Hopeless Wanderings

regular dreams: 8-30-10

This dream probably happened from watching so many episodes of Heroes in the past several days.


I was sitting at my kitchen table and was stacking some coins together out of boredom. There was one penny in the stack that I didn’t like in there so I took it out and threw it on the ground. But when I started playing with my stack of coins again I noticed that the penny had reappeared in the stack! I removed it again but it kept on reappearing. Then I realized that it wasn’t reappearing, it was doubling! This was my newly discovered power. This time, I took all the coins(there were only about 5 or them) in my hand and closed it tightly. When I opened my hand, there were more coins! I tried this again 2 more times until my hand was heavier and filled with coins. I was so amazed that I grabbed my wallet and put it in the microwave(I don’t know why..) and heated it up. When I took it out, I looked inside of it and I had a 500$ bill, 2 hundreds, and a 100$ bill that said something like “100 dollars to 200 dollars” like it was a receipt for changing the money. I was so excited to show people my power, and now I had a way to make money without getting a job! I think I showed my mom and some of my friends my power and I think some other people might have had a power, I don’t really remember.

Next thing I know, I’m at the beach with my friend Allie and some other friend and we were the only ones there(until later when everyone else started showing up from nowhere). Allie looked really anxious and stressed out and said she needed to tell me something. Her and my other friend got into there swimsuits and Allie told me to come into the water with her. I didn’t have a swimsuit so I just ran in with my clothes on. The water was nice and cool and we went out deep so I couldn’t touch the bottom. I realized now that my clothes were really heavy, even though I was just wearing a t-shirt and shorts. They were getting heavier and heavier, and starting to pull me under the water. I started screaming for help but went under. The next thing I know, I’m on some floating platform, outside of my body watching my lifeless self die, and two lifeguards are running over to me. They start doing mouth to mouth and pounding on my chest while I was watching from outside my body. I noticed that I wasn’t the only one who had drowned. There were like 6 other people that were also unconscious and being resuscitated. As I stared at my body, I was like “Comon El, wake up! Breathe already!” Finally, I was back in my own body and coughing up water. I was weak so one of the lifeguards carried me back to the beach. The other people who had drowned were by me, all of them had survived. Some of them included my friends, a little girl, and a guy.

We were known as the amazing survivors and some people took us to the grocery store to pick out a treat. For some reason I stood by the fancy wine selection and wanted to get a bottle even though I’m underage. The people who took us there said “For your reward we will have a fancy wine delivered to your hotel room. Just pick one out.” So I started looking over the bottles of wine but then noticed that the guy from our survivor group went over to look at the frozen candy instead. I decided to follow him instead of getting wine because I didn’t want to be the only one. In the display freezers there was all kinds of frozen candies, like lollipops, cookies, and snow cones. Some people picked out humungous lollipops and I picked out a cookie shaped like an emo girl because it was the only one left. I remember Nikky saying “hey that’s my emo girl!” As I picked it up, it broke in my hand but I was like “oh well.” Well anyway, we all walked up to the front of the store, which looked more like a checkout table at a library, to look for the people that brought us there. I don’t know why they wanted to deliver these things to our hotel rooms. As we were walking I saw another guy with powers who walked through a wall to get out of the library.

regular dreams: 8-26-10

I should have written these down sooner so I remembered more..

You Don't Deserve to Walk on Water

I was walking across a body of water, I think it was a lake, with a priest from my church. As we were walking on the water, the priest was reciting part of a mass, and at one point he started reciting the Apostle's Creed. In church, you are supposed to recite this along with the priest, so I remember saying along with him "On the third day he rose again.." but then realized I don't remember the whole thing(I've had this problem in church because I never pay attention but am now trying harder to focus and remember everything) and so I had to stop reciting it. The priest got really mad at me for not knowing the whole thing and told me to go away. I think he said that I was a bad catholic. This made me really sad, but I turned around and started walking back anyway. Then I was walking on a road and I saw my friend Allie walking and texting or talking on her phone with some of her friends. I wanted to tell her what had happened, and tell her how I thought the priest was crazy for getting so mad at me. I tried to talk to her, but she kept getting distracted by her phone or other people. I felt like no one would listen to me and got really upset.



Dark World

This whole dream was in a really dark and depressing setting. It was in an old run-down city with demolished buildings and fog, really creepy-like. I don't remember that much that went on in the dream, but I know that it was a really long dream and the setting was really vivid. I remember walking around and exploring for a bit. I saw a little boy laying on the street covered in blood. He was dying. There were about 5 or so people surrounding him and some woman with dark hair kneeling over him. I don't know if I was the girl with the dark hair or if I was just watching her, I seemed to be trading places with her. I don't remember what happened to the boy. Then the girl with black hair started wondering the dark city looking for a body? or a different skin? because she needed to hide her identity.. I wish I remembered more details because even though this dream was really depressing, I actually enjoyed it.

regular dreams: 8-25-10


UGH I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL SOMEBODY. Sorry, please excuse that. But I can't stand this damn computer anymore!!!!! This is the FOURTH time I had to re-load this page and the THIRD time I had to write this whole thing down again because my stupid computer keeps redirecting me to someone's advertising page! WTF. This won't stop happening and it's so annoying!!!!

Anyway, now that I got that off my chest, I decided that I should post at least one dream from last night because I haven't posted anything in awhile. Let's hope I can actually get it to work this time!

Exploring People's Houses

Me, my dad, and two of my friends went to this place kind of in the woods where there were a bunch of fancy houses. To get to each house, you had to climb some stone steps and walk through wooden walkways that were in the air held up by ropes or something like that. The first house we went into was amazing. It was small but still had a lot of space and had a modern style. To get to the next house, we went outside and walked up another set of stone steps. This house was even more beautiful. Again, it was modern style. I remember stopping to admire a chair. It was a two story house, so I was the first one up the stairs. Standing at the top of the stairs, I heard voices and looked and saw that the owners were home, talking on the porch! I told everyone to run and we ran as quietly and quickly as possible back down the stairs, past the other house, and back to the wooden walkways/bridges. They had seen us now and were chasing us. I had to get us away somehow. My dad was gone, I don't know where he went. I was on a higher level and my friends were across from me on a lower level. I had to get them up here, so I flew down, told Ali to grab my hand, and flew her back up to the high spot. Then I went back down to Katelyn, who seemed resistant to go. I grabbed her anyway and flew her up. Don't remember anything after that.



Church

My friends(including Brittany, Nicole, and others) were going to sleep over at my house for my birthday but my mom wanted me to go to church, so she made me and all my friends go to church even though most of them are Athiest. I felt bad for Nicole because she was really against my religion and she was forced to go. I was surprised that she came at all. We took a seat up front somewhere. In the church there was a large tv hanging from one of the walls and every once in awhile, the priest would pause and take a "commercial brake" or something like that, and the tv would show commercials. I remember at one point in the dream, I got up and when I came back, all my friends had their shirts off and were wearing colorful bras. I quickly grabbed some random red bra from somewhere and put it around me(with my shirt on) because apparently everyone was wearing them around the church..

regular/lucid dreams: 8-18-10

Exploding a Little Girl's Head LD(My first DEILD)

I was starting to wake up, and that's when I realized I was lucid. I decided to look down at my hands just for the heck of it, and I had more fingers than I normally would(unlike in my last lucid, which I had less fngers). Everything seemed really clear and life-like, so I was scared that I would wake myself up but I think I'm getting better at controlling that, because I became very stable. I was in my house again, and decided to go outside and experiment and have some fun. As I was walking out across my lawn, I would jump in the air and see how high I could float. One of those times I decided to jump and then flap my arms and "swim" up and see how far I could go. I got to be about 4 or 5 stories up I think when I started heading back down. I'm not too good with flying yet. So then I saw these two sisters walking down the sidewalk, the older one(8? years old) pushing the younger one(around 4) in a stroller. I don't know why, but I wanted to make the younger one's head explode, just for a quick experiment before I went on to do something else. I focused on her head and imagined it exploding. I did this for awhile, and nothing happened except the little one started crying and the older one got really mad at me. I must have lost lucidity after this because I don't remember anything else.


Killer

I don't remember the first part of this too clearly, so these are just some details. I was at my house with some older people, I don't rememer who, when some woman turned evil and wanted to kill me. She said that I "had to die." I ran to my dad's room and went on his bed and had an explosive in my hand that you would light up and the flame would go down the string uptil it reached the bomb part. When she came in, I tried to throw it at her but missed, then somehow got into the garage and tried again, but missed again and this time set the garage on fire. I had to get out of there, but she stood in the way of the door. I somehow managed to get out and on the roof. I saw an elderly couple walking towards the house as if nothing had happened, so I jumped off the roof down to them and kept screaming "CALL 911! CALL 911 NOW!!" but they kept saying "What??" like they couldn't hear me. I even screaming their ears but they still couldn't hear me! Then I ran to the bushes behind my house to hide and called 911 myself.

Then I met this other girl in the bushes who was wearing this huge puffy pink dress. I called her by what I thought was her name, but later found out that she changes her name 4 times a year, depending on the season. Anyways, we ran into the neighborhoods behind my house and it was around midnight or so. Every once in awhile, I would jump up really high in the air and go above the trees and houses just for the fun of it. At one time, one of my neighbors came out of her house and complained, but not at us. Apparently her car? or something was making noises and keeping her awake.

I don't remember what happened after this, but eventually I was back at my house and the next day, the cop finally showed up. He was cautiously going into the bushes, where I told him I was hiding. I went outside to tell him that I was fine and he was super late but couldn't find him.


Crash

Me and Ali were planning on going on a road trip to this really pretty island thing in the middle of Colorado(which was only like 1 or 2 state away when I looked at the map, but in reality its more than that). She said she could get us free plane tickets(we took the car anyway, so what's the point?). So I told my parents and they said it was okay. We were going to take my sister's car and we were going to take my parents with us and drop them off somewhere on the way to Colorado. On the way to pick up Ali, my dad went the wrong way and went to my other friend's house instead(I don't know why, because its super easy to get to Ali's house, it's close by mine). I told him to turn right at the next stop sign but he turned left, and we went into this section where there were snow covered hills that looked like mountains and the road was really curvy and went up and down. It was like a smaller version of the roads you would see in Colorado, and I thought it was really cool. Anyway, we eventually finally somehow got my friend in the car, and started driving to CO. The roads were really dangerous now. They were up really high in the sky, and there were tons of cut-offs that you could take and go the wrong way on accident, really sharp turns, and all the cars were going like 100mph. Ali was driving and I was nervous for her because, well, the roads were terrible! We were approaching a tight curve when two cars in front of us crashed into each other. Time seemed to stop, and everything was going really really slowly. The cars were just in front of us now, and it seemed like there was no way to get around. Then my mom told us to back up, so somehow I helped as we slowly backed up as everything around us was frozen. This way, the cars could go off the side of the road(there weren't any walls in this section, which was weird because why wouldn't there be walls on the CURVED section??) and fall back to Earth.. and die. So we did just that and it looked like we were going to be safe.. but then I woke up.


Gymnast in the Air

I was walking over this tall bridge/road thing when I saw an outdoor gymnasium. I looked down and saw some people down there practicing gymnastics. There was a billboard right by the bridge, and some girls from my school were on it, practicing(more like showing off) gymnastics on it with no safety ropes or anything. I don't know why, but I decided to go onto the billboard with them just to check it out. I somehow managed to get on it and saw more girls from my school doing gymnastics. One girl laid a balance beam(a floor one) down in mid air and started walking across it. I was really scared that she was going to fall off it, and I think I actually had to catch her and all the other girls at one point. They were hanging onto strings below me and I was holding them. It was really heavy but I had to hold on until I made it back to the bridge. I got back safely, but I think one of the girls died.

lucid dream: 8-15-10

I haven't had a lucid in awhile so this was very unexpected

I had just woken up and went into the bathroom. I stood in front of the mirror and realized that something wasn't quite right so I looked down at my hands and I was missing some fingers. That's when I realized that I was dreaming. I got excited and started losing it so I tried a new technique(usually I dream spin to stabilize) and tried focusing on a shampoo bottle. Then everything in the room became really clear and I slowly made my way out my front door and stood on my driveway. I wanted to do one of my dream goals, which was to relive another dream that I had in the past, so I closed my eyes and imagined a bright yellow light. When I opened them, a guy from the sidewalk across the road started to float up and he was surrounded by the yellow light, like he was on fire or something. I think he might have exploded but I don't remember for sure. This wasn't the way it was supposed to be so I tried again. I don't remember what happened.

So, often I have these memories from when I was little and I just can tell if they are real or fake. I think I might have gotten them mixed up with dreams that I've had but I can't be sure. They just seem so real that I believe them. I guess I'll never know for sure..

I'm not going to make these purple because I believe they actually happened..


Please! Don't Take Me Away!
I was really little, maybe even a baby, not really sure, and some stange man was taking me away from my mother and he put me in a black car. I kept screaming for my mom and wondering why she would do this to me. I don't remember where he took me. Once in awhile, I ask my mom about this happening and she's like "That never happened." but I don't really believe her..

Barney Peed in the Sandbox?!
I was watching Barney(just like all kids did!). He was outside at a playground or something and there was a sandbox. He just.. peed in it. Then some little kids came around and were like "Barney! You're not supposed to pee in the sandbox" or something like that. To this day I still believe that I saw that while I was watching tv.

My Favorite Episode of the Little Mermaid
I was wathing the Little Mermaid(tv series) when Ariel got sucked into this hole in the ground with Flounder and they had to try to find a way out but it was really hard to swim against the current that was keeping them in it. They eventually got out, but I don't remember how. This became my favorite episode, but when I recently looked it up, I found no such thing! But this couldn't be a dream, I remember it so clearly because it was my favorite episode!

So.... is it reality or just a dream?

So I just felt like posting two nightmares of mine from when I was little. The first one is from when I was in preschool and it actually funny now to think that I was scared in the dream. The second one still haunts me, it was the most frightening dream I have ever experienced. It took place sometime when I was in elementary school.


First Nightmare: Lost in the Tubes
I was on a field trip with some people and teachers from my preschool. We went to a place with a huge play area with tubes and slides and things like that for kids to explore. I went to explore the tube but then I got lost. I couldn't find my way out and I remember there was a fake spider with a spider web covering one of the peek holes that I kept seeing. I went to a peek hole(maybe the spider one, I don't remember) and started crying because I was lost. One of the teachers saw me and had to come get me out. At the time, it was terrifying to me.


Worst Nightmare: Sinking Into the Graves
I was on my school playground and it was night time. There were two sides of the playgroud, one was on the side by the school and then the other one was way on a different side. To get there, you had to cross a large area of concrete that had areas where kids would play Four Square and soccer and stuff like that. It was set up just like in real life. The concrete area suddenly turned into a graveyard. There were outlines of grave holes and if you stepped on one of them, you would sink into the ground and be stuck there forever. I had to literally hug the wall and try to get across the concrete to prevent from stepping on one of them. At one point, I accidentally did step on one and it started sinking into the ground. I think I woke up..

Note: I think this might have contributed to the fact that I am terrified of being buried alive. Not quiet sure, but you never know.

regular dreams: 8-12-10 and 8-13-10


Falling

I was at some place.. I don't know if it was like a camp or a theater or a school gym or whatever, but there was a large wooden platform in the middle of the dark room and there were some people from my school there. I climbed on top of the platform thing and then lost my balance and started falling. I could hear some of the people from my school laughing at me while I was in mid air falling. I crash landed into the ground while wondering if they would still laugh if I had been seriously injured or died. I don't remember much else.


Pour Water On the President!

I was in a theater with tons of people and Obama was there, wearing his usual suit and tie. I was sitting not far away from him when I started feeling water splashing on me. I looked behind me and saw some kids splashing water all over. It was part of the act I think, and they came over to Obama with a bucket of water about to pour it on him but then stopped because they wanted to make sure he was okay with it. He got up and kind of hesitated a little and then walked out.


Bombing

I was on top of some building with like 20 or so people. Some guy had a bomb and he set it off, causing a fire. I ran away from him, just like everyone else, when I noticed a guy who got hit by some fire. He was just standing there, like he accepted the fact that he was going to die. He didn't bother trying to help himself.


Believe

Me and my mom went to see Criss Angel's Believe show. It was an outdoor theater, and to see it you would just sit on some railings across from the stage. At one point I remember seeing Allie there with some of her friends. I felt bad about seeing his show again because I knew it was really expensive and I'd already seen it once. But apparently we went to Las Vegas for some other reason, not just to see his show. I don't remember why we were in LV though. After awhile of waiting, Criss finally showed up in the back of a jeep, coming down into this tunnel. A bunch of fan girls started chasing the car, me included, until it came to a stop under this tunnel. There were tons of people now, and I didn't want to bother Criss because I knew his body guards would be there trying to get people to move so I just went back up to the theater area and waited for his show to start.

8-10-10

It's been too long since I'd last posted a dream, but lately I haven't been remembering any dreams. I think this is because I go to bed so late and don't allow myself to sleep very late to make up for it. I'm really trying to go to bed earlier so hopefully I can remember more. For now I guess I'll just post some fragments.

My sister came home from her trip. I was sad because I had just finished the last piece of the rainbow cake(YES, me and Middy and Aubrey from DV all made a rainbow cake for a party in real life! It was yummy.) and I wanted her to try some.

Also something about all my friends being in a huge shower, including me. I don't think we were actually showering, and we weren't naked or anything..

Something about parking my car and then parking it again and again because I couldn't make up my mind.

regular dreams: 7-31-10

I was up north and I only recorded some dreams from one night. The other nights I didn't get that much sleep from staying up so late so I don't remember anything else.

Criss Angel

Criss Angel was signing autographs or something at a white table. I came up to the table to greet him and he gave me a box filled with small presents. He told me that I was the winner of some contest because I sent him an email telling him how much I love his show(yea, I did that in real life..). I wanted him to hug me but instead my sister leaned over the table and Criss just gave her a small half-hug and I didn't get one.

Obama Knows Everything- Even Dog Chow Ingredients/Brands

Me and a friend were at some drugstore and the president showed up. He needed to buy some dog food so he went over to some shelves that had dog food and a bunch of people were following him. He was acting all smart and explaining the difference of dog food brands and the nutrients and stuff in them. He seemed to just know everything.. Then he bought something and went off to catch a flight. Sometime in this dream me and my friend were chasing a dead girl.. or something...