Xanous' Dream Journal

fragments and emotions. nothing I can make sense of.

I was wish my wife. She and her friends were dressed like power rangers. I forgot my costume. I ask why she didn't say anything because I just went home to change and now I have to go back.

Conversation about this Guy who was trying to have a baby with his girlfriend when he was 15. I asked was this with my wife? All together was a resounding NOOOOOO! I believed them because I knew better anyway.

1.
Somehow I know my wife is a big shot executive in a hospital. I am lost and wondering around in a hospital (dream sign) looking for my wife. There is a very "Grey's Anatomy" feel to it (I hate that show). I find my sister in a glass room. It is a recording studio. She opens the door for her daughter and my sister smiles at me.

2.
I see my other sister and her ex husband. I hate the man. But they are happy together and they get in a helicopter (possible dream sign). They ask me if I want a ride. I say no because I just don't like him. They start to lift off and I tell them I changed my mind because I have always wanted to go on a helicopter. They go back to the ground and I reluctantly climb on a what looks like a black hawk with an open side. We fly off and I try to take pictures with my phone (possible dream sign) but I can only see so far and then it fades to black.

So I kept waking up a lot because of the cat being crazy and I was getting mad. But I ended up trying Jakob's Awesome WILD where you focus on your skull and try to enter SP. I was shocked when the familiar vibrations started in my head almost immediately. I got excited and thought Wurlman was right. I am going to have a lucid and I can't wait to tell about it. My breathing got heavy. No good. So I relaxed. The vibrations came back more intensely and moved to my body and into my fingers. I was still over excited. I am so practiced in letting go during SP that way too suddenly the vibration where gone and I amused I had woken up. Failure. Nope! turned out to be FA.

The kids came in and woke me up in my dream. Talking and being loud. I told Deanna I shut up. I help two fingers close and said that I only got this much sleep tonight and its almost time to wake up. She left and I closed my eyes. Then my mom comes in and does the same (She doesn't live with me). I freak out on her too and cry like a baby. No one seems to even notice my crying. So I think to leave.

Finally I get up out of the recliner (I had moved to the recliner in real life) and go to bed. But instead of my wife Tonya from work was lying there (gross). Im like move we gotta be at work soon and I want to sleep some more. She wont budge so I squeeze in next to her (again gross). I close my eyes and have a dream in the dream.

I see the moon. So very vivid with extremely high detail. I see the every line and crater and valley and mountain. I hear a voice talk about making roads and what is necessary for progress. I think what is the big deal? You go like this. I take my index finger and make a swooshing noise and poke into the moon making a crater. I feel a dull impact on my finger as I hit it. I was a little shocked at this but dismissed it. (Wheres my RC?) The moon is eye level and no bigger than my fist. I back off and do it again. Then I am there on the surface but all I can see is the dust as it settles.

Then I wake up because the cat jumps on me!

** Notes from being half asleep. Found it amusing.

**sp then excited then fa. dreamed kids and mom all came in and talked to me. Iwas mad and said i didnt get enough sleep. then tana. then the moon.

1. Something about sunflowers.

2. Forgot. Too lazy to write.

3. I'm walking in the woods down a dirt path. I am looking at my phone and want a wifi connection. I see some trailer houses. They are small and green. One of the has a unsecured wifi. I connect with my phone but continue walking. I look to the right. There is a creek but the water is so unbelievably blue. Something in my mind says its not right. I look closer and see the dirt and rocks at the bottom. I dismiss this. I was very beautiful and I was just enjoying that.
I walk up a hill and as I come to the top I see and open field with tall grass and an amazing range of mountains in the distance. I notice the sun is setting and the colors are so vivid and surreal. I decide to take a picture with my phone. I get mad because the camera app is freezing. All this time there is a helicopter above me. I think it will go away but it does not. Its like it is watching me. I duck down into the grass and a spot light shines on me and the helicopter lowers and circles. I wake up and notice that the fan sounds just like the helicopter.

4. I am in the kitchen of my house. My parents are there. I am waiting for food to cook. So I start cleaning. Nothing is as it should be. The cabinets are clear plastic. I put a vacuum in the washing machine. It over flows so I set the machine outside like it weighs nothing. A man comes on the front porch and looks in my house. I get irate like I want to hurt him. He runs off and continues down the road on the hood of a car. The police are following him in an open military jeep. It is raining but they don't seem to mind. I wonder what that was all about. It is dark now and my kids are out back with my dad playing some game. I wake up.

*no lucids. Used MILD. Took multivitamins potassium and magnesium 1 hour before bed. I noticed that I woke up a lot and had a hard time falling asleep. No use trying to WILD.

1. "Her sales and her unibrow are nowhere near where they need to be." Had a feeling of watching TV. Was thinking of Jess and the coffee shop.

*I woke up and drank cold coffee and went back to bed.

2. I am in a hot air balloon. There is an old crazy looking man. He has long gray hair and looks like the actor that played Gandolf. His hair is wild and wind sept. It is very windy. We are very high up. I see gray mountains in the distance. Suddenly the wind blow the opposite direction. The old man becomes excited and says "There it is!" I have the feeling like we made it past a certain threshold and it would be easy from there.

*I was trying to WILD and fell into non lucid sleep

3. I am at my wifes grandparents house. They haven't lived there in a long time. I look inside but it turns into my mother-in-laws house. I see parts that is half torn down. I think we should rebuild this house and move in. I walk outside and notice the door was unlocked and I never used a key. I leave it unlocked. I see some chickens and they are so hungry they are like swarming me and begging for food. I think, "Oh crap no one has fed them all this time!" So I quickly find so feed and a feeder and fill it up and then I sprinkle some on the ground so they will have pleanty. I then go into a shed and find a paper bag. I has some more feed but it is like moist clumps. That when the 4 or 5 cats attack me and latch onto the bag and my arm. I am amused but I try to shake them off. They wont come off and one is latched to my forearm. It doesn't hurt but I am getting mad now. I step out of the shed and spin in a circle and fling the bag and cats into the air with all my might. The cats go spinning and flying far into the sky and out of sight. I laugh.

Lots of fragments. Nothing to write about.

Will begin posting tomorrow.