Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Last week was so terrible. I just couldn't seem to do anything right at school and work. I don't think I've ever been so depressed in my entire life.
On wednesday, I went to see my favorite band live (bring me the horizon). I didn't even feel like going, because I was so tired.
But I'm really glad I did. Because I had the best night of my entire life. I don't think I have ever been so happy before.

After the gig, I've been waiting outside for about an hour. When I suddenly saw Jordan fish and I got a picture with him



Then I saw Oliver Sykes coming out of the building.



He saved my life more than once. I met him in april but we weren't allowed to take pictures during the signing session.
There were alot of people standing around him, so I didn't really expect to get a picture with Oli. But somehow I did.

Originally Posted by Rums03

My old neighbor walks his little dog everyday, and sometimes he lets it poop at the end of my driveway. He lets this dog use the restroom all over the neighborhood actually, and he never picks up after it. Granted the turds a really small, it's still rude and very annoying.

Now I feel bad because I sorta have that dog. I can't help it, she's a Chihuahua and loves to wander. I can't imagine all the places she's made her little tootsie-roll sized deposits lol.

Bad ass avatar btw, fellow Texan.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

Now I feel bad because I sorta have that dog. I can't help it, she's a Chihuahua and loves to wander. I can't imagine all the places she's made her little tootsie-roll sized deposits lol.

Bad ass avatar btw, fellow Texan.

Shakes fist...clean up that poo!

I was recording a video with a friend today, all other friends joined in. We got the best video moment ever with this beauty. More of a communal effort than anything! - YouTube

I can't breathe. Playing it on repeat for the full effect. :')

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

I was recording a video with a friend today, all other friends joined in. We got the best video moment ever with this beauty. More of a communal effort than anything! - YouTube

I can't breathe. Playing it on repeat for the full effect. :')

You aren't the girl who's talking all the time at the end right? You're the one with the cap and the badges I believe. Looks like a nice little group of friends.

Just came back from the bar this evening, I haven't had this much fun in a while at a bar. I danced with 3 different girls, even with two at some point. Having two ladies at your side feels good, for real! I should've gotten one girl's number but when I was about to she was already heading home. Also managed to turn a joint down, I feel really good about that.

Lately I've been feeling pretty good in general. I'm getting top grades at my study, going to the NA is a big step forward as well. It feels like I'm finally starting to develop my personality after having been stuck for 2 years or so. Perhaps it's even more... I don't know anymore. Anyway, moving forward is a good thing so I'm going to continue doing that.

Love and warmth to you (yes, you who is reading this).

Spoiler for really long rant:

I spent an hour on youtube playing a mix of songs and somehow it ended with Puscifer and it just makes me want to cry. In fact, I think I did cry. Why can't I enjoy music like that, like I used to so much. Before I had kids and this crazy life of mine, I seriously played music all of the time, and was always So into it. It sounds silly, but these days, when I interact with someone from that time in my life, they're always like, oh yea, every time I hear this band/song I think of you! And it makes me feel so great, but at the same time it is depressing because I am not that person anymore. I think I am way down on the inside, because I have moments like just earlier where I danced with headphones on, so into the beat and the vocals and just... the feeling of it all. It just makes me want to cry now, though. I can't help it. I don't know why I have changed so much. It's like having kids just makes that more sensible adult come alive, gotta make sure the house is clean, can't watch TV, can't listen to that music (it might damage my kids ears lol), can't do this, can't do that. That is all that plays in my head. It's funny because before I had kids, I remember thinking, man, my kids are going to grow up awesome because of how fucking awesome I am, lol. Not to sound completely narcissistic, but it's just that I was so in sync with myself (for at least 6 months) and then I had a child and the world changed. The world isn't so flexible and free as I once perceived it to be. I have two little ones to look after and I need to be more in tune with them than with myself... I want to be myself though, at the same time. I know this is a hard time, when they're young, and I believe that one day I will feel that crazy saneness again... lol... but truly, it's so far out of reach it seems... A lot of that has to do with this relationship, I'm sure... I feel controlled with every beating of my heart. I don't know why. I don't know how it can be. I hate to be blinded by something everyone seems to think is so obvious. I guess it's just unbelievable to me that the person I used to know, being myself, could ever be so tamed to this kind of life. I hope this doesn't sound as bad as I think it does. I know that I have to do things differently for my children's sake, but I just didn't know I'd have to change this much.

I had a dream last night about Christmas and how my mom was trying to humiliate me in front of the entire family (aunts, uncles, etc.) I couldn't handle it, and even though I was me now, and I had my kids, I felt like I was sixteen again. I felt extremely misunderstood. I used to get so much shit from my family for being so sensitive, and I still do. But not from my family anymore, from him. It's funny but it seems like the second I turned 18, my family stopped being so open about their thoughts about my life. Not including a few crazy fights between me and my dad and one sister. Which was that craziness for 6 months.

But now, even though I know they're still the same, my family, they seem so fake, because I know what they think of my "lifestyle" and I know they are keeping their mouths shut. I should be thankful, but it's so crazy how overnight things change. I never know if they really agree with my choices or if they even care. IN the dream, I got so fed up that I didn't care that I was about to prove them right about my sensitivity. She was trying to humiliate me, and I let her, and then I said, well fuck you all. I put my kids in the car and promised myself I would never spend Christmas with them again.

I don't even know what all of that means, but it felt so real that when I woke up, I could feel the anger. Even now, I feel it like it really happened... I suppose this new therapist of mine is going to get an earful in a couple of weeks.. but who knows... I may completely forget about this dream by then.. and what does this therapist care... I'm only paying her 40 dollars a session, what incentive does she have to truly care and help me. How many people are out there like me with petty issues and no health insurance... too fucking many to care...

My complaint is this thread is still alive. As much as evolution and history teaches us things. We constantly do it all over again. I can't wait to see the day when threads like this are just legend.

Moving has stopped me coming on here for ages because no internet and my dream recall has gone down the toilet :/ I like my house though

Originally Posted by Athylus

You aren't the girl who's talking all the time at the end right? You're the one with the cap and the badges I believe. Looks like a nice little group of friends.

This is true. Thank you, I appreciate a lot of my friends. They're pretty good to me. I'm glad you had an awesome time! :')

Originally Posted by ProudasaPeacock

Moving has stopped me coming on her for ages because no internet and my dream recall has gone down the toilet :/ I like my house though

You meant "coming on HERE"? ..lol (I misinterpreted at first)

Things are not going well for me apparently.

This bitch-made barber, man...

I told him to trim the sides and the back of my head. ONLY THE FUCKING SIDES AND THE BACK GODDAMNIT. I specifically told him to leave the touch, don't cut anything on the top... and he goes and crops the top so short I'm just sitting there like kdbfiurwgiu4e<`23!$!$!||!!!!!!!

Then he goes and trims one of the sideburns. I was growing my bear for No Shave November, and now I have to trim the whole thing because he for some reason he thought it was a good idea to trim ONE of the sideburns short... leaving the rest of my beard looking extra bushy in comparison.

Think I'm just going to find a new barber... I was trying to avoid switching because I've been with this guy since I was little, but goddamn...

I was a little harsh with the last post. Although he truly did do a poor job with my haircut, he's a good man and doesn't deserve to be talked about in such a manner.

I've got to do something about my temper though. =/

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A friend of mine has a small boy, who caught some dysentery virus at school, then his father got it - and now I have it too!
No SSILD -action but hanging over a bucket sitting on my bed all night - marvellous!
Today it´s the toilet instead of the bucket - don´t I just love it..

Gavin, you scared the *#$% out of me. Thought we had another Russian hacker coz those two posts were so similar to your other ones a couple of weeks ago lol

Originally Posted by GavinGill

This bitch-made barber, man...

I told him to trim the sides and the back of my head. ONLY THE FUCKING SIDES AND THE BACK GODDAMNIT. I specifically told him to leave the touch, don't cut anything on the top... and he goes and crops the top so short I'm just sitting there like kdbfiurwgiu4e<`23!$!$!||!!!!!!!

Then he goes and trims one of the sideburns. I was growing my bear for No Shave November, and now I have to trim the whole thing because he for some reason he thought it was a good idea to trim ONE of the sideburns short... leaving the rest of my beard looking extra bushy in comparison.

Think I'm just going to find a new barber... I was trying to avoid switching because I've been with this guy since I was little, but goddamn...

Like i said before here to someone else who had the same experience....don't trust any barber....i suggest you never go back....and maybe learn to cut your own hair because now days it's very rare to find talented hair stylers, but if they are they want more money from you and the service.
Here it's 40-45 dollars only for a cut hair for women...fuck that i cut it myself than rather waste 40 dollars on a unsatisfied cut.
No need to apologize for your out burst because these stylers are getting away with hair butchering....i take it protest politely and tell him/her, "you know just my feedback, you didn't do a good job, i won't come back again, take note you will lose customers." There's all there is to it, be honest and polite at the same time. Then you can go release anger at home.

Speaking of which, I think I should start shaping my eyebrows on my own.. I have a little cut on one eyebrow because of a road accident at age 7. It's barely noticeable, but those idiotic women at the beauty parlours use it as an excuse for doing a bad job. They just pluck some hair here and there and say it's done. If I ask them to make it a bit thinner, they refuse and stare sympathetically at the missing patch of hair (the cut) as if I'm disfigured for life. So I end up paying the 30 rupees, then go home to use my scissors and blade to finally get an acceptable shape. A few times I have met good beauticians who actually knew their job. They didn't make a fuss about the cut, instead gave me perfectly shaped eyebrows. So I know it's not an impossible task. And these idiots do a bad job and blame it on my cut and think I'll believe it like a fool. Ugh!

Originally Posted by Anju

Speaking of which, I think I should start shaping my eye....

Do you have the threading thing in India? The Lankan girls always do that and it looks pretty damn good. Much better than plucking or waxing.

Life is so complicated and strange.

i paid $400 for a pet deposit at this apartment when i moved here. that was about two years ago, and the place changed ownership since then. rent's being raised $20 so i have to sign a new lease... but it says/shows nothing about my $400 deposit, and now says no pets. so i guess the new ownership changed the pet policy, but nothing was ever said.

ah well, i've been wanting to move anyway. actually, i want to just save up and actually buy a place. renting mostly sucks.

That sucks, man. Renting is very bunk. Tell that mother fucker you demand your $400 back. I've got holes in my shoes, so where ever I go, my feet are wet and cold. Guess i should let go and buy some new ones.. right?

Originally Posted by tommo

Do you have the threading thing in India? The Lankan girls always do that and it looks pretty damn good. Much better than plucking or waxing.

Yeah, I was talking about threading, not plucking. It looks good, but only if done properly with some patience (which the parlour people never seem to have)

I'm going to start practising it on my own.

My dream recall has gotten significantly better since I quit smoking weed, but my sleep itself has become horrible strangely enough. I have a lot of trouble falling asleep, I sleep for a looong time and can't get up. Even if I sleep for 10 hours I'm still tired, ugh. It has made me skip 3 lessons already this week, I feel bad about that and I think my dad is picking up on that feeling.

Thanks wishful, I'm planning on going again this weekend. Sober, like last week.

I went to the dentist today. It was such an awful experience and I have to go back next week ugh.
My mouth is still numb from the sedation and my teeth hurt aswell. I haven't eaten all day and I'm so hungry. It's probably gonna take a few more hours until I'm allowed to eat again.

I hate the fact that alot of my friends always take advantage of me. For example, we have to finish our german homework before friday. And my friend lost his papers.
So he asked me if I could copy the papers and give it to him. But my copy machine won't work. Then he asked me: 'well don't you have neighbours? Just do it over there.'
I don't really know my neighbours that well. It would be so weird for me to ask my neighbours if I can use their copy machine 'cause a friend lost his papers?
YOU'VE GOT NEIGHBOURS YOURSELF AND YOU EVEN HAVE A GOOD FRIEND LIVING IN THE SAME STREET OMFG. He's just too lazy to do anything ffs