had some more good progress the other morning. got up for about an hour then went back to bed. this time i kept it extremely simple but it resulted in the most conscious wild so far. i just relaxed my body bit by bit and tried to keep my mind awake by focussing on hearing each individual car that went past in the distance. in previous attempts i have only become lucid after the dream has started, so there is always a gap but this was different. i was suddenly aware that i was in a dream after a tiny lapse in consciousness. however this time the dream had not started yet and the gap was so small that i was still lying on my bed.
i could tell the room was slightly different so had no need to rc. i remembered that all i had to do in this state was get up. as i did i became partially aware of my real body at the same time, and felt a little tingling as i was seperating. this may have caused problems in the past but i kept focus and just stood up on my bed. i didnt bother to llok for my real body because i didnt really expect to see anything. although its the closest to an obe ive had, it still just felt dreamlike so there didnt seem any point in testing anything out. it didnt last long, but was just so easy to pull off (apart from the years of practice of course). when it comes down to it, it really is just as simple as consciously relaxing your body and letting your mind do its own thing. so this couls still just have been dreaming about having an obe, but i think it was pretty much my first time going through what i think people describe as the phase? must just remember to do longer wbtbs and also to get as damn comfy as i was that morning.
since then there always seems to be something in my body which takes my attention, but that morning i was just so relaxed i could bring on the buzz so easily. its very odd though because ive been trying to do this for ages, and it was amazing and will get better with time, but for some reason im still an ungrateful sod... how come i am bringing such magic experiences into my life yet still cant really get excited about anything? perhaps its the whole not being able to share it with anyone aspect of it?
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