non-lucid

I dreamed of being close to some kind of podium in my village(It is nonexistent in real world), there was one musician performing RMB: Touch the sky. I start to dance on steps and then i started to run away. I felt strong wind, so fast I ran, but it seemed to me that it is not so fast. Then I forgot to move my feet once and I didn't fall... Then I stopped to use my feet and glided through streets of my village.
I got close to shop. I remembered I wanted to do shoppings for my family. I couldn't stop my gliding, even putting my feet on tarmac didn't make much difference. I turned my back in direction of my gliding and concentrated on stopping. It took me maybe 100m to stop. I went into shop. There were many people inside, I couldn't go inside. I waited. I saw some kind of hamster jumping in between racks in the shop... Then I woke up.

Now in real world:
Half an hour I returned from shop- It was closed. There is written that it is sanitation day. It will be opened tomorrow. It is strange, normally wednesday is a sanitation day.

I started to comprehend my surrounding and I found myself to be flowing in air. It looked as if I was in between two layers of clouds. Clouds were separated by a few kilometers of blue sky. I was weightless. There were ghostly looking animals(some looking like snakes, some like birds...) - they tried to stop me to fly my direction... to change my direction. They were slower than me...
Then I flew in between four massive pillars which stretched from below lower layer of clouds to nearly higher layer of clouds. They were more than kilometer thick- so massive... On upper ends of pillars there was an intricate grid with holes looking like flowers also from marble. I saw plants, trees on that marble grid, it was at least 1 kilometer above myself. Pillars were composed of veined marble... they were majestic... I felt like being on sacred place. Animal ghost were shrieking after me to stop, to not go any further, to go back...

I flew further... marble grid with trees stretching above me and marking my path... I had feeling like some gods (or spirits) are angry with me, that I desecrated their place... they tried to stop me together with the animal spirits. And I flew in between another four massive pillars. The place felt even more sacred than first one. I flew further, through more such sacred places, dragging many angry spirits after me... In seventh sacred place the marble grid above ended. Pillars were much smaller and there was something like altar... I looked on all the spirits which were trying to stop me, only to see, they cant go into seventh sacred place... They looked now nearly black. I was filled with ave and respectful peace. I prayed for deliverance. On altar shining Being materialised. It looked for short time like some kind of minotaur with horns, than it slowly changed into buddha like person. I felt changes of my body. I was surprised- and then I felt changing back. The being was smiling on me and changed me again.

I was in some kind of big city... It was around noon. There were two people man and woman and they told me, that they will do psychological experiment on me. They wanted to try to break me. I agreed to this. Woman gave me an injection(very big one).
They observed me closely. I didn't feel a thing... I was concentrated on here and now to battle possible effect of that medicine. I left from there after a while.

I was walking through that city and reality started to give less and less meaning. I was losing ability to distinguish between real and imagined... It was as if imagined things started to be real and then again vanished. Everything lost its meaning. Something happened and after short while it didn't happened at all. Total chaos in my consciousness. I had strong doubts about my mental health. I concentrated as much as I could to stabilize my reality perception but it was worse and worse.

That man and woman found me! They started to tell me that I killed some woman- I didn't know about anything. It was constructed, nothing was true... wasn't it? I was in big doubt. I saw pictures... It was very brutal murder. I felt ill... I asked myself whether I have problems with my memory. Could I do that without remembering it? They gave me more and more evidence... They told me about great many bad things I did. They asked me to plead guilty.

My denial of reality was growing. I didn't know what to do. I felt strong energy inside. It wanted to leap out of me. I was closing myself from outside world. The man was pressing on me mentally. Where is my logical mind? I want peace. Nothing more... My inner energy surged, reality was broken. It emerged as hairline crack- darkness was leaking from it. The darkness was calling me, lured me inside crack in reality. I felt a pull and I didn't oppose to it. The darkness was slowly creeped around my hands and legs... around my body... like black smoke. It dragged me into crack. And crack in reality closed after I passed into darkness. There was black darkness. There was no thought. There was no doubt... There was peace. My energy was growing. My point of consciousness erupted in actinic white light. I was the only point of light in that blackness. I was one with peace.

I obtained weak lucidity(weak because I had doubts) when I started to close myself from that "reality" After that, only thoughtless consciousness remained.

I'm ill from end of October, I got strong autoimmune reaction induced by Chlamidia Pneumoniae... Chlamidia was cured by strong antibiotic, but autoimmune reaction remained. I must take Medrol(methylprednisone) which metabolizes to corticosteroids and dampens immunity... And what more one of effect is that body becomes accustomed on outside sources of corticosteroids and lowers or stops production of its own in adrenal glands. I try to get off of it, but it is slow process. I must to let to accustom my body to exist without Medrol. A few times I tried to lower dosage, but autoimmune reaction was strong. Now I'm doing it very slowly. 5-7 days for taking off 1mg of methylprednisone less.

Dream:
I awake this morning into another dream. I woke with itching on my whole body with big red swellings. I remembered that I forgot to take piles yesterday and that was the end result... Then I got thought- I didn't forgot! Something is wrong. Wake UP!!!
And I awoke. Everything was OK.