New Dream Adventures of Raven Knight

Note: I fell asleep tonight with a couple plans with MoSh, though I didn't have any actual plans with Tigress since I wasn't able to talk with her today for some unknown reason… I fell asleep with my light / sound machine as usual, and I was once again successful in slipping into a WILD. Each time I do this it is amazing, since I went for so long being unable to do it or even have a lucid dream or even remember many non-lucids!

As I entered my WILD, I found I was in MoSh's inner world as I often am, I looked around but I didn't really have enough time to really see anything before MoSh was beside me saying he knew where to find Erik's guide. He said he really wanted to see what EG had to say, so he hoped at least one of us would remember, and by one of us he meant me… I said he should at least try to have a positive attitude, but didn't go any farther than that. MoSh opened a portal and the two of use went through into a wide green field, there was a stage at one end of the field, it looked like an outdoor concert venue. There were people on the stage setting up musical equipment, getting things ready, but they didn't seem to be in any kind of a rush. I saw the man I have come to recognize as Erik's guide not far off, he came over to us and said he had been expecting us. With that the scene around us changed, apparently EG had teleported us somewhere else, I now saw we were in a small but comfortable room, I couldn't tell much about it other than there were seats for everyone and a small fridge from which EG took three beers and tossed one to MoSh and one to me.

EG sat down and took a drink from his beer, then said he also knew why we had come here, that surprised me a bit, but it didn't seem surprising to MoSh at all. I figured it was normal for EG to answer questions before they had even been asked? Was he reading our minds right now? Puppies lift their legs so they can fly from the force created when they take a piss… that was what I thought… no reaction from anyone, so either that wasn't as weird as I thought it was or no one was reading my mind. Instead of acknowledging my thought in any way, EG started talking on a different subject, he was talking about what we had come to ask him. He was talking about MoSh getting together with Kaomea, he was saying that of course it was a possibility, anything is possible, but that doesn't make it easy. He said anything worth having is worth fighting for, and if it works out like it should, this would definitely be worth it.

MoSh wanted to know why this would have to be so difficult, why couldn't something be easy for a change, hadn't he earned it? EG said a life of ease isn't something you earn, it's something you create… and it is also almost always considerably less rewarding than the lives of those who choose the more difficult paths. EG said that MoSh was wondering why there would be resistance to him getting with Kaomea, but he had already noticed the reason even though he hadn't acknowledged it as such. He said that MoSh is not really supposed to be in this world, this was not where he had been intended to go, something had sent him here anyway. He asked MoSh if he hadn't sensed this at numerous points in his life, that he was an outsider in his own world… before MoSh could answer, EG said of course MoSh had felt that way, this is also one of the signs that a person is likely to be a nagual.

My mind wandered a bit, making me wonder if MoSh was an outsider like I am an outsider, maybe there was still a chance to find someone out there that would want to be with me? Or maybe my one chance was gone, having turned out to be with a complete asshole. Now I found out that EG could read my thoughts. He said that yes, an outsider can indeed find a soul mate in a world that wasn't meant to be their home, it just doesn't work easily. He said he knew of the events I was talking about, with the one I call James (my ex boyfriend), and when it had started it had the potential to work out fine. The main problem was that negative energies poisoned us, created problems between us, then eventually consumed the weaker of us, which was James. That made James into an asshole, trying for quite a while to push me away as I was still fighting the forces to stay together… until it finally worked, until he had finally done so much hurt to me that there was no way I would… or should… stay with him. He said it might not seem like it, but I was actually the one to come out on top in that situation, I was currently much better off than James.

MoSh wanted the topic back on him and Koamea, he said he wanted to know what he had to do in order to make things work out with her. EG gestured towards me, he said that meeting me might just have given MoSh the added knowledge he would need in order to make this relationship work, to overcome the forces that would seek to force them apart. He said when I had been trying to hold on, and even when James had wanted to hold on as well, neither of us knew much about dark and negative energies, when James acted like an ass I would get angry and send his negativity back, multiplied, then James would send it back to me multiplied again, until it reached a breaking point and we separated for a while, both of us both furious and depressed, wanting to both punch the other one in the face and cry at the same time… it usually ended up with me crying and James punching the nearest wall. Towards the beginning, it seemed James had accepted and understood that negative energies were frequently the cause of our problems… but over time he stopped accepting that as a reason and placed the blame fully on me, or sometimes on himself, but usually on me.

EG said this wouldn't have to happen with MoSh and Kaomea, because MoSh knows about negative and dark energies, and Kaomea would also seem to know about it. With both of them knowing what dark energy is and the effect it has, they would know better than to just multiply it and send it back when their partner got negative. Each of them would be able to understand that the other one was acting out of reaction to dark energy infection instead of just being an ass. So instead of having the dark energy and negativity escalate until it exploded, they would seek healing for each other, a way to get rid of the intruding dark energy, to set the other one free of it. This would rob the forces seeking to separate them of the most dangerous weapon they had. He said as long as MoSh and Kaomea couldn't be turned against each other, no force in the universe could separate them against their wills.

MoSh wanted to know who was seeking to separate him and Kaomea, and why were they seeking to do that. EG said he knows the nature of the forces, though not the exact identity, because the identity of those opposing MoSh and Kaomea would change… The nature of it was that which seeks to keep everything on a perfectly ordered path, the different timelines themselves seem to have a will of their own, and they don't like being interfered with. He said that is why it takes a significant event to alter any timeline, significant as when someone from outside the dimension interferes and makes considerable changes. That will inevitably create a ripple in the timeline. One of the inhabitants of the timeline changing their own timeline is very difficult, usually this just gets done from outside the dimension. So when an outsider such as MoSh or me enters a dimension and tries to find a companion or even just tries to find a place for themselves, that creates a ripple, which the timeline will fight. He said I already knew that, and for a while James had known, too, but then James had somehow forgotten that as he got consumed with negative energies.

MoSh seemed to be lost in thought about something, I wondered what he was thinking, EG waited for a few minutes while MoSh seemed to be muttering to himself incoherently. EG finally said that MoSh and I are more alike than we know, that saying we are like brother and sister isn't by any means incorrect. He said we had both gone through hard times that had left us fractured, but not broken, he said neither of us would be broken by any force in this world no matter how unsure of that we ourselves might be, he looked at me when he said that. EG looked back at MoSh and said MoSh and Kaomea have a very good chance of making things work, a very good chance of avoiding the fatal errors that James and I had made, although most of the errors were James' mistakes, and to keep the negativity from pulling them apart. He looked directly at MoSh, and told him that as long as both he and Kaomea are willing to hold on, they cannot be pulled apart… as long as BOTH of them hold on. This is where my memories end.