Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I am so tired right now that my body hurts. Coffee doesn't affect me, so I have to power it out. The worst part is I was really unproductive all weekend with regards to writing so I have to do that tonight + dentist + shipping stuff. I just want to sleep.

I just got shat on by a bird. Plus general school stress, several essays due, yada yada.

@Wishful - You can do it! Think on the bright side about no job, jobs make a lot of stress and unfun work dreams. Dieting? Meh. Everything in moderation seems to work better, at least for me. I don't really think anyone knows what they want to do. Hell, I'm almost done with my degree and I still don't totally know. Maybe your school has rules about finals? Mine says that if you have 3+ in one day you can reschedule some.

Just take it one day at a time. Make a plan. Thinking about everything you have to do for the next month or more is a great way to screw yourself over.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

More border rant stuff:

The more I look up similar stories about other people who have been denied at border crossings, the less likely it seems that I'll ever be able to enter the US again, or at least not in the next few years. Once you've been denied once, it seems to become exponentially less likely that you'll be permitted access each time you try. And after the second time it seems virtually impossible, like they've already decided you aren't getting in, and even with the best proofs of ties to Canada that you can present, they're still going to find something wrong with it or say it's lacking and turn you back. I'd be afraid to try again even if I had a job and was enrolled in school, because after being denied twice, unless they decided to allow me in, I'd be afraid of being banned for 5 years which is what they sometimes do.

This is very depressing. It's not like I merely can't go on vacation anymore and can ignore it and say I'm done with the US, which is what a lot of people ended up doing in the stories I read. It isn't just a slight inconvenience to my life. US travel is a big part of my life. My boyfriend lives in the US and we want to spend as much time together as possible. It is hard for us to be away from one another even for the three weeks it's been. Right now, the plan is that he'll get a job where he lives, and he'll save up a few thousand dollars. Once he does that, he'll either try to get a work visa in Canada, or move to Washington and get a job there. The work visa probably won't work out, since he only has a technical school diploma in Welding and not a full degree, which is the standard for where he lives, but in Canada you generally need at least a two-year degree and to have specific Canadian certifications. And if he moves to Washington, he'll only be able to visit me while he isn't working, on weekends or something, and I wouldn't dare try to cross the border to visit him.

There are other problems concerning the future. We plan to get married someday, and the plan was that I was going to move to the US with him when I'm finished with my school, mostly because he has a big family and considers it important that he stay with them, while I wouldn't mind moving away from my family at all. I'm worried now that this border problem has screwed up my entire life. If I'm never allowed in the US again, or even for a few years, I don't know how I'm ever going to get the required fiance visa when I'm finished with my degree. I'm guessing they'd deny me that too.

It seems like the only thing I can do now is to wait for a long time, perhaps years, until after I've gotten my degree and get a job. Then hope that I'm let through the border. In the meantime, I won't be able to go anywhere, on vacation or anything, because pretty much everywhere I might go has a connecting flight through the US. I won't be able to spend an extended amount of time with my boyfriend for years, unless he somehow can get a work visa. It's just so depressing. I can hardly believe this is really happening. It feels like something I'd expect to happen in North Korea or a George Orwell world or something. It's just a fucked up system in which they consider you guilty until you're proven innocent. The security became more intense after 9/11, but the issue of worrying that I'm going to immigrate illegally has nothing to do with terrorism.

I just talked to my dad about this, and I don't know how much of a difference this can make, but it at least made some sense when he said it. Have you thought about just getting married in Canada after all and letting some time pass and then trying to go back? Even though I wouldn't put it past them to be dicks again, it seems like they'd be a little more likely to let a husband and wife through....

I couldn't sleep last night because it felt like I was being touched by ghosts. It scared the hell outta me. Maybe it was just my imagination or just me being paranoid but I'm not sure, it felt so real. And I'm so tired. I have to go to school again tomorrow. Which means that I'll have to wake up at 6am. I've also quit (lucid) dreaming forever. Because my dreams are actually quite disturbing atm. And for the past few days, I didn't even recall one dream. So that's a good thing. I eat very unhealthy. So I'm going on a diet and I'm also gonna start working out again. Because I feel physically exhausted all the time and I wanna change that.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I couldn't sleep last night because it felt like I was being touched by ghosts. It scared the hell outta me. Maybe it was just my imagination or just me being paranoid but I'm not sure, it felt so real. And I'm so tired. I have to go to school again tomorrow. Which means that I'll have to wake up at 6am. I've also quit (lucid) dreaming forever. Because my dreams are actually quite disturbing atm. And for the past few days, I didn't even recall one dream. So that's a good thing. I eat very unhealthy. So I'm going on a diet and I'm also gonna start working out again. Because I feel physically exhausted all the time and I wanna change that.

Hey Crashyy, glad to hear from you, and I'm sorry about those horrible dreams there. I haven't really devoted much time to dream recall myself, and usually, I can get a lucid dream easily with self-hypnosis anytime I wish, but I just wanted to take a break from dreaming overall. I think the major lesson with dreaming is that no matter where I go in life, I will always remember the memories of people who helped me in my life in some way, and that kind of made me have a drive to just start becoming good at things I love doing.


I hope someday you might get back to lucid dreaming, because it's definitely fun and exciting when you have spare time. But it's good that you want to take a break from it, because it can get exhausting at times.

I wish you luck on going on a diet and working out again, I hopefully will do the same because I don't like my body at all (My butt is too big ).



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Sorry to hear about the event with the border thing Dianeva, I agree with what Alyzarin said with having the wedding in Canada. I'm sure your fiancé could have a trip there for a few weeks at least, but that's excluding that you guys don't do a rehearsal before the actual wedding. At least you're considering your options, and if things still don't work out for you, maybe it's a sign that you just have to have faith and make something of yourself and then things can be in your favor for your future marriage (I wish you the best in that honestly). If the latter happens, I'm sure you'll become a better woman that your boyfriend will really appreciate you for (Of course, you already have a nice blend of enticing personalities either way).

Keep strong Dianeva.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

Hey Crashyy, glad to hear from you, and I'm sorry about those horrible dreams there. I haven't really devoted much time to dream recall myself, and usually, I can get a lucid dream easily with self-hypnosis anytime I wish, but I just wanted to take a break from dreaming overall. I think the major lesson with dreaming is that no matter where I go in life, I will always remember the memories of people who helped me in my life in some way, and that kind of made me have a drive to just start becoming good at things I love doing.


I hope someday you might get back to lucid dreaming, because it's definitely fun and exciting when you have spare time. But it's good that you want to take a break from it, because it can get exhausting at times.

I wish you luck on going on a diet and working out again, I hopefully will do the same because I don't like my body at all (My butt is too big ).

Heya, it's been a while. And thanks! I just wanna focus on real life, rather than lucid dreaming. I just need to sort out some stuff in life before I can get back to lucid dreaming. I'm just taking a huge break I guess. And too bad that you don't live nearby me, otherwise we could work out together. That would be fun haha

Bomb went off at the Boston Marathon, I hope my runner friends are okay. In other news I wonder which news story needs to be supressed right now.

Originally Posted by Original Poster

Bomb went off at the Boston Marathon, I hope my runner friends are okay. In other news I wonder which news story needs to be supressed right now.

Wow, I just looked this up, that's terrible.... It doesn't look like they know much about it yet, do they?

Anyway, I hope your friends are okay too.

Yeah luckily there's a number to check on runners, if anyone else had friends at the marathon you can call 617-635-4500. So far it seems everyone I know is okay.

In good news, I found $300 today that somehow got separated from my main cash-stash. That puts me right about on target to buy a used car this month, as long as I can get my license straightened out in that time. Oh, and figure out where, what and how I want to buy

Lucid dream last night.

After another day of crippling rejection (kind of, I was told my story was good but I had major technical errors without any examples thereof) and that caused me to be really unproductive, I am going to focus on being positive tomorrow, no matter what. I know I will eventually publish a book and get even a modicum of success. Rather than dwell on the low points, I will focus on the fact I am young in a good career, with a good life, and a rewarding hobby.

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Originally Posted by oneiroer

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Rave: I finally mastered the basics of self-hypnosis for lucid dreaming. Within maybe 5-10 minutes, I was able to get into a dream-like state instantly, through pure thought, my whole body relaxes and gets "paralyzed" quickly, especially my hands and my feet. I could've spent more time in the dream, and I even did DEILDs really easy as if they were nothing.

I never knew inducing the lucid dreaming state could be so easy.


Well, guess I'll be going back to dream recall again, especially since I can do this pretty much anytime I want. Feels good that I don't have to battle with my ego with this kind of stuff, hopefully things will get better, but I'm sure it will. Finally getting the drive of thinking of what to do in my dreams now, and I still have more time during the day and the night to do this, my life is getting a little easier now.

FINALLY.

Originally Posted by Tiresias

After another day of crippling rejection (kind of, I was told my story was good but I had major technical errors without any examples thereof) and that caused me to be really unproductive, I am going to focus on being positive tomorrow, no matter what. I know I will eventually publish a book and get even a modicum of success. Rather than dwell on the low points, I will focus on the fact I am young in a good career, with a good life, and a rewarding hobby.

Don't lose hope, Tiresias. Even J.K. Rowling was rejected several times before Scholastic decided to publish Harry Potter, and you know how that worked out.

Never give up, never surrender!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

Rave: I finally mastered the basics of self-hypnosis for lucid dreaming. Within maybe 5-10 minutes, I was able to get into a dream-like state instantly, through pure thought, my whole body relaxes and gets "paralyzed" quickly, especially my hands and my feet. I could've spent more time in the dream, and I even did DEILDs really easy as if they were nothing.

I never knew inducing the lucid dreaming state could be so easy.


Well, guess I'll be going back to dream recall again, especially since I can do this pretty much anytime I want. Feels good that I don't have to battle with my ego with this kind of stuff, hopefully things will get better, but I'm sure it will. Finally getting the drive of thinking of what to do in my dreams now, and I still have more time during the day and the night to do this, my life is getting a little easier now.

FINALLY.

Can you make a guide for this? Hypnosis always has interested me.

Originally Posted by melanieb

Don't lose hope, Tiresias. Even J.K. Rowling was rejected several times before Scholastic decided to publish Harry Potter, and you know how that worked out.

Never give up, never surrender!

I appreciate this a lot. I am starting to reconsider a full rewrite and just target areas where my character development was weaker or rushed as well as removing all my inner monologues in favor of dialogue of some type. It will be a lot of work, but I think if I put the time into it, it will be a better book without a huge rewrite.

Originally Posted by Tiresias

Can you make a guide for this? Hypnosis always has interested me.

I made a guide that was for another goal, but the concept is still the same, I'll post it on your profile wall.

EDIT: Sorry, forgot the guide is on another forum and not also on the sub-forum. Maybe in the future I'll make a guide for that.

My entire evening yesterday can be summed up by this picture:


Unfortunately, I was the guy doing the arguing. I made the mistake of posting an opinion on a circle-jerk "let's funnel cash into the DHS!" post on facebook, and made a LOT of (pretentious, racist, and flat-out logically WRONG) people angry. Not that I ever see them in real life anymore, but the insults to my evidently sub-par intelligence still stung. Ah well, that's life I guess.

I really need to learn to be cautious about what I say around those kinds of people.

Originally Posted by SnowyCat

My entire evening yesterday can be summed up by this picture:


Unfortunately, I was the guy doing the arguing. I made the mistake of posting an opinion on a circle-jerk "let's funnel cash into the DHS!" post on facebook, and made a LOT of (pretentious, racist, and flat-out logically WRONG) people angry. Not that I ever see them in real life anymore, but the insults to my evidently sub-par intelligence still stung. Ah well, that's life I guess.

I really need to learn to be cautious about what I say around those kinds of people.

Sorry to hear that SnowyCat, in the end, no one really wins other than whoever has the most people who "likes" their opinion, and even then, it's just petting the ego. As long as you know why they're wrong and you can prove it, they're just a few out of billions of people to worry about. People who gravitate into being unapologetic in their beliefs and being honest may not be liked by others, but at least they know when you give your opinion, you're going to stick to it unless something compelling shows up for you to modify it. (who like you said are pretentious and have lack of resolve in their own opinions)

It's when people want to stop the argument and start putting words in people's mouths (like, ooooh so you're saying this for that, but this is also in that and blah blah blah blah blah) is when you know they're running out of options (even assuming what you said applies to all scenarios and every probable event, even though it was just one scenario you were focused on).

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

I made a guide that was for another goal, but the concept is still the same, I'll post it on your profile wall.

EDIT: Sorry, forgot the guide is on another forum and not also on the sub-forum. Maybe in the future I'll make a guide for that.

Much appreciated. I have tried to do the hypnosis way, but there's so much information that it's hard not to drown.

"Calm down, it's not that serious!" I'm sorry, but what? It's not that serious? Right. Do you have a possible psycho after you? Does he know where you live? Do you live in fear that he will just willy nilly stop by? No. So shut the hell up, dumb ass. At least I'm not stupid enough to put dates and times and the names of everyone going on a trip. News flash: YOU DON'T PUT THAT ON THE INTERNET!!! But oh no, this doesn't matter to you. You don't have a care in the world. It's all glitter and rainbows! Next time, don't freaking tag me in a post that let's the world know about a trip, moron! Now I don't want to go! Someone has to guard the house.

Didn't get the job.... I was actually expecting as much when I began recounting what I said at a few points.
Oh well, at least I volunteered to speak and put myself out there, even if what I said was redundant and stupid.
Fuck this sucks. Back to handing out resumes.... or self-loathing and wanting to just leave this shitty society.

So.... apparently my experience is good but other people's matched better.
Mhmmm, okay.... so.... WHY THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN INTERVIEW ME!?!?!!?!
FUCK YOU!!!!

Originally Posted by tommo

So.... apparently my experience is good but other people's matched better.
Mhmmm, okay.... so.... WHY THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN INTERVIEW ME!?!?!!?!
FUCK YOU!!!!

I know how this feels, many times, i lost my trust in jobs now, all i see is wanted posts on stores being forever posted and they don't put it down when they - 1- don't need anyone or 2- already found someone. So what's the point in these posts i see posted up and still there for months and months, i loathe job society now, it's actually taunting us.
There's 2 stores that leave their wanted posts outside the store and sometimes i feel like going in there and tell them to remove it because obviously they don't need anyone because i already tried to apply and no one called back, and stop trying to mislead job seekers when they don't need someone at the time, i don't care if they need it for the next 3 months, just fucking take it down and post it up when you need someone!!!
People are so damned lazy!