Thread: 365 days w/o Jerking Off: A self control challenge

I want to share my personal experience, which could sound motivating or not.

When I decided to drop out Internet pornography I started a 30 days no masturbation challange. I failed many times, but in the end I kinda achieved it. It was not completly avoiding masturbation, since sometimes when I was lying in bed I started to swing nicely, and some other times I let my hand move a bit... by the way I had been able to take control back every time and I spent 40+ days without an orgasm, beggining on the end of October 2013. I also haven't had sex during those days (unfortunatly).
It has been a very strange period of my life. After the first week or so I was practically unable to sleep and I spent my time recording strange improvised tracks with my instruments in my garage late at night. Past emotional issues aroused in me during that time, but it was too early for them. Months later I was still suffering remembering the pain I felt and I seriously decided that, if I had been 40+ days without an orgasm, I could become asexual. Failed in this of course.

Currently I feel completly fine masturbating, also frequently Sometimes I got caught back by porn again, but now I absolutely don't need it and I nor remember the last time I saw a porn video

Originally Posted by Synergeon

I want to share my personal experience, which could sound motivating or not.

When I decided to drop out Internet pornography I started a 30 days no masturbation challange. I failed many times, but in the end I kinda achieved it. It was not completly avoiding masturbation, since sometimes when I was lying in bed I started to swing nicely, and some other times I let my hand move a bit... by the way I had been able to take control back every time and I spent 40+ days without an orgasm, beggining on the end of October 2013. I also haven't had sex during those days (unfortunatly).
It has been a very strange period of my life. After the first week or so I was practically unable to sleep and I spent my time recording strange improvised tracks with my instruments in my garage late at night. Past emotional issues aroused in me during that time, but it was too early for them. Months later I was still suffering remembering the pain I felt and I seriously decided that, if I had been 40+ days without an orgasm, I could become asexual. Failed in this of course.

Currently I feel completly fine masturbating, also frequently Sometimes I got caught back by porn again, but now I absolutely don't need it and I nor remember the last time I saw a porn video

This mentality is so strange. I masturbate fairly frequently, and I have sex regularly, but I don't feel compelled to break up my day to satisfy either. I have really strong willpower too, so I guess there's where the discrepancy is, but wow, that sounds super rough. Glad you are in control of it.

December 14 (or earlier by some days) to December 30, at about 4 AM: Successful except for dreams starting up then (oh, what's the difference - it's "not public information" yet it is in my mind regardless if I say it or not) failed because "I" (I really don't want to say I did such) decided to stop waking to it. Around Dec. 24-26 however, I actually started feeling physically painful.

December 31-Jan 3: Success. I even had one dream that woke me up, but I woke up not to messed up pants because I prayed to not do that. I genuinely hope to Jesus that I don't fall into temptation here or at any other time.

Also, you know what? Years ago I was (if it's not a completely fake memory) very mad at myself come 2011 or so, Whensoever I had done any sexual anything. Then when I started to get to talk to it with Dad (as I hadn't had any such talk when I was 13 because I avoided it saying "I know, I put the puzzle pieces together because I saw talk of it on the internet" which I had) I was driving; But, I wanted to rear-end collide with a truck because I hated myself so much. "I hate myself and want to die" was on my repertoire of songs even two years later much to my painful mindset. I wanted to stab myself to death in 2011 because I hated myself so much. (I'm not against sex, but being haunted by porn and asinine thoughts in public is not my idea of living.) Eventually I finally saw a Bible website (July 2012, linked in an AC/DC video on Youtube of all places) and later on got some Bibles (Which were already in the house) and started going to Church. Things started getting better from then on as I changed. Seriously, it was either that or go back to being a deadbeat. I never changed antifreeze in a car without doing it.

I sincerely believe the Bible's advocation of staying away from adultery and fornication is good. Though without action there's no point to all of this talk, is there?

Anyway! Four days in, but I'm not going to set a time limit here.

Originally Posted by 101Volts

I sincerely believe the Bible's advocation of staying away from adultery and fornication is good. Though without action there's no point to all of this talk, is there?

God is not real.
Good luck, though.