Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Erii

And my computers anti virus ran out today...

Microsoft Security Essentials. It's gotten surprisingly good reviews.

Originally Posted by khh

Microsoft Security Essentials. It's gotten surprisingly good reviews.

We use it at work, its great. Way Better than Norton, Mcaffe, and AVG.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

We use it at work, its great. Way Better than Norton, Mcaffe, and AVG.

Yeah, I've begun using it at home. It stands out in that it hasn't bothered me even once since I installed it (on two different computers). I don't even notice it's there. Just the way it should be.

Originally Posted by khh

Yeah, I've begun using it at home. It stands out in that it hasn't bothered me even once since I installed it (on two different computers). I don't even notice it's there. Just the way it should be.

Its weird that Microsoft actually done something right.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

Its weird that Microsoft actually done something right.

Yeah, I know. But they've actually been improving lately. I think they might finally started fearing for their future, and realized that quality is the way to go.

Originally Posted by khh

Yeah, I know. But they've actually been improving lately. I think they might finally started fearing for their future, and realized that quality is the way to go.

I think its too little, too late. Apple is kicking ass, and Linux is becoming than a nerd's OS.

Originally Posted by AustralianFire

It goes Yellow L, Red P, Green P, Nothing

haha, I skipped all that red/green P shit.
Also will with my motorbike license too coz I already have full car license

I really need to start going to bed earlier... I'm so damn tired right now.

Two nights ago I went at 2:00 AM, and last night I went at 3:00. And both days I had to get up for school at 7:00.

I told my dad I was doing homework, which I managed to finish at around midnight. Then I stayed up and did video editing, which turned into the "I want to try and finish this project tonight" sort of thing. That happened both nights. xD

I am recently depressed by the fact that I am very mediocre at piano.

I feel like the guy in that Amadeus movie who nobody knows. How he says that he curses god for giving him such an intense love for music but not the same level of ability to make or play it.

I had a bunch of awesome dreams... but I only recall snippets from them
I didn't get much sleep yesterday and I couldn't couldn't fall asleep until 5 this morning. I actually woke at 6:30 to wake up my daughter, then I crashed again until 9. I woke in a strange state. I made it to my computer desk, fell into the chair and just rocked and covered my head in a retardedly fitful manner with my arms and hands for at least 30 minutes. I felt both hot and cold, restless yet tired... I turned on my space heater and when my foot accidentally landed in front of it, I calmed lol
I've gone through these phases for awhile now, but they're happening more frequently. I swear I think I wake up half ape sometimes.

Then I got a surprise cellphone call from my other daughters facility to go over what was discussed yesterday. It was a conference call and when the subject turned to meds, I spoke too much and felt like an idiot afterward. I discovered that dear daughter exaggerated about her weekend visits. She goes before the DHHR to *discuss* it in 2 weeks. Nothing's been decided yet.

I think I'm going to try to go back to sleep for a bit...

I really need to start drinking coffee, I'm really tired..

Originally Posted by AustralianFire

It goes Yellow L, Red P, Green P, Nothing

We get red L green N. What does P stand for?

You guys have some weird permit rules. We Americans don't do any of those things... you just have to have a licensed adult with you if you have your learners... (age varies depending on state, most can get Learner's at 15.5 years of age, full on license is 16.)

I'm still in a yucky mood/yucky state. That strange hot/cold, restless/tired feeling is still with me. I have my AC set on low at 86 degrees and I'm freezing. But if I turn it off, I'm hot. I'm wearing jogging pants, a long sleeved shirt and knee socks. I just want to curl into a ball on my chair, cover my head and slowly rock. I think I've lost my mind lol
I do NOT have a headache so I don't know what my obsession with my head is. I just cannot seem to get comfortable.

As I listened to my youngest daughter rant yesterday, she sounded JUST like my [half] brother. I asked her: "How did I end up with NO kids like me? How is it all of you are like the rest of my family?" She retorted that I lived in my bedroom as a child and I still live in my bedroom- that I have no life let alone a social life. It wasn't said out of anger lol She wasn't trying to be mean and I didn't take it as such either. But I can't get the conversation out of my head.

I have my moments but at heart, I am so passive, grateful, introspective, kind that I don't understand how NONE of my kids managed to cultivate any of those qualities (to the extent that I have them). They thrive on drama, love drugs, talk like wannabe gangsters, show few people respect, take care of little (possession-wise). In short, they are just like my parents and siblings whom they have spent VERY LITTLE TIME with throughout their entire life. So it's not an environmental thing.
Is their behavior just the norm? It occurred to me that I've always been asking the wrong question. How did *I* end up so different? Yes, I ingrained positive traits on myself by myself through self-injury. starting before I was even a teen... but I had to have those traits to begin with in order to recognize them and want to cultivate them. And even though it's not perfect- I trained myself too well so that those traits are often extreme to the point of detriment; I still see them as positive. I'm at a loss.

Another thing I've been thinking a lot about is our reaction to stress and anger. We smile and sometimes laugh when we're nervous. When we're enraged, we cry. How many people do that? And why? It just doesn't make sense to me.

Now I'm going to go play EQ2 so I can stop thinking for a few hours

Trauma at dentist xD
I had to get a smalll tinyyy filling, like my only cavity and it was small so that's good.
It was nothing
but then i had to get surgery on two teeth which hurt like fuck on one of them. I asked for more numbing medicine because he asked, then didn't even apply it and just went in. It was horrible...and now, i've never in my whole life been told I would need braces, not when i was young or anything, but now he's all like "You might need to get them" and just because of one fucking tooth. I don't want this lol.

Originally Posted by Erii

Trauma at dentist xD
I had to get a smalll tinyyy filling, like my only cavity and it was small so that's good.
It was nothing
but then i had to get surgery on two teeth which hurt like fuck on one of them. I asked for more numbing medicine because he asked, then didn't even apply it and just went in. It was horrible...and now, i've never in my whole life been told I would need braces, not when i was young or anything, but now he's all like "You might need to get them" and just because of one fucking tooth. I don't want this lol.

Just get dentures.

Originally Posted by Erii

Trauma at dentist xD
I had to get a smalll tinyyy filling, like my only cavity and it was small so that's good.
It was nothing
but then i had to get surgery on two teeth which hurt like fuck on one of them. I asked for more numbing medicine because he asked, then didn't even apply it and just went in. It was horrible...and now, i've never in my whole life been told I would need braces, not when i was young or anything, but now he's all like "You might need to get them" and just because of one fucking tooth. I don't want this lol.

i have like, never gotten a cavity before

but as for the other teeth , hope it gets better or that you wont have to get braces

y'know, you might want to post your pic in the post pics of yourself without discussion before you get braces. I still remember your 1 year promise

Originally Posted by Solarflare

i have like, never gotten a cavity before

but as for the other teeth , hope it gets better or that you wont have to get braces

y'know, you might want to post your pic in the post pics of yourself without discussion before you get braces. I still remember your 1 year promise

I won't smile with my mouth open xD but i doubt they'd even be on that long, i really don't think they are needed. When i was younger I had a really bad gap that grew together perfectly, no braces required, but then again i was like 12 lol

oh yeah i had a gap too. They filled it or something.

My dentist also suggested braces but hell no.

I seriously don't see why I need them >_> he even said my teeth were really good and straight yet I need them?
I have a SLIGHT overbite but that is normal. I mean not every one of my teeth is perfectly straight but who's are? gah i don't see the point of getting them for one fuckin tooth XD

well, if you dont have to get them, its not a big deal

BLOODY HELL! My toe is infect AGAIN! this makes twice in a year. Although I waited like 6 months before going to the doctor last time. and last time I had an ingrown toenail. I kept stubbing my toe after I got my a bit of my nail ripped out a few weeks ago, and the OTHER side of the nail in infected now I am far from happy. and Extremely worried, because I don't want to get my whole nail ripped out. Soo... I am babying this. Although when I took the band-aid and polysporin off today, it was all white :/

Just deleted my facebook.

Phew! That felt good!

Originally Posted by dakotahnok

Just deleted my facebook.

Phew! That felt good!

I wanna do that :'(

But I'm to lazy to delete EVERYTHING one by one