non-lucid

Seriously, Melatonin fucks with your dreams. It's been causing me to have such strange dreams that are constantly changing.

I took one the other day too and had a dream that instead of carving a pumpkin I was carving a cat.

I took one last night:

I was watching the news on TV and the guy had just reported some sad news about a suicide(s) and he was telling viewers to call 1-800-PURPOSE if they felt suicidal. When I woke up, I was surprised that it was actually a valid number, although when I looked it up I think it's actually an electronics company number or something.

I looked down at my hands and had more fingers than normal. I was outside my house I think, but it was jungle-like and covered in grass. I was more excited than usual so I was losing it. I focused on grass, then spun, which helped. I looked around for someone to bite(for the task of the month) but there was no one. I got too excited and woke in a FA and tried to write down my dream in a Sticky Note on my computer but it was all gibberish.

I've been having such short LDs lately, I really need to work on stabilization. But I have been having them every 2-4 nights, which is an improvement.

I was with Brittany and was watching an old home movie recording of her dresser when she was little. "You should save this! It shows the clothes you wore when you were younger." Then, we were IN the home movie, looking through her dresser. I found clothes in there that were actually mine, so I took them back. I realized the sun was setting soon and we were now in a tropical paradise so I wanted to go outside and watch it. So we went outside onto the beach. It was a beautiful sight, a colorful sunset, a red moon on the left of the skyline, and another white moon on the right. I had my feet in the water and noticed outlines of something in the sand under the water. "What are those?" I asked. "Turtles." My sister pulls one out and it's this frog-like turtle creature. She keeps pulling them out and she pulls out a small alligator, then a large alligator, which makes me step away. A trainer appears and prepares to do tricks with the alligator..

Don't remember much. Main reason I'm posting this is to record the sleep paralysis I experienced, which I think is only the second time ever that I experienced it. Quite scary.

-4 people dying in a beautiful tragedy style dream

-I'm on the street by my house french kissing everyone I see. I realize I'm lucid, and decide to go to my neighbor's house to see who's home but I wake up.

-I died and went to heaven. I'm opening drawers that when you open them seem to go on forever.

I wake up, but I can't move. I can't even open my eyes. It's scary but I figure I'll come out of it eventually I try to fall back asleep in hope that when I wake up I won't be paralyzed anymore, but I somehow am finally able to move. Sometime during this I hear things like my dad in my room(in RL he's not at the house) and my dog(also not here in RL). Weird dream-like state.

I was in my new house with my roommates, which turned into a boat. The roommates were now gone and there were lots of people. We were in the middle of the ocean. I was standing on deck by my dad and happened to look up at the night sky. I saw what I thought was a shooting star, but it was going so slowly and went across the whole sky. Then I saw another. "Dad, look!" I said, "I keep seeing shooting stars, but they are moving so slowly!" We see another, only this one gets bigger, and bigger, and bigger.. until it crashes into our boat. More "stars" come crashing down as we run to take shelter. "It's the space station!" someone said. Apparently the space station had broken apart and crashed to earth! It was chaos on the boat. Many people were injured.

There were two twin girls, about 20 years old, with long blonde brassy hair. One of them had been hit. They were in a room on the top of the ship. The one that was hit in the chest had died, and was talking to the twin who was still alive.

Back on deck, we see life rafts filled with people. One of the ships near us had sunk. The ship in front of us just passed by and did not see the people on life rafts, and our ship was about to pass right by them too. "STOP THE BOAT!!" I shouted. I ran over and started pulling people from the life rafts into the boat. I first pulled over children, then the rest of the people, including a morbidly obese man wearing khakis and a blue striped shirt(only including these unimportant details because I'm trying to remember everything).

Dinner is served on the ship, as people are finally starting to calm down. The obese man has a plate filled with one large chicken breast, two rolls, and potatoes(again, useless detail). I finally decide to eat.

Then, I'm in the room with the twins again, as an observer. The living twin wants to die to be with the dead twin. The dead twin is trying to convince the living one to stay, but the living twin is adamant on dying. She didn't want to be alone. She started to say, "I'll be honest, it feels kind of peaceful..(talking about dying)" .. and then my alarm goes off.

Didn't write this dream down when I woke up so don't remember as much, but it was pretty cool.

I was at some award show, like the MTV music video awards, and there was a camera pointed at me recording my reaction to the performers. I didn't realize this at first so I was on my phone half the time and then when I realized cameras were pointed at me I pretended to look happy and surprised. They soon got bored with me and focused on some other kid. Afterwards, I somehow ended up in Taylor Swifts dressing room but I didn't know it, and she soon came in. Her hair was a lighter blond than it is now and her voice was higher than in RL. She was really nice and me and some other people were talking to her for awhile(wish I could remember what we said). Before she was about to leave, she asked me if I had ever been to her concert. I said, "no.. but I would love to go! That is.. if you're ever coming to Milwaukee" and was thinking she was gonna give me concert tickets. She said something like, "oh.. so you wanted to talk to me because you wanted concert tickets?" in kind of an annoyed but still nice voice, and I replied, "no, no, of course not! I'm just happy to talk to you! You don't need to give me concert tickets." And it ended with her saying something like she was gonna talk to one of her managers to hook me up with tickets.

In a DEILD, I started to wake up from a dream and felt funny, so knew I was dreaming. I was outside of my house with Dani. I walked around a bit and then decided, for the millionth time, to try to summon someone. I expected her to be around the corner, but when I walked around it there was no one. I think I did this twice. Then I shouted her name, which started to wake me up so I stopped and focused on the scene for awhile. I had no idea what to do so I jumped up in the air to fly but only made it like 10 feet then fell back down. I couldn't remember my dream goals so I just kinda walked around for awhile until I lost it.

edit: ok, NOW I remember what my LD goal was. It was a goal I was very excited about. Darn. I have to repeat the goal before I go to bed so I remember it.

This is all one dream but it’s probably out of order.

I was going to China with Niki. She had told me all about it, and had mentioned a hill that people would slide down for fun. It slowly came into view, and was a big city with buildings everywhere and medium-size mountains in the background, along with a giant hill on which people were sliding down. It looked quite fun. Then, while walking down the streets, I jumped up in the air and started to fly. I went higher and higher and soon was over the freeway. People were noticing and it was causing a traffic jam because everyone was looking at me. In fact, people were getting off the freeway just to get on again and go the other direction just so they could go the same direction as me and follow me. I was having a grand ole’ time flying up and down and all around.

I appeared in the middle of the ocean. There were big waves, and everytime a wave came I would go underwater to avoid it. Robin Williams was floating in the ocean next to me. He said something like, “in order to see the whales you have to ride out the waves” and it sounded, oddly, very meaningful coming from him. So I did just that, I rode out the next wave and a panda-colored whale stuck it’s head out of the wave. (wtf Melatonin)

Me and Niki were at the library and she was doing her homework. She knew about my new power so I asked her if she wanted to do her homework “somewhere else” and I was kinda shy about it because I was still unsure of it. She said “not really” but I convinced her and we went to the UCLA library(which I just assumed would be a big fancy library). We appeared in the parking lot and there we met this popular sorority girl who tried to show us around and give orientation because she thought we were new students, but I wanted to leave and go have more fun.

I met this popular bitchy girl, who I was supposed to help with something. I think she killed someone and I was like screw this and went off on my own

I was outside with my cat and we were going to fly home, so I jumped into the air and she was kinda flying next to me. I realized this was a dream but was having so much fun that I didn't care. I was getting really good at flying, it didn’t take me as long to get high up in the air and I was able to actually fly around(instead of just “swimming” up).

Kind of a blah dream.

I was up north on Squirrel Hill by the fire tower. (In RL the bottom part of the ladder was missing so I couldn't climb it.) I noticed that on the back of the tower was the ladder. Apparently it had been moved, which is why I wasn't able to climb it in RL(dream logic). But instead of being angled straight up, it was angled outward a bit so if you were to climb it, it would be pretty dangerous. This lady decided to climb while holding her baby, which made me nervous so I looked away, but she made it up there along with some other man. I was planning on climbing it later to check it out but never got around to it.

Then TPLSM(my friends) showed up and we were at the cabin, along with my parents. Britt gave me a delicious ginger cookie and I liked it so much I wanted to make more but she didn't feel like it or something. I went upstairs and there were Autumn trees growing in the house. I tried to get a picture of them because they looked so pretty but then it got too dark. Then, it was dark and Tasia was all lit up with glowsticks around her waist and wrists and was dancing to music and it looked really cool, so we decided to go to Walmart and get more glowsticks and alcohol. So we went to Walmart, but forgot to get alcohol. Then my parents made a campfire and.. that's all I remember.

-I was driving by places surrounded by fluffy cotton-like low clouds and I wanted to get out and go run through them

-my(?) cat gave birth to one kitten

I was with a class field trip in high school(4 years later and still having HS dreams) somewhere with a huge lake, so big you couldn’t see the other side. I was on a small raft near the shore when I saw that someone’s boat had caught fire, so I went to go help. There was a man, a woman, and I think a little boy. The people on the boat were hesitant to get off the boat because they didn’t want to leave their stuff behind but I somehow dragged them off. One of them took my ipod and threw it in the water because they thought it was useless. I was pissed, but later I went underwater and retrieved it and it still worked.

I was with this guy from my class who had a high suicide risk. You were able to look up someone’s suicide risk online. There was a meter ranging from 0-100% with the 100% in the red zone. I said something to this guy but it made it worse and his risk was 90%.

Then, I decided that I would kill myself. I told some guy to stand at a lookout point with a gun(like the kind snipers use) and I would give him a signal when to shoot me. I then stood at a high point overlooking the lake with my friends(D,N,B, ?), who were sitting on a bench looking out at the lake. I left them a note. One one side, it said how much I loved them. On the other side, it explained exactly what I was doing, why, and how sorry I was. I read them the first side, put it on the bench next to them, then stood at the edge.

I was shot and fell forward into the lake. Titanic music started playing(I looked the song up – Titanic Soundtrack- Never An Absolution) as I sank to the bottom. The water was a crimson red(maybe from the gunshot wound?) and at the bottom I saw a decaying body of a young girl. The music continued and half the time I was underwater and the other half I was above shore watching my friends freak out and try to figure out what had just happened. Weirdly, it was kind of a peaceful feeling for me.



I “woke up” in my bed and couldn’t see. When I tried to open my eyes, I would open my eyes in RL(or in another dream?) so I kept them closed and eventually I was able to see. I went into the living room and everything was very clear. I went outside and was prepared to do something fun but then the cat woke me up.

I also had a lucid yesterday where I couldn't see and kept trying to open my eyes but when I did I would open them in RL so I woke up.

Oh hey long time no dream post.. I've had so many memorable dreams I've wanted to record but been too lazy to record them. Now finally..

I "woke up" in my bedroom. I took a pill(that I had stopped taking in RL) and then started feeling extremely dizzy. I went into the bathroom and checked the mirror and saw bumps on my cheeks. I checked my body and it had spread all over. My whole body was red and covered in bumps. I realized that it was a rash from the pill that I took. I considered going to the hospital because it was so bad but figured it would clear up as soon as the med wore off. I went to the kitchen and let the dog out and noticed there was snow on the ground. "Already?!?" I thought(it's the middle of October) but I kinda liked it.

I "woke up" in my bed again, and still felt kinda weird so I looked down at my hands. They were pretty normal but I just knew that I was dreaming. I went to the living room and tried to summon A. It wasn't working(I've tried to summon this person many times before) but then a pair of hands with latex gloves appeared in the corner. It was dark so I couldn't see who they belonged to. I "woke up" but was still dreaming. I decided to try to fall back asleep(I didn't realize that I actually still was asleep) and I kinda started spinning in circles, which brought me to my second lucid.

In this dream within a dream, I already knew I was dreaming and didn't have to test it, so I got out of bed again and went back to the living room, which was dark and painted red. I focused on things to stabilize, like a label from a can, which helped. I tried again to summon A but had no luck, so I jumped in the air and started to fly. I was still in the house so I went outside and jumped again and flew(swam) up above the clounds. I started to come down but them decided to go even further up. I zoomed up and up, into space and throughout the universe, watching everything get smaller and smaller as some kind of majestic, movie-soundtrack-like music played. I saw galaxies and big planets in bright candy colors against the backdrop of cotten candy pink space. Afterwards, I retured back to Earth but was still above the clouds. I was going to try to go to a roller boogie next but woke up.

Oh hey DJ, long time no post. I've been having a lot of interesting dreams that I've been wanting to post in here, but I'm just so damn lazy. But I really want to start up again.

Sometime during the dream I realized I didn't feel quite "normal" and this made me realize I was dreaming. I was at my house, so I decided to try to revisit an old dream. I went outside on my driveway and called her name. "Angela!" Wait.. her name isn't Angela! What is her name?? I couldn't remember her name! So I stood there trying to think of her name until the dream finally faded away. As soon as I woke up I remembered her name(When you've known this person's name for 12+ years, how can you just simply forget it??). It's like something doesn't want me to remember or go back to that dream, because I've tried multiple times and it never works.

I also had the oh so common drowning dream. In a deep pool, 12 feet deep but it seemed more like 16 feet. I was at an indoor waterpark at someone's home, yeah, someone had a huge ass awesome waterpark in their house. And for some reason me and the people I was with decided to check it out. I was on this lazy river type ride and kept getting pulled in a certain direction but wanted to get off, then started sinking. But this time I think I actually saved myself? I don't remember. Last night was a mess of weird dreams that I can't remember. I think it's the from the Melatonin.

Oh I also dreamt that I got an email on my phone saying pumkin spice lattes at Starbucks were back and you could get them if you were a rewards member, which I was. I got all excited til I woke up and realized I still have to wait another week or so.

Two nights ago I dreamt that I was outide building a toilet out of wood and my dad was mocking me or something. He was annoying me and getting in the way.

Last night I dreamt I was in my room with my mom but we were dead. I was telling her how you could close your eyes and imagine a beautiful ring and when you open your eyes it will appear, because we were in "heaven". I did that a few times and it worked. Then my dad came in my room and all of a sudden I wasn't dead.. yet. There was an axe leaning against the wall and he took it and said, "I'm going to cut off your finger." and he did just that. It didn't hurt. Then he was going to kill us.. I woke up.

Now, my dad is the kindest, most caring dad out there and we never ever fight and I can't figure out why I'm having these dreams. Is there something I should know?

My friend's dad locked me in his basement in a tiny cell for weeks(or months?). In order to eat, I caught mice and somehow started fires to roast them over. When the dad asked me what I ate, and I told him. "I eat everything but the insides." My body was starved and withering away. I was scared and alone. I looked for ways to escape but it was impossible. Then, my friend and her mom came home and somehow I got access to a cell phone. At this point, I was sobbing. I tried calling the friend's mom to tell her what her husband was doing to me but the call didn't go through. My friend came by and I saw a chance to get a hold of a bottle of alcohol. I told her this, and she told me not too because her dad might find out and be mad. Then I found another phone and tried to call 911 but when I pressed "9" a "0" would pop up after it so it took me awhile. I was crying so hard saying, "help me, help me!" It was traumatizing.

It wasn't quite a nightmare, but a scary, disturbing dream.

Me, my parents, and one of my friends where in a car driving to ABR(a cross-country ski place). The road was snowy had really steep hills. One of the hills was so steep that our civic could barely get up it without slipping backwards down. When we reached the top, the car lost control and we went off the side. We were a lot higher up than I thought, the drop was abut the height of the tallest building on earth. My parents somehow separated from us during the fall and landed safely, but me and my friend kept falling. I was so scared that I closed my eyes. When I opened them, I was standing in a winter wonderland outside of a small house. That's when I met Jesus. He had a kind face and looked just like you think he'd look except his hair was a bit lighter and shorter. Unfortunately, I don't remember what he said to me(and I don't think it was that important), but he was really nice. I figured out that the place we were in wasn't Heaven, but a type of limbo that we would stay with Jesus in for awhile before making our way to Heaven. I wondered if he was going to tell us stories of his adventures on earth, or what we would do with all this time. I did not want to be there. I had other things to do on earth. Me and my friend sat by the stream, and cried, and cried.. until my tears filled up and the stream became a river, and soon big waves came.. My friend was unharmed by the waves, but they washed over me and carried me away. To where, I do not remember.

I haven't had a nightmare in a loooooong time.
I watched Silent Hill for the first time yesterday...

I was watching a movie with my parents and some other people. The movie was so horrifying that I had to close my eyes at parts. For example, in one part, there was a mother who lost her child and screams of terror came out of her. There was blood running down a path, the blood from her daughter, and it turned into dark ashes. At another point in the movie, it was like a war scene from Lord of the Rings. After the movie, some people laid down on the ground and the director of the movie asked who wanted their legs sawed off. It was apparently just for show and not real. A guy volunteered. He was overweight, had brown curly hair, and wore dark clothes. The director got a saw and started sawing through his leg. It looked pretty real to me. We were forced to watch this movie twice, and the second time, it became real...

I was with Niki and was popping popcorn. A black guy and some other guys came up to us. The black guy asked me if I wanted to "hang out" with him and of course I was hesitant so I said no, but for some reason eventually agreed. We started walking away and then he told me what we had to do. We had to sneak up on these guys and kill them before they would kill us. We were in a huge clothing warehouse and the guys were sitting on a window ledge. They saw us and came towards us. There was lots of fighting. At one point Lindsey Stirling and I were throwing darts at each other(lol).

Then sirens went off...

Everybody ran away. It was me and a group of people left, consisting of the black guy, one girl, and a bunch of other guys. We didn't have time to run back, so instead we ran forward. It was like a game and we had to get to the end. We ran towards a window that was facing a brick wall. It was night time so we couldn't see much except the reflection of us. The "creatures" were coming. I was so scared I closed my eyes. The black guy said, "don't close your eyes, look at my finger," for if I closed my eyes they could get me. He told me to look away and stand still and that way they won't see you. The "creatures" came up behind us, but they appeared as a copy of us. The girl turned around to see them. Big mistake. When she did that, even more appeared. She tried stabbing one of them but it was no use. They were surrounding us. They were about to attack...

I woke up and it was 6 am. I was too frightened to go back to sleep because I didn't want to go back to the dream. Everytime I closed my eyes I would see dead bodies and blood and scary creatures. So I wrote in my DJ and left the light on and finally went back to sleep.

Finally I remembered a long dream!

Katelyn asked me if I wanted to go to Las Vegas with her for some "business" trip, although I have no idea what the business thing was. I was hesitant at first but eventually decided to accompany her. So I packed up my stuff quickly and when we were about to leave I kept remembering things that I forgot to pack. So it took me forever to pack and I asked her what time our plane leaves. She said it leaves at 3pm. It was currently 1pm. "Good," I thought, "we're not late yet." I looked all around the house for my passport before realizing I didn't need one because we weren't traveling out of the country. On the way out, I saw my grandpa sitting on a bed. He looked at me, at without saying a word, gave me 100$. I told him thank you and gave him a hug. I remember having to go to the bathroom a zillion times(because I had to go in RL) and one time when I came out, I asked where the airport was and Katelyn and Ali said, "it's right there! You should know this, are you stupid?" and sure enough, I turned around and there it was.

The next thing I know, we were in Vegas. We arrived at this small bar/club and a few of Katelyn's co-workers were there. Everyone was dressed up all nice. There was music playing and some people were dancing. We had a drink and tried to fit in by dancing. I didn't know how to dance so it was kind of awkward. Then this guy stood on a chair wearing a costume and made us guess what it was(but I don't remember). I turned around and saw Allie P with a drink in her hand. I was trying to get her attention but she kept ignoring me.

At some point in this dream, I received a sandwich-sized bag which fish in it. There were 4 or 5 fish. One of them was a blue and black colored clownfish, which I referred to as "Blue Nemo" and another one was a tiny mermaid fish that looked like Ariel, which I thought was pretty cool. I hung the bag in a bigger fish tank so the water would stay the right temperature until I was able to bring the fish home for my dad to add to his fish tank.

Then, for God only knows what reason, we went to a Pussycat Dolls concert. We appeared to be on the side of the stage, facing the crowd. The crowd consisted of a bunch of teenagers/young adults, all female, who were dancing. These two girls came up to us and asked if we wanted to hang out later, to which I don't remember our response. Then, Drew Barrymore came up to us. She was drunk, and slurring her words, she asked if we wanted to join her for a party later. Katelyn said no, but I considered it because she was famous and maybe it would be fun. In the end though, we decided not to go.

The next day, we arrived at another of Katelyn's co-worker's place, which was a type of store. The lady who worked there was trying to get people to apply for a job. I was standing by someone who decided to quit right then and there. Even after that, I still kind of wanted to apply anyway. The lady asked if anyone wanted a pumpkin spice alcoholic drink, which sounded delicious to me. This girl replied, "no thanks, my parents puked last night," since they drank it the night before. Then the lady offered people sandwiches and everyone got in a line to receive one. She was also handing out spoons for anyone who wanted chocolate sauce.

I woke up with the song Take It Off by Kesha playing in my head, specifically the lines, "it's a hole in the wall, it's a dirty free for all, where we go hardcore and there's glitter on the floor" Seems to fit Vegas pretty well.

-fragment about glancing at an Uno game and wondering if I could apply for a job at Uno by answering people's questions about the game. I thought that would be a fun/easy job

Bad dream recall night

I was at my house with my parents and I was looking in the food closet where there was a stack of movies. I don't remember which one I picked, but once we put it in it was like a disaster movie. It wasn't just a movie, it was like actually being there and seeing it happen. There were huge waves flooding the city. Now we were "at" Sydney, Australia. The waves had stopped and someone said, "it's finally over." But of course, that wasn't the case. A huge, monster wave was towering above the city. Then I woke up.

-fragment about going to sleep in the middle of the day because I was tired

-fragment about my grandpa giving me peanut m&ms