Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Rant: I went to my math lab class, and two members in our 4-people group didn't show up. We had an assignment that was due today, and there's 5 problems to do in total. The girl that I sit next to did 2 problems, I did 1 harder problem, and the other two idiots did the really easy ones. So we got points off because if they aren't there, there's no part of their assignment to turn in.

We don't have their emails, and we have another assignment that's due Thursday on the week after Spring Break, which means me and the girl have to split it while the other group members get a freebie. I have to work on 3 problems the moment I come back from Spring Break, unless I purchase the MathLab software during spring break (which I might forget anyway). I feel pissed off that these guys aren't taking advantage of a portion of our whole Calculus grade that can make or break a letter grade.

At least I got that girl's email, especially since she's going to Costa Rica. I just hope she doesn't forget either. I wish I could discuss with the professor instead of the TA if we can get points because our incompetent team members didn't come, but that doesn't seem to be the case since it's a group effort. Team work ONLY is useful when EVERYONE pulls their own weight, one member fucks up, it's our whole grade!

You could affect someone's future if you decided to not show up! Some guys even made a joke about it because one of their team members didn't show up either, guess everyone decided to take an Early Spring Break. I can't get a B if this shit keeps up. Me and the other girl get perfect scores for our portion, and the other guys make us get 70-75%. If there's one thing I can do well in this Calculus class, it's the MathLab, and these guys are fucking it over for us!

Rave: I wanted to get someone to eat after MathLab, so I went to the Underground Food Court (it's not a black market ), and when I went to the cash register, a nice and cheerful Asian lady actually HELPED me bag the food. I was getting two fries and 2 other meals for me and someone else, and I'm so glad there's one employee that at least is being generous enough to prepare the bags for me.

Which made me remember what you guys were talking about with fast food and people with ghetto attitude. It's a good thing I came in the morning to get something to eat, because no ghetto girls wake up this early to work, they work in the afternoon, and god, they are SO LAZY and don't give two shits in helping a customer out. That last time I went to the Food Court, this ghetto girl didn't even bag my food. I know they're not suppose to handle food since they handle money, but it doesn't mean you can't open a bag for me!

And it's like they're hardwired to be a cunt or something. Man, I can't talk/reason with ugly people like these at all, these people are going to have some insecurity to me. Damn it, useless cunts! Do your fucking job right, you get paid minimum wage to just stand there and state the robotic phrases, I would be thankful to get that job and at least act concerned about customer convenience.

"I can't do dat suR" < -- (just like that)
"Do jo0 want da receipt?"



I'm just happy there's someone that was nice for the start of this day.

I HATED group work so much. I always ended up doing the entire project because people I was with were useless.

You know, I think I've just spent so much time in the Lounge here since I registered that it's easy for me to forget that this is actually a lucid dreaming forum. Trying to just focus on the DJ system, visitor messages, and on topic sections for a while now has been so eye-opening.

Hmm.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

Rant: I went to my math lab class, and two members in our 4-people group didn't show up. We had an assignment that was due today, and there's 5 problems to do in total. The girl that I sit next to did 2 problems, I did 1 harder problem, and the other two idiots did the really easy ones. So we got points off because if they aren't there, there's no part of their assignment to turn in.

That's completely ridiculous. Surely they should be able to understand the situation?

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

That's completely ridiculous. Surely they should be able to understand the situation?

Nope not at all. This is why I've grown more apathetic towards people at this University. It's like every single time I try to cope with departments that enforce group work with assignments that require consistent effort from all members, I always end up with irresponsible people. I can never get the grades I want with these kinds of people, and I have more confidence that doing it by myself is my own responsibility.

Even if I fail a test, I tell myself, "It's what I decided to put into this that got me this grade." Having that assurance is much better than group work in my opinion. And I start getting too comfortable with going with the bare minimum, just because it's Biochemistry. I just can't see how I can do extremely well here; I'd have masturbate to functional groups and get turned on by the mere mention of enzyme complexes.

It's just not happening lol, but I'm just doing it in hopes for something, and it's best I just stick with it.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

You know, I think I've just spent so much time in the Lounge here since I registered that it's easy for me to forget that this is actually a lucid dreaming forum. Trying to just focus on the DJ system, visitor messages, and on topic sections for a while now has been so eye-opening.

The newbies section is full of facepalm.
I try to help every now and again but it just reminds me too much of when I first began and asked questions like "Wut is WILDS?" "How do stop itching wen I am trying 2 stay still?" lol

After a certain point you learn all there is to know though, and it's just good to hang out with the cool people here.


Anyway, mild success. I went to a vineyard today and asked if they needed grape pickers.
But he said they pretty much all go through contractors and said to ask the people on a website, so not really fantastic but at least I got out there.
One place had wine sitting in barrels and it smelled so fucking nice. I feel like wine now.

Originally Posted by tommo

The newbies section is full of facepalm.
I try to help every now and again but it just reminds me too much of when I first began and asked questions like "Wut is WILDS?" "How do stop itching wen I am trying 2 stay still?" lol

After a certain point you learn all there is to know though, and it's just good to hang out with the cool people here.

Well, I wasn't really talking about the general lucid discussion section. I mainly gravitate towards the threads that are either about motivation rather than techniques, something I clearly haven't thought of, or some kind of research. And there are some pretty skilled and cool people here in the on-topic sections too, whose posts are far more informative than helping newbies.

I just don't really consider my quest for knowledge coming close to complete until I can hit at least one lucid every night with perfect control. I prefer to swap ideas with others who are also successfully chasing this goal rather than just covering the basics again.

Originally Posted by tommo

Anyway, mild success. I went to a vineyard today and asked if they needed grape pickers.
But he said they pretty much all go through contractors and said to ask the people on a website, so not really fantastic but at least I got out there.
One place had wine sitting in barrels and it smelled so fucking nice. I feel like wine now.

Well, now you know. That is a good step forward.

Got my ass handed to me last night. Long story short, drinking and fighting does not mix, but I couldn't stand watching this guy knock his girl down.

Originally Posted by Auron

Got my ass handed to me last night. Long story short, drinking and fighting does not mix, but I couldn't stand watching this guy knock his girl down.

You're a good guy, Auron. I'll bet it sucks, but that's going further than a lot of people would. Get some nice rest.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Well, I wasn't really talking about the general lucid discussion section. I mainly gravitate towards the threads that are either about motivation rather than techniques, something I clearly haven't thought of, or some kind of research. And there are some pretty skilled and cool people here in the on-topic sections too, whose posts are far more informative than helping newbies.

I just don't really consider my quest for knowledge coming close to complete until I can hit at least one lucid every night with perfect control. I prefer to swap ideas with others who are also successfully chasing this goal rather than just covering the basics again.

That's true. Motivation is probably the biggest factor. The techniques are easy to learn but sticking to them and actually mastering them to use at any time is the hardest part.

My brother brought his big husky over as well as his new giant mixed dog to our tiny apartment. They got in a few fights and kept knocking stuff over, and the big one took a dump on our carpet. *Sigh*

Really sweet dogs, but man. I was not expecting him to bring both nor did I expect the mix to be so damn HUGE.

I have too much to rant about to be bothered to write it all down.

In quick summary.

Sick of being let down at last minute especially when I've had a week full of shit.

Dammit, I need exactly three people to unlike anything I've posted.

Originally Posted by OctoberWind

Dammit, I need exactly three people to unlike anything I've posted.

Done.

I cross dressed for a prom themed party last night. I went all out, too, with hair and makeup. That's the farthest I've ever gone. And I have to say it was awesome. Whenever I cross dress, for some reason I feel more like myself. It's strange, but when it was time to take the dress off I was kind of sad. I'm still wearing a little makeup, and I don't have the heart to clean it off yet. I think I'll have to do more public cross-dressing, not just for dress up parties but even just casual feminine attire. Not all out like I did last night, but little reminders to myself. I'll probably post some pics when they show up on facebook. My friends and family will probably think I'm gay, especially since I'm in a pretend open relationship with a guy on facebook right now. Frankly, I don't care. I used to worry about people thinking I'm gay, but I realized the best way to weed out the judgmental is to become something that repulses them. Honestly, my sense of masculinity is invincible. And I'm going to help this world accept LGBT people, and I'm going to help men, too. Men don't like admitting feminine energy is powerful, as well. And if they refuse to embrace their femininity, female which can embrace both energies will become the dominant sex. This is not something I find threatening, but I'd like men and women to be equal and I think the only way is if both sexes can embrace both sides of themselves.

Originally Posted by OctoberWind

Dammit, I need exactly three people to unlike anything I've posted.

I went and unliked something else of yours just so I could like this.

Originally Posted by Original Poster

I cross dressed for a prom themed party last night. I went all out, too, with hair and makeup. That's the farthest I've ever gone. And I have to say it was awesome. Whenever I cross dress, for some reason I feel more like myself. It's strange, but when it was time to take the dress off I was kind of sad. I'm still wearing a little makeup, and I don't have the heart to clean it off yet. I think I'll have to do more public cross-dressing, not just for dress up parties but even just casual feminine attire. Not all out like I did last night, but little reminders to myself. I'll probably post some pics when they show up on facebook. My friends and family will probably think I'm gay, especially since I'm in a pretend open relationship with a guy on facebook right now. Frankly, I don't care. I used to worry about people thinking I'm gay, but I realized the best way to weed out the judgmental is to become something that repulses them. Honestly, my sense of masculinity is invincible. And I'm going to help this world accept LGBT people, and I'm going to help men, too. Men don't like admitting feminine energy is powerful, as well. And if they refuse to embrace their femininity, female which can embrace both energies will become the dominant sex. This is not something I find threatening, but I'd like men and women to be equal and I think the only way is if both sexes can embrace both sides of themselves.

Damn this is a sexy post. You need to make more guys want to do this. >.> And good for you, by the way.

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I've eaten so much pizza in the last 24 hours. I can't take it anymore. Make it stop.

I'm feeling really sick at the moment. I just can't stop cutting myself, it's so disgusting D: I really want to stop, I don't wanna hide my arms all the time. Just because of the scars. I should get help, but I really don't want to. Cause I don't wanna talk about it. I'm such a failure though :/

They probably won't understand, they'll just judge you for it. But they'll judge you anyways, so you might as well open up about it. Why do you cut yourself?

Originally Posted by Original Poster

They probably won't understand, they'll just judge you for it. But they'll judge you anyways, so you might as well open up about it. Why do you cut yourself?

I just hate my entire life. I hate my job and school. I hardly have any friends, I'm depressed and I have a social anxiety disorder & a bipolar disorder. Cutting myself feels good and makes me forget about all my problems.

Sounds pretty legit. Do you always feel this way?

I have scars too crashy :/ and I also feel like a failure. I'm not even in school and I don't have a job, I tried but barely. I've been getting really unstable lately.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I just hate my entire life. I hate my job and school. I hardly have any friends, I'm depressed and I have a social anxiety disorder & a bipolar disorder. Cutting myself feels good and makes me forget about all my problems.

I don't got many friends either, no job, i stay away from being depressed, and almost always listen to happy club music to make me forget about problems i got. Maybe some people do this differently.

Stay away from depression? I would honestly advise the opposite. In fact, cutting yourself is also a form of escape from depression. Instead of running from it, go into it.

Originally Posted by Original Poster

Stay away from depression? I would honestly advise the opposite. In fact, cutting yourself is also a form of escape from depression. Instead of running from it, go into it.

I get times when i do get depressed but i control my emotions, even anger. Everyone should control em, so you saying we should go into depression and negative emotions often? If so, why?

Because you're either running from things, or you're facing things. One does not control their emotions by attempting to change them, emotions are controlled when they are observed. That makes the difference between action and reaction.

It is important to clarify that I do not suggest thinking about them, that is also an attempt to escape them by labeling them. I suggest only one action, and that is awareness. Steady, focused, consistent, unfaltering awareness.