EddieDean

Nothing to say here, just documenting so I can follow my progress accurately.

Went to bed: 23:00
Fell asleep: 23:30
Awakening 1: 07:00
Fell asleep: 07:30
Final awakening: 9:30

Daytime techniques: Practicing self-awareness with state checks.
Nighttime techniques: None

I went out friday night, so I didn't expect much and didn't get much, but what I got was actually very interesting.

Went to bed: 02:30
Final awakening: 7:30

Daytime techniques: Practicing self-awareness using state-checks.
Nighttime techniques: None

1: Planning to move to France

I'm with my parents and little brother, sitting at the dining table. We are looking at a map of a part of Europe, including The Netherlands, Belgium, France and Spain. On the map you can see city names (I remember Brussels and Paris in particular) and a train route going from Amsterdam to the east of France, the border with southern Germany. In the east of France, at the far end of the route, there is a picture showing some rollercoasters (really small, as if looking at them from an airplane). We are talking about where we should go or something, but it also has to do with me moving out of the house (since I attend university now). My brother becomes very enthousiastic when he sees the rollercoasters, because one of them is apparently the biggest of the world. I look closer at the train route, and along the route are tags on which you can see whether the train stops at every station or only at large cities. Also, along one of the lines, the words "LUCID DREAMING" are written, and I notice them, but don't pay any further attention to the words. I say something like: "Oh, they're all really fast trains so I might even go there and back home every day!", jokingly, and we all laugh. Then I wake up and feel really stupid,

Really weird and uneasy night, resulting in nice recall.

Went to bed: 22:00
Fell asleep: 22:30 ?
Awakening 1: ?
Final awakening: 5:50

Daytime techniques: Regular state checks as self-awareness practice
Nighttime techniques: Water method

1: Exam stress, 12 themes

I'm sitting behind my laptop scrolling through YouTube, looking for a particular video I had watched in waking life that day, and everything looked like the right thing but nothing was quite it, leaving me very frustrated. I look at the clock regularly, because I have to be taking an exam this day.

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I'm at the place where I should be taking the exam in about 6 hours. My father is standing there, and I am panicking because I have no idea what should've studied for the exam. I ask my father and he tells me I should be familiar with the 12 themes. In the dream this makes sense, but I haven't the slightest clue what this actually means.

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I'm home again and I look at the clock. It is 11:30, apparently (which doesn't make any sense if you realise how much I had been doing already. I try to plan my route to where the exam will be taken, but get distracted every time. I look at the clock again, it still reads 11:30, but now I realise (falsely remember) that the exam would start at this exact time and I have to travel for two hours to get there. I stress out completely, get a huge surge of adrenaline and wake up.

2: Sailing the streets

I don't have a body in this dream and just watch 2 men in a motorized boat. They are moving through the streets of my hometown, since the streets are completely flooded. On some spots there's still some ice (seems like Ice Age: Meltdown) and the men talk about being lucky that there isn't much ice left.

3: Playing in the toilet

One of the strangest dreams I've ever had. I'm sitting in the toilet at home, and I am flooding it completely. Somehow the water can't get out of the toilet so there's a 30 cm layer of water on the floor. I am sitting on the floor, in the water. All around me are small, floating black and white rubber balls of different sizes, and when I touch them they multiply. Meanwhile I am playing a game on my laptop which I only remember being really difficult.

So, I've been slacking with my dream journal the last few days, only managing to type up some short notes in my phone. I'm going to update it now, but I don't really remember bedtimes and awakenings that well.

Went to bed: 22:00 ?
Fell asleep: 22:30 ?
Final awakening: 6:45

Daytime techniques: Practicing self-awareness using state checks very regularly.
Nighttime techniques: ?

1: Danish woman doesn't like Trump

I'm cycling down the path between the lines of trees near the train station (I cycle this route every day). I look behind me once and I think I see a girl I know from high school. I slow down so she can catch up. As she does, I say 'Hi!' before really looking at her again. When I do, I see it is not her, but an older woman with similar hair. I say 'Oh, I'm sorry, I thought you were someone else (in Dutch)". She replies, in German: "I don't understand you, I am Danish." We then have a short conversation in a mixture of Dutch, German and English. I don't remember what it was about exactly, but in the end the topic becomes Donald Trump. I remember exactly what I had to say about him (I was surprised about how clear my mind was when saying this): "He feeds the nationalist feelings of the American people with his bullshit talk."Then I woke up.

Okay, so I've been in a bad spot with recall the last few days. I'm gonna get out of it tonight using a mantra "I remember my dreams" before sleep. Last night was especially bad because I only got 6 hours of sleep because I just couldn't get to sleep at first.
Let's just hope for the REM rebound tonight!

Went to bed: 22:00
Fell asleep: 00:30
Final awakening: 06:40

Methods, techniques and supplements used: water method, light visualization in bed

Daytime techniques: Regular state check, a lot of time on DV

-- No dreams recalled at all

So, I've been really stupid. When I woke up this morning I remembered getting lucid, and two decent non-lucids. The lucid dream (although very, very short) stuck with me throughout the day, but the others have slipped from my mind (usually they don't that easily ).

Went to bed: 22:00
Fell asleep: 22:30
Awakening 1: 06:00
Fell asleep: 06:05
Final awakening: 06:45

Methods, supplements and techniques used: water method, apple juice.
Daytime techniques: Regular state checks

1: Lucidity at my old house

I am standing in the house I grew up in, but no longer live. I become lucid without any particular trigger and don't need to reality check either. I am pretty excited, but my level of awareness is really quite low. I instantly decided to try telekinesis (which has never really been a goal of mine yet). I tried to make a bowl rise above the table it was lying on using my mind only. I believe it worked, but it messed up stability instantly. Somehow a stabilizing method I have read about a couple days ago came to mind: rubbing my tongue against the inside of my teeth. It worked really well, but I don't remember anything after that.

Tonight was a bit restless, but it ended up in a couple nice dreams that weren't very long but I recall them in more detail than I usually do.

Went to bed: 22:30
Fell asleep: 23:30
Awakening 1: 01:45
Fell asleep: 02:30
Awakening 2: 05:30
Fell asleep: 05:31
Final awakening: 06:35

Methods used: apple juice, water method

1: Little brother checks on me, his watch turns into a ring

It's 01:30 or something and I'm sitting on the toilet. I can hear my little brother speaking to my parents in the attic (where my parents sleep). They are saying that my brother should go check on what I'm still doing up. So, as I walk out of the toilet, he comes down the stairs and follows me into my room. He asks "Why are you doing homework this late?". I don't really answer his question I think (at least I can't remember).
I look at him and I see a silver watch on his wrist (he doesn't have one IRL) with a glowing pale blue LED light on it. I ask about it and he tells me he just went out to buy it with my parents. As he raises his wrist to show it, it becomes a ring around his thumb similar to the ring an ex-girlfriend of mine used to wear. He shows that it isn't very easy to put it on and off his thumb and I think about my own ring (which I don't really have) and how mine is a lot easier to put on.

2: I'm the chairman, oh no I'm not

I am going to university because there's supposedly an event from my study association. It's raining like hell and the world is dark and grey and gloomy. As I arrive I look at my watch and see that I have only three minutes left. Then I remember I am the new chairman of the association and I stress out a little because I have no idea what I should say to the other members in my speech. I run into J, an old friend, and he greets me. I stop for a moment but cut him off when he wants to start a conversation and say "I'm the new chairman so I should hurry. Oh no, no, I'm not the chairman, just the financial administrator!". Neither of these things are actually true IRL.
Next I run into someone who I recognize as someone in charge of the association. Another member is there as well. We are supposed to run some sort of obstacle course which involves running and jumping but also licking a plastic table. After running for 10 seconds the guy who's in charge tells us to stop because the weather is just too miserable. We walk past a building, and through the windows I can see some people who I think belong to a different association in a sauna, sweating their asses of and looking terribly unhappy. We all laugh at them.

3. Revealed Recordings

This dream is pretty vague. I'm in some camping-like area. I'm standing in front of a tent and there's a string spun in front of it with 6 large T-shirts hanging from it. The shirts are identical and all have the logo of Hardwell's music label Revealed Recordings on the front. I look at the sizes and I am surprised to see that even though they are all really large, they're all size Medium. My mother is there as well and all of it has to do with me starting my own company. In one instant I think to myself: "When the hell did I decide to start my own company? I have no time for this shit!" and then I just ignore it.

There's also a fragment in which I am posting here on Dream Views and I read posts from some members and have some sort of discussion, but I was half-awake, half-asleep all the time and it was just a restless, frustrating experience.

Even though I had a long night of potential sleep I couldn't really sleep well after 7 hours of sleep or so, which really messed up my recall a bit. Still, there are some vague dreams, fragments and conversations I half-remember.

Went to bed: 23:00
Fell asleep: 23:30
Awakening 1: 06:00
Fell asleep: ?
Multiple awakenings at random
Final awakening: 09:30

1: Party at the Panama

It was late at night and I was in Amsterdam. I was standing in front of a nightclub called Panama (which I have been to a few times in real life). I was waiting for my friends N, R, S and J to come but I had no idea where they were. I decide to go inside.
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There's a fragment of a dark staircase that I walk up.
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I am now sitting at a long table. M is sitting across from me. A girl walks over to our table on the right side (far side for me) and sits down. Another girl walks over to the left end to the table, to which I am sitting close. I introduce myself to her as M, my friend, for some reason. I start laughing and say: "Oh no shit that's not my name, I'm Eddie! (not gonna share my real name here) M is the name of my friend over there!" while pointing at him. M doesn't really respond.

2: Sleeping in the shower

I am lying on the floor in a changing room, halfway into the shower area, in my sleeping bag. Next to me lies R, a friend of mine, also in his sleeping bag. There are many people in the room, some of which I know and some of which are barely or not clothed (no details on the Internet about this ). A girl steps over me into the showers. I am just completely confused about everything in this dream, but I don't think about dreaming for a second.

There are some more images and things I remember but they are too small and vague to put into words.

First I had some end-of-the-week drinks with my study association at my university, and then I went to my hometown to have drinks at a local bar with my friends, as I do every friday. I expected nothing at all from this night because of the alcohol (no overly excessive amounts, but being tipsy already ruins recall completely for me) but I actually managed to get one fragment this morning.

Went to bed: 02:30
Final awakening: 07:15

I'm having breakfast with my family and remember I haven't yet told my father about my amazing recall from 2 days ago. I say "you know one night this week I remember 7 dreams!", expecting him to be at least a little surprised or impressed. Instead, he looks at me nonchalantly and with a little arrogance. Then he said "well I once remember 35 dreams in a night". Afterwards he looked really proud, especially when I was just speechless.

So tonight was similar to last night. I recall at least 3 dreams (it isn't very clear what belongs to one dream or is a different dream) but only short fragments of them.

Went to bed: 22:00
Fell asleep: 22:30
Awakening 1: ?
Fell asleep: ?
Final awakening: 5:50

Techniques used: water method for natural awakening.

1: Apricot marmelade

Not much recalled, but I was sitting at the table in the living room having breakfast when my mother told me the apricot marmelade I was about to put on my slice of bread is carcinogenic (WTF!?). I immediately put it back, but then she says it might just be the lid.

2: N''s pictures, T in the gym

N from college is showing me pictures she has taken recently. There are some beautiful sceneries, sunsets and then something from an indoor zoo. As soon as she shows me the zoo picture I am 'teleported' to the location in the picture. I walk around the place and it is not really a zoo, at the time I knew what it was and what I was doing but I cannot recall it. I had special privileges, being able to go through doors normal people couldn't go through.

At one point I go into a room and it turns out to be a gym, with 5 rows of weight training machines. In the middle of the third row I see T on a machine. I'm only mildly surprised to see him, even though he never goes to a gym IRL and I haven't seen him for like 6 months. I greet him, say something like 'hey, it's been a while!' and that's it.

3: I am a crocodile\

This is, hands down, the weirdest dream I've ever had. I am a crocodile, lying in the sea, about a mile from the coast. I can see the shore, and there are a few buildings there. Suddenly it all explodes, multiple mushroom clouds arise and everything is burning. I turn away from the shore for a while and see the most stunning sunset I've seen in my life. It was just mesmerizing. I relaxed completely and thought to myself: "I could just relax here and drown in peace now". Then I started thinking about whether I should try to swim to shore. I'm afraid to get mutated by the radiation from the bombs, but after some thinking I decide to go anyway. As I start swimming I turn into a human again (I see my arms while swimming) but I still feel/think I am a crocodile/don't realize I am human. As I swim I wake up.

Alright I'm actually really excited about this. I've never had such good recall even though the dreams were all really short, it was really amazing to remember so many different things. They had a particular order but I didn't write down my tags in that order so I don't remember it now.

Special methods: water method

Went to bed: 22:00
Fell asleep: 22:15
Awakening 1: 04:00 (I think, not sure)
Fell asleep: 04:01
Awakening 2: 5:50
Fell asleep: 6:00
Final awakening: 7:15

1: Blue Mediterranean

I was at the (supposedly) Mediterranean coast (probably Spain) with a girl. The water was bluer than any water I've ever come across in Europe, it looked more like Curaçao waters or something. As I walked to the shoreline, I looked over my shoulder and it wasn't a girl anymore, instead my parents and siblings were there (huge disappointment ).

2: Flirting with R

So I was in a classroom like one from high school but the people in there were from college. I was sitting at the back of the room when I caught R's eyes. She looks absolutely stunning, as always, while smiling at me. After another one of those looks I walk over to her (she was sitting in the front). As I sit next to her, she looks at me intensely and grabs my arm. Then she starts talking some nonsense about how we made eye contact and for some reason she was really intrigued by that.

Animation show with a girl doing shrooms

This must be one of my weirdest dreams ever. I'm watching some kind of animated tv show. Even though I realize I am merely a spectator in the story, I am completely immersed in it. It starts out with this girl who can't be older than 15 who takes mushrooms in her bedroom. Then she starts going completely mental, throwing things around her room, smashing her television to bits and pieces and dancing on the table. Then she is suddenly outside and she is wearing some silly costume (I don't remember what) and she is dancing on her parents' car. Then, her parents come home. They see her acting like that and don't really know what do to. Then she changes into a robot costume suddenly and dances in front of her parents. I remember thinking something like "oohhh how stupid can you be!?". Then her parents do get angry and drag her inside.

Watching tv with my parents and an amazing song

So now I'm sitting on the couch at home with my parents. We're watching tv and the show is about a girl on some climbing/playing equipment for children. My dad comments that he finds the show extremely stupid and useless with a very annoyed tone. Then the show appears to end and as the credits start rolling a song starts playing as well. The title of the song is displayed but I can only remember the name "Vince". In the lyrics he sang something about 2001 and then 2003 and the song was really beautiful. Upon waking I could remember the melody, but I forgot it during the day (I wouldn't have been able to put it in writing anyway).

Lastly there were two fragments. In the first I was doing dishes with 3 other people. They had already started and I wanted to help but it took me some time to figure out what I could do. I ended up rinsing the dishes before the next person washed them. The third would then dry and the fourth would put it away.

From the other fragment I only recall a single image of a girl (I do remember I felt amazing about her) standing on a platform that was attached to the outside of a moving train in which I was sitting.

Okay I don't have time right now to do this elaborately so I'll jot down some keywords so I won't forget anything.

Went to bed: 22:00
Fell asleep: 22:30
Awakening 1: 04:30
Fell asleep: 04:32
Final awakening: 6:15

My recall was fuzzy at first because I did not wake up during dreams, and there is no recall from before 04:30, but after thinking about my dreams during breakfast a lot of things slipped into my mind again and I ended up with one fragment and two dreams.

1: Obstacle race

This is merely a fragment and some feelings along with it. I don't really recall what I was doing but I know it was an overhead perspective and I got the term 'obstacle race' popping up constantly. I remember that it was a really strange situation although I really can't say why. It was competitive and pretty intense.

2: Flirting & football at high school/university
My recall starts in a classroom. I am talking to a few people, I think girls, of which I find one quite interesting and the other not very much. We walk out of the classroom as the last few people and the people of the next class are already sitting in the classroom as we leave.
The girl I find interesting walks ahead of us and doesn't seem to be interested in me, while the other girl walks with me. The place we're in resembles the central hall of the university I go to but I feel like it's high school. The girl is blonde and not unattractive but not really my type.
As we walk up a big flight of stairs she gets a little flirtatious, and in my head I try to decide whether or not I like this, and whether or not I should play along. Without really making a decision on that I do play along a little, until we reach the top of the stairs.
There I see the girl from before standing in a small group of 5 people, of which one is apparently her boyfriend. I think about talking to her but decide it wouldn't really do any good. The blonde girl is gone now and to my left is a huge window, filling up the wall completely. T, a friend from high school, is standing by the window looking outside. I go and stand next to him.
Outside I see a field of grass looking exactly like the sports field of my old high school. Somehow, even though we're on the first floor and there's a window inbetween, we are kicking footballs to people on the field. Even though T doesn't play football IRL and actually really sucks at it, he takes some amazing shots with strange curves and perfect precision. I think I take one shot as well but I don't recall whether it was any good or not (it should, I played football for 9 years).

Forgetting my bag and putting on cologne

Recall starts on the doormat. I have just put on one of my shoes as I realise I forgot to put my sports clothes in my bag and I forgot to take the bag itself from upstairs. I don't want to take off the shoe as I'm in a hurry, but I am not allowed to have shoes on in the house so I hop through the living room, up the stairs and to my bedroom on one foot. I'm actually surprised at how well and how fast I got up the stairs this way. All the while I try to make sure my mom doesn't see me hopping through the house with one shoe on. I cram my sports clothes and shoes into my bag and close it. Before walking out of my bedroom I suddenly realise I didn't put any cologne on yet. I quickly do so while watching for my mom. The smell of the cologne is unbelievably accurate and I even feel it sting slightly because I had shaved before. Then I hop down the stairs and take a glance at the clock. The time is 6:37 or something (it's an analog clock), which would be far too late, but I don't really care.

I have decided to, from now on, note bedtimes and times of awakening in this journal. I think this will help me analyse what sleep schedule is best for my dream recall, since it has been quite inconsistent the last few days.

Went to bed: 22:30
Fell asleep: 23:00
Awakening 1: 01:30 (no dreams recalled)
Fell asleep: 02:00
Final awakening: 06:30 (two fragments recalled)

My recall was not amazing this night but tonight it's going to be great!

I recall two fragments. The themes were all a bit negative and a dark atmosphere persevered through my dreams.

Fragment 1: alone at the carnival

I was outside some seemingly desolated building. It felt like it was late at night, it was dark and gloomy. Inside the building I knew was some carnival attraction. I think it resembled the Break Dance (see this picture). I was negotiating with myself whether I wanted to go or not. Part of me wanted to ride, but I didn't want to be the only one on the thing. I walked into the building and to my surprise I found that the attraction was packed. From there I don't recall what happened, but I think I decided not to ride in the end.

Fragment 2: college friends played a prank on me

I was sitting in a hall that I think was supposed to resemble a lecture hall, but it was not sloped and quite small. S was sitting to my right, R to his right, and N to his right in turn. I have no idea what was going on to my left. We were looking at a powerpoint that was being presented. On the current slide were four pictures equally divided over the slide. I have no idea what was on three of the slides, but on the bottom right one was a picture of a bodybuilder with my face from a photo from when I was 12 photoshopped on top of his face. I felt really miserable and disappointed in my friends seeing that. I looked at them and all three of them were laughing. I got a little angry and asked them why they did this. They apologized but couldn't stop laughing. Their eyes held not the slightest trace of regret. I got angrier and shouted at them (I don't remember what) and felt really disrespected. Then I think I went on to other dreams, or I would've recalled it better.

I find it strange to have had three of these negative, dark and unfriendly dreams in the last two days. I wonder what it could mean, but most of all I hope my dreams will be more positive from now. It doesn't really affect my mood negatively, but normally my dreams do affect my mood positively, so I would like to get back to that again.