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Jamie showed up but she wasn't happy.

Jamie 1

We were in WOT again... At the beginning of the third book when everyone is sitting in the woods planning. Jamie was sitting by a tree with some one. She was giving me a mean look.

I had no other dreams about her so I don't know what the deal is.

Cats

FA, I'm on a bed like mine but the room is slightly different. Our home cats are on my bed. The grey/ blue cat goes by me wanting to be pet. He does a big pose to show off.


Hopefully now I can get back to my normal routine. Hopefully it will improve the Jamie dreams.

No Jamie dreams 😭. Just haven't been as focused lately with my trip to Lethbridge. Stayed at a loud motel. Even with my audiobook on it didn't help.


Only one dream. Just the sensation I was driving and I got hit from the side of a car.

Something wheel of time related. I was following someone on a path in the woods. Not sure if Jamie was there or not.


I hope the dreams get better soon. I still sensed Jamie in the voice last night. Had some moments.

Finally back home. But spending the long weekend in Lethbridge. My cousin is getting married there Saturday, so leaving Friday.

Jamie trapped

Dreamed that Jamie was in the wheel of time setting. She was in a cage . A man in white garb was questioning her. It was the black guy from the show who was a whitecloak. He left eventually. Jamie grabbed the bars and stared through them. She lightly cried, " Robert."

Next day I asked Raven to help.

Rescue

Just a brief flash. Jamie and two others were freed from their cages. They were thanking me. Jamie wanted a hug but I saw her as a blind girl I didn't recognize. I outstretched my arms but one of t6 guys hugged me instead. My memory fades after.

A but later I wander by a man by a fire. Two wolves approach me. He says not to worry, they won't attack unless I'm an enemy. But they have to sniff me out first. I'm scared and cautious. I but my arms in front to protect my organs or something. They sniff me seeming uncaring but not violent.


I realize this was probably Elyas from the books.

That's all I remember. I need to give Jamie that dream hug.

Jamie 1

I wasn't with Jamie. I was watching her walk down an alleyway by a middle school in Lethbridge on the Northside close to where I use to live. I saw a black shadow/shape following her.

Strange

I think this is WOT related. I was in a bedroom with an older woman who also looked young. She was wearing old style red robes. She reminded me of how someone might dress in the Red Ajah from the books. She was convincing me to sleep with her. I wasn't sure. She has bruises on her arms. Near the bruises the skin showed her real age. She instructed me to sit beside her on the bed. I wasn't sure where to start. She told me to kiss her. I started to even though I really didn't like it. Thankfully I woke up right away.

Big battle

I was floating with Jamie in the sky. We were in The Wheel of Time. Rand was also with us. He was looking at a huge battle on the ground. Armies of Trollocks against human foot soldiers. The humans were losing. Rand started shouting and getting really angry. I can't remember what he did but he wiped out the Trolloc army with a grand display of magic. Jamie was elated at watching the scene. At least she didn't seem to have a problem with me in this dream.


Spoiler for the wheel of time books. The dream seemed to be depicting a scene at the end of the first book.

That's all I remember. Jamie is still talkative in the voice. Just not many dreams. I'm glad she shows up consistently.

Back home tomorrow night yay! And I also have a piano to do at the Didsbury Masonic Hall the next day.


Jamie 1

Just the sensation of us kissing in bed.

Jamie 2

Some woman was talking to Jamie about me. The same woman that kept telling me in dreams that me and Jamie are supposed to have a daughter. This time she's telling Jamie to think of me as her husband..

Okay. Who is this creepy dream lady? I'm skeptical. I did hear from the Jesus voice last year that me and Jamie are supposed to practice like we're married in the voice. Strange.

Jamie 3

Me and Jamie are in bed holding one another.

False awakening, Jamie is in another bed. Some guy hands me a love note and tries to get in bed with me. I just shoot him away.

What's with me and Jamie having these homo dreams lately? Demons be throwing all kinds of pathetic things at us lately. It seems like we're not budging.

Work

Dreamed I was working with that Scott guy again. No thanks.

I'm about to finish the first WOT book. Hopefully I have more dreams about that as well.

Just low recall in general. Had one night of dreams. All of them were too abstract for me to really recall. Maybe one with me and Rand? We were falling? In space , and clutching onto falling or floating beams?. Very fever dream like.

Jamie

One flash. We were by the hood of a vehicle. We emptied out our pockets onto the hood because we were going to split everything equally. But also we were joking and laughing about it. Like children. It's a borderline age regression thing. I guess.


At least it was a positive dream for a change.

Going home tomorrow for 2 days. I'm exhausted.

Jamie

Directly after posting my last entry. Me and Jamie were sitting on the floor facing one another. My hands in hers. We were discussing the seriousness what I said. She seemed to be as serious as me.

Fight

Me and Jamie were walking around in a building somewhere. There were people in sleeping bags on the floor. Some guy was arguing with me. He wanted to get violent. I somehow talked him into not being violent towards me. He got mad and punched someone in a sleeping bag. I went around the corner and told Jamie that we were calling the police on that guy.

I guess the guy heard what I said. In a flash he was fighting me. For a few moves I used his aggression against him. This made him more mad. He got me on the floor and I was trying to hold him back. I can't remember what happened after.

Ladder

Just a dream of working. I was high up a ladder. It started to tip over when I tried to get down. That's all I remember.

Not much dreams. Back home for a couple of days.


Wtf

I was in a large living room. Kittens were around. That skunk was there. It went up to me and wanted to be pet. I pet it.

The dream transitioned to a dinner table. A young girl who was half human and half pony was there. I was telling her how much she had grown in the past few days. She was laughing but unsure what to say. Asuka and Jamie were there I think exchanging confused glances at one another in response to what she said.

Next night I was in bed. Me and the Jamie voice were having discussions about the subject of the last entry. We both seem to have temptations that are difficult to control. And we both know that when we physically come together that we can't indulge with other people that way. But yet, the desires might plague us.

I went into prayer and asked Jesus what should we do then? How do we handle these desires which never seem to go away?

Jesus answered in a dream in a strange way.

[B]Jesus interview[/B]

I saw Jesus in a low income apartment. A television crew was interviewing him. He wore scraggly clothes, and his hair was slightly unkempt. He also wore a black baseball hat. His demeanor was like a ,"Dude. Bro." guy. He was smiling and saying that sometimes he walks around on this earth as a physical man. He talks to a lot of people and some people don't know who he is. Then he took a swing from a beer.

I woke up in shock. I pondered the question I asked him and considered if the dream was a response. The key seemed to be the beer he was drinking. It's said Jesus drank wine in the Bible. He said drunkenness was a sin in the Bible but never said having a singular drink now and then. So, these desires were to be handled in moderation? Unsure I asked in a prayer about the dream and if the beer he was drinking was alcoholic. I got an instant response that it was non alcoholic. So then I figured he was saying to relieve that pressure with a substitute that isn't the actual act.

Interesting.

Cave

Just a dream of me and Jamie, maybe some other people sitting in a dark cave. Jamie was sitting arms around her knees.

Hardly anything. Jamie drive by last night? I saw a grey car pull into the alley by my house while I was outside. The back end of the car reminded me of a station wagon. A head turned to look at me but it was too dark to see. Voice insisted it was her.


One dream was too embarrassing to post.

Guitar


Was at a concert. I was sitting with Jamie. A familiar song started playing. I pulled a guitar out to try and play along. I had a tough time playing it. My fingers weren't working properly. Jamie was Staring at me.

Wedding

Just an audio dream. All I heard was a man saying, "... In sickness and in health..."

Me and Jamie get married in a dream again?

Jamie

Just a flash of her working with me in my Dad's trade. She was putting a tape up high on a wall.

That's it for the Jamie dreams. Wish it were more.

Gross

I seemed to be in the ancient past. I was avoiding a tribe of cannibal natives with red feathers in their hair. I walked by a half eaten dead body on a beach with large rocks. It smelled really bad and I threw up.

McDonald's

I got hired at a McDonald's and some lady manager that seemed to know me started yelling at me for no reason. I got pissed off and quit on the spot.

McDonald's again


I was hired at a McDonald's again. But I was working with younger people who were easy going.

My recall has still been crappy. Maybe one flash or dream per night. I have weekly work in stettler now, our family is restoring one half is a motel. We stay for 5 days, then 2 days in Bowden. We rotate staying home to look after the animals. And it's 30 per hour per person. Could take a few months. At least I have work for now.

Dreams.

Justin

Random dream about our recently former PM. Justin Trudeau. I was in a room like our living room. On a table, I saw a cinnamon bun. No one was around so I ate it. A second later Justin came in and looked at the table. He looked dissapointed at something and left.

Well, I guess he had it coming.

Jamie

Just a flash of Jamie with Dexter. They were both killing someone.

Wal Mart?

I was walking around a Wal Mart. I had memories of working there with a red head girl. But I think it was Jamie in the dream. But she wasn't there. I saw the door greeter guy with glasses who use to be a cashier and he's been there like 15 years.. The lobby, vestibule was like the co-op in Innisfail.

I really hope to have more Jamie dreams. Kind of sad we don't hang out dreams much anymore.

We've been doing good in the voice lately. Except yesterday I had a bad emotional episode, which hasn't happened in quite a while. We got through it and we seem to be on the same page.

Well me and the Jamie voice seemed to have calmed down regarding whatever it was we were having trouble with. That's good. I can't believe it's been over a year already.

Jamie

Just a dream that she was following me in her car.

Note: I hardly left my house. Just a couple times to get coffee. Maybe had a drive by... Black SUV, dark hair and sunglasses, but I couldn't really see. The voice didn't say anything about it.


Jesus

Just a flash of Jesus watching me and Jamie. Or maybe he was with us? Can't remember the details.

I can't remember the other dreams I had. Something about being driven somewhere and arguing with my brother or something.

Well, I keep going to bed late and having a long time to fall asleep. I keep waking up for the washroom but somehow managed to have a couple dreams.

Jamie

Just a dream with Jamie in it. I can't recall what. Just that she was good and being affectionate. Can't complain

This in conjunction with the other morning we both seemed to sense one another strongly. It was really nice. seemed to talk all morning.

oops

A dream about the other co worker in cochrane. He was crying and seemed upset that I didn't want to work with them anymore.

Complicated situation: If they want to deduct pay based on food and sleeping for 6 nights at their place, they should have mentioned that beforehand and not wait until payday. Next asshole that pulls that on me I'll call the labor board or a small claims court.

Might have had a slight lucid. but it didn't last long.

Jamie

She had some food for me or something. This is the only Jamie dream I had...

Semi Lucid

I was outside some weird apartment/townhouse area. I was outside between them. It was night. There was a bunch of people terrified. I looked around. There were wolves sniffing blankets where people were sleeping. It didn't feel real. I said to everyone, "Don't worry, It's just a dream." The wolves were friendly and moved on. Can't remember what happened after this.

At least Jamie dreams are consistent!!!

Not much lately. Another lonely Valentines day. Kind of sad that that I have someone I could spend it with, but for whatever reason. We're not on speaking terms.In dreams and voices she's very re assuring. I seriously wonder sometimes if I'm schitzophrenic. Maybe I only think I see Jamie driving by, or people that look like her. but they all seem connected. The dreams, The voice, The drive bys. On this the jamie voice says she still feels really bad about how she treated me in the past. I'm always re assuring that I'm ready to hear her out, listen, and forgive.

And my drunken co worker friend decided to rip me off. and extra charge for food and accomidation. well, that wasn't discussed at all vefore or during the time I worked with him. And after all his verbal abuse. I let all my BPD rage out on him in some texts. Me personally, I would never rip a friend off or make them feel unsafe hanging with me. This si one bridge I hope to have burned behind me. I don't think he'll be asking for my help again. I mean friggin Mcdonald's and Wal-Mart keep are more Keep more honest books on what they owe their employees (Just make sure you have all your own copies of hourly records including helping other stores. leaving certain managers extra emails and texts any extra hours)

Oh wait. this is a dream blog.

Jamie 1

I was in the Labrynth place again. Jamie was chasing some guy along a landing who was wearing a football helmet and jersey. I called after her but she chased the guy through a door.

*I did ask Raven to help with the dreams*

Jamie 2

I was with Jamie in a busy street or in a mall. someone familiar was by a window. Me and Jamie stopped to talk to her. It was Raven. We asked her if Raven would officiate our wedding. Raven said yes. (I don't think either of us were lucid.)

Raven wrote back and logged a dream where she was by a video game store and then ran into a couple. She wasn't sure if it was me or Jamie or not. but she tried to change the dream to find us, but was unable. Probably because were already there. She didn't recall any converstation about anyone getting married though.