non-lucid

Plans: No specific plans, try to contact MoSh's guides again, do some items from my list of goals... I won't be able to post for a few days, though, since I'll be camping.

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Sky Beam
I am in a mountainous area, I am climbing on some rocks. I am surprising myself with how easily I am able to climb the rocks without once feeling afraid that I might fall. I get to the top of a rock and I look off into the distance, where I see a strange beam coming from the sky. It seems a lot like the light beam I am used to seeing in Stormreach in DDO, so I do a RC and I find out I'm dreaming. I look around for a bit more, this clearly isn't Stormreach, so there must be some other explanation for the beam. I then remember the latest primary task for the LPTC, which is to stop a laser drill coming from a space ship in orbit. The beam isn't too far off, so I fly towards it and I get there quickly.

I look at the energy beam from the sky, it has a sizable tunnel drilled into the ground already, but I don't know how far down they've gotten. The beam is just energy in the form of a laser... so I fly out over the hole they are drilling, which is about 20 yards across, I fly directly into the path of the beam while activating a spell. I use the song spell Whiplash by Metallica to reflect the laser beam back into space. The reflected beam follows it's own path back into space, and shortly later I see an explosion in the sky as the orbiting space ship is destroyed by it's own laser drill. That seemed pretty simple, too bad I'll have to wait until after the camping trip to post this dream!

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Obstacle Course
I am somewhere I don't recognize, I am there with MoSh and a couple of other men, who don't seem too pleased with my being there. I wonder if they don't like me or if I did something to annoy them or if they are just always like that. MoSh is talking to them about finding a girlfriend... maybe one with a few less obstacles to them being together. One of them says obstacles are merely tests to be overcome. I ask what exactly they expect MoSh to do when the person in question has such a serious case of depression that she won't help herself, I add that I can relate to the depression and I know it is hard enough to be helped by someone there in person let alone by someone on the other side of the planet. Which brings me to the geographical issue, which they have done twice now, because helping her or getting her help might be possible if she was closer... and I mean a lot closer... Then there's the issue of being engaged to be married, which they have done twice now. And now a possibly insurmountable religious issue? So how about a nice local single woman... where if she does get depressed, MoSh can directly help with a hug and an attentive ear. The way they've been going, I wonder if they are looking for as many obstacles as possible to be between MoSh and the woman. I am getting glared at again, one of them says if I know so much, why don't I find someone? I say if my powers worked on this plane I would help MoSh find someone... Damn these powers that only work in dreams...

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Assassin's Creed: Slave Trader
I am at home, doing nothing particularly exciting, and I decide it would be awesome if I was dreaming... Maybe I should do some journaling. I am thinking of dreaming, so I do a RC and I discover I'm dreaming right now! So I say goodbye to my DC mom and I go outside to fly. I fly into the air and open a portal in front of me with no particular destination. I let Avalon guide the portal. I fly through it and find that instead of flying over a desert I am now flying over a lush tropical forest. So many colorful birds are flying around, I also find images in my mind of what I need to do there. It looks like I've been playing too much DDO, because the information comes to me as a list of DDO quest objectives. 1. Locate the slave trading hideout. 2. Stay hidden until the leader arrives. 3. Kill the leader first. 3. Kill the rest of them. 4. Free the slaves. Ok, well since I don't want to be spotted too soon... they will certainly kill the slaves and the leader won't come... I transform into one of the colorful birds.

I fly over the forest, surveying the are until I finally find the camp. A lot of people are locked in cages on wagons, packed in like sardines. The slave traders are talking to each other mostly, a couple of them are tormenting the prisoners, poking at them with spears. One of the others says if the ones tormenting the prisoners kill a slave it's coming out of their cut of the money. After a couple more pokes they stop. I perch in a tree among other birds of my kind, waiting for the leader. The birds around me leave to the other side of the clearing. I follow, but they avoid me. They can tell I'm not one of them. The leader soon arrives on a horse, leading other horses. He is exchanging money for the slaves. I turn back to myself, with a crossbow, I shoot the leader through the neck. He falls over and chokes to death on his own blood. The others are surprised at the attack. They see me as I jump down from the tree and use my Witchblade sword to kill them all. The prisoners don't seem to know what to think of me, so I cut through the locks on the cages and tell them they are free to go, but make sure the horses are looked after... they're not wild horses, so they need shelter, food, any other care. One of the prisoners says the horses will be cared for, those slave traders had been working them too hard and not feeding them enough. The prisoners lead the horses down a trail into the trees, thanking me as they go, only a couple of injured people are riding horses. Someone is bitching about walking, others tell him to shut up, the horses are overworked, too. Everyone who is able will walk. One of the prisoners is saying she would like to give me a reward... but I wake up before she can offer me anything.

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False Awakening
I wake up in my own bed and I realize I have to use the bathroom quite badly, so I carefully get out of bed so I don't disturb the cat I'm sleeping with and leave the room into the main part of the house. I notice it is very quiet in the house, so after I do my business, I go to see if my mom isn't there for some reason. I find she is, indeed, not there. Her car isn't in the carport. I wonder where she has gone, she hadn't said anything about going out. I still have to use the facilities even though I just did. So I use the bathroom again and then go back to bed with my kitty, never once do I suspect I was dreaming. The dream seemed so real that when I wake up I think my mom must have really gone out during the morning, though she says she has not and she isn't dressed to go out... she is in her "hanging around the house" clothes. Damn... if only I could remember to RC every time I wake up!

Plans: Nothing big... MoSh wants to try to talk to the idiots who call themselves his guides, I would like to punch them in the face. The usual list of goals is also part of the plan.

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Are You Retarded?
I am in MoSh's inner world, out in front of his house. I don't immediately remember why I am there, so I figure the best thing to start with is to find MoSh. I go to his house, and I am greeted at the door by Asuka. She says MoSh isn't here right now. I wonder where I can find MoSh, so I ask Asuka that. She says he isn't dreaming yet, but he should be soon. I go into the house and wait for a bit, Asuka seems to be in a good mood, she is humming a song to herself. I wait for a bit and soon MoSh comes down from upstairs. He seems to know what I'm there for better than I do, so I just listen to him. He says he wants to find out some things from his guides. I follow MoSh for a bit and we meet up with a man, I see another man in the area, they are his guides? He asks what he's supposed to do about Saim. How should he proceed? I ask if they are the ones playing matchmaker between MoSh and these other women. One of them says yes, but... I interrupt, I am annoyed at the fucked up job they've been doing on that topic... I ask them if they're deliberately playing dirty jokes on MoSh or are they both just retarded? The man closest to me gives me a dirty look and asks if I can do better. I mutter that a blind monkey could do better... A website like Cupid.com or something like that would do better... they could at least find single women that aren't on the opposite side of the planet! They don't seem pleased with me, and I figure I could've handled that better...

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The Kiss
Note: This fills the requirements for the basic task of the month for DreamViews, which is to kiss a DC.

I am out in a forest of some kind, wandering along a narrow path through the trees. The birds are singing, there is a gentle breeze blowing... The breeze is slightly chilly, but then someone there with me puts his arm around me. I look beside me and I see Bakura is there with me.

We continue walking through the forest, neither of us is saying anything, but neither of us really has to say anything. I enjoy just being out there with him. The trees slowly thin out until Bakura and I are walking more on a rocky path than a forest trail. We reach a rock overhang where I can look out over the valley below, the view is magnificent.

Bakura and I sit there on the edge, my right arm around him and his left arm around me... It's really very nice. Who needs a waking life boyfriend when I can meet up with guys like this in dreams? I turn to look at him at the same time he turns to look at me, and we kiss... a warm and loving kiss with absolutely no pressure for it to be anything more than a kiss... and the fact it does turn out to be much more than a kiss is exactly what I want. ^_~

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Journey to the Center of the Earth
I am at the entrance to an average looking cave. There is nothing out of the ordinary about it, though I have the idea my destination is somewhere in that cave. This is a DDO quest, and I have to go in there and check out what the orcs have been doing down there. I also have an active quest to investigate some disappearances from some surrounding towns. These disappearances seem unrelated to each other, but I have a feeling they are all related to this quest in the cave.

Once I am into the cave I find it is really more of mine, this has been dug out rather than formed naturally. I follow the paths deeper and find those who created the mine are still working it. The passages are crawling with orcs. I have to kill a couple of orcs as I explore the mines. I find that while each level of the mine is quite small, it seems to go down forever. I wonder how long it has taken these orcs to dig this deep. On my way down, four kobolds carrying a container of shiny rocks hurry past me, paying absolutely no attention to me at all. Odd... I kill more orcs, then a human passes me, saying if I am caught standing around they will all be punished. He hurries on. I kill another orc, a kobold sees this and throws himself at my feet, blubbering. I tell him to speak clearly, he says the orcs are working their slaves to death in the mines, there are humans and kobolds, all of them just want to be free. Two orcs come, one grabs the kobold, the other says to put him in the cage as a warning to the others, any talk of freedom means death.

The orc tells me to get back to work or share the kobold's fate. The kobold is begging for mercy, the orcs laugh... right up to the point where I kill them with my Witchblade sword. The kobold is at my feet again, thanking me, I say I need to find the slaves. He leads me deeper into the mines... more orcs die by my blade... we come to the bottom level of the mine where a bunch of bedraggled humans and kobolds are digging in the mines. There is a central chamber where I find out what the orc meant by "the cage" when he threatened the kobold. There are small cages hanging over a deep pit, most of them have dead bodies in them in various stages of decomposition... a couple of them also have live slaves in there with the decomposing corpses... yuck! Those slaves look very weak and sick, no doubt deprived of food and water. There are many orcs... it's killing time! The orcs are taken by surprise as I attack, some go down without a fight, I kill all of them. I free the slaves, heal the live ones in the cages, and teleport all of us to the surface. I am thinking I have a lot if rewards to claim, but it was here that I woke up. For some reason I always wake up before I can claim my rewards! Damn it!

Plans: My plans for this night involved becoming lucid, as usual, and meeting up with MoSh to continue a much neglected series of Hogwarts dreams that we had been having a while back that involved the two of us in the Tri-School Wizard Tournament. We had completed two of the tasks… one where we had to make our way across an obstacle range, and another where we had to sneak past a dragon to grab a golden egg, much like the first task in the book Goblet of Fire. Other tasks included the other Hogwarts, where I was supposed to be teaching a class… Q says we can use a bit of time travel to pick up where we left off in both of the Hogwarts worlds… and also to complete tasks from the TotY on DV, the tasks for LPTC, tasks of the month on DV and MM… my own list of goals… wow… o.O

Epic Fail
I am at school, sitting at my desk, waiting for class to start. The instructor is Mr. Chappell, also known as Mr. C, and he is actually one of my favorite instructors. He is passing papers back out, announcing everyone's grade, and I am in line to get mine. I peek ahead and see an 84% on my paper. When I get to the front he hands mine back silently, I wonder why he didn't announce my grade. He says he didn't think I would want him to, I look and see the paper has a 54% on it… an 'F' when I had seen a 'B' there earlier! I ask why the low grade, he says I didn't answer the question properly. I take out the assignment sheet and show him that I did, and I answered it following my notes. He says I didn't even take notes, I say I did so. He says to show them to him, so I go back to my seat and get the notes. I say my paper should at least earn a 'C' even if I did misunderstand the assignment. He reluctantly boosts my grade to a 70%, and says everyone who got an 'F' on the assignment will now get a 'C' instead.


My Last Breath
Note: This one fulfills the Mortal Mist Basic Challenge for the month of February, which is to meet dreambot or, alternatively, to complete one of your own goals. Healing the Longbottoms has been a goal of mine that I have attempted in the past, tonight I completed it!

I am at Hogwarts, the one where I am a student, and I am at the breakfast table. I eat waffles… yum… I am lucid, so I eat plenty of them with lots of butter and syrup since I don't have to count points for these. Just as a note, I am on the Weight Watchers program, so I count points for everything I eat. I finish and wander over by the Gryffindor table to see if MoSh is there. Neville is saying he will be out of the school for the day, but since it is Sunday, it isn't important. He is telling Harry and Hermione this. Maybe he's going to St. Mungo's to visit his parents… perfect opportunity. I follow him, and he does go to St. Mungo's. I follow him to his parents' room, but he sees me before he goes in. He seems embarrassed that I found him there, asks me not to tell anyone. I say he shouldn't be embarrassed of the condition in they're in, but proud of the fact they stood their ground in the face of such opposition. And now it is time for them to be healed. He looks questioning, but I say I have been trying to heal them, and I think he is the key to breaking through, will you help me? Of course he will! Though he doesn't seem too hopeful… We go in, the healers are glad to see both of us, I use the song My Last Breath by Evanescence. I encourage Neville to help me with the spell, he joins in, and it seems he is a natural healer, contributing much energy to the spell. We use it on his mother first, she recognizes him, and there is a brief tearful reunion. That can wait, one healing left to do. We use the song on his father with similar results. Now there is a three-way tearful reunion from which I quietly excuse myself. I figure that is a private moment, and I don't really want to be part of it anyway.


The Secret of the Egg
Back at Hogwarts, the one where I am a student, sitting at the dinner table is when Dumbledore brings up the subject of the tournament again. He says he hopes we are all making good progress on decoding the messages our eggs have to give us. Draco is beside me and he mutters that the egg sounds like someone torturing a hippogryph rather than a message any human could understand… I remember that the way to listen to the egg is underwater. I want to see if MoSh is there this time, so I wander over to the Gryffindor table. Neville is excitedly telling anyone who will listen that his parents are better and they will be visiting next weekend, he can't wait for everyone to meet them. MoSh is also there, as is Asuka, they are sitting next to each other getting a bit too touchy-feely for a public school… and if it wasn't for Neville, they would probably be gathering an audience. I say hi to MoSh, and he says hello, I ask if they have listened to their egg yet. He says no, this is the first time he has been back, Harry has been procrastinating, and Hermione has yet to figure it out. She has been spending her time researching all the strangest languages she could possibly think of. Of course that doesn't do it. We decide to listen to the egg in the lake, since there are both men and women in each group. I tell Draco I have an idea for the egg, and we go down to the lake. Harry, Hermione, Ron, and MoSh are there, too. I briefly think Ron is like a lost puppy following the others around even though he is not in the tournament. Draco thinks this is a weird place to take the egg. I tell him to get in the water with me, then duck under. He looks at me like he thinks I am nuts. Harry and Ron also think MoSh is nuts, but a look of realization is dawning on Hermione's face. She says of course, the density of the water will alter the sound the egg makes… maybe it's not a foreign language after all. We get in the water and go under, I open my egg. It is indeed speaking English now, it describes how to get to the bottom of the lake, follow a maze of passages, and get to the goal. Draco has to surface a few times for air, I breathe water without even thinking about it. When I surface, Draco asks if I am part fish… how long can I hold my breath, anyway? Ron, Harry, and Hermione are staring wide-eyed at MoSh, still underwater, and then he surfaces. Ron is stunned, he says, "Blimey! I've never seen anyone but a fish stay underwater that long!" To top it off, neither MoSh nor I are even winded. I can breathe water to get to the goal, I will have to figure out some way for Draco to do it. MoSh will be able to help Harry and Hermione better than any gillyweed!


Until It Sleeps
I am at the Hogwarts where I am supposed to teach a class, but I have absolutely no idea what I am supposed to be doing because I can't remember where in the curriculum the class is right now! I look through a book called Out of the Darkness by Raven Knight as the students are coming into the class, I figure I haven't taught them any healing spells yet, so I will start with that. I open the book to the song Until It Sleeps by Metallica. I explain the use of the song to the class… how it can be used to calm rage and anger from someone's heart, put the rage and anger to sleep. I also explain that if someone is doing horrible things because they are in pain, not physical pain, but internal pain… emotional pain, spiritual pain… this song will take that pain away. After the song, they will go back to acting like their true selves. Of course if their true self happens to be an asshole, they will still be an asshole after the song. It won't change that. It is meant to heal someone, not to transform who they really are, since that is a choice everyone has a right to make for themselves. I show the spell to everyone in the class, and this goes smoothly with no unexpected difficulties.

Plans: I didn't have any specific plans for tonight, though I was rather expecting a DDO based dream since I have been playing a lot of DDO lately… My main goal is still to have more consistent recall, as that has been very unpredictable lately. I have some recall from last night, and here it is.

Hell Is For Children
I am in a dungeon like the kind that is found in the online game DDO, Dungeons and Dragons Online. I am there looking for some prisoners, a woman in a nearby town has told me that the kobolds have kidnapped several children and are holding them captive in these very caves. Of all weird things, I have a log book in my pocket and I am able to look back over the goals I have for this quest. Find and rescue all of the children, 5 left. Kill Sagun Krent, who is apparently one of the leaders of the kobolds. Kill Darren Drexel, who is a human traitor, and apparently helped the kobolds get hold of the children in the first place. Destroy the kobold dungeon (optional) is on the end of the list. Ok, so now that I have the goals memorized, I put the log in my pocket and form Witchblade into a sword and armor. The dungeon is pretty basic, there are quite a few kobolds guarding the place, and also quite a few barrels and crates to smash, I am finding a decent amount of money. I find a locked door quite a ways in, and the kobold guarding the door has the key, so I kill that kobold and go into the main prison area. There are a few more kobolds there, I kill them, and then use some thieves tools I have on me to pick the locks to the prison cells that each have a child in them. Four children. One left. I have two girls and two boys with me, they all grab daggers from a pile of weapons stashed in the corner, not wanting to be defenseless. We look for fifth child. There is a torture room, the girl is naked and chained to a table with a kobold on top of her, forcing himself on her. Before I can act, the other four children swarm the kobold, stabbing it with their daggers, it falls off the girl and bleeds to death. Pick the locks on the girl's chains, find some rags to use as temporary clothing, she is more traumatized than the others. On the way out Sagun Krent blocks our exit. I fight him, the traitor Darren Drexel tries to grab the kids, the four stab him to death. The one girl is huddled on the floor. I kill Sagun Krent. All mandatory tasks complete. Now I can recall… no recall button? Of course not! This isn't a game! Kids and I make our way out, killing a few lingering kobolds on the way. I notice some barrels of explosives near the entrance, convenient, so once we're all outside, I detonate them with an energy ball, and the entrance to the cave collapses. All goals complete. I lead the kids back to the town, I use a healing spell on the one girl to help her overcome her trauma. Parents are thrilled to see their kids, want to give me rewards, but I wake up


One Woman Army
I am in the town of Korthos from DDO, and everyone is in a state of panic. I ask someone what is going on, he says the city is about to be overrun by devourer servants… not on my watch! I go to the front gate where there are a few warriors trying to hold the gates, there are many enemies just outside it. I say I will fight, they say it's too late, and they can't open the gates, they need to give the people a chance to escape. I jump over the gate and I am now facing a huge group of surprised enemies, that seem to be made up of sahuagin, various classes of human devourer minions, kobolds, zombies, and skeletons. What a nice mix. I use an Alex Mercer archetype and form my arms both into his sword blades and charge directly into the group, cutting enemies down as I charge through them, they are momentarily too surprised to respond much, this is totally unexpected. I am in the middle of the group now and I use a tendril barrage devastator attack and send razor sharp tendrils through all of the enemies anywhere near me, huge numbers of enemies of all kinds are killed by this. Now the ones who had been ready to attack are being killed before their attacks can actually land, others are just trying to get out of the path of my attacks. It's the devourer forces who are now panicking, they hadn't realized that many of them could be killed that quickly, so many of them are running away, the leaders are getting pissed and saying it's only one person, kill her, you cowards. There is one leader each, a devourer priest, a sahuagin priestess, a kobold chief, and a necromancer that is of a race I don't recognize. The human priest is closest, so I form one hand into an Alex Mercer claw and crush his neck to shut him up. I use a tendril from my left hand to pull the sahuagin priestess to me and then cut her in two with a blade formed of my right hand. I charge at the kobold chief and knock him to the ground, then impale him there with three tendrils… the necromancer is running, leaving undead to guard his back. I use a variant of Alex Mercer's ground spike attack, sending biomass into the ground that erupts through the ranks of the undead in a wave that keeps going until it catches up with and impales the necromancer. Except for the undead, the enemies are fleeing… cowards… disorganized, fleeing into the hills and surrounding wilderness. I use the blade to cut through the remaining undead, and soon all that remains outside the Korthos gate is a lot of dead bodies and blood. Two stunned Korthos guards are looking out of the gate, gaping at me, one of them says, "What the fuck are you?"

Note: I have been running really short on time lately, and I end up not journaling everything, so I have gone to a shorter format so I can get everything I would like to journal recorded and still have time for other things.

The Dark Wizard
I am in a cavern with a group of people like might be found in a Dungeons and Dragons game. We are in a cavern that is blocked off by creatures, they are too strong for us to escape. They have a dwarf wizard chained up with magic, he is laughing at them for their inability to escape. They got in and captured him, now they will all die. Everyone is arguing on what to do. They ask who the fuck am I? I figure I could get them out of there, but I have a better idea… I can heal the dwarf wizard. He has a spark, so I use the song Touch My Heart to restore the flame in his heart. He is still bound by magic, his powers are being suppressed. I tell the others they can set him free now. He is no longer laughing at the situation, now he says he will help them escape. No one there wants to trust him now, apparently they don't believe I was able to heal his heart. Since they won't listen, I figure I will just have to allow the wizard the chance to prove himself. I look closer at him and see he uses dark energy, but it is stable now, and I just need to set him free of his bonds. "Through the darkness of hell and the blackest of hates, he who makes fear awaits you. After many lifetimes sealed away, the power remains for all to see, now it's un bound, now I set it free." There is a cyclone of dark energy surrounding the dwarf that pulls huge amounts of dark energy into him and allows him to break free of the bonds. Now he is not only free, he is more powerful than ever before… but still stable. He is angry at the creatures outside because he says they corrupted him in the first place, so he will help the people fight them off. Everyone there is terrified of him, but he proves them wrong as he uses his power to clear a path out of the dungeons, eliminating all of the creatures that dare stand in their path. Most of the creatures start running away before the force of his power. Once outside, the wizard says he is willing to let the past go, he won't bother the people unless they bother him first… so just leave him alone. They seem more than willing to comply with that.



Animal Sanctuary
I am in someone else's house, I am visiting there with my mother, and we are surrounded by all sorts of animals. I love the situation, and I am trying to get close to all of the animals and pet them or at least take photos of them with my iPod Touch. There are sooooo many kitties, I want to pet all of them, and most of them are willing to let me. There are also many dogs and some rarer animals that include big wild cats, a bear, an elephant in one of the larger rooms… some of the rooms are HUGE. I am in a room with many trees growing indoors, and there are birds and squirrels that are extremely friendly, even a raven comes from the trees and lands on my shoulder, being very careful not to hurt me with the talons on its feet. The raven has very soft feathers. My mom wants to go, we are on our way out and I see many animals I don't recognize, I try to linger back and take photos, my mom rushes me out to the car. We are driving home when I realize something is moving in my shirt and I find it is a pair of squirrel hitchhikers. There is also a canary on my head that seems to have found my hair to be a good place to roost.


Energy for Asuka
I am inside MoSh's inner world, and he is there with me. He seems glad to see me there, he says he wants to be sure Asuka is ok, he hasn't seen her around much in his dreams. I ask him where she is, he says if he knew that he wouldn't be so worried about her. I go into the house and try to scan around for Asuka, she isn't in the house, so I go to the door to Hogwarts. I scan Hogwarts as best as I can do quickly, no sign of her there, so I go to the door to the home of the monks that are training her. She is there! MoSh and I go through the doorway into their temple and look around, I am able to track Asuka's signal to find she is near a tranquil pool of water. The pool of water is surrounded by beautiful flowers, and Asuka is floating over the pool, meditating. MoSh asks if she is ok, but she doesn't respond, she is clearly too deep in meditation. MoSh asks one of the monks if she is ok, the monk says she is fine, she is just meditating, she should be out of it soon. MoSh asks if she is ok, the monk says aside from being a bit drained of energy, she is doing fine. Soon she comes out of her meditation and floats over to the shore and lands there. She wakes up, smiles at MoSh, and then hugs him. She looks a bit depressed, maybe just low on energy. Just to be sure there is nothing wrong inside her, I use the song Touch My Heart to give her some extra energy and purge any remaining unstable energy from her. She looks at MoSh, then at me, and she seems to be a bit more lively now. She says thank you, that energy really feels good, she has been quite tired lately. MoSh asks the monk how Asuka's training is going, the monk says it would be going much better if she had more confidence in her abilities to keep control of her own power. That fear must be dealt with first, and this requires much meditation and practice, which is what they are working on now.


Raiders of the Lost Arc (TotY)
I have said I would take MoSh into Avalon so we could go take care of something that needs to be taken care of, he says he is interested in doing that. So that is the next stop for the night. I take MoSh through a portal, focusing on letting Avalon guide us, but instead of taking us directly to a place we need to go, it takes us to the island of Avalon. MoSh looks around the island and says he thinks Asuka would really like it there, we should bring her sometime. I remember Tigress also says she wants to come, so I tell MoSh to wait for a bit and I open a portal to the moon, to the spot by the koi pond. She is not there, so I figure that means she is off in another dream and might be doing something she does not want to be disturbed from. There will be time for her in Avalon later. I close the portal, then MoSh and I get on a wooden boat and float down a river into a thick grove of trees where everything goes dark… and we find we are standing in a desert. There is a lot of commotion going on not far from our location, so MoSh and I go to check it out. There are many Nazis surrounding an object which could only be the Arc of the Covenant… there are two people tied up to a poll, one of them appears to be Indiana Jones, the other is a woman. One of the Nazis is about to open the arc, but I remember the Task of the Year where the goal is to open the arc and see what is in there. I have to open it, not him. MoSh and I easily kill off all of the Nazis, I use shape shifting to form my arm into Alex Mercer's arm blade and slice through them all. MoSh uses a pair of katana and some cool looking martial arts moves. Indiana and the woman are staring at us in awe, MoSh sets them free. They say we should get the arc to safety, I say no, we're going to open it. They both protest, but they certainly can't stop us… MoSh and I go over to the arc and open up the lid, Indiana and the woman run for cover. There is a glowing light in the arc that is like looking into infinity, there are surges of energy down inside it and flashes of light… then there is an eruption. The energy explodes out of the arc and permeates everything in the area, flowing through both MoSh and me as well. What a surge of energy! It doesn't hurt at all, it feels good. Once the energy passes through us, a spirit forms in front of us. I can't tell if it is male or female or even human, and it speaks to us (or at least I hear it) telepathically. It says we have pure hearts and have thus survived the test. It thanks us for releasing it, then it fades to nothing. The arc is now completely empty… nothing more than an ornate artifact from a time long past.

Note: For reference, I refer to the energy force that guides me to where I need to be as Avalon, which comes from the island of Avalon as depicted in the animated series Gargoyles. Here is a brief note on the characteristics of Avalon that seem to be seen in the force that guides my unplanned, sometimes non-lucid, dreams:

Avalon cannot be found on a map of the world; it is reachable only by magic. Despite being part of the Earth, its true location is found at a rather large nexus of native Earth magic, and therefore is incapable of being reached in a three dimensional manner. The usual procedure for entering Avalon for mortals is to recite a Latin incantation while upon a body of water (which can range in size from the sea to a college swimming pool); Oberon's Children, on the other hand, can presumably come and go through their innate abilities, without needing water nearby. (Although I have always traveled with my version of Avalon without the aid of water or incantations, unless lying on a waterbed and snoring counts!) Leaving Avalon is somewhat trickier; it does not send you to where you wish to go, but to where you need to be. (It is this part about being sent where you need to be that usually results in me showing up exactly where and when I am needed to perform a dream task.)

So lately I seem to be unable to travel with Avalon, or be lucid in any manner. And even though Avalon has always guided my non-lucids before, they have been getting more and more mundane over time, more dreams about work and school and less dreams about far off worlds and adventure. One of my main goals now is to find out what has happened with my ability to have Avalon send me where I need to be, and get it working again, or hopefully get it working again. There is also an issue going on with Asuka, MoSh has reason to believe there may be a demon of some kind inside her, that her symbiant is fighting it, but isn't able to force it all of the way out. If I am able to, helping with this is my second goal for the night.

The Halls of Avalon
I am in a strange place, I look around and see that I am in a long arched hallway that is illuminated by a dim blue light. The entire setting is very dark, but it is also very comforting there, I am getting a sense of peace. I look at the high vaulted ceilings and then begin making my way down the hallway, heading in the only way I can go since there is a locked door behind me. I haven't checked the door, but I am absolutely certain it is locked. My footsteps echo loudly in the wide halls, and after a while I meet up with another person there. I am surprised at that since I thought I was alone. There is a woman coming over to me, she smiles welcomingly, and says, "Welcome to the Halls of Avalon."

"The Halls of Avalon?" I ask, "This is Avalon?"

"This is only a small part of Avalon," she says, "The whole of Avalon is vast, but this is where you must enter from. You enter from here and then you will be able to go anywhere you need to at the time. I tell her I have always been able to do that before. She says if I have traveled through the Halls of Avalon in the past, then I have but to choose a hall, go to the door at the end, and find out where it takes me. I continue down the hall I am in, it goes on for a ways farther. I pass several other halls that branch off of the one I am following, though I decide to stay with the one passage for now. It finally comes to an end. There is a door there, so I go to open it up, but I find it is locked.

Suddenly there is a man there with me, he is smiling at me and laughing, though he doesn't really seem unfriendly. He says I'm not going to get through it without unlocking it first… I keep trying to open it for a bit, then I look in my pockets, looking to see if I might have a key on me. The man chuckles again and says it looks like someone lost her key. I ask if he has a key. He says of course he does. I ask him to open the door, then. He says that won't help me any, if he opens the door, it will lead to a place he needs to be right now, not to where I need to be. He says I have to open it myself. I ask where my key is. He asks how he would know that when I'm the one who lost it. I pick up a couple of wires off the ground and make a lame attempt to pick the lock… epic fail. I try a Harry Potter spell, alohamora… epic fail. The man says I have about as much chance of getting through the door like that as I have of digging the Grand Canyon using a teaspoon. I ask him how I'm supposed to get through it, then? Break it down? He says I should use Avalon to find it. I say I can't use Avalon until I find the key, so how am I supposed to use Avalon to find the key? He shakes his head a bit and says I have clearly missed the point entirely. But I shouldn't worry, he has complete confidence that I will figure it out if I just manage to focus on it and think about it for a while.

Fly Me to the Mall
I am in an airplane of some kind, I am the pilot, and this doesn't seem odd to me. I have complete control of the plane and I am having no trouble flying it, as if I have been doing it for years. There is someone there with me, though I'm not exactly sure who he is. He is saying something about us being too high, we need to lower altitude, so I go into a dive towards the ground. The man with me starts freaking out and yelling at me that we can't lose altitude that fast, we have to pull up, we're going to crash! I don't pay much attention to the man freaking out, I feel confident that we aren't even close to crashing. As we get close to the ground I finally pull up and fly parallel to the ground. The man with me is cursing loudly and telling me I must be stark raving mad. He says he wants off and he wants off now, land the plane now. He is getting annoying, so I finally land the plane in the parking lot of a mall, I'm not sure how I manage to do that, but I landed the plane without destroying anything, not even scratching the plane. The man ejects the hood off of the cockpit and jumps out, face plants on the ground, curses some more, and then runs away. Damn… he ejected the cockpit hood… now I can't even fly the damned plane!

I get out of the plane and decide to go into the mall, where I strangely remember I wanted to get some clothing, though I don't want to go shopping for clothes now… I go into a store and buy a couple of items, then I pay for them and carry them out on hangers. There are now displays of clothing in the halls, all from one designer clothing store. I look around and see some shirts I really like, then I see the price on the tag… $128.99? Seriously? I put one of the items I have on one side of the item I want… then I pick up all three items and walk casually away from the display. I glance around and see there is no one watching me, that's good. Now to look for something cooler… video games. Maybe a Nintendo 3DS… maybe a new game for one of my other systems… I am trying to think about which game I might be interested in getting when I wake up.

Plans: My main plans for tonight were to just remember something, some kind of dreams, although being lucid would definitely be a big plus. It seems my desire to remember some stuff has come to pass, but I was not lucid. What I do remember came in a bunch of seemingly unconnected fragments that make little sense or no sense at all. I really need to get my dreams back to how they used to be. I used to fall asleep in the evening with no dream plans at all and the energy inside me would take me somewhere I needed to be, but lately that hasn't been happening… maybe I'm planning my dreams out too much… I need to get it back.

Where In The World Is Sam?
I am in a mall that I have seen many times in dreams, though I have never seen it in my waking life. I am wandering around in the mall, looking to buy a new Nintendo 3DS, though I know I couldn't possibly afford one. I am thinking maybe I can trade some old crap towards buying it. While I am looking for the computer store, it seems every time I am in this mall the stores have moved, I run into a frantic MoSh. He asks me if I have seen Saim, he says he has to find Saim before it's too late. I stop him from hurrying off and ask if he wouldn't have more luck looking for her in a dream. He calms down a bit and says I am right, he'll go home and try to sleep so he can find Saim in a dream.

Guilty as Charged
I am in my room, I am looking through all of my stuff, I am looking for something that might be worth a bit of cash to sell on the internet. I have to do this because my credit card statement is coming due, and I haven't got anything to pay it with. I wonder how I managed to get myself in debt after the problems I had in the past… My mom comes in and says she knows I am in debt, I'm not sure how she could know, and she clearly doesn't know the whole of it. I decide to come clean and tell her I have a couple thousand dollars of debt. She doesn't get angry like I had expected, instead she looks deeply disappointed, which is worse. She says I apparently learned nothing the first time. I tell her the charges are not mine, I don't even have that card any more. This is a flat out lie. She says she will make a couple phone calls and get it cleared up. I hurry to my purse and take the card out, going directly to the bathroom where I take a scissors and cut the card into tiny pieces and flush them away. There. Now no one can prove I had the card.

Dinner and a Class
I am just walking into a classroom where I have signed up for some kind of school class, though I'm not sure what class I have signed up for. I don't think much about this discrepancy. I know my friend Alicia is taking the class as well, so I look around the classroom to find her. She is near the front of the room, but all of the seats around her are completely filled. Damn… I can't sit with her. I look around for an empty seat and then I spot Tigress a couple seats behind Alicia. I hadn't realized she was also in this class! So while I had just said, "Crap!" when I saw I can't sit with Alicia, I now say, "Yay!" since I see I can sit with Tigress. Class passes awfully fast, then the four of us go out to the parking lot where MoSh meets us there and says he will take us all out to dinner to celebrate some accomplishment. I am feeling uncomfortable about letting him pay for my dinner… especially when he says we are going out for steak… so I say I will have to take a rain check, I have to go home. So as the rest of the group goes in one direction, I walk in the direction of home. I have walked only a short time before I remember I drove to school, so I have to turn around and walk back to school to get my car.

The Punch is Sweet!
I am at a large party where everyone is dressed up and wandering around, though I am really bored right now. There's a buffet table with lots of snacks laid out on it, a couple of large bowls of punch, and everyone is just standing around talking, which is really boring to me. I spot a familiar face in the room, who is going from one person to the next. It's Patrick Jane from The Mentalist. Some of those people are laughing when Patrick leaves, some are angry, some are just confused. Patrick comes over and asks me if I know how to catch a killer, but he doesn't leave me a chance to answer. He says you have to be sweet about it, and then asks if I would mind creating a small distraction… I'm not sure what is going on, but I decide to play along with that. I go to a different table and attach a tablecloth to the shoe of a particularly stuck up woman, who glares down at me as if she was looking at a cockroach. I tell her I dropped something, and I move away. She doesn't see the tablecloth is attached to her shoe. I stay close to her and start bugging her a lot, so she turns and walks away, pulling the tablecloth and a lot of snacks with it, everything falls off with a crash. The distraction works, I look over at Patrick to see what he is doing. He is pouring sugar into the punch bowl, then he quickly moves away. I go back over near Patrick, he whispers that that sugar will quickly reveal the killer.

The Flame of the Dragon
I am in an open field, I look around to see where I am. I am actually on the edge of the field, and I am looking out across the field of tall grass as a gentle breeze blows across the meadow. There is only one thing visible out there, other than this, the field continues as far as the eye can see. The one thing I see is just about unbelievable, so I feel the need to check this out more closely. The grass is so tall I am able to crouch down and move in such a way that I am completely hidden from view. As impossible as it seems, what I saw from the edge of the forest has been confirmed… I am looking upon a dragon! The dragon looks a lot like the one in this picture, a red dragon standing up on two legs and glaring down… right at me… crap… I have been seen. He looks quite pissed off, too. He takes a deep breath and then exhales a huge blast of flaming energy in my direction. I instinctively cross my arms in front of me as if to block the attack… and Witchblade forms armor and a shield to actually do that… So the fiery attack doesn't get through my shield, although the force of it pushes me back quite a ways as I lean into the shield to keep from falling over. I move the shield a bit when the blast is over, and I am now standing on a burned area of the meadow, the dragon is glaring down at me still, though he also looks rather surprised that his attack didn't get through. He quickly covers his confusion with a threat, he tells me that was a warning… and if I don't leave now he will erase me from existence. I have no desire to fight this dragon, and to be honest, I had intruded on the dragon's space. So I don't argue the fact at all, I say I'm sorry I disturbed him, and I quickly return to the cover of the forest.


Animal Rescue
I am on my bike, and I am heading home, riding down a road surrounded by pine trees and other areas of nature that are nothing like my area IWL. The problem I notice is that there is a steep hill going up towards home, and I realize that there is no way I will be able to ride up that hill without having my legs hurting so bad they might fall off. So I get up and walk the bike up to the top of the hill and then the rest of the way is downhill. I get on the bike and cruise down the hill to where the road takes a sharp turn to the left, where I leave the road onto a trail that fortunately goes straight. I slow down so I don't crash, and I notice someone has laid a trap line of steel jaw traps, and there are animals trapped in them. I stop by each trap and release the animal being held there, fortunately they all seem to realize I am trying to help and they don't attack me, not even the ones who would normally attack. I rescue a couple cats, several dogs, a pair of wolves, a bobcat, and more. I am now thinking I should be home by now, and since I stopped to help the animals, I will be late. I figure that my mom will just have to wait, the animals are more important.

Note: My recall has been inconsistent to say the best, as night before last was yet another night of CRS… which really sucks. So my only goal for tonight is to remember dreams, although if I happen to have a dream of DDO, and if I happen to meet up with Tigress in a dream of DDO… or if I happen to meet up with MoSh or Nomad or anyone else I will sometimes share dreams with… or if I meet up with someone new… that is awesome, too!

I am in a place I don't recognize, but it seems completely normal for me to be there at the time. I am an Assassin like those from Assassin's Creed, and I already know who the target is that I am after. There is a specific terrorist leader that needs to be taken out as quickly and silently as possible. He has been located in this city, so trying to take him out with conventional means would no doubt involve killing too many civilians, so Assassins such as myself have been sent in. I have to meet with the others before heading off to track targets. In addition to the primary target, there are also numerous secondary targets… terrorists that are roaming amongst the civilians, so the more of them we can take out, the safer the city will be. I go into a building and down into some underground halls to meet up with my associates, who I find out aren't all Assassins. They are dressed differently, but I realize it is so we can all blend in with the crowds and not have it look like a group of people in uniforms. There are a couple of men there, both are redheads there those two have freckles… and shortly after I get there, a third man shows up. My first thought is that he is kind of cute. I walk over closer to him and smile, but I realize he probably doesn't see my smile because of my Assassin's hood. Then I think about the fact if he did see my face, he might actually be offended by my showing interest in him. So I admire the view from afar.

I figure we are all there to make a plan for how we're going to complete our mission to take out the head terrorist as well as taking out as many of the others as possible. Everyone is talking, but they aren't talking about terrorists at all, actually, I can't really figure out what they're talking about. I go over to the group, I am standing beside one of the redheads and looking over at the cute guy. Someone else comes along before I can get a good idea of what everyone is talking about, he looks at the group of us and asks if the redhead and I are… the redhead interrupts with a definitive, "No!" and he seems to be blushing quite brightly. What was he going to suggest… does he somehow know that we are all Assassins? That's not good… Those thoughts go through my mind in an instant, so I also respond with a definitive, "No!" at the same time as the redhead does. The new visitor points at the redhead and laughs at the fact he is blushing. It still seems that no one is talking about the task at hand, which is to take out the terrorist lead. I finally give up on that, I know where he is going to be exposed most, so I decide I had better do it on my own if I want it to get done at all.

I tell them all that I have to get things done, and then I head off down the hall, heading for the open areas of the city. I find that I have some of the tools of an Assassin's Creed Assassin… I have a crossbow with bolts, and I have my hidden blade… though I don't see my sword. I climb up at some key locations so I can get to the rooftops and not be noticed, then I make my way along the rooftops until I get to a lookout point that is overlooking an outdoor auditorium type area where there are quite a few people gathered around the stage, on which there is a single podium. I duck down behind a wall as someone who looks like a guard goes by, I figure they are there to protect the guy who is actually a terrorist. When the guard is gone I return to my place and I see there is now a man standing behind the podium, he looks like a politician, and he talks like one, too. He is the terrorist, he is infiltrating the rest of the government here, and has definite plans that have to be stopped. So I take aim with my crossbow, load a bolt in, and fire… my shot is perfect, it hits the man right in the chest, right through his heart, for an instant kill. Of course everyone freaks out at that, guards are trying to find where I am, but panicking civilians are getting in their way, all running for cover, all afraid that they may also be targets. Of course I have no interest in shooting any civilians, so I use the chaos to get off of the building and blend in with the fleeing masses.

I am going down a street and I see there are a bunch of guards up ahead, they are positioning themselves to try to keep me from passing. I wonder if they have seen me or if they are just hoping to spot me, but either way I decide to avoid them. I head into a hospital off to my right and I head through some of the back halls. Patients aren't supposed to be in there, but I don't think anyone sees me go in there. I soon realize I am very wrong. Guards are following me still, so I don't want to be found. I have the feeling most of the guards are ok, most of them aren't associated with the terrorists, so I don't want to kill them for doing their jobs. There are a few corrupt ones, which I know I will be able to identify if I see them, I duck into a room to the left and wait for them to pass by me. One passes by… an innocent man… a couple more go by… After the group passes by I sneak out of the room and back the way I came from towards the front of the hospital. I don't go out the front door, however, I head to the side door, which is a service entrance, and I exit into the alley way.

I know now that I don't have much farther to go before I get to a safe place, so I head in that direction. I find myself surrounded by four guards as I round a corner… and all of them are corrupt. One of them asks another if he thinks I know anything, the third man says it doesn't matter whether I do or not. The fourth guard, a woman, says they have their orders, then she adds, speaking to me, that there won't be any going to prison and telling everyone what I know… I will die right here. I have my hidden blade… for some reason they don't seem to realize that, so when they get close enough for me to do so, I knife one with my hidden blade. That takes a the others by surprise, did they actually think I was unarmed? So I maneuver my way around and knife a second man before finding myself suddenly behind the woman, so I take her out, too. (I think I teleported there, but that fact didn't register in the dream.) There is one man left, and it looks like he is thinking about bugging out, probably to get more guards… he does just that, and he takes a crossbow bolt in the back. Those four corrupt guards are gone…

So now I continue down the alley. Someone else is following me, so I duck around a corner. I am prepared to strike with my hidden blade, but I stop myself at the last minute. The guard isn't corrupt. I now have my hidden blade right at his neck, and he is staring at me with wide and fearful eyes, not even daring to make a move for his weapon. He just says, "Please don't…" and I don't actually want to kill him, so instead I hit him upside the head and knock him unconscious. I check to be sure he's ok, he's fine, his pulse is strong, and then I keep going towards the safe spot. I arrive there just a bit too late, it looks like everyone has already left. I am yelling after them to wait for me, I think they were on some kind of a ship going out to sea, but they don't come back. One woman is on the back of the ship, and she yells something at me, I'm not sure what she said, but I think it was something to the point of, "You're an Assassin… find your own way out!" and then she laughs. I do find my own way out, and that way is by waking up.

Note: When I told MoSh about this, it looks like the meeting I was at might have been between Ron, Fred, MoSh, and myself, and of course they weren't talking about assassinations. My lack of lucidity made me not notice who they were. That makes Fred and Ron the redheads, and MoSh was the cute one.

Note: The rest of the dreams from this night are only fragments, and none of them are lucid, but I will post them here because I think one or more of them might have been shared. If you read this and recognize yourself in here, please let me know, otherwise it might have just been a DC that I mistook for you in my non-lucidity.

Area 51
I am in an underground room, there is no way to see that it is underground, but somehow I know it is. It's just a feeling I get like I am far under the surface of the Earth. I go over to the door and find it's not locked, so I walk right out into the hallway. I have the feeling I'm not really supposed to be there, so I try to avoid meeting anyone as I look through the halls. I hear someone coming and I duck into a small room that turns out to be a storage closet of some kind. The problem is they are coming into the closet… I lock the door from the inside, the door locks manually in there, and then I climb up the shelves and through a panel on the ceiling. I get out of sight just before the door unlocks and a man enters, muttering expletives about the door not needing to be locked with all the security on the entire floor. What security, I wonder, I haven't seen any security… I crawl through the vent system for a while, looking down into the different rooms as I pass. I see a computer room filled with computer operators, a lab with scientists messing around with chemicals, an office with a meeting going on, a room with a couple of soldiers aiming a gun at MoSh… wait a minute… aiming guns at MoSh? They want to shoot MoSh? Not on my watch! I go over to the ceiling area right over the soldiers, and I climb onto the panels that I know won't hold my weight… and CRASH! I fall through the floor and land right on top of the soldiers. One is knocked unconscious, the other is starting to get up when I kick him in the head and knock him unconscious. MoSh pulls a kitten with wires on its head from his shirt somewhere. He says he rescued the cat from having experiments done on it, but doesn't know how to get the wires out… I take the kitten and look at it, the wires don't seem to be causing discomfort to the cat, but then I wake up.

Area 51: The DDO Version
I am in what seems to be the same complex I was in during the last dream, walking down the same corridors, still avoiding people because I feel I should not be there. Just like in that dream, I enter a closet and climb into the air vent system. I am exploring that, though the rooms I see below are different than before. There are no computers, though there is a room full of kobolds doing something with crystals. There is another room where kobolds are fighting against each other to train. This is really strange… in the next room there are a couple of hobgoblins guarding a large treasure chest. I hear more activity to my right, so I turn down that vent shaft to see what is going on, and I see there is a large chamber filled with hobgoblins and one person fighting them. I see that person and recognize him… he's Tigress' character from our DDO games! What was his name? Nexiel! That's an awful lot of hobgoblins for one person to fight, though, so I look around for something to be used as a weapon. There is a display of swords on a wall, so I drop down over there and grab a sword. I enter the battle with Nexiel, who seems to know me, leading me to believe if it might actually be Tigress. I don't really have much time to consider that with the fighting going on, cutting, slicing, stabbing… the hobgoblins are gone soon, and Nexiel hands out healing potions. It tastes like fruit punch. We go to the next room, make quick work of the two hobgoblins guarding the chest, but before we get to open the chest I wake up.

The Mist
I am inside an office building yet again, but this time I can tell it isn't underground because there is a window looking outside. It seems I am on about the second floor, but I can't tell for sure because the fog outside is as thick as pea soup, I can't see more than inches from the window. I go to the hall and make my way downstairs where there is a group of people near the front door. I ask what is going on, a man says we are all going to die in here, a woman says we are doomed, there is no escape, and a little girl starts crying. The girl's mother gets mad at the man and woman talking doom, saying they need to shut up and stop scaring the children. I ask again what the problem is. A man tells me to look outside and ask that again, so I do. I look into the fog and ask what the problem is. Sure, it wouldn't be safe to drive in that, but it will burn off in time. Everyone looks at me as if I am crazy, a woman says if I want to go out there and die, be her guest… she isn't going anywhere near that door. Another woman says this is the wrath of God being visited upon sinners everywhere. I just look at them for a bit… going into the fog means death? The wages for sin is fog? I ask if it is toxic or something, an old man says it isn't toxic, but… I ask them what it would take to get them out. A man says there is a big RV out there, if someone could get to the RV, they could all escape. I ask where. He says it is about 600 feet straight out from the door… but that's the length of two football fields! No one would ever make it! Cut that out, wuss… keys, please. The woman who first told me to go ahead and go is now saying she didn't mean it, she doesn't want to see anyone else die. I tell her it's fog, it's not toxic. I'll get the RV. The man finally hands me the keys.

So I head for the door and out it… then I realize I can't see the RV. I ask if anyone has a flashlight, shine it into the fog so I can use that to keep my bearings and not wander off in some abstract direction. A man has a large flashlight from an emergency box and does that. I head out into the fog. Making sure to keep the flashlight beacon behind me, I walk in a straight line towards where he said the RV should be. The fog is actually a bit creepy, it looks like Silent Hill, but I find that rather cool instead of scary. Things are moving out there, thicker areas of fog? It looks like creatures… cool effect… I wish I had something to video tape or photograph with. Something big lands on my shoulder, it is the size of an eagle, but it is not an eagle… it is a cricket! Wtf? It starts chirping in my ear… a deafening sound… I push the cricket off, saying to do that again on the other side, I can still hear a bit over there… The cricket continues to chirp. I continue walking in a straight line and I find there is something right in front of me… it's a spider… a HUGE one…

like Aragog from Harry Potter! It is looming over me menacingly, without thinking I tell him to cool it and go try to scare someone else. The spider obediently goes away. I find the RV and get in, driving it back towards the beacon light. I honk a couple of times and then drive right through the glass doors. Everyone is boarding the RV through the back doors, I get up from the seat and say that was easy… then I wake.

Note: I have been having a horrible amount of nights where I can't remember anything from the night before… and it is really starting to piss me off. Last night I did manage to remember a few dreams, however. None of them were lucid, but it is far better than nothing, and I think I saw a couple of other dreamers in there, though I will have to wait to see if it was really them or DCs that looked like them. After all the nights of not remembering anything, I am happy just to have something to journal.

The Golden Dragon
I am in a forest, it is fall, the leaves of the trees are changing to a rainbow of oranges and yellows and many are still green, so I figure it must be shortly into the fall season. There is a gentle breeze blowing, and it is a pleasant day out. I wonder how I have not found this place to take a walk sooner, since I never get enough exercise. Now that I know of this place, I am likely to take a lot more walks! I follow the path through the trees, I don't know where it leads, so it is an adventure to find out. I come across a stream with a small bridge across it, I pause to look at the stream, then I continue. The stream is flowing off to my left, parallel to the trail, and soon I reach a lake. I walk around the lake, still enjoying the day immensely. I come around some large rocks to find myself face-to-face with a large golden dragon, who is glaring at me as if my mere arrival represents a serious inconvenience to him… oh, crap…

Well, the dragon is glaring at me, I am certain he is going to incinerate me with a blast of fire on sight, but instead he speaks. He asks what is the meaning of this intrusion, and it had better be good, because he doesn't like being disturbed. I search my mind for a reason I might have come to disturb this dragon, damn… if only this was a dream I would be able to take care of myself even if it just involved opening a portal and bugging on out of there. (I thought about it being a dream and still no RC? ) So I search my mind a bit more until I finally remember a couple cases where someone was face to face with a dragon and walked away. Those cases are in Shrek where Donkey was right in front of the dragon guarding Princess Fiona, and The Hobbit where Bilbo was face-to-face with Smaug… they bought themselves some time, and in Donkey's case a girlfriend, by appealing to the dragon's ego… by complimenting him/her. So instead of trying to convince the dragon that I'd come upon him by pure accident, I say I had heard there was a magnificent dragon in these parts, so I had come to see for myself. And, indeed, the word magnificent falls short of the reality of the dragon, for mere words could never describe the awesomeness I am now witnessing. The dragon glared down at me and asked if it was worth my life to lay eyes upon him… I respond that there are few things in the worlds that are worth risking my life to witness, but a dragon such as him is surely one of those. And if I am to die, which everyone does eventually, better it be by one such as himself rather than some stupid accident or illness or to waste away in old age. And while I don't especially want to die now, I actually mean it about it being much more interesting and unique to be killed by a dragon than by more mundane means… and he is definitely an awesome looking dragon… so I'm not lying. He can tell I am being truthful. So he seems to calm down a bit, and finally says then I will have the honor that very few before me have had… the honor of gazing upon him… and of dying by his claw.

I say just because gazing upon him is worth dying for, that doesn't mean I'll willingly die… so I jump into the lake and swim underwater to find a portal to get out of there, I am certain there is a portal near the bottom. I take shallow breaths of water so I can breathe it for a short time and I find the portal. I swim through it, the interior looks like a wormhole, and I exit in another lake and swim for the surface. When I reach the surface I look around and see the golden dragon is still there, still looking in my direction… um… I'm in the same place? The dragon looks a bit puzzled, probably wondering why I came back to the same place as if I want to die… I say I took a wrong turn in the portal, and head back to the bottom of the lake. I swim through the portal again and this time I wake.

Note: My dreaming has been non-existent lately, or at least my recall has been. I'm not sure why I've been having so much trouble remembering dreams, but there are many nights where I don't remember a single dream. Due to my lack of recall, I am taking a bit of a break from trying to dream share with Dakotahnok, since meeting someone for the first time is often a difficulty in itself, and I just want to remember dreams. I do have minor plans, of meeting Nomad and giving him a healing back massage, of hanging out with him for a bit in his serial RPG world as one of the vendors… but nothing major except to remember something.

Body and Mind
I am on the moon, in the area near the koi pond, though I am not lucid and I don't realize where I am. I look around and see Nomad there, I know that his presence should be telling me something, but for some reason my mind can't make the connection between Nomad and dreaming. So I continue to be non-lucid, and Nomad mentions something about me promising him a massage. I don't remember making that promise, but I have no problem with doing that, so I say sure, but let's go somewhere that he can lie down comfortably. We go over to the grassy area of the healing glen, he lies down, and I give him a back massage, focusing healing energy into it. We are talking about nothing in particular, he mentions that his dreams are fusing with his waking life, he says for example this seems like a dream right now. I agree that this is dreamlike, but I still don't do a RC. After the massage, Nomad says it's my turn, I tell him it's not necessary, but he says he agreed to it, so lie down. I lie down, and he rubs my back, and the place really does feel like a dream. The massage is so relaxing that I fall asleep in the dream and wake IWL.

100% Off Sale: It's All Free!
I am with Nomad again, this time we are at a market stall like one might find at the swap meet, it is one of the larger ones, though, and there are people all around. There is a display of fruit that seem to be sparkling slightly, I look at the fruits and wonder what they are. The price tag on them says "100% Off, Today Only!" I pick up a fruit and take a bite of it, it is sweet and juicy… I like it a lot. I think if I can take a bunch of these home, I won't have any problems making myself eat fruits more often. Now to find a vegetable I like just as well… I look at the vegetable display, these are also free. I try a couple of them, and while they aren't as good as the fruit, there are definitely some I could get used to eating. Nomad comes over to me and tells me to not eat all the inventory, I look at the fruits and vegetables in my hands, but I can tell he's just joking around. There are other displays there, with a variety of chocolate treats on them, I wonder how many Weight Watchers points those would cost me… though I should be able to afford to eat something since I have eaten mostly fruits and vegetables. So I start eating other things. Yummy things. Chocolates, cakes, tortilla chips dipped in spicy cheese sauce… washing it down with soda… there goes my diet… While I am eating, a young man asks where he can find some magical fruit. I point to the beans with a giggle, he says not that, the real magical fruit. Since it's the closest thing to magical I have seen, I direct him to the sparkling fruit. He goes over to take one, I eat for a bit longer, then I wake.

The Sound of Music
I am in the mall, though it isn't a mall I am familiar with at all, and I am walking around past the stores looking for anything that might be interesting. Most of the places are just clothing, which while some women might be really into, I'm not… I spot a couple of computer stores, but oddly enough, they're closed. I see a music shop that specializes in keyboards… organs, pianos, synthesizers… I go inside and start playing around on some of them. An employee comes over and asks if I realize I am playing around on a $10,000 piece of equipment that is extremely fine tuned and any disturbance could put it out of tune, any disturbance such as me pounding on the keys. I am not actually pounding on the keys, so I say any instrument that goes out of tune that easily is certainly not worth $10,000. He says only a musical ignoramus would say something like that. Another man comes over and asks the first man how many times he has warned him not to point out and make fun of the ignorance of customers… The rude man tries to answer, but the second man, who I get the idea is the owner, says the run man should go set himself on fire for 5 seconds as punishment. The rude man slinks from the room, I wonder if he really will set himself on fire. The owner asks what I am looking for, I tell him I am looking for a synthesizer that looks and sounds enough like a real piano to convince anyone that I am playing a real piano. The owner looks at me oddly, even I don't know why I asked for what I asked for, then he says to follow him and leads me to a room filled with pianos before I wake.

The Aftermath of Doom
I am on my way to school, though things aren't exactly as I expect them to be. There are much fewer people there at the school when I arrive, though I don't notice that it isn't ITT Tech… and then there's the fact I have graduated from ITT Tech already. While there aren't many people around, there are lots of things lying around, discarded for some reason. I look at the objects on the ground. Many of them are along the side of the sidewalk, I see discarded iPods, discarded Nintendo DS systems, discarded PSPs… I pick up a couple of those things and look at them, no one is around, so I start collecting stuff that has been carelessly discarded. If they didn't care enough to keep their stuff with them… I also see purses lying around with no owner. I know I am being nosy, but I open the purses and look in the wallets for identification. Many of them have ID, many don't, so I hang on to a couple with ID and I leave the ones without ID, except I take any cash out of the wallet before leaving those purses behind. Money… iPods… game systems… this is my lucky day! But why is all this stuff lying out there? I wonder if maybe these people are coming back soon, and will be upset when their stuff is gone. The problem is I can't remember where I got what well enough to put it back, so I keep it. I go into the school and find a couple other people there, they look terrified of something. They are discussing the disappearances. I hear them pondering theories including the biblical rapture, alien abduction, a flesh eating virus, demonic attack… A third person says he saw it all, they were all just torn apart by an unseen force. The others don't believe him, saying if that was true, he would also be dead…

Plans: I have been feeling pretty shitty today, it has been going on all day. There have been a couple times when I perked up a bit, but not much, so I don't know what effect this could have on my dreaming. Plans include meeting Dakotahnok to confirm a shared dream at the Halo 3 Warthog Run mission, completing tasks of the year, meeting MoSh for a Harry Potter dream, and to meet up with Tigress to kill stuff… probably monsters from DDO.

I am in a strange room, it looks like a doctor's office, though I'm not sure what I am there for. Or rather I don't want to think about what I am there for, because I am there for my gynecological exam, which is something I really dread, since it usually hurts. I am here because my guardian, Hetfield, bullied me into it, and now I am silently cursing at him for my being there even though he continues to say I have done the right thing. So I sit there for a while longer, now I am annoyed at the doctor for taking her time in getting to me, the last thing I want to do is sit there waiting for something I dread. Finally the doctor comes into the room and greets me with a smile on her face, I don't feel like returning the smile. She pulls out a syringe and says she will have to give me a little shot… a shot? I thought she was here to look at my nether regions, not give me a shot… I ask her what it is, she says it's nothing harmful, she just wants to give me the shot, then I can tell her what I feel. I don't like this, and I don't understand it, either. She comes over to me and gives me the shot, and I immediately wish I had protested more… because now I am feeling dizzy. I tell her that, and I see she is taking notes on a tablet computer. Things look strange for a bit, then my vision clears, and I feel ok again. I tell her that, and she sits down in a chair and said she will wait.

I wonder what she is waiting for… then I notice the wall is moving??? There is a huge bubble forming in the wall, not just one of them, there are several of them. It looks like the wall is rapidly developing a bad case of acne, though the "pimples" aren't red, they are rainbow colored, concentric rings of color starting at the center of each "zit" and then fading into the white of the wall at the base of the zit. They keep growing until they have a yellow head on each one that looks tightly strained and ready to pop… and then they all pop at once. I cringe back, expecting a wave of grossness in the form of pus, but that doesn't come. Instead, each "zit" spews forth waves of colorful confetti, colorful and sparkling. So now I am sitting in a doctor's office in the middle of a colorful and sparkling confetti storm… what kind of a hospital is this? I am about to do a RC when the doctor distracts me and asks what I see, so I tell her. She says that is good, the shot was a hallucinogen, so the effects would wear off shortly. She said if things get creepy, just remember, it is a hallucination. Now that I have an explanation for this, I forget about doing a RC. (D'Oh!) Also due to this, I just watch with mild interest as all of the pieces of confetti turn into bugs that crawl all over me, though the itching is rather annoying. I see my reflection in a mirror, and now my entire body is covered with colorful and sparkling confetti… rather interesting, actually.

Soon the confetti illusions fade out and I am in the normal doctor's office again, though I feel slightly dizzy again now that the hallucination is over. The doctor comes back into the room, with two large men. She says they're nurses, but they look more like hired goons. She takes out another syringe, but I have had it with the shots. I tell her no more shots for me, I'm leaving here. She said she thought I might say something like that… and the goons block the door. She comes over to give me the shot, but I knock her hand away, knocking the syringe out of her hand and onto the table. A drop leaks out and eats its way into the counter, leaving a small smoking hole. I ask her what the fuck that was, some kind of acid? She says she needs to see what it would do to the inside of my body. I point at the smoking hole on the counter and ask what she thinks it will do… it burns through the counter, so she can draw some pretty good conclusions about what it would do inside my body! I get up now, determined to leave this crazy place. She reaches for the syringe, I push it onto the floor. She leans over to get it, and I kick her in the face hard, knocking her across the room, I think she was unconscious.

Time to get out of here… I pick up the syringe and hold it threateningly, telling the goons to stand aside unless one of them wants to get stuck with it. One of them dares me to try it. So I move towards the two goons, I twist aside when the one on the right grabs at me, and I come up behind him and stick the needle of the syringe in his neck. There is a small amount of burning there, but not much, and the thug tenses as if expecting me to inject the contents into him. Instead I just keep my thumb on the plunger, and tell them no one has to die here, just get out of my way so I can leave. The one I am threatening sounds terrified, he tells the other one in a quivering voice to do what I say… he calls me an 'it' when he speaks. The second goon seems hesitant to comply, then the one I am threatening gives out the most pathetic "Please…" I have ever heard, only made more pathetic considering it is coming from a big guy who is about to cry. The second thug finally moves aside, I move with the thug I am threatening to the door, then I pull the needle out and shove the door closed. I really wish I could lock it… but no such luck.

I head down the hall quickly, and of course I haven't gotten far before the thugs come to the door and shout that the creature is loose. Creature? Why is he calling me a creature? Never mind that, I have to get out of the hospital. I run down a hall and I hear footsteps behind me. I look back to see more of the hired goon style nurses following after me, so I turn into an examination room and shut the door. This time I am able to block it, I wedge a chair under the knob, which will at least slow them down a bit. So now to find another way out of there, I go to the window and look out, but I am on at least the third or fourth floor, so that isn't promising. I search, but I find no other exit, so I end up back at the window again. Someone is pounding hard on the door. The chair gives way and a large goon enters, though it looks like he is alone. I figure they didn't see which room I went in. I try to get the window open to climb out, but the goon grabs me by the neck. He says he has a test… let's see how long the thing can go without oxygen, and if it doesn't need to breathe, let's see how it responds to a broken neck. He squeezes my neck hard, I stick the syringe needle in his arm. He ignores that and squeezes harder. No choice, I inject the contents of the syringe into his arm. He gets a strange look on his face, releases me immediately, and grabs his arm… which is rapidly being eaten away by the acid. He is screaming in pain now, I don't feel like watching that, so I run out the open door and away from the hall while the goons are searching other rooms. They will surly come soon to the man's screams.

I use the stairs and reach the bottom floor before I meet any more opposition. I am heading down the hallway towards the emergency exit, almost there, when a uniformed guard steps in front of me and aims his gun at me, ordering me to stop. He knows that guns will still hurt me, so don't try anything. I am not lucid, so I believe guns will hurt me. He asks if I'm going to come peacefully or does he have to shoot me in the kneecaps to ensure cooperation. I back away from him, now feigning a fear that for some reason I don't actually feel, I crouch down in the corner, pretending to be crying, I tell him he can't let those doctors take me back, they're trying to kill me. He comes over to me, he looks pretty proud of himself, he says their goal isn't to kill me, it's to run their tests on me. He says if it kills me, that's no big loss… no one will mourn the loss of one of my kind. Since I am cowering, he is being careless. He reaches for the neck of my shirt and tries to lift me by it, saying it's time to go back to the doctor. I grab him by his family jewels and give a hard and fast twist and pull to them. He gets a shocked look on his face, then doubles over in pain. I grab the gun and point it at his head, but then I see he is no more of a threat right now than a small kitten… actually the kitten with its claws would be more of a threat.

I grab the keys from the guard just in case I need them, then I run out the emergency exit onto the hospital grounds, out into the night. There are no locked doors or gates, but there is a fence topped with razor wire. I don't even think of electric fencing… when I grab it, the fence sparks… but I am not hurt. Must be a weak voltage? I climb the fence, slip through the razor wire while getting only minimal cuts, then I drop on the other side. The guard I kicked, or one just like him, is right behind me and jumps for the fence. He is instantly caught by the electrical flow, the smell of cooking flesh wafts over to me, then he drops dead. So much for not much voltage… No time to consider that for long, I head away from the facility into the forest beyond, intent on putting as much distance between me and the hospital as possible.

Notes: Plans for this night included meeting up with MoSh, Asuka, and their kids, and the girl who seems to have adopted me about three months ago, her name is Dala, and we were going to go on a pirate treasure hunt. Other plans included the Dreamviews tasks of the year. There have been a few problems with my recall, due to a rather heated incident on one of the Dreamviews forums that involved some arguing, deleted posts, and me getting really pissed off… which unfortunately that has caused some difficulty with my recall, but I am going to post what I do remember here. I have threatened not to post here any more, but if you're here reading this, you are more important than some childish tantrum I might be having.

Pirates of the Caribbean: Treasure of the Lost Island
I am on a beach with MoSh, Asuka, their kids, and Dela, the girl who adopted me about three months ago after I found her about to be burned alive. So now the group of us is on the beach, I see there is a pirate ship out in the water, as well as a couple of row boats pulled up on the beach. All of us pile onto the boats and head out to the ship, which I soon recognize as the Black Pearl from the Pirates of the Caribbean series. We reach the ship shortly, and want to board. I see Jack Sparrow from the Pirates of the Caribbean series, and he lets us all on in exchange for a quantity of rum which I summon, much to his amazement. The kids are all playing about on the ship, running here and there, Jack says if they want to be on the ship, they will have to be proper pirates… though he isn't saying it in a mean way or anything, he is getting the kids into the roles of being pirates, which they take to right away. We have a map showing a possible location of an island where there is treasure, but the islands have not even been confirmed… perfect to check it out. So all of us assume the roles of pirates and head for the island, I make efforts to stay really close to Jack Sparrow. We navigate through a series of strangely placed whirlpools, and find some islands hidden in the center. The map shows the location of the treasure on the island, we go ashore and follow the map, digging up the treasure at the end.

Flying a Chopper
I am running through a building, I am being chased, but I am not lucid. I am going up the stairs in an attempt to get away. I know if they even get a direct line of sight on me they will shot me, and I will be killed… so I have to go faster. I keep trying the doors that lead out of the stairwell into the different levels, but they are all locked. I keep going until I finally find one that opens, it leads out onto the roof. I climb a ladder to the right of the door and keep going up, though I don't know where I'm supposed to go now, I just want to be sure they won't see me too soon. I find there is a helicopter sitting on the roof, there is a helicopter landing pad, I think the helicopter must be a hospital helicopter. I think it is fitting since I had just come out of a hospital, though this is the first time I have thought of the place as a hospital. Where do I go now? I get to the helicopter and open the door, climbing in. I look at the controls, close the door, and I see the controls look like a video game controller. Due to the familiarity of the controls I am able to start the chopper and lift off into the air just as the people after me climb onto the helipad. They shoot at me, but they miss on all counts… I fly away from the hospital wondering if I will be in trouble for stealing the helicopter, and then I wonder if I will even be able to land it safely…

I am in a forest with a lot of other people, we are all on our way to a specific location. I don't remember where that place is, or what we are going there to do, but I figure I will find out in time. I don't have to admit I have completely forgotten everything I am supposed to remember for this mission. I think of it as a mission, but nothing about the situation triggers me to make a RC. Instead I continue following the rest of the group, doing my best to pretend I know exactly what I am doing there. We finally reach our destination, which is the top of a cliff at the edge of the forest. There are small plateaus that can be reached from the main land mass, they are a bit too far to jump to, but some fallen logs form bridges. We are attacked! I look around at the enemies, there are a variety of enemies, some of them are human, others look like orcs or goblins. Everyone is fighting, fighting with swords and shields mostly… but I have neither! So what am I supposed to do? I am watching the fight, not sure what to do, when someone approaches me on a horse… I look at the man, he looks familiar, he looks like Lucius Malfoy from Harry Potter?! He hands me a sword, commenting I seem to have lost my own, but this one would more than suffice. He adds to ride the horse if I choose, he's going in on foot from here. But make sure the horse doesn't get hurt, that's one of his best horses! With that, he charges into the battle, pulling out a sword of his own, and attacking the enemies. He is fighting on our side, but the entire situation seems odd. Before that can lead to a RC, however, I am attacked. So I act to defend myself. The details of the fight are amazingly vivid. I can't help but notice the feel of the sword as it meets resistance, as it cuts into the flesh of a man attacking me, but there is not much resistance… the sword is clearly razor sharp. I cut open one enemy attacking me, then I turn around in time to run the sword through a second enemy. I'm being attacked from behind, the sword cuts the enemy I just ran through almost in half before cutting into the next. I notice someone pushing the log bridges off of the ledge, taking enemies with them. The battle continues, the fight is still vivid, the feel of the sword cutting through my enemies… until we are victorious.

The dream seems to shift here, and now I find myself in front of a video game system playing a video game. I see I am playing the game with my ex-boyfriend, James, was all of that just a game? It didn't feel like a game, there's no way a game can be that vivid… James wants to play the game some more, he is moving his character around, looking for fights so he can level up. I am bored with that, and I hear someone in the carport, so I head out there. I am not in the house I live in right now, but instead I am in the house where I used to live somewhere around 10 years ago. I enter the carport and find my mother, and my late grandmother out there. They are arguing a bit, it seems my grandmother is angry that she is unable to drive right now. It seems she has lost her license due to poor eyesight… although being dead certainly doesn't help. They argue a bit more, so I go out into the back yard and look at the pool we have there. I am thinking I want to take a swim. It isn't especially hot, but it is far from cold, too. I put my hand in the water and find it feels nice, so I think I will go swimming. I go back into the house, I tell James I want to go for a swim. He can either keep playing games, or join me, either way. He says he will keep playing. I say ok, then I go to get my swimsuit. In another room, though it isn't my bedroom, I find the swimsuit in a closet. I take it out, and I hear a meow behind me. I look and see no sign of a cat, however. I hear more meows, I still see no cat… and then I wake up and find out the cat is not a dream cat, but rather it is a cat in my waking life… cute little Midna! I pet her and give her reason to purr, which she does. =^_^=

Beta 3DS
I am inside a computer store, browsing the various game titles and other assorted things I find in the aisles. I am not really seeing anything that especially catches my attention until I happen to pass by the customer service desk, at which point I see a Nintendo DS sitting there. But something isn't right about it… I look closer and see it is the not-yet-released Nintendo 3DS, which won't be available until around the end of March… but there is one, sitting right out in the open. I go over and look at it, then a customer service guy tells me to leave it alone. I tell him I just wanted to see how it looked, he says ok, he looks paranoid that someone might try to take it. I am thinking if he is that paranoid that someone would take it he shouldn't have it sitting out in the open like that where anyone who walks by could possibly grab it and be gone before he realized what they had done. I say I am interested in the Nintendo 3DS, but I didn't think they were out yet. He says they aren't, but he has a prototype for beta testing. He chuckles and says he is one of the few lucky ones, but no one is supposed to see it. He puts it down underneath the counter and then walks away. I see him off to the side a ways talking to another customer, then the customer leads him away, apparently to ask a question about one thing or another. I get down low and sneak down behind the counter, I see the 3DS there. For some reason putting it in my pocket isn't good enough… I think it will set off the alarm at the exit if I do that… so I have a boxed PC game that has enough room for the DS in there, I slit the plastic on the game just enough to slide the 3DS into it, then I start trying to work the 3DS into the box. I have not yet succeeded before I see the guy coming back, and I am forced to leave the 3DS and get out of there. Epic fail. I am annoyed, I leave the game I had planned on buying on the customer service desk and I walk out.

I find I am in a mall, and I head down the main hall a short ways before I see another computer store which I go in. I am thinking I can go ahead and buy the game here since I was dumb enough to not even buy that at the previous store. I go inside and I see another person playing on a Nintendo 3DS… more beta testing? I ask him where he got his, he said it is a beta testing prototype… great… He asks if I want in on the beta testing… I say absolutely! He asks why I wanted it, I go on for a short time about wanting to try the latest technology, and then I go off on a tangent about being a game designer… he interrupts me here and said it is mine. He pulled out a packaged Nintendo 3DS and hands it to me, he does it in the way a drug dealer might hand off their goods… he says to keep it hidden, he only had his out because he was still giving out beta models. He says he is out now, so will be more careful about letting his unit be seen. He slips his 3DS into his pocket, and indicates for me to do the same. He walks away like he has never seen me, I walk out into the main mall, I am so happy!

Corporate Takeover
I am in an office of some kind, it looks like a meeting room, and there are some people at the other end of the room talking amongst themselves. I head down towards them, I can't help but be curious as to what they are talking about. I hear that they are talking about video games, video game design, and video game publishing. I don't recognize the people there, but it feels that I know them in some way. They are so absorbed in talking amongst themselves that no one seems to notice me standing there. With a bit more of a listen, I realize they are talking about one of the games I have been thinking about releasing under the name Outer Realms Software. Then I realize they are talking about Outer Realms Software itself… they are talking about how I made it all possible to set up the framework of Outer Realms Software, and thanks to that, they are ready to begin selling games. I am about to say something when I hear some more of what they are saying… they are also talking about me. They seem to have come to an agreement that while I was key in setting up the framework of the company, I was really of no further use to Outer Realms Software… so it would be best to get rid of me as quietly as possible. One of them says it's easy enough, just change the locks after I leave work for the day. That way I won't have a chance to steal any of the game design data, software, and resources when I go. This is pissing me off, since that data and resources are there because I helped make them. It wouldn't be stealing for me to take them since it was mostly my own work. So instead of saying anything, I turn and leave the room quickly before I am seen. I return to my office and begin copying files to a portable hard drive I have… making a backup copy to the hard drive and then erasing the stuff off of the company servers. If they wanted me pushed out of my own company, well they were going to be losing all of the work I brought to the company along with me!