Xanous' Dream Journal

I drank a little too much last night and only remember this one dream. This is a really old dream sign of mine but I never seem to get it. The next time I dream about school I will know that I am dreaming!

I was in a class room taking a test and nothing on the paper made sense. (confusion)I got the feeling that I had dozed off when the teacher was giving the lesson. (FA?)The kids around me where whizzing through the questions like it was easy. I could only stare blankly at the paper not really comprehending the words on it. I felt really stupid and was panicking inside. I didn't want to ask the teacher for help because I felt so embarrassed. I could not believe he made us do this crazy test after the summer break. None of the other teachers did. (False memory)I spent a lot of time looking around, trying to reason this whole thing out until I woke up.

I meant to do MILD after WBTB but I was so tired I passed out in the first few seconds of it.

I was in a strange house with two long hallways and an open round room. This room was the largest of all and had glass vaulted ceilings. I had the feeling of great wealth and freedom as I stared out into the night sky. I wanted to expand my house and I had a feeling like I could add on glass blocks like on Minecraft. Then a female DC (I think was probably my wife) started jumping on a giant round purple bed in the room. She said she liked the house the way it was. I noted how impossibly large this bed was and thought it could not be real. I became semi-lucid and for some reason wanted to remember how the rest of the house looked before I woke up. I ran around and got the basic layout before I had a brief awakening.

I was going through some underground dungeon slaying monster like creatures. Some looked like organic toy cars about the size of diner plate and I began stomping them. They would squish and ooze something like brains each time I stepped on them. Then I made my way to the boss battle. There was a giant green glowing bowl floating around with neon green liquid in it. I readied myself to fight as I taunted it. As it came at me I threw a fist at it but woke to the sound of a screaming kid.

Time about 5AM. That's actually good as I remembered to was trying to get lucid. Took care of the issue and went for WILD. Nope still passed out.

I was in the Luling house with some kids. I went outside for some reason and saw there was a large blackberry bush in the front yard. I remember my waking life bush and though they would not be ripe yet here. To my surprise, they were large plump and purple. I pulled one off the bush and ate it. The first one was very sweet and juicy but the next two were a little sour. The bush looked very dry like it had not seen rain in months. I thought I should water it but with that thought I felt rain drops on my arms. I looked up and saw storm clouds and heard a rip of thunder. I woke up to a sound.

About 7:30AM - Brief OBE - DILD

I stayed still to DEILD

I felt vibrations right away. After a few moments I blindly transitioned out of my body and thought I was still in the Luling house. I followed the hallways out of the bedroom. I became confused when I remembered I was not there but here.

Back in body. Vibrations. This time only my upper body would come free and I was very aware of the light outside. I got pulled back into my body and I focused 6 ft from the top of my head and the vibrations got stronger. I imagined pulling energy into myself and the vibrations go stronger still. After a moment I tried moving again. I floated up and did the 180 degree turn. I was not expecting that and I slammed back in. I continued to struggle back and forth for several minutes until I heard my son screaming again. All vibrations dissolved instantly and I woke up.

3:30AM - Lightning gun - NLD
Fragment shooting people with a lightning gun. Have a buddy helping. Looks like Borderlands.

6:00AM - Demons - NLD

There are square shadows floating in the air above us in a church. I turn around and pull out a long Obsidian dagger. I look around and everyone has blades of many shapes and sizes all made of the same material and all glowing. It begins to glow blue as I ready myself. The demons are afraid and don't come any closer. I slash at one and cut it in half. I take the other half and rip it up. I use dream control to make it dissolve into nothingness.

I am ridding in a car and the driver has a large envelope with one of the demons in it. It begins to moan and complain about trivial discomforts in a womans voice. The driver mockingly calls it his god. I wake up.

Time unknown - Micro Lucid - DILD
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I walk into the living room and see my son running up to me. I pick him up and yell at my wife, telling her he was walking. I know this has to be a dream. But unfortunately I either woke up or lost lucidity because I remember nothing else.

5:50AM - DEILD - 2 of 2

I wake naturally from a dream a few minutes before the alarm. I don't move keep a clear mind and relax my body. I feel the change and reach out with my mind. I get instant vibrations but before I can transition out of body a dream scene envelopes me.

I am walking down a street with a version of my mom next to me. I see a pop up screen before my face and my mom immediately says, "Your subconscious has been locked out. (of this dream). You'll need to pay to get it back." The pop up shows a dollar amount of $7.99 and some text. I am crestfallen and I ask my mom, "But how am I dreaming now?"
"It's just your ego.", is her only reply. I totally believe all of this and know that money is useless in a dream. I'll have to pay later. I allow the dream to continue non-lucid.

With that out of the way we walk down the street together and I point out a couple of rows of plant growing out of the asphalt. It seems that someone planted them there like a garden. The alarm goes off and I wake up.

I have no time to proof read so I know there are huge typos. I apologize and will edit later. I just never have enough time anymore.

I started with MILD but was having difficulty visualizing. Switched to mantra for a bit then only a few cycles of SSILD.


#190 - 3:30AM - SSILD/WILD - 1 of 2

I feel the familiar feeling of transition like a chemical change in my mind. I am in total SP and there are zero vibrations. I can't move or transition out of body. I try Monroe's 180 method but it feels like I just rolled over on my face. I know this is a false sensation. I try rolling but at a moderate speed. Every time I spin I hear a mechanical roaring. I pause, spin again, pause, then try rolling out and through the walls of the house. I feel like I roll out into the backyard and circle round back to my bed. I wait a bit and get into some resemblance of a lying down lotus position and meditate with the mantra, "I am dreaming. I am lucid when I dream." I clear my mind and relax into the SP. After a moment or two I slow bring my feet out to touch the floor. Now I am standing but completely blind. I slowly open my eyes and see the bed room door. I am back in bed. I transition again and blindly continue into the living room. I pause and try to stabilize by feeling the floor. It's not helping my blindness so I just continue on outside. I feel cool air on my skin as I walk into the street. I continue walking and peering into the darkness waiting for the dream to form.

Suddenly, I am walking with a group of men my age and younger. I am lucid but I lose control a little and get swept up in the dream. It feels like HI and a little disconnected but I am controlling the flow. I become excited and yell out. I see several cars parked near a short rock fence. I hop over it and run towards a two door red convertible. I yell out, "Shotgun!" and hop into the passenger side. A couple of guy were following behind me with the same idea. One jumped on top of me and the other almost landed on the other guy but corrected himself to jump in the back seat. Darkness.

The dream becomes more vivid now and we are riding down a highway. I feel the wind on my face and lean out over the door. There are pine or cedar tress on either side of us. I whoop, holler and howl, listening to the dreamy distortion of my voice. I say, "You know what guys? We should get real crazy. Let's go rob someone." I look over at the driver for the first time and notice that he looks like a 1950's greaser. I don't find this strange at all as I wait for him to reply. He doesn't. He just continues to drive not looking at me or saying a word. He is expressionless in every way. This gives me pause and pull in my craziness for a moment. I think about my goal of finding NyxCC. I wonder where she is and how to get there from this point.

I stare straight ahead down and endless highway surrounded by a starless empty void. Suddenly one of the guys in the back yells out, "Reno, Nevada!" At the instant a strange tombstone shaped building with a huge neon sign in front of it materializes before my eyes with a burst of energy. I see tendrils of electricity cascade down the building and fade away. For a moment I am mesmerize as I have never experienced this in a dream before. I recover quickly and say to the driver, "Is that were Nyx lives? Reno Nevada?" He just shrugs in reply never looking at me. I accept that we are somehow in Reno, Nevada now. "You know were she lives? Can you take me there?" The driver nods and we make a right turn into a residential area. The night is extra dark save for a few houses with porch lights. Not wanting to get sucked into darkness, I point at well lit house. "Is that it?" The driver nods but takes me to the house next to it.

I get out and there is a strange garage like building shaped like an old hotrod with flames painted on the side. I get out of the car and walk to the car-building feeling unsure. When I open the door there is only darkness inside. I reach inside and slap around until I hit a light switch. It's just a hollow cream colored tube.

I turn around and see a house with red painted siding only about 10 or so feet away. I enter the front door and see a small cozy living room with a lamp and cough and tv set. The floors are hardwood and the room is fully furnished. I don't linger or pay any attention to the room. There is a door across the room and I enter.

The bedroom lights up as I enter but the light is very dim. I look up and see a square shaped light fixture. There is a small child like young woman asleep in here bed. I move over and sit on the edge of the bed. I shake her a bit saying, "Nyx, wake up." She looks confused for a moment and sits up. I notice she has shoulder length light brown to dirty blond hair and she is wearing something white. But I try to focus on her face to see what she looks like. It's a little blurry but I get a good enough look. I focus mostly on her nose. It's sort of button like and celestial shaped. I say, "Wake up! You are dreaming. This is a dream." She smiles pleasantly but looks a little confused still. I continue, "I'm Xanous... from dream views." I smile, "Hi." Comprehension dawns on her face and she seems a little embarrassed. I am not sure but I think I said, "Are you Nyx?" She nods yes. "Ok here is my code word and sign." I hesitate for a bit when I realize I forgot what it was. Then I remember and say the word and signal. "Ok what's mine?"
She replies, "Uh...um...well... I forgot." I give her a moment and I think she said something odd that didn't makes sense. Then I say, "You're not really Nyx are you?" I don't remember her reply but she doesn't seem to argue. We have more dialog but I can't remember much. She says, "You think you are legally blind but you are not." I feel shocked that she would know about the dream blindness I had at the start of the dream. She says something else that sounded like gibberish so I decide it's time to go. "Well I am going to go wake up now so that I can remember this." I step out the bedroom door that now leads outside only. I yell back, "You take care of yourself." and close the door behind me.

I look up at the full moon in the sky through tree limbs without leaves. I play at the limbs and start to fly but stop. Then, I think of transitioning into a werewolf but remember I want to test my teleport idea to get to China. I focus on going to China and try to stretch my body to that location. I feel myself get impossibly long then a blind of darkness.

Now, I am flying in a spinning vortex full of various star symbols and odd, broken structures with a rainbow like nebula in the back drop. I chat, "China China Chinatown." over and over as I watch the swirling images. Suddenly I realize I wanted to remember the dream. I feel like I can barely remember the start of it and begin to panic. I really need to wake up!

I plug my nose to hold my breath but I blow through. I laugh at myself a little and realize I am back in my bed stuck in SP. I try moving but only get phantom movements. I think how I just want to make a DJ entry in my tablet. I dream I am doing just that but realize I am still dreaming and it wont be there later.

I now I really hold my breath. It hurts and feels like a long time. I ex-hail but find I am still in SP. This time I suck in hard holding my breath. I commit myself to hold it until I just can't stand it any longer. It feels like an impossibly long time and hurts. I see a computer pop-up loading screen and watch as the bar gets longer. I wonder if I can die like this. Then I realize I will only pass out and start breathing again. Then I wonder what happens when you pass out in a dream. The bar fills up and I have to breath. I ex-hail long and hard and realize I am now awake.

1:40AM

I am an astronaut. I am riding in a mine cart up to a huge shuttle nestled in a wooded mountain side with my fellow astronauts. I hear a distant crowd cheering for us and I put both hands in the air in response. I tell the person next to me that I am so excited to finally go into space. I said I would go before I die and here I am.

At the launch site we do various mundane things to prepare. I wake up before anything good happens.

WBTB missed. I wake at 5 and decide its too late for WBTB. I go for a DEILD with the Monroe tech.

#not counting - Sometime after shortly after 5AM - DILD?

The dream forms and I find my self mixing epoxy at my old job. I look down and realize its actually pancake batter. I am confused with this dream and realize that I was trying to have an OBE. I throw myself backward to force myself back in bed into a lying position. I fall fast and then in slow motion and float. I get a vertigo sensation and butterflies in my stomach.

I am now in bed and I feel that familiar feeling of the dream state. I go ahead and try to move but I feel paralyzed. I wait for the vibrations instead of trying other exit method. I think maybe I am too awake since I never felt vibrations. I have too much importance placed on it and I lie in the void until a noise wakes me up.

I go for DEILD again

A dream forms and I see a white ball partially buried in grass. I think it looks like a golf ball and when I pick it up I see that I was right. It feels solid and I note the texture of the dimples. I realize I am dreaming and become way too excited waking myself up.

Lion, Tiger, and.... dog? - Time unknown

I am at my first job at Long John Silvers. I realize I am wearing that same colorful shirt from the hospital dream last night. There is a tiger and lion in the kitchen and they keep fighting. The noise of is is awful and I cringe every time they get near me and I worry that the costumers will notice and we will all get in trouble. A pug dog that I recognize as mine runs away from under my chair in the drive thru and I hurry after it. I runs into the front lobby and I nervously try to laugh it off and makes jokes about a dog in the restaurant.

I pick the dog up and take it outside. I decide to get in my car and leave. In the parking lot we can hear the sound of the tiger and lion fighting. It sounds odd and distorted (probably my wifes snoring!) Some one hears it and says it must be someone bowling. Not wanting anyone to know about the tiger and lion and agree that bowling must be the source of the noise.

Air Raid - Time unknown

I am in some old WWII era building. I know its all fake but I think it's some type of mystery role playing game in a museum. There is some puzzle with fans and someone tells me to get a shopping cart. I look down a hallway but don't see it. Then two carts some rolling in from an adjacent hall. I take one and push it to the fans. Something about the cart being in proximity starts the fans and a phone rings. I put it to my right ear but I feel some obstruction. I hear a creepy man giving me instructions but I can't hear very well. I decide my hearing aid (What? I don't wear one IWL) is malfunctioning so I put the phone to my left ear. I am confused when I still hear the voice in my right ear. I laugh at this but instead of question if it is a dream I just think my hearing aid is really messed up. Then suddenly I hear the voice in my left. I begin to think that I'm missing something important here but before I can think an air raid siren goes off. I hear a loud boom and the building shakes.

I know that I am the star of this show and I must get in a plane and parachute out. I run off with some guy that I know as the pilot. I stop and ask him who has my son R. He says my dad does and calls him a "dipshit" I run back a ways and see my dad carrying R and my two daughters walking behind him to safety. Knowing my kids are OK, I continue with the pilot. I wake up.

Fragments

I'm smoking again. I feel the sting of the smoke in my throat. I worry that I am addicted. I need to buy a pack.

I see a dead chicken on the ground. A second live chicken walks up to me.

I woke around 4:30AM and since it was too late for a WBTB tried falling asleep with SSILD. I was more tired than I thought and didn't get past the visual stage. Sometime later I had a brief awakening and I went for DEILD. I've had a playing card that I blindly placed face up on top of the china cabinet in my house. I finally hit an OBE this morning and was able to take a look.


#189 - 5:23AM - DEILD/OBE

I waited and I got that special feeling that made me realize I was close. I remember Monroe's tech but since I was so close I skipped a few steps. I went straight to focusing 6 feet off the top of my head and pulling energy in. The vibrations started. I concentrated on it for a bit noting the frequency and intensity.

I tentatively and slowly moved upper body just to check. Every felt right and my physical body seemed locked in so I went for it. I took off and phased through the bedroom door without a thought and went straight for the playing card. I reached the top of the cabinet and pulled thinking I would float up but instead it feels like I tipped it over. There was a strange brief vertigo and I'm not sure if I actually floated or I tipped it over. Doesn't matter.

I look around and see various scraps of paper but no playing card. Everything seems a little blurry and I think I just need to look harder. I say, "It IS here. I WILL find it." Then I see a card pop up in my face. It is the queen of clubs. I study it to remember but then it fans out into many cards all laying on top of the china cabinet. I see a couple of aces and a jack and I think a 9 and a 10. I decide that since I saw the queen first that I'll go with this one. I try memorizing the rest just in case but when I look a the jack it some how seems red with a black suit. I call it a red black jack. Then I realize all the other cards are doing the same except for the Queen. It's clearly queen of clubs. This HAS to be it! All this thinking and studying quickly causes me to wake up. I try to lay still for DEILD but it doesn't come and I have to pee.

The actual card was the nine of hearts. The entire experience was probably only a minute or two.

#188 - 4:06AM - DILD

WBTB time: 2:45AM-3:00AM

I was really tired during this WBTB and could barely manage the 15min though I wanted to go for 30+. I think the tiredness and lack of good technique resulted in a failed WILD and a somewhat sloppy DILD.

I have a false awakening lying on my stomach. I feel like a child again and I notice I must be in my parents bed since my mom is next to me. I feel a finger poke on my back and roll over to see my dad. He says something about sleeping in my own bed and I feel a little embarrassed.

I go to another room that looks similar to a childhood bedroom except the furniture is scattered and out of place. I begin rearranging things and notice a soda fountain glowing in the corner. I think this is really cool and get closer to investigate. My mom starts talking to me from the other room so I leave it.

Now I am driving to work in heavy sleet. There is so much sleet on the road that it looks like heavy snow but the consistency is that of a flavorless snow cone. I try to get up hill and see a truck sliding on ice in front of me. My car dissolves and I begin walking. My sister calls me and starts talking about the weather and asking if I need a ride.

Suddenly I am in the house of the guy that was driving the truck. I felt a little out of place and exposed like I was trespassing. When he and wife looked surprised to see me, I waved and thanked them for the help hoping they would be fooled and go with it. They instantly smile and nod at me. I am annoyed at my sisters constant talking so I tell her I am busy and need to go. Her voice is suddenly cut of with out a good bye. I look at the phone in my hand to see if I had a dropped call but what I see there looks similar to a WiiMote. I shrug and push the power button and put the wiiphone away.

I make my way to the front porch and see my brother-in-law talking to my mother-in-law. I join the conversation and we talk about how I should have just shrunk my car down and put it in my pocket instead of letting it dissolve like that. I realize we are talking dream control and for some reason I say, "I am still dreaming" This surprises me and I think back and remember that I must have briefly lost lucidity. I feel like I have the beginning of the LD in my memory so I put the thought away intending to remember it later. Unfortunately, I have no idea what that part of the dream was now.

I wander off into the green grass of the lawn. I notice it is sunny and bright. Deciding I want my car back, I reach into my pocket trying to summon a shrunken car. There is nothing in my hand but I continue anyway hoping the dream will catch up. I make an enlarging motion like zooming on a touch screen but nothing happens.

I look around and see a really strange looking car parked on the street. It looks like the real life version of the car in Paranorman.



At first I think it's an old Ford but as I get closer its definitely more station wagon like with an exaggerated long front end. I hop in the driver seat and take off. At first the steering wheel becomes detached and floats unconnected. I do a double take and suddenly it is right. I shrug and take it as a strange dream glitch and continue on.

At first I realize I am driving in a suburb but as I set my intent the scenery quickly changes. I am purposefully trying to drive to the Great Wall of China. I don't try to force anything and let the change all with expectation and intent. I see dry grass land and then hills. Then out the side I see something just over the top of a small hill through the tall grass. I catch a glimpse of the Great Wall. I notice the large brown stone bricks with castle like parapets on top.

I become excited and veer off the road to drive up the hill but the car gets stuck on top of large rock and a deep rut. I get out of the car and notice there are people with me. The darkness swarms in but I hold it back and try to get my bearings. My wife suddenly walks up and begins talking to someone not part of the scene. The DC's that got out of the car start talking to me at the same time. I get a double image of two dreams overlapping each other and I become very confused. I relax my concentration and the darkness comes.

I find my self in the void then laying in bed in a REM atonia like state. From some reason I am very aroused and begin visualizing my wife having sex with me. There is no physical sensation but I wait in anticipation. Then I suddenly remember that I woke from a lucid dream. I begin recalling the details and the effort wakes me up completely.

Later I have another long dream about some kids bullying me and I confront them. Then I have to inflate the tires on my car but there is a problem with one of the valve stems. Some friend of mine helps me and I end up getting some contact cement from in the house. I create a gooey clumsy mess and doubt it will all hold. I tell my friend that is doesn't matter since this is all a dream anyway. For some reason I think of all as HI and not a full dream. I sit and wait on the dream now. As I do I begin to notice a strange faint grinding sound. I realize I have been hearing this for quite some time but I just didn't pay any attention to it. It becomes louder and louder until I am awakened by the sound of my wife snoring.

#187 - Around 5:45AM - DILD

I went for a weak WILD attempt after getting up with my son for a bit and got a DILD.

I am at what appears to be the house my sister and her husband first lived in. I am horribly late for work and think about calling in. Floyd offers to pay me $80-$90 to work the day for him.

I look outside and see Kindle with the baby. Then Jared, Tim and Brenda. Jared is saying hi to everyone but totally ignores me. I feel hurt and confused. I am shocked they traveled so far with an infant.

We all go inside and I walk way from everyone in thought. It occurs to me that this might be a dream so I do a nose plug. It's not a clean blow through but I just know I'm dreaming anyway.

I turn around to talk to everyone but the living room is dark and empty. It looks like grandma's old mobile home now and when I turn back around I see the back door and step out.

The sky is dark and starry. I remember my goal to travel to a distant star by zoom flying. I pick one and focus. The star gets large and bright with the usual strange distortions but I never seem to leave the ground. Not wanting to force anything I look for the moon instead. When I look all around, I only see a uniform blanket of stars in the sky. Must be a new moon tonight. I become dizzy and fall into darkness.

I don't want to wake up so I visualize the back door until I see it again. I think about simple shapes until I see it before me open and swung outwards. Wanting to stabilize, I reach out to feel the texture and mass of it. I note how vivid it is and begin to steady myself...

Unfortunately that's all I can remember.

I totally blew past my WBTB and woke up at around 5:30AM. I decided it was too late for a real WBTB so I focused on WILD. I guess I was too sleepy to be successful but something stuck because around an hour and fifteen minutes later I have two strange in dream DEILDs.

#187 - 6:45AM - DEILD?

I have false awakening but think I am really awake. I feel sort of like I am in sleep paralysis but I have no vibrations. I begin visualizing getting out of bed and I feel like I am really making a transition. I am aware of both my physical body and my dream body. I am on my right side and I continuously try throwing my legs over side and scooting out of bed but it's like my upper body weighs a thousand pounds and won't move. Finally I begin visualizing walking and soon it feels real.

Suddenly I get vision and I can see that I am standing on my front porch facing the morning sun. There is a beautiful jungle scene in front of me that is hard to describe. I see dense green foliage and trees but they look trimmed. There is like a type of tree limb ceiling above me and the sun on the horizon is peeking through. I pause and look at the vivid surreal colors before continuing. I realize that I have no lucid task in mind so I decide to just go exploring.

As I walk forward I notice that my vision is cut to 14:9 like on a wide-screen tv. For some reason I know that my vision will come in full once I leave the jungle and enter the full sunlight. There is some brief blindness as it does so and I stare at the sun. There is something odd about the sun. Shape... color... I don't remember. I look away and see several daytime moons in different phases clustered together in the pale blue sky. Most of them look waning crescent but one or two look last quarter and waning gibbous. I count them. 1,2,3,4,5. Wow 5 moons. I must be on another planet! I think about flying to one but they are so faint and pail that I worry I'll just get lost up there. I see another lone waning crescent making 6 moons, but seems to be in flux. It's not quite sure if its full moon or not. Suddenly, I realize I am conscientiously doing this so I leave it.

I turn around and see 20th street. I walk out into the empty street and as soon as I do I see something like a blue Prowler coming toward me. I stand my ground to let it hit me. There is a slight bump but it passes right through. I play with several other cars like this. I wonder if I can plant my feet on the grill of one and carjack like I did in a previous lucid but they all continue to be phantoms. Or perhaps I am the phantom. For some reason each car makes me levitate a little. I float around a bit and have a possible false memory of having a lucid earlier in the night. I remember having trouble flying and was swim flying with little success.

I get tired of playing in the traffic and notice that there is an empty lot with several storage trailers on the other side of the road. I decide to see what is inside them. But on my way over there I see that strange woman that I saw when we went grocery shopping in waking life. She is crossing the street the other way on a bike, eying me suspiciously. I rush over to her and for whatever reason I call her a few derogatory words. I pull her off the bike and pop open her blouse. "Yeah let me see some black titty!" Before anything else happens the scene fades.


I am fooled by another false awakening. I get up and do something. I'm not sure. My wife says something to me and I tell her I had that I just had a lucid dream. "So." was her only response.
"Whatever I'll just do it again." I lay back down and feel like that I can OBE on the spot at anytime. I relax and get back into the same SP transitional stage that I was in previously.

After a few moments I am fully lucid and heading back out the front door. This time I decide to go around to the back. I realize that I haven't messed around the alley too much in my OBE's. I do just that.

When I get there the sky is dark and the alley is much different than waking life. The neighbor's house looks like some saloon from Red Dead Redemption and the area reminds me of familiar dream location. I make my way up some exterior stairs onto a balcony, then around to the front side and in the house through an exterior door. There is a long dark hallway in front of me. I just continue on in the total darkness trying to see. I think they must still be a sleep so the lights are just off. In a second I see an open door to a bedroom. The sun is coming in the windows and the room is brightly lit. The flooring is pristine natural colored hardwood. The only piece of furniture in the room is a large bed with a cream colored comforter. There are two lumps under the blankets. I don't want to do anything too weird here (like the last segment) so I run and jump in between them on the bed. I wanted to shock and scare them as a prank but as soon as I hit the bed I have yet another false awakening. Before I can make anything of it, I wake for real.

I was on a football field at a Steelers and Cowboys game. There was a 3rd team also. There were racks of free team swag on the field up for grabs. I get some Cowboys stuff for my dad.

My older daughter is a princess and has to learn stuff like manners and posture ect. I try get her out of it because I feel they are too strict on her. Later I am walking at work and there is strange carpet. I feel the softness under foot. Somehow I understand why they were so hard on her and my daughter is more excepting of it. I talk with some noble about eating cold meat. He says that because we like cold meat, it means we are getting old. I tell him that I prefer grilling steaks frozen on high heat; that way it's blackened on the outside but rare in the middle. He seems to think that is a moot point.

I was going for WILD after my WBTB but I was very tired and my WBTB was too short. I had several awakenings but only remember two of the dreams.

#1
I am at work with some silver can in my hand it looks like a tall boy beer. I get the idea that has huperzine in it. I take a long drink and note the taste. It is very sweet and fruity with a pleasant alcohol after taste. I look at the can and see its Blueberry Pomegranate flavored. I remember taking huperzine earlier and try to calculate how much huperzine is in my system now. I worry that it will be too much.

I see Frank walk by and he comments on my drink. Something about how he wants to try some so he can get lucid. I am shocked and happy that I turned so many people at work on to lucidity. (actually just 2 in waking life).

I realize that having beer at work will get me fired so I try to hid it under my desk. Then, I not a horrible side effect of drinking huperzine beer in the day time. I am incredibly aroused and it will not subside. My boss asks me to come over to talk to her but I am too embarrassed get up out of my chair. I quickly wake up.

#2

I am at my old Jr. High cafeteria in Smithville, TX watching some play on the stage that was there in waking life. Then play ends but we they begin a second showing and every moans about it. We stay because we all feel obligated to support our children.

The curtain opens and someone is trying to hang something on a wall that had busted out sheet rock. I am curious if this is the actual play of if they need to fix the set. I wonder up on stage and some toddlers come out to play with me. I talk to one and then realize I am on stage. I duck and army crawl away.

I have a brief awakening and focus on my awareness and body.

#186 - 5:18AM - DEILD

I find myself back at my old Jr. High but I am outside in the commons area where we used to hang out before class. I am staring at the concrete and see the trash can that is always there. I look and see the grassy center and the structure around me. For a moment the memory is so vivid that it conjures up old indescribable emotions that are only connected to that time and place. For just that moment, I am completely overwhelmed and think that I literally somehow teleported there in waking life.

I quickly recover from this and assure myself that I am dreaming. I look around at the scene and note how correct everything seems. After a moment my vision gets a little blurry so I stop and remember my task. I walk around toward the gym and shout out, "CANISLUCIDUS!" CL's name sounds and feel a little thick in my mouth so I shout out his real name which is much easier to say. Nobody shows up so I decide to just call him on my cell phone. I reach to my right pocked were it always is and at first I feel nothing but after a few pats I feel a lump and then the shape of my phone.

I pull it out and blindly push something on the screen saying CL's first and last name then put the phone to my ear. I immediately hear a very stereotypical Russia man on the other end.

The details are a little hazy with the dialogue but I remember basically what was said. I may have to paraphrase a little here.

Man: This is [firstname][lastname].
Me: Uuummm. OK. Where are you?
Man: Rustonovic Farms (or something like that then some Russian phrase)
Me: Rustonovic Farms?

I repeat the Rustonovic Farms and the phrase several times to remember. I quickly decide this is gibberish and let it go.

Me: I want to talk to the real [Firstname][lastname]

There is silence on the line but I wait. Then...

CL: Hey! How are you?
Me: Hey! What's up,man? This is Mike. You know from the Internet. It's Xanous. (CL begins talking excitedly but I interrupt him.) I want to tell you something. You are dreaming.

I want CL to actually be here so I look over to my right expecting to see him. He's standing right next to me on a cell phone but he doesn't seem to notice that I am here. I look at him while talking.

Me: You are DREAMING. Get it? This is a DREAM.

The light of recognition seems to come into CL's eyes now.

CL: OH WOOOOW! Yeah I am.
Me: Ok good! So here's my code word. It's [code word] Remember that. OK what's mine.
CL: Account numbers.

I realize we started walking together now and notice that we made our way over to the high school parking lot. I look over at CL and he still has the phone to his ear like he is talking to someone else.

Me: Really? Account numbers? That's two words.
CL: [Gibberish]
Me: Ok so account numbers it is.

I realize that CL's voice has gone sort of flat and lifeless. I wonder if he's lost his . I look back over at CL and I see that he is a boy now and we are at my waking life car. I open the door. The dream is getting unstable and my lucidity is starting to slip. CL climbs up into the car and sits in a car seat. I go with the motions and strap him in.

Me: You're not really lucid are you? Are you even [first name]?

The scene goes dark and I find myself in the void. I quickly wake myself to remember the dream.

#185 - Time unknown - DILD

I was going for WILD and I hit weak vibrations two separate times but I was disturbed by my wife the first time and lost concentration the second time.

I am in the yard at the old house in Luling, TX with my bro. There was something going on at the church but I can't remember now. Some man walks up talking to me. I suspect he is drunk so I smell his breath as he talks. He purposely talks heavy so that his breath is available for smelling. He has halitosis up no trace of alcohol. There is some conversation.

I go inside to look at something and close the door. There was a lot of panel glass on the exterior wall and door that should not be there. I turn around and really look at the old house. It has crappy siding but I remember brick. My brother is next to me again and I point and say, "That should be brick. I remember brick." Then gradually realize I am dreaming and remember that last time I wanted to burn the house down. I yell at my brother, "Quick! Light a match!" He instantly produces a lit match and it put it to the house. It goes out for a second but I concentrate on what a lit match looks like and it re-lights. I find a quart of motor oil and pour it on the fire. Then I think what I really need is gas. i look down and see a red plastic gas can. I pour the oil on it and the fire trails. I visualize the fire melting the plastic and watch. Jets of fire come spewing out and spread all over the house. The flames looks strange like some kind of fiery water.

Satisfied, I remember the TOTM. I feel like I am going to wake so I hurry. I look at my bro and quickly step into the fire. I feel the warm like an electric blanket is over me and I watch the fire spread from my legs up to my arms and hands. My brother is just standing there, looking at me dumbly. The dream fades but I don't wake up. I have some FA.
I am looking astronomical data. It feels like archived Kepler data. Someone says to look for some star system called "Xeno" "Xenous" Something like that. The dream morphs and at some point Justing Beiber is making out with me. I am outraged when I figure out what is going on and I call him all sorts of names. Britney Spears shows up talking to me like she knows me. I can smell her perfume. I find her attractive for the first time but I realize how much I don't like her and I sort of pity her. I think it is amazing that I am standing here in a Wal-Mart next to Britney and the Beibs. I become lucid but can't remember anything. I must have woke up or had another FA.

There was some dream about Nix and the feeling or lucidity when I woke up for the morning but I can't remember.

Bluffs - 4:20AM - semi-lucid

I forgot the first part of this dream and I felt semi-lucid

I see a boy of about 10 in a shallow river next to some shallow bluffs. He looks like he is sorting and cleaning small pebbles next to a really large rock (about the size of stock pot) up on a natural rock "trough" in the water. I use my mind to send a wave of water and wash out all the rocks. It even carries the large one way. He mutters something and put the large rock back.

I walk up on a much higher bluff with some unknown person behind me. I want to think that it is NyxCC but I am not sure. I see CanisLucidus and NewArtemis sitting down talking. I already know what CL looks like in waking life and he appears normal. I didn't get NewArtemis' face but I kind of got and idea of her height and build in my mind. We all have a long conversation about lucid dreaming as I am looking out over the bluffs.

The scene is bright and sunny. The area is rocky and dry like Texas in mid summer. The water seems a little too brown. I suddenly see NA jump off the cliff in the corner of my eye. I look around and only see a slight disturbance in the water below. CL says, "That's her experimental exit." I wonder is she just woke herself up or it she went into a different dream. CL continues talking, "She's younger than you. Probably around 26 or 27." Then he goes on talking about how "exceptional a dreamer she is" and how she "just dreams so much". (How thick am I? )

We talk some more and the fourth person stayed quiet but I am aware of his/her presence. I soon wake up.

5:38AM

I am on the computer chatting with CL about my dream. I see the posted some long VM but the words "Go go go win win win" Pop out at me clearly and vividly. Then I look at the time and it is 4:34PM. I feel panic when I realize I never went to work and I'll probably be fired for no-call-no-show. I try to think how I'm going to save my job.

2:08AM - pre WBTB

Vivid dream that I'm upstairs at my parents house. There are worms that look like crimp contacts that we use at work in the carpet. They become like worms and try to burrow into the soles of my feet. I feel pain and pull on off but at that moment on enters my left hand. It's hurts so bad. I try to pull it out but there is suture string attached. I finally comes out with large amounts of clear liquid. I blame my cats and dogs. I tell mom and she says, "So they are hidden above me!" I say, "Yes" and quarantine the animals. I find another womr but its hard to kill it since it's made of metal.

4:52AM - I was either on the verge of lucidity or I lost lucidty. - CL I think this might have been you!

I can run super fast like a vampire. I visualize the entire run in great detail as it happens. It was like I was creating the entire scene in real time on purpose. I meet up with someone I was looking for. There was to be some exchange of something. It's a man that I know. He turns into a Blutbad. I show him I'm a blutbad too. He has a friend eating raw meat. That one is from another world. An alien blutbad.

A separate dream. I am on some pressurized platform in the stratosphere. There are several air locks. A woman destroys governmental targets using the governments own missiles. I want her to take place as a new government but she sends herself into space on a one way journey. I know that she will die after some time. She says that she will get to see all the planets within a week. She reminds me of Donna Noble.

6:25AM - I only recall what I wrote.

The wedding.

The swimmers.