non-lucid

D1 - Outside a set of classrooms, students are congregated waiting to enter class, there is a dividing barrier between classes for queuing.
One student looks at me shocked (DS1) P has crush on me, I vividly feel intense emotion of being in love. She looks on as I give other girl a gift of a magazine, freshly wrapped in plastic. I feel the 2nd intense emotion vividly of the excitement of my lustful(?) and dark underhand emotions, delicious. Next I am in a girls locker room, there are long benches and people discussing the event. I bump into a third girl who is notorious for being gay, she is after the girl with a crush on me, prey. I suggest with a openly flirtatious look that i am available. She is shocked but accepting of my advance.
I signal for us to go somewhere private. I am worried she will tell all about me. We enter a white (ds) area with a lift to the right, thread bare school carpet and white columns to the middle right, a bland poster on a wall. We head behind the columns to an area ahead with chairs and potted plants. She has dark school uniform with some grey, large bag with strap across her chest. She has long brown hair and pleasant features, nose maybe little to promentant , brown eyes, some makeup. I feel her emotion, she has love but a more general one, she loves all girls. I shock her by dispassionately proceeding to discuss the attractive features of each girl, as i see it.
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I wake 1:32am feeling a strong sensation over my chest, it is a tingling and burning sensation. It is dark in the room but in my minds eye I see short orange and black flames coming from my chest area. (similar occurance to after first ld at dv, but much less intense, that was x100 this being x10 ), similarly on recalling memory sensation tho dulled felt also.
- dream sign of vivid familiar face looking at me, smiling.
/took about an hour before went off to sleep again due to
a) wanted to ensure recalled details with my current method (dont want to have to get up, annoys partner if am up or scrawling notes)
b) intense experience to while to settle down

D2 - Old man, white beard , brown coat (giver ? jeff bridges) is teaching me survival skills. We are laying on large wooden structure which is also home. Size and shape of large train caboose, some wood is piled next to us. I seem to be not unlike tom sawyer.
seems long dialogue then i leave. Other children give farewell prank, spraying liquid over me from toilet seat in back of caboose (one holds others legs while one lays inside ), they look like street urchins.

D3 - In office, old chunky pcs with large white monitors, everywhere. I start to help technician who turns up to fix a monitor. We swap monitors to try and diagnos problem. New head of dept turns up, long blondie hair, heels etc. Confusion over why we are going to other branch. Not to meeting at 1-2pm but to fix monitor. Then standing by slanted countertop with trailing wires like xmas lights, joke with head about swapping monitor with starbucks next door.

D4 - frags
- stepping cautiously over many prone bodies of sleeping ? sunbathers. Am spotted by guy with short dark hair and intelligent eyes but get to sea. Jump in and swim, under warm sun.
- Editing video, seemed like longish repeating dream.
1st was cutting scene then realised was long due to tension of whether girl in box car would live or die. Then context changed on same scene completely changing same footage.

D1- I was living on housing estate, with walkway overlooking rectangular shared area. Only flats, walkway etc were all made of semi transparent blocks of different colours and everything else including space below was black ( a bit like an x-ray view). Fearful of becoming homeless, returning to home to find could not get in. Squalid conditions, nosey neighbours.
d2- A doctor was trying to kill/poison me.

D1 playing some rpg game with a serious lot of mobs in some big level (ive had dream with this fictional game in before)
I tank for someone to help them level up.

D2 - Milly and one other operative are competing over who will get the next mission from me xD They are briefed in a large lecture theatre.
Milly drives a very large white (!) car (its almost has dolphin curves to the sides) . Needless to say she beats the other person. We rendevous, parking our cars on a long stretch of road and talk standing by railings,

D3 - wake up to find staying in a cramped house. Downstairs in the kitchen/dinner im angry at not getting to sit with my family. i am a child. I refuse the breakfast and take a bite of something and run out of the house.
i am at the seaside the early morning is dark and hazy, the weather squawly. I climb a set of long wooden steps up over looking the sea. i plan to jump in and swim or drown (not sure) but when i look i am overcome by the vastness of the sea. large vessels look like tiny ants in the vastness if the inky black cold ocean.

D4 - My team, probably Milly and one other, are playing a chess competition. we are in a cramped badly lit room with multilevels and a low ceiling. the other teams are cheating two vs one. i try and persuade the team captain of this. she is unswayed, so i challenge her to a match to decide. i am not sure my superpowers will not stop working in this dream (they can be unreliable) and a agree to try next time.

D5 - At parents house a child i know stops a smaller one from waliking off with a motor bike. I thank him but do not trust him (he stole stuff at school) i make sure garage/gate/shed locked and warn parents.

D6 - dreamlet Milly has some cool looking blades, with holes in them, quite curvey and seriously sharp.

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pondering meaning of white (dream state) and animalistic tendencies
(2nd occurance in a dream, last time giant dark claw marks on white car)
car symbolise journey i guess
have read stuff about mamimilian brain and reptilian ?
with regard to frontal lobe activity during lucid dreaming

DL1 - Family sitting down to dinner in an old cabin style house. Eating a large tuna steak. Everyone gets a tiny peice except the man who gets pretty much all of it.
Oily juice spills out of the steak onto the white plate.

DL2 - The man races as fast as he can on bicycle to get to the cabin before a man with a hat (lee van cleaf style) gets to the cabin with some repossession papers.
He jumps off but the bicycle carries on spinning through the air. Outside is a dusty mud path/highway up to the cabin.

DL3 - There is advertisement to meet women (dating ) one is dressed in blue. He arrives to meet the lady in a old style restaurant. They are drinking from pint glasses some kind of ale.
She throws a ball across the room that almost knocks the glasses carried by a veteran of the place.

DL4 - The man reaches the cabin in time and huddles in the center of the room near some crates. He wraps himself naked in an animal skin.
He summons a ghost to protect the house. Large footfalls are seen in the dust on the floor.

I tryed to imagined a scene for reentering the dream.

DL5 - This is now the start of the original dream story line.
I saw a zelda-esc forested area. A sunny day on horse back through a along a slight incline through the trees. There is a dwelling, perhaps a church and a castle in the distance that I need to get to.
The horse is taken and I have to carry on on foot.

DL6 - At the house, is the mastermind OpheliaBlue and her henchman. Both sitting one in a wing chair the other on a large settee, with the sun streaming in from large bay windows. There are pictures on the walls and some old wooden cabinets.
I attack the henchman with spinning saws I summon. They slice through him, leaving lines traced across him. He smiles blithely and is healed. I try again. He tells me he can not be destroyed as this is a dream and the dream energy flows through all things here.
He reheals again so I grab him and drop kick him through the ceiling, smashing a big hole in the wall. Ophelia is still sitting impassive. She says she cannot be hurt as the dream energy not centered on her it is the very fabric of the dream itself and nothing can really be hurt.
I wake up.

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Evidently I was worrying a little to much about hurt DC. As my subconscious says its ok and not to worry.
The rest of the dream aint got a clue right now...

k figured 3rd person dream watching some guy's life...
I had long convo with Milly about bullying and that it often stems from adult bullying...
In dream Guy bullies family taking all food threateningly , then goes out drinking with another woman spending all their money...
but is shown to be vulnerable as shown being naked hiding in cabin...

Had long dream where I was trying to kill a child...my motivation was fear...
The was a child smiling I though out of devilment initally.
I was trying to kill them by bludgeoning them with a chair. I was careful to cover the area with plastic bags to avoid blood going everywhere . the child continued to smile. i killed them. afterwards i realised they were smiling because they loved me and didnt mind how much pain i caused them.
i resurected a child...they were not quite the same but i tryed.

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i believe i have been hurting myself with my own negative thoughts and lack of self love. but my subconscious still loves me.
i will try to be more aware of my emotions.

D1 - Someone was recommending different things to me to improve my awareness. Awareness of sight not sound...gave me a letter to scrutinize the tiny writing, and suggested some other things.

D2 - A young female, dark hair and long lashes is having oral sex.

Spoiler for brief details:

It is all very vivid and close up. The woman is strangely disconnected from the act. The view zooms in, now I can see minute details, veins pulsing standing out, shiny skin texture. even the smell. It lasts a while, seems a long time then all is over. Can still see vacant expression in womans eyes.

D3 - In a student halls of residence corridor, white walls, lots of doors, dimmly lite. Three female students and talking to me about course work. One invites me back to her room. She shows me her essay on her laptop but while i'm looking at it she slips her clothes off. She exposes herself to me.Its a little distracting but I try and ignore her.

D4 - Brightly lit bedoom white walls, there is a big TV on. Laying on bed with partner I start to get luvy dovey but they're not interested. xD


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Dream signs everything is white in my dreams indoors yet still dull i guess no colours, and when outside everything is dark and/or rainy

D1 - I am making posts to the subconscious with someone else. Posts have to be made by painting a picture of a face.
(Hmmm it looked like one of LinKZeldas 3D models, hope i'm not breaking copyright using it in my dreams .)
I tryed sending a message using broad brush strokes in vivid green and yellow (not human face).
I then go back in to edit it, to make my message clearer.
Others try but are enable to send clear messages.
D2 -
On hols being advised where to go and what to eat and do.
Sitting at a restaurant table with two others.
I almost fall off my chair onto concrete below.

[comment] I feel powerless in D2

D1 - I am standing infront of my class. Rows and rows of DV Academy students. Right class today your challenge is to create your own mech totem. Students begin producing mech of all types and colours, nice vivid greens, yellows and browns. Multicoloured.
I stop the children *cough* students with a tu tu tarooo (sound effect from steins gate) so cool!!
The students get carried away producing more and more mechs...despite many tu tu tarooos they just keep on...nvm

D2 - On holiday staying in very drab accomodation. White walls and view of boring building, ugh. Room is partitioned off from partners section by white curtain (like a hospital one).
I go pull down large white blind over window. Then head off out of room to what seems like a kitchen/lounge area there I find two people.
I have sex with one then go back to bedroom after arranging to meet up with them later to spend the night.

D3- At a familar playground in a park I stand waiting. It is dark and overcast then it starts to rain heavily. In the downpour I put on plastic bags over my shoes as the water is rising fast. I wade across the playground, I also put on a swimming hat to protect my hair
I head to where my group are huddled under some trees. My way is temporarily blocked by a tiny man being carried. He looks tiny in his smart black suit and little trilby hat when compared with the gigantic gorilla of a man that is carrying him in a dark heavy coat.
It reminds me of a pantomime costume where one person is the head and one the body.

[dreamlets such a cute term...love it...here are my lovely little dreamlets]

D1
- Deciding which person would go next into the territory 1,2 or 3 all very fair. Written on a paper circling the numbers.
- In some kind of camouflaged (final piece of the puzzle) shed with occupants 1,2 & 3 (another clue, three colours maybe)
In the back of the shed are many different tools/gadgets to be used for the assignment but only one is coloured and it's pink.
- Unrolling wrapping paper to see the hidden patterns on the paper! (unravelling the puzzle!)

[Comments] Reverlation time!
Now i've had a dream with VIVID light GREEN
Then VIVID BLUE
Finally VIVID pale PINK
in four separate dreams, one colour for each dream (I got green twice),
these are the colours I use for marking...so I thought what does marking have to do with anything important...
I thought marking = writing in books = dream journaling!
MY SUBCONSCIOUS is telling me to look through my dream journal for dream signs...and take my recall/journal more seriously I think.
I have been glass half full recently (maybe cos i've been sick) now I will be glass half FULL about my progress...and check out my journal daily...
(I actually had a "waking state" urge to look through my journal but then went into negative self talk)
Thank you Thank you subconscious <3 for da kick up da ass

didn't get much sleep...partner rolled in drunk...and kept me awake way to long :/ and I had the weirdest dreams.
D1 - dreamt I had a butt tattooed on my butt...wtf...talk about pointless tattoos...it was quite a nice butt but still :!? just weird
D2 - had been dreaming about colour green now its colours blue. Was a beautiful blue dragon like the one off a soy sauce bottle maybe, chinese but way bigger and more sparkly.
I dreamt I could dream share and OpheliaBlue (probably why blue dragon) was in my dream, or rather I was in hers. I asked her what we should do as I couldn't use any control as it was her dream. But then I could use my tail as I had a giant cat tail to transport her all the way up to the moon. When she got there she pulled me up by my tail (not yank, just gave a lil tug). Then there was a blue dragon that I conjured up and we went somewhere, a forest near a lake to try and find some spirit animals...don't remember anymore...

[my head hurts...and the rest... I wanna go sleep now zzZZZ...my daught is asking me exam questions :/ and bringing her mates round...halp]

In an office wearing my pajamas, normal office with printers and desks and people and things.
I accidentally take some things from the printer as I pick up my own stuff. Turns out its some green cards (yesterday was green line )
that belong to the headteacher. He is not best pleased and take's em back pronto. I then have to talk to some customer via skype...bet they love my pjs.

- On a train helping some student carry their bags.
- In a house, students having a gallon of wine for breakfast. I had to try and pass it up a vertical set of stairs to them, precariously.
- a court case being held with me required to give evidence on a students behalf. Some document or other with a green line across it.

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Feeling a bit burnt out...and pissed with self after semi-lucid earlier in week, that recall falling back to near zero.

My recall is coming back...Yay!!
But all the landsapes in my dreams were so bleak Oo...
D1 - fragment - Trying to find a parking space outside a giant monolithic shopping centre...so grey...yuck...

D2 - In a dark gloomy pub, concealed lightning...hmm wouldn't notice if you spilled your pint in here...
There are few customers and it looks like despite new management the place will go under...usual.
Then I have inspired idea of changing the music in the pub and for every grumpy old man sitting nursing his pint, a lady (partner)
arrives in brightly dressed clothes to sit beside them. And the whole place cheers up. YeeHaaa.

D3 - We are looking down into a street from a side window. We can clearly see neighbours carrying bags up and down steps. They are chatting. My partner tells me they have bags and bags of xmas shopping. I say no its fire wood which I can clearly see sticking out of their bags. Big branches with knobbly bits.
I go downstairs and across the street. Outside another house an old disheveled man comes up to me. He has some groceries.
I ask what he is doing he says he has come up to London to do some shopping. He looks suspicious and not to clean.
I try to get rid of him but he eventually follows me into the apartment block.
There is a grey courtyard below with doors leading off. Its is cold.
I feel fearful of him, that hes going to do something. My partner is still somewhere else.
Now hes in my apartment! What is it with this guy!?
Now were upstairs, there is a house on the roof. Grey with just wet plaster walls, no paint.
He is talking about how it would be good to live there. I try quietly to tell him about crazy OCD neighbour and how it would be impossible.
He uses my bathroom and then while his back is turned, suddenly his son is there also. I don't know what to do and in the end.
Karate chop them both on the shoulders to dispose of them :/ oopsy.

- 1) After dream I realise the people were similar to father and son in "the road" film
- 2) realise that I had totally rejected my dream characters...well if I could get lucid id make em a room of their own, whatever.

lots of fragments
D1 at seaside on holiday shortly before returning home (dream sign)
went for a last minute swim but didnt have any cosy...put clothes near a rock to collect after and went in fairly naked i guess
D2 in a classroom showing some codes for something on interactive whiteboard , all fine. then next time couldnt get it to work...awkward silence as i wage war with the technology but still doesnt work.
D3 trying to find old computer hardware, console for my brother so he can play some game.
D4 several 5 i think codes hidden in different places...one is in a mine of some kind ..there is rubble strewn everywhere but entrance cannnot be seen as on hillside...grassy.
D5 codes look like chinese graphology but made out of arrowroot herb. carved from or look like some vegetable.

Had an afternoon nap...cat nap...and dreamt I was lucid dreaming...the more I read the deeper my lucid...
woke up from incredibly deep sleep....quite groggy...