a hill and see lots of people with their dogs. Great... now I have to go back. But my dog is suddenly off leash and he runs towards the other dogs. My dog Runs up to a racoon on it's hind legs and is wearing a trench coat and then punches my dog...

Dream fast forwards on a suburban street where I am chasing after someone who looks like my brother taunting me. I chase him onto a school bus and someone knocks me on the ground. Then I see four or five people who look like my brother peering over me. They taunt and laugh at me. They say they have real plans for someone I know. (jamie?) and they say there's nothing I can do about it. Then they get off the bus laughing.

FA, and now I'm on a greyhound bus. I become lucid right away as everything feels light. I still have the other dream fresh in my mind so I know i must get out of there. I begin walking into the aisle. I will myself to wake up because i want to warn jamie. But when i wake up i remember we aren't talking. Damn.

October dreams.

what?

A dream from Jamie's perspective, she's driving in a car by didsbury and saying to herself, "I won't talk to Rob unless he sends me another message."

more Jamie dreams

I'm outside my house at night walking with Dara. Jamie is behind us and she looks super mad. In another dream I am sitting on a couch with some girl and not sure who and Jamie pries the top of the dream apart and peers in, she has a very dull and disappointed look on her face


Some days later I dream me and her are in front of some papers and we are planning where to live?
Lucid


I'm in some weird shop and some youtuber I hate is there but in this dream we seem to be friends. I become lucid and spend the rest of the dream trying to convince him it's a dream.

November

This was a crazy night.

dream 1: I was hanging with jamie and we seemed to be on okay terms. We were sitting under a water bridge or something when some woman with wings flies up to me. She starts flirting with me and puts something over my head and i just laugh. I get a mirror out and it turns out the girl put a mask on me that makes my face look like my face but plastic. I pull the mask thingy off but it comes off as some mesh leggings. I look over to Jamie who seems to have changed her face to someone unrecognizable. OMG I just realized why she was so mean in the next dreams.

Dream 2: I'm having an awkward meeting with my dad. We decide to go to some restaurant but all the tables and chairs are in uncomfortable positions.

FA, In a basement I think Jamie is there and some other people. I'm sitting on a couch and I find a small picture of an evil looking woman with brown hair. I feel a demonic presence attached to this picture. The picture jumps out of my hands and I try to catch it. It lets out a small laugh as I chase it all over the couch then I notice it's left a small trail behind of shit. All over the couch. I frantically try to clean it up and almost throw up. When Done, I look for the picture again.

FA, in the same basement on a couch. People are there and I ask them If they remember the dream we just had? The one with the demon causing all sorts of trouble? Everyone looks at me like I've gone insane? I look to the couch and Jamie is there staring into my brother's eyes like she is in love and they are whispering something i can't hear. I get up from the couch and say, "Are you two getting into something here?". My brother shakes his head ,"no". He gets ups from the couch and leaves. I notice his friend richard there at the other couch. Jamie says, "Robert don't".

"You know what pisses me off?" I say. As My brother moves away Jamie falls backwards on the couch. Her mouth a big ,"O", of surprise as in ,"How dare you look at me this way?" And she moves her arms to cover her breasts which I can't see anyway because she's wearing a dress that covers them. but what she doesn't realize is that by falling backwards the bottom of her dress is up, and not only is she not wearing anything underneath, but I can also see everything.

I ignore that, and keep going. "It's that after all these years you're still not really my friend." Jamie scrunches her forehead, a look, which I've seen before when she's about to disagree with me. My memory fades here.

next few days:

Dreams of Jamie taper off, but I remember some fragments.

School

Dream of the school we usually dream at. Jamie is sitting there on the curb and she is saying, "You're not going to hit me with that are you?" I look down and I am holding some sort of Disc or plate... "No," I say, "Why would I do that?"

Then the next day I have a fragment where She is smiling at me and we seem to be on good terms.

Bjork Dreams



One where I find Bjork in the gymnasium of the school. She says she wrote a song for me. She plays it and it's good. i wonder If I'll be able to remember the melody. Sadly i don't.

Other dream was I was flying around a large abandoned city. I heard Bjork singing a melody. I began singing the same melody after she stopped. I flew up to her and she was floating in the air with some man. She asked if it was me who was just singing her song? I forget what answer I give and I just fly off.

Other non lucids

In one dream i am at my house? or someone else's. And I go outside and see a Big dragon roaming around. I hide and people I seem to know keep driving by on ATVs Asuka is in one and she said The girls have taken the remaining dybbuk boxes and have put them away safely. I explain that won't get the demons out of Jamie's inner world. She said it's a start.

Data

A dream where I can see Data trying to get into Jamie's inner world. I think I am watching on a screen. He comes to a shield he can't get past. He plants explosives at the base and it blows a tunnel underneath. At this point Data is so clear he looks exactly like the TV character. I usually never see him like that. He keeps tunneling with his phaser or something. He keeps saying what he is doing and what he is going to try, but it sounds too technical. At this point I think I'm watching a lost episode of Star trek. Some giant tendril rises from underneath him it looks like it's connected to something from the movie tremors. It begins pulling Data under and he still keeps talking just louder. Eventually his head falls off and everything fades to black.

Jesus is being creepy again

i woke up in the middle of the night and thought to myself ,"will I ever see Jamie again?" I fall into a dream vision and see Jesus with a big goofy grin on his face. He is pointing at the gates of heaven where a bright light is obscuring what's behind the gates. "You'll see her there!!!" Jesus booms without moving his mouth.

What about before then?

Semi lucid

Dreamed I was walking somewhere in the wilderness at night. I discovered I could float if I pawed the air a bit. I had to find a washroom So I came across a familiar door that went under a hill. I knew it was a place under construction and late night people might be working so I floated in through the top of the door way which was very tall. Inside was a place with fresh drywall and there was a guy mixing mud loudly so I floated above him. He didn't notice. At the end of the hall was a large room maybe for a kitchen or living room. There was another hallway so I took that one and spotted another worker where i knew the washroom was. I floated above him too and went in the doorway. i did my business in the room. When i left one of the workers spotted me so i flew fast out the entrance door.

Co-workers

Dreamed I was with some of my co workers in a large room that seemed filled with water. Only we could breathe under it. One girl was still ina sybmarine or something but it was really small. A floated up to her friend and smiled at her.

Concert surprise

Dream about some youtuber guy. We were at a music hall or something where a party was going on. We discovered we could do some really crazy dream parkour as the gravity seemed light. He found some markings high up that said if he could follow the parkour course in the hall three times, A well known rock band would show up. I watched him do the parkour sequence 3 times. On the last try he was struggling with it. He managed to do it right and suddenly a band i never heard of showed up and started to play or something.

Training

Various dreams of martial arts training. In one i'm being trained in a kung fu form by some chinese guy. He claims he is teaching me tiger and Crane, but the sequence i show him is different than what he is teaching. In another dream i am in a simulation where I am training with a wooden sword. A guy goes to stab me with his right sword and take mine and try to stab his right arm to deflect. The trainer says I'm not doing what he showed me. He asks again what should I do when someone swings with his right from that angle? I just say I have to be faster. The trainer shakes his head. In another dream i am practicing the form with a coworker. We go through a sequence and she says she doesn't like that particular pose.


Messages

I kept dreaming of getting messages from Jamie on Facebook, but they were all mean.
Stadium

Dream flash about seeing Jamie at a stadium with her own trainer? She looks like an anime girl and has a green bandana. She looks very angry but also determined. I wonder why I am there? Was I training for this? Or were we supposed to dream battle? i never got a conclusion to this.

Basement 1

This is after Raven telling me she remembered putting up a shield in someone's inner world. I'm wandering a basement when I run into a woman with long dark hair. She also has dark skin and pulls me into a bedroom. We start kissing. Not sure who this was.

Basement 2

I'm in Jamie's basement and I am wandering around. I go into a room where I feel a dark presence. I feel a presence possess me and i feel really dark like when i'm in SP. I go up to some people and ask them if I seem different. No body seems to notice anything but then my voice changes.

Basement 3

I'm in the basement but find extra rooms where there's people in there with a long scenario to kill me. I Run into Asuka and data and they both say Jamie is nowhere to be found, but that this place is crawling with Demons, so we decide to leave.

Basement 4

I enter the basement again the next day but get trapped and held down by hoodlums. An evil looking woman emerges and gives and evil smile. she says I'll never get back in here again.

Jesus again

I'm at the Dream highschool that me and Jamie use as a neutral ground to hang out in dreams. It's only me and her in class and Jesus is the teacher. He hands us a large book and says this is what we are to study for our assignment. I leaf through and there's a bunch of sci-ency and spiritual technobabble. One chapter catches my eye it says something about Jamie being suicidal? I look at Jamie but she's almost leaving the classroom. I stop her and say we should study. She says she knows it all and repeats all the terms in the book back to me except for the last one. She then leaves. Then i think she didn't want to talk about that last subject.

Jamie tries to contact me

A dream of talking on a computer screen with jamie. She says she misses the dreams and she can't find me. I say I can't get to her house since her shield went up and I got kicked out by some some woman.

phone call

I'm at home and Asuka hands me the phone and says it's from Jamie. I barely hear Jamie when I burst into tears and then I ask her why she hasn't called me in years and why now of all times? then I wake up.

Roland

I am in the Dark Tower World with Jamie we are walking with roland in a huge desert. IT's so windy that Roland is wearing some large archaic goggles to protect his eyes from the dust. I guess we were telling him about our friendship because he suddenly seems perplexed and then almost mad. He barks at us, "Why don't you two just contact one another?" and turns his head away in disapproval. I start to say I did attempt contact but then I woke up.

The Rose

I am at the corner of Second and Forty-Sixth in a vacant lot in New York standing over a Rose. IT's The Rose from the Dark Tower novels. Jamie is talking to me either in my head or through an earpiece for some reason we think this can get me back into her inner world. She asks me If I'm at the rose? We seem to making a coordinated effort or something. I am greatly transfixed by the rose. "Yes I am at the rose." I say. "...I'm always at the rose..." Then I wake up. Well I guess I screwed that one up.

Lucid 1

I become Lucid in my house when I discover gravity is light. I can't think of any plans so i look into a mirror. I don't try to change my image but the reflection starts smiling at me and looks evil. It fades out shortly after.

Lucid 2

I become lucid in a movie theater when I float up. I leave the theater and look for someone. I wind up in the projection room and my vision starts to go dark. I keep saying ,"Computer: lights" a few times until I see the light is on finallyI seem very determined to do something. I enter a place with seating tables where people are eating and I spot an old co worker Daniel. I go up to him and tell him it's a dream. He doesn't seem to care much but after I keep talking he looks somewhat interested.

"If you're wondering who I am," I say, "I might be your subconscious!" But I screw up the word: subconscious. I briefly fall back into SP and I am struggling to talk because I can feel my physical jaw is mostly numb. I snap back into the dream. "I'm sorry i meant: subconscious. I can't talk sometimes..." Dan just shrugs. Then I clue into what I need him for: He has to get into Jamie's inner world to take her shields down because I am not allowed. I have to try to convince him. "We are going to use your dreams to build your confidence... With GIRLS!" Dan then perks up a bit and seems more interested and almost smiles, which is strange for him. "For this next mission," I continue," You are going to get to practice with a very SPECIAL girl!" Jamie's voice booms into my head. "Robert... REALLY?" she sounds really annoyed. But Dan agrees. I pull up my watch with a display and see Asuka and Data behind two separate screens. Asuka says, "Im planting a homing device on him now!". Data is at a display with a keyboard and his fingers are moving at blinding speed. He says, "Locking onto him now and Transporting." then I wake up.

Lucid

Was walking around a school and a bunch of kids tried to trip me in a hallway. I went outside became lucid as soon as I saw Jamie walking out the front doors with her phone in her hand, she was texting or something. Went up to her as she sat down. I asked , "Are you Jamie?" she looked up and changed her face to someone else and said, "no."

I went up to some kids sitting on the stair railings and said to them. "This is a dream!" Some of the DCs didn't like that and seemed to vanish from pure anguish. I then asked if anyone had seen Jamie? They said no. Jamie was just sitting there staring at me like WTF?!?!?!?!?!? My dream self is pretty dumb at times.

Jamie is still mad.

Various dreams of her being mean. In a couple she is dating my brother in front of me to make me mad. In another I'm walking around didsbury and some cop is giving me heck. Jamie keeps walking by with her hair dyed blond and is giving me mean looks.

Hurt

I am driving with people in a place that reminds me of BC. We stop at some shop to get ice cream. I know Jamie is there. I go to the counter and order Icecream. Jamie comes into the place from a back room. She looks at me and gives a weak smile. She is wearing a long white shirt and I notice her chin is severely bruised. I don't know what to say to her.

Weeks later

Was in a dream where I'm at some crime boss's house and he is supposed to have a meeting with someone. I start remembering and alternate dream where the man he was meeting shot him. I try to tell the crime boss about the man's plan to shoot him, but the way I reveal it just confuses him. A blond girl pulls me into a hallway and into a bedroom. She looks like mikala but not sure. We start sweet talking or something. I say something dumb like. "I'm in all these alternate realities but there is one constant in all of them : Jamie." Mikala smiles at that and kisses me. The rest of the dream I"ll leave out.

I have other dreams about "mikala." I wake up never sure who the girl actually is.

Dara dreams

I'm in Dara's apartment, and we are talking. Suddenly she hears a noise and goes to investigate. Later I had a dream of me standing in a kitchen and holding a baby. Dara is nearby looking at me.

Missing Girl

I'm walking with my dog in the woods. I hear a girl scream and I discover a cave with a deep drop. I hear a girl calling for help. My dog's mother Daisy rushes down the hole to find the girl. I go down and run into some guy. "Did you see the injured girl?" I ask and he says: Yes. He then shows me where the girl is. Suddenly I'm in a big house that's inside the cave. I go through a room where computers are set up for video game live streaming. The man leads me to a room. I see a desk with teeth and blood on it. He indicates that's where the girl was. There are 2 guys in a bed waking up, they are obviously gay. Not sure where the girl is still.

More Jamie dreams


A few dreams I am in a fortnite setting and jamie is with
More dreams at the highschool. In one Jamie doesn't speak to me but she hands me a written test, A boyfriend test. I pass it and she looks disappointed that I passed it as i she expected me to fail. But then she smiles.


In another we are in drama class and we are in a big circle doing some stupid dance. Jamie is a cross from me and beaming a big smile at me.

In another we are walking through a school field and Dara floats by shuffling a deck of tarot cards. "ooh this case is a tough one to crack innit?" She says.

The other night i have a flash of Dropping off Jamie at her house. She goes in through a trap door, she looks and smiles at me, but she looks rough like she hasn't slept for days.

I wake up briefly and I say to myself, "where is Jamie?" I fall into a dream and I see 7 angels with 7 trumpets they point at the throne of God with 7 fingers but the throne of God is blacked out. It's like they are saying," She is there talking with God."

Various Dreams

I'm trying to escape an abandoned mall. I find a flight of stairs which I kind of just glide down. I enter a street and hop over a fence to keep from being discovered. I walk into an apartment complex and find youtubers Omar and James. I ask Omar if he's ever tried bloody mary? He says no. I have a brief flash of walking with them earlier in the dream in the abandoned mall.

Next we are in a flying car in a futuristic city. We fly by these huge apartment buildings that look really futuristic. there is no way to enter them from the ground. Instead you have to fly up to them. I ask Omar if we fly in. He says no. We soon land on a landing where there are seats we strap ourselves into. The seats are attached to a metal beam which pulls us up into the apartments. The place reminds me where Asuka hid for years in an alternate dimension to hide from Walms/Hukif. I remember an Alternate Asuka took her place and created a clone that Walms killed thinking it was the real asuka. My dreams are messed up haha. Anyway we enter an apartment which belongs to my friend CJ. His place is a mess and his girlfriend is around and is a drunken mess. That's all I remember.

Jamie closes the box

I see Jamie standing in a field behind a big farm house. My dybbuk box is there but GIANT and lying open. Jamie is trying the push the large lid down but is struggling too hard to do so.A 30 ft man with long brown hair and sporting a white and red loincloth - Jesus approaches and shuts the lid of the Dybbuk box.

Next night

Conversation
Me and Jamie are exchanging WALLS of text on Facebook. We are negotiating something but there's too much information to follow.



Jamie gets possessed

Jamie is in a graveyard that looks like haunted hills from fortnite. She is beside one of the stone buildings and digging. She places the Dybbuk box in the hole she dug. She begins praying over it. I see a black shadow rising up from behind her. Her eyes change from light blue/gray to dark brown.

Party

I'm at some party in a town hall or something. There are many rooms though and hallways. I am just hanging around talking to lots of people.
Jamie with a group of people. She notices me and gives me a dirty look and leads her group down a hallway. I follow them until I notice she is no longer there.

Now I have to find a bathroom, so I continue down the hallway. I run into some security that says I have to turn back because this part is under construction. I ask them where a washroom is? They say it's outside and in another building. I leave the building and begin to walk outside when my memory fades.

Chase

Forget what was going on earlier. But I was going up some steps in a park that led to a street by the hill when I became lucid. I wandered across the park towards a street. I paddled up and began flying and went across the park towards the street with generic houses. I finally landed.

I looked up into the sky and saw stars but they were blurry. I tried floating up again and found I could not. A transparent wall formed around me and I began moving fast down the street. Now I was in a train with semi transparent walls, it reminded me of Blaine the Mono, from the dark tower series. "Computer? where are we heading?" I walked up to a panel with a mini map on it that had a blinking red dot indicating where the train was. "Destination: Jamie." Blaine answered.

Blaine announced that we had arrived in what seemed like a minute later. Doors opened and I found myself in a medevil setting like from Game of Thrones. I was walking behind Jamie now, who didn't notice I was there. She had very fancy hair in the back. There was a braid over the rest of her brown hair on her back and she was wearing black old style leather coat with leather strips on the front and back.

By the path there was a clearing where two people in raggedy clothes stood leaning on a wooden table with a wooden sawhorse nearby. Behind them was a pond.

Jamie then noticed I was behind her. She vanished in front of me but a second later she was standing in place of one of the people in raggedy clothes. I jumped up to her and said, "Jamie, I love you." To this she gave a frustrated look. I noticed her eyes were dark brown instead of light gray. Her form changed in front of me and now I was staring at what looked a taller Peter Dinklage, who was now giving me a dirty look. I looked to my left and now she was standing in place of the other person. When she noticed I saw that she teleported inside a person running away. Where she was previously standing was now a young woman in ragged clothes with white hair. The woman laughed and said, " Ah I see we are both in love with people who don't want us." It was here I woke up.

Walking

This is the next night All I remember is walking down the street with a girl. Don't think it was Jamie. it might have been C.

Arguing

Some dream where I was at my dad's house. He said something kind of hurtful. So I started yelling a bit at him and making my point. He had nothing to say and left me alone.

Looking forJamie

I was in a park when I became Lucid. I jumped up and flew a bit trying to get a feel for the dream. I remembered to look for Jamie to see if I could get her not possessed. I asked a bunch of DCs if they had seen Jamie? A crow spoke up and said he knew Jamie. He turned into a man and attacked me. Next Thing I knew I was on the ground and the man was holding me down with a giant arm. I tried to push his arm off me but before I can, I wake up.

C again

Somehow, I am thrown into a dream with C. We are at what appears to be her house. I am wondering why I am there when I am supposed to be looking for Jamie. Me and C are talking and I make an excuse to leave. She looks really upset that I have to leave. I cave in and say I'll stay and watch some Netflix with her. She cheers up and joins me on the couch. I am messing with a remote that doesn't work at all when I wake up.

Finally caught up with Jamie.

I was in an abandoned building at night time and found Jamie crawling around the floor like she was possessed. She looked at me but didn't seem to know who I was. She just kept Ranting about: The boy. The Boy who wasn't leaving her alone.

Jesus intervenes

I'm in an apartment building with a large window. Jesus is sitting there with Jamie and she is looking well. Jesus points at me and says that it was my dybbuk box that possessed her. She then looks at me like she is mad at me. Like it's my fault. I realize it partly is, but I had no idea that buying a dybbuk box could possess someone from a dream.

Backstory: I ordered a dybbuk box from ebay, and also some free holy oil from a church that claims to have a bible that leaks the oil by itself. I am now only waiting the oil in the mail. Also day after I messaged Jamie for real after several years. Still haven't gotten any response.

Keyboards

I was in a giant antique looking store. There big sections, and I walked through a few until I realized it was a musical instrument shop. I immediately went to the keyboard section. I walked up to a funny looking soundboard from a keyboard and somehow pulled the keyboard to me and it almost crushed me. It seemed to be a piano with a retractable keyboard....

Dream skips to outside and Jamie is with me, but can't remember if she was in the shop with me. She was starting to tell me she played keyboard or currently plays it... something like that. I say something about what I like to play on the keyboard. She responds to what I am saying but her words get jumbled up. I ask her to repeat what she said. She starts again but she can't speak properly. I am realizing she is having one of those dreams where you have trouble speaking like I used to get. Then she vanishes as if she had woken up. I wake up soon after.

Inside a house.

As I'm drifting off I briefly enter a dream where Jamie is walking past me, we are in a living room with dark lighting.

Dybbuk

First I'm standing in a house. The dream had been going on for quite some time but I can't recall the details. I'm in front of a couch where Jamie is sitting and she is smiling at me. My dad is next to her and has his arm around her... I'm thinking why would she allow such a thing to happen? I conclude she is perhaps unaware of what is happening and has her attention solely focused on me.

Dream speeds up. I'm alone in the basement living room now and a dybbuk box opens by itself on the floor and a black and white picture of a boy standing in front of a house flies out of the box and onto a wall. Then a ghost boy emerges from the wall.

I fall into sleep paralysis right away and can feel a dark presence. I can't move anything right then but I'm not worried and I know how to get out of it. I focus on the dark presence trying to enter into me by spinning the vibrations faster and again I see the picture against the wall of the boy. I am unsure of what I am trying to accomplish here so I begin praying to Jesus to get me out of this state. For a few seconds I can't seem to move any limbs but then I break free and wake up


Oil

Dream of getting the oil that I ordered for free. Instead of being in a vial, which is what I expected. It was in a large Jar. I pondered what to use it for. People said it heals the sick cancer even. Some said it had even restored marriages, relationships and friendships. I suddenly had an idea of what to use it for.

Oil again

Dream I came home and my aunt had a package for me. It was the oil. She asked what it was for. I explained it to her and then I woke up
The only other dream i had was sex related and it was very intense.

Dreams over the past few weeks.

Jamie dreams have all been short and not very active:

Black space

I'm Standing in a black space with her and we are both smiling.

Chat

Chatting with Jamie over facebook. We both keep saying something about next week we both seem to be really excited about it.

Long drop off from the dreams, about a week or more.

Yesterday:

2 fragments

First one me and Jamie are walking down a street at night time. Second one, she is working with me at mcdonald's and asks the cooker to put down more reg meat.

This morning:

Scary

Jamie comes up to me and says, " this is us." and shows me a kids drawing of her and me dead with x's over our eyes like we just committed suicide. I'm like, "Um, no!" and I give her a picture of us hugging instead.

Switches to another scene of a cinematic shot of ambulances pulling up to a house. Then I'm looking through Jamie's eyes and I'm on a stretcher looking at the men wheeling me into the ambulance... Cryptic.

Other dreams:

Lucid

I was in some big university with some people. It was very crowded and I was lost walking the corridors. Some SJW looking girl and her friend were with me and they kept telling me I was going the wrong way.

I left them and walked into a shower room. In the shower room were a bunch of gay guys wearing fishnets with their goods hanging out. Became lucid here and decided to leave right away. I backtracked a lot and got lost again trying to get out of the university. I found a landing with several staircases going in different directions. I went up the middle one and found a hallway which led to a door outside.

Outside I flew up to get a better view of the area. The building itself was wooden and looked centuries old. I landed on the ceiling that looked abandoned and wandered inside somewhere. I wanted to try teleportation again. I thought of Jamie and wandered through a few doors. She was nowhere but I saw a hole in the floor to small to fit through. I jumped up and tried to use the hole as a portal. When I tried that the dream ended.

Not again

I was flying through a dream portal and landed in a dream with C. "not you again," I said to her and woke myself up from the dream.

Resort

A dream of walking through a vacation resort with a different C. Can't remember much details.

Strange place

I was in a grassy field by a large wooden structure shaped kind of like a bowl. I jumped on it and Saw Bjork there. She said we had to get away from the bad man. I looked and saw a throne. I ran to it and seen a scary guy sitting on it wearing a metal mask. He was holding a metal spear.

Family trip

I was in a strange place with my dad, my brother and his girlfriend. There was a big chute or slide I had to go down but was too afraid because it was a snow slope at the other end. I wasn't even dressed so I told them I had to find a snow suit. I found a large blanket and wrapped myself in it. I woke up before I could go down the chute.