Xanous' Dream Journal

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Edit: There was a almost DILD dream before my WBTB. I am at my ex-in laws house to pick up my daughter. She wont come. I feel so sleepy that I end up on a hidabed trying to sleep. Then I remember that I dream of this sometimes. I think about it some and almost get it but. Instead it was enough make me remember how I dislike these people and I don't want to be here. I go get my daughter from other room and make her come. Pick her up and she starts crying and says she doesn't want to go to my house. The alarm wakes me up.

LUCID Zombie Bite TOTM 4:00AM


I wake up at 3:22AM go to bathroom. Lay back down. I was going to attempt WILD but first I wanted to try VILD. I was so sleepy that forgot VILD so I still dont know how that works all though I did VILD just before falling alseep.

I am not sure what happened here. I think maybe there was a slight SP sensation but I just can't remember for sure.

I found myself just thinking I was having hypnagogic hallucinations. I started visualizing myself in motion. I actually do this a lot with HH to try to stimulate and form a dream. This time it payed off.

I am walking down 20th street in my town in the daytime. I am really close to my house. I take slow deliberate steps. I can hear the my feet crunch and scrape on gravel. I think how vivid this all is. I look at my hands. They look normal for the most part but are hard to focus on. I continue a slow zombie like walk paying attention to every detail while studying my hands. For a while I am not sure If I am in the dream yet. I give it a little longer before I am satisfied.

I stop and look around. I say, "God Damn. I did it. Then I think, "OK now don't get too excited. It's no big deal." The dream is still kind of weak and feels like it is fading. I rub my hands together some and It feels and sounds totally real. I think of the non-sp DEILD I had the other day and this confirms it was in fact a dream. I note that and continue.

I walk onto 20th street it is usually busy. It is getting dark now I see no cars. I jump once just for fun because I was reading flying LDs from DJs before bed. I kind of wanted to just fly but I remember TOTM so I just jump up about 10-20 feet and land hard and solid in road. Now I see cars coming. I think, "OMG I wonder what getting hit by a car would be like in a lucid dream." I step in front of cars. All I can see of the cars is head lights. I hear a faint car horn and Doppler effect as the car gets near me. I am a little surprised when the car just passes right through me. I wonder if I am actually astral projecting myself into the road.I play with this for a while and let several cars pass through me as I cross the street. Every time I get a strange wind sensation that goes through my body. I should mention this whole time the dream is trying to fade and I am really concentrating to notice every visual detail in stabilize. So, I start to feel like I need to hurry to get the TOTM done.

I see a house with an open basement like garage facing the road. This house does not exist here in real life. I remember that expectation is everything in a dream. I so tell myself that there is a zombie in there. I walk toward it. I just can't help it. I call out really loud, "ZOMBIEEES?!" I notice how funny my voice always sounds when I get loud. I become slightly amuzed at this.
I notice that I go back to my slow zombie walk for a while. Maybe because it just because I am thinking of zombies. One more car passes through me and get that odd sensation. The dream shifts a little because and I almost wake up I was not expecting to get hit. I had to really concentrate again to stay in the dream.

Instead of the garage. I ended up in the front yard. I see very large shovel with a shiny blue head on it. It is stuck in to the ground next to a blue wheel barrel. I hurriedly take the shovel because I am still expecting zombies. I hear a zombie growl behind me. I think that it is going to bite me in the neck and I don't want that. I turn around and face it. I cant see detail. Its more like the zombie had a light source behind it and I can't see its face at all but that does not take away from the realism. I can see he was wearing blue jeans and a blue flannel shirt. (whats with the blue?) I quickly decide that what I really wanted was a large, sharp pair of hedge shears. The shovel turns in to just that. I reach up and clip the zombies head off. I hear a loud, wet squishy, gushing sound and his head pops straight up and into the darkness. I watch fascinated as dark blood sprays from its neck. Then I want a shovel again and the shears oblige. The zombie is still walking somehow and I hit it in the chest and it falls over. I see another one now and I with out thinking I stab the end of the shovel into its throat. Then there is a third in my face to my left. I remember that I don't want to kill all the zombies so I drop my shovel.


This is how the Zombies looked but with no hair.
I do kind of puss out here because I am actually creeped out by the zombies. I force myself to relax a little.I hold my right index finger out to the zombie. Still the same with the lighting here but I see it open its putrid and mouth. I see strings of dark matter on its teeth. I tense up as the zombie takes a bite of my finger. There is no pain just pressure. I feel faint and sick and I collapse to the ground. I wake up.

I really should have tried to DEILD just for shits and giggles but I was afraid I would fall non lucid and forget this dream.

EDIT:I forgot to mention that I had several glasses of wine last night. One glass of homemade honey mead. It was strong so I went to homemade red wine. I drank half a bottle of that. It was all stretched over a 4hr period. I became thoroughly sleepy from that and a being slightly sleep deprived from the night before. So there may have been a slight REM rebound here.

With Megan and Angel visiting Tasha. She is living out of town. We all decided to leave. Megan and Angel talk about eating out. My is getting Riley dressed. She puts him in pink and purple outfit. He looks like a girl. I try to talk to my wife about it but there is loud music and we had to yell.

This is not a real dream. This is my visualization for the VILD technique. I thought to write it like a real dream in order to make it more solid in my mind. We shall see how it goes.

I see a door. I open it and walk through. I am in my living room. I hear many people yell "Surpirse!" I see all my family gathered here. There is a giant banner that reads "YOU ARE DREAMING!" I see my wife she says this is your surprise lucid party. I look around at random faces. Each one says, "You Are Dreaming. Do a reality check." I look at the sign again the letters blur and go wavey. There are few missing letters and strange characters. I plug my nose and breath. I say, "Wow, I am dreaming! Thanks everyone!" Now I am fully. lucid.

Repeat

Methods/Aids
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* = Dream signs/cues
Non lucid
Dialog bold

Dead End Road - 2:06AM
Driving down same road as snow dream. Sudden dead end solider support troops concert in a pasture. Turn around pushing cart with TV*. TV keeps falling. some kid keeps begging to use my tv to play game. I carry TV and wife* carries xbox. I tell the kid, "I will punch you in face." I see him and his dad and appologize. Dad is smiling. I say, "I thought kid was much older." I feel ashamed of myself.

Hospital Crowd - 3:44AM - Attempted WILD
Lots of FAs. Hospital waiting for elevator. People crowd me. I want to change my mind and go another way. Lady put her purse in my wheelchair I was pushing. Have to wait. I feel crowded. I see Spenser. I push him and scream, "FUCK, PEOPLE! BACK OFF!" I decide I'm leaving. I go to get my wheelchair and see my empty sugar bag and my wheelchair is now a flat cardboard box.* I storm off pissed and go into a room. I see my wife sleeping. I think that I just woke up or something.* I feel really hot. I turn the air down. The room looks a little off but I don't notice. I think must have had a dream and try to DJ about the crowed hospital*. I see baseball videos vididly on my phone. It looks like the Astros. I see a name. Rodriguez. (Does he play for them?) I try to type it but its all messed up. There are characters on my keyboard that glow like strange symbols.* I stare at it confused. I can't see to focus on my typing.

EDIT: Well I'll be damned. I had no idea. It looks like him too! Rodriguez

My Dead Uncle - 4:37AM DEILD attempt - mantra "Remember Dreamsigns and Dreams"
I am back in the hospital. I have my son, Riley. Mom is holding him. I look back and see my niece, Elizabeth is way younger and really thin.* I feel half asleep and groggy. We sort of wonder around lost. We stumble into a room. I see my deceased Uncle Vernon*. Mom hands him Riley and says here's your grandson (WTF?). We are sitting at a folding table. There are 3 windows in front of me. I stare out the right side window and see a boney rib of a carcass of some long dead beast like a cow in the lawn.* I feel confused about this. I ponder why that would be there.
Mom interrupts my thoughts and asks, "Did you leave the window down quarter way?"
I am confused. I ask, "What? The House? Car? This room? WHAT?"
She laughs and sarcasticly says, "The north side of the dog house."
I keep seeing that carcass outside the window. I think on this again. I feel that there is something I am missing. There was something I wanted to remember. What is it. I must know. The sun starts blinding me from center window. Mom draws Curtains but the sun moves to the left one*. I stare again at the carcass in lawn wondering what it is I am trying to remember. I am on the verge of DILD when baby decides he wants a bottle and I wake up.


PISSED! 5:56AM DEILD attempt - mantra "Remember Dreamsigns and Dreams"
We are at Walmart and I round the corner to see my wife kissing some guy that looks like her ex boyfriend.* I get so pissed at her and start cussing and yelling. She starts acting just like my ex-wife and I lose it. I can't remember what was said but later we continue to shop because I really want to find a halloween costume. We walk and into a mall. I open a door and find a really dark and hot room. There is one light and a ton of button up shirts with vertical stripes. I look them over. I notice that there a lot of noise in here and I can't hear to yell at my wife. I say, "We are probably not supposed to be here."* I am still so pissed of and I want nothing to do with her.
We are getting in the car. My seat belt gets all effed up and wont work right. She tries to help me but I am so pissed that I push her hand away. I get out of the car and find some type of harness on me.* I rip it off and get in the car again. This time it works right. I try to drive out of the parking lot but I see a strange path and try to follow. I cross a bridge. Some adults yell at someone I can't see. I see them flip someone off. Then a little down I see some really young kids do the same. I think how bad that was but don't interfere.
I am now by myself on a 4-Wheeler.* I try to go up a really steep hill. I try to angle it but the 4-Wheeler rolls. I just off and land on my stomach at the bottom unhurt.* I get up and have to rock climb to the top. I have a strong hand and foot sensation here. At the top there is a couch and TV. I sit down. My ex-wife's brother is there and he sits next to me.* I try to ignore him but he excitedly holds out a large phone and says, "Hey you have to watch this funny video!"
BTW my wife would never do that and we never fight like that. That anger actually carried over into waking and I had to apologize for being hateful this morning. LOL.
There were so many dream signs last night I woke a little mad at myself for forgetting after putting so much effort into remembering.

Waking Day Journal, WBTB WILD, DEILD, Autosuggestion

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06:24 AM, Monday 01 October 2012
I am at the mall and I see some boys in a store some out next to a counter. They are being rough and bump each other. The dad scalds them. Then we are outside and they are playing in the dirt. The dad joins them. Then I notice we are all playing in around a giant chocolate cake. It looks like brownies. It was chest high. I take a hand full and taste it. It was dry and little flavor.

02:34 AM, Monday 01 October 2012
Kids trapped in a vortex from Once Upon A Time. Daughter is shrunk in cereal like HISTK. I can hear her voice but not see her.

03:00 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
I am driving in heavy snow on a familiar road in Joplin. I come to a strange intersection and see Wurlnan in front. I don't stop in time and slide past him in to the intersection. I wave at Wurlman as I pass him. I maneuver through on coming traffic and get in the middle without getting hit. I try to follow behind wurlman. I can't remember what car he had I was focused on his face as much as possible. Some I get in front of him. Then there is a sudden avalanche. We are no longer in cars. Its more like a hallway that is pack to the ceiling with snow. I dig through the snow and see the rest of the hallway and a bedroom at the end. I turn around and see that my car is now my mattress in RL. I see Wurlman behind me and I shake his hand. I am happy to meet him. I say, "Hi... a..a....aurth..ur?. I feel confused why I called him Aurthur. I say,"Nice to finally meet you". Some dude that living the house says, "I guess you should stay. The powe can be out for weeks in a storm like this."
I say, "Ooooooh nah man. Shitty. But I don't no what else to do. I look at the matress and doorway and I see that it can barley fit. I walk in the bedroom and I see a matress and box springs with no frame. It has a wild and crazy pattern on the sheets like my wife lounging pants. I see my son lying on the bed crying. I say to everyone, "Well it looks like we woke up my infant son."

07:24 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
Working out in a gym. Strange looking weights. Not matching up. Just want dumb bells.

11:05 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
I am riding my bike really fast. Suddenly the path drops off about 6 feet down. There is a 2 lane road cut through the middle of the hill. I can't stop and think to pull up on my front to land more on my back. I see I'm too high up and will get hurt. I try to turn. I land on solid level ground and lightly flop over on my butt with my bike next to me. I see that I am on the other side and I must have flew over it. I start laughing so hard. "Ha ha... ha ha. I can't believe I just did that. Haha... haha. I Can't wait to tell Krystal at work." I get up and see an old man at a church looking at me. Get back on my bike to show that I am not hurt. (I always have my phone and use an app called endomondo to track my cycling) I look at my phone. This time my app id different. I see points on GPS like google maps markers. One says "OB". I think, "Oh it's OpheliaBlue. She must have been nearby." I think I should go see her at her house but realize she doesn't live anywhere near here. I decide to go into the church to rest. I realize that I am out of breath from riding and should rest after that crazy experience.
Inside the church I see two ministers talking about religion. I can't remember verbatim but they are talking about how they hate 'religionism' being taught. One told the other how at one church someone "ikipikied" him. I laugh to myself. He is talking about speaking in tongues. I think omg they are describing the Pentecostals. I leave and think I want to go to this church later.
I go back outside and see that my back wheel got bent when I landed. The wheel just falls off and I see the rest of the bike falling to peices.


There is something about a woman cop who is a witch. She doesn't know it. She reads minds but in doing so she drains some the essence of people. Another witch is explaining this. We are walking thru a fair. She says, "So many people and they don't know who's coming." I see little boys every where looking at me. They are wearing shades. One has a cup with a open bottom. I have camera and I play with him and growl.

Suddenly I walk through the front door of my house. I see Naomi sitting on the couch. We talk something about a carrier cover for the baby. I say my wife doesn't like that one. I sit on couch next to her but it is odd. Like am slouching and laying down. I see Daisy and she snuggles with her.

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Inductions/aids/factors

So I decided to do the alarm clock thing this morning. I set it for 5:00am and hit snooze for 15 until the next alarm. I did this for about an hour. I was trying to DEILD/WILD but it gave me a DILD instead. That's fine DRY SPELL OVER

I am running in the woods. There are leaves on the ground. I dive head first into a thicket. I turn around and see several Indians in deerskin walking in a small valley. I don't focus on them. I want my bow and arrows. I realize I left them on the others side of the valley. I think maybe one of my daughters will get it for me. No. That's preposterous. So I a say, Screw it." I walk toward the valley and say, "Computer, freeze program." Everything freezes. The Indians the tress the leaves on the ground.After I walk past the Indians, I kept repeating to myself, "Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program." The thought was that if I forgot about them being frozen they would either be gone or unfrozen when I turned around. Something about it feels familiar and I remember freezing time in lucid dreamsThis immediately dawns on me that I am dreaming. It's strange but I felt almost annoyed and cheated. I felt like I botched up the surprise attack on the Indians and now its just some dream. I didn't feel any of the euphoria that I thought I would after a dry spell. I just turn around. I never picked up my bow but I suddenly have an arrow notched and drawn back. I can vividly feel the string and the arrow in my right hand. Now my vision is blurry and I can see the Indian and the brown leaves on the ground but I can't make out any details. I pause. "What was the TOTM?" I have to think really hard. "Was it shrink myself?" No that was last month. Its a new month now. OH Zombies that's right. Where do I find a zombie. I know I will shoot an Indian and when he gets up he will be a zombie and he can bite my arm. I start looking around but the Indians are gone and my vision is so blurry. I try to focus but I just can't. I feel like I am waking so I decide that I better stabilize. I start rubbing my hands together. I feel myself in my bed and my hands feel extremely real. I can even hear my hands rubbing together. I try to open my eyes but It looks all messed up like when you are in SP. I don't feel any vibrations though. I am confused. I feel and heard my hands but not so much my arms. Then I hear my wife say,"Punch em in the mouth." What was that? That can't be real. OR I woke her up some and she is talking in her sleep. Then the Goddamned alarm went off and effed it all up

So I think I could have totally DEILD but the alarm got me. I think I was probably in SP but I wasn't feeling the vibrations. Which is unusual for me BUT I suppose its entirely possible not to since some do and some don't. I wonder if I am changing or if it just is going to be the same every time. BLEH! It feels like as soon as I understand my body it wants to change the rules on me. That's OK I'll adjust. I will be the DEILD master eventually

EDIT:I later found out that she was actually sitting up awake with the baby while this was going on an she told me she said nothing. So it was definitely hallucination.

I think this section will help me remember what works and what doesn't so here I go. Also, I know I try to be a purist and I may have told someone of you that I am going that direction but I think once in awhile aids are helpful and OK.

Aids
I was off today so last night I drank a whole bottle of homemade wine. Don't worry the alcohol content was fairly low or wine... 9%ish?
D3 8000ui - seems to make things more vivid and lighten my mood
Potassuim - 3600mg for restless legs and I seem to have a higher chance for when combined with alcohol lucids when I take a large amount.

I rarely try the above methods. It may or may not have an effect anyway.

Inductions
CALD - I summoned my inmaginary friend from my childhood. Her name is Taffy. The HI continued to turn sexual so I went with random faces telling me that I am dreaming.

WBTB WILD failed

ASILD(Alarm Snooze Induced Lucid Dream. My own name for something I spoke with OB about)
ASILD produced WILD

DILD almost successful but the alarm got me

2:53AM
Uncle
This dream is vauge. I get stuck in some embarrassing time loop where I show up at a rich uncles house in only a t-shirt. He drives by in a white Royals Royce and yells at me to do inside.

Then I am talking to my father-in-law. He wants to go to the uncles house. I say, "yay I can be dressed this time." And I point to my nakedness. As I walk though the bedrooms I thought about wearing a bra of my daughters (They were older) to be funny but decide against it.

My house was a good replica of real life.

5:49AM
Tracker Jackers
I am on the back porch of the old trailor house from when I was 5. I see my father working in the yard. I look that the sky. It is Twilght. Then I see a swarm of colored lights in the sky. I stare in awe. Some are light blue, dark blue, and redish pink. I watch as the swarm around. I see a few bright flashes of light. (Dreamsign strange things in the sky)

I am trying to process all this and perhaps I was about to be lucid but suddenly the swarms comes at me like angry wasps. I turn to run back inside and I hear a commentators voice say, "Oh look, it's Tracker Jackers!"
I think, "No it's Backer Jackers. Tracker Jackers is from Hunger Games."
I feel a force knock my on my stomach from behind. I feel 3 distinct stings on my back.
The commentator says, "He better get those stingers out, fast!"
My vision is blurry and I feel drunk and afraid. I am face down in the grass and I can see my father's feet walking by but not helping me. I some how get up. (maybe he helped me after all) And stumble into the house. I am in some strange living room. I see my ex wife and tell her I need the stingers out.
I notice the blinds are open and I take the time to lower the blinds in a window. (A habit of mine in real life. I just feel like people are watching me.) Then a colapse on the floor. Now the woman in the room is my wife now. But I see her lying naked next to me. I see her flat belly and think about how not to long ago I was in the delivery room with her and watched my son being born. The world transitions to black.
I think I was trying to imitate hallucination.

00:00?
Tidal Flood
I am on the beach. I see the tide coming in. The shoreline gets smaller and continues to shrink. I run past a beach house as the water continues to chase me. It is dark and black and I feel the need to escape. It begins to rain heavily and I take cover in a shelter and wait to see if the water will come closer.

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Non lucid

Yeah so the written journal is a pain. Not happening anymore. It was fun but It looks like a child did it.

Sept 28, 2012

I was competeing in some obstical course. It was more about balance that strenth or speed. The other two guys where in was more shape than me but seemed to struggle. We had a practice run. One guy got 20min. The other 19min. I got 18min. They were surprised and pissed off. I got nervous that I tried too hard because now they will know how to beat me. We have some strange opening cerimony. We carried a load of rocks and scattered gun powder. We light it. I wondered if I would go first. My last starts with a C and thier names where Papove and Ipaonne. I see a gold trophy in an opeining on a wall. I know it will be mine. I tell myself just dont fall and you got it.

Sept 29, 2012 bed time 10PM

10:51PM
Fragment about setting up a board game.

2:50AM
I am walking on a beach. I want to swim but we walk down some more. The sand turns into something like a rubber mat that looks like sand. I can feel the difference on my feet. I tease some girl about it. I see two large pools. On stinks of choline and looks cloudy with a typical blue bottom. One is salty but clear and has coral growing in the bottom. I jump in that one. I swim so fast that I am exhilarated. The deep end is 20ft and I swim to the bottom fast like a fish. I think to hold my breath but just end up just breathing. (dreamsign!) I see my sis and one of her kids. Dad says something about retarded kids. My mom cries. And I feel bad for my nephew and sis.

Then we are in the living room of my parents house. Dad say, "If he knew more about beer he would drink." I leave and wishing he would. Then maybe we would be more chill. I think how he should start brewing then he would learn or even start drinking and he would really learn about beer. I see beer bottles in my car and think that I must have drank them on the way over. I text my wife something.

Now I am driving in heavy traffic and it is going so slow. Some cars are driving on the wrong side.

Now I am standing in a line. Someone calls a few names and they go in front. Then I realize it is a MSSU alumni event and I have no place here. I see I am holding an old cataloge from when I went to college here. I hold it like it is my ticket. I think I might as well try to get free food. I make a plate and realize it is all raw when I see and electric skillet on a table. Someone says it is like HuHot but you have to cook it. I pick a frozen fish off my plate and give it back. I say I cant eat this. I start thinking about where I want to eat out. Some guy is ranting how they were not supposed to serve food like this.

5:47AM
My kids are supposed to go to jury duty. I think about how odd it is but I am excited for them. I think I will be fun.

6:13AM
I have the thought that the first nuclear explosion was "hand made". I look at my hands and I am holding some radioactive red goo in a beaker. I am wearing a lab coat. Then my hands vibrate and emit huge amounts of energy and light. I look up and see tendrils of jet black mist swirl around me and move toward a room full of people. Some young and beautiful woman takes a step towards me with an expression of awe. Then brilliant red energy follows from me. I see the people's skin melt off and dry up and turn to dust. I am still focused on the woman and see her death in vivid detail. It all happened in an instant. Now I can only see her blackened skeleton among every one else in the room. They are left standing like statues in the same pose as before the explosion. Some of them never noticed anything happened. I notice that I am unharmed.

8:40AM

A Sacajawea looking Indian woman is walking. I see an indian man with his trousers down. I point and tell him. He gets them up but his loin cloth is showing and I see his manhood. He does a stupid dance and I just walk away.

There is a soda machine that shoots the cans through a chute into a basketball net. I tell the kids to look. I can hear a loud pnuematic air sound.

I have change my dream journal format. I decided that hand writing and sketching would make it more personal to me. I will upload scanned images but I am not sure for how long.

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Running to get SD card and reader. Follow crowd. Michael Jackson is coming. I snap a picture with a camera on accident and it flashes. Someone tells me, "He said no cameras". They take my camera. I find it odd that they allow other people to take pictures with cell phones. We leave in car. My wife's friend has a place she created. I think it was like mindcraft. She had many with names.

Fragment about ex gf saying " you know what would make me really happy? For u to live w me for 3 years and have a baby" I just look at her like she is crazy and walk off.

SP Monsters
I am running in a swamp temple. But it's not me it look like my Skyrim character with a dragon priest mask on. I perform some task to keep the SP monster away. Canislucidius is there. I touch his avatar but he can't see me. He says he felt like something touched him in SP. There was some mention about DEILD. I light a cigarette. Someone on the forum says that will cause SP (cigarettes). I say I quit about a year ago I just wanted to light it. I take drag but don't inhale. I blow it out of my mouth and smoke in my bedroom. I lay down next to wife and she says good we would have problem if I was smoking again. I felt cured. Maybe because the excitement.

Tornadoes
I am working someplace outside. We know tornadoes are coming. Someone says don't worry its the last ones that get you. I look at the clouds and see a small Torrance rip through a factory down the street. I worry about a friend working there. I vaguely remember going to help and finding severely injured people and lots of blood.

A few dreams were lost trying to DEILD. Stupid dry spell.

There was something about some guy giving a speech but he was a fraud. The real speaker I found outside smoking cigarettes and riding up on a bike. He acted depressed. I urged him to get to the room where the seminar was supposed to be. I told him to hurry because hes late and there was a fake there that was horrible. He just wouldn't hurry and acted like he didn't care. I get the the room and set with everyone else. They kept asking questions but I can't remember what it was. I told them the real speaker is coming and he will know. The guy walks in past some plastic sheets. He looks really nervous and I realize that it is Robert Waggoner. He sits down right in from of a few people and wont look at everyone. I figure it helps him not be nervous its ok. I dont know if he actually talked about lucid dreaming but he suddenly started shaking violently and turned a dark blue color like this

And then pulled out a sword that looked like black fire and killed a bunch of orcs.
then I am looking at some strange board thing with the crustacean that was in the WILD from the other day. I must have woke up after that and was comfortable and still.
I hit SP but got excited and woke up. Fuuuuuu bitch.

(we watched LOTR and I read some of Robert's book before bed)

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Non lucid

I was so hung over this morning I went back to bed after being up for 3 hrs. I decided to attempt WILD. I didn't really care if I got any sleep I just wanted to lay down. I started on my left side. I watched a lot of HI. I have been getting too excited in SP that I wake up. Some people don't have the SP and I have notice before that sometimes I just transition with the HI. Well that doesn't work well for me most of the time but I was trying to tell myself that I could do that and not get excited. So I really focused on the visuals more than the physical sensations.

I picked "get lucid" as my mantra and focused on HI. I hit SP and got way excited I started a lot of inner dialogue. "Oh yes this is it here we go ya omg ah shit" I woke up. I then I got up to pee and went back to bed on my right side and started the WILD again. I basically dropped the mantra and just meditated and watched HI until SP kicked in.

This time I stayed relaxed. Instead of transitioning out of my bed like usual I just visualized but didn't have much clarity of thought. It was more like strong HI. It was something like me looking at a video game and I was trying to move crustations that looked like little grey balls in the water with my mind. I wanted to shrink them but couldn't. I guess I had TOTM on my mind

Then that visual went away and I had a FA. I was so disappointed with my LD that I just rolled over from my left to my right side. I thought about the lucid dream and thought "Well that one sucked" (I didn't catch this until I actually woke up but I wasn't on my left when I started the WILD. I was on my right the whole time!)

So being in the dream still but not knowing it I noticed I still had residual SP vibrations. I thought it was really odd that it came back so fast. I checked by rolling my eyes to the back of my head (Sometimes that makes the vibrations more intense.) I was glad I was in SP and I just relaxed but I think I fell non lucid after that. I don't really remember much after that. There's just a fragment about seeing my dad.

The last time I actually WILD I had a lot of confusion but I my awareness we a lot better. If I wan't hung over I probably would have had it. Oh well, at least I was able to get lucid. I was starting to think that I was in a bit of a dry spell. Plus my hangover is gone! Now that I have more confidence tonight should be a good one as long I don't drink