Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

Hey, you're a nice guy, and I know that you're the kind of person that wants to let everyone in your life that you truly care for to not worry too much about you. It's definitely an admirable trait to put more priority on satisfying others than yourself. Maybe in time, you'll know that what you're living for is right in front of you; the people you meet, friends, and especially family. Maybe they're not that way to you now, but as a friend, I just hope that you see things through the end.

It gets way better when you leave High School (or whatever system of labeling for your grade level). Just keep pushing through Crashyy.

I'm honestly about to give up. Last night something terrible happened. I was trying to fall asleep at 11pm. But I was feeling very suicidal, like I was planning my own suicide. And I started hearing voices and seeing things. I've tried to ignore it but it wouldn't go away. And then all of a sudden, I saw what appeared to be a ghost watching me. I started panicking and freaking out. It kinda felt like an out of body experience or a lucid dream but I was completely awake. It just seemed so surreal. It never happened before. Either my house is haunted (probably not) or I have Schizophrenia (I fucking hope not). I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up. But I'm so scared of the afterlife. Like what if people who commit suicide really go to hell?

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I'm honestly about to give up. Last night something terrible happened. I was trying to fall asleep at 11pm. But I was feeling very suicidal, like I was planning my own suicide. And I started hearing voices and seeing things. I've tried to ignore it but it wouldn't go away. And then all of a sudden, I saw what appeared to be a ghost watching me. I started panicking and freaking out. It kinda felt like an out of body experience or a lucid dream but I was completely awake. It just seemed so surreal. It never happened before. Either my house is haunted (probably not) or I have Schizophrenia (I fucking hope not). I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up. But I'm so scared of the afterlife. Like what if people who commit suicide really go to hell?

I woke up seeing that very guy i know from my dream and disappeared in seconds, i tell you it was not a ghost! i know what you mean by surreal!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

Ah okay! Well, at least you have the answers in front of you. Even if it shakes your bones, It's up to you to take action now. He's finally coming to the realization of your importance, and you have the ability to make it happen, so make it happen.

Not as easy as you can say, we both have our own lives, and yes we both don't really fully love our present partners, i got curious about how his life is with the other woman, and i am devistated to hear this coming from a psychic that she is using him only for her own personal use!
I despise people like that and he does too, i been told that he is trying to break away from her because not only using him but also put him in a spot that he is restricted to do anything, just like prison, and you know what that will do to his conscious, he will fully blow up. Also another reason why he wants to go back in time again, this woman is actually resurfacing his conscious of the past and he doesn't like it.
It's been told, only i can understand him and his feelings and problems that he will only come to me for help or just to let him know that there is still good people left in the world. Yes i would accept him back, why would i not when he never did anything bad to me and i have no grudge. Been told he is "waiting for the right timing" and guess what, we got deja vu coming back from history, and it's called "economic meltdown". I'm pretty sure all this was planned before we set foot on earth again.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Crashy said that he covers the scars. If other people don't know he has them, then he isn't doing it for attention, unless it's to get attention from the people he tells, like us.

I'm honestly not doing this for attention. I cover my scars, cause I don't want anyone in real life to find out about them. And If I wanna have some attention over the internet, I'd just post that picture: on my twitter (3100 followers), skype (1500 contacts), youtube (1200 subscribers), facebook (500 friends) and tumblr (2000 followers). But I never did, cause I don't like getting attention in the first place. I regret posting it on DV already, I really feel guilty for doing that. Cause I'm sure most of the people on here will recognize me as the suicidal emo freak lol. Just a few people know about my scars, like a few close friends on skype and people here on DV.

Originally Posted by hathor28

Not as easy as you can say, we both have our own lives, and yes we both don't really fully love our present partners, i got curious about how his life is with the other woman, and i am devistated to hear this coming from a psychic that she is using him only for her own personal use!
I despise people like that and he does too, i been told that he is trying to break away from her because not only using him but also put him in a spot that he is restricted to do anything, just like prison, and you know what that will do to his conscious, he will fully blow up. Also another reason why he wants to go back in time again, this woman is actually resurfacing his conscious of the past and he doesn't like it.

Dang girl, that is some soap opera you got going on. I wish you the best though.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I'm honestly about to give up. Last night something terrible happened. I was trying to fall asleep at 11pm. But I was feeling very suicidal, like I was planning my own suicide. And I started hearing voices and seeing things. I've tried to ignore it but it wouldn't go away. And then all of a sudden, I saw what appeared to be a ghost watching me. I started panicking and freaking out. It kinda felt like an out of body experience or a lucid dream but I was completely awake.

Look, things from your dreams and the OBEs you claimed to have should not be justification of you just giving up life.

Either my house is haunted (probably not) or I have Schizophrenia (I fucking hope not).

Trust me, if you had schizophrenia, you'd have aspects of yourself that would prevent you from being able to think for yourself. The disturbances from them would be so great that you wouldn't even be able to make a post on this forum. I'm pretty sure you're sane Crashyy. These hallucinations and abstract imagery is normal when you're going to sleep (since like you said, it was when you were going to sleep).

Lots of things can happen, but don't take them too seriously and presume it's because you're doing something bad or something will happen to you in a negative way. I've met countless demons in my dreams, which I felt were just representations of negative aspects of my psyche, but now, I'd go play Chess with Hades if I could. I'd play Marco Polo with Medusa if I was up for it, getting turned to stone by her if I decided to cheat would be hilarious.

But seriously, it depends on your beliefs and how seriously you take imagery that's assumed to be negative, but personally for me, demons, angels, etc. are just ways to label parts of our psyche. I used to have a black and white way of thinking of demons and angels, but it's through dreaming that made me kept questioning and always curious to see deeper than that. I don't let sin stop me from being myself.

Ultimately though, it is your life you have to learn how to handle.

But I'm so scared of the afterlife. Like what if people who commit suicide really go to hell?

That's kind of a sensitive question because there's so many religious interpretations of it. All I can say to that is that all religious are agnostic (as in not sure realistically, but faithfully) about the afterlife (but they sure do try to formulate ways of what it would be like).

The thing is with suicide, at least in one spectrum of it, it started to become taboo in certain areas (perfect example: Like the eras Church and State was predominant) to where they realize that people killing themselves to avoid debt or to stimulate the economy was concerning to the magistrates. So they started imposing their religious beliefs into making suicide taboo or something treacherous. Of course, this isn't the source of how suicide is taboo, but it's one of many ways religion or people imposing their beliefs makes others scared.

Not saying your religion or whatever you practice is wrong, just know that when you're dreaming, your mind might express repressive sides of your beliefs, which leads you to think there's something wrong, or that something is haunted. The fear is just as equivalent as the Boogey Man or the Talking Flying Teapot. Just focus on what medium of faith does for you for your well-being, and just know that whatever system of punishment for sin doesn't have solid assurance of the afterlife.

I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up.

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Originally Posted by Linkzelda

Dang girl, that is some soap opera you got going on. I wish you the best though.




Look, things from your dreams and the OBEs you claimed to have should not be justification of you just giving up life.



Trust me, if you had schizophrenia, you'd have aspects of yourself that would prevent you from being able to think for yourself. The disturbances from them would be so great that you wouldn't even be able to make a post on this forum. I'm pretty sure you're sane Crashyy. These hallucinations and abstract imagery is normal when you're going to sleep (since like you said, it was when you were going to sleep).

Lots of things can happen, but don't take them too seriously and presume it's because you're doing something bad or something will happen to you in a negative way. I've met countless demons in my dreams, which I felt were just representations of negative aspects of my psyche, but now, I'd go play Chess with Hades if I could. I'd play Marco Polo with Medusa if I was up for it, getting turned to stone by her if I decided to cheat would be hilarious.

But seriously, it depends on your beliefs and how seriously you take imagery that's assumed to be negative, but personally for me, demons, angels, etc. are just ways to label parts of our psyche. I used to have a black and white way of thinking of demons and angels, but it's through dreaming that made me kept questioning and always curious to see deeper than that. I don't let sin stop me from being myself.

Ultimately though, it is your life you have to learn how to handle.



That's kind of a sensitive question because there's so many religious interpretations of it. All I can say to that is that all religious are agnostic (as in not sure realistically, but faithfully) about the afterlife (but they sure do try to formulate ways of what it would be like).

The thing is with suicide, at least in one spectrum of it, it started to become taboo in certain areas (perfect example: Like the eras Church and State was predominant) to where they realize that people killing themselves to avoid debt or to stimulate the economy was concerning to the magistrates. So they started imposing their religious beliefs into making suicide taboo or something treacherous. Of course, this isn't the source of how suicide is taboo, but it's one of many ways religion or people imposing their beliefs makes others scared.

Not saying your religion or whatever you practice is wrong, just know that when you're dreaming, your mind might express repressive sides of your beliefs, which leads you to think there's something wrong, or that something is haunted. The fear is just as equivalent as the Boogey Man or the Talking Flying Teapot. Just focus on what medium of faith does for you for your well-being, and just know that whatever system of punishment for sin doesn't have solid assurance of the afterlife.











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LOL i love that gif XD
btw i edited my post, very surreal if you think about it, if you see NWO happening, you will see us dead again with guns and fighting for our rights again lol, hope not, i pray we all not be in this position when guns and rights be taken away from us!
i don't want that again, we all want god damn peace! so why isn't it happening, yet it gets worse.
Every time i set, foot outside i feel being watched by authorities, by some kind of undercover and i sense it's always around me and i am always on god damn guard i can even read minds, i can sense bad vibes etc, every time i go out i see a PO-lice car drive slow around my block, every damn time i see this 2 straight mofo days i can assure you NWO is sooo close! and i am feeling it.
I'm like damn, i do not live in the ghetto go to the ghetto! Damn shit! never ever seen this shit!

My boyfriend thinks I spend too much time on DV. This is what he just texted me:

I think I'm going to name my penis. From now on his name will be Dream Views. That way when you say "I'm going to get on Dream Views" then I will be like "Hell Yeah."

I don't spend too much time on DV do I?

It's a win-win, the way I see it.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

My boyfriend thinks I spend too much time on DV. This is what he just texted me:



I don't spend too much time on DV do I?

LMAOOOOOOOOOOO MY HUBBY GETS JEALOUS WHENEVER I GO HERE, he's always thinking i got a secret bf.... not here dude ;P

DV is the other man.

We've been together almost 9 years.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

My boyfriend thinks I spend too much time on DV. This is what he just texted me:



I don't spend too much time on DV do I?

Better watch out, he might go on another forum and meet a Bertha, then YOU will become concerned on what he does with her control panel.

Originally Posted by gab

It's a win-win, the way I see it.

Oh snap, this right here is a sensible woman. She's like "POW!" and left.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

DV is the other man.

We've been together almost 9 years.

I can see why he's the other man.

- You can do an advanced search on him
- You can see What's New
- You can go to Quick Links and see everyone that's tied with him
- And if push comes to shove and he breaks the rules or pisses you off, you could modify, move, or delete him without question.

You packin' a lot of heat girl, but I don't blame you if you into that kind of man. He's completely submissive to your desires and is easier to read and look into.

Damn girl, now I wish I was a forum.

The eerie thing about it, i went outside to go buy something at the store (walking, i walk alot in the city) that day i saw a police car driving around, always 2 cops in them NEVER just one now days, i used to see them only with one around my area, like wtf?
So next day after i seen again, then next day when i was getting ready to go out, i thought about all those times i seen police, and i said to myself, "Once i go out again i'm going to see another damn police car once again!" i was just kidding myself and thought all those occurrences was just fluke, sure enough it wasn't I SEEN THEM ONCE AGAIN, LIKE DAMN DO YOU READ MY MIND???! i just get annoyed now like a damn fly buzzing around. lol

Originally Posted by hathor28

You're on point there Link, but about the psychic thing, i told about the dream i had that had a message for me, and i didn't say a word about us share dreaming, and she says he PEEPS in my dreams!
She stated that he is escalating his self confidence now so he can be ready to confront me soon, he had really bad self confidence, and she also said that only i can bring his "old self" back (i am shaking a bit now to even grasp this statement!) and that he needs this to happen and he is now realizing the true importance of me in his life and why did it take so long for this to happen, and it was his mistake to keep his feelings hidden and feels bad for it.
And i said nothing about us having a past life connection.

I also forgot to mention, (the psychic said too much i forgot what she said, she was and a few i had was very good) that what he was thinking now is once he confronts me he will not easily let me go, and for me i should have got this because we read our minds, but instead of getting messages i get images or visions of him actually near my door. And this is becoming constant now and started before i went to psychics.

Sooooo I struck up a conversation with a cute girl a few minutes ago, sat down and talked for a few minutes as we waited for the bus. It was just a friendly casual chat about something or other and she asked me which school I go to. I told her the name of my university, then I asked her where she studied. Now, I asked expecting her to be a college freshman or maybe a high school senior. Turns out she goes to my old elementary school, she was only seventh grade. My bus came by shortly after and I said goodbye and got on...

What the fuck is in our drinking water? Kids aren't supposed to have bodies like that. God damn, I know people in university that aren't even as "developed" or full-figured as her. And this girl was only 12 or 13... And I don't mean she just had a large chest or whatever, she actually had the body proportions and facial structure of a fully grown woman - and the fashion sense to match. Shocked the shit out me. Kids are not supposed to look like that... Ffs, there are women in their 20's that don't even look like that. o____0



so many conflicting feels, broskis

Originally Posted by GavinGill

Sooooo I struck up a conversation with a cute girl a few minutes ago, sat down a talked for a few minutes as we waited for the bus. It was just a friendly casual chat about something or other and she asked me which school I go to. I told her the name of my university, then I asked her where she studied. Now, I asked expecting her to be a college freshman or maybe a high school senior. Turns out she goes to my old elementary school, she was only seventh grade. My bus came by shortly after and I said goodbye and got on...

What the fuck is in our water? Kids aren't supposed to have bodies like that. God damn, I know people in university that aren't even as "developed" or full-figured as her. And this girl was only 12 or 13... And I don't mean she just had a large chest or whatever, she actually had the body proportions and facial structure of a fully grown woman - and the fashion sense to match. Shocked the shit out me. Kids are not supposed to look like that... Ffs, there are women in their 20's that don't even look like that. o____0



so many conflicting feels, broskis

ahahaha i agree dude!

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

I don't spend too much time on DV do I?

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Originally Posted by GavinGill

Sooooo I struck up a conversation with a cute girl a few minutes ago, sat down and talked for a few minutes as we waited for the bus. It was just a friendly casual chat about something or other and she asked me which school I go to. I told her the name of my university, then I asked her where....

Hilarious, Gav!
I've met a couple of girls like that before too.
It is very possible there's an environmental factor. I'm betting on Bisphenol A, which is basically in every plastic we use for food items, and also to coat water pipes. It basically fucks with your hormones, mainly estrogen IIRC, and doubly bad, it accumulates in the placenta.
Of course it could be any number of things we've added to food or our water supply.

Originally Posted by tommo

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Hah! You know, there's another forum I go to that has this link on members' profiles that says "Show Stats." It includes a "Total Time Spent Online" along with a bunch of graphs, kinda cool. Like a graph for the most popular hours I post.

rant: another one of my cream cheeses is turning out all gassy again. I'm fucking gonna NOT do cream cheeses anymore. Not until I know what the god damn problem is. Serious waste of expensive farm fresh cream and milk.

When I'm talking to others about something, I usually can keep track of what they said before fairly well. I always thought it was something annoying for me to have, but when a person starts saying, "I didn't say that!" "I didn't agree to that!" it really feels annoying because I know I heard them correctly. Because I'm pretty sure if I specifically told you what I was going to do or what I did, and you say "Mmmhmm," you're suppose to understand what's being said. If you're saying "yes" for the sake of saying yes, then you're not paying attention at all! I need to seriously start recording these people on certain topics to make them look like idiots for not paying attention and/or not asking for clarification for what I said.

There's nothing wrong if you don't understand what someone else said, just ask for clarification! It only takes a 2-3 second phrase "Could you explain it to me more please" or something to get yourself aware of what they're trying to express. Is your brain so malformed to do that?

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Then there's people who start accusing me for doing something, when I clearly know I didn't do it. They go so far into think I'm a stealer or something like that, and when they realize they moved whatever it is they wanted somewhere else and find it, they say "Sorry." I went through literally 10 minutes of this person getting mad at me because they thought I ate all of their snack that I don't even like in the first place. TEN minutes of wasting time when they could've checked the pantry and just eat your stupid banana crackers.

There's no way in hell I'm going to forgive a person who starts interrogating me just because they forgot they moved their favorite snack somewhere else and blamed me for it. If you can't even remember what you did with your hands and feet, what good is it for me to accept your apology? You just might forget that I said so in the first place!

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And I'm starting to get annoyed at people thinking I'm annoying. I don't know how a person thinks a person is annoying because they're playing around. You also play around and act like a fucking idiot, and somehow I'm not able to do that? It's like, "Ohh snicker snicker, you're annoying, you're so st00Pid, I hate you" "He'll never be as annoying as you are." Oh I'm so sorry for being annoying to you when you're even worse.


Suddenly you're the only one entitled to just be full of jest? I'm so sorry your brain thinks everyone has to have a linear personality and nothing more. I feel so sorry that you'll never get out of that naive way of thinking. There's times to joke around, and there's times to be serious, and there's time to be other aspects of your character whenever you want. I'm not being fake, I'm being myself. These kind of people make me want to hammer their head on a wall or something. Being yourself is not sticking to some linear persona, that's so bullshit!

Some of these people would be better off being lobotomized, your whole life would be much better if you lost function of using your bullshit.

But Link just because you heard them correctly does not mean you understood them.

Originally Posted by Original Poster

But Link just because you heard them correctly does not mean you understood them.

No, this is talking about them denying that they said "Oh okay, I get it." or "Oh okay, I understand."

It's not about me understanding them, it's them saying "Yes" or another form of agreement, and then later on saying they didn't agree to that SAME thing they agreed to before. This absent-mindedness gets annoying too much for me really.

I don't assume I understand what someone said because I heard them correctly, I will ask for clarification if I don't understand as well.

Originally Posted by linkzelda

when i'm talking to others about something, i usually can keep track of what they said before fairly well. I always thought it was something annoying for me to have, but when a person starts saying, "i didn't say that!" "i didn't agree to that!" it really feels annoying because i know i heard them correctly. Because i'm pretty sure if i specifically told you what i was going to do or what i did, and you say "mmmhmm," you're suppose to understand what's being said. If you're saying "yes" for the sake of saying yes, then you're not paying attention at all! I need to seriously start recording these people on certain topics to make them look like idiots for not paying attention and/or not asking for clarification for what i said.

There's nothing wrong if you don't understand what someone else said, just ask for clarification! It only takes a 2-3 second phrase "could you explain it to me more please" or something to get yourself aware of what they're trying to express. Is your brain so malformed to do that?

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then there's people who start accusing me for doing something, when i clearly know i didn't do it. They go so far into think i'm a stealer or something like that, and when they realize they moved whatever it is they wanted somewhere else and find it, they say "sorry." i went through literally 10 minutes of this person getting mad at me because they thought i ate all of their snack that i don't even like in the first place. Ten minutes of wasting time when they could've checked the pantry and just eat your stupid banana crackers.

There's no way in hell i'm going to forgive a person who starts interrogating me just because they forgot they moved their favorite snack somewhere else and blamed me for it. If you can't even remember what you did with your hands and feet, what good is it for me to accept your apology? You just might forget that i said so in the first place!

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and i'm starting to get annoyed at people thinking i'm annoying. I don't know how a person thinks a person is annoying because they're playing around. You also play around and act like a fucking idiot, and somehow i'm not able to do that? It's like, "ohh snicker snicker, you're annoying, you're so st00pid, i hate you" "he'll never be as annoying as you are." oh i'm so sorry for being annoying to you when you're even worse.


Suddenly you're the only one entitled to just be full of jest? I'm so sorry your brain thinks everyone has to have a linear personality and nothing more. I feel so sorry that you'll never get out of that naive way of thinking. There's times to joke around, and there's times to be serious, and there's time to be other aspects of your character whenever you want. I'm not being fake, i'm being myself. These kind of people make me want to hammer their head on a wall or something. Being yourself is not sticking to some linear persona, that's so bullshit!

Some of these people would be better off being lobotomized, your whole life would be much better if you lost function of using your bullshit.

dude! I know what you mean! My hubby is like that when drunk!, he starts saying something from the past and i said "wtf, isn't that over with??!" then he said i am starting a fight, and how did this conversation started?? Uh helloooo! You just said some stupid shit that should have been buried long ago.
Then he's like "oh i know why you wanna fight, it's because of blah blah blah" omg i swear i hate him drunk he just really is asking for a whoopin and did it twice and i was about to rant here but i saved it for now lol! and yes he says things like i didn't say that, and then says i am dumb smh arrrrgh!!!

Originally Posted by hathor28

dude! I know what you mean! My hubby is like that when drunk!, he starts saying something from the past and i said "wtf, isn't that over with??!" then he said i am starting a fight, and how did this conversation started?? Uh helloooo! You just said some stupid shit that should have been buried long ago.
Then he's like "oh i know why you wanna fight, it's because of blah blah blah" omg i swear i hate him drunk he just really is asking for a whoopin and did it twice and i was about to rant here but i saved it for now lol! and yes he says things like i didn't say that, and then says i am dumb smh arrrrgh!!!

This is one reason why I will never drink alcohol. I don't know what I will become if that happens.

Suddenly my voice sounds amazing to a female and then the next thing, a girl is pregnant.

Been living without internet for over a month now. Shit Sucks.

Exam-shazzam for my comp sci course tomorrow. Cram-alamin' tonight. And yesterday. And the day before... So I guess, not really cramming. This one test is a little over a third of my grade, so I want to do well on it.