Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I added in spoiler tags and a warning for Crashyy's post and tommo's reply.

That video is really disturbing.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

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Let's be honest here, Suena.

This is an example of what it's like to indulge yourself into what you feel is the practical thing to do to escape guilt based on the stalemate of believing that whether or not you get what you want, that you'll suffer.

You know that right now, it's just surging in your body that this feels right, that escaping this all will make everything better. Ironically though, you know that this is will make you suffer mentally, physically, emotionally, and much more.
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Lead your way into knowing first what you do want through rational, managed speculation before you get the answer of what you want.

Preferences are always changing, which means what you want is changing constantly as well. And that's not a bad thing at all, it's natural.

If you figure out the details on what you don't want, you can gradually shift yourself to what you DO want.

Try to find things that cause you to feel envy.

The moment you see happiness and getting what you want as an evolving and invariable goal, instead on focusing just on a short term basis, you can set yourself up on the right stepping stone.

Finding what you want should not be based on purpose (trying to create the "how"), because if you can't fulfill it, again, you'll be shifting back into that stalemate again.

If you follow through on what you really want (and I know you said you don't have time to plan things out, but maybe you should plan on what's actually preventing you to actually plan them out), you're in a much better condition in development instead of being at a stalemate.
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Again, you shouldn't question the "how." Your family is the means and method for stability. Don't see them as people who HAVE to do it, or else all sense of feeling humanized is gone.

Don't question the "how," it's given to you, TAKE advantage of it!

It's just the feeling you're short on time, because of school, the child, and other difficulties you've had that makes it look like it's impossible. You can shift yourself into finding some time for yourself.

If you just spend maybe 10-15 minutes writing out what you want with your non-dominant hand, and just let yourself write down whatever it is, even if it may be absurd, you have something to work on.

By that logic, seeing things that come out without you analyzing it (because you're not used to trying with the non-dominant writing hand obviously), and potentially suppressing it through a mental filter, you can really see what's going on in your mind.

(If you're ambidextrous, just try to not stop what's coming out )

But really, if you even have to, set a timer for 10-15 minutes, but don't feel rushed, just do the best you can do, you'll see how quick the responses will come.

Keep writing as much as you can within that time. If you find yourself short of time to analyze after making the list, keep it in a safe place, and don't throw it away.

I'm sure you can find 10-15 more minutes later on to go back on what you read, and ask yourself, why do you want these things. Come back to this with a clear mind, just temporarily focus on being neutral. By that, not letting yourself purge out your emotions, and not letting them overwhelm you.

Go through each desire you've made one by one, and try to explain why you want this.


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Your mind is only considered a predicament if you question the "HOW" in what it does to resolve things. Let's say you want love......

If you start declaring to yourself and make yourself liable "HOW" that love should be sublimated and/or received (presuming it can only be expressed through your child or a specific person), you are limiting your mind from the potentials that contributes to its desire for consistency.

Challenging that consistency, challenging its attempt for cohesion is the predicament.
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That level of distrust from your mind, it obviously causes a clash of emotions.

Again, maybe I'm not right in this, but those things that you want, where you feel you'll still suffer, try this.

It may seem obvious, but try to make happiness your main goal that will continue to evolve as your preferences change.

By letting your mind work around that, and not questioning the "How" (because again, that causes the predicament), you are expanding the options, you are expanding the potential.

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If you want to take it even further, your mind is not the enemy, it's only you inviting the emotions that it is which is causing the stalemates to happen, causing those earnest feelings of abandoning everything to occur.

Your subconscious is keeping you breathing, keeping your heart beating, it does it's best to never fail. And you are responsible in finding how to sustain its desire (but you don't have to question the "How" in its means of doing those biological functions; I know I'm kind of sentimentalizing it a bit).

I know that's obvious, but when it comes to questioning that your mind is a predicament, I believe it's an important concept, no matter how obvious it is.

Again, you can spend 10-15 minutes writing with your non-dominant hand (and don't try to erase what's coming out from your mind), on what makes you envious, or feeling negative.

Envy is honestly a strong factor in what it is you really want, at least, in my opinion.

(And you'll realize that it's overall to feel happy, except you're seeing the "how" in the reasoning why that person has something you want).

The "how" is the important factor here. This should be an inspiration on letting your subconscious/mind focus on the how instead of you labeling how things have to be this way to get the feeling fulfilling whatever it is that you want.





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Rant: FUCK, U.S. History Exam tomorrow, I can't make a review, so I'm just going to print out the notes and recite them over and over again with my voice instead of relying on just visualization.

Organic Chemistry Exam next Thursday, and the professor setting the conviction that if people who didn't do so well on the first two exams will most likely do worse for this one is making me scared.

I know I can handle it, and calm down, and just go concept by concept. I just need to calm down.

I seem like a hypocrite posting this rant after the suggestion above. Ugh. I'm a human being, I'm sorry. >.<

Double Edit:

There's a girl that's worried about sleep paralysis, and her misguided friends are making it WORSE for her. I feel that if I step in, she'll just do the pretentious "ooooh thank you............." *walks away* and probably will feel that I'm crazy.

UGH, whatever.

I love Link's long posts. Such a considerate man.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Stay safe, LightofHeaven. (As well as your sis, Tommo, lol and anyone else in a storms path.)

Thank you

Widespread power cut today. As expected we cannot cook anything. I've had nothing but Spam and canned sweetcorn all day.

My sociology teacher should seriously find a new job. She sucks as an online instructor. I just barely made my quiz and one discussion post before she took it offline, even though the due date isn't until three days from now. I bet half the class is going to be pissed, because it was only me and one other person who had made their weekly reply to the discussion question. Two errors in a month. I swear to god if she pulls some stupid shit out of her ass for this, I don't know. I'd say that I would drop the course, but I'm kind of at the point of no return and I still have an A but... jesus, woman. Surely it isn't that difficult to run this piece.

OK. Maybe this isn't HER fault again. Maybe she will blame ANGEL systems for screwing up, but still... twice now. Teaching online classes must be as much bullshit as taking them. Yes, I admit, I feel like I'm cheating the system by taking majority of my courses online, but damn... I'm beginning to think these teachers have it too easy. They let the program do all of the grading, and, it looks to me as if she doesn't even check the fucking thing until the discussions are due at the end of the week. Yet, her students are required to log in multiple times throughout the week in order to maintain their grade.

If I wasn't about to give birth and be caring for a newborn plus my toddler, I'd enroll in all of my classes on-campus next semester to avoid all of this nonsense online crap. OH well. Can't wait to be done with this community college, ready to get a job that has NOTHING to do with my plans for the future. yay. Maybe college really is a waste of time anyway. However, if I hadn't taken classes, I still wouldn't have been able to hold a job in my current state and I would be pulling my hair out of boredom, watching netflix and eating popcorn and wasting away.

At least I can say I'm in the normal weight gain for my pregnancy. That is an advantage to having something other than food to preoccupy my mind and ever growing belly (I wanted to type bubble for some reason). wow, this rant.

OH and Link. I truly appreciate your advice. I tried writing it out, surprised that my non-dominant hand-writing wasn't as atrocious as I had figured it would be. I wanted to google where you were going with this non-dominant hand stuff and found some interesting "benefits" to using it. It can be really hard to quiet my overactive mind and just freely express myself without editing and worrying about the how, as you put it. I had never considered that by writing with this hand, I'd be able to let my subconscious direct my thoughts. Unfortunately, it takes me mucho concentration to write with my left hand, lol.

Anyway, thank you. I know this isn't sufficient response, but truly my mind is beat at the moment and is ready to shut down for as many hours as my toddler will let me. I read your reply though, I might tell you, when I was having a complete breakdown in my car at the park and it really helped calm me down a bit. So, truly, and really, and truly, thank you. (You can see how bent my mind is right now. So ready to pop this baby out and maybe even indulge in a glass of wine, or better, one hit of some lovely MJ which I have missed so much and probably won't be seeing much of from this moment in my life, unfortunately.) Wants. Wants. Wants. Goodnight.

Hope the powers that be repair your electricity quickly!

I think I just heard thunder... hmmm. Our blizzard is turning out to be little more than slush. But another small town really close to use was mentioned on CNN and it sounds like it's worse there (the town's about 30-40 minutes/miles away).
Oh, never mind about the thunder. It's just my wash machine

I must be horribly desensitized, so I'm going to watch the video again. When I first watched it, I thought it was staged. The guy in the red jacket seemed to be holding back his kicks. So I wrote the video off as a hoax OR the guy in the red was just "going through the motions" to seem tough to his crew.

My rant is that I tried to come here just a few minutes ago and the website couldn't be found

I did manage to get about 4 hours of sleep though. I sprayed myself down with OFF, put on a pair of jogging pants, socks and a long sleeved shirt as well as my bandanna then I laid on the mattress in it's naked state and fell RIGHT to sleep. Damn fleas are driving me insane. I live in skirts, in part, because the fleas don't bother me as much. If I'm in my leggings or pants, they get under my clothes and are RIGHT against my skin, so even if they're not biting, I can feel them crawling on me. With my skirts, I can easily knock them off and forget about them.

I told my hubby about people being so cranky and he laughed and said it was the low (?) pressure system moving through as well as the full moon. He seemed to be in a really good mood. But then I scootched my mic a little and he instantly became a crab-ass wondering what all the noise was about. I didn't think anything about his outburst. We hung up and then he called me back a few minutes later to apologize and laughed that I had JUST been talking about all the strangely crabby people and he so quickly became one

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Seems we may be getting a bit of a blizzard after all. But it's a slushy, yucky one. We've also been experiencing more electric disturbances. So far, it's a whole lot of flickering but we're losing power more frequently even if it is for just a minute or so. I half expect the lines to go down completely. The branches are weighed down under all the wet snow and if the temp drops and that slush freezes, then branches are going to start snapping off left and right. Ugh, I feel like I'm wishing for a miracle in hoping the power stays on. Last time we lost power after a storm, it stayed off for 3 days. It's a wee bit colder than it was in the Spring/Summer!!!

Damn it, these fruit flies are fucking each other like crazy. I can't wait to get some Apple Cider Vinegar, put some liquid soap to break the surface tension of the vinegar, and see those fuckers drown to DEATH.

God, I swear there's like 10 of them around!

No amount of alcohol is worth these headaches. I need to stop drinking immediately.

Guess it's that time of pregnancy where I find a shit ton of irritating crap. First, this guy in my class really needs to touch up on his comma use. He talks, like this, and thinks that, every pause, in his head, needs a comma. Not to mention, he's a cocky son of a bitch and always feels the need to make a reply to my posts in particular, in which he always has something to "add on" or "explain more fully" because I apparently didn't do the topic of rape justice. Seriously, we all know what rape is, you don't have to go into detail and describe to me what YOU would do (case the victim, etc.). A LITTLE CREEPY to say the least.

Also, these dumbfucks on facebook that feel it necessary for them to post a DAILY fucking picture of themselves. They all look the same, everyday. Oh! Another picture of you, cheek by cheek with your cat! Oh, cool, another one of you in that mysterious bathroom with the red towel. Oh, another one with a window in the background! OH look, you added a cheesy quote to this one. What does this have to do with your fucking face. Do you really believe you're the representative face of the human race? Seriously people. Then they get all blushy blushy and modest with a compliment. "Wow, you're pretty!" "Ohhh, no, you are!" lol. WHAT? Do you really need someone to like your photo everyday to feel beautiful??? How boring. When I added you originally, I thought, hey I don't see this person enough. -.- now I see your face everyday, and frankly, it's tiresome. You're pretty, yes, but now you're just pretty annoying.

Sheesh, Suena... I know. twice in a day.

I'm in hell...and I like it.

At suena. Delete your Facebook or Facebook friends. Some people aren't worth it.

I will join you, Link, on your quest to eliminate those tiresome hordes of fruit flies.
Thankfully, the cold has driven out all of the ones we had. If only the fleas would follow suit.

Aly and Suena.
Feel better soon... both of you.

For some reason, my facebook no longer shows most pictures. I didn't change anything, my computer is just weird. Most of the time, I prefer it this way.
I get a LOT of political crap... but because the picture isn't there, I just get a headline and a big blank space. If I want to know more, I can click on the headline. I usually don't lol
I VERY rarely ever post anything more than game links I'm sure I get on other peoples nerves more than they get on mine I grew and "shared" over 100 trees today in Farmville.

The power's still on and the snow is still falling. It finally became real snow so it's very pretty outside now.
No real rants here. I'm too happy my power is still on to complain too seriously.

Now I have a rant (that didn't take long ):
What's up with these stupid double posts lately?

Xei has been banned for being himself. We all knew it would happen one day. Makes me very sad though.

I'm pree sure it's temp.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Xei has been banned for being himself. We all knew it would happen one day. Makes me very sad though.

WHAT!? What happened?

EDIT: NVM

I disagree. By asking for more information Ophelia seemed to suggest that the original poster had a legitimate complaint in the first place. They didn't. Somebody posting negative comments about their religion is not 'racist' and is not against DV rules.

And yes, insulting somebody who was attempting to suppress free discussion just because they didn't like it... that made me feel good.

THAT?!??? Seriously!????
Sorry but.... fuck that. Ophelia needs moderation lessons after her hiatus (I'm assuming she's the one that did it since she said to check his PM's).

My rave: I FINALLY (that annoyed me how "I"'s are capital so when you put capitals after it, it looks like you're yelling "I" as well.)
Anyway, I FINALLY found a good motorbike shop!!!! And it's close to me too
Everyone at all the other shops (besides the girls) are pretty much assholes. Either they treat me like I'm an idiot or not alpha or something, give me funny looks etc. or they just aren't interested and are unhelpful/don't give a fuck.
I found this place that actually has reasonable prices and treats me LIKE A FUCKING HUMAN BEING! YES!!!! Incredible haha
I mean obviously I'm not the most socially oriented person but your job is to not make me feel like a retard, and the people in this shop I found obviously know how to deal with that and don't expect me to be a certain way and if I'm not then make me feel stupid.
Okay so it's kind of a rant about the shitty shops that hire dickheads.

Also this shop is super quick, they have smart people there that know their stuff. I'm like "Do you have a VTR250 oil filter?" "YEP" Just instantly, I'd barely finished my sentence haha

Also Lisa Mitchell concert tonight! Was hoping to ride my bike, but it's getting ridiculously windy Ah well.
Hope I don't get pulled over for my busted headlight.

"Crazy dog. Crazy dog.
Meesha is such a crazy dog.
Runs outside, as fast as she can.
Comes inside then does it again.
Watch out!
Meesha is a crazy dog."


Now imagine it to the tune of some cartoon that was around before even my time (I think). Mighty Mouse perhaps?
I found myself singing that after my umpteenth trip outside this morning and seeing how much the pup is in love with the snow. Snow that almost covers her in some places.
We have about a foot of snow on the ground and it is beautiful. I am in an absolutely amazing mood. I LOVE the snow.

I went outside to meet hubby as he was going to the garage to get his truck so he could go to work. I was picking up the rest of my grocery money. Instead of seeing him near the garage, however, he was closer to his house next to a HUGE tree limb which had broken off and was blocking most of the driveway. I helped him tie it up with a cord and drag it off to the side. Then we moved a second limb which was further down.

And now he doesn't even have to go in to work until 9:30 lol. He had a lot of cancellations today. And, a lot of people are without power.
I really hope luck stays on our side.

It's so strange being outside. It's STILL snowing (puny, baby snow), yet you can also hear the snow melting off of unheated buildings and such.

Tommo. Stay warm and enjoy the concert

Originally Posted by tommo

WHAT!? What happened?

EDIT: NVM THAT?!??? Seriously!????
Sorry but.... fuck that. Ophelia needs moderation lessons after her hiatus (I'm assuming she's the one that did it since she said to check his PM's).

*checks the thread in question*

Ehhh.... I'm going to have to disagree with you there. It's one thing to post like that in the discussion areas, especially around people who recognize you, but it's something else to go to the general forum support area and directly insult the views of a new user with a single post and then bash an admin for simply asking for more information. Forums have a tendency to go to shit when that type of conduct is allowed to fly. Besides, a temp ban is far from the end of the world, it's like a slap on the wrist.

Meh I don't care I JUST HAD AN AMAZING NIGHT!!!!!@!#rgweWWWWWWWWWWWWWQREGQERLGQLMR hahahahahahhahahahaWBVweWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
Fuck! She is BETTER live than not! FUCKING HELL that was incredible.
She is the cutest thing too, I got to see her ear poking out from her hair (I think that is probably the cutest thing on girls, they look like pixies! )
Sort of like this


AHHHHHHH!!!!!! haha

I melted as soon as she started singing.

Only two problems, one was it started at 8:00, and some other band supporting was on first, did a song, then they lead guy did a song with Lisa and then she went off and the band did more songs and then another band came on and THEN finally she came on at maybe just before 11:00 or maybe later, and IIRC only played 7 songs or so, but I hadn't heard some of them before (didn't wanna listen to too much of her new album since I was seeing her live) so it was still amazing.
Still, that's not that bad that it was short. And both the bands were awesome too. Especially the second one, Alpine. Gonna go check some of their stuff out.

Oh yeah, second problem was the lighting. I only realised it just at the end, but the way they dim/turn off the audience lights and light up the stage creates a sort of disconnect between you and them.
I was trying to figure out why I couldn't get REALLY in to it, like.... fully realise that SHES STANDING RIGHT FUCKING THERE SINGING. I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!
I put myself in the present moment and felt everything and listened to the notes as they hit my ears and was watching the light play on her, but there was still something missing.
I figured it out right before the end and it was confirmed when she was finished and they turned the lights on and suddenly that feeling hit me that SHE IS LITERALLY 5 METRES AWAY FROM ME!!!! haha

Oh wait, actually the other problem was this STUPID BITCH WHO CAN'T COUNT! At the start I was finding my seat, and obviously you count from left to right! We're fucking arabic you dumb cunt!
So anyway, I sit in the seventh from the left (if your back is to the stage) and she comes up "I think you're in my seat"
"What seat do you have?"
"11" (or something, I actually don't remember what seat she said)
But I had seat 7
And I say "I'm pretty sure this is my seat"
Then the guy next to me says "This is 10" (The one he's in)
I'm just like fuck it, and moved over coz I really didn't care to move two seats over.
So I'm like "I counted 7 but ok" and counted again to make sure.
BUT! As I get up and push the seat bottom up and slide past her she says "whhaaaaat?" in this fucking mocking "are you retarded?" type tone.
FUCK YOU YOU DUMB FUCK!!!! OMG I wanted to rip her fucking face off. I was just sitting in my seat (which actually turned out to be better, because, if my spacial acuity is correct, and it is, she had her view blocked mostly by the microphone stand and some other thing that was up there, whereas I got a full view, slightly at an angle, of Lisa) but that was before she was on and I didn't know where she would be so I was just sitting in my new seat imaging tearing in to that dumb seat stealers face, just ripping her cheeks off with both my hands and telling her how fucking much I hate her.

Good night though, after that.

Screw the rain.

Yay it's Halloween I might go out tonight!

Oh wait...

I hope everyone has a lovely Halloween. Don't forget to chase off the bad spirits with your slutty costumes.

Originally Posted by Carrot

Why did they beat him up? Were they trying to jump on his head and kill him?

Apparently they just did it for fun. I'm not sure wether he died or not though :L.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Xei has been banned for being himself. We all knew it would happen one day. Makes me very sad though.

Originally Posted by Auron

I'm pree sure it's temp.

It is indeed just a temp ban. He may return when the time period expires. Fear not.

Originally Posted by tommo

WHAT!? What happened?

EDIT: NVM THAT?!??? Seriously!????
Sorry but.... fuck that. Ophelia needs moderation lessons after her hiatus (I'm assuming she's the one that did it since she said to check his PM's).

It wasn't that thread, nor was it Ophelia. You really shouldn't make assumptions.

You know, when someone does things on the forum staff gets together and discusses the action necessary, if any, and then acts as a group. The user who gets banned, whether it's Xei or someone else, will often see a PM from one staffmember regarding the infraction but it's a group decision to take the action.


Xei is undoubtedly just being Xei and is free to return when the temp ban expires.


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