Nebulus

D1 - Dreaming that I was living in medieval times, part way through a dream I am at a farm and someone has a sack that is filled with animals. The animals seem to be quiet happy in the bag until I put a black cat in with the white one that is already there. It gives me "the look" suggesting this is not the done thing at all.

D2 - Next I am dealing with a poor person who is being given some kind of wage (I have no idea ) they are looking out of there window over a muddy lane.

D3- There are twins following me up a dark staircase, they are only young boys but I feel I must murder them as they are a threat (twin princes in the tower, if you know your tudor kings and queens of English history). I hit them over the head then slit their throats (nice Oo).

D4 - In a house seemingly filled with kids (poor house ) I go off with a woman and have sex.

I had quite a few dreams, all were in a dark and cold environment.

First I had a quite abstract and hazy dream about counting the numbers 1-9. Each time a number was counted I would be rocketed higher inside a cavernous underground quest. Then my parents were there doing something. And something about a cat too :3

2nd in a poky kitchen, a hippyish woman with lank blond hair was kindly asking if I wanted something she had made. I was unsure about her due to her close proximity, fitting the thing around my neck and face. Also I was unsure as to whether she was giving it to me or trying to get me to buy it. It was made of a star, a cylinder shape and a babies bottle filled with flavoured water. The liquid smelt nice and comforting, I imagined it had cinnamon in it. After she had been talking for a while I noticed she had bags in cupboards and around filled with these products. I felt sorry for her that she had not managed to get rid of any.

I moved away into a corridor adjoining the kitchen. I needed to pee but found I was now a woman with dark almost shoulder length straight hair. I went into one of the cubicles but felt I was being watched so I came out. There was a guy, a stranger, standing just outside the bathrooms. When I went out he went to grab and kiss me, I did not respond as this felt all wrong, I wasn't a woman.
Next we were outside, and he was hiding me as he lay with lots of other soldiers on a pile of sandy earth. He was however unable to hide me and I was pulled up by whoever was in charge when a load of uniform men with guns turned up.
They were wearing uniform that looked like dark grey or black, world war two with rifles.
I was pushed over to a wall where I slumped and was shot at. I had clearly been shot a few times, as there was a load of blood that had splattered.

note: I never know whether to categorise these as nightmare as I don't remember a lot of fear but I know before I have just not recalled the strong emotion. So I just put it down as that as there was a lot of emotional turmoil in the last dream section.

My recall has been mehhh for a while, i've been sick, so my journal entries have got shorter and shorter...Now is the time to plum the depths of my memories to do these scraps justice, and let them loose on the world (well type em up).

D1 - Very vivid dream,I notice in a very small room, that for some reason I know is very high up...Is it an attic maybe? Yes behind me was a hatch door. There is a window with a thin white curtain with bright light streaming in. Anyway I notice a roughly painted hinge on the wall in front of me that is green and blue. It needs touching up with blue paint. So I get a paint brush but no sooner do I than the world literally turns upside down. I hang on for dear life as the room is tipped upside down. I have a feeling of my stomach lurching like on a fairground ride. The room stops moving and I notice a can of black paint has emptied onto the floor, fortunately also a load of clothes seems to have been dumped there too, on top of the paint.
Next the room starts to move again and the hatch behind me flies open, I hang on desparately again, feeling im going to fall any minute.

D2 - With my parents somewhere in the countryside I need to go pee, so I leave them in search.
I head down a path in the afternoon sun, it heads down between trees on a woodland path.
They're are people about everywhere so I can't find anywhere to pee. I search and search, eventually I try and head back the way I came and come across some kind of cave. I have a great deal of trouble getting out, it is very dark and cold. There is a European woman with blonde hair there. I have to climb up a stair case which seems to be made of dental plastic braces things, ugh. They are moving all over the place making my progress very unsteady.
Eventually I get out and am near a pavilion style hut and a boy steps out and shoves me in the right direction. I get to a type of marble underground station. I think it is called "talos" but am unsure.
I have a old fashioned gold wrist watch with buttons on it that I use as a phone to try and contact my family. I get through to them but feel I am lost and can't get back to them as I don't know whether I am imagining thing or am where I think I am. Desperately I use my powers to transmit myself hologram style to where they are but my powers fade and I am lost.

Writing in sand, which obviously does not work that well. Seemed to be writing in blood or something.

Freaked out by the dark of my parents attic at night in the dark

D1 - Beautiful large black and brown bordered tarot cards are being used to play a game, I am at a loss as how to play. I am told by a self assured blond man who is the dealer that I should use the cards that match based on electricity. The cards have electricity flashing across them.
I meet a guy outside this tavern and talk about something.

D2 - [Repeating work dream] At a workplace I am talking to my boss and explaining that an invoice has been accepted as the company is a professional business and not a small personally run operation. We are standing next to a giant printer (used to have one like this at work, the width of a large desk, with a glass top). A printout comes through and it become apparent that I have missed a deadline for some paperwork (24th Sept). My boss is unimpressed and I go off to see what paperwork is missed. I find I only have a few things in my tray not processed.

D3 - Walking down a street I am blocked by a load of people. I step up to each person and place my hand on their forehead, one by one and use my powers to turn them into my minions. They turn around and head in the direction I want them. They are all wearing suits and look old.

D4 - Walking through a darkened bookshop shop, looks like Waterstones. I am looking at small glass boxes like old fashioned carriage clocks with white lines of lightning running across them.
On trying to leave I find the exit is blocked by a large grey boulder and have to squeeze back through and past a queue of people at the checkout.
I see some people through the large glass plate window of the shop. I see they are doing something I do not think is right, so I use my powers to step through the glass. On the other side I see one young woman has blond hair and one has black hair. They have the audacity to ignore my remonstrations and I try to use the same mind control on them by placing my hand on their foreheads but it does not work (LOL).

D5 - Outside a house there are little fluffy yellow chicks in a grassy backyard in the countryside. I use my powers to round them up and bring them indoors, unfortunately there are a load of black curly headed dogs in the house. I use my powers to get the dogs out but then the chicks escape! So I have to start again.

[Comments]
The dark seems to represent unsurprisingly shadow elements
I have been in a dilema about these in my life for quite some time.
I see now from one dream I had where there was a woman who had a twin, one blond and one dark haired that infact that both are incorporated into me and I don't have to make an external choice only be more accepting of that which is within me and allow it an outlet.

Large plate window and grassy banks are also repeated dreamscape idk what thats about exactly.

D1 - Outside a bar at night i'm Hugh Laurie look a like, sipping at a glass of water that i am trying to make last so I don't have to wander the streets. The bar is just off a plaza down some concrete steps.


D2 - There is a portal of some kind it is like a tube but with the ends twisted like a long balloon. From this tiny portal there is an entrance to another dimension where a woman exists.

Spoiler for Lust brings lucidity:

There is only one part of me that can fit through this portal, obviously and productively LOL
I got intimate with the woman then woke up.

D3 - I had a lucid dream a few years back with some DC woman though she seemed more powerful than a normal human. And it was lucid sex basically and it was very nice, since then I have wanted to repeat the experience. But have seen no sign of anything like that being.
So I tried to go back into the dream again and was lucid straight away. I saw another woman but the dream quickly ended.

D4 - I tried again. This time I was in a picnic spot near some woods and I was lucid again. The same person from D3 was there but she was with her mother and this just did not feel right. So I used mind control on the woman for her to follow me to somewhere quieter. In the woods there were a load of backpackers and stuff and it seemed unlikely wed get any privacy.
So I found I place where there was a dried up river bed with branches at the end that had been used to dam it up (the other side was water). I used my powers to carve out a door from the river bank and opened it into an opening in the earth big enough to get into.
So I was sat in the "cave" in the dark with this woman and at that point I thought, this is crap. And gave up, woke up.

D5 - I'm living in a flat at the top of some stairs to a communal hallway. I go down to check the post and start sorting through the post putting it into piles for each flat. Meanwhile an old Caribbean lady comes in carrying a blown up clear plastic bag filled with orange liquid and some other stuff, maybe fruit.
She is very sweet and starts telling me how her grandchild bought her the liquid, which is for her hair and she proceeds to smear some onto her hair.
Next a oriental lady with glasses and pulled back black hair enters with a buggy and three small children, she smiles.

D1 - I am looking at a third person view of a youth with long dark hair and sunglasses is leant against a wall in the dark, it is a split screen view of the same youth sitting in the blinding sunlight.
On one side the youth has made good choices and has good intentions on the other the opposite.
I am trying to choose between the two as they continually add choices.

D2 - In a large wharehouse style Art gallery/ exhibition centre.
The walls are all painted black and the lighting is diffuse from the high ceilings. I am talking with a group of artists but I feel they do not have proper motives and are trying to deceive others. They see me as a threat and I am chased through corridors of the exhibition. Running through the ground floor with windows onto a courtyard, in heavy sun. I run between their artwork, which is being resprayed from nozzles on the ceiling. The artwork is everchanging to create a moving painting, sprayed in a circular fashion.

D3 - At college a student is trying to cash in a credit payment. But is having trouble. I inspect the note and see that it is in fact an record form showing that they infact are not enrolled and owe fees. Everyone else is oivious to qhat the problem is.
I go into a dark room with lots of big old computer screens.

Got to Barcelona where there has been a lot of stormy weather but none transfered to my dreams

D1 - Someone had the idea of raising money by creating a ride. Customers would plumet marrionet style, flipping over and over. She decided when I expressed concern into one freefall drop ending in a flip to the ground level. I felt this would be probably fatal but was most concerned about her state of mind for designing it LOL

D2 - A boat was being stabalised by placing gold bars into it, they were strangely shaped and ornate.
D2 - Staying in a poky flat, I needed to take my hamster to the vet. I felt quite worried for it. Anyway I went out , deposited hamster then went dentist.
On returning I realised I forgotten about hamster.

In a dark and foul tavern, many people dressed wretchedly are eating foul smelling dishes of food. They look animalistic in my eyes,
and all seem to have lots of facial hair. There is a thin mist in the tavern of either cold or cooking smoke from the fire, it is unpleasant and damp. We are being offered to sit and join these people for food but are repelled, one even begins to be sick from copious amounts of ale. Evidently not a five star establishment, we leave.

I guess there is a lot that disgusts me about myself and I try to hide from, and be higher than, but it is still there, part of me.

Lots of syncs corresponding to something in my dream, so I don't know whether it also symbolises something else, probably

D1 - I am at my parents house all is dark, its a wintry morning. I'm wearing a quilted jacket and am in their kitchen then locking up before I go out. I am scared of something unseen a presence/feeling. I double back and check they are a sleep. They're door is closed signifiying they are still a sleep.
I take a small steel key to lock the back door, I feel the cold of the key against my fingers and fiddle with the lock, checking and re-checking. This action is slowly waking me up in the dream. As I feel vague stirrings of my consciousness, as if a mist is lifting or becoming less foggy headed.
Outside the ground is frozen with a light snow. In the distance I can see children surrounding two cats that appear to be fighting.
I preceive that the childtren are in some way encouraging or in some way to blame for the fighting.
The cats are jumping into the air as they fly at each other.
Two of the children walk in my direction, I am scared and angry at the same time.
I finally realise it is a dream, and say to myself are i'm dreaming. I wonder what to do and can think of nothing except to release my pent up emotion by kicking one of the children up the butt.
The other child has a funny blue and white, thick woolen jumper and matching woolley hat. He has long fair hair and looks on bemusedly.
I remember that I need to stabalise and rub my hands frantically together but then I wake up.

[Comment]
The action of touching the key in the dream clearly triggered my surfacing from the normal dream state.

D2 - Long dream where I am working with another teacher in a large lecture threatre, preparing stuff for later. I am interrupted by a manager who askes where a painting has gone missing. I pretend to look for it, in the hope she'll go away.
Similarly, I try and escape from an office later on some pretext or other in the hope of not being found out.

Had a nightmare again. This time I was in an old house, victorian with old style lamps. Cold and creepy.
The lights went off and I was left alone, my daughter went out.
I could make out stairsdown in the half light but didnt want to go down as I knew there was a big ol monster down there.
So I sat and are cakes, even though they were making me feel sick, to take my mind off the fear.

[comment]
When i'm depressed I over eat. So that figures.

Dreamt I had old boss and we were at work, but then something happened and we all had to go down a lift shaft of a building that was a very narrow tower with lift at its centre (had a dream about that before).
We went underground, all that was there was lots of wooden crates. It was weird what were we supposed to do?
We had no work to do. What would our new roles be? It seemed that we were unable to adept to our new situation...

D1 - I was writing a letter in an agreed code to the love of my life. I was communicating in the way we had agreed in a language only we understood. I was working away when somebody started nosing asking me what I was doing. Then there was someone else sending a letter, too her, a normal letter. I got annoyed that they were sending her things and started to question whether I was right or not.

D2 - Some dark dream about large enemies in a dark inky watery world. A struggle for survival, repeated over and over.

D3- At work I am feeling the emotions carried over from the previous two dreams, I am distraught, feeling too many emotions, saddness, anger and hopelessness all overcoming me. A boy is goading me and even though I know I will lose my job I chase after him, meaning to hurt him, I gets some steel prongs and catch up with him on a stairwell. We struggle and I hit him, bubbling over with anger. I hit him again aiming to kill him though at the same time not wanting too. He just looks at me strangely not retaliating.
A teacher is coming and I know they will put me in prison.
I know then that I am dreaming and change the prongs into broken peices of a plastic spade, harmless. They can harm no one any more.

[comment]
I realise the boy of course is me, when I was younger
who I blame for the mess I am in now
although he obviously intended no harm

The dark world is the world I have been living in I think.
just fighting for survival.
I walk out of that dream into a calm place on a seashore, I sit feeling the calm and peace wash over me.

I think I know the first dream too but it is a bit to personal and near the bone right now.

D1 - In some kind of club, it is very dark and everybody is sitting around on large flat cushioned leather chairs.

D2 - On a battle field. I'm on a muddy battle field, wearing heavy armour and the battle is nearing its end.
The queen on the opposite side is dodging my blows, she has long fair wavy hair.
I am not scared and am protected by one femaile knight but I realise that the queen does not mind if she dies in the battle, as long as she kills me Oo.
I imagine the sword striking me on the side, lower abdomen and slicing through me.
So I become scared and want to run

A man investigates a space behind a wall in my parents house. It is a vast dark space, filled with an old railway line (dream sign).
He can be heard playing a large grand piano he finds there, nice accoustics.
He searches in a land that is cold and dark, the earth a kind of grey clay. He is unconcerned and swims in dark waters, wearing a wet suit.
Eventually he finds an old half ruined city. He is high up on some buildings, down below is darkness. One building, with the upper storeys tiered, smaller, is covered in millions of tiny gold objects.
He shows us this using a camera attached to a tube and a light, much like something used for nonenvasive surgery.
The gold he says is not wanted by anyone these days, people only want silver.
I begin plans to get hold of the gold, gaining access via a chimney. At work I make excuses and change into normal clothes and start the search. G shows me what he has found. A first room is cleared of obstructions by lowering all objects to the ground.
My father hands out large banners he is giving a tutorial about something. Meanwhile my mother is trying to wind an old silver carrage clock, with delicate silverwork. I turn the key and it opens magically at the top, an unfurrling of metal work, revealing a secret for me.