non-lucid

I was running & was guided into something. At first I thought it was a RV but then realized it resembled instead a gold submarine on wheels. My family was outside trying to find out what was going on & I was on the inside w/ my prince & his parents, the king & queen & others that were trying to help us keep others out. I was told that because I was his new princess there was some kind of power grab that others were trying to make by capturing me & that they would be in charge somehow if this happened. I looked down & realized my ring was gone & I started to panic & started looking around for it. I accidentally opened a door a fraction of an inch & for a moment the outsiders were able to see inside so the king & queen acted as though they were having sex as a diversion. While I was looking around for the ring & this weird sex act was taking place, I became Lucid. (I'll explain things later what triggered this). So now that I was lucid I knew I could not attempt a WBTB or a WILD today so I took advantage of just having fun w/ my dream. I started changing things as they all became more & more vivid. There were luxurious pillows everywhere. I was expanding the confined place to make it bigger & safer. I also kept looking for my ring which was found among some nuts & bolts. My prince was my husband & the king & queen were plump & w/ royal frumpy garbs. This was fun. I was looking at all the rivets made of gold & small windows to peek out of. I was really happy w/ my creativity. I was able to hear my family outside more clearly & they wanted frantically to know what was happening & where I was, which was not helping me hide. The floors were made of that bumpy metal associated w/ tools but I don't know what that is called. The whole thing had a futuristic feel to it.... Unfortunately my husband was rousing awake next to me & I knew I had to wake up because, although lucid dreaming is really fun I also knew very clearly that my real life must come first & this cannot interfere w/ that. This is a line I do not want to cross. Therefore I knew my time was up & I opened my eyes & I was fully awake but because my dream was lucid I could remember it very clearly.

Now to explain. Before I went to sleep I was practicing my MILD mantra's of "Tonight I'm going to lucid dream & I'm going to remember them" & "I will use my wedding ring as my dream sign" because it is not only significant to me it because it has a flaw. It really does come apart. The weld came loose a while back & 1 of the 3 sections is not connected right now. Therefore, I only usually wear it when I leave the house except when I swim, so that I don't lose it at the pool. It's unique & it was custom made. A one of a kind, w/ a one a kind flaw right now. It's been this way for about 4 yrs or so but I kind of like it like that. I know that sounds weird..... Then there was the King & Queen suddenly having sex which simultaneously reminded me of the fact that I couldn't keep sleeping for long... I had a hysterectomy in December & have a set time to try & have intercourse to strengthen the area where my cervix was taken out of.... So all in all I had a successful DILD & MILD w/ my dream sign being my wedding ring.

Green: Non-Lucid
Red: Lucid
Blue: Details

I was being held in a house w/ some other women by Andy Griffith, lol. The house was we were in was set back in the time which reminded me of The Little House on the Prairie. (this show was on when we arrived at my mother n laws). We kept trying to escape & his & his henchmen weren't physically mean to us but they wouldn't let us leave. They would just stop us & take us back into the house. It seemed to go on forever & we never got out. Non-Lucid

Had a dream about being a lawyer & another about being a hotel. But I don't remember the details. I woke up sick & just kept going back to sleep. I guess it just wasn't my day. I have a fever & the toilet was my best friend, lol. I guess sometimes you just have to deal w/ the cards dealt to you. I did write down the lawyer & hotel hoping I'd be able to recall the dream from that but it just didn't happen. This is the first time I've been sick in quite a long time though so I guess it was bound to happen. I do remember these were fairly detailed dreams though which prompted me to try & just leave myself the subject content. I just wasn't my day. Back to sleep I go.

I had two non-LD's that were considered nightmares & it was so insane I refuse to post it on here, lol. Today was just an all around shitty day. A lawyer told me today that my husband makes $300 over the allowed amount for me to recieve social security & since I haven't worked in 10 yrs I'm not eligible for disability unless I work for 5 yrs full time, which I can't due to my medical issues, which is why my doctor referred me to the lawyer for disability....And I now have a new medical bill to pay each month till I die & my dr's visits went up astronomically due to DEA regs on my meds for multiple manditory drug tests for each of my meds & classification of meds. I guess I'm glad I don't drink or do drugs because I believe this would definately be the day to do those things.... My husbands job got adjusted because they lost their union last week & I had to listen to my mother-n-law repeat the same things a million times today do to Dementia. (God Bless her). And my problem child daughter came by and threw her crazy self into my path... This day is an actual nightmare. Stick a fork in me, I'm done. Amen & good-night.

I was very sleep deprived so I decided to get some rest & make a new plan. First, I reinstalled Jelly Splash on my phone before I went to sleep & played it. The reason for this was to work on details & accuracy w/ bright colors & to just have fun. I did a simple body meditation & relaxation technique that is pretty second nature to me & I slept on my stomach for the first time in about 6 wks, which is how I prefer to sleep. And then I decided I would just sleep, wake up & keep going back to sleep until I got enough rest which turned out to be about 10 hours. I also decided not to log any of my dreams but just to keep track until I had my last one. And low & behold I had 6 dreams! Number 7 was a LD! And I kept w/ my plan by just doing what I wanted to do in it & have some fun. I've been too serious lately trying to achieve the TOTM.

So here is my LD. I was working as a detective & was investigating an illusionist who managed to steal a lot of money, or so my boss thought. My opinion was that it wasn't him at all & that someone was taking advantage of the timing of the illusion acts he was performing.. My boss said that he would definitely show up at the event that was occurring on this same day in the evening. So we showed up & it wasn't dark yet, it was light out & there were very long lines & because we were detectives we could just weave in & out as we pleased & look for where he might be. We were in this line when I looked across the room & saw all the Chinese lanterns that were hanging about & strings of lights & bright signs. (I think the Chinese lanterns & neon signs may be a dream sign for me. I know the bright lights are) And it was then I knew I was lucid & felt invincible! I knew I could do what I wanted now & told my boss that I knew he was innocent & that I quit. I really wanted to find this guy because he was very impressive & I just didn't believe he did it.,.. He was there, eluding us, but he was there. He reminded me of Roland from Stephen Kings, The Dark Tower series. He would be in one place where I could see him & then he'd kind of roll away & disappear. I searched through the hordes of people & he still eluded me. I thought maybe since I was Lucid I could do something to find him that way, but that wouldn't be fun to me in this scenario. There were all these booths & stages where these little magic tricks were happening & I realized this event was some kind of magician's convention/exhibition or something & an illusionist would only be there for some other reason. They are in a different category than magicians you know, like that would be beneath them to show up at this place & perform ordinary magic.... I could feel him watching me everywhere I went. And then I suddenly realized he was gone. He let me see him & then went around a rack of books & disappeared w/ a smile. And then I woke up.

Mike & I were just discussing the movie for The Dark Tower Series & how they screwed it up. I was talking about Chinese food today. And I saw a lame magic trick on tv. I know that's where some of the characters came from.... I realized that I had stopped reading my everyday books & have been only reading dry stuff to research the brain about memory... I average 50-60 plus books a year which in 6 wks I've destroyed all hopes of that happening due to doing too much dry research... I have also noticed that other people are having very fun dreams w/ dragons & vampires... I think my brain needs more of that. I may actually reread Harry Potter again due to the incredible details it has to offer which will stimulate my brain the way I want it & it has the familiarity to be easily ready. Not to mention cool magic... When those books came out my husband, our youngest son & me all read the books at the same time which was a lot of fun... I've taken the fun out of my dreams & need to put it back in.

I was caught up in a conflict where my husbands' ex was yelling at me like a crazy person. We were having parenting issues. (In real life she was never a parent to my son. My husband & the other 2 men she had children with all have custody of their children.) Finally my husband came to my rescue..... In real life she still comes to my house all drunk & high & damages our vehicles & a pool we had. Our son is 22 yrs old now & this crazy woman even screams nasty things about him. He's an honor roll student & his grandparents made a trust for him & his other siblings to be used to college. Her mother also had added her too but was recently cut off because she was trying to abuse the trust.

Dream 2 was about my oldest son. He was selling pot & I stole a big bag of pot from him to teach him some kind of lesson & he got angry & I woke up.... This was all silly but I was just talking about him yesterday about him not paying off his deposit for his electric & we were thinking about taking our name off the account & letting him live in the dark before he defaults & we are stuck w/ our own cut off & a very high bill that we won't be able to afford.

I think I really need to get some much needed sleep. I feel like a zombie today. Last night we had a thunderstorm & my Meesha cat was not happy about the thunder at all. And then today I was going to take a nap & my daughter shows up & stays all day.. I'm grumpy & need some rest.

I titled this take me to church because it was fitting & ironically my ringtone, lol.. Dream 1 was just a dream fragment about a boyfriend I had in middle school but that's the extent to which I remember it which was a bummer. Dream 2 was more vivid where details were concerned but not very colorful except I noticed curtains that were a form of deep red which are basically the color of my own curtains in my living & dining rooms. So anyway, I was in this very large cathedral type of church w/ a lot of big winding stairs. Kind of like the ones in the school in Harry Potter, but they didn't move. I was taking care of a bunch of kids, mostly teens & we had to complete 3 tasks that were on these little pieces of paper. I didn't seem to do any task, this was just a given it seems. But we ran out of paper & I sent some of the kids down the stairs to gather some more paper slips w/ tasks but they came back empty handed. So, I decided to go myself w/ a few of them. One of which seemed like I knew them somehow & felt very connected to this older boy. But when I went down the stairs I was told that there weren't anymore available slips but that since it was lunch we could have lunch at this time. Someone led us into a cafeteria where they were starting to put the food away & we started to fill our trays & then I woke up.... It was almost like the dream was supposed to symbolize my quest of learning new information & the tasks represented the TOTM somehow. Like it I did, A B & C, I'd get the answers I was looking for. I woke up w/ the feeling that I should watch some video's on YouTube or something of people playing spin the bottle to trigger it in a LD. I'm hoping I find some because dreams of all sorts tend to have snippets of movies I've just watched or things I've just seen or memories that have fluttered through my brain during the day, etc.

Meesha cat totally wouldn't let me remember dream number 1 by meowing the entire time while I was getting her food at 5am.

Dream #2 was Me & my husband Mike. We woke up & got dressed to go out for breakfast & to go to what seems like a mall/flea market. We went there first before we decided to eat & in hind site would never occur in this order. But never the less we are walking through this place & there all kinds of different things to buy for just about every need you may have, yet it also may have been used, which in some cases is also just fine. We initially were looking for children's toys for our grandchildren because it's always good to look for special buys on these items to save money. Grandchildren are expensive! We found ourselves looking over these back pack wagon things. They were like the rolling backpack concept except it was a fold up wagon with cute themes to them for girls & for boys.... After not purchasing anything, we wandered into some bizarre sweets buffet. There were rows & rows of decadent sweets galore. We went down the rows just grabbing random things but I don't remember how they tasted or if they had a taste. This was odd because we specifically were conspiratorially trying stuff so we wouldn't waste our money & by the end, we were full.... We somehow got home, but not our home in real life & we were in our bathroom, which was also not our real bathroom & suddenly the tub was filled w/ flies crawling out of the drain. We were talking about what to do about this when Meesha woke me up.

I had a dream w/ my husband in it yesterday & my memory just went blank after a few minutes after I woke up, which was unfortunate since my husband was in it. I had taken a nap due to lack of sleep still hoping for a LD but when I woke up I was running really late to go check on my mother in law. Family first. I was glad to find she was having a better day & her Alzheimer's/ Dementia wasn't so bad during our visit. That made me feel good to have her there in the here & present for a while.....

Today I had a non-lucid dream about trying to get my job back at a Long John Silvers (LJS). I had this job in real life another lifetime ago after I left my first husband & my boss was pretty descent to me cuz I was a single mom. Anyway he said sure & I started working right then in my dream but soon the scene changed & it was another LJS. Again the scene changed all together into another dream. This one was very abstract. It started out w/ me looking for someone in some strange trailer park & I came across a man I'd never met but he was very handsome. He took me into some big factory w/ all of these big cogs & strange ppl. We were all going to watch a movie or something there. It was like among these cogs there were cars & ppl were pairing off to watch some movie. Then for some odd reason my first POS husband was there & wanted to sit by me & the handsome man came over & rescued me from that crazy scenario. Then I woke up.

Some big catastrophe happened & I was living in this big mansion & it had beautiful grounds. The only person I recognized was one of my twin daughters, Ashley. We were trying to deal w/ a lot of people trying to get us to give them supplies but our supplies were running out. I felt terrible that I couldn't give more because they assumed that we were lying to them due to the big house but we just didn't have very much left & this was about survival. It was a constant battle to try to keep these ppl out of our house & off of the property. I had this sense of dread that we were going to die if they managed to get in & take the last of our supplies. I was very glad when I woke up but I wish I had become lucid so I could have used this nightmare to my advantage.

Dream # 2 this morning... My husband & I went to a house which belonged to my ex brother & sister-law (they are married to each other, not siblings) they've been in my life for about 27 years & have remained friends w/ me & like my current husband. ... Anyway, we were there to wait for some impending news. So we were frequenting this small town store waiting on the newspaper to come. The store was one w/ a front porch. If you're old enough you can remember what this little store/gas pumps look like but it was one made of wood. Like a log cabin kind of wood.... So we were going back & forth from their home to the store repeatedly. But while we were at the house my ex sister-law was mad at me & I just didn't understand why. SO she took me into her laundry room & told me to change my shirt because she thought it was inappropriat & she proceeded to have me change 3 times... I felt horrible, like I disrespected someone somehow but there was nothing wrong w/ my shirts & my husband told me to ignore her because he thought she was just maybe in a bad place in her life right now & was missdirecting her frustaions on me.... This whole story had meaning in my life right now, referring to my current sister n law who has been having a difficult time w/ decisions we've been discussing about my mother n law's current situation now that my other sister in law just died & was caring for her. The newspaper refers to my daughters children's baby daddy. He was just sentenced to 20 years & my husband & I were just watching "BLOW" w/ Johnny Depp last night & his daughter was about my granddaughters age when she was visiting Johnny Depp in prison. I had made a remark about this last night saying that that will be our granddaughter & grandson for the next 20 yrs & it was a very sad thought.

Dream #1. I was with my daughter & we were taking care of these house cats & leopards & they were beautiful & serene. It was just spending time w/ them as if they were very docile do to us caring for them & showing them affection. The cubs were just so sweet & the mother was just fine with us being there. Touching them was very vivid to the touch & the feeling of contentment & bonding was surreal. My daughter & I were experiencing a very unique experience.

I was dreaming that my first husband's family & I were all at some shopping mall & bowling alley but it was all abstract & jumpy like scenes. I don't know another word to describe it. It's like the scene changes all the time. Like we would be talking in a shower, at a table, in a restaurant that has those half wall looking things that have those glass cubes. We all were just talking about what to do about something but I can't remember what it was. It wasn't the normal banter w/ these ppl but it didn't feel real off either. Dreams about these ppl come & go because my first husband was the bio dad to my oldest son & my twin daughters. My current husband is their dad however & I am the mom to our youngest son (his bio mom is not in the picture). I would have remembered more but my Meesha (cat) was all over me during the night. I found out she has worms so I guess she wasn't very comfortable but I bought her some meds today & hope she calms down.

Non-Lucid: I was in a flood & was helping a big family that was all split up & we finally found them all & no one seemed to be hurt. Then we were doing the normal emergency protocols for a big flood. Then I noticed we were in an unusual big manufactured home. There were alot of children. And then the dream took on some really odd turn, which I will now use a spoiler due to the content.

Spoiler for Graphic nature, followed by personal life event:

I noticed that a child about 7 was fondling his sibling who was about 5 & that child was trying to get away from that older one so I intervened & tried to tell the parents. But instead of being disturbed by this fact they were angry & wanted me to leave saying I couldn't be trusted now w/ their secret & I tried to tell them I would try & get some professional help for their family & that things would be okay but they weren't having any of that & wanted me to leave..... With that being said, this is a dream sign for me, which is quite disturbing. I have odd dreams of this similiar nature... So, on that note I have no quams w/ explaining why this is a dream sign for me because I'm a pretty open person...
In real life. When I was almost 14 I was removed from my hometown for fear of my safety.... First off, I lived in a town of less than 2000 ppl, & most of which resided on the outter limits... After my grandmother died my whole family fell apart. We lived on my grandparents land & my mom worked nights & she wasn't very maternal so I had spent alot of time w/ my grandmother being my mother figure & my dad was a very good father. So, when my grandmother died I started acting out & having sex, etc, no drugs, just not being home much, so my parents had taken me to a counselor which was worthless & gave our family terrible advice. And since I kept getting into trouble at school the school brought in a counselor for me who was given permission to tape our sessions... (It should also be noted, that no such counselor had ever even been to our small school, so this was drawing alot of attention to me to begin with.) During one of these sessions she somehow got me to talk about something that happend to me & it was recorded on tape... The following is what occurred: For the previous couple of yrs I was having sex w/ a married man from our church who was 19 or 20 when he was arrested so I guess he was 17, 18 & 19 while this was going on.... I had previouly told my father about this incident & he told me to not tell my mom which I ended up doing because I was a smartass & said my dad had told me not to tell her what we had discussed. She was livid AT ME incredibly. She called me a slut & a whore & in hindsight maybe that was why they agreed to have my sessions at the school recorded. (I was told the recording was for a degree the counselor was trying to achieve) Anyway back to the time of the arrest..... #1 I had a boyfriend who was in my class at the time, & who also was a cousin of the man arrested & I was not engaging in sexual activity w/ this man any longer. #2 My family, my boyfriends family & the family of the man arrested were the primary/prodominant families of our small town. Which means are families had been there for generations & had contributed to the small town.
So, on the day of the arrest I was in a couseling session during school hrs & she had asked me what I had done over the wknd & some how I referred to something about this man. It was in casusal conversation about a place at the school itself & had referred to an encounter w/ the man on school grounds.... I was very young but I knew just as soon as the words came out of my life that this man's life & my life would be destroyed & therefore tried to recant my statement but they called the police & made me give a full account of all my encounters with this man, which included many on the school grounds & in the school itself & of course the first event which took place almost in plain sight across from my church......Afterwards I watched as he was being halled off out of the office & into the police car all the while I was screaming at him that I was sorry. Again, remember I was young... (in all my yrs living there that was only the second police car I had ever seen in our town, so this was quite a spectical) At that point I was removed from my home for safety reasons due to the dynamics of the town & I sure didn't want to go home to my mother, whom as I mentioned, called me a whore & a slut when I told her previously this was going on. So I went to my first foster home & shortly after recieved I recieved death threats, due to his popularity as a star football player at our high school the previous 4 yrs. He also in turn lost his job as a janitor at the school, which he got due to wife being pregnant in her senior year..... I spent the remainder of my school yrs until I was almost 18 in foster homes & the last 2 in a group home... This event destroyed most of my adult yrs in various ways also until I met my current husband who has watched me go through phase after phase of bullshit, until 2 yrs ago when I finally found peace & joy in life. I'm so grateful for him that I can't even describe in words.... Just to be clear, this paragraph was in no way form a dream but a very real traumatic event that happend to me in real life. And yes I know this sounds like a crazy book & I wish it was & that I had never lived through it.....

Therefore, this traumatic event in my life triggers really sick dreams like this occasionally & I try to get help for people in them usually, like in this last one. And also there is the reoccurance of people wanting me to leave for irrational reasons. And yes, these are very disturbing dream signs but they are nonetheless some I have.

So in my dream I was at this country music concert & gonna perform with a bunch of other ppl & Blake Shelton was there. We were all in a big dressing room & I dropped my eye shadow that had a bunch of colors in it & they all got jumbled & broken inside. Some woman suddenly started asking me for eye shadow & I told her mine broke but I have another one & she got all hoity toity & said she needed "high quality" eye shadow & I said sorry but I can't afford "high quality" eye shadow but she used it anyway. And I was thinking what a Bitch she was, lol. But after that we all went out to perform w/ Blake on the stage & per usual, my cat Meesha came & woke me up... Oh well, it was not lucid & it was only more of a sleep fragment anyway.. Hopefully tomorrow will be diffferent.