Leaving the matrix

I'm in my room, and it's mostly dark, I see this face cleaner I have and it is levitating and some girl tells me it is satanic, and the face cleaner breaks itself into three parts and a voice comes from behind it that I guess sounds most like darth vader, I get up and run to the bathroom and contemplate cleaning my face ever again.

I am walking right in the middle of a bunch of basketball courts right in the middle of peoples games, then I walk right through a base ball field and right through their game and disrupt their game, then I realize my mom is chasing me so I sprint and then hop a fence and run into a building, It's a theater playing a twilight movie, I watch it then leave the theater and my mom spots me and starts chasing me again so I run again, I go into the building next to the previous one, it looks like a theater again but smaller, I see people eagerly waiting for something to begin, I hear a bell and see people run to the bottom and grab copper metal squares with a square hole cut out, and they begin to play ping pong with it while the other people sigh because they didn't get to play ping pong that round.

I'm at my grandmas house and most of my family is there, (even the ones I haven't seen in years because of their own imagined conflict). They're all sitting on the chairs and couch in the living room, I go and sit on the chair by the front door that doesn't work. When I do this a guy I don't recognize walks into the room and to me as if I took his usual chair and everybody knows it or something. I don't get up, so he sit on the couch and gives me more irritated glances, then my walks over and basically sits on my making me move so she also has room on the chair, then she says stuff to me that I guess was funny because she busting up laughing, but I was to distracted by my surroundings. I get up and go into the kitchen and my grandma gives me this giant raisin oatmeal cookie that's in a ziplock bag, I thank her and I put it by the phone planning to eat it later, then My grandma and my sister go into the hallway somewhere, I feel like they're tiptoeing around me like I'm dangerous, and my grandma's trying to get people to not piss me off, I'm confused by this, I walked back into the living room worried that I at some point did something that showed my true colors, I was good at hiding it before. Then I walked to the back of the living room to the chair I always sit on, when I sat down I realize my sister is sat in a chair across the living room, and my grandma walks over to me and gives me my sisters cranberry bread loaf that's in a ziplock bag, it's huge like a pillow, I ask my sister why she doesn't want it, she tells me she doesn't feel like sweets, then my grandma tells me I can cut it like a sandwich and put meat and cheese in it, and I tell her that sounds pretty good, so I get up and hug her, then I go to the kitchen and put it with the cookie, while I'm in the kitchen I see two boys fighting then they exit the door, and I run after them because they're going towards my grandpa and I don't want them to accidentally hurt him. I catch up to them they went in the garage, and they're getting physical with each other, so I pull out my switchblade on them but when I open it my blade fly's lose and almost slices my own finger off, I get transfixed with my knife wondering if a screw fell off or something. Then after I find a screw and think it goes to my knife, I walk back into the house, and see my bread loaf mostly eaten, and my grandma and sisters sitting there looking fearful, and I ask them what's wrong, and I tell them that I don't mind, they can have the rest for all I care, and I just begin to feel sick again that they would fear me for some reason, for something I would never direct towards them. I go into the living room again and everyone is gone, but it suddenly is cold and foggy outside, so I look out the window and see chickens a turkey, roosters, and a little horse, I ask my grandma where they came from, and she says she's just been wanting them, then I wonder why it's so cold right now in the summer and the animals look uncomfortable and I think it will be some much worse for them in the actual winter.

For some reason I decide to take drugs, something like ecstasy. Then there is a bit of the dream highly disoriented, just bits of visual and my laughing. then it seems like the next day when I awaken I realize something is wrong in my mouth, so I go into the bathroom to look in the mirror. I see that a word has been carved all the way through my front teeth, the words "rock and roll" ground deep but not all the way through my bottom right front side of my teeth, the words "quantum power" carved very lightly into the inside bottom left side of my teeth, and other words on my teeth that I can't quite understand, but worst of all is the tattoo on the inside of my bottom lip it's big and long in black and white very noticeable almost shows when my mouth is shut, it says something mortifying (I don't want to tell it to anyone so I won't write it here). I flip out and ask my friend who the hell did this to my mouth?! she tells me that when I was on drugs I forced some guy to do it, so I go find the guy and yell at him for doing this to my mouth but he yells back that I forced him to do it to my mouth when I was high. I tell him that since the lip tattoo is white with black out lining that he needs to cover it up with red and black, he agrees and I tell him no words, just make it looks like a wound with blood so he does and I get only a little relief for now my teeth have holes and damage that I can't hide.

I'm with and older cousin and her husband and children. We're in front of this gate that leads to this disneyland/college campus, but my cousin seems irritated that there is a women in a toll booth looking thing saying that it's not free anymore and that we have to pay to get in. So we start walking away, the toll booth lady gets distracted, and I see my cousin running into the gate opening so we all follow her in. then I walk off a little and the scene turns into like a costco store and I find the purple beach cruiser that my sister had as a child and I get on it and ride around a few aisles and I see a boy riding a blue version of the beach cruiser and we laugh because we both know we shouldn't be riding the bikes around the store, we decide we want to check out the other bikes for sell because we're more into bmx bikes. We get to the bike section but there's all these different acoustic guitars for sell there. We stand there confused wondering where the bikes are as an employees approaches us and tells us we can't ride bikes in the store so we ride away around some more aisle and find more bikes, they spread out one or two every aisle it's strange. And the bikes I find are ugly mountain/bmx bike hybrid looking things with 90's paint job on them. Then next thing I know me and the boy are getting ready to teleport or something, something big, and he tells me to sit in a chair and wait for the woman to come, when she comes she teleports the boy one body part at a time, next she does me, I sit in the chair and she sees my face and freaks out so I run off and she chases me and now we're running around this pool that is in the middle of nowhere, like a opening in a huge corn field, I threaten her that I'll jump in the water, so I do and I sink, then I get pulled to the shallow end by her and the boy, and now there's lots of other people there in the pool and out of the pool just watching the situation.

My mom tells me that we're going back to Vegas, even though we went last month. She say we're going today and that we need to pack now. I go in my room and get distracted by something, next thing I know me my sister and my mom are in the car driving through Nevada desert. When we get there I get out of the car and realize that I am in my pajamas, I panic because then I realize I didn't pack anything at all! I have no clothes to change into and I'm not even wearing any socks or shoes. I tell my mom this and ask her if we can go back home so I can pack things, my mom says no and that it was a 7 hour drive, but my grandma over hears and says she'll take me back home to get clothes and my mom says okay. next thing I know I'm at my grandmas house, we're entering the front door, she tells me to go and pack everything I need and that she'll cook us some dinner real quick so I go, but I go into the bathroom and get distracted, a cat is licking water that is overflowing from the bathtub, i think someone left the water running on accident so I try to find how to turn it off, the switches are strange, but I finally see an on/off switch and flick it then the water turns off. I leave the bathroom, but then for some reason turn around and go back in, this time my little dog is drinking from the toilet water, it is overflowing, I figure i must've done something to it, so I run and tell my grandma and she fixes it. Again I leave the bathroom and remember I should be packing and we'll be leaving soon, but when I get to the back bedroom I see water leaking in, from a trail that leads back to the bathroom, so I follow it and see it is the sink overflowing with water, but i don't seem to know what to do, I just stare at it until my grandma walks in, she says she'll take care of it and tells me to go pack so I go back to the room and grab a back pack, I throw on some clothes and for some reason decide not to wear my usual shoes, I put on one black vans slip on and then walk out the room and bring the back pack, but then I freak out when I realize I only have one shoe on and go back to the back room and dig through other peoples shoes trying to find my other match. When I find it i go to the kitchen and we eat meat and soup. Then we decide to head back to Vegas. Next thing I know we are in Vegas in a hotel room, I open my backpack and see that everything is dirty, all the clothes, but I'm happy that i have clothes anyway, but i try to hide the clothes so no one see's that they are dirty, but everyone in the room starts to look in and i zip my backpack and put it next to my feet so that they can't get at it and look at it.

I'm at some place, I'm not sure where but I need to go to the bathroom so I enter the bathroom door, there are so many stalls, organized strangely, some of the stalls have two doors with one door leading to whole separate areas of more stalls, and they have those changing room wood blinds type things going on and I know people would follow me and watch me, and some of the stall doors are to short both on the bottom and top, and some of the toilet seats are filthy but have good stall doors. I just keep going deeper and deeper trying out stalls, but then someone will enter my area so then I'll walk farther trying to find a suitable stall. Finally I get to this area of stalls that has changing rooms in between each stall like a pattern, and a wall in front of the stall, but then some girl comes in and I get irritated and then a security guard appears and yells at me to get out of the changing room area, but then me and the girl explain to him that there is also stalls in the room and he says "oh okay" then walks away, and then I try one more stall, but that girl follows me so I say" fuck this, I don't have to shit anymore", and then I just walk out of the bathroom contemplating weather or not I still need to take a shit..

I'm in a mall in front of an elevator, I see a woman exit the elevator, she works their I think she is security or something, I want to go the the third floor that I think is employees only because I think there is free stuff up there, so I get into the elevator and hit the third level button. When the doors open I see it is full of customers and workers spraying perfume on them trying to get them to buy it, I realize I was wrong and that either they don't have a secret floor, or that the secret floor is floor 4 or maybe the basement, but I walk in the floor anyways, I go through all the people, a big tall girl stops me and tells me to go with her, I think she wants to show me perfume, I go with her, she sprays me with perfume, but then suddenly we are sitting at her desk and she turned into a small guy, he is giving me a psychiatry session, but he's telling me stuff he shouldn't know so I pull my hand away from him and almost run but for some reason I sit down again and the guy has turned into a different girl, she tells me that my hand writing is exactly like my dads and she shows me and says it's wrong, I'll turn out like him and that you can't use that many capitols. I start looking at this clock on the wall trying to figure out how long I've been sitting there, but I can't add it up, and the girl is trying to distract me from it because she wants to keep wasting my time..

My dream begins at a school, it's this school that is in many of my dreams, I think it's just all the schools I've been to mixed into one making it look like a place I've never been. I'm with friends but I pay so little attention to them I don't know which they are, I seem to have an urgent purpose. It is lunch time, because kids are walking around with trays and the campus if crowded. It has all grades it looks like, because I see what look like elementary aged students to teen students. I walk away from the people that I suppose were talking to me, I couldn't care less because I had to find someone, I didn't know who because I wasn't clued into the part of me that was so urgent with a purpose, it's is like there is two separate minds working within me, I literally don't know what and why I am doing, but I rode along with my body nonetheless. I see cheerleaders practicing cheers and I walk up to them I find a girl and I place my hand on her shoulder for her to turn around and when she does I here the other minds thought, that this is the teen sister, I need to find the younger sister. The girl seemed exited that I might need her for something but the other mind says I need to know where her younger sister is. The teenager seemingly disappointed points to the direction her little sister is, and says she's at her own cheer practice. So on goes my body with purpose again, I see a crowd of people within this cement room area outside, when I walk in all the people move their attention off of the cheerleaders over to me and give me a weird look, I think because I am older than them, they think a senior is in their area or something (I'm not a senior, I'm not in school anymore), but I walk around what's happening in the middle and I spot the girl I was looking for, she looks 10 or 11 years old, has very light brown long hair that's slightly wavy, unlike her older sister who had medium length straight dark brown hair. I admire it as I stand on the sidelines waiting, I guess for her cheer practice to end. (This part is weird to me, it is as though I had amnesia within my dream) Next thing I know I'm at the front exit of the school, I can see outside and the sun is starting to set, I decide to head out and walk for the door, but I get a feeling, I look to my left and about 25 feet away is the young cheerleader with her mother, they are in the attendance office line. They are both looking at me intently, I assume it is like when you see a friend and you stare at them until they see you and you both wave, so I smile at them and keep walking on my way. This time it's like I know who they are but it's not all my will or attention on the girl, I feel like kind of just an acquaintance and walk off outside. While I walk out I make my way to the sidewalk and begin to turn and walk the way down towards where I think I live I guess, but I'm stopped by the mom and daughter, I can see they're both panicked, the mother is carrying her daughter in her arms, I very worried ask them what is going on, are they okay, and do they need help, then the mother tells me I need to take off what I did to her child...I being majorly confused ask her what is she talking about? She then goes on to say that I need to un-hypnotize her daughter, I need to undo what I did to her daughter.. I feel I've never been more confused, I don't understand what she is talking about, I tell her this, I tell I didn't do anything to her, I didn't hypnotize her, but she just keeps on insisting I undo what I did to her daughter and then she places her daughter in my arms and hastily walks off. I look down at the girl and I see she is in distress, I ask her whats going on and then the second the girl opens her mouth, a memory hits me like the clearest vision, I see what I did I assume after the cheer practice. I see that I took her somewhere quiet and I hypnotized her to love me, I hypnotized her to love me greatly, I did it over and over. Once I realize what I've done, not my mind, but personality changes I suppose into the personality the other mind had, I now have somewhat the motives the other mind had. I look down at the girl and I see her struggling in her head, she loves me but because it's hypnosis she knows I'm only making her do it and she knows she doesn't, she doesn't want to feel what she's feeling. At this point there is a part of me judging me for what I've become while I am doing and thinking things. Instead of help the girl and un-hypnotize her, I feel I need to defend myself even though I know I'm wrong. I stare at her and think of my options while I'm still telling her I didn't hypnotize her even though I know damn well I did. A memory comes into my head, one of a man who taught me the specific hypnosis for the girl. I decide I will find him and tell him I need to hypnotize her again, I need to hypnotize her to forget I ever hypnotized her and to still love me, I don't want anyone to know this awful thing I've done. I carry the girl with me and start walking back to the school doors so I can find the man. (Then I wake-up)

I'm getting chased by this car with blacked out windows, I go down streets then hop fences to other streets so the car will have to make u-turns to catch up, I run over this small grass hill that leads to another fence, I hop it and on the other side is more grass on flatland, it's grass like that in a old video game, all the blades of grass are rounded and blueish green. I sit in the grass and feel it. Then I realize a man is sitting on the edge of the fence, he tells me he's just crow, (crow is at cat I had for 16 or 17 years that died a few years back). Then he morphed into crow and I realize I must've entered a portal of sorts, I see a door across from us and run to it and open it and go through and am led to this old house with many doors of many sizes I know all of which are portals. I stick my head through a few but never go through because I want to go back to crow, I get interrupted by my half sister and her daughter, her daughter is being a brat so I go back out the door I came so I can pet crow, my half sister asks me where I'm going, I tell her crow is out there, she doesn't believe me and tells me to prove it, so I tell her to come with me through the portal and she does. When we're through i go on the grass and call out for crow, I don't know where he went, my half sister marvels at the grass and laughs at my calling for crow going ignored. Finally I see a paper towel to the right of us, I run and pick it up knowing it was crow, she laughs at me and says I've gone insane, but I ignore her and keep petting crow, then I stand up and water falls down I get confused and asked jokingly if my water broke, and My half sister says no crow just pissed on you, and I laugh because she just admitted the paper towel was crow. Then the men in the car return and hop the fence into the grass, they have two wolfs, me and my half sister panic and run for it. The two men inject the seemingly nice wolfs with something in the neck, then within a few minutes the wolf become evil and go after us, One catches up to me and bites me all over, I take out my stun gun and give him a jolt and he falls to the floor long enough for me to get my switchblade out and slit it's throat. The second wolf is going after my half sister so I tell her to cut it's throat so she does, she didn't get bit, I new In a little bit I'd probably turn out how the dogs were because I got bit, I see my half sister run into this crate looking place, it has hot dogs everywhere and it's like a steam room, there's kids and elders and they're all letting racoons, rabbits and other animals sweat it out, they tell me they had the poison but sweating it out takes it away, my half sister is sitting with people she tells me to sweat it out before I turn, so i get on the floor and pull out my stun gun again and tell her if i turn to zap me and she agrees, then I lay down face down, my body then begins to slide very very slowly back and forth as if i was on a rocky boat, I can hear all the people whispering in fear about me creeped out that I'm sliding, wondering if I'll change to monster or sweat it out in time, this seems to go on for several minutes, but then I sit up sloppily and dizzy and the people gasp, I grab a hot dog and eat it and mumble something to a kid, but then I feel something coming on so I run through the room and run out side and then these teeth like a mako shark come out of my mouth as I roar like a fuckin lion, i realize it didn't work but I didn't want to hurt them so I ran as far as I could before I lost all control. Then I go through this glass building getting darker an darker, I see this couple in a glass window shaped like and air balloon and they're enjoying themselves looking at a view of dark water. I go through these glass blinds and find these two girls in extravagant dresses and yell at them where are they going? then they yell at me to follow them, I thought they were leading me into the glass air balloon, but instead we go down glass mirror stairs that are so sleek and they go down in a circle swirl That we just slide fast down against the walls of it then we end up under all I saw and they go back up but I just hide under the stairs while girls in beautiful dresses go up the stairs.

I am in an unfamiliar classroom, it's is part of a school/mall/fair. It's my third grade teacher. I'm sitting next to this girl I knew in elementary, she takes out Oreos, and mini bags of cookies and tries to sneak them to only me, but then all the students around us see and hold their hands out begging for cookies loudly. This get the teachers attention, and she walks over and scolds the girl, I ate the Oreo before she saw and slipped the mini bag into the girls backpack without being seen. I think I'm still in trouble though. then at the end of the class the teacher comes around and gives each student a sticker with a grade on it and a little ball with a picture on it and on the wall towards the exit is the chart that says what picture is what grade. I expect bad one's, she give the cookie girl bad grades, but then she comes to me and gives me an A+ sticker and a ball, she said it was because I cried from reading the book. Then the bell rings and we get up and I take my ball to see what it means on the chart, it is a B+. Then we go outside and it's a shopping center/carnival, I see a girl I used to know and she tells me to follow her so I follow her through play tubes, and then she goes down a water slide and I don't want to get wet so I go around but then I never see her again. Then I'm in a field with carnival stuff laid everywhere, a whole group of goths are mad because the big corporate company took their spot beneath the trees that they wanted to set up their tents to camp, Then we realize they took their stuff down for the end of the day and i tell them to set up camp there before they return. Shortly they return and this big woman runs up to me screaming in my face to have this stuff gone but I ran away from her. Then I turn into an RV, I'm driving on the train tracks following trains and i go through this thing where the train will go over fish tanks, so I go over it and I barely balance, I realize how amazingly a car can turn when you are actually the car and not just driving it. I make it over the tank and the people sitting around having coffee cheer for me, and I exit to this underpass that has a view of the ocean and a whole bunch of goths are sitting on cement ridges having a view of it, I'm me again and walk over there so I can sit and get a view but none of them want me to sit near them but I see people I used to know want me to sit with them but they pretend not to see me.

I entered into a lucid dream, when I started seeing things in my eyelids I decided to make the eyes into something not threatening so they started to form into the eyes of a kitten until I was in a dream and holding a little black kitten with blue eyes, I jumped out of bed and ran to my door with the kitten. (I don't know why I sprint for my door whenever I WILD) I opened the door before I could think up of a scene or place to go but it was to late anyways because I then lost the lucid and began dreaming that this man was chasing me through this house with many rooms, I ran to the back and ran outside on this porch/dock and saw many people on little one person speed boats and I held out my thumb thinking maybe one would give me a ride before the man caught up, then all the people pointed guns at me, and a women laughed and said please please please let me do it let me just do it. and I looked at her shocked and said no and then ran into the brush she kept her gun pointed at me the whole time. woke up

(WILD)I entered the lucid dream when I could see through my eyelids, I instantly jumped out of my bed, I opened my curtains and marveled at how wrong my mind recreated my window, its all skinny now but in waking life it is big. Suddenly I shoot back into my body and my sister is shaking me try to wake me up but I can't move but I mumble to her that I'm just paralyzed for a bit and to hold on, but then I think how could she have gotten into my room when it was locked, so I shoot back into lucid and get up and she is gone, I walk out of my door and run through the kitchen and go outside, I don't know why i didn't try to change scenes, i just know that I was intrigued at how well it all looked yet things were different. I saw my neighbors through the window and they looked different (damn woke up because certain people insist upon stomping around the house with all the force they can muster up)

(WILD) I realize I entered a lucid dream when suddenly I could see through my eyelids, I quickly decided to make a scene, I make the circus circus hotel in Vegas for some reason, I guess because I was reading about it before hand. I am walking through the casino lobby floor, and the security and the guests are all giving me weird looks, they're all staring at me and the security guards begin to advance towards me so I make hand movements at them and make them fly into the air into a wall, then I go to the front of the casino and see that the stairs that are there are burned down in construction, and their is a random trampoline there i briefly think that I didn't construct this scene very well (I lose control of the lucid and fade into non lucid dreaming) I go on the trampoline and jump with a man and a woman in business suits.

(DILD) I was in some weird mansion type place, half scary ride looking and half red-light district looking. Some woman with strawberry blonde hair and tattoos walks up to me singing and I think that my cousin might like her music (then i became lucid for some reason) I realize i am dreaming and when I turn a corner i decide to try to change the scene, I open a door and try to picture something but i couldn't think of a good scene, so i ended up at my grandmas house. it's dark out though. I don't go to see my grandparents or anything though, instead I decide to work on my flying, I'm not very good at it yet. I put my arms in the air like super man and take off fast, but then I start to fall backwards back to earth, the feeling is horrible like the tickle feeling on a roller-coaster. I try again and try to go up and straight instead of straight up then falling back down. As I'm practicing my flying I see things in the dark, such as shadow men and yellowish white rotted skinned men and they're running from behind tree to tree slowly getting closer to me, I think that they're just something i created out of nervousness so I decide to change scenes again, i take off into the air shitfully and the scene changes into some mall filled with a lot of people. I fly to the second story and go into and ice cream parlor (my lucidity fades back into non lucid dreaming) I notice big line at each ice cream flavor and I can't see what flavors there are so I get irritated and smack them all in the back of the head and then they chase me around the shop and each go around i try to get a look at the flavors, i really wanted pistachio ice cream. (i woke up)