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Bed time: 1h20 / Wake up: 11h20

induction: relaxation, mild, alarm deild, mild imsonia 1h

4h10: first natural awakening, immediately went to bathroom, thinking about my dream, but only at the very end of sleep do i remember some fragments. I remember being in the city i lived before i moved to university; i was wandering around the city, and i saw some familiar faces, many had aged a bit, but the feeling of seeing them again gives me a good feeling. This is a very recurrent theme

5h50: second natural awakening; very quiet awakening; very vivid dream but aversive dream content. As i try to remember the details i close my eyes and notice there is still some visual hypnagogia. i felt i could have tried DEILD, but opted to DJ instead

6h-7h: i choose to do some autogenic relaxation and MILD, but it was difficult to fal asleep again for an hour. Also set my alarm deild.

10h20: wake up with lots of dream fragments, almost like i had many short dreams. i didn´t jot done anything. At this moment, i began thinking i have not much more time to become lucid for 16th competition. i think i give up my intention, but still try again some autogenic relaxation and manage to fall asleep. At some point, i find myself lucid in my previous home, and began to walk very fast and touch every thing i can, while trying to find some dream characters . for some reason, they only appeared at my brother bedroom, but they morphed very soon. During the dream, i had to recover my vision twice. to be more accurate, i waited for it to return, while touching my body and moving around and also visualizing. I kept moving back and forth, trying to find DCs. For just a small visit, i leave my house and go to the apartment complex's hall and stairs, but i felt the environment was more unstable and returned home. At the third attempt to recover my vision, i accidently moved my real body and chosen to wake up. It felt like a 3 min LD, not bad

Crazy long dream chaining this morning ( with alarm DEILD ), around 10 reentries.

They happened after around 9 hours of sleep, and were all very short, but i could always manage to fall asleep and DEILD again. Btw, i was on my back, which i think helps with awareness, somehow, and my autosnooze alarm was ringing every 15 min, reminding me to DEILD.

A bit odd i get this thought so late

So, its very common for me to have flying non lucid dreams..

So i thought maybe its easier to become lucid if i adopt a new reality check: see if i can fly.

so this is a RC with some MILD in it..hope this gets me flying with real control

Samadhi Raja Sutra

Know all things to be like this:
A mirage, a cloud castle,
A dream, an apparition,
Without essence, but with qualities that can be seen.

Know all things to be like this:
As the moon in a bright sky
In some clear lake reflected,
Though to that lake the moon has never moved.

Know all things to be like this:
As an echo that derives
From music, sounds, and weeping,
Yet in that echo is no melody.

Know all things to be like this:
As a magician makes illusions
Of horses, oxen, carts and other things,
Nothing is as it appears.

The Buddha

...And alternating between focusing on an object and allowing the mind to rest in naked awareness, you actually come to recognize the basic truth that neuroscience has shown us: Everything we perceive is a reconstruction created in the mind. In other words, there’s no difference between what is seen and the mind that sees it.
This recognition doesn’t, of course, occur overnight. It takes a bit of practice. In fact, as we’ll see later on, the Buddha provided some specific methods for dissolving the distinction between the mind and whatever the mind perceives...

Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche, « The Joy of Living»

During the empty enchantment of dream
ignorant babes are entranced
while the wise, disillusioned, are undeceived;
those unaware of the truth absence,
clinging to their identity, wander in circles,
while the wise yogin, fully present,
knowing the zing of reality,
convinced of the absemce in that very moment
is liberated in the noncontingent reality-matrix

In the nighttime we have confusion in our
dreams; in daytime we have confusion with our mind—judging, thinking, creating many things. This
is how we pass our life. Being aware or continuing our awareness in dreamtime means maintaining
the same awareness we have during the daytime. If we have no capacity to be in the state of Rigpa,
the state of real knowledge, in the daytime with practice of contemplation, we cannot have it in the
nighttime either. It is the same principle. If we have at least this knowledge of Rigpa in the daytime
with many experiences, then when we use this knowledge in the nighttime it will be easier to be in
this state. We can have more experiences in dreamtime than daytime. So this is the relationship of
practice to night experience.

Dream Yoga And The Practice Of Natural Light

Obviously, when we awaken from a nonlucid dream about a jerk, the reality of that situation vanishes like smoke. Since the dreamed person was nonexistent, the label "jerk" was also imaginary. When we view people so narrowly, whether in dreams or waking reality, we invariably decontextualize -- placing absolute labels where no absolutes exist. The true context for all persons and objects is interdependence. The condition of dreaming, whether it be in the night or in daytime, subsumes a form of ignorance where we can easily misconstrue appearances. Dreaming invites us to become deluded. We can either go with the flow or wake up -- check it right there and realize that although the object as we perceive it appears to be real from its own side, that appearance is illusory.In terms of our normal mode of understanding reality, analyzing phenomena in this way turns everything on its head. But even if we are, at this point, thoroughly convinced that "all phenomena are nonexistent," our present understanding is only conceptual. In Tibetan Buddhism, conceptual understanding is likened to a patch on clothing that sooner or later falls away. It is the habituation of the practice of daytime dream yoga that will allow our understanding to deepen and prepare us for an awakening that encompasses both the day and the night. To quote Chagdud Tulku Rinpoche -- one of the most prominent Tibetan lamas who taught in the West -- "All dream yoga is based on the one-pointedness one can maintain on the illusoriness of experience by day."

The Daytime Practices of Dream Yoga | Reality Sandwich

this morning my mom came to my room telling me she had a LD!! she didn´t try any technique, but a i usually talk about my LDs and how my hands look weird. now, after seing his deceased grandmother, she looked at her hands and had 8 and 7 fingers. she said the dream lasted for 10 minutes ( really ? ) and talked with that DC. the DC told my mother that my grandmother ( also decesased ) was in heaven ( this gave my mother a feeling of peace, somehow ). my mother didn´t seem as excited as i would expect for a first LD, i don´t know why.
she said it was a vivid dream but it´s strange how naturally she talked about it.

tonight i appeared in my brother's dream talking about LD . he decided to RC ( fingers through palm ) and became lucid. he tried to fly ( never did it in regular dreams ) and it faded quickly

i'm so happy for him, he's only 13. now he had a glimpse of it so i don't need to keep on telling him how fun it is unless he can't get lucid again

i had a 9 h sleep and 4 DILDs last night ! they were all very short ( max 1 min ). my mean is 2 DILDS per week and usually very short.

the first one i got lucid after a DC said « what if this is dream ?». i asked him to remind me again in next dreams , but he didnt so far



i was in bad shape ( insomnia, being harsh to my self for not noticing clear dreamsigns...and so on ). previous night i slept for 3,5 hours, then insomnia came and i spent the rest of night trying to WILD and giving up to hypnagogic hallucinations.

i changed my atitude last night, i decided to focus on dream recall ( this was my first goal when i started LD ) so not to put much pressure on myself, and tried a dzochen technique ( fall asleep while imagining the A letter on the centre of the body ) depicted in «dream yoga and the practice of natural light».

Also during my day i was more aware ( counting footsteps when walking, counting breaths when quiet, starting from zero after some count or situations like doorways; for short periods, imagining everything as if i was lucid dreaming ). it makes a lot of sense to me that if i just go by daydreaming, lost in thoughts and not noticing life around, this mindset is carried into sleep too. i wonder if you can be a good lucid dreamer without lucid living..may be but i don't want that to myself..i want both

today i will do the same thing, without expecting the same results ( which is already a challenge in itself )

last night i found a DC in a nonlucid telling me how to get lucid. i didnt pay him much attention , i should have. i just remember one: he told me that DC dont usually have a very good eye contact. when he said that he was looking at me very directly, very assertively !! i feel like it was a joke, i wish i was lucid to show him who is the boss !!

this morning after 9h i had a lucid dream in which i spinned and after that the dream faded and i felt like entering a different dream, but halfway i felt like an engine shutting off ( sounds and vibrations decreasing ) and a white light filled the scene. i felt like i was dead and out of fear i opened my eyes. my room was still dark.

i dont know how i should explain it, but i think it reflects a big eye-opener i had last days, as most people can relate this to some spiritual understanding

after 9 hours of sleep i woke up from a false awakening and decided to continue sleeping. i quickly found my body being moved like WILD. it was not scary at all, i let it be and i found myself in a road persecution. i had an accident and soon was involved in a fight. i decided to knife some DC and my dream faded. it felt like a game, and had no control. it was not very vivid, so i wonder if it was a true WILD or another mental phenomenon. anywy, i was lucid all the time.

This morning after 7h of sleep, i got lucid when i understood a shift in location.
i said to DC ( btw he also transmutated) that i was dreaming and he said that we were all dreaming ! Fine, i thought. wihtout any consideration for stabilization i imediately started flying , and i got my pay -off my dream faded.

its really important to learn about stabilization tecnhiques, so you dont waste your oportunities !!