Leaving the matrix

I'm not physically in the dream yet, I'm watching what this girl I know is doing. She told me through texting on the phone that she was picking up a friend that she was going to have over, and I thought nothing of it, until I was randomly in the back seat of the van she is driving and they don't see me yet. I listen to her tell her friend about me, and then the friend say hold on, and that she knows me, so I look around the car seat already recognizing the voice and I see that it was my best friend throughout elementary school. Then I think about all the ways this is bad, and then they park in the street and get out with bags, and I jump out and before they can see me I hop in the drivers seat and speed off, (here I become lucid, and don't care about the crap that just happened) I realize I'm in a lucid dream car and wonder if this is how it's like to drive a car in real life, I'm swerving but having fun and I'm in my childhood neighborhood so I turn around the block but then I try to do a u turn twice but I can't master this lucid dream car so I get out and summon a bike and continue strolling down the street, (here my lucid dream fades back into a regular dream :/ ) I see other people on bikes riding towards this house on the corner and now it's night time, there's a bunch of teenagers dropping their bikes then walking up to the front door so I do the same because I fit in and no one will notice I wasn't invited to this birthday party, theirs older adults in the garage having beers and watching a tv, I see this younger boy with blonde hair, he walks up to me and asks me if I want him to sneak me some cake and soda, I tell him that would be bitchin, so he goes in and I wait, he comes out with a plate with lemon cake and a can of coca cola. Then he goes back to get him some, I try the cake and it's awful and gritty but I eat it anyway. Then I wash the horrid taste with the soda. Then me and the boy go into the garage for some reason and I can see the adults looking at me weird like they're wondering if I am their child's friend and was invited or not.

I'm in the water, it looks like the ocean and the water is so dark, it's like I just fell in from a ship wreck or something, I'm not the only one down here. There is someone way below me sinking and not even trying to swim, and then there are a few people above me trying to swim to the surface. I' trying hard to get to the surface as well but I can't swim well, I keep looking below me and I see this huge ship that is wrecked down there but I can't see its entirety because it goes to deep and gets dark. I see that person fall into a hole in the ship and fade into the darkness, and as I'm staring I see something emerging from the depths, it's a huge fucking massive Megalodon, and I wig out and frantically thrash my body trying to get away, but the shark grabs hold of my entire left arm, and as this happens I am watching it happen to me from above and I watch the shark violently shake its head like a dog does when it has a toy, and then it takes me down into the big hole in the ship wreck. Then my perspective finally gets to the surface, and I see the other people floating and panicking and some of them are mourning me and that other person. It's horrifying here on the surface just as well as below. Up here the water is so black and I can't see anything below me, then suddenly my body comes to the surface thrashing and my perspective goes back into my body. I'm secretive about the fact that The shark ripped my left arm off, I put the arm into my wet suits sleeve so I could hopefully get out of here and have reattached or something. The we are trying to climb up these rocks, we keep seeing shark fins emerge from the water and speed towards us and the mouth with encompass us but the rock stop them so they release and swim off. This happens about ten times until I see the selective exit, it's like a game show, we have to swim in the water to the tarp tunnel that goes vertically into the air so we can hopefully climb out before a shark gets us. The show host hates me, but he thinks I'm already dead from what happened to me earlier. I decide I need to swim NOW, so I jump in and it fells so horrible, it feels like the sharks are right under me, like I will die any moment, then I swim under water a little bit to enter the tarp, there's this elastic netting rope, I get the trick right away, you have to pull then you fly up a bit, then grab higher up while airborne then repeat until at the top and I can get a good grasp of the walls, then I climb up and through a sliver of a hole, and the host greats me at the entrance and he's sitting on a chair to rude to get up, then he realizes it's me when I unzip the hood of the wet suit off me and I ran through the building to get to a hospital, as I can hear the man ordering people after me.

I was in fetal position in my bed when I realize I need to get up and take a shower even though my body feels paralyzed. Then I realize that my legs are my children and that it would be unethical if I left my children for a month long shower so I weep while I contemplate this, after all I didn't want these two children, then I realized that they are my legs, they can't be children, So I sit up then I see this man sitting there, I walk behind him and blow air on his head because it's funny that his head is the size of my thumb yet the rest of his body is bigger than mine. I take a picture if my thumb next to his head, then I look at the picture I took and the man isn't in it, then I look back to him and he's gone. Then I go into the bathroom and decide to cut my hair, I have these blue scissors in my hand, but then I put the side of my mouth into the scissors and cut my mouth open joker style and then I just go oops, and then cut a chunk of hair and jam the hair into my wound. Then I find a shaver from under the sink and shave most of my hair off and then take off my shirt and put make up on my eyes and then I go into the kitchen and lay on the ground that has cigarettes all over it but I call it carpet and then I take a picture of my self and in it I have a weird face.

I'm in the backyard of my childhood house, I for some reason decide to hop the fence so I do, I land into a backyard that is between my backyard and the people who live behind us's backyard. It's pretty small, there is nothing but dead grass and a jacuzzi in the right corner. I try to get back over the fence but I can't for some reason, so I decide to get into the jacuzzi, it feels nice, but I get the urge to look to my left and there I see some dude looking through a window at me, he quickly retracts his head and I see his curtains fly back in place because he was caught I look back straight, then I look back to the window and he's looking again and he tries to hide again but is not fast enough, so this time I just stare at the window, then he gets a chair and sits down on it with a cup of something that he's is drinking and acts like he's not looking over at the jacuzzi. So I get annoyed with that fucker so I get out of the jacuzzi and look for a way to get back over the fence, I'm sure my sister is looking for me by now, which she is I can hear her. Then I see this gigantic huge fucking tarantula climb up over the fence where I had, and I expect it to crawl down the side of the fence but it doesn't, it walks out into the air, I change my angle, and then I see it, a huge giant web canopied over this little backyard, I'm shocked that I don't get caught in the web when I jumped over. Then I realize there is another tarantula asleep on the web that I didn't see before, then the awake one walk off over another fence. I look around for something, anything that could help me and I see this flame thrower leaned up against the fence behind the jacuzzi so I run and get it and I blow the web and the sleeping spider to flames and the the fire quickly goes out. I want to get out quick before the other spider comes back and see's what i have done, then I see my sister climbing over the fence, I yell "no!" as she does this but its too late, she's over the fence, so we chill in the jacuzzi for a bit as we decide how we get over the fence and I tell her about the spiders and the web and how I somehow avoided the web.

I'm in this big line, and theres lines next to our line, I'm in this line with some of my family like my sister, my grandma and grandpa, the line next to us has some of the stuck up people from the other side of our family who think they're rich or some shit. They're looking at pictures of when we were infants while waiting in line I guess to see who was cuter their or ours or some superficial shit like that. Then I wonder backwards out of line and walk all the way back, at the end of the lines are these strange velvet benches. I see this guy sitting on one of them and I think nothing of it. I hear him talking to the guy beside him that someone stole his hair and I realize it's true the guy is now bald but he had hair just a few moments ago. Then i here him whispering to the other guy about me, he thinks I was the one who stole his hair, when I hear this I panic and run out into the mail walkway and it's like that of a casino, I run across and go into this fancy gambling/restaurant area, I'm aware of the cameras and security so I try to hide from that guy without looking like I'm suspicious to the casino. The the guy spots me I was behind a structure that had plants on it, so I drop to the floor and speed crawl through seated people and I hurry to not be seen by this security lady that is walking down the ramp towards the gambling area. The I see the guy again, he keeps spotting me so I run around back to where I cam out and I go back into the line that I was with family in thinking her wouldn't mess with me if I was with family, and it worked because he left me be in fact I think I lost him then we got onto the car things I thought we were in line for a ride but it must be just a car tram thing that will take us to something.

I kept flying into the conscious of different DC's and they're modeling shit for some stuck up bitch, when I get to the woman each time she's not impressed so she says to look more whatever and I do it and each time it impresses her, Then we all run into a line, I thought it was the line to receive our critiques or something of that nature but as the line moved up, we were in a food line, at the buffet there is lunch breakfast and dinner food. I walk past the plates and try to go back to grab one but the girls are to crowded up behind me, but I see a girl get a plate from a stack in front of me and I'm relieved to grab one. Then I pass all the lunch and dinner stuff, and go up to the pancakes, I grab like 10 pancakes and stack them, their are other types of pancakes like mini ones but i wanted these ones. Then the line moves up and I want to put the berry syrup with chunks of fruit, and the food lady is talking to me about how she's a condiment person too, because I'm getting a shit ton of the berry stuff out, she tells me it's yogurt with berry's, but even though I keep piling it on, hardly anything is on my pancakes, as I keep doing this, the beginning of the front of the line has made it to the other side of this and are coming the opposite way towards us, (I see the girl I'm in love with irl), some little boy is rushing me so I choose to ignore his dumb ass, then he starts calling me names , so after I'm done instead of giving the ladle to him I give it to the girl behind me, then he talks more shit and I smile at him and give him the bird, and he gets pissed and calls me more names and I still stand there not blinking and smiling while giving him the bird, then I see my grandma standing there so I stop even though she didn't see me, then I get out of line because that's all I wanted, I go to the booths and try to find a place, most of the booths are filthy or don't even have a table, I see this girl thinking it's someone I know, when she turns to looks at me its someone else so I walk on to the back, the lights are dim here, I see a girl I know sitting by herself so I walk up to her and ask her if I can sit with her and she says yes. When I sit down I tell her I want to tell her something, I want to say sorry for something to her.

I am walking with my sister at night in this populated area, the ground is red brick and theres a large clearing of this surrounded by restaurants, a water fountain and shops. Suddenly something sucks me into the air, and I am put gently on this thing on the side of a building just in front of where we were walking, it's a sarcophagus of some sort. I realize that my clothes have been changed, I'm wearing egyption shit. I also find significance that the sarcophagus is rubbery feeling at top which I feel means it will be opened soon or used soon and this frightens me so I try to walk on it as carefully as possible, I walk forward and lean over the edge and yell for my sister. She yells to me what had happened? I tell her I don't know and that I will try to get down, but then suddenly my sister screams and points at this thing that appeared just above and in front of me. It is what appears to be a flying man with this black head piece over his head, looks like a falcon head almost. I freak out and try to back up on the thing but he comes at me and I don't know how to explain it I knew he was going to get me so I jumped off the edge knowing he wouldn't let me splat, but I just wanted to say goodbye to my sister for the last time. It's like I knew and then I floated into the air and then the guy carried me off way into the air and then back on top that thing I was on but it has changed a little bit, it is longer and more people are on it dressed like egyptions, we are lined up at the edge performing some sort of ritual, Then I suddenly seem to snap out of this trance and realize I don't want this fait, so I run to the edge of this sensitive structure and grab onto it and everybody slides to where I made it collapse a little, most of them get angry with me and tell me to stop now, but some of the girls have broken out of the spell from this and we line up again and we do it again but its more effective because more people and the thing begins to collapse, the falcon guy becomes enraged, and all the girls and I are awake and we run up the collapsing thing and make it to the solid roof of a building and then the thing crashes to the ground. Then the guy flies after us, and we race over top buildings and I run fast then leap as far as I can to the next building, it seems some of us don't make it and we turn on each other trying to make it, but some of us are pulling for each other. I make it to the last building then climb down and hide in all this tall green plants and bushes and trees.

I'm walking through dark greens and bushes that are grown over a lattice tunnel, then I walk into an opening that leads to the housed street that my friend lives on and I'm passing under the house balconies that extend far out, there are girls and boys partying and it reminds me of mardi gras, they call me from the balcony and some of them who are on the ground with me walk up to me and corner me I can tell they are the bully trp. They want information about the the family of the friends house I'm going to. The y ask me all these questions and say horrid things about them like about the parents marriage and other worse things. I don't know what I should or should not say, plus I don't know much so I just tell them yes to something one of them said and they all gasp and gather amongst themselves for petty gossip and I use this moment to escape, and I get to my friends house and realize she gave me an extra key so I could get in and stay the night. I walk in and the house is like three stories of luxury, I see the father walking around on the ground floor, and the mom doing something on the second, I go to the third which is were my friends are and I go nervously because I feel I have betrayed her for was I said to those people and I tell her but she didn't even care.

I'm walking through a neighborhood and houses that look like my childhood neighborhood. I walk around a corner and see this what looks like a party going on or something or maybe it's just their family visiting, I continue on the sidewalk that goes in front of their house and I man stops me and say his son is misbehaving and he wants to know if I can hold his son a little further down the street by the pole, so I look down the street and there is huge wooden pole covered in people adds and numbers and such, so I agree, his son looks to be about 3 or 4 years old and is ion a white onezie. He hands me the kid, and then he hands me this laminated goldenrod colored paper that has a list allover it, I don't bother to read it but the guy says to hold it while I hold his son, so I do, and I walk over to the pole and soon after get bored so begin to read the adds posted on the poll. Then finally the dad calls back his son from me, but I realize the wind has blown the paper behind me while I'm walking back to the father, so I turn around and run after it and the father thinks I'm running off with his child and almost starts to go after me but then he sees me pick up the paper and walk back to him and I hand the kid to him and he thanks me.

I'm in the living room doing nothing, the girl comes up to the window, it frightens me so I run outside and yell at her for some reason things I don't mean. Then I go back into the house, I'm aware that I might've hurt her, and then something starts to happen to me and I'm crying and I look outside and the girl is with her boyfriend and they're preparing to leave. Ignore it with ego, Then a delivery truck comes up the driveway and I look out the window at it and the girl and I make eye contact and it's as though she's asking for something with her eyes, like are you sure this is what your want, then they leave down the entire driveway but through the dirt which would make it take longer, and they wait sitting on a bench down there I assume for a bus. Then seemingly little things keep happening in the house that I freak out about and contemplate running down the driveway to her, but when I finally do they're gone. I go back into the house and fell neglected and, alone.

I'm just standing in the kitchen faced the window, my sister is in the living room sitting on the recliner watching the television, when suddenly my mom appears beside me, she looks like she's trying to hide something, I joke around with her an nudge her but when I do she groans and says something is stuck in her throat, I roll my eyes thinking she is over exaggerating like usual or it's just a piece of ice that will melt as usual. But she continues to complain in panic so I begin to panic and take her seriously, she opens her mouth and tells my sister to look who by now has walked over to see why my mom was wigging. My sister says it's a tongue piercing, and then my mom walks over to the sink with a nervous caught smile. I ask her why the fuck she got her tongue pierced, and she wouldn't tell me. Then she realizes it's her tongue, it's swollen so she takes the barbell out of her tongue, and walks away to fake do something, I later tell her she'd better put the barbell back in if she doesn't want the hole to shut, she panics at this revelation and starts unscrewing the jewelry to put it in, I tell her to put the unthreaded one in so it won't irritate her fresh wound but she ignores my instruction, and I can tell she is having difficulties getting the jewelry in, she pushes on it very hard and I hear a loud pop noise, and she makes a loud cry of pain but continues, I examine what the noise was and realize she has a knife trying to assist her and that at first I thought she cut off a bit of her neck, but I realize she chopped off her whole ear. I yell to that she's chopped her entire ear off, she drops what she was doing and all three of us begin to panic, I yell to my sister to get some ice as I am getting small plastic bags, then my mom chopped both her pointers fingers off for no fucking reason as though oh well she already lost her ear, so I'm trying to put enough ice in three bags to put her ear and fingers in so we can take them to a hospital, but the ice keeps melting, especially in the ear bag, now they're rushing me and waiting at the door but I feel compelled to get every last bit of ice out of the freezer, and I do then we run out side, but I run back to my room real quick to grab proper pants so I don't go in lounge pants, and I'm just as annoyed as they that I am wasting time, but I finally run to the car and we drive down the main road of our city and I tell her that we should go to that dinky hospital that is just a little ways from here and that if they don't have the resources I'm sure an ambulance can take her to the big hospital that's city away, and suddenly my mom starts to drive in a dirt field to cut off a corner, and I hope there's no cops, but as we near the other street I see a cop but they didn't see us, then I see another cop and she too didn't see us, and then multiple cops drive by and we somehow avoid them all until the last cop swerves onto our side of the street and crashes into us head on.

Me and my family are at my childhood home, and the new owners must be on vacation or something, I beg our my mom to let us move back here, we're walking throughout the house, and we have the garage door open, just walking around and reminiscing. Then suddenly I get a weird feeling, so I walk out of the garage a little ways and around to were we used to roll the trash cans and I see many thin white slivers in the sky, soooo many, I begin to panic, my family asks me what are those, I tell them they're heat seeking missiles and that it looks as though they are being sent somewhere far, but then I swallow my words when I see all the missiles that are moving slow and shark like begin to stop and turn slowly back and forth as though they are searching out heated targets on the homeland, I see one way from above has spotted me and my family and it goes into great speed at us but we run out of the way just in time and we went into our house and they all huddled together, I told them urgently to separate to different parts of the house because that would make one big ball of heat, then I ran to the refrigerator and opened the freezer hoping to find ice and ice packs so we can cool our body temperature but everything in the freezer was melted, then next thing I know there's a missile slowly scanning through the house, so I lead it the the left side of the house where non of my family is, and i see the missile scanning and finding me then I'd quickly run to another place,, and the missile would scan and find me again, then finally it flew at me and I jumped out of the window, and it exploded and caught fire. I jumped up and ran to go back into the house to check on my family, but somehow I accidentally went into my neighbors house, their house is huge three or four stories, I see the family hugging and I run up to them and apologize for coming in the house but a missile exploded in mine, they say it's fine and hope my family well, but then a boy walks up to me and asks me what is going on outside, I tell him they're sent the missiles on their own people and as I'm telling the boy this his father enters with many body guards, he knows who i am somehow, he calls the boy over to ask him what I've told him, then I run up the stairs and suddenly a friend is with me, we keep running up but now it turns the opposite way but still up but it's an escalator and we;re going up the down one and not the up one but we make it a floor up anyways. We feel we are being pursued by that man but we know we are safe from the missiles as he would not blow up his own house surely. Finally we go up to the last floor, there's book in the middle on shelf's, we feel he's on our tail, so we see what looks like more stair cases to the side of the wall ans jump through the hand-bars only to land on tracks and we realize it's some sort of train and we want to catch it so we climb back up and a train passes by without stopping at top speed, then we see that you have to pay quarters through this machine, then we see the next one stop and that man is on it, so we run around the room and see doorways that you cant see into because of the white paper streamer like things hanging down, they are fluttering as if it cold in there so we enter, their blue plastic paper stapled to the walls and it's a restroom, there's this woman washing her hands, then there's this big cold water fountain thing and my friend grabs a cup and collects water and drinks it, i put my hands in and cup water and splash my face wet, then when we look up all the people are pissed at us so we go through the bathroom more to another door way back into the floor, through this doorway there are three booths for radio station people and at one of them are little girls chanting something and I think wow that must get annoying and i look at the radio guy and he looks frustrated. We continue through and get to this souvenir shop with crappy toys, a girl is there and tells the worker girl that she doesn't have enough money, then the worker says its fine and to take it, then my friend picks up stuff, a mask and glasses, and says she doesn't have money and the worker says that its fine and just to take it, I then ask the worker why she is giving away everything wont she get in trouble, the the worker says she lost the money from before anyways, so I tell her I will buy stuff and I will pay for it, I spend a long time picking out the best tech-deck and wheels and carry case for it all and my friend shows up to rush me so I hurry up and pay the girl for my, my friends, that first girl and the money she lost and then we run down all the stairs and escalators, but the nice people down stairs are gone and it is much more empty than I recall and i am worried about that.

I'm on some unfamiliar street, and I want to get home before all the night people come out because it's almost sunset. I have this map, and I'm discussing with a body-less voice the best route to go, the short one is on a public street and I find that unappealing, but the back way would take far longer, the voice urges I go the short way but i just walk on thinking i will decide when I get to the two ways. I get to the two roads, and suddenly all these people start coming out of no where walking towards me and passed me to go to their homes. I turn to the right which is the short way without thinking, and theirs a lot of people, even more, and some of them walk towards me when they could of perfectly walked around, then I see my dad standing across the street through the crowd and he has a mad look on his face, I start to run through the crowd hoping he won't catch up, but the crowd gets thick and slows me down, then I turn my head and he's right next to me and I flinch, then sudden;y I'm in this office with my dad and there's this other girl and she's talking to this woman at a desk about her embarrassing problems and her voice is so brittle and she's so nervous, I realize this woman is going to talk to me and my dad next, so I try I stare at the door planning to run out. To get the courage to get up, but then the girl is done talking to the woman behind the desk and gets up and opens the door to leave, so I panic and run passed her and I hear the woman at the desk yell something at me.

I'm in some guys house, there are three me here and they have this weird stringy stretching thing going on, I think to myself Ive walked into something weird but even so I am curious and get closer to see. There is this red headed man hooked up to the contraption, he seems as excited as the other men to see if their project works, the continue to struggle and pull at this machine, the finally I hear this loud snap noise, and the red headed man is now decapitated, and the other guys look happily surprised, I look at the head worried that that is house I will die in the hands of not these men who seem to be my friend, but others. I look at the head curiously amused at how the eyelids are still blinking, it frightens me, is he still conscious? does he feel pain? he is looking at me and smiling, one of his arms is attached to him still, it waves at us, and he picks up a coffee mug, and tries to drink it but fails, I can tell he's trying to speak, but he can't. I begin to wonder if this was their plan, is this a natural occurrence? or are they somehow keeping him alive?

I'm running after people while people are running after me, I have trouble running, like I can't run fast enough, so I put my arms in instead of out confused as to why my arms were out in the first place, then I become aware and realize I am only running poorly because I am in a dream, and that I should be able to control my running now that I am conscious, so I try and suddenly I begin to speed up with swifter strides that are more deliberate and I begin to pass people, but then suddenly I am in my body (false awakening bit) and try to get back to sleep to continue lucid dreaming, but then my body get extremely itchy allover, so I give in and scratch, and then I do weird thing in my bed such as curling up so bad that my head is now on the other side of my bed but it seems so comfortable, and I get so frustrated that I can't reenter a dream and everything is distracting me, like suddenly my mom is standing at my window trying to look at me and I scream at her "what!" then she walks away, so I try again but realize I far to awake now, but then I fall into more dreams.