Xanous' Dream Journal

#268 - DILD - 5:14AM

My son woke us up early this morning and I had difficulty getting back to sleep. I took melatonin to help and did no induction technique though lucid dreaming was on my mind.

I'm sad to say that the first part of this dream was lucid but I have no recall of it. I guess it could be a false memory but I kind of doubt it. Anyway, I fell into a false awakening and was trying to DEILD but my wife kept talking and making noise by acting really strange and ditsy. (Lucidity Web Saga) I become very pissed off at her and call her a bitch and tell her I am going to punch her in the face. (I'd never say or do this in waking life) I immediately feel bad about this and expect her to be mad but she starts laughing and taunting me. She seems happy to have gotten me so mad.

I've had enough so I throw the blankets off me and start to storm off to sleep on the couch. I stop when I realize we have never fought like this before and we are both acting way out of character. I become suspicious. I lean in close looking her in the eyes and ask, "Is this waking life?" She says nothing and her expression seems to be one of worry. I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming at this point but I do a nose plug to confirm. Now that I know this DC isn't my actual wife, I become even more pissed and decide that maybe I will just go ahead and punch her in the face. I throw a right hook but my hand passes through her. I try a double karate chop to both shoulders to the same effect. This throws me off balance and I fall forward, passing through this phantom woman onto the bed. Thinking back I'm glad my SubC didn't let me have a memory of hitting my wife even-though it wasn't actually her.

Darkness engulfs me now but I don't accept that I am waking. I don't want to end up having another false awakening. Instead, I rub my hands and patiently wait. I begin yelling randomness to just to feel and hear how strange my voice is. At one point I just scream as loud as I can. This gives a strange effect. I can't think of any location but I just try to see. My hope is something will just form on it's own. After a moment, there is an image of something blue and red. It looks like some kind of place but it fades quickly, then my bedroom reappears.

I remember my goal to try to teleport like LWS. I way my hands but nothing seems to be happening. I shrug it off and start to leave but pause when I remember this phantom version of my wife. I still feel really pissed at her. When I look back at the bed, I see her form sitting there in a strange hunched over posture. I run at her and do a flying elbow on her back. Again, I back right through and the void almost takes me again. This time I manage to pull it back together more quickly. Alright, I give up. I decide to let my anger towards her go and head outside.

I see my son standing at the front door. He turns and runs towards me. I shout, "Buddyyyyyyy!" He crashes into my open arms and I pick him up. His face looks a little distorted but I let is go as dream glitch and move on.

It's raining raining heavily outside and my son seems to be scared and nervous about this. I tell him not to worry because we are immune to cold and wet. He seems to relax so I put him on my back and I begin to fly. The rain and it stops but the scene still seems a little overcast. My flying is horrible and it's really more like being weightless. I have to make swimming motions and push off things to get around. Luckily there are many trees in the area with low branches. I see my a version of my next door neighbors. I wave at them and say, Hi as we pass by. They don't seem to surprised that we are floating. Farther on, there are some kids playing near the street. I wave but they just stare. This way of flying is staring to annoy me so I switch tactics and try rocketing up into orbit like I did a while back but I can't get it to work. I try to focus zoom to a distant tree, but nothing happens. Feeling really disappointed with my dream control, I let it go and switch to walking.

I hear my wife calling my name and I turn to look. She's poking her head out the front door and asking, "How many steaks do you want babe?" For some reason I'm still pissed about earlier and I assume this is the phantom wife. Wanting to be left alone, I flip her off and say, "How about just one, bitch." I can't help but noticing that my middle finger is only a third of the length is should be. I recognize that as normal in the dream and ignore it. My wife just laughs at my hateful remark and goes back inside. I remember my son still on my back and pull him around to the side. I figure this is just another DC so I start talking to him as we walk. I hope this one will be intelligent or some part of my higher self. I'm not sure what to say so I just ask, "Well, What do you think?"
"What?" He asks.
"What do you think?", I say.
He asks again, "About what?"
I sigh. This one doesn't seem all there. I say, "I don't know, I thought you might have something useful to tell me."
I become distracted by a car headlight. It's really yellow and getting so bright it's drowning out my vision. I focus on it, but the dream quickly fades to black and I wake up.

#266 - Multiple - 5:52AM

I debated if I wanted to add these series of dreams as one LD or not at all because I really didn't do anything in any of them. But still, the number of times I was lucid was impressive since I wasn't really trying. I think the thing the put me in the right mindset what the fact that I watched all the available episodes of Lucidity Web Saga in one sitting yesterday. Obviously, it was on my mind when I fell asleep. By the way, if you haven't watched it you should!
Lucidity: The Web Saga


...Or maybe it was the DayQuil I took before bed?

The first two LD's are a blur. I was tired and didn't record. I’m not sure what I did in the first one but I think there was some conflict with someone. The second, I woke immediately after I became aware. I thought I would totally remember the dream to DJ later but of course, it faded away.

I was pretty pissed about of this and really wanted to try to induce another one but being ill with the flu has made dream recall difficult in general. Induction seemed even more so. I settled for mantra and hoped to DILD.

I am looking out my childhood bedroom window in TX. It's dark outside and there is a Mexican family sitting in lawn chairs facing the street. They seem to be looking up. What the hell do they think they are doing? Oh Yeah maybe there's a parade or fireworks nearby. I dismiss it and move to an old desktop Windows computer. It looks like XP or 98 but something is messed up with the display. The desktop is far too large like it was somehow zoomed in. I am able to pan around but I can't seem to open up the display setting to fix the screen resolution. Right clicking seems useless as well.

I realize that I feel cool air and notice it is coming from the air vent. OH! The A/C is on and my window is open. I move to close the window and feel the mix of cool A/C along with outside heat. That family is still there. I become annoyed this time but really don't want to deal with them; they aren't really hurting anything. Still, It made me mad, so I loudly slam the window shut. I can feel them looking at me but I don't look back as I quickly close up some white curtains and then a second set of red.

I turn and see my bedroom door is open (In this house my bedroom was connected to the kitchen and on the other side the back door.) I notice the back door is cracked open just a hair and I think that I should close it. But... Wait a minute. There is bright daylight coming in the crack. Remembering that the other side of the house was dark just a moment ago, I become lucid, but immediately thrown into a FA

I am fooled, but not fooled by this one. I am still self aware but I don't realize it's odd to still be in my childhood bedroom in Texas. In fact, I think this part is reality. Regardless, I’m not ready to give up so I go into DEILD mode. Vibrations hit and after a moment I get up. This part of the dream is fuzzy and hard to remember, but basically, I just ran around blind for a few seconds until I was thrown into an actual awakening.

I go into DEILD mode again, this time in my actual bed. Vibrations start quickly but its faint. I'm never sure when it's "go time" or "wait time" so I just focus on the vibes until the seem really strong. While I am waiting, I am suddenly jolted fully awake by the motion of my wife turning over. DAMN!

Again, I DEILD and I feel slight vibrations. I wait, but then do not get any more intense. I don't feel I am deep enough in, but I try moving my dream body the way I normally do in this state. Nothing. I try it on the more physical side and my leg jerks and the vibes go away. I try to stay focused but at some point I just fall back into non-lucid sleep.

The next dream reminded me of how completely amazing NLD's can be. Sometimes it's ok to get caught up in the action when the dream is so detailed, plot driven, and completely vivid.

As I am walking down a street in a run down and dirty area of town, I somehow I know the Zombie Apocalypse has happened. I have false memories of seeing lumbering zombies in the dark and know they are only out at night. The daytime hours are completely safe. Still, the world is in chaos and much of society has shut down due to the huge population loss and the after effects of the "shit hitting the fan". This time-line of the Zed invasion seems to be a generation or two ahead with much progress made toward rebuilding life as we knew it. But still, THEY rule the night.

I start to enter a gas station and realize I had been eating some Greek yogurt out of a large tub plastic tub. There's still a creamy feel with some bland taste in my mouth. The store clerk is outside smoking and as I pass. I stop and say, "I'm bringing this in." I don't want her to think I am stealing it when I leave.
"What brand is it?" She asks.
For some reason I have a paper towel around my yogurt and have to peel it back to see. It vividly read's HAMPTON'S OHIO with a graphic logo.
"Hapmton's" I say.
She shrugs, "Oh well we don't carry that anyway."
I nod and go on in.

I spend some time at the soda fountain. I'm not sure if I want Coke or Dr. Pepper. Fountain soda is always hit and miss for me so I take a small sample of both. Neither one taste quite right. Fuck it. I'll just pay extra for the bottle. I remember that I swore off soda, but also remembered that I decided one a month would be the most I ever drink. (True story) I walk around looking for the refrigerated section but don’t see it in the tiny store. Feeling like I surely must have missed something, I look again. Ah! There it is. I have a slight thought of hey that wasn’t there a moment ago, but shrug it off. I take a Dr Pepper from the top shelf.

The scene skips now and I am with my "crew" a ways down the street from the store. Apparently, they stumbled across a stash of explosives and ammo. There's absolutely no one around. We aren’t sure if the owners are dead are just out but we decide it's too good to pass up so we work quickly loading trucks. Theres some strange missiles in this warehouse that we easily move some type of explosive parts from. They look like really large ammunition rounds. I think something seems odd but I let it go. Multiple explosions?

Now we are outside and there is some really loud sound like an alarm. My view has switched to a movie scene. All I can see is everyone looking past the camera, then freaking out and leaving in a hurry. I say something like, "I wish they would just show us already." The trucks leave and pass between two other truck with burning logs on them. I worry that the explosives with go up but they make it through fine.

Now I am back in the action. I realize they left me because of my inaction. I should have ran with them. I finally get to turn around and see what the fear was about. The sun is going down and and I realize that alarm was to give an early warning to everyone so they have time to get indoors.

I panic and run to the nearest building. It turns out to be my old work place back before we moved to a new building. I see my old boss sitting in the break-room with a few other people. Out on the shop floor, I spy Vanessa working. I walk over to her and jokingly say, "Hey, it only took a Zombie Apocalypse to get me to stay here all night."
She totally ignores what I said and replies with a sour expression, "You're signed up for overtime."
Before I can reply Hobbie comes storming through yelling, "I may stay here all night, but if they expect me to work, they can kiss my ass!"
I follow him back to the break-room and yell the same words back at Vanessa.

In the break-room my old boss gives me an evil glare. This makes me wish I was home. I really just want to be with my wife and not stuck here. I quickly decide it's better facing the zombie horde outside. I step out and see it's not quite dark enough for zed to come out and several children are running as fast as they can to get back home. I think about where my house is in relation to my workplace. It's not that far. Maybe I can run for it. I look at the sky. There may not be time. I might have to fend off a few zombies, but I think I can handle it if I have to. What I could really use is a bicycle. There's an abandoned house next door so I quickly take a look around back. To my relief, there is a mountain bike laying in tall grass. I pull it, but notice the front wheel is locked up. I take a closer look once I get it free from tangled grass; the wheel is horribly bent. Oh my God. NO! I begin to feel real fear and panic and I think maybe I can make it work anyway. I get on and try to ride it but the wheel just wont turn. I wake up.

#266 - WILD - 5:48AM

As I am focusing on WILD I begin to notice that my head feels light and wavy. I make myself spin and I know I am ready. This time I take a chance and open my eyes. It feels real but I am fairly confident that I am seeing the dream version of the bedroom; it's not quite dark enough. I open and close a few times amazed that I am not actually opening my eyes. I try not to mess with this too much and decide to get up. I can hear the fan but the sound is cutting in and out rapidly. It's odd but I try not to pay much attention to it. I try to phase through the door for fun but it move back and jumps around in time with the fan sound. The experience is very trippy but right now it is frustrating. After two or three tries, I lunge for the door knob and manage to get it open.

The house is dark and there is another door in a small room in front of me. I was expecting to be in my own house but this is very different. I pause for a second and then open the door with no trouble. I enter an unfamiliar kitchen with yet another door on the other side. It leads to something like a garage with a window. I notice right away that it is full daytime outside. I pause as I suddenly realize the feeling that I am only wearing underwear. I concentrate for a second, and I now feel fully clothed. I don't bother to visually check it. Feeling better, I look out and see a beautiful, vividly clear, summertime countryside. It's a grassy hill with a large Oak and a cloudless blue sky. I open the window and breath in the fresh country air then push out the screen. The window seems a little small but I tell myself it doesn't matter in a dream. I dive through.

I land on my hands and knees and vividly feel the thick lush grass under me. Some areas look brown but healthy and soft. Immediately, I remember my goal from the last dream and begin searching for a mushroom. Before long I find something with a white stalk and will it be a mushroom. I pluck it. The top is a soft mushy yellow elongated ball. I squeeze it and it feels way too soft. I focus and it looks a little more common. It's not exactly what I was going for, but in dreams every mushroom is magic. I put it in my mouth and chew. The physical sensation is very vivid and the tastes is like sweet butter.

Immediately, I feel like my eye roll back and the dream darkens. I focus to see something and the area in am in turns into something like a colored pencil drawing, then back to darkness. I focus again and I am on my back looking up at the sky. I watch as it turn from a normal light sky color to an unnatural dark blue. Then, the dream fades to black.


I wake up and reach for my DJ and begin to journal but something is wrong. I am completely blind. I suspect that I am still dreaming and put my device next to me. It feel's cold on my skin and I think maybe for a second I am really awake. I do a nose plug and partially blow through. I have failed this RC before so this time I blow with out plugging. Then try it again plugged. It's the same every time. While I am doing this my hear and feel my wife get up to go to the bathroom. I call to her for help but she does not answer. I am paralyzed and blind and hope that she can help my out of it. I yell at her again as I hear her enter the bathroom. There's no answer. Hoping really am dreaming and not just stuck in some strange half dreaming stage, I take my Galaxy Player and throw it in her general direction. I hear it hit the door then crash on the floor. Oops.

I suddenly feel her touch my arm and ask in a strangers high pitched voice, "What's the matter sweetheart." She sounds like she is consoling a child when she ought to be angry. This is not my wife at all.
I say to the woman, "I can't wake up."
She walks away from me and says, "That's because... [GIBBERISH]
"Whaaat?" I ask laughing.
More gibberish. I decide this is stupid and I force myself to move and get up.

I make my way to the backroom trying to think of my next goal. I come a cross my son ridding toy on get on it. I feel really goofy and start singing, "I never woke up. I never woke up. I never woke up cause I took a mushroom." Then I remember Balrog.

Feeling confident, I rush out the back door. The sky is partly cloudy and it seems like early dawn. To the west I see a large moon partially obscured by clouds. Then three other smaller moons scatter around it. The stars were bright and extra large. I decided this was a magical enough area to summon Balrog. I start to shout "YOU SHALL NOT PASS" but realize this is premature. Instead I leap up on the railing of the deck and shout, "BAAAALLLLRRRO..." My shout ends in a choking gasp. I suddenly realize I was trying to actually talk in my physical form. My throat feels tight and I wake up gasping.

#265 - WILD - 5:10AM

I have trouble getting back to sleep after my WBTB but this works well for WILD.

Some HI forms into me lucidly organizing random stuff on a table. I was lucid but really into making everything look right. After a moment full lucidity kicks in and I realize the dream is ready for me. This is it. I remember my goal to eat a magic mushroom so I stand up and start to walk out, but the dream doesn't feel stable enough and I can tell from experience that any scene change will kill the dream. I turn and pace the living room for a while. I realize that I don't have to be outside to find a mushroom growing. Anything can happen in my dream. I look down at the floor but only see my bare feet and notice that is the first time if ever seen them in a dream. They seems to be moving really fast and blurry.

The dream begins to fade so I sit back down at the kitchen table and examine more objects. One looks like a tall blue pump spray bottle. Everything is really blurry and I can't make out any other detail. I notice my mom next to me. She seems to be sweeping the floor. With out looking at her I say, "Mom." No answer. "Mom. MOM." Now I am yelling.
"What?" She says.
I ask, "Have you seen my mushroom top?"
Before she answers I have a FA.

I open my eyes and it all feels real. I don't care to DJ just yet and I want to DEILD back in but something strange happens. The lights in the bedroom begin to flicker on and off. I feel afraid and dare not move. The blanket is partially over my face and I can't see who is at the light switch. I yell my wife's name but there's no answer. I try to get up but I feel paralyzed. Now I understand. I say, "This is just SP. It's not even real." Knowing this frees me to move.

When I stand up, it's totally dark. I turn to the light switch but see a shadow cast on the wall in front of me. It looks monstrous and reminds me of the movie, "A Monster In Paris", that we watched yesterday. I am not afraid of it up I want to stabilize the dream. I turn to fight it up the rooms goes dark again. I blindly attack and feel like I am hitting something. I hear an external noise that wakes me up.

#264 - SSILD - 6:08AM

I am washing our cars in the driveway with some other people. We get them soaped up but I realize the water hose isn't ready and I rush over to get the spray nozzle on. I worry that the soap will dry and be hard to wash off so I work quickly. Unfortunately the O-ring is wore out and water sprays at the connection. I spend a lot of time digging through a bag of washers and o-rings but I can't find any that are right size. Eventually, I try to force one to work but when I turn on the water I get the same effect. I notice a pile of neatly folded laundry in the grass that is getting soaked. I move then worried about ruining fresh laundry when I hits me.

Not only do I realize I am dreaming, but I remember that I was lucid a few moments ago and totally lost it.(False memory? I can't remember) I think how sometimes being too lucid makes dream control hard but it's also easy to lose lucidity. It's a fine line. (WTF was I doing before?)

My thoughts get interrupted by some Mexican music. I look up and see a traditional Mexican in a green poncho and a black sombrero sitting on the porch of the neighbors house across the street. As I watch a hologram of a another Mexican man in a white suit materializes next to my car on parked my the curb. He flickers like a hologram from Star Wars and begins to wordlessly sing something. Intrigued, I walk over to check it out but something else even more odd gets all of my attention. An African American woman in a black woolen shawl appears next to the hologram. At first she seems normal but I quickly realize she has the look of a corpse; not like a zombie but dead with a pale white face. At some point in all of this, I remember my lucid goal but I am so interested in this DC that I let it go.

I go to her and try to shake her hand but the moment I touch her, she flinches way like I had burned her. I look at her face and she now has the face or some sort of evil goat. My first thought is that she is a demon, but I am fearless. In fact, I decide to scare her. In the deepest, growling voice I can imagine, I roar, "I am a devil too!" Now, she turns to run away but I grab one of her hands with both mine. The hologram tries to stop me but his form is insubstantial and passes through me. I bite the woman's hand deeply and drink. I expect warmth, but there is no sensation.

The dream fades out as I wake up.

#263 - SSILD - 4:39AM

I woke up from a non lucid realizing I lost consciousness before getting very far in my cycles. I do a few more and immediately the cycles feel really odd. Each sense feels magnified and the others feel totally absent. There is some colored rectangles HI with mild vibes. Each sense had its own colored rectangle that vibrated. I suppose I could have DEILDed or was DEILDing but my mindset wasn't there and I found the HI to be fascinating. It's not long until I go under completely.

My wife is cutting my hair in the bathroom as I watch in the mirror. The style looks like a 90's wedge cut and she is doing a horrible job of it. It's a rather long process and at some point he begins bleaching my tips against my will.

I eventually I find my self at work. I feel self conscious about my new hair style and I wonder into the restroom to look in the mirror. My hair is so horrible that I begin to panic. Some teenage boy sees me and laughs. I run out to my workstation and find a ball cap in a drawer. I quickly put it on.

Feeling better, I remember that I was going to ask for a vacation day. I look at time and see it's 7:23AM already. I wonder where the time went. After I get a vacation form I begin to look for my supervisor. I turn around and the entire shop has become a large carpeted room. There are round, short tables and little chairs arranged to fill the room. Several preschool kids are sitting at the tables watching some cartoon on a TV and roll-away cart. Bruce is standing over the kids with crosses arms supervising like a teacher.

I realize this is too weird and slowly talk myself into become lucid. I think to nose plug but feel a little reluctant after the last time. Instead I focus on the visuals and feel of the dream. I know I am dreaming. Out of instinct I decide to announce it to the room by standing on one of the tables. I shout out, "I am dreaming!" No one seems to care. All the DC's are completely lifeless so I move on.

I can't recall my goal but realize I am holding the vacation form in my hand still. I glance at it and of course it looks all wrong. I remember that I was looking for my supervisor and decide that maybe the dream wanted me to talk to her. I resume my search.

There is a door leading out of the class room but as I approach it I get the feeling that the dream doesn't exist beyond the four walls. I ignore it and open the door there is a long dark hallway and a oddly lit snack machine to the right. I am drawn to the light but the dream fades to black. I refuse to give up and start rubbing my hands together. I say, "Oh no you don't." while focusing on my hands.

I wake up feeling like I was talking in my sleep. Did I say "oh no you don't" out loud. I look over and see my wife is still asleep. I feel the need to DJ and notice a large tablet floating in front of me. My usual DJ is gone so I use this. I tap the screen and briefly record my LD by voice. This wakes my wife up. She asks what I am doing and I tell her I was just talking in my sleep. This seems to satisfy her and she goes back to sleep. For some reason I decide to get up but when I do I realize that we were both sleeping in an extra wide bathtub full of water. I feel wet and realize that I usually keep my Galaxy Player under my pillow for my WBTB alarm. I franticly look and see my pillow is underwater. I reach in and pull out my wet GP. At first it wont turn on and I think I need to put it in some rice. After messing with it for a bit is comes on and seems fine. I wake up.

#262 - WILD - 4:55AM
WBTB 4AM: 4 peppermint green tea bags

I wake from a short non lucid dream and roll over to glance at the clock. I feel really wakeful, but with much effort, I relax my mind enough to get back to sleep. After a few minutes, I start lose my concentration but I notice vibrations and that's enough to pull me back just a bit. I begin to feel really excited and my heart rate increase but I manage to calm myself enough. I focus on the vibes for a moment to maintain the transitional state. After a moment I start trying to "move".

After some effort I suddenly and unexpectedly I roll out of bed landing face first on the floor. I pick myself up but feel something like the sheets attached to my head and back making any movement sluggish. I ignore it the best I can and walk away. After a few steps I feel free but I stagger around like a drunk man.

When I reach the main room, I realize I am totally blind. I decide to combat this by thinking about what the room should look like in the day time. After a few seconds the lights sort of fade in and I see in full vivid color. I am pleased, but also a little surprised this worked so well. I feel like I have gained some equilibrium and begin walking toward the front door. I can't help but notice sunlight filtering in through the blinds as I make my way outside.

When I step out on the porch I notice that it feels very cold even-though all the snow has melted in this version of reality. I don't like this so I shout out loud, "I am impervious to cold!" I am always amazed that I don't talk in my sleep when I shout so I do it few more times paying close attention to the odd sound of it. After the cold fades, I try to remember my goals. The basic TOTM comes to mind; Ask a DC for his or her resolution(s) for the new year. I immediately begin search around for a dream character.

The neighborhood looks way different than normal but I see nothing too crazy. There is a dark brown, old Ford pick-up parked at an unfamiliar house next door. I take a closer look and it appears to be running. As I start walking over, I notice a man sitting in the passenger side. He looks like Cousin Eddie from Lampoon's Vacation but a little chubbier in the face. I become way too excited that I found a DC so quickly and worry that I will wake up before I get close enough to talk to him. Because of the excitement, I deliberately walk slow and calm.

When I reach the truck, the man notices me and smiles. He seems genuinely happy to see me and gets out to greet me. He puts a hand up and we high five, but something odd happens. I get a double vision, like a dream glitch, of him connecting with my hand but also missing and hitting my face. I flinch a little but mostly try to ignore the strangeness. I decide to waste no more time and ask, "So, what's your new year resolution"?
He immediately answers, "Australian zebra zombie apocalypse."
I laugh a little and repeat it back making sure I got it right. He gives me a nod. Amused, but slightly annoyed I say, "Ok. That's not a new year resolution." Then, jokingly add, "you dick." Now, more serious, "No really. What is it?"
His reply was just as confusing as the first. With a flourish of his and ending with pointing at me he says, "Live from New Zebra, It's Saturday Night!"
I give up and just laugh. I play along, "Ok. Before the year's up, I want to see a bunch of zombie zebras from Australia on your porch." I punctuate my demand by making a swirling pointing gesture at this front stoop. I feel like I am done here and start to walk away, but quickly change my mind. I am actually enjoying this too much to leave and I can't think of my other goal. I lean my back on the side of his house as I ask another question, "So, what's going to happen to me today? Anything significant?"
He thinks for a second and begins to speak. but now the dream is fading. I faintly hear him say, "Oh no. Nothing special just...

I wake up.

My latest G night was mostly a fail so this will be quick. I did enjoy a lot of very vivid dreams but I just could not hold on to awareness like I usually do plus I had quite a few distractions.

I tried to DIELD three times and got into the vibrational transition stage. I enjoyed some really amazing physical sensations but each one was interrupted by either my wife turning over or one of the cats meowing at the door or my son crying out. The last time I managed to hold on to the vibes for a long time despite interruptions but I lost focus and I either woke up or fell non lucid. I'm not sure which.

I did hit a DILD once while looking in a mirror. I recognized the bathroom I was in looked like a house from my childhood, but I quickly lost it because the nose plug failed. It's amazing how that has been happening. I even had the thought that it was too bad since this wasn't a dream because it was so clear and vivid. My reflection even looked normal for once. I then went to bed to try to do an in dream WILD but I got many interruptions even in my dream. I guess it wasn't my night.

Semi lucid:

I was trying to pee in urinal in a strange bathroom but it felt like I was about to pee myself in bed. I was in and out of lucidity there trying not to pee myself but also thinking theres a urinal in front of me. I eventually woke up in time to go to the bathroom.

Other non lucid dreams:

I won $11 million in a slot machine but the machine was giving out actual cash and ran out. I spent the rest of the dream trying to convince the casino that I deserve the rest of my cash.

I played guitar with a band for the duration of one song. This one was very life like and convincing. The feel of the strings and actual chords that I remember was spot on. After the song the dream went to some other jumbled nonsense.

There were some more but I do not remember them since I failed to record anything. I was too intent on DEILD/WILD to bother with it.

#261 - DILD - 5:34AM

I can't remember the first part of this dream but I am in some version of my parents old house. Dad is in the kitchen and mom is in the laundry room. I remember the laundry room was really dirty just a minute ago and now it is spotless. I try to focus on visual awareness like I did all day yesterday. I realize this looks like a dream and become lucid.

I walk up to my mom and in a humorous Italian mobster type voice, I yell, "Yo Mommieeeee." She looks up from folding laundry and I can't remember any goals. I think and the first thing that comes to mind is the TOTM that I already did. Not really thinking about it I ask, "Don't you have a gift for me?"
She puts her hands on her upper chest and asks, "For meeee?"
I say, "No. For me."
The she gets a look like she just remembered something and pulls out a wrapped box from a shelf. The package is in plain white paper and is about the shape and size of a book. I reach for it but suddenly have an FA

I am totally fooled this time and I am picking myself up off the floor. I see my parents on the other side of the room and I sit down in some restaurant booth feeling very tired and disoriented. This strange woman from work walks past and says, "I love being with my family." I think she is talking crazy but try to ignore her. She pulls a dish out of a microwave that is near me and puts the side of the hot dish on my check. It doesn't burn but it annoys the hell out of me. I give her a go-to-hell-look and push the bowl away. I then wake up.

#260 - DILD - 4:27AM

I get a little insomnia and thing I'll never fall back to sleep.

Now in the dream, I am look up at the ceiling thinking I need some help to get sleepy again. I start to get up to go take some melatonin but my wife grabs me. She straddles me like we are about to have sex then makes an odd statement about New Year's Eve. But this entire interaction become even more odd because now I can hear her snoring.

I decide this has to be a dream and I tell her about how is snoring and actually asleep. She wordlessly lays back down and I do to thinking I need to DEILD now. After a second, I realize how dumb this is and I get up out of bed. This is a strange shifting of the bedroom from some strange house to something closer to my actual bedroom.

The living is well lit and on my way outside I see a strange pink device with blue blinking lights. It's about the shape and size of a cell phone but has no screen. It actually resembles something more like one of those buzzers you get while waiting for a seat at a restaurant. I pick it up. There is no buzzing by the flashing lights make me want to answer it like a phone. I put it to my ear and say, "Hello."
I hear my mom's voice say something about how my wife's sister's husband is "Quitting the team." I have no idea what she is talking about but I say, "Oh now way. Really?"
Then she says, "This is a recording." and begins to repeat herself.

I am now outside on the porch and I toss the phone way into the street. I get a sudden idea and run back to the phone. I can't remember where I was trying to go but I felt like If I called a cab it would take me there. I keep my eyes on the phone so that I won't lose it and the blinking blue lights make it easy. When I pick the phone up I look for buttons but only find several metallic buttons for charging points like on the bottom of an old cordless phone. (Does anyone have land lines anymore?) I put the "phone" to my ear and start asking for a cab. I get some strange random reply from and unknown woman. I try asking again but I am having to talk over her and shes not hearing me. I become highly aware of the feel of the road on my bare feet as I walk around yelling into this strange blinking device. I suddenly wake up.

#259 - DEILD - 3:18AM

The previous dream changes into something like a shooter game. I enter an underground compound and make my way through many rooms shooting enemy soldiers. I feels like the dream had a plot but I can't remember it.

I partially wake and DEILD

I get out of bed with no vibes and enter the living room and go outside. The living room is well lit but my vision is like a strobe-light. Every time the lights came on I would start to get vibes but with the darkness it the vibes subsided. The effect was like a strange tingling throbbing in my head. I ignored this as noise and continued outside. I stood in the street of my very normal looking neighborhood trying to remember what I wanted to do in this dream. Suddenly, a large red pickup comes at me. I decide to have some fun and stand there with my head lowered ready to pounce. The truck tries to avoid me but I drive for it. The strobe light effect has wore off but now time seems to have dilated and slowed way down. I think that I might not reach the truck but I manage to catch the tailgate. I try to latch on but the entire truck bed break off in my hands.

I am now standing in my neighbors yard across the street hold a truck bed. I drop it and just sort of stare at it for a moment. I hear my dad's voice from somewhere over my shoulder. He's asking something about the truck and I just say, "His bed fell off." as I wake up.

#258 - WILD - 3:00AM

I realize that I dozed off a little too much and fully wake up. I begin visualizing to enter a dream on a pirate ship by imagining that I am the captain at the wheel. I begin to hear in my mind bits a pieces of shanties from AC4 but nothing really materializes. I switch to feeling sand with my hands and get some physical sensation on my hands.

Suddenly, it seems that I am holding a tablet so begin to draw a ship with my finger. It's crude but quickly takes cartoony shape. Watter seems to rush in and the ship breaks to pieces. I try pinching it together but it falls apart. I see two stick figures swimming and I feel that it represents my wife and I. I get caught up in playing this game and try to form something by pinching on the screen. I only get strange effects with water and clouds until I finally fall completely non lucid.

#257 - DEILD - 8:46AM

I am in Best Buy looking for something to organize all my video game console stuff. The store is a mess and it look like they are totally rearranging everything. I assume they are taking all their holiday displays and promotions down and getting ready for the new year. As I walk around looking for what I want trying to avoid over helpful employees, I notice someone keeps turning segments of lights off and on. It becomes annoying and disorienting. I find a section with PS3 and XBOX 360 moded cases for sale. I wonder when they started promoting modding but shrug it off. I guess with the new consoles out they don't worry about it so much with the older gen systems. They light shut off and on again and some guy in front of me gets really annoyed. I look around to see who the hell is doing it. There is a section of wall with panels missing and a large amount of wires and electronic circuit boards. I find it odd but over look it. Past that there is a guy looking something like a large breaker box. I assume he's messing with the lights for whatever reason. Feeling annoyed with the whole experience I decide to leave and go to Wal-Mart.

The dream changes and I am at home playing GTA5. After loading I see Franklin in the fighter jet. I think it's really cool they start me off like this and I fly around doing impossible maneuvers. I decide to take in the visuals for the next time I am dreaming. I think this will help me with my lucid flying. (IRONY) As I do I become more immersed in the game and begin to feel G forces on my body. My fly is less like the F15 and more like superman. I enjoy this for a moment but some strange looking helicopters begin to attack me. I shoot back but the copters fly away as my missiles follow. I decide I don’t want to mess with it so I fly the other direction. I notice a strange meter the show I am out of fuel. I try to get some more altitude to parachute out and hit some power lines. Electricity sparks and the plane goes out of control but I manage to get past it. I push a button on the controller and Franklin bails. He's falling too fast so I go ahead and push another button and the chute opens. As he is gliding down some electronic weapon hits him from behind and electrocutes him. I hear a loud voice say, "YOU ARE IN A RESTRICTED AREA. WEAPONS TESTING." Franklin falls the rest of the way next to some power station. He receives more electric shocks as soldiers surround him.

I wake up feeling pissed that I missed the connection to dreaming while I was flying. I lay still to DEILD and immediately find myself in my dream body. There are no vibes this time so I question it. I figure I may as well try moving and sure enough I am in control of my dream body. I am blind but I feel my way outside and then pause. I focus on opening my eye and seeing. I tell myself it is daytime and I get flashes of vision. It feels warm and looks like late spring. Dark red flowers are in full bloom and covering everything. The trees along my street have giant red flowers and even some the houses have them on the roofs. As my vision gradually become more stable I hear the ambient sounds of birds chirping.

I am now hovering in my yard and I realize I am just in my underwear. I get an overwhelming need to feel free from societal rules and take my underwear off. The physical feeling of the act becomes completely realistic. I even feel a cool refreshing breeze on my private parts. I the last dream make me want to fly so I go for it. I have trouble controlling myself and my vision is still a little wonky. I grab on to the tree in my yard as I float up and use to propel myself higher. It helps but its not good enough so I make one huge downward stroke with both arms as if I am swimming and trying for the surface. This works but work a little too well.

I watch the ground drop away. The trees grow smaller and start to look like a blanket of green carpet then fades to a momentary darkness. I look forward and find myself in low orbit. I have a clear picture of the Earth's upper atmosphere as the sun begins to rise. I feel victorious and free. I close my eyes and relax my body enjoying the weightlessness of space. (I was doing that already but whatever)



After a moment I decide it's time to try a little more controlled flight back down. I stroke both arm upward as if swimming down. I instantly become engulfed in clear blue cloudless sky. This is no ground and I can't see to find up or down. I doesn't bother me. I just know that I need to focus on seeing the ground. But before I can I start to hear my older daughter laughing and acting really silly.

This causes and FA but I remain lucid. At first I wonder if I am really hearing her but quickly remember this isn't my weekend. It seems like she in lying next to me in a really large bed. I feel really annoyed that this interrupted my flying so I reach out and lightly punch her in the leg. In an annoyed tone, I say, "You're not even here." Then, I get a confuse image of a sneaker in my bed and then darkness. I decide to wake up.

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#256 - DILD - 4:35AM

I am at work in the cubicles. For some reason I can't clock in and my badge is inactive. I ask my boss what’s going on but she doesn’t seem to know. I wonder if I am fired and refuse to do any work until this is sorted out. I feel somewhat happy to be free from work but I also wonder where my money will come from. I think I should go to the union and talk to them about all of this; There's no reason I should be fired.

I picture myself outside the Area Managers office protesting. Suddenly I am out in the parking lot looking at the windows of the front offices. I realize I am in the back seat of a car with some unknown people. It begins to rain heavily outside. I look around and see a telephone pole still upright in the ground, but moving along the pavement though the wires are still attached.
This is so bizarre that I become lucid. I say to the people in the car, "What the heck? Is that really happening?"
Some guy in the car says, "It's just... [something]"
I do a nose plug and blow through but it seems weak. I try several times until I am convinced enough. I jump out of the car running around yelling, "I AM DREAMING!" However, I still have my doubts so I do another nose plug, this time, with both thumbs in my nostrils. I am shocked when my breath is blocked. Felling embarrassed, I jump back in the car. I say to the people, "May be not."

Now it starts to flood but only in the parking lot. The car floats like a boat but I don't expect it last long. After a moment I realize this is impossible and become lucid again. I don't get out this time and just go with the ride. The water is now so deep that there are waves like I am out in the middle of the ocean but the flood waters are still contained with in the parking lot. The driver takes us around in the boat/car. I think the whole think is just silly and I begin to make fun of the car. I say sarcastic stuff like, "Oh look. It's a car that floats" and
"I really like the propulsion system in this" and "This is real nice, Clark." I suddenly feel hot and and enclosed and wish we could roll down the windows. The guy in the front passenger seat says something about rolling a window down, but I tell him I am afraid the car will sink if we do. We putt around to our starting point then, down the edge of the water in a steep slope, and back on the pavement. I wake up.

#255 - DEILD - 6:01AM

I remember a lucid fragment before this dream...

I tranform into a werewolf howling and growling. I feel tall and massive but I feel unconvinced that look the part. I roar at a dull faced, bored-looking man in a beard blocking my path. He doesn't seem convinced either. I am fooled by and FA and try to enter the dream in my DJ. After, typing a lot of words, the app doesn't look right and I worry that I may be dreaming. I feel overwhelmed. I remember no more of this dream.

I DEILD from another non lucid dream. I get vibes again but this time I don't feel like fighting to start the dream. I relax and begin to float around. Peaceful, relaxing piano music begins to play. I smile and make swimming motions as I listen. I think this is the soundtrack I may be looking for for a project I am thinking about. The piano music become over-layed with a tranquil synthesized sound. The effect is nice.

Suddenly, I feel danger and fear. My Spidey sense tells me there is something stalking me void. I make fast swimming motions and just as suddenly, the danger passes. The music never stops and I resume my relaxation.

Then out of nowhere, I see that I am floating by the large mirror in the living room. I quickly, reach out and take it off the wall. Doing so causes me to float down to the floor. for fun, I decide to look at my reflection as I walk toward the front door. To my horror the person in the mirror is a smeared, disfigured version of me. He looks like he is silently screaming as if in great pain. The sight of this confuses me and creates an unpleasant and nameless emotion. I drop the mirror, shake it off, and move outside expecting snow.

I see there is a little snow on ground and go for the Snowman TOTM. I gather up enough snow to make a small base. As I do, I still have Santa on my mind and decide to call out for him. Of course, there is no answer and the crazy hill-billy from the previous dream doesn't come to mind. Once I am done with the base, a large snowball rolls by. It's looks like a nice size for a midsection. I grab it without much thought to where it came from, slap it on, and then make a head. When I'm done, I step back and notice how small the snowman is. It's about two to three feet. I try to pinch and zoom motions as if on a touch screen. The snowman wobbles, stretches a bit but returns to it's original size. Then, the consistency of the snow becomes something like dry play-dough and cotton. The snowman begins to crumble and I try to hastily pack it back together, but to no avail. I decide it's no longer worth wasting my time and walk away.

I decide I would like to chat with a DC for whatever amount of dream time I may have. I shout out asking if anyone was around to talk to. There is no answer. I wake up.