Hopeless Wanderings

Yet another one of the old dreams I found... probably from 2006. I remember writing this at my old friend Rachel's house after a sleepover. It was written in a language that me and one of my other friends made up so it took me awhile to translate this haha..


It was the biggest roller coaster in the park. I didn't get it's name though. I was scared to go on it but my friends dragged me on. We started to get inside the coaster. My friends seat had a broken handle so she sat somewhere else. that made me kind of nervous, but I stayed on. We started rolling down the tracks. It didn't seem as scary as I thought it would. All of a sudden, my roller coaster car just soft of zoomed off the track. Everything seemed to go in slow motion. I was falling. The next thing I know, I'm on the ground with news people and cameras all around me. Then I just had to wake up.

This is another old dream that I found in a folder somewhere. It didn't have a date on it, but I'm guessing it was from my first year of middle school in 7th grade because it mentions a teacher from that grade.


I was on a 1 week camping trip. The same counselors that were in camp in real life were there, and also some of my teachers, like Mr. Jorgensen and Ms. Weise. But for some reason, the camp was so high up in the air that everyone had to wear harnesses. Anyway, camp was really fun. I don't remember all the games we played there though. Camp went by really fast. On the last day, we all ate fudge sundays and just hung around. Until.. Somebody decided to bring out the big red ball and pass it around by the edge of the camp. Mr Jorgensen was talking to other people by him and he was standing next to the edge, and he wasn't wearing a harness. Anyway, the ball came to me but it slipped out of my hands and started rolling towards Mr. Jorgensen. He tried to catch the ball but it started rolling off the edge. Mr Jorgensen reached to grab it, but the he fell. He just fell. Sarah, one of the counselors, jumped after him with a parachute, but she was too late. Everyone rushed down off camp and watched. there was Sarah, standing in the water, searching for the body of Mr. J. I was in shock. I was too scared to look in the water, so I went back up to camp. I felt really bad for Mr. J, but no one else seemed to care. I knew he would be on the news the next day. But, I woke up and didn't feel like going back to sleep and continuing my dream.

These are the oldest dreams that I have ever recorded, before I knew about lucid dreaming. I recently found them tucked away in a folder. I was around 13 when I wrote this journal type dream entry.

They are actually quite embarrassing.. My grammar wasn't the best..

1-25-06

I have all kinds of dreams. A lot of my dreams are about flying, some are just about school or friends. Here are some dreams I've had in the past.



In one of my dreams, I was in my school when I tripped and dropped a bunch of books. The boy I had a crush on came and helped me pick my stuff up. I was staring at the floor when he whispered "I love you" into my hear. I looked up slowly but it wasn't him that whispered that! It was one of my friends, Allie W. I was so grossed out when I woke up!

In one dream, I was jumping off high buildings and landing safely on the ground. But after a few times of doing that, for some reason my ankles started to hurt. All of a sudden, I was on a train. It looked like a train on a computer game that I used to play a lot called Tomb Raider. For some reason I jumped off the train and landed on the ground right in front of it. I watched as I fastly slid under the train. The, for some reason, the screen turned red and the words "game over" showed up. It was really freaky because that's what happens when you die in the game Tomb Raider.

Me, my mom, my dad, and my friend Rachel were in a car driving somewhere through a beautiful forest-like landscape surrounded by green. Then, we came to a road that was over a lake and it was about a 1/2 mile drop down to the lake. We were going really fast, when we realized that the road was going to end right there, in the middle of the way over the lake. It was too late. We flew off the road and started falling down to the beautiful lake. The scenery was wonderful. Before we crashed, my mom said "I love you." then everything turned white and the next thing I knew, I was in Heaven. It wasn't like I had expected and it wasn't all that beautiful. We were in a building the whole time. I didn't see my mom and dad after that, but I did see Rachel a few times. In Heaven, they had some boring activities planned out for us, but all I wanted to do(and all I really did) was try to fly. That's all I remember.

Killer animals. Yes my friend, this story is about killer animals. It was a normal morning, except for one thing. Someone left open a window and animals snuck in overnight! There were a few bugs and small creatures, but when I went to the bathroom, I saw chickens! And when I walked into the kitchen, there was a very fat cat and an evil growling cat. It was 7:35 and time to leave for school, but when I looked out the window, I saw a monkey holding a cactus and ready to throw it at us, but when he saw us he quickly hid it behind his back and acted like he didn't have anything. But then, my dumb alarm clock woke me up.

So I had a dream about me dying... actually I've had several in the past few months. Also, my mom always has dreams about me dying/getting hurt. This kind of freaks me out...




Something happened before this.. but I don't remember what. I looked out my bedroom window and saw my friend. Then, I appeared to be looking at myself through my bedroom door. I was standing by my bed, then I just collapsed and died. A second later, I was sitting in an old car, looking out the window. The car was on a grassy hill, with tons of trees in the background and a sunny blue sky. There were people surrounding the car, or atleast they looked like people. One of them came up to the window and said something like "Come on out, It's okay." I didn't know what to do or think. It finally sunk in that I had died. So I rolled down the window and began to fly out of the car and up towards the clouds. Soon after this the dream faded

I'm back from my trip to Colorado! It was amazing and I got to climb Pike's Peak. The first night there I had several dreams that stuck with me until now(a few days later) and I'm finally getting a chance to record them. I don't remember that much anymore but I'll put some down.

regular dreams: 7-8-10

This dreams was based off of some conversations I had with friends. Sometimes when it looked like it was going to rain outside I would be joking around saying "It's go' rayne foooool!" and acting all ghetto. So I guess this is where it came from.


It was the morning before heading out to climb Pike's Peak(just like in RL). I turned on the news to see the weather for the day. This black guy came on with the weather and said "It's go' rayne this mornin! It's go' rayne in ma 'hood!" This made me really sad because [I thought that we were going to have nice weather for the trip.

It turns out that it did rain that day, but not until the afternoon after we arrived at the camp. Whew.


There were some more dreams but I dont remember/want to share them.

regular dreams: 7-7-10

I haven't been remembering much of my dreams lately so I haven't been posting anything.. I'm going to Colorado for awhile so I won't be able to post anything even if I do remember a dream.

Here are some parts that I remember from the dreams I had last night:

I remember something about a woman getting tons of abortions. She was some kind of slut and like every week or so she would have to go get an abortion. I watched her do it a few times. They stuck this thing up her womanly part...But one time they couldn't get it to go in... yea it was really gross and random.


Also, I remember being at a pool and this black girl who was about my age started drowning. Some lifeguards jumped in and fished her out but she wasn't breathing so they started working on her. It caused like a whole crowd of people to circle around the scene.. She finally coughed up some water and said "What happened?" I don't think anyone replied.. Then they put her on a stretcher and in an ambulance.

regular dream: 6-26-10


It was the second last day of school and I was taking some kind of math or history exam. I was doing pretty good but then the teacher told everyone to pack up. I didn't get to finish so I shoved the test in my backpack without him noticing and went home. When I got home I noticed that all my clothes had been spread out on the floor in a giant mess and my room was more of a public clothing store. I didn't want anyone to come in and see how messy my clothes were so I picked them up and put them in piles around the clothing store. I noticed that I had two new shirts that I remembered buying. One was a Miley Cyrus shirt which I never intended to wear.. and the other was a t-shirt from a trip of some kind. I realized that the school bus would be coming soon so I just threw on my purple sweater even though it was a bit hot out and started to go out by the bus. I went through my garage for some reason, instead of the door. In order to close the garage, I had to press the button and run out and jump over the invisible line thingy(happens in RL all the time). But I kept hitting the invisible line, causing the garage door to stop. Somehow I finally got it to close. I kept hearing bus sounding cars go by and kept freaking out that I would miss the bus on the last day of exams but the bus never actually passed. I started walking down to the bus stop, kind of jumping up in the air and flying like I was Elsia. This car almost hit me on the way there.. When I got there, there was these stairs thing leading to a wooden platform that some of the people by the bus stop were standing on. I flew up there and like a minute later the bus came. Everyone else went down the stairs but I just jumped high up in the air and floated down. The bus driver gave me a look of awe and I smiled. I got on the bus and sat next to this girl and like hugged her or something.. I guess I was just trying to be friendly but it made me look like a lesbo.. yea thats all I remember.

Originally Posted by ElsiaStar

regular dreams: 6-4-10

I was at a sleepover when I had these dreams. For some reason I always have really vivid dreams when I sleep somewhere besides my house.


Find the Bloody Baby Fingers

I came into my chemistry class and noticed that this guy was in my seat. Apparently, the other day when I had been gone, the teacher rearranged the seats. So I went up to the teacher and said "Where do I sit?" and she said something like "Well maybe if you walk around and look at people, you might remember where you sit." This didn't make any sense since I wasn't even here to get a new seat.. but I walked around for awhile anyway. I noticed that the desks were arranged in groups of 4, and most groups had a box made out of chocolate that had no top on it, along with a bunch of candy bars. The only desk I saw available didn't have chocolate on it because apparently that group didn't deserve the candy.. But I wanted some so I went back up to the teacher and said "I still don't know where I sit." and she said "Okay fine. I'll tell you where you sit if you find the bloody baby fingers in the room." Apparently, some student had fake bloody baby fingers and had put them somewhere in the room as a joke. So I started walking around the room to look for them. I noticed that another teacher was following me. I didn't want it to look like I was going through my teacher's stuff but I continued on anyway and didn't look behind me. After awhile of searching I finally looked behind me and saw that it was my friend, Allie. She said something to me and then started to help me look for the baby fingers. Then one of my friends woke me up. I was kind of mad that I didn't have the chance to find the bloody fingers and eat the chocolate..


Free Fallin

My mom and me and my dad were trying to prepare for our trip to Colorado to climb Pike's Peak. We were hiking up this hill thing and my sister was leading the way. We came to this hill that was covered in little streams of black, disgusting water. I said "are you sure we are supposed to go this way" and she said "ya, i go this way all the time." so I followed her. The next thing I know, the streams turned into water slides and my family and me were going down one of them. I was scared to land in the black muddy water. Then we appeared to be back at our house watching a documentary about how to prepare for the Pike's Peak trip. The into started with this guy saying something like "So, you want more adventure in your life?" and then he showed this guy standing on top of this huge, gray colored Eiffel tower type thing who looked like he was about to jump off. Then I appeared to be that guy and I jumped off the tower. It was a really amazing and scary feeling, falling to the ground below at a super fast speed. Then I hit the ground and hit my head. It only hurt a little. I landed on the curb of a road and slowly got up. I assumed that it was normal for people to fall from a distance like that and not get hurt. Then this guy came by and thought I was the guy from the tv who was originally going to be the one to jump off. He wanted something from me, I don't know what.. some kind of contract... That's all I remember.

Originally Posted by ElsiaStar

lucid dreams: 6-2-10

I was sick this morning so I went back to bed and attempted WILD but I think this might have been a DILD, not entirely sure.


Chemistry Class

I was in chemistry class(this is my second LD that started in chem class..) when I realized that I was lucid. I looked down at my hands but they looked normal. This didn't stop me though. I looked around and noticed that everything was exactly the same as real life. I was sitting in the same seat. I got up, kind of nervous that maybe I wasn't dreaming, but went up to the teacher at the front of the class and said "I don't care!" because she was talking about some boring chem stuff... In reply she said "Why?" and I said "Because I'm lucid dreaming!" and she started saying stuff but I ignored her and started trying to figure out what to do next. I attempted to fly right there in the class but that didn't work. I didn't want to lose my dream so I just kept myself calm and walking around the classroom for a little while. Then I decided to go outside and attempt to fly. The fastest way out was the window, so I went over to it and gave it a good kick, which broke it. I went through it and jumped out of it, attempting to fly, which worked a little but then I floated back down to the ground. I don't remember what happened after that.. but I don't remember waking up or anything.. I must have just lost the LD.

Originally Posted by ElsiaStar

regular/lucid dreams: 5-29-10

I think I had a short LD in which I was flying(either forward or downward) really super fast.



4 People 1 Bike

I was at my house one afternoon when three of my friends showed up, including one of them that I don't like too much, wanting me to take them to the store. I was sick of taking them to the store because they always wanted a ride from me and I felt like a taxi driver. I agreed to go anyway, but only because I wanted to get some ice cream cones from the store. We went outside on the driveway and sitting there was a red bicycle. We decided to take that to the store. I sat on the seat while one of my friends stood on the metal things in back(i don't know what they are called..). Somehow, my two other friends managed to squeeze on the bike also. I was nervous when I took off because the bike felt really wobbly. When I went down the bump in my driveway, everyone fell off. I thought that they would want to give up, but they just got right back on the bike and I started peddling down the road. On the way, there was this random kid who stopped and wanted to take our picture. I wanted him to take it because I thought that it was amazing how we could fit so many people on that little bike and I wanted to remember the epic journey. I'm not sure if he actually took it or not, but shortly after that my friends started getting off the bike for some reason and were walking instead. This made me angry because I wanted to continue our epic 4 person 1 bike quest. I don't think we ever made it to the store...


The Party is Over, Kesha


Me and my friend were at a library(not my usual one, some other one that was next to some other stores). I was looking for a certain book when out of nowhere, Kesha the singer showed up and started singing "Tik Tok." I got really annoyed because all I wanted to do was find my book and get out of there, but this stupid ***** was in my way(haha, yes, I really did feel that way..) So I started singing along to her song, but I changed the lyrics to something like "you are really annoying and shouldn't be singing in the library!" It was something like that, but it sounded really good the way I sang it along with her music. I was really proud of myself. That made her leave, which I was happy about. Then I remember going outside to the parking lot. There were tons cops and then my dad showed up, driving like a maniac. I was scared that he would get pulled over for reckless driving, but the cops didn't seem to care.

Originally Posted by ElsiaStar

regular/lucid dreams: 5-28-10


Fragments

I remember being on some crazy roller coaster ride. I had to go into the back seat because the other seats were either taken or broken. When it started, it kept flinging me off and I would somehow have to get back on.. it was really scary. I don't remember much about it.

I also remember something about jumping into a pool and sinking to the bottom curled up in a ball. When I reached the bottom I didn't feel like moving so I just kind of stayed there...


Friend's house Lucid

I was at Dani's house on a bright summer day. I looked down at my hands and realized that I was lucid. I had 6 fingers on each hand. I decided to go outside and attempt to fly, so I went out through her garage and stood on her driveway, attempting to jump up and fly.


Other Lucid

I also had another lucid in which I was outside and I saw this girl and followed her up a hill.. I don't feel like adding more details.... it wasn't a sexual dream, I just don't want to share it.

Originally Posted by ElsiaStar

6-2-10
Well, I got back from up north monday. I stayed home sick today and had another lucid dream. I have been having tons of DILDs lately! I think it is because I'm reality checking so much and constantly trying to think of lucid dreaming and stuff. I'll post some of the entries from my journal on the next few entries.

Originally Posted by ElsiaStar

Regular/Lucid dreams: 5-28-10

For the last half a month or so, I have been waking up early and attempting to WILD. Each time I have failed, but this time I got a DILD at 5a.m. (I attempted a WILD at 4am and fell right asleep). I don't have time right now to list all the dreams I had last night, so I'll just list the lucid one for now.

I was in chemistry class and we were doing a lab. My lab partner was this new girl in my class, who was really annoying and tried to act all cool by doing stupid stuff.. we had to staple a packet of papers together so I got this weird yellow small stapler and stapled them together and the girl said something stupid.. i dont remember what. Then she was like "I can do whatever I want, I'm in a lucid dream." and that got me thinking and I realized "Hey, Im dreaming!" So I did some deam spinning to prevent losing it, which worked for a little while. Since we were in a huge tall building for some reason, I went to one of the wall-length windows in another room and wanted to try flying. I tried to jump through the windows but they were angled weird, like sloped towards me. Each time I jumped, I would bounce right back. So I decided to try to just jump straight up through the ceiling and out the top of the building. I don't think that worked.. I ended up waking up shortly after that.

Originally Posted by ElsiaStar

Regular dreams: 5-25-10

I don't remember much to this dream.. it was really random though..


The Outside Inside Playground Factory

I had a job at a playground factory thingy. It was outdoors and you had to sort, or inspect, sticks or something that were going down the slide.. I was assigned to work on this slide with like 4 people, all of whom I didn't get along with very well. I wanted them to split up so that there would be two people working at a slide so we could get the work done faster. Then I went to the main part of the cave(we were apparently inside a cave.. working outside... yea..) and these workers told us that they were going to blow the whole thing up. Someone had to go and tell the other people to get out and I didn't want to do it so this other random worker guy went back.


Girl In Tree

Then there was another dream where I was trying to buy a birthday present for my friend but I didn't know what to get her so I went in the candy isle.. then she appeared in a tree... or something weird like that..


Also I had a false awakening. I set my alarm clock for 4am so that I could attempt a WILD, and I had a dream that I got up to go to the bathroom.. Later when I woke up for real I wondered why I still had to pee...

Originally Posted by ElsiaStar

regular dreams: 5-23-10

I tried so hard to have a WBTB LD. I got up around 6am and went on DV for awhile, then tried to go back and LD but after like half an hour I gave up because my pets wouldn't stop making noise.


Fragments:
girls house-in trouble? tried to help her i think..
strict parents, dad w/shotgun
Friend named Monica there
I remember when the mom came in, I tried to hide first in the ceiling, then when she looked up I would fly down low by the carpet, she eventually saw me.
ran outside-line of people by a beach, dad with shotgun
we stood there, dodging bullets and made it alive


-rollerskating girl who worked at a popcorn shop