Xanous' Dream Journal

4:41AM -#151 - Longest SP - WILD

I am counting 1 I am dreaming, 2 I am dreaming, ect. while focusing on my body. Suddenly I am gripped by intense sleep paralysis (NOT REM atonia this time)I hear a demonic cat sound and feel a presence hovering above me. The vibrations are really intense and I cannot move. I feel the entity grab my balls and the vibrations intensify there to the point of mild pain. I try to cry out but the sound is caught in my throat and it sounds like a feeble wheezing. I open my eyes and see swirling black entities like Dementors above me. I am terrified but having been here many times; I force myself to relax and stay calm. I will the entity away. Immediate calm and quite comes over me.

I do my usually getting out of bed. It's dark and I feel really dizzy. I fall backwards into the wall. I feel like I am falling into a bottomless abyss. I see the hole I entered getting farther away.

I find myself back in bed. I can't see at all now. I use my dream hands to pry my dream eyes open. My eyes do open but I can see the bedroom and the red glow of the alarm clock. I close them. I do this several times but feel like its my physical eyes. At one point I feel the ceiling fan drying my eyes out and have to blink. I try getting up again but pretty much the same thing happens again. Then again I get up. I try to phase through a wall but it's solid. I am too frazzled to think clearly. I end up back in bed.

The vibrations are so strong. I decide to wait and focus on the vibrations. I feel like I am lying in an awkward position but I am not hurting so I don't move. I realize too that my head is at the foot of the bed and I can feel the box fan on my face. I don't care. I'm in the zone. I hear my wife ask I am ok. I become annoyed and tell her, "Yes Shhhhhhh!" I wonder how I am talking in SP but just go with it. I consider the probable fact that none of this is really happening. Still, I feel the vibrations and can't really move. I get the feeling that we are in my childhood bedroom in Luling from my teenage years. The lay out just seems to match.

I think I hear my son cry and I hear and feel my wife leave the room. I just lay there in waiting. What seems like a few minutes later she comes back and gets in bed. I realize that now I am back in the right position in bed. My hands are free to move now so I reach over to feel if my wife is there. I grab the ankle of a small child. I hear someone *gasp* so I let go. Was it my son? I was surprised she brought him to bed with us. I shrug it off. I feel like I can really move my hands now. I rub them and feel my face. Super real. BUT I can still feel vibrations. I decide to just wait this one out and let the dream form.

This waiting was a really long time. I think I'm forgetting a few details but it's mostly all there. I start doing things like the Gladius swing, Walking motions, anything repetitive to maybe get something started. Nothing worked. I get really bored so I meditate for a few minutes. Then I visualize being on the beach. I see some really vivid images but its more like flickering photographs. I try to imagine my feet in the sand but its a dull sensation that quickly fades. At some point I start talking to myself. I say something like "Well Shit. Hurry up dream. I am dreaming." I say all this out loud and I wonder if my wife can hear me because it sound ultra real. I begin to think at some point that I am going to be stuck like this forever and never wake up. I think this is my idea of Hell. Then I laugh and say out loud, "Of course it won't. It will change. I just need to stay patient."
After some more waiting and fiddling about in bed I start to hear music. It's Sugar Ray's Fly but instead of "I just want to fly" it is "I just want to dance." The beat and music and vocals are very high quality. I am thankful for some entertainment right now and I feel relieved to have a distraction. I begin to sing along loudly and dance as best I can in bed. I move my arms, head and upper body in rhythm to the music. It begins to feel invigorating and soulful. I enjoy the hell out of it. Soon the words fade and the music begins to wind down like a slow record player.

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Then there is nothing. No physical sensation. No sound. No movement. I just wait a second and the BAM!

I find myself standing in a big open room with no furniture. The room is well lit and there is gray carpet. I look around and say, "OHHHHH WOOOOOW! THAT IS SO COOL!" The layout of the house is off but reminds me of the house we lived in Luling. I can see out the windows as there are no blinds or curtains. I see the front yard but in the distance there is a thick mist. I have a feeling that my brain hasn't finished rendering the dream yet but I feel super stable and confident. I make my way to the front door. At that point I remember how this house was "haunted" in waking life. I imagine a horrible demon coming after me as I close the door but nothing happens.

Now I am outside the lighting is a little worse. The world looks cold and gray. I walk along the front of the house on the sidewalk. I realized that I forgot what my task was. I think for a second that I really should stay inside until the dream gets more stable but I am afraid and really impatient.

I can hear something like cheering and jeering at the nearby football stadium. I feel curious but I have something in mind first. I really want to burn this house down and never visit it again. There are too many bad memories. I see my shadow projected on the side of the house. I see brown wood siding. (Brick in real life) I think that if I can start a fire there is will catch and be gone. I do the clapping motion that I used for the fireworks TOTM. I hear a loud sound of fire like a flame thrower but only see a small flame on my shadow like a cigarette lighter. I try several times but only see and hear the same. Then I hold my hand up still looking at my shadow. I see handcuffs and a chain coming off it. I note this but ignore it for. The crowd at the stadium is jeering loudly now. (Damn I could have turned that into the Colosseum if I thought about it) I tell myself I will investigate in a minute. I really want to get the fire trick down. I focus on the palm of my hand. I see a glowing ball form. I stare at it and focus longer and harder.

Then, I am suddenly awake. NOOOOOOO!

Prebed: Natty Light
Bedtime: 11:30?

4:30AM - Church Politics - NLD

There was something about church politics. An angry mob. I closed the doors to project those inside. They peopled didn't care about me so I did all I could to keep them out. I tried to lock a set of double wooden doors but someone got through. It was my old supervisor. The one I despise to this day.

I wake briefly but go right back in the dream sort of lucid but not really. I just thought of it as a day dream even though it was a full on dream.

I see D running along side one wall. There are rows of pew between us. I run super fast along the tops of the pews and and hulk jump on top of her. I grab her by the hair and slam her into a wall. I wake up.

7:00AM - #149 Vastness and Sensations - WILD

I woke briefly to take care of little man. I felt pretty good so I went for WILD. I focus on my cheek bones and chest with "I am dreaming" as my mantra.

I see a dream form. It's this strange abstract space fight. There are no stars and I am just cruising in the darkness. It's almost video game like. I see a read view of my "ship" It's just this gray saucer section with a cylinder jutting up in the middle. There is little to no detail. Really, it just looks like a hunk of metal. I am controlling it somehow and I shoot reddish yellow phasers at another ship. I come really close to a ship that looks like the starboard bow of some titanic like ship. I wonder if I am really underwater and I think of the actual vastness of the dream scene. The feeling is overwhelming and I go into REM atonia of sorts. At the exact same time as that though process was going on, I realize this is more than hypnagogia and become lucid.

I am in my bed and I all floating and strange. I can hear the alarm clock going off but I know that it is not real as my wife already left for work and I am off today. I tell myself it's not real but wonder if some how its really going off. I tell myself to ignore it since it really doesn't matter right now. I think I want to transition out of my body but I can't this time. For some reason I feel like something has a hold of my feet. My legs are being twisted and pulled upward. I feel myself stretch like taffy. I try to control the sensation and imagine my feet going to the floor but I just can't control it this time. After about a minute of fighting I wake up.

I try to DEILD but don't get anywhere so I record in my DJ and continue WILD

7:29 - #150 - Rastafarian Baby - DILD

I am next to a dry wheat field. I go into it and think we just need rain. Immediately it begins to rain. The tops of the wheat turn bright green and form a roof over me. I see through and opening where I stepped in that it is raining very hard. There are little wheat sprouts coming out of the ground at my feet. I reach out to feel them and as soon as I touch them they begin to grow larger. I leave now because I feel my space is getting crowded.

I enter some old white farm house. (The memory is a little blurry here). I wonder around the house and find my son in two different places. Both times I check on him to make sure he's OK. The third time I find him he is in some crib. I pick him up and he turns into a "Rastafarian Baby". His skin is dark with very long dreadlocks. I become lucid and say, "I am dreaming." I put him down and turn to leave.

Before I can do anything the dream goes dark. I find myself in the void and feel the dream fading. I rub my hands together. It seems to help but not enough so I rub them impossibly fast until I feel heat from friction. My physical presence become ultra real. I touch my face and I wonder if I am really awake.

Then I feel my wife in my arms. I think that since I can't get this thing going I may as well enjoy some lucid sex. I'll leave that part out.

At one point I wonder how much of this I am going to post. Then I suddenly feel that my wife is gone. I feel my crotch and I think that I am just humping the bed in my sleep. I become confused.

I have a false awakening. I find myself on a couch in someone's living room. I see my brother and nephew on a couch across the room. My mother in a recliner to my right. There is a TV to the left. I quickly enter my dream in my DJ. I remember thinking all the way back to the wheat field and running through the whole dream in my mind. Not once do I think this could be false awakening.

I realize there is some loud music coming from behind my left ear. I think there must be a speaker mounted on the wall. My brother tells his son that they need to get going. I feel sad they are leaving so soon and I slept the morning away. Then I think the music will probably wake my wife up soon. I don't worry about it because I want her to come sit with me. At that point she walks in and says something. I get up and go into another room with her. I wake up.

I recalled only one dream and I got to be quick about it. It's been a busy night for us.

3:41AM

My wife, kids, mom and I tresspass in some random persons in-ground swimming pool. We swim a while but then a storm comes and it starts raining really hard. I was going to continue to swim but it starts lightning so we all get out. I try to cover all trace that we were there. I find pool toys and a pair of flip-flops of my daughters in the water. I get out and notice everyone is gone. I am wet and need to change in the car. I see a white minivan that we apparently rode in. I imagine trying to change in the minivan and I see myself trashing around in it. I decide that looks to be no good.

I walk around to the front and see everyone is going in the house. Apparently the owners where home the whole time and they invite us in. I am shocked that they had the nerve to ask. I go inside and there is a small boy staring at me. Then my WBTB alarm wakes me.

3:10AM

I am staying at some friend's house, P and J. For some reason we are moving to Tulsa and I am starting a new job at Olive Garden.

I have an FA and wake from some dream about P owning a grocery store. It's empty and he isn't getting any customers. Some goofy vendors deliver goods on pallet jack and knock over displays. P chases them out. Them I guess it was P and J, they begin to have sex and move into the back of the store. Arnold Schwarzenegger shows up with a cigar in one hand and a ventriloquist dummy in the other. He says something really lame and thinks he's being funny.



I get out of bed and I look back and realize I was cuddled with J on one side while P was on the other. I briefly find this to be odd but run out for embarrassment.

I am in the living room with P and he is talking about starting some management position. He says it's actually lunch time for him and he works only half days. I look at the clock and see is like 6:27AM. I get worried because I was supposed to the at Olive Garden at 7AM. I then realize I have no idea how I got this job or where the restaurant is. I almost get lucid but I am too busy freaking out. I pull out some piece of paper. I see that it is wet in places but I can really read it. (Coincidentally I spilled isopropyl alcohol on some documents today and it looked really similar to my dream.) I put the paper away and pull out my phone to try and Goolge. I hope that there is only one Olive Garden. Then, I get really scared and realize I am not at all qualified for this job. I know nothing about managing a restaurant. I begging to really freak out. I look down at my clothes and see that I am wearing black slacks and a white button up shirt. I think maybe I should just give it up and go job hunting again. I'm sure I can find something. When I wake up I feel disoriented and confused who and where I really am.

I have another dream around 6 that is too private to share and slightly disturbing.

Short and sweet. Not much time to post.

2:44AM

There was a huge toad in a pet store that wore a red ball cap and shades. If you hold a mirror up to him he would break it by staring at it.

5:19AM

My wife and I was in the old castle. There was this funny looking casper like ghost there. I walked around taking pictures and noticed that door turned into a skull. Then the ghost came but the camera flash made him disapear back outside. Every time he attacked we just shined a light at him and he would vanish.

Then the placed turned into a version of our house. My wife and I got ready for bed. I tell my wife that I wished the house was nicer in this alternate reality that we were in.

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Total Sleep: 6hrs
WBTB: No
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Bedtime:11PM

1:53AM

My son, R, can sing super awesome. I am amazed and thrilled. I tell my wife and her sister. M is like, "Yah, so?"

5:01AM

I stole a wade of money from the Wessen in the latest episode of Grimm. They dropped a wade of cash during the bank robbery and I picked it up and ran.

I hide inside some large cone-shaped thing. They lift it up and peek inside. I am able to lift my feet up and they don't bother to look up inside the cone. I escape detection twice.

Then I come out of the cone and it is part of the structure of some huge tent. Some guy wants to tell on me but I offer to buy the tent to make him happy.

"How much is the tent?"
"Uhh... $1000....$2000"
"OK I can do that" I think I must have about $20K cash
"No wait. 6... $7000."
"Fine."

I wake up.

5:38AM - Between snooze alarms.

Monster truck. Yep that's all I got. I should have wrote a little more down this morning.

*Alarm*

I have a hand held healing device. I use it on a wound on my left forearm. I see it suck up red particles from my arm and the infection is gone. Seeing how great that worked, I remove and band-aid full of blood and gore from my wrist and attempt to heal that.


*Alarm*

I am sitting with the Cylon woman from Battlestar Galactica in her red dress. (I have only seen the first handful of episodes and found it boring)



She wants to make out with me but we are in a stadium full of people and I feel modest. I turn my head away from her. She is setting to my right so I turn left.

She points to the men in the crowd and says, "All these men would love to make love to me. That one is thinking about it. That one. That one too. All of them." She moves closer.
"And you have had me many times. Are you ashamed or proud? Kiss me."
I feel flattered and my now inflated ego gets the best of me. I turn to her and we kiss.
She whispers in my ear, "I love you." But I think about my wife, A. I think, "I am married." Then I think how much of a liar she is. I know for a fact that she was with someone the previous night.

But I fear her because I know what she really is. I feel that I have pushed her too far already and don't want to anger her. I automatically say, "I love you too." I feel pain and guilt at this. I tell myself it is only lip service and means nothing.

*Alarm*

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No recall before WBTB though I felt sure I dreamed something

4:15AM

Feeling that I had a long lucid. FA I was on the forum talking about an epic dream and feeling happy with myself.

#147 Blindness and Sensations - 4:42AM - WILD\DEILD Chain

I am passively watching hypnagogia while counting mantra "1. I am dreaming. 2. I am dreaming." ect. Suddenly I notice something that seemed super real. I am holding some small plastic bag. I vividly feel it in my hand. So I pay attention to my body and the vibrations start.

I transition out of bed. The room is dark and I am half blind. I hope that eventually my vision will come to me if I just keep going. I feel drunk and have trouble walking. I stumble into the bedroom door and it feels like a cloth on my face. Instead of trying to struggle with it I decide to phase through. The door resists at first but I relax and focus on the other side verses pushing through. The door seems to pop like a bubble and I am free. The cloth lingers on my face for a few seconds. I can sort of see through the weave in the fabric and see light coming through. I slowly do a 360 and the cloth slides off me.

But now the room is dark and I am totally blind. I stumble to the front door. I have to actually unlock the dead bolt to get out this time. Once on the porch I begin to feel my physical sensations disappear and the dream fading. I really don't want to lick the cement again so I just get on my hands and knees and feel the porch. My knees hit the porch so hard it actually hurts for a second. I let my stomach touch the cement. I keep repeating "I am dreaming" Now, I think I am getting stable. I push up to look around but I still can't see. Really, I just feel like my eyes are closed but I am afraid I will open my real eyes. *Sigh* I should have tried.

I hear a car passing on the street and the road sounds wet. BTW it was raining in the waking world and I didn't know that it at the time. I though the sound was so unbelievably real that I must be sleep walking right now. I begin to worry that this is true and think how ridiculous I must look. I worry what the neighbors will think. The dream fades.

I stay still and wait for DEILD. It doesn't happen right away so I focus on the back of my neck to start the vibrations. Seconds later I am transitioning out of bed again. This time go straight to stabilizing. I press against the bedroom wall and start licking. The orange peel texture feels vivid on my tongue. Then, for some reason I get really excited (Menthol) and start kissing. Suddenly, I feel like I am kissing on a womans neck. I think, "NO!" and push away. The dream suddenly vanishes.

One more time I DEILD. I have to focus on my body again to get the vibrations. This I time I decide to wait it out and see what happens. I never transitioned out, but the physical sensations were much better than making love to a wall.

I seemed to have cycled between sensations repeating each one over and over. First, I felt a surging sensation so intense that it caught my breath. I could see a bright white light as this happened and then feel myself tilt upright to a standing position. All the while the vibrations felt like a strong wind on my body. As this was happening I got the most beautiful feeling of peace and love directed toward me. All I could think was, "I am going to dream about Heaven now."

Then that would fade and felt like I was slowly spinning on my back and levitating up and down.

At one point the cycles broke and I felt like I was sinking down into my bed and through the floor. My first thought was, "Oh God, I'm going to Hell now." Then, "Whatever, It's a dream. If I can just get this thing going I'll be fine with it." I even made a swimming motion downward until I fell like I had traveled a long way. I am still blind so I open my eyes but I see the bedroom. I look around for a long time and realize my eyes are getting dry and I need to blink. I finally close them and the previous cycles continue for a bit.

I don't know the length of time but it didn't seem super long. Maybe 10 min. Maybe less. My son is what woke me up coupled with my wife's snoring. I get back to sleep soon enough.

In the next two lucids the hypnagogia turns into a full dream but not very vivid. The colors are dingy and the physical sensations are dim. I decide to ride these out, flowing with the dreams as they are interesting from the start.


#148 - The Martian War Zone - WILD - 5:10AM

I am on my stomach and I lift my head up to look around. Two soldiers are standing on each side of me. They grab me up by my arms. The one on my left says, "Welcome back." I laugh internally at this and smile at the irony. I follow them to what looks like a mine cart on tracks. For some reason, I hear a super loud motor. As we ride, I try to ask them where we are going but the can't hear me. It looks like we are riding through a narrow rocky path. Soon, the ride stops and we get out. I hear a Star Trooper like voice say, "Maintain radio silence." So I say nothing. As I creep around, I notice how red and Mars like the terrain looks. I see a path leading downward and a small bridge that spans across a dry creek bed. I feel excited and curious now. I realize I am holding some kind of rile in my hands. I feel it more than see it. We walk around a canyon wall. The enemy is set up behind some boulders. I fire my rife and it sounds like phaser fire. But unfortunately, at that instant I wake up.

I wait to DEILD and again the hypnagogia turns into a dream scene. I am standing on some ancient stone staircase with 3 men in long flowing odd looking robes. Their robes are gray with black trim.

I almost wake up again here but I focus. Sort of a mini DEILD.

We are now standing at the top of the stairs. It's a platform that overlooks an enormous amphitheater. There are millions of people below. The man on my left is standing at a large microphone with with a large golden or brass ring around it. The diameter is probably about 18in. He begins to speak and the words sound very alien and a little like Russian. I laugh to myself as I have no idea what is going on. I wake up.

I try to continue WILD/DEILD but I lose focus now and fall into non lucid sleep for a little while. Did my REM cycle end?

#149 - I Meet My Doppelganer - 5:45AM - DILD

I am with my wife in some adult play land. There is this big thing we are on and its seems really abstract. I push this seat thing along a bar and it breaks off and falls below. There is some strange inflatable thing below with arms that reach to were we are. I jump on one and slide down to the bottom. I see the broke seat thing and the casters that feel off it. I randomly pick up a football. I notice how real it feels in my hands and that triggers lucidity. I look at my wife and say, "So, this is a lucid but it's not." I feel confused why I would say "it's not" but before I can reason this out, I see that my wife is now my double. I say, "Oh you're me!" My double just raises his eyebrows and makes a face like I am just joking around. He waves me on. I'm not buying whatever he's trying to say. I am really intrigued. It is almost like looking to a mirror but not. The feeling was so odd. I probe him some more and ask, "What are you thinking?" But before I can get any response I wake up.


6:58AM NLD

I have a FA but feel as if I was lucid before. I can't remember it, however. I get up an get in the shower. The odd thing is that instead of there being a shower in the bathroom, the bathroom is one big shower with gray stone for wall and floor tiles. I begin washing my hair in the water and notice that I have a full on arousal and I am abnormally huge. I try to ignore it but can't help to want to relive myself. I look around and see that I left the bathroom door open and worry that someone will see so I refrain. Then I wake up.

I remember another dream where I am an animal. I cheat on my dachshund wife and have babies with some other species of animal. One of the babies looks like a raccoon.

8:08AM NLD

Me, Wade, and Quinn, (The characters from Sliders) are half buried by some people. Our heads are exposed but they planted sweet peas on us. We were to be the fertilizer. Someone (I suspect it was the Professor and the Crying Man) get us out. We run away in the the cold winter night.

There are some cardboard boxes that are made to fit each one of us. One is on a picnic table and Wade jumps in it and barrel rolls off, landing smoothly on a road. The road is covered in a thick layer of snow and ice. Wade and Quinn both sled away in cardboard boxes. The road is hilly and it turns into a fast roller coaster like ride.

I check out of the story here and wander off into the woods alone armed with a crossbow. The other two vanish from memory. I hear a deep and mysterious voice say something like "The lonely hunter wanders off alone because that's what the lonely hunter does."

The scene switches back to Wade and Quinn. They come to a huge barbed wire fence with signs posted all over a gate. One part looks hand written with cardboard and marker. It says something like:

NO Ghostly Apparitions.
NO Werewolves
NO Mosters

But I took it to mean that these things are inside there.

The more official sign read:

ROAD CLOSED
This state is comprised of
80 people
DO NOT ENTER

I hear cars passing and Quinn points to another road. There is a normal "road closed" barrier but cars seems to me passing right through it like ghosts. Quinn says, "There is another road right there!" I feel like a part of the story again and I really feel like we need to enter the barbed wire area but I am also afraid of the bad guys catching up to us and think the other way will be quicker. I feel really indecisive. I wake up.

I try to reenter the same dream via DEILD. I see the sign with blue lettering clearly. This time is says there are 85 people. I focus on that but my son wakes me up again.

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Crazy Teens - 12:38AM - NLD
I am in a rich neighborhood with a bunch of teenagers running around wild and partying. I see a bunch of jocks in blue letterman jackets passed out drunk in a driveway in the middle of the day. I see girls in skimpy swim-wear running around. The street become a river and I float down it. Instead of riding in a boat I am pushing it. The boat looks a lot like the back of a car. I see some guy making sidewalk art with chalk on top of the water/street. It looks solid until I pass through it. I hear him yelling some obscenity at me.

I reach a bank/curb and get out of the street/water. I look down an embankment and see a giant cake thing that looks like a pile of shit. Some half naked girls run past me and jump in it so I follow. Someone picks up a brown twizzler and calls it shit rope.

There is a strange gold and glass building near by. Part of the side is missing. Some kind of metallic floating orb reflects sunlight in my face and zooms off into the building. I feel compelled to follow but it feels like a trap.

Creepy Toddler - Some time before previous dream - NLD Fragment

There is a creepy yet super strong toddler. It kills an infant by ripping it apart like a toy doll. I carefully scold the child. I am very frightened of making it too mad. We play together with some toy and a mic. I know some woman is listened on the other end so I unplug it.

Disconnected 3:34AM - DILD

Matte87 and I are playing some strange game with a bunch of young women. We all disconnect our major body parts and put them in a pile. Then we some how race to put our self back together with the correct parts. Arms,legs, and torsos get mixed in a pile. I see a man (Matte87?) with lady legs and/or arms. I remember the strange sensation of popping a leg off myself. I feel it pop loose deep at the joint and make a finger-in-cheek popping sound. I tell Matte87 how strange this all is. I am reminded of the OCT TOTM were we have to take our own heads off. I almost become lucid at that point but don't quite get there.

Afterward, we all go to a room in some cabin and sit down on couches. For some reason I peek out the front door. I see 3 boys walking along and I whistle to them just to mess with them a bit. They think I am calling them over and walk toward the house. I close the door and tell the others about it. I guess they know the boy and find them annoying. Everyone moans about it.

Now I am with my wife. I see my dead grandparents. I instantly know that I am dreaming. There was no excitement about it and I almost didn't care. Instead taking control I just decided to let the dream play out. (I had decided before hand that I didn't want any lucid goals but I did want to play with the environment. I guess I forgot the second part of that.) Nanny comes close and starts to cry when she sees me. She wasn't upset; just happy to see me. I don't feel any strong emotion about this. I realize I have been eating lime tortillas. I remember the taste though I can't remember when I took a bite. I look down and see a few in my hand. I offer Nanny one but she waves me away. Pawpaw says something to me. Something like, "What? No... (blah blah blah)?"
I look at him and reply, "What? No weird dreams for me?" I am thinking about a dream I had a few days ago where he was sitting at the QC station singing a silly song to me. Pawpaw just laughs at this and I wake up seconds before my WBTB alarm.

Caffeine 100MG Fail

I just remember a few fragments later in the day.

Fragment #1 - Time? - NLD

Someone asked me when I got my tattoo. I look at my tattoo on my arm and say, "What? This? I've always had it.

Fragment #2 - Time? - NLD

I am working for P again. She seems to be fun now and less severe. I see her laughing and joking with employees. I look across the building I see B and exaggerate excitement and wave at him. Though I am kidding I realize I missed talking to him.

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Fragment #1 - 11:24PM

Cartoon Doctor Who in a minecraft field

Mixed Up 3:02am

There are two of my mother-in-laws. One is an impostor. They look very similar but one has an obvious give away. They try to convince my wife that they are both real but she doesn't believe them. They get me to play along. I feel like a liar.
My wife is in college. We are there with her. I see my ex-wife's Aunt V and her family but they are holograms being played in a loop in a fake house like some bad play. My dead grandmother is telling my wife, A, she needs to go to bed for school in the morning. I think I may as well go home. It's a 2 hour drive.

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Many disruptions from baby.
Tired MILD then went to WILD. Almost there. Woken up many times.
Tried DEILD. Recall suffered.

Fragment #2 5:37AM

Using the neighbors trash can outside. Somehow our houses are connected and open to each other on the inside. There is an open wall to a bedroom. The old cabinet TV my parents used to own is blocking the entrance. I see an actual doorway around the corner.

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The non-lucids from last night.

Minecraft - 12:04AM

I only remember a fragment. I am walking in a green field that looks like minecraft while reading about dream recall on the forums.

Artichoke Noodles - 2:46AM

My wife and I are getting married but without any ceremony. Just the preacher. I start eating a bowl of stir fried noodles with artichoke hearts in it. (I have no idea what that would taste like) I see some artsy lettering on a door that reads Mr. "my last name", "my first name". My wifes sister is going on about it. When I read it out loud it sounds funny and wrong.

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Prebed: 2MG Melatonin
Bedtime: 10:45PM
WBTB: 2:46AM / 20MIN + 20-30min insomnia,
6 tablespoons peppermint leaves @ 3:10AM


MILD
wakefulness
WILD fail
DILD

Taken? 4:57AM - DILD

I am in some "country" hospital that looks more like a house converted. Or a doctors office. I am with my wife and son for some reason. There is some woman in the same room delivering a baby. The room reminds me of a kitchen area and I am standing next to a built in "island". The woman seems to be propped up on the counter top. There is a bloody mess coming from her and her really young and nervous doctors is saying something about getting the tongs. The woman giving birth becomes very anxious and scared. I think this is going to end badly.

I try to be respectful and not look at the woman like a freak show. I see puddles of blood and gore on the floor. Some little girl that I assume it is the daughter of the woman picks up bloody paper towels off the floor. I become alarmed at that but her father makes her stop before I can react.

Later, I can't seem to find my wife or son. I go room to room. The house is like a maze. Pause at some doors in a hallway. I think they could at least put some room numbers on the doors. I don't know if I have been here already or not. I see the woman who was in delivery with her newborn son, husband and daughter. They are crouched on the floor next to a pallet. There are no beds. I notice the hospital is sparsely furnished. I ask them if they have seen my wife and son. The man shakes his head no. I become frantic and keep looking. I become suspicious and go back to the man. I mostly want to get a better look at the baby. From a distance he looks older and resembles my own son. I look closer and think they are hiding his face on purpose. He slithers all around under a pillow, in a blanket and then in the womans long black hair. Finally, I get a clear view of his face and decide it isn't my son after all. I ask the man once more if he has seen them. He tells me they left.

I feel panic and decide to find them. I feel like something is terribly wrong. Suddenly, I am in my car. For some reason I think they left in my brother's car. I try to think what car he was driving and get a vision of a black Nissan Altima.

I peel out and go to direction I think they went. I drive incredibly fast. I see a white sporty car passing and coming my wat. I flash my lights at him and it get back over before we collide. I start noticing how odd the car sounds and how blurry my far away vision is. I feel my foot has the gas petal all the way down. I see a slow semi and a motorcycle in front of me. I don't want to slow down but feel I have to.

Then I suddenly become lucid and relax a bit. I go to pass but see on coming traffic. I think to just plow through them for fun but decided they should veer off instead. The cars do just that. I notice one is a white Ford Ranger.

Now I have a clear road. I see pasture and country side. I pass a mail box on my right and reach out and slap it. Its spins like a top and I drive on. There is some daycare looking place on my left with huge playground equipment. I wonder what my lucid tasks are but I feel bound to the car and can't think of a way to change the scene without destabilizing. I decide that I am truly curious about the dream and want to continue the story line. The idea comes to me that I have no way to find my wife and son. Suddenly I see glowing yellow wispy tire tracks pointing the way. I start to doubt this and it vanishes. I think maybe I want to drive off and embankment into a valley. I see a small cemetery down there and change my mind.

Now all excitement is gone and I feel really bored. I try to just enjoy the country side. A car ride with no rules is always the best. But I lose focus really quickly and I suddenly wake up.

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Prebed: 15MG Melatonin, 300MG B6, 32 oz. Light Beer
Bedtime:10:45PM
WBTB: 3:00AM/Brief, 125MG Caffeine Pill

I have been really lazy with my DJ. It seems that keeping an off line private non-lucid DJ is less motivating than an online public one. I guess I am going to try to make a bigger effort to post non-lucids from here on out. It really seems to boost my recall.

No recall prior to WBTB. A few fragments after alarm.

Fragment #1: I vividly recall folding a green table cloth on the floor. I struggle with it.
Fragment #2: Lost needing directions. Looking for the "bar strip". Overhead digital map. Someone points out a loop the resembles Branson, MO.

Ball Lightning - 3:59AM - MILD fail

have an extremely vivid visual dream about an approaching storm. I am trying to park my car but the brakes and transmission wont cooperate. The other cars keep getting in the way. It takes a long time to finally get parked. I see the approaching storm. I wanted to watch lightning so I waited. I can't hear anything because my wife is next to my talking really loud and the radio is turned up. I sort of rudely tell her to be quite and listen. This brilliant ball of lightning appears in the sky and dances around all crazy. It turns into may symbols and geometric shapes. The light is almost blinding but I feel no pain in my eyes. I get extremely excited and try to get the DCs standing around to look but they seem disinterested. Then, the lighting turns into an advertisement. It clearly makes the word SKECHERS then SYNERGY. I lose my excitement as I soon realize its just a high tech holographic billboard. I say to myself, "That's a little disappointing but still really cool." I wake up. I have been asleep 60min.

BTW, I Googled "skechers synergy" and found out there is a womens training shoe by that name.

Liquid Movie 5:22AM

M my sister-in-law has a "liquid movie" in what looks like a soda bottle. Apparently the liquid contains data that you can pour it out in to some device and watch a movie that way. Really it just looks like a bottle of Diet Dr. Pepper. I notice she has the words "4th watch" written on the side in marker. I take it to mean she has watched it 4 times. For some reason I think is it a movie with Fred Astaire. His face come to my mind. I see this exact picture in my dream.

The funny thing is I had to Google to even know if this was a real name or not.
Another example of locked away memory being accessed in dream time.

I'm A Cop 5:29AM

I pull up to an area under a bridge that is crowded with parked cars. My cop car looks really 1950's-ish. I get on a loud speaker and say, "I know like a nice..Ppp. fishing poles." I realized I messed up and correct myself pronouncing my words carefully. "I know you like a nice place to fish but this is private property. Leave now and you won't be arrested."

People scatter and complain but most do as asked. I am relieved because am with a rookie and I don't think we can handle all the people.

Suddenly, I am on foot looking for a few that didn't listen. I follow my partner to the water but he seems to have disappeared.

I get thoughts of needing a K-9. Then I associate that with Reno 911.

I see Deputy Travis Junior find some weed with his K9 and we decide that we are just going to smoke it.

Then I turn around and I am in my house. I see Auron is playing some FPS on XBOX Live. He is talking a lot of trash to the other players

We Left Him 6:31Am

I am down town with my wife there is some parade starting. It turns out to be a Thanksgiving Day parade. I get confused because this is march. I say to my wife, "Shouldn't this be a St. Patrick's Day parade?"

Before she answers I realize my son is missing. I become frantic as I realize we left him in a restaurant. We hurry back and I see he is not were we left him. I run to the restroom and see that he is sitting in a urinal. There is a boy of about 5 in a urinal next to him. I ask him who did this and he tells me it was his dad. I sense his dad is in a stall. I start to confront him but realize I am at fault for leaving my son alone. I take him out and see that he is covered in dark shit.

I try clean him but its like tar and hard to remove. Even the wet wipes leave a sticky white residue. I am now in my bed with him and I start to worry that the shit will get on the blankets.

Past People 7:50AM

I am sitting in an area in Wal-Mart with a bunch of my ex-wife's old friends that she worked with at Olive Garden. I feel awkward that I am hagging out with them now that we are divorced. I notice that we are all in Halloween costumes. We seem to be waiting for L. There was some talk about how shes had it rough lately and I truly feel bad for her. Suddenly I see Ice-T next to me. He is wearing something in all black. He gives me a severe look and I feel nervous. I think that he and L had a past romance. Then, he nods approvingly at me. I nod back, smile and feel at ease.

I continue to sit next to Ice-T and wait looking for L to show. For some reason I keep looking at a spot in the floor and wonder why there is not a pool of water there.

As I am sitting and thinking I remember my ex girlfriend. In the dream we are still dating. I think how it's been a really long time since I talked to her and maybe I should text her. I have a book in my hand that is supposed to be Facebook. I flip the pages but can't find her as a friend contact.

Then my wife shows up and I think of her as my fiancée. I wonder what kind of creep I am to have a fiancée and a girlfriend at the same time. I close the facebook book and try to hide the fact that I was trying to talk to my ex gf. My wife doesn't know who she is and is really trying to help me figure out the problem. I dismiss the idea until she gives up.

I am now on a bench with some old men. We are talking about how we sound like the grumpy old men from the Muppets and laugh.


I look at my wife who is next to me but she has turned into an old man with a gray beard. I feel really sick and wonder how I am married to an old man. I wake up relieved to see my very beautiful and feminine wife lying next to me!

Fragment #4 8:05AM

I am in the middle of vivid tactile sex with my wife when someone comes into the bed room. I think it must be one of my daughters and we hide.

The later part of the morning I was still under the influence of my mugwort/peppermint tea combo.

I have a FA in some bedroom. It is dark. I hear my son crying. My wife asks me to get him. I get out of bed in a daze.

I am driving in a car across town. My wrist watch beeps it hourly chime. I think I missed my prospective memory alarm. Before I can think to do a nose plug I become confused. I ask myself when I started wearing a wrist watch. I try to think back but can't remember. While I contemplate this I can vividly feel the weight and pressure of it on my arm as I make a turn. I am close to being lucid when I suddenly realize that I was supposed to get my son! I panic and turn the car around and go back.

I am now in some work place. I don't work here and I find it hard to get anyone to let me in the back. I take a wheeled trash can and pretend to be a janitor. I push it into the back hallway. The real janitor stops me and says not to go back there. I tell her I need to take the trash out. She tells me that is her job. I say ok fine but I am still going back here. She doesn't try to stop me.

I wonder around a cubicle area then what looks like a dentist office. I can hear my son and follow his sounds into a dark back room. I see him standing in a play pen. I am amazed that he is walking and urge him to walk to me. He takes a few steps and I pick him up. I take a picture of him to post to Instagram. I add some #hashtags and then try to forward it to my wife. Its not working right so I just decide to tell her. Then I get a strange text from my mom. It is an easter invitation. She asks me if we are coming over to eat Easter Sunday. I have no idea how to answer her so I ignore it. I pass my sister and her husband on the way out and assume he stayed with them for the night.

When I get back to the room my wife is gone and I am not longer holding my son. B, my wifes cousin, is there but she has blond hair. I notice but say nothing. I sit down on my bed and she starts complaining about getting in the shower. She tells me my wife is taking forever in there. Suddenly her hair looks wet. I tell her this. She shrugs me off. I tell her I'm needing one too. I look at my wrist watch (wtf) and its past 8. I think at this rate we will all be late.

The alarm wakes me.

*Snooze*

My cousin and his wife are talking. She is pregnant and crying about the baby. She is worried about it for some reason. For some reason I think they are coming to live with us soon.

*Snooze*

I am making out with my wife. The tactile sensation is high. I notice that she feels different so how. I am reminded of someone else from my past. I pull back to see her face. It looks like my wife for sure. I continue. Things get heated up when the alarm wakes me for the final time.

I simmered 5 Tablespoons each of mugwort and peppermint leaves in 3 cups water for 20 minutes before bed so it would be ready to go when I woke for WBTB

Dose time: 3:30ishAM

MILD

My daughter, D, is watching me edit a photo on my laptop. The picture is blurry but it soon clears up. It is a close up action shot of my non cartoon self having sex with either Elektra Ovirowa or Faye Valentine from Cowboy Bebop. It's hard to tell because it was a close up vag shot! I become horrified and tell D not to look. I have to cover her eyes while I struggle to shut the comp down. Nothing will respond. Finally I just close the lid.


I have a micro awakening and realize that I see a lot of HI. I think I should WILD but really want MILD to work. I see a post on the forum with the title: YOU SHOULD WILD WITH MUGWORT. I look closer but the letters look Russian now. I click on the link.

Cowboy Bepop DEILD - Wake time: a little after 5AM

I have another micro awakening and decide maybe I should take my own advice. I DEILD into a Cowboy Bebop dream. I am running in a cartoon world from Vincent and Elektra Ovirowa. The landscape and animation reminds me of Borderlands. I see a tunnel and crawl into it. Now, I am trapped so I turn and wait with a drawn pistol. I see her shadow peering in with a gun. I shoot. I get a brief visual of a head shot but it's like a clip from the movie when the idiot dude gets shot in the head on the train.

I lose focus and can't think of what to do next. The dream sort of hiccups and my subC continues non lucid.

I am on a contact device like one of the computers used in the movie. It has a highly graphical touch screen. I tell the kid to get Faye Valentine to pick me up. Then, for some reason, I throw the device on top of a cliff.

Suddenly, Vincent emerges from the shadows and stands over me. He is smirking.



I see a circular symbol and words above him like video game stats.
LVL 12 PLAYER
MAROONED
NO WEAPON

I know we must now race to reach the extraction point. It is where I threw the device on top of the cliff. The first one there wins. I think of a cave system that I ran through earlier to reach the top faster. (False Memory?) I see it in my mind and I run that direction.

My perspective switches and I see a strange bird flying to the extraction point at high speed. It is a cross of these two birds from Rescuers Down Under


My son wakes me up.

I went to bed still sick last night about 9:30PM and slept like a corpse. Though I think I over my sickness, my mom is our babysitter and the evil sickness stuck her so I took another day off. The only recall I remember is when my son woke at 5:23AM. My wife has no choice but to go to work today so I did the honors. It actually turned out to be a pretty good WBTB for me. It took about 30min for him to take a bottle and go back to sleep. I spent a little time on the forum with my GP and then thought about my lucid goals. I went back to sleep with the MILD technique.


First the non-lucid fragments
5:23Am
I am in a some public restroom. I think I am at work. I my buddy I work with C in there. For some reason I think it's the women's restroom. M the janitor comes in and fixes some spout under the sink. I fill my water bottle. There are now urinals in there. C goes pee. I see another spout at the doorway and shoot it to an empty urinal for fun.

I am holding hands with D my daughter. We are sitting in a lush green grass spot. I feel like we are behind Ozark Christian College. I feel a little awkward holding her hand and wonder what that must look like and let go. I see a well traveled path in the grass that leads to a big boulder. I looks typical for this area. There are some nice ledges on the rock and it look like easy climbing. I point and we head that direction. D goes up first but suddenly there are thorny vines and she gets her legs tangled and falls. I catch her and pick out the thorns. I notice that some how I have a thorn in my left butt check and pull it out an look at it. I realize I am wear those white and gray polyester shorts I have.

I Have The Cleanest Floors 6:45AM MILD

I have a FA. I am lying in bed on my stomach. The room is brightly lit from the morning sun. I wonder why I am lying like this. I never sleep on my stomach. I feel fitful and uncomfortable. I notice also I am on the right side of the bed and not the left. I suspect I am dreaming now. I see some mirror to the right of the bed and decide that I want to see how I look. I move closer to look but I have no reflection.

I decide to just get up. When I do everything goes dark and the dream starts to fade. Some what reluctantly, I go to the floor and start licking the hardwood. The room brightens and the dream stabilizes. I army crawl to the bedroom door and pull it open from underneath. I suddenly skip ahead to the next room.

I try to stand up but the room goes dark and dream starts fading. I go back to licking the floor. The room brightens and the dream stabilizes. I think about making fire in my hands. I stop licking but stay on the floor. First I try making a motion like I am flicking a Bic. I expect to at least see a spark but nothing. Then I look at my right palm and focus energy there. I begin to see a tiny ball of light forming. Suddenly my hand splits into two hands with monster claws rather than fingers. That startles me some so I stop trying.

I move on army crawling and licking the hardwood. I focus on the feeling on my bare stomach. I reach the kitchen but don't even know why I went that way. I decide to go out the front door so I turn around. I try standing up but again I am forced to lick and crawl.

I decide this dream sucks so purposefully let my grasp of the dream slip. Just by my relaxing, I begin to see a new dream form. Abraham Lincoln is in my living room. There is a chalkboard and it looks like Abe is teaching a lesson to some robotic looking humanoid. I am not sure I didn't focus enough on it.

Then the dream fades to a brief FA and I wake for real.I don't remember the FA now but it only lasted on a second or two.