StephL

#1) Later more - It was weird - about what you can do with electricity and children - supposedly for their good..
#2) Later more - This was me on a quiz-show and in the end in an animated argument about hypnotizing animals with Joe Brandt.

I did a WBTB 5 h after going to sleep - first tried for WILD - but turned around after a while and be-mantrad my dream-signs. At bedtime I took 6 mg Melatonin - which left me completely fresh and awake today - not like with the 15 mg at all. Seems a good dose to me.

Tadaa - LD - actually this was just about the first quarter of my extensive plan - but I got it done exactly as I wanted to that point - the real adventure part is missing unfortunately:

These dreams with the old house used to make me sad - but now that I detect the thing more and more often - I look forward to them.
What led up to it, dreamwise, I can't remember any more - I was inside my old room when the realization came to me.
So first of all I counted fingers - 5 each - but I knew it anyway - did a nose-plug afterwards, which left no doubt open.
Then I started what I had planned as step one intellectual stabilisation with a bit of physical at the side.
I looked about and rubbed my hands - but mainly I told myself, who I am and what I am doing - dreaming competitively - having a plan.
I went through my plan and added up points for the maximum strike, having read that maths can make you clearer - also told myself, there would be no reason at all to wake up and that I should regularly re-stabilize to not loose lucidity.
I think, this intellectual stabi was quite good.
But then the phone rang - and I had a friend of mine on the line, the one, who is also interested in LD - and I was convinced, that this would be the first LD - real life connection - bubbling over full of revolutionary spirit.
In that talk - I suddenly lost optics - I concluded, that I had closed my dream-eyes to concentrate on the conversation, and put up a real effort to open them back up - what I finally did open, were my real eyes..
Not a big problem - DEILDed right back in.
Again RC and stabi - being sure of myself mentally - I stabilized the senses.
Including eating a jelly ball lying about - it tasted like sugar and cherry.
Then my grandma came in - I told her I got no time - got to go flying and teleporting to Nasqueron.
So I went outside, there was a spring-meadow with white and yellow flowers.
I jumped in the air and air-swam about a bit to have that over for the three-stepper - but I had planned on getting myself a flying carpet or platform to air-surf with, per basic summoning for the further planned journey.
So I pretend-remembered, that I had left it between the trees in the distance - went there and searched - and I found it - hovering maybe 10 cm over the ground.
It was a silver surfboard - I had been picturing myself surfing the air - but hadn't consciously pictured the Silversurfer.
I can't cease to be soo amazed at with what ease such things work!!

I stepped on it - but while trying to get it going where I wanted it to - I woke up.


Sooo - I'm going to wildly RC away today - and have a real incentive now to not botch my WBTBs with being lazy and turning over to sleep on.

Only recall again..

#1)
I've been visiting a friend - she got a call and had to go somewhere and asked me, if I could take care of her two kindergarten age boys.
So I say yes but over time, more and more children arrive and it is supposedly a birthday party - big chaos - I try to call the mother, but the telephone doesn't work, and I can't leave there.

Meanwhile the main problem is, that there is no cake and no present and nothing - I run up and down and try to prevent some accident or other from happening, and mess up cake-attempts repeatedly, rummaging around the flat, if I can declare something as present. That took a while, the rummaging, but I only found a lot of strange stuff.
In the end, I made a quite nice cake, a flat round thing with lots of something like sugar icing, but you could model with it - it worked like sand.
Yeah - it was like a snow-white sandcastle actually - I decorated in a sort of dripping fashion - like you let yoghurt viscose sand-water drip.
And red cherries.
They liked that.

#2)
That one was great - very, very vivid - again something with strange beings - not aliens this time, but some sort of age-old highly intelligent earthly species.
They were a bit less than a meter high, very round, almost no legs but big feet and beautiful big eyes - their fur was beige with a brown stripe down their belly - I actually forgot, how their arms were - even if they had arms - probably they did..

They had been secretly inhabiting the mountains for millions of years, so they said. And they contacted me and a group of people, in order to find an assortment of different substances, which represent the essence of the colour of the earth to our human perception.
It is pretty obvious, where I got that theme from - pertains a lot to the science-dogma thread.
We travelled and through beautiful landscapes - but devoid of vegetation.
Almost like on another planet, but not quite.
There were planes of differently coloured ground - stone and sand and also a white plane - like chalk.
We had something like a 3D pie-chart with compartments, where to fill the probes in, and which would in the end perform a computation to give these beings some sort of significant insight - shame I forgot their name -they gave it to me.
We managed to fill it up, and it spun around, and produced a result - to the delight of the beings.

#3) Something boring and frustrating - I was together with one of my ex-boyfriends, and we were having problems and quarrelling - I know, this isn't much of an info - but this was private stuff and mainly talking - and shouting and crying. Since I need every point - I take this in anyway - soz.

Okay - was a bit too busy and also lazy to journal the 3 from the night before the last one.
I have notes for this, though.

9/10:

#1) Back in school and this unfortunate topic again, that suddenly my certificate wasn't valid, and I was supposed to do the last class again - together with another woman, of whom I hadn't thought in ages.
I was running about and trying to avoid having to do it by talking to teachers, I had forgotten about also.
Sat in a physics class as well, and had desperately tried to understand something, but didn't, and wanted to keep that secret.
So not so fascinating all.

#2) Also set in that region, my dream-sign-region of Germany, but I didn't notice it.
Unfortunately the house itself didn't show up (hiding from me, you stupid dreamsign - are you??) - but I was on the job of convincing my mother, that she can easily make a living with her spiritual healing delusion there, and that she shouldn't sell the house and stay.
Since more and more rich and rather bs-susceptible women would set up a holiday residence there. To make my point, I took her to a quite successful woman, peddling in crystals, angelic messages and sacred herbs.
Among the latter - again they show up - blue bell-flowers.
Unfortunately, my mother hated "that witch" after not long an exchange of philosophies, and my scheme didn't work out.
Should have tried out the flowers in some way, now I think of it - I will include them in my ds-zoo.

#3) That one was better - very vivid and beautiful - while nothing much happened - I had lost my way, to where I stayed in an unknown city, and came across a really huge building - it was supposed to be a medieval cathedral (I know..), and it looked a bit like St. Peter - or a castle with a dome - from the outside, but all neglected and partly in ruins. I should have been able to take a guided tour, had I not again missed the time and entrance.
But I managed to creep under a metal fence into a romantically neglected garden and from there into the "cathedral" with the help of a kitten.
It was famed for being able to enter and leave where ever it wanted - not only there but anywhere.
It chirped like a bird and asked a lot of me - seen from an inner yard - the walls were missing - and it kept jumping ahead and disappearing and reappearing wildly.
Bizarrely - one sight was of a modern bathroom, wall missing to the garden-side, and I took a while to ponder, if they really had two showers and a bathtub in one small room, and if that was a good idea or not. Anyway - I just roamed about in the complex - doesn't sound special - but was beautiful.
Now I think of it - I didn't get to see the cupola from inside..


10/11

#1) I was in a new city for a new job and went shopping - upon entering a boutique, they told me, that in the basement, there would be a sale because the original shop would have gone belly up.
So I went down, and there was almost nothing left, but many people shuffling through the stuff.
Strange things - big cooking pots with garish flower design, huge plastic smurphs (supposedly very rare and precious), scaffolding material (? but people were buying it), glass-pearls - all ugly, tons of brown or grey coats with fake fur - finally I found a rack with rather nice clothes, just to see a teenager convince her grandmother to buy all the remaining reasonable stuff for her.
I know - were it not for the comp, I wouldn't journal such rubbish..

#2) I went with a friend to a pretty posh party - marvelling at how there could be so many beautiful and stylish people in one place. Turned out they were all some sort of artists - my friend had started working as a designer and thus met them. I felt quite uncomfortable with not having anything to contribute to their intellectual topics - about authors and plays, I had never heard about - turned out my friend was responsible for the costumes of a theatre performance of theirs. And they were missing an actress.
Persuaded me to jump in for that role - I agreed, but it didn't come to that.
We drove to the location, and the stage wasn't free, so we watched that play - some sort of comedy with Stephen Fry (loving this guy, the me).
I tried to find him afterwards, to get to know him - but - who would have thought it - I couldn't find him.

#3) Next missed dream-sign - visiting an old ex-boyfriend of mine - first he taught me a nice computer game - it was like go, but with stones in many different colours, and they all did something different.
In the dream this was easily understandable, but I can't reconstruct any of it.
His younger brother was very sick and I took it upon myself to treat him for it.
It was some sort of infection or maybe malign tumour.
So I did this and that - and it worked, but afterwards I had to search my body for something really nasty - like thick black hair, 2 cm in length - these came out of my skin at some maybe 15 places.
But it wasn't hair, but something parasitic - I had to pluck them, they were a bit squishy and came out of pores with a little plop - brrrr - disgusting!!

Well - conclusion from these two nights - only really enjoyable dream was the exploring of the domed antiquity with the chirping kitten.
Lots of failed attempts at something and frustration and even a little nightmarish touch with these parasites.
And loads of undetected dreamsigns.

Included in this night's competitive dreaming: a WBTB fail

Dream one:

It all began with me being on a science expedition in South America, looking for the mysterious beings, which had been reported to splash about in a broad and deep waterfall and sing to each other.
We found them and they looked quite unimpressive - rather like some sort of mobile coral - 20 cm times 10 cm small and consisting of brown lamellae forming a bunch of flutes. Just that - no heads or eyes or anything. They let air through themselves and did some compressions and so produced their curious singing.

Despite being wordless - they gave us to understand, that they are from a planet in our solar system - we knew, which one was meant, but I have no correspondence to a real one, from what followed.

For further exploration a rocket-launch-pad was erected - looking more like a dangerous fairground ride, which shot a sort of train in the sky at an angle.
I was a bit afraid of that and not on the first mission, but took part in a further one - I really dreamt this roller-coaster feeling in the stomach, when we accelerated.

Its a bit weird then - it feels as if I had later remembered having been on that planet when I was back, but I don't remember the stay per se.
Really weird - I remember telling somebody about it, being back down again - like a false memory - and that was accompanied by pictures, too. The planet had a fluid brownish red surface - that's all there was.


Dream two:

Nothing out of the ordinary here - once more removals to another city and looking for a flat.
I found something in a beautiful, several hundred years old, but huge house.
Inspecting empty, architecturally pleasing flats - another dream-sign of mine - same as me emptying out an old residence - there was a bit of that as well later.
Also happens often - I find such a flat higher than ground floor, but over the time of inspection, there always comes about a connection to a terrace or garden - to greenery outside.
It's in real life so, that I really insist on having a balcony at least.
So it was here - a balcony sort of morphed into a terrace over inspection - and it was soo beautiful.
A little inner yard with really old trees and wines and flowers, architecture a bit damaged in a picturesque way - a bit of an enchanted spirit. And my blue bell flowers again - could also be a dream sign.
Once I like a patch of greenery - they are almost bound to be somewhere, too.


Dream three:

Started with a bit of an argument with my partner - then we went to a public swimming pool - an indoors facility with a wondrous basin.
It was sloping pretty steeply, maybe 40 m long, and sported some waves and whorls, but had a rather still surface overall.
Theoretically the surface shouldn't have been staying like it did under normal gravity, since it wasn't a river, wasn't flowing through.
And I even thought about that - but of course decided, this must be some new entertainment technology..
We had lots of fun and frolicking - having the whole thing to ourselves later ..


Dream four:

I was visiting an old friend of mine at his parent's house, and they were hanging in his ears about marrying a suitable woman. He had broken up with his girlfriend, who was a complete bore, but would have fit right in concerning social status and financial background.
Was one of these strange dreams, where something is told and at the same time I can watch it like a movie. Here it was the mother, explaining how it all should be.
We got a peek into the lives of two daughters of a bank-director - bit ridiculous, like checking what sort of watch they wore, if they had impeccable style. Beautiful they were, and a story of a maritally created business connection of the families was spun out.
He didn't want either of them.

I just don't know, what to make of it - so again I get lucid - I notice I dream out of nowhere - and again I run into toiletory problems..
That while not practising toilet-visit-initiated RCs any more for a long while..

It was so - I stand inside something like a big garage - get lucid - but don't bother to first of all sort my mind out for further sensible proceedings - no.
I think instantly, that I want a spaceship to abduct me, start getting the garage more into a hangar and open the hangar door with my mind with the firm expectation, to see a spaceship outside.

It was all darkish and there was something more like a tank - at least it was green - na well.
Then it comes again - I absolutely have to go to the toilet - but I do remember, that I can just go ahead and do that, if I don't manage to get over this stupid phenomenon in a dream.
No problem for the bedding - it has been tried.

So and then I somehow loose coherence with the narrative - could be because with giving in to something rather not so overly meta-conscious - I literally lost it.

I must have entered the not really yet convincing space-ship-tank, got to some upper department, hid away lying on my back in a coffin-small space.
This unlikely facility finally provided me with a means to reach the illusory but enormously relieving feeling of dream-peeing.
But - one could have predicted it - not dreaming me obviously - this wasn't entirely adequate a means.

Dripping on metal gave me away - it was a real tank by then - and a quite unfriendly soldier started knocking from outside.
At least everybody seemed to be militarily on one side - so nobody shot me - but they really were not pleased at all.

It turned out, what the whole scope of the problem was, when somebody dripping and quite annoyed clambered out of a lower department, proclaiming I had ruined a secret military operation by wetting him.
He even had a moustache.
And I keep reading here, that gravity doesn't work in dreams!?
And why did I have to go up somewhere in the first place anyway?



What is this all about suddenly??
This definitively can't go on like this!

Was wondering, if I journal this - but then.
Such a stupid thing - I got spontaneously lucid just because it felt dreamy.
So I started looking around - tried to tell somebody, I would be dreaming, but again - he was a bit away and I raised my voice - well - tried to raise it - nothing came out.
Then it was tree-hugging and feeling - and my embarrassing problem from some weeks back again - I had an enormous urge to pee.
I was even lucid enough to remember, how this ended up last time - but it just didn't help - so I woke myself up - and yes - again I didn't actually need to go.
Made me really angry to find that out.

I've read some reports of strange things happening, as if one's unconscious mind wanted to get one out of lucidity.
I really hope, this is not my uncon's new trick on me.
It was like - stop the car and search the bushes urgent.

Now - I could of course have searched the bushes in my dream - but again - was lucid enough to worry about real life consequences.
Maybe I should ask around, if something like this really happens - probably not - I've done it before.
But that I didn't remember.
Damn.

Only good thing was this direct realization - no RCs, no dream-sign - just like that.
Well yeah - and a minute only - baaah.

Otherwise I was dreaming very enjoyably in my non-lucids - seems the mere prospect of the comp. does something to me already.

Other way round - I don't remember much of my dreams and nothing interesting - but I had two short LDs in the meantime and will keep record of it like this.

From one of my workbooks:

Well - anyway - I've been moaning about not meeting my main dream-sign irl - but a bit of activity almost two weeks back, with mantraing and visualisations on our old house - like recommended - gave me two further detections!!
Its sort of receding - I'm not living there any more meanwhile, it is about to get destroyed.
First time while being sick and not motivated in any way - I just slipped out of lucidity after taking a look around and dreamt on with my story.

Then last night was some weird back and forth reasoning:
The house - I dream!
Then - no, it's getting ripped down this day - that's why I want to get something out of the empty building.
Then - noo - it has already been, so I can't stand in front of it!

The normal dream, which I forgot by now - was something nice and I wanted to go on with it actually.
But the TOTMs came out just on time for this - since there were two DCs standing behind me - I thought take the first task in stride - and so I found out, that a woman with really beautiful long black hair - has as middle name Niniana!
Groundbreaking, earthshaking news!!

Shortly thought of the aliens - I have to and I will get abducted by aliens this month!!
But somehow I reckoned, I wouldn't have enough dream quality or control - and without so much as trying - I slipped back in non-lucidity.

So I guess I should concentrate on keeping up the motivation to actually do something lucidly - waking up seems not so much the problem atm.
My real life darting has a dip in the moment - so that went to the back of my mind lately - but this whole alien thing with space-ship tourism - I have to!!

Not patient enough here - maybe I'll edit it more extensive - but for now:

Since some days I do around 5 min. of meditation - only watching my breath and quieting my inner chatter - got to write more on that, too.

And - I sleep with a sleeping-mask since 2 days - that might have played a role as well.

And - I read up a bit on Melatonin, which I sometimes use, when I have sleeping troubles - and I found people swearing on it for LD and info, that a dose of 15 mg is completely harmless.
So - 5 pills I popped - I slept altogether maybe 12 h - no other side effects - woke up fresh.


Edit - bit tired I am today - and I have put up a post in TOTM, which I want to put in here, too:

It's not available over the counter here.
But do not worry:

Studies in humans have shown melatonin toxicity to be remarkably low with no serious negative side effects even at high doses (3 to 6.6 g) administered over a period of 35 days.159,160 Nevertheless, minor reactions to melatonin supplementation such as sleepiness, vivid dreams, headache, abdominal pain, and nausea have been reported to occur occasionally in a small proportion of individuals.

From: LE Magazine, January 2004 - Report: Melatonin and Cancer Treatment

You can find the references there.
Cancer patients receive around 80 mg a day in in other studies - and now please consider - it has been shown to be safe in 3-6.6 grams over 35 days - not milligrams. 6000 mg/35 d = 171 mg a day, if they mean 6 g over the whole period and not per day.

There are threads in the supplement department that seem to say, Melatonin does go against REM and lucidity and vividness and should be taken to be able to fall asleep with stimulating other supps.
This is completely wrong. It enhances vividness and is conductive to lucidity - this I read in several places - and my own experience was really impressive.
I had never taken more than 6 mg for falling asleep before - while I can sleep wonderfully like that - it seems not enough to be noticeable in the dream-department.
Of course one instance doesn't say a lot - I will report, once I do it again!
Something else - with ageing - our natural levels decline - maybe a hint at why children tend to vivid and also lucid dreams..?



Stupid just I didn't journal but slept on after my 3 lucid instances - and so I forgot almost everything.

Good that I did a TOTM and doing it I firmly remember:

First I jumped from the balcony on which I got lucid (old house - noticed it!! - yayy!), which was a bit funny cause I jumped and then hung in the air motionless.
And I didn't want to make flying motions or anything - but in the end I did - good ol' air-swimming..
Swam about a bit - then I saw a woman sitting on a bench and watching birds on the ground - colourful ones in the size and shape of sparrows.
They were walking about in rows, which turned and they walked a pattern like that - hard to describe - I almost forgot what I wanted over watching them.
Then - as I had imagined doing it irl - I "remembered" that there was a little knob to turn to open my chest up. After so many people have reported problems with reaching through their breast-bone - I thought, that would be practical - and it was.
I opened up - reached in with my hand - and got to grip a slimy blob - it didn't beat - it quivered, but more like it wanted away from my grasp.
Got it - tried to take it out, but it was quite fixed to blood-vessels - in the end I had to really rip to get it, which felt weeird - not painful - but I felt the ripping. Looked very realistic, did my heart - only the colour was a bit less than fresh!
My DC didn't like that whole manoeuvre at all - she screamed and ran away - me behind her - and in the end, I threw it at her, but I didn't hit her - she was gone then.
I decided this must be enough.


Later in another instance - I tried to phase through a window - but it broke and by that I got pain from the shards in my hands - weird - heart-ripping is painless - but a window causes me illusionary pain..







There was much more - but I'm too lazy now..

Ah - it's already a bit late, that I try to reconstruct this dream now - but it was really memorable, because I was leading a logical argument, and pretty complex for a dream.
No - not philosophy or theoretical physics - pearl-jewellery..

Jewellery keeps showing up in my dreams - I don't even wear any most of the time.
But I used to - I collected necklaces - unusual ones and used to always wear one.


It was so - I had given a game, a bit like Connect Four, as a present, but with water in the columns, and many different coloured plastic balls. You played it by levelling out the water, on which the balls swam with turning three way handles.
Then I tipped it over, and while collecting the balls back together - more and more jewellery made from these very little glass pearls showed up.
Many pieces - they were coming from my luggage - and it came to me then, that I had brought them to sell on a market the next day.
Something along these lines:



Then came this mother and made a snide remark.

She said, it would be obvious that I would have made them myself.

As in crooked, and it was clear to me, that she didn't like it either - not a classy sort of style.
And I was guessing, she knew, that I was aware of that style-deficit.

Then she stormed off somewhere.

And I was left explaining to her son, friend of mine, why this comment had been nasty on several levels.
He needed convincing - that was a real longer back and forth and I remember it exactly:

First of all - there was hardly anything crooked on them.
Secondly - such jewellery is always handmade.
Thirdly - I had never said, whether I made it, or hadn't made it myself.
Fourthly - I felt insulted, that she thought, I would have spent hours, weeks, probably rather months, on making such things - it was really a lot of stuff.
Fifthly - she somehow seemed to know, that she would insult me with attributing this style to me, so I was partly thinking, she might have well known, it wasn't my work, but said it to be nasty.

I find it remarkable, how much logical thinking and organized argumentation I was able to put up.
Can't even find a flaw - I dreamt her saying it - so I guess it's only reasonable, that I understood what she meant.

But I like, how much colourful complexity, I dreamt up again - see above - there were maybe 50 such pieces.
I really don't like that style - but anyway - lots of detail.
The game at least looked great!

Not sure, if I can transport, what I am on about - but what I really find astonishing is people claiming their non-lucids would all be totally bizarre and they would loose their rational minds.
Bullshit in my opinion - the overwhelming most of it is very realistic, and I function nicely in the situations - only the over-view-awareness is lacking.

Got to say - very happy with my recall lately - despite not writing anything down - only going over it in my mind.
When I do that waking up in the middle of the night, I mostly forget them again.
But I anyway feel, that I have lived in the night - if that makes any sense.
It's not that nothing has happened - I believe I gain a feel for dreaming like this from the forgotten dreams as well.
Still suffering my pretty nasty cold - lots of people down at the moment in Berlin.
So that means - it would really surprise me, if I got lucid - maybe night after tonight I will be feeling up to further activities. Yesterday I simply fell over backwards in my bed, where I sat/lied all day anyway.

Having a cold - I decided against any activities, except bit mantraing on dream-signs, when going to bed.
But I will do my peppermint WBTB, when I'm able to normally breathe again!

So anyway - I could write a lot around this - has to be a draft now, I am tired.

But the basic thing was - without concentrating on lucidity, let alone the TOTM of skiing up a mountain - I did part of it again - obliviously. The first time I had been non-lucidly operating on myself.
Now - both topics are pretty unusual - I guess there is a connection.

I was back in my dream-sign area of choice - it was winter, and I was out on my own with not regular skis, but ones for ski-walking, or however that is called in English.
This on the background, though - that I wanted to impress somebody by my unusually sporty behaviour.

Normal all - then comes a vertical rock wall covered in snow - and first I think, this is not possible.
It's maybe 8 m high, supposedly something natural - it went right down almost vertically again on the other side, but there it was more like only a very difficult piste - not true 90°.

I went back at least twice, too - after my first adventure - I went into a cosy Bavarian pub and met friends and this guy, and was bragging, that I made it up that wall.

I had taken a run at it, and sort of hacked them in in v-steps, and probably flew a bit on the side.
I took this guy back with me there, he was really fast - and for some reason, I was there later with my mother, and it was dark and cold and dangerous - there were supposedly wolves around at night.
I even saw two - but very far away - and I wasn't afraid for some reason.

What is even freakier - in a following dream - this wall appeared again, but in spring, and it solved itself from the ground, and in the end it was from stone and came "from the heavens".
Had a lot of holes - like almost a web only - and a hermit!!
A friendly old man - maybe 8 m up in the air, in a white bedsheet..

And something else to the side of it - also reaching far up and up - but forgot, what it was, and most that dream anyway.

Just a short episode - I was in the staircase of a posh hotel - broad stairs and plush carpet, and had a short cheap summer dress on.
Around the corner came a black gentleman - in a beautiful grey evening suit, walking stick, silk-tie and 4 dogs - all different, rather small decorative ones.
When I passed, he made some snide remark, how I was underdressed for the location.
I was in a take no bullshit mood and remarked something back.
The dogs didn't like that, turned around and barked at me and I stepped back - directly into him, who suddenly stood behind me.

And believe me - if you could bottle up that scent, he had - you could make a fortune with it!!
I was completely transfixed - very disappointed about having woken up from there...

It's very rare, that I have a taste or scent so prominent in my dreams - but when I do - I'll note it here.

I recognized a dream-sign, which had only shown up once before and got luucid again last night!
Compared to two days of doing nothing before - I had done maybe 5 RCs in the day and matraed a bit going to bed, and when I naturally woke up and went back to sleep.

Again I dreamt of digging a bit into the ground for some reason, and finding lots of different finger rings.
I had dreamt exactly that some weeks before, and so remembering that - I got lucid from it.
No need to RC - I was instantly convinced.

And the dream was really vivid and realistic - I didn't want to change something and risk loosing quality.
But I made a small pause to recollect what all I had planned for an LD - checked if I know exactly what is the case and engaged all my senses - which worked very nicely.
Usually it doesn't and I sometimes lost lucidity hunting down dream-senses - not this time.

For taste I licked a tree, since my dream-teeth wouldn't let my take a bite - or the tree was very resilient.
It tasted salty.
What I kept doing throughout was hand-rubbing and touching things.

It was a really beautiful landscape - much better than I usually LD together - a bit fairy-taly - but nothing completely mad.
There were plants, like they don't exist - with interestingly shaped leaves and white and violet flowers.
Beautiful weather and a deep blue sky with some fluffy white clouds - sun shining and giving a fine warmth, like spring.

I walked about and then hovered.
Doing experiments with the hovering - getting up was instantaneous - but for the first time I really played with it - direct the height, fly in hover mode in such and such a height and such and such a speed.

I had to practise a bit but got it down real nicely - except for getting an impression of long distance and high speed, where other forms of flight might fit better - I think, I will be a hover-fan now!

I did remember darts - but was worried to destroy the beauty of this fairy-tale landscape and get something less enticing.
So I thought - lets at least do a basic TOTM, when I cam to a little valley with two houses.
Also fantastic looking - the one I entered had a door which consisted of very intricate webbing of branches into patterns - looked great.

So I went in in the expectation to find a DC for asking the question.
That seemed nicer than summoning dog-food.

A woman in her fifties, very good looking with black hair and a red dress and some strange jewellery was behind the bar - it was a pub or café of some sort inside.
So I sat down on a bar stool and asked her, who my true love would be.
She got a conspirational look on her face, took out a piece of paper and pen and wrote down a sentence - one word per line.
And I couldn't read it - the letters were clear and I could read it as in read it out loud, but didn't understand it. So I asked what it means - and she said, it would be in a language, I was yet to learn.
A mix of Latin and something else. It became apparent then, that there was indeed Latin shining through the words.
She said - once I learn that other language - I would know the answer, too.


Forgot to mention - I looked into a mirror too - and I looked like I am supposed to look - just that I have a new short haircut and not in that reflection. But I didn't notice that.

It starts to work with recognizing dream-signs - I had three spontaneous, but short lucid episodes last night.
Recognizing dream-signs.
In the first instance I summoned somebody successfully - I had thought of doing that going to bed.
The night before I had dreamt of him and wanted to meet and talk to him again.
Again using pretend-remembering - and he was around the corner, I choose.
This was the first time, I managed (second time I tried) to summon a real life person.

He sat on the floor and was unfortunately pretty life-less initially.
So I started engaging in conversation - and that dragged me back into non-lucidity.
But I enjoyed it.

Somewhere in between - I didn't journal, but woke up between dreams and recapitulated a bit - there was a nice dream-animal again - close to this summoning episode somewhere.
But this time it was different - bit over-colourful, bigger and with regular four legs (the other one had hind-legs like a rodent and the butt close to the floor).
But again with many, many vibrating whiskers - not only around the nose.
Didn't look as cute as the first one - rather silly - like having had a collision with a rainbow.

In a later dream I recognized my "most persistent one"- that I am overjoyed, that our old house in Bavaria still stands. Which it doesn't - and that came to me. And twice that spiked lucidity.
So I had a bit of playtime, which I spent with flying and walking about and marvelling at how even more beautiful the village had become in the meantime.

Ah - not to forget: This was a really vivid, colourful and detail-rich dream - lucidly and non-lucidly!

But stupidly - I went to where the house used to stand, and took a look at the several story nasty stuff, that had been built there instead - at least my imaginary version of it - and again it was strong emotions that robbed me of the lucidity.

I spent the rest of the dream berating and being quite cruel to my mother - mainly for having sold it for an apple and an egg (which is true).
Having her at my hands (or mouth, better to say - I am more in the verbal violence department) seemed more important than having a lucid dream.
Didn't do me good - didn't wake up satisfied, but feeling pretty lousy.
Not nice - waking up from being hateful.

My recall is quite okay - I start analysing the stuff a bit for my personal reference - and that is not for here.
It's a bit of a balance - makes sense to journal for myself only, and not censor myself - but then again I know, that posting here keeps getting necessary again, because I let that slip otherwise.

Enough excuses - I had two unfortunately short LD sequences last night.
Instead of pondering the implications of lucidity as planned - both times I simply took flight and lost it in the process somewhere and dreamt on.
I wanted to get somewhere - and both times it somehow came to me, that since this is a dream - I can simply fly.
So I did - and that was it..

Not to forget to put it in here - will probably edit in some more:

Breakthrough - I managed to play darts lucidly!!

Last night, I got lucid - was in a house - did nose-plug - and then pretend-remembered like - yeah, they have a darts-room with board and arrows and everything next door - I saw it (pictured it shortly in my mind)!
Went in that room - and there everything was!
Not my original darts - I shortly even wondered, if I had dreamt the oche correctly..
But everything felt natural.
Unfortunately - my memory is a bit hazy - and I do not know, what I hit.
I believe I was happy with just being able to throw at all - maybe four times - with darts, that felt natural - and they went into the board, like they should, I think - with a proper ballistic arc and a thud.