Turquoise Dreams

Finally, thank you Lord! I have much less stress in my life.

I'm able to spend some time LDing and meditating. Mostly focusing on my betterment, healing, creating my own future... based on spirituality and it's link to science.

In my absence, I have had a random DILD here and there and some WILD experiences. Mostly recently, after I started focusing on it again.

Last week I watched youtube videos about meditating, past life regression, healing and creating our own future with power of our mind. Then I WILDed with intent of visiting a past life.
I had a bunch of exits. One of them took me into a village with some women and kids in front of an old house. I didn't see the surroundings, but I felt that we are inside of castle walls. I walked up to them and wanted to shake her hand. I asked her what's her name. But she didn't reply.

When I woke up, first thing I did was say Irene Ridel Stone. I have no idea why I said that and I don't recall having any dream with that name. Just for the heck of it, I googled that name and one result came up. Woman living somewhere in US, who died 4 years before I was born.


Yesterday (monday) I watched some youtube videos for relaxing, healing, creating own future, akashik records, past lives...
Took 3x300 Alpha GPC at 6:40am
Took 2x4 galantamine about hour later.
WILDed to deep relaxation video.
Woke up at 10:30 from what I estimate was 1hr long event.

I remember I couldn't get up or float up or wiggle myself out to roll out. Nothing worked. Everytime I was just there. In between, I realized I'm still asleep and I entered another landscape.

1. I'm flying at night close to the ground with ocean on my left. I'm trying so hard to steer that way but the force that's flying me is so much stronger and it won't let me go there. (I love ocean).

2. Nighttime again. Someone points out the Moon. I look at it with amusement, knowing, that I tried so many times to get there, but never succeeded. I'm not gonna try. A man behind me dressed in black with old fashioned hat tells me that he can get me there. I understand that he has powers. He grabs me and I jokingly say "oh, you gonna just throw me there"?. He does that, but it doesn't work.

3. I'm asking to see my past life. Another exit and I'm so happy. It's daytime. Sun is shining bright and it's a beautiful day. Everything so clear. I'm in front of my parents house. Instead of a small thick forest with lush trees and grass there is a small forest with palm trees. But there is no grass and sandy soil is very dry. Short palm trees are all laying down in all directions, as if from drought. I'm thinking that this is not past, but maybe future. When after climate change it will be warm enough for tropical plants to grow in Europe, and it will be dry.

I'm happy to have this what it thought will be the last lucid.

4. But then I materialize in a huge hall. A man walks up to me and hands me about 10 folders. Shows me a desk where I can look at it. It's my past lives. He says "if you need more, guy in Istanbul can tell you more". (just before WILDing, I read a few entries from my DJ. I know I have many dreams from Peru and from Istanbul. Not sure what came first, haha. Me living in Istanbul in a past life and that's why I have so many dreams from there, or I just read my dreams about istanbul, that's why the guy in this lucid said it).

But I ask him if I can look at the library instead. The wall on the left is huge, full of books and it's fascinating. I start walking around. A hallway that looks like in a theater takes me to a short stairway leading down. There is some people standing next to it and I understand it's not advisable to go down. That's where dead people go. I see some people down there and I know they are dead, and also a lady standing on top where I am. But for some reason she didn't go down yet.

5. Oh yeah. There was another exit. This time to a sunny ocean view. Beautiful tropical see, I fly to it and this time I'm able to go and enter water while grinning ear to ear from happiness.

6. Also, got lucky in 2 separate exits. : )


I'm super happy about my experience. I know there is something more to this life than what we see.

Lol I got logged out while typing this. Thank god it got saved : )

Not much of a recall lately. Got me a new bottle of Galantamine, excited to make time and WILD soon.

This was maybe 4 days ago...

Apocalyptic world, people sick from some epidemic. I remember getting out to the street and telling others, we should have picked up some baseball bats and other weapons in the walmart we just walked through.

I somehow get to a one story house. I'm their "help". Nobody is there, only me and ozzy. I'm fetching some soda for him from the fridge, then he wants to have sex with me. Remind me of The Handmaids Tale I watched recently.

Was intense, kinda liked the feel of the dream.

Last night bed around 8 pm

WBTB 2:14 am - 4:11 am

2:41am - 3x 300 alpha GPC (300 more than normal 600 dose)
4:11am 8mgs Galantamine

I was really sleepy and ready to fall asleep just on time, about 15 min into taking GM, 2hr 45 min into taking GPC.

But dangit, had to get up 4 times, every time when I was on the verge. I got pissed (and I realized that I shouldn't have, because no problem is big enough to put me in bad mood and nix my WILDing chance). So I just said ef it and laid on my side, knowing that I had WILDs here as well, so I knew I can still do it. I just couldn't lay on my usual WILD position on my back with pillows anymore.

So I finally fell asleep just as the GM was one hour into it's effect, on the top of it, and so was GPC, at it's peak at 3 hrs after taking it.

I was in a dream in some situation 100% sure I'm not dreaming. To prove it to someone, I counted my fingers. There was 6, then 8, then over 10. I realized I'm dreaming.

Started walking around and remembered the Turn the Moon blue TOTM. Looked for the Moon, but didn't see it, again. So I remembered some personal goals I set my intent on doing during WBTB. I turned around thinking - behind me is my past life. I looked, but I don't think it was behind me. When I turned back in front of me, there was a distant scene. All lit in deep blue, silver, black illumination. Almost like light through blue ice. 5-6 steps, made of stone, very long ones. Like leading to a throne. 3-4 warriors were standing on those stairs. Dark looking, scary, ominous. Holding spears. Reminded me of those frozen warriors from Thor movie, that Thor went to fight to their frozen planet.

I turned away thinking it's too scary and no way I'm gonna explore that. But next second I changed my mind and got excited about my decision to actually go there and see if it's really dangerous, or if some adventure awaits. Since I learned that not everything that looks scary actually is and it's good to overcome your fears. (I'm also doing this in my lucids when I'm exploring houses.)

After this, I found myself in some sexual situation. I was already losing lucidity here, so majority of this was in a non-lucid.

Some private house, getting ready for a sx party. Closing curtains and such, undressing. Lots of preparations. Not sure if it even got to any action. I know someone was there whom I knew, and rules were that if that happens, you can leave, coz that's awkward. But that person happend to be my boss in WL and they said No, I can't leave. Lol, being screwed over at work is translating beautifully into my dreams, haha.

I'm off today, but wasn't planning on WILDing. Then I woke up around 1am and wasn't able to fall back asleep.

So I got up, watched some TV and took

2x300 Alpha GPC - 2:47am
8mgs Galantamine - 3:53am

and went back to sleep on the sofa.

Next thing I know, I'm sitting up, laying down, sitting up, laying down... over and over.
I realize I'm dreaming and I added some feet to head flat sliding motion. Then I hovered out of the room in the same position.

I decided right away that I want some sx, after not LDing for about 3 wks. I got some 2 long sx episodes.

Next time, i don't remember how, but I ended up on the street. Started walking slowly. I noticed how good my awareness is and how long it lasts. I wanted to do something meaningful, haha, so I kneeled down and started to pour dirt through my hands while noticing how it feels.

Then I remembered the TOTM - change the moon to blue. I read what dreamvixen said in the thread and at that time I decided that I want to do this task.

I looked up and it was at night, but overcast. I kept looking for the moon. Did the "hey look, there is the moon", but it didn't work. That's when I said forget it and got some more sx.

I was captured by nazis. This female officer had me stand in the middle of the small room. She started unbuttoning my sweater. I got a bit nervous. She was saying something, but I don't remember what. Then she slowly unbuttoned my white shirt. I started to ask her not to continue, but I knew it's useless. I started to notice other people sitting on simple wooden chairs on the left side, by the wall. And I better put the rest in my private DJ. Sorry. I can say though, that after a while of not having happy endings, I had at least 2 last night. And this coz someone called me a nazi yesterday : D

Last night
bed 10:30 pm
GPC (600 mgs) - 3 am
WBTB - 4 am - 4:45 am
GM (8mgs) - 4:45 am - sofa time
Got up at 5:15am to potty, then lay on my left side and WILD
LD estimate - 40 min long

Woke up from a 40 min lucid at 6:45.

1. Climbing
In a huge, gymnasium size room. Climbing up on ropes, ledges, jumping from one to next with incredible ease. Feels great.

2. Phone TOTM
I decide to see if anybody is calling, so I pull out my phone from my pants pocket, same as in last dream. I'm thinking about holding it to my ear with my shoulder, but don't want to drop it while climbing that high. I couldn't make it ring, so another TOTM fail.

3. Tell me a story TOTM
In a room with tons of DCs. I remember the "Ask a DC to tell you a story" TOTM.
I walk up to a young asian woman. I ask her to tell me a story. She says "NO". I'm like "wut?" So I walk up to another woman to my right, standing with group of friends. I again ask her to tell me a story. She is obviously looking for words, but I sense a rejection. While I wait, I lose interest and move on, and possibly lose lucidity here for a bit.

4. Smoke monsters
Probably same building. Someone says something about some monsters outside. I look outside peeking through the door and there is a huge smoke figure. Looks like a tornado reaching from ground to high into the skies, in faint shape of a humanoid figure. It's all moving, you can see the dark smoke swirl and move.

We try to run, but as I look behind next corner, another smoke figure is coming from there, and another one from third direction. We kinda run around a bit in a panicked chaos.

5. Your mind is a room - take the elevator to the deepest levels TOTM - success
I find myself in a medium sized, almost empty room. Something like a lobby, but on upper levels. I remember this TOTM and say out loud, very clearly and articulately: This room is my mind. I repeat it once more.

When I'm satisfied that it's so, I say "there is an elevator behind me". (When reading this TOTM and one attempt during the WBTB, I decided that UP is the way to go to the deepest/highest levels of my mind. Plus I don't like to go down, because of the negative association with that.)

I turn and walk to the barely visible door in the wall. I open it and walk into another, much smaller room, but it's not the elevator. I walk through another door and I force it to be an elevator by walking to the wall and looking for controls until I see them. They are the regular 1-9 numerals. I can't decide if it should be 1 or 2, and while another person presses some number, I look for an arrow UP and when I find it, I press it. The controls are barely visible. They are same shiny metallic as the rest of the wall, and flush with the wall. Hard to see. I make it to the top floor.

The door opens into a busy, bustling room which looks like produce section of a grocery store. There are tables with fruits and vegetables and people taking care of them. (ok, so now my real life job is my subC?) Anyway, I'm surprised by this.

6. Yeah, there was sex ofc.

I did a lot of hovering, flying up with ease, and when it started to be hard, I just forced it to be easy again by not forcing it, just by knowing it's easy.

Last night, bed 10:30pm. Took a long 2-3 hr nap in the afternoon, till 5-6pm or so.

3;05am - 2x300 Alpha GPC
4:37 - up for WBTB
5:08 - 2x4 mgs Galantamine and sofa time

Had a long lucid, estimate 45+ min. Woke up after 8am.

I got a head rush quite fast, wasn't sure I will be able to fall asleep to coincide with that. But I guess I did. Had a strong headrush and falling backwards sensation, at least 3 times throughout the 45+ min experience.

Had an awesome beginning of a lucid, but all I remember is how incredibly happy I was, grinning from ear to ear. Have no clue what I did, but remember thinking "this is good, or finally", or something to that effect. Anyway, i love that exhilarating feeling.

I started with trying to rotate my dream body as I normally do, and added some hand and leg movements.

I spent most of the dream outside, walking through large cities.

1. Modern city, skyscrapers, tons of DCs on sidewalks. There was a plot. Some huge monster was coming and people were running. I decided to spin to change the dreamscape. I actually pulled it off and got to another city.

2. Second, even more modern city. I think here I tried the April TOTM - point at a DC, yelling Abracadabra and see what happens.

I did this to at least 8 different DCs. I remember the last one. Businessman walking fast with a clipboard under his arm. As I yelled and pointed at him, he stopped, gave me a quizzical look and kept walking. Couple times I remember thinking "what is gonna happen to them?", but nothing happened. They all stayed the same and went on with their business. I wondered if I am suppose to do some magic, but I figured it's the spell that's suppose to do it.

3. Trying to fly up to the space, but not having any luck. Looking for a spaceship to take me there. No luck.

4. Getting up to the skies, but not too high. Trying to see the stars, it took them a while to show up in full beauty.

5. Came up to a group of young people on the floor. They said in their culture, there is only s*cking. I told them we also do f*cking. They seemed intrigued.

6. Jumping, gradually higher and bigger distances. Didn't jump over a building yet.

7. There was this girl and for some reason I kissed her. She kept her mouth shut and I was ok with that. Then I though wait a minute, no, and let my tongue loose. It felt incredibly real.

I have to remember to stop and retell myself previous parts of a dream, so I remember it at the end.

Last night bed around 9:30pm

Woke up at 3:50 am - 2x300 Alpha GPC and went back to sleep some more
Woke up at 5:16 am - got up for WBTB
2x4 mg GM 5:40 am and to the sofa for a WILD
up at 7:45 from lucids

My cat was laying on me the whole time, keeping me very light asleep and even waking me up at least 1-2 times. I was having hard time falling asleep so I wanted to try on my side, but cat was laying on me, haha.

Throughout the whole time I was trying to do the IMP - impossible movement, or just my old style moving my body to see if I'm already asleep. This also after I woke up and didn't think I'll get into lucid again. But it helped a lot and I did.

I have a good memory of the whole thing, because half way through I realized that I can just pause and retell the previous parts to myself to remember them. I used to retell them to myself during transitions between DEILDs, but I don't have transitions between them anymore.

I fell asleep and was trying to get up, but couldn't. Couldn't stand up or float up. I got up, walked a bit then got pulled back. I was thinking kinda upset that this will be second time in a row when I didn't get lucid.

But then I got up again and started walking away, when I remembered what I wanted to for years now but never did. I returned to my sofa and looked at it! It was empty. But it was the exact replica of my sofa placed in same position and location and what I felt but didn't see a copy of my real room. The sheets were of the right color (darkish blue grey) with wrinkles and all and a cover peeled to the side. I got so happy and told myself "great, I'm not there, look, because I'm in a dream". As in away from the bed, haha.

LUCIDS

1.
First I was in some industrial complex. We were sleeping in some service room. I was venturing out from there looking for stuff to do. Started climbing this building but the outside was not stable. People on the ground were asking why the heck I'm doing it. I just wanted to get up high.

2.
I was trying to figure out what to do. When I remembered Pk's jumping over stuff idea. So I started to run, but that woke me up.

3.
I wanted to grow myself big again even though I knew I have already tried. Not sure if I remembered that I didn't finish the task last time. I started to grow, but then I felt my feet disconnect from the ground and got disappointed. I started to shrink again, and I did this a few times. I didn't really feel myself grow, but I was watching the ground. Large puddles of water and moonlight reflecting off of them, they were getting smaller and decided to watch my progress like that.

4.
I'm in a crowd of people, walking around. I catch a reflection of me in a window. I have man's underwear on and there is something in it. Pull it off and there is a huge pen0r. It looks ugly, all bumpy, curvy, colors from pink to angry red. The end is wrapped in some tissue. I unwrap it and walk up to a girl. We sit down and start to kiss and touch. It never gets further, but not because I didn't try.

Somewhere in the middle of the experience I try to estimate the length of it and I come up with 40 min. The dream, haha, not the pen0r.

5. Ask subC what my DV avatar means - fail - TOTM
I'm outside on a busy city street. I'm watching the DCs walk by. They are all different, with different attires and I'm happy I see DCs. Then I remember the TOTM. I turn to a young man and about to ask him the question, when I remember it's not suppose to be DC, but my subC.

I walk away a few steps from him, wait a second and look up at the skies to make sure it's clear I'm not asking him. And I say out loud with clear and articulate voice.

"What my ... ( I search for a word here) DV avatar means?"

I keep looking up at the sunny skies, but I get no answer. Only some not so distant noise, like a rumbling.

6. Help someone cross the street - success - TOTM
I walk another block away from there when I think of another task. I recall the "make a tea" task but I know that's the only one I completed.

So I think of the Help someone cross the street. It was nice and sunny. There is a lot of DCs. A young "sister" which for some reason I believe is French is walking towards me. I grab her by the arm and tell her:

"C'mon, I will help you cross this street. There are no cars here, but that's ok. Just a few more minutes and we are there. Here is the sidewalk." And as I said it, I heard a grey older type car coming by and I was happy that my help was now not so silly looking. I got her to the other side of a not so wide street to the sidewalk with grass. Then we started french kissing. Since she was French.

7. Drive a car (rip out engine and wheels) - success - TOTY
I remember another TOTM (actually a TOTY but I don't know that). And I feel the urgency as I feel like I may be waking up.

I actually remember this task when I see a huge, old type, german car with no top parked by the sidewalk. It's matte black with some gothic looking style. It's a bit menacing.

I open the hood and it's empty, so I open another and another. Seems like the hoods are layered, haha. But there is no engine in any of the compartments.

I walk around to the other side and look at the wheels. They are huge, rugged, black, dirty and warn out from heavy use. I KNOW it's easy to rip them off, so I grab one and pull it off. It comes off right away. I move to the next one and do the same. The belly of a car is dirty from many roads it traveled. I see something that looks like another wheel deep under the car. But I dismiss it knowing that it doesn't belong there, it's just my subC messing with me. Besides, I didn't want to get dirty climbing under to get it. As I think that, I don't see it any more.

The car is full of people all dressed in clothes from era of the car. I'm thinking pre-WWII, Germany. First and I think second row is taken, so I sit in the second or third. I will make it work, even if I'm not behind the wheel.

There is a dude sitting behind me and he does something that I can't even say what : D

So I sit down and I'm looking at the lady behind the wheel. I ask for the keys. I have to ask again and someone turns to me with keys in his hand. I take them and I ask for ignition. I ask again and it appears in the headrest of the seat in front of me. I put the key in and turn it. The car starts. I look at the wheel and I make it turn the way I want. We cross the intersection where I helped that nun cross the street when the street dips down. I will it to fly over it, realizing we should be on the surface, so after the dip (which looks like construction site of a highrise) we kinda land on the street again.

Here I wake up and decide to write it all down.

There was classic sex with a dude somewhere in there too, but I remember I was also doing something else at the time, like a split person. Same thing happened last time. Ain't nobody got time for that. hahaha

I'm so stoked

Thank you my subC, you the best

Same nite as Grow yourself big to reach the moon attempt before the WBTB. http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/gab/

So after the alarm woke me up at 4 am, I stayed up for a WBTB

WBTB 4am-5:30am (I was so stoked from a random lucid, that I couldn't sleep sooner. Plus, that is my usual waking time so I had to fight my body's urge to "wake up for the day" and stay in the sleepy mode.)

I already took 2x300 Alpha GPC at 3 am, but I felt like I used that up for that random lucid, and since my WBTB was so long, I took another 600.

5:30am
- 2x300 Alpha GPC
- 2x4 Galantamine

Sofa at 5:30 am
Woke up from lucids at 7:52

I estimate lucid was about 60 min long, maybe bit longer. I could tell the extra choline made a difference. I was getting headrush and entering lucids at much faster pace than normally, and the headrush was very intense.

I don't remember much details, since there were no breaks in lucidity when I could retell my lucids to myself. And I slept more after I wrote down a few keywords.

Ok, so there was a TON of sex in this one. It was happening with some invisible entity, for a long time. But there was some problem, he may have forgotten to take my pants off. Then bunch of other scenarios with chicks and dudes.

After much walking and exploring, I remembered the TOTM Make a cup of tea and report how it tastes"

I start looking for some place to make the tea. I see some fire on some snow covered ground. I decide to go closer and use it. Hoping to see people there who will have cups and stuff. But there are 2 dogs by the fire. Another fire is nearby and I see a cat by it. I come closer and as I'm wishing for it to be a fox, it turns into a fox. He is not very friendly, starts to chase me away. Needles to say, he didn't have any cups : D

I come to a market place and I search the stalls. There are some glass colored tea cups on one of them, with some liquid in them. I ask "is this hot water"? Vendor says no, it's tea. Well, that's not what I need. I grab one cup, dump the liquid from it and I ask the vendor to put a bag of tea in it. She is putting some in her cup as well, but it's not a bag, it's lose tea. I'm ok with that and she sprinkles some in my cup. There is a pot with semi hot water and I pour that in my cup. I hope I don't burn myself when I taste it. It taste like rose-hip tea. Kinda mild flavor, but very nice. Lukewarm, not hot at all.

After that I go for some more sx and slowly losing lucidity, until some long dream in singapore or other major asian metropolis, in a hotel with my brother and his wife. Not sexual haha, we were just there.

Did some flying, didn't see much, looking at hands to make it more clear, didn't really work.

Last night bed 9:46pm
GPC - 3:30 am - went back to sleep, didnt fall asleep till after 4am
GM - 5:06 am
sofa - 5:23 am - fell asleep shortly after 6am
woke up 7:45 after last part of a dream was non-lucid

Estimate - about 45 min long lucid
No transitions at all. No realizing that I'm still dreaming and standing up. Just one long event.

After GPC

DREAM 1
I'm falling asleep in a dream, telling someone "shhh" when I start to transition. Then I have to "shhh" my mom. I'm mad, how come they don't understand not to talk to me when I'm WILDing, since I told them about it so many times.

But I pull off the transition, tilting my head and body back to invoke the falling down sensation that helps my transition. I feel my body being lifted out and moved around and I falsely remember "just like that member described on DV".

DREAM 2
A perv walks into my house and grabs me from behind. I squirm but he is not letting go. I'm starting to be scared that he is up to more.

Interesting thing is, that I can clearly feel his touch. Very realistic.

DREAM 3
A group of female activists from some organization are at my house about to call Hillary on the phone. I'm looking at one woman's name badge and I note how fast they were able to make badges with all the hashtag names since I just saw them on twitter that day.

LUCIDS after GM

I'm on a busy road, at night. I remember the car TOTY so I raise my hand in effort to stop a huge truck that's approaching me. It's black and silver and I realize he is too close to stop on time. I duck and decide to let him pass over me and to experience how that feels. I didn't regret it, but I got kinda scared with that big, loud and longer than should be truck rolling over my head.

After that, I picked out another car. I opened the hood and ripped the engine right out. I didn't expect any trouble doing it and so it was very easy to just do it. I lifted the car up and ripped the tire off, one by one. I remember thinking if I got it right, if the wheels should stay and only tires should be removed.

I sat the car back down and I see to my left that a beautiful, shiny blue Formula 1 car just stopped next to us. I was kinda blocking couple lanes of the freeway, haha. I considered ditching the task and do it some other time and take the Formula instead for a joy ride.

I decide to get into my car and just as I imagined, there were no keys. Looked in my right pants pocket, but no keys. I tried to make engine sounds in hope that it will make the car go, but no.

TOTM - Book of Secrets

Later on while running around doing all kinds of stuff, I remembered the book TOTM. I start looking through drawers and cabinets. They are all full of cool stuff. Collections of rocks, all kinds of hardly identifiable things. I'm looking on the streets in campers, in houses, in many rooms. I finally start finding books. Looking at many covers, none come even close to saying "Secrets". For a while I amuse myself by reading, looking away and seeing how it changed. I'm even trying to will the title to change to secret. I try to write it on it with my finger too, but nothing works.

I'm exploring this house. Opening the doors and checking out the rooms. Nothing interesting. Everything is white and chrome colored. I find one room that looks like a bathroom. For some reason I like dream bathrooms, or rather, showers. I step inside while still holding the door. I don't want the door to shut and me getting stuck in there.

The more I look the bigger the bathtub - swimming pool in the bottom of the room gets. When I look third time, it's a size of a small lake, but it's empty. Looks like it's smooth, concrete sides have a bottom that's filled with desert rocks and sand and some small, dry bushes.

I see a light from a camp fire in the distance. I'm hoping there is someone who who would wanna get it on with me so I hover glide there. Not sure if we do it, I think we do.

After that, or before, not sure, I'm in a large, modern sex shop. All the tools are behind glass with lots of attendants ready to help you. There are some almost nude guys ready to help you pick your size, haha.

Ended up having tons of sex, good 20 min of it. I suspect the end was already not lucid, or just barely.

Finally had good conditions to WILD.

Took a nap in the afternoon, so went to bed later.
Last night bed 11:30pm - 2:30am
2:30 am - 2x300 Alpha GPC
2:30am - 3:30 am one more hour of sleep for 4 hrs total
3:30 - 4am - WBTB
3:50 - 2x4 galantamine
4am sofa

Estimated length - 45-60 min

5 am still heard the chime on my watch, after I already turned to both sides than back to my back and finally fell asleep shortly after when I felt first signs of falling asleep.

Woke up 6:27, after last part of the dream was already non-lucid - FA of me writing down my TOTM.

Preparation:
(I wanted to do the opening of a forgotten christmas present, massage, tell pencil to draw. I realized I have not used a pencil in a long time, so before bed I was visualizing how I will pull out a pencil from my back pocket and I thought about if it will be regular one or a mechanical one. I also visualized pulling out my box cutter, cutting the tape on a present and opening it. And how I will open my door and there will be Pandora.)

LUCIDS:

1.
As soon as I realized I'm asleep, I got up and went to my front door, as I visualized it before bed. Opened it but there was nothing. So I went to the window to get out that way.

I flew to the neighbors window and I felt naughty, because I knew it's at night, he is asleep and I will be intruding. I looked in both of his beds which looked like someone slept in them recently, but they were empty. I looked again, and there he was, under a sheet, on his back. I giggled and went down on him. I wish there was a nice way to describe this in detail, but there isn't, so this is all I can say. I was wondering if he will notice and wake up. Another girl joined us. I was like "I didn't need help, but ok."

2.
I'm standing on a street, looking around what to do. There is an area to my left with lots of people, between some trashcans. They are watching something going on and I know I was part of it before. Not as a spectator, but as a performer. From my previous dream you can guess what it was about.

I remember I wanted to do some of the Beginner tasks just for fun. So I kneel down and my hands touch beech sand. It's so soft, like the softest flour, cool to the touch because it's nighttime. I play with it, take it in my hands and let it run through my fingers. I smooth it with my hand and watch the pattern my hands make. (It's so simple but very cool detail and I will do this from now on often.) I decide to look for some seashells and I find a huge mollusk with some seaweed, but it opens and I can tell it's dead. I wonder how come It doesn't smell.

3.
Throughout the whole even, at least 3 times I realized that I can't see well. I brought my hands in front of me and forced myself to see them. They were slowly appearing in better detail, until I was satisfied and moved on.

Somewhere in the middle I realized this is quite a long dream and it's nice and stable, almost no fadeouts, only dream scene changes. I was not worried about it ending or me waking up at all.

4.
I remembered the "Tell pencil to draw something" TOTM.
I sat at a desk, pulled out a pencil from my back pocket (just as I visualized before bed. It was logical, because I carry a pen there at work, but have not seen a pencil in a long time.)

I looked at it as I pulled it out. It was a regular pencil, with forest green shaft, white band at the top and black top. No eraser. I put it down and say "draw something". I look at the desk and there are some marks as if someone draw with an eraser. That's not good, so I ask it again. I lose the scene here.

I end up at the similar table again after something else, pull the pencil out again and this time it's shorter, as if it was drawing a lot in the meantime. Some female is sitting opposite of me and we are talking and watching the pencil. I ask it to draw. It does some calligraphy ribbon on the desk itself, but it doesn't look like a drawing. I look at it and when I look back, surprise! There is a beautiful, technical drawing, like from a blue print, of an airport. 2 runways, 2 passenger buildings with boarding attachments and some perimeter buildings. It's clean, no shading or anything else. Only blueprint, except it's on white paper and with the lead tip.

I pick up the pencil to examine it. I want to read what kind of pencil it is, the manufacturer and anything you can usually see on a pencil.

There is a lot of writing on it, lot more than it should fit. There is something in faded golden letters on every side of this many sided pencil. Left and right side of lettering is faded, the middle is more readable. I look at the lead and it's loose, ready to fall out. Great details.

4.
I am hover flying over the street. I am sooo happy about this. The feeling is incredibly good.

I want to turn but realize I have low control. I decide that it's my dream and I can do whatever I want. So I slow down in nice and controlled way, turn around and fly where I wanted to.


5.
Hrm, the inevitable sex. With others, by myself, came to happy ending 2 or 3 times.

6. FA
I'm at my moms. I rush to the desk ans start writing down my dreams. I draw the airport picture too. If I didn't, I would have not remembered how it looked after I woke up for real.

My brother is in some radio program and so am I. I'm some "performer" and the tell me they will need me to do it now, and also say some commercial. I tell them no way, I'm writing this down first, nobody talk to me till I'm done.

I retreat to my room to continue. My mom barges in telling me stuff, and I yell at her to not talk to me. My dad comes in with vacuum turned on, I yell at him too. Mom tells me through the door that they are leaving to some fun place and to go with them. I don't even reply. I don't want to lose the memory of my dreams.

THANK YOU! I LOVE my higher self, my subC and my mind. My partners and friends. : D

Last night bed at 10 pm.

1am - 2x300 mgs Alpha GPC
3am - WBTB
3:17am - 2x4 mgs Galantamine and sofa
5am? waking up from lucids (forgot to note the exact time)

Started out on my back with my cat across my legs. Noticed some stomach ache and I realized I didn't eat any bread with choline or galantamine as I used to.

Turned to my left side and got lucid almost immediately after.

Non-lucids remembered at 3 am:

DR1:
Me and Ophelia are coworkers. We are together in some town that's not hers or mine. She needs to drive back and it's getting late, so I offer her to sleep over.

As we are walking, she mentions that she got a new job, teaching in Canada. I'm shocked. She says she starts ( I expect to hear "next year"), but she says "next week". I'm so surprised and hurt, I can't even say anything. I suggest that we could both get jobs babysitting in US instead.

DR2:
Still Ophelia, this time at my house. Same scenario, she is leaving, I offer her to stay...

LUCIDS:
1. - Dildo market
I'm walking through some indoor market place. I stop at a stall that displays dildos. Beautiful, dark wood, shiny, glass... All kinds, shapes and sizes. I say I want one, and gorgeous young black dudes lounging near start to giggle. I keep browsing but I don't see what I like. I ask them to show me more. One young, blond beauty says ok, walks to the back with me and starts to undo his pants. I say I would like to test drive some and the black dudes keep giggling. When I'm sitll not seeing what I would like, the offer to make me one and start bringing all kinds of materials. I ask what for and they say "for a display case". Black dudes are now roaring when I reply "NO, I only want the THING".

2. - I'm flying through some futuristic city, high among the sky scrapers. It's at night and cloudy. I see a huge billboard with some scary, cloudy skies. I decide I want to go there and see if i can find some intense place. As I come closer, it changes into an image of some huge factory hall. I decide I don't want to go there and I pull myself out of the image.

3. - Same city, over some highways and freeways partially suspended in the air. I'm watching cars pass by when I remember the TOTM - lift a car and carry it somewhere.

I stop a yellow car with my hand up and I pick it up with my hands. It turns into a radio, so I put it on my shoulder and listen to the music while I go and pick up some more cars. I lift one up and put it on a tractor trailer that's near by, so it still goes somewhere after I stopped it, haha. The driver looking at me is Tom Cruise.
I pick up few more cars, same way by standing in front of them and lifting them with my hands. They are weightless. I move them around a bit and put them down. Just as I practiced during day, haha.

4. I look at the dark stormy cloudy skies and decide to fly there for some action. I am noticing that I'm looking for some intense and normally scary things to do in this lucid.

5. I think this was a first one. I look up at the skies and see something. I don't remember what it was but I straighten up and take of flying there. It is something blue with red.

Oh, before the lucids, I had lots of sex. No happy ending though.

EDIT:
Non lucid.
I'm at work, doing markdowns. A man and a woman come up, showing me a list of floral deliver and they want me to sign for it. Dude swears it's all in there. I tell him we are not allowed to sign, they need to find some kind of a manager. Almost identical to what happened just day before. Amazing.

Last night
bed 8:53pm
2am - 2x300mgs Alpha GPC
3:23am - 2x4mgs GM (lol, I messed up here. Took GM at the beginning of WBTB, not when going to sofa. I was wondering why am I getting sensations so soon after going to sofa, haha.)
3:54 - sofa

Woke up at 6. Stayed sleeping hoping for another LD. I did get it, then I stayed in bed longer, but didn't get more LDs after that.

This was a chain of about 6-7 DEILD including the innitial WILD. Lasted about an hour.
This was different, because I had distinct breaks between LDs, and I even woke up between them being aware of my cats moving about on the sofa with me. Was awesome to be able to count the LDs again.

Pretty much they all started with me not seeing. But I "remembered" that all I need to do is walk around a bit and I will see again. And that's how it was. I tried to make it daytime in one of them and I almost saw some light coming out on one side of my vision, but I didn't wait for it to finish.

In one of them, I think the first one, I was moving my head which I thought was in WL, and I noticed the bright spot which I "knew" was my TV screen. Only later I realized my TV was off, haha.

Between LDs, I was doing all kinds of fun movements. Rocking my body like laying in middle of a seesaw, raising my feet while pushing head down and vice versa, rotating in a circle, rocking from side to side like in a hammock. It's amazing how easily and immediatelly these sensations happen when you just think of them happening.

Boy, I really do love my entry sensations.

I also saw some faces, which I didn't in a long time. This was I guess because I took my GM too soon by mistake. I also saw what I call "yellow-green planet". It's an image behind my closed eyes that resembles frozen moon. I noted that I never get lucid after seeing this image, but I dismissed it quickly, not letting something like that stop me from geting a LD.

I think I was still on my back when I got lucid, but can't recall, only thinking that I will stay on my back longer this time. Normally I would turn on my left side.

So this is what happened in my lucids, not in order of appearance.

1. This actually was the first one. I'm walking down a quiet dark street in a city. From a street ahead on my left, huge, sfinx size lionesses start walking out. Before I duck to the next street, I notice they are all females.

2. I see a street light pole and start climbing on it, hoping for a happy ending. But I can't pull myself up. This is so much easier in non-lucids, haha.

3. I'm walking through a town and I remember the "Find a buffet and see what's to eat" TOTM. I look around and there is a large area with tables and chairs. Not many people sitting there, as the event is mostly over. Not much food left either. Some tables have chafing dishes. I grab a plate and load it with prime rib and mashed potatoes. As I walk with it, I reluctantly decide to taste the potatoes. I correctly remember how in WL I made potatoes recently and had really bad dreams that night. These dream taters were buttery and tasted ok.

4. I'm flying above some modern city. When I see some creatures with black flowing garbs flying a bit above to the right of me. I decide I don't want to have nothing to do with them and I stear left and down. They looked exaclty like thing from acillis's avatar http://www.dreamviews.com/members/acillis/
Haha, I was wondering when will those show up in my dreams : P

5. I'm walking in some modern town, which is really fashion oriented. People are wearing fancy clothes. I look at mine. I have hobo-style green pants that are tucked in my light brown socks, haha. Top is also something reticulous and I chuckle at this joke my mind is making.

6. After a lot of flying above couple different cities, I look at my phone ap. It shows me the map of my route. It's along the California shore, from north to south, not a straight line but making detours here and there. Over central america it crosses over to Atlantic side to Puerto Rico. When I show this to a girl and say it's coast of california, she adds "and Puerto Rico". I think she was from there so it was important to her.

7. This is the only indoors part I remember. I'm looking for my DJ. Somebody points me to a pile of papers and I find one that says my whole legal name on it. I can read it very well. It's marked with red pen. I'm like WTH? Someone says that P. (my WL store director) read it and corrected it. 0_0 I was speachless.

8. Oh yeah, sex. Wasn't very satisfactory. I certainly had better ones. But hey, I'll take it : D

Everytime I was flying, I was able to go higher and faster just by thinking it. I remembered how it was not so easy in all my previous lucids, except maybe last 1-2. This made me even more confident.

This was awesome and I woke up so happy. Thank you, my subC. Love you! We gonna do this again on saturday.

Off today
Last night bed - 10:35
2:35am - 2x alpha GPC
sleep till - 4 am
4am - WBTB
4:30am - 2x 4mg Galantamine

before waking up to take alpha GPC
DR1
I'm a doctor. There are dead bodies washing up on the shore and I'm told to go examine them. It's evening, getting dark and I'm not feeling the task.

DR2
I'm on a hill with some fruit trees. From somewhere, some real people size dolls are appearing tied to the trees. We turn around and there is a rag doll, tied by her arms around the tree and the girl who is with me is happy that she gets another doll.

Yeah, I had spicy food before bed : (

DR3
I'm looking at my watch thinking I messed up. I was suppose to sleep till 4 am and now I woke up too soon, messing up my chance for a WILD.

4:30am - sofa
Fell asleep pretty quick, as I was very sleepy. My head started to buzz as I turned to my left side to fall asleep, after being on my back for a bit.

The head buzz is quite intense. I woke up at 7 am after the lucids.

The whole thing was about 35-40 min long and all in darkness or near darkness. Like at night with bad visibility.

I started out with looking for sex : ( Got undressed, first the bottom, then the top. I remembered how it's not easy for me to get undressed in dreams, because it seems like new garments are showing up on me or I get tangled in so I can never really take everything off. So this time I moved slowly and really paid attention to getting my clothes of. Finally it was done.

I found a few partners but I wanted more.

Then I moved on. Few times I looked at my hands, remembering that I didn't do it in my last lucids. So I look and count the fingers. There is more of them on the left hand and the extra fingers are coming out crooked and short.

I end up on a busy street. I stand in the middle of it and "remember" the TOTM to make a car disappear. I focus on a truck or a bus. It starts to sparkle and colors lose intensity. I wish it to disappear completely and a wave of invisibility washes over it and it disappears.

Then I remembered that the TOTM was to lift a car, not to make it disappear. There are no more cars around, so I fly and I want to land on a prking lot that finally shows up. But I can't steer or slow down.

I remember spinning which was another TOTM. But I don't remember where I ended up, or even if I just remember me practicing spinning last night.


The whole dream was pretty chaotic. Not clear or vivid, except for some small portions of it. Not much awareness either. I was rushing through it, couldn't make it bright and I don't remember if I even tried.

Last night bed at 10pm. I adjusted my waking time for supplements accordingly.

2:30am 2x300 Alpha GPC

Here I remembered a DREAM:
I'm moving a huge low wooden table and I think I somehow move it too fast because it kinda levitates and I don't stop it on time. It bumps into a wall. Or at least that's how I explain to myself the loud bump. Someone walks in from another room wondering what the heck I'm doing.

We look out the window. The darkness of the night is illuminated by bright explosions over the silhuetts of distant tall trees. I have a feeling doomsday war just broke out and those are missiles exploding. (watched a tv show about doomsday with intent to have an intense dream about it and promptly I did have a dream that night, and looks like last night as well)

After Alpha GPC I went back to sleep.

3:30am - got up for a WBTB.
4:05am - 2x4mg pure galantamine and going straight on a sofa. I was so sleepy. Btw, I took a bite of bread because I was getting hungry and didn't want that to bother me while WILDing.

Woke up at 6:07 from continuous dreaming.

I fell asleep rather quickly and wa lucid from the getgo.

About 20 min into a lucid, I noticed a brief change in the setting and I thought to myself "whoa, that's about 20 min of some very aware and detailed lucid".

I believe I kept lucid for the whole 2 hrs, from falling asleep till 6am. It was getting less aware towards the end, but I was still making decisions.

Since my style of LDing had changed and I don't have chains of lucids with brief breaks between dreams, I'm having hard time remembering details. Before, during these breaks between dreams when I was just laying there in gray emptiness, I had time to retell to myself any previous lucids and even count them before realizing I'm still there and dreaming, all I have to do is stand up and be in a dream again.

Now it's just one long contunuous dream with changes of scenery. Last 2 times I had only 2 major sceneries. First part of lucid was outdoors and second was indoors. I don't know why or how, but it seems like a theme now.

In last night's lucid, again, half of the dream I was outside. Flying over places. One of them was a scary fast water in a deep channel. Was so turbulent as if it was rushing out of a dam. Someone I was flying with asked me if I want to go in a water and I said no. So we just flew by the wall, turning away from there, looking for a landing spot. All spots were stone steps carved into a stone, making a narrow staircase going upwards into darkness. Each starcase was creepier than the other.

Next I'm flying over a futuristic city. It's very modern, I'm flying slowly taking my time, making a conscious decision to take in as many details as I can so I remember at least some of it, knowing that I will have hard time remembering. I'm looking at each item trying to memorize it.

NOTES:
(I think this is from me practicing awareness last night and also last week before that lucid. I have noticed already last week that part of my lucid was a bit different. It was more aware and detailed. Same thing happened last night.

Also, last week after my lucid, I felt this strange surge of passion for lucid dreams. I do love them, but this was like I newly discovered them again. New possibilities have opened. Not sure what it is, but I still feel it. )

I walk up the stairs coming from underground. Like from a metro. I notice the air smells different. It smells real and the world is real and the houses and weather are real. I think to myself briefly without having time to ponder on what it means. I cant figure out the difference between the 2 worlds. Until I walked out, I felt that where I was till then WAS real.

Something like when you walk out to sunny afternoon from a dark theater after you saw a movie. You are still in the "movie world" being immersed in the story, you forgot about the world outside and stepping outside it's a bit of a shock.

Ok, so second part of the dream was me walking through endless corridors, rooms, halls, such as in a huge department store. Only different. Some of the corridors are curved, rooms are smaller and bigger with all kinds of items. All very busy. All full of other people.

I go with the theme of me finally seeing DCs that had been absent in most of my prior lucids. And I actully talk to them. I ask a group of DCs who will be the president. I hear myself pronounce their full names clearly and I'm pleasantly surprised and proud of myself. I ask them if it's gonna be Trump or Hillary Clinton. They don't really answer, except one guy who says "25". Haha. I move on and later I ask another group, but they don't know either.

TOTM
While still in the outdoors part of a dream, I remember the TOTM - dig a hole and see what's there. Although now I think the TOTM is "stick your head in the ground and see what's there".

Anyway, I start to dig a hole in the dirt when I get some not so good vibes and I decide I don't want to go what's on the other side of it. So I stop.

Oh yeah, last part was not very lucid. I spent it on... you guessed it... sex. Any which way I could. At least 20 min of it. Not complaining.

After the lucid, I went back to sleep still feeling the GM and choline in my head, hoping for another LD. But didn't get any more. Got up at 9:12, not remembering any dreams from that part.

Reading an article about differences between OBEs and LDs, I just remembered that I was getting some gentle vibrations just before I fell asleep.