Turquoise Dreams

Jan 4. 2014

Last night bed 12-1 am - 10:15 am

Had a bunch of dreams. Woke up, recalled a dream, but didn't write it down. Then had some more dreams.

DR:
I'm with classmates. My moms kitchen. Sitting down with others for some "orientation". Something goes wrong and I leave. I'm now in some water park. Thinking which water shoot I'll go down to escape. Looking inside some tubes, some are closed off.

I'm walking away by a sea wall. Want to just sit down and be looking at the ocean and sunset. But I also want to go down to the beach to collect seashells.

Classmate is running after me. Giving me some papers. A small kid is pick-pocketing me. I grab his arm and start asking who is his parent. I drag him by some people standing outside their one story houses. From the look on one guys face, and scared look on boys face I know that guy is his dad. Inside of the house a woman laying on bed is throwing up blood. Lung cancer. That's why that man sent his kid to steal. I still don't like it but now I understand. I don't know how to help them.

12.29.13

Last night bed past midnight - 9:45am

Had a few dreams last night, or should I say, I remembered a few.

DR1:

(Disturbing. Or they used to be. I have not had a dream like this in a while. Only this time I was not scared. Only uncomfortable.) I'm standing on a narrow street with one story houses lining it. I'm near a doorway. There is a funeral procession. Two boys had died. Brothers, ages about 5 and 9. Caskets are light brown, shiny. They are coming closer, and as usually, I have no place to escape to.

They end up entering room next to me. I don't want to see any of it. I somehow look and I see both brothers laying next to each other, dressed in suits. They mouth are open and I see inside. I really didn't want to because now I reallize this image will stay with me when WILDing. I get a mental image of a swimming pool they had drowned in. It could have been their sisters pool.

I'm standing in the next room and holding the door shot with my foot. I really don't wanna see. But there is a large gap under the door and I see a tiny, rusty colored kitten walk up to the door. I know that's one of the brothers wanting to say goodby. I'm a bit scared now, but I open the door so kitten can say goodby. Somebody picks him up and holds him next to my face.

DR2:
We are packing and evacuating to Hawaii, because of some natural disaster is suppose to happen.

DR3:
We are going to a chinese restaurant. We are picking from pre-fix menu and older chinese waiter is taking our orders. There is salad, spring rolls and something else. There is four of us. When we sit down, it looks like I ordered the most food.

Something about some red truck parked outside and someone putting a sign on it. Then I'm talking to a guy about it but he knows nothing.

12.28.13

Last night bed after 1:30am - 9:45am

Had to get up around 4 to take advil and watched TV till it kicked in (WBTB). I also had a convo with rudedude about dilds just before bed. And how I no longer have them, coz I mostly wild. I was trying to help him start RCing again.

DR:
I'm standing with crowd of people in a small, one story building with lots of windows. All is cool, when we hear something approaching. I look outside and there is this flying object approaching fast. Size of a small bus, white with red and blue stripes and with sharp corners.

It flys by, stops and turns around to come by again. I can see it's con trail. It slows down near the building and I yell "It's coming here, it's stopping". That's when I have the "wtf" moment. I look at my hands and I have more than 5 fingers. yeey, I'm dreaming.

I promptly throw a fireball. I'm satisfied that they are still guided by my eyes. Where I look, that's where fireball hits. Then there is this woman. And a baaaad witch. Then it turns out they are both one person. The witch changes her face to something hideous and comes at me with open mouth, yelling. I put my hands on her open jaw and push both jaws in different direction downward. I can feel her teeth, my hands are sore and bleeding. But I don't let go. I break her face and she falls into pieces. Someone tells me to make a hole and throw her in there. So I look at the grond and will a hole. I think it's too small and shallow. But when I look, I wery proud of my work. It looks like a 5 feet wide well, quite deep, and it has some purty shiny metal grates for the bottom. I throw her in there and pieces keep falling into the blackness of the well.

DR:
(During WBTB I watched a show "secrets of the secret service" and it was about how they were protecting obama during inauguration)
So, I'm suddenly sitting next to Obama. He is all relaxed and we are talking. Somebody wants me to show him a website I have linked earlier. So I look through my notebook. I have bunch of snippets, notes, links, all neatly organized and all about politics. I think I find the article but not sure about the link. I forgot what the topic was. So we are looking at his assistants laptop. As I move around, I touch a rifle that's proped against a chair. A very, very handsome secret service agent put it there. I apologize for moving it. It has a huge scope and it's beautiful. The rifle, I mean.

As I sit next to prez, our legs touch a few times. I wonder what is he doing here for so long and why is he talking to me so much. There is lot more, but I have forgotten : (

12.27.13

Last night, went to bed too late again. Almost 2am. When I woke up in the morning, a brief flash of some large, dark barrels came to my mind. Tried to remember more, but didn't happen. My memory is great and recall getting better every day. Hear that, subcon?

12.26.13

Last night bed 1:08 - 7:46

I'm in a south american country, maybe peru. I'm on a dusty hill with just a few shrubs. On the bottom are few houses, leaning onto the steep slope. One seems like a small local restaurant. (that day watched episode of Bizarre foods, where they were joking about eating half digested small fish from larger fishe's stomach) There is a throw up on the ground and I'm pulling a garden hose closer to hose it off.

I'm standing up high on the retaining wall and chasing dirty water into the canal grates. Somebody is picking through it, and I have a feeling that's the host from Bizarre foods. We are about to leave, so this is a last thing before I leave. But first I have to shut down the water. So I walk on the hill slope to the nearby baseball field (watched episode of Modern Family that night, in which Carol built a baseball field out of the dusty, only few shrubs vacant lot).

I get down to the dugout to look for pipes to shut the water off. I find someone else to help me figure out the correct wheel to turn.

Now we are on a local bus, either ready to leave, or already on the road. But we are stopped now and gunman with kalashnikov's are boarding. I have a feeling now that we are still in Peru, but also in Afrika, because of the looks of the gunman.

Just before they boarded, someone on the adjacent seat is showing someone his machine gun. I recognize it immediately. It's Berrett M60 and I say so, as I admire it. I pick it up and and check it out. I notice, that my hands are unsteady because of it's weight and I realize I would need to use a bipod to shoot it effectively. http://www.allmilitaryweapons.com/20...ult-rifle.html

Someone else has another assault rifle. When these gunman are about to board, I switch seats and sit down next to the guy with assault rifle. It's wraped in a t-shirt and I'm urging him to pull it out and shoot the gunman. But he is scared.

I return to my seat. As the gunman walk through the front door of the bus, I sense danger. These are types of people, that will smack you in your face with a rifle butt without any reason. So I raise my hands and lock them behind my head. I bow my head down slightly to show them I'm no threat to them, and to avoid direct eye contact. I'm not scared, I know I will be ok.

They walk past me and I watch them in a rear view mirror pull a young african girl out of her seat. I know exactly why and I wonder if same will happen to me. One of the gunman stands behind me and starts to feel me up, if I'm worth taking.

Then I see the guy with a machine gun running away from the bus, down the dusty hill, to escape. I yell at him to wait for me.

Now I'm in some kind of a fox-hole with others. I'm looking at my assault rifle. It's very modern, all black composite materials. The barrel has deep ridges. It also has a short scope. I look through it and I can't see anything. So I look at the scope and it has a slot end cap. I like it, it means I can still see through it, but the sun reflection from the glass will not give away my position. But now it's all closed so I turn the small lever to open it. Just in time, because we are being overrun. I raise it up and start firing single shots. Every one of them hits the taget. Attackers are falling down left and right. Some of them outflank us and start lobbing granades. I pick them up and lob them back. No real sense of danger.

12.25.13

Last night bed around 1am - 8:50am
Last week or so, I have been going to bed around 11pm, because I have started new work. It's very hectic and tiring as hell.

When I have recall, it's about this new work, and also working on DV. I'm off today and tomorrow and ready to do some serios sleeping and dreaming. And remembering.

EDIT:
OMG, just as I clicked on save, I remembered a crazy dream from last night. All about sex. I think I was disturbed by reading somebodys comment in chat last night. Oh, and also something about what my friend OP said, hahah.

DR:
So, I'm in a group of 5-7 people. I and one other person are older, and in position of authority of some kind. We are both same sex. We are walking into some building. Not really hotel, because rooms are free. It's in the near future. More modern than today, but still very familiar and not too futuristic.

We are in the hallway and by touching the door, it opens. It's made out of translucent glass. Three of us take rooms right next to each other. We know we are there to have sex. We just not sure who with whom, or if some others are coming. I'm sitting with this other adult, I think it's my favorite teacher, and I'm wondering if she is thinking to do it with me. Because I'm thinking "NOT". We are there to only supervise.

DR:
Could be same dream, but now it's only me. Same sexual athmosfere.

12.14.13

Got up just before 9am. Nap around 2pm.

Towards the end, I'm dreaming of sleeping on a sofa and wilding. I get the head first flying sensation. When it ends, I think to myself, that I'm already in a dream and I should just get up. So I try but my left knee bumps some furniture. I decide that it's my waking body moving, and I'm not in a dream. I invoke another sensation but don't end up in a dream.

Of course, there is no furniture by my sofa, so my dream knee was bumping in a dream. That's ok, I got these 2 cool sensations, I didn't get them in a while, and I missed them.

12.13.13

Last night bed around 2am -9am

Today, wanted to WILD baaaaadly. So I laid down on my sofa at 1pm. Of course, that was a signal for my cat to climb on my chest. She was purring so happily, I couldn't say no. I never say no. Thankfully my other cat was sound asleep. That's because I'm getting smart about my preparations. I used to put pillows and a blanket on a sofa just before WILD, and they always saw that when that woke them up, and they almost always climed up on me. But now, I prepare my sofa way ahead, and then later I just sneak there quietly.

Didn't really have any HH. Just getting nice and relaxed. Then I got a first WILD. Was short, and I wasn't super aware. Just enough to have presence o mind to wanting to invoke falling sensation each time previous LD ended.

In one of them, they rolled my boss to me in a wheel chair, so he can talk to me. I said, "oh, you are impared". Guess what, so am I, coz I'm wilding and not getting up from sofa". And this seemed to be a theme. Me laying down in every transition trying to invoke sensations to enter LD.

Not a single time I realized, that when in that state, I'm already in LD, all I need to do is to get up. Normally I realize that, but not today. Anyways, this went on and on, what seemed like good hour. This is first time I didn't count the LDs or transitions. At least 5 of them, leaning towards more. A liiiitle bit of a bummer. But not enough to bum me out, lol. Thank you for the experience, come again.

12.08.13

Last night bed 11:50 - 8:15

DR upon awakening

I'm walking someplace outdoors. A field of grass, near some small, overgrown pond. I'm with my brother. At the edge of the water we find a large piece of plastic. About 7 feet wide, more angular than round. It has low sides, lower than 1 inch. It gently slopes to the middle. There are a few tiny opening on the sides and the middle. It's off-white. It is full of small baby ducklings and baby chicken. I realize the plastic tray is there to trap them. Once they step into it, the slope doesn't allow them to get out, because it's slipery.

We start looking around for an owner of the ducklings. We check one farmhouse that's nearby. Then we see someone working in the huge yard at the other farmhouse. We walk inside and talk to the guy, then to the lady. They think we are there for a job. In fact, we are looking for a job for a friend of ours. We walk around the house for a while. Guy is putting on shoes and he thinks I'm there to get a car repair job, or some woodworking thing.

Suddenly my brother tells me to leave. I ask him why and he tells me, that he has a funny feeling about the people there. He says, that the woman gave him a 100 year stare. And he showed me, how was she staring at him, not blinking. So we left.

12.07.13

Last night bed 1:30am - 9:40am

DR 5:48am

I'm on a bus trip with class. We are driving along a concrete canal, that's filled with nice water to the top. On the slope of the canal, across from water, there are large graves. All encasted in marble, all different colors of whites and greys and blacks. We are visiting this town, where something bad happened. I think half the town burned down.

I recognize my former teacher UH and we joke about something sex related.

We are leaving the hotel we were staying in. I'm last one to leave. I still want to take a shower, so I walk into the bathroom. The floor is freshly washed and my UGGs are making dirty footprints. I have to find a rag and wipe it clean, while it's still wet. The shower stall is already wiped dry as well, even new soap and pink plastic scrubby thing is replaced for a new one. I hate to make a mess again.

Someone with knife walks outside the building and I follow him. I know he is about to be shot by police, when they yell at him to throw down his weapon. I drop my pistol and I'm trying to get closer to this guy to protect him from being shot. But he raises his hand and takes an aim at the police, who are across the canal. They shoot him, before I'm able to get in front of him. I'm devastated.

9:30
Someone left us $700 000. I walk into a small both to count the money. There is only 17x $100 bills. Then I notice, they are not bills, but sheets of 17 $100 bills. There is 170 sheets.
Today, 12.8.13, I got my new ID card, and it consists of 0s, 1s, and 7s. Hrm, pretty cool. After this dream, I was actually thinking of getting lottery with these numbers, because I felt they are significant.

I'm downstairs at my aunts, cleaning, while my whole extened family is upstairs, at my moms. We are all going somewhere. They are waiting for me. I walk outside. It's nightime. There is some snow on the ground, and everything is icy. Everybody who didn't fit in the cabin is in the back of the pickup truck. I say that's not safe. Even if we don't cause an accident, someone else may and we will get hurt. So they put me in the cab and I hate that, and they hate me for it.

We arrive to the train station to continue our trip. ( I saw a picture Ophelia posted today of her white pickup truck parked outside her house, with everything encased in ice. Rare winter snow and ice for Dallas area).

12.06.13

Woke up at 9am sharp. Spent all day on DV. Read Ophelia's last DJ entry, how she "opened her eyes" and went on with a LD.
I have tried that before, but couldn't keep eyes opened for longer than few seconds. But I know, that if I read something often enough, it will start working for me too. I did a WBTB day before, but never got back to wilding. So I thought today is the day. Even, if it was exactly 6 hrs after waking up in the morning. My normal morning nap is 1-3 hrs after.

I kept saying "when I see, I wake up", and "I'm dreaming", "open your eyes and see". I was getting relaxed just minutes after starting. I was also saying "I'll notice vibrations".

Next 2 hrs, I spent falling asleep, waking up, I think I got 2 LDs, in which I started waking up as soon as I realized and I said "oh,, great, I'm lucid, now let's do it again for real". And there vere some dreams sexual in nature. Just before I got up at 5, I spent good 10 min, if not longer, in a transition. I tried to levitate up, trying to move my arms, I felt my chest getting heavier and it was a great feeling. I was pushing my head back to invoke the falling feeling, and for a minute, I actually felt, as if I was summersaulting to the front. I got headrush a few times. But the whole time, maybe I was too awake, because I was not able to cross the threshhold. Maybe because of THE NOISY NEIGHBORS.

Oh, I was also asking my guide to pull me out. But I think I was too pushy about it. Too excited. I should have just let it happen, instead of wishing for it.

No matter, it was 2 hrs well spent and I enjoyed every minute of it. I knew it will be great even before I started. THANK YOU.

11.05.13

Last night bed around 1am. Want to wake up early, like yesterday, and WILD again, like yesterday.

DR1
I'm walking through a pedestrian bridge over Danube, on the Slovak/Hungarian border. This bridge is not there in WL. The railing is metal bars, and it looks like the walkway is metal too, with some gaps and holes, as if from lack of maintanace.

Lots of people walking on it. I see this very old a frail woman, holding onto the bars from the outside of the bridge, thrying to cross it that way. Old man is doing the same thing, right next to her. I sense, they are somehow different, than others on the bridge.

I ask her why, and she says "so when I lose grip, wind will blow me against the bridge and I won't fall". I grab both her wrists and pull her to the walkway, before she has a chance to fall or realize, what I'm doing. I'm surprised, how light she is. I start to explain to her in fluent Hungarian, that if she loses her grip ooutside of the walkway, where is she gonna fall? She says "water". And I ask: "and if you lose your grip while on the walkway? Where will you fall then?" She says "to the walkway". I'm happy that she gets it and she is no longer in danger. I'm also surprised a bit, how long of time did I spend on talking to her and explaining to her in a way, so she would understand.

DR2
I'm on a sidewalk in my hometown. There is something about a broken part on some machine. So I go the another machine and take some part from it and try to make it fit to make repairs. I think I succeed.

12.04.13

Last night, bed around 1-2 am. Woke up 7:50am and got up with intent to WILD soon.

Layed down on sofa around 10am to WILD. Of course, that's like an invitation to my cats to come and lay down on me. If I just lay down to watch the tv, I can call them, but they don't come. For some reason, they know when I'm WILDing and that's like a catnip. One cat found a comfy spot at my feet, and I could still feel her, every time she stirred. The other one, the chest-cat, jumped off after maybe 20 min, just as I was getting relaxed. Good things, as I was able to continue with a WILD.

Matra was "I'm dreaming", later switched to "When I see, I get up" and Later yet "I see, i get up". This has worked for me in the past and I knew it will work today.

I kept giving into the dreamlets, dipping down below into sleep, only to wake up slightly just seconds later. Next thing I know, I exclaim "I see!" I'm on a bed and I realize I'm dreaming. I get up, and take a look around. I'm in my childhood bedroom. I make a decision not to rush, but also not to worry about stabilizing, because I remember OpheliaBlue saying, that if you worry about stabilizing, then you have already lost.

So I just KNEW, that I'm gonna be ok without stabilizing. I took in the sights. Dark yellow light from setting sun was permeating the room. I made a consious decision to not just throw myself out the nearest window as I normally do. I wanted to walk outside using the doors. So I went through a few doors, each time with bit of trepidation if the door know will work and if I find behind the door what's suppose to be there. But I also KNEW, that doorknobs will work.

I walk throught the front door and as soon as I do, I can smell the dusty, summer air and my bare feet are getting almost burned by hot asphalt pavement. I take a right around the house and continue on the sidewalk. There are 2 new buildings. I can see through the windows, they are some kind of a gift shop or visitors center. I take a few steps back to check out the large letter/number designations on the front of the building. I want to remember them, so if they build them in the future IWL, I will know that's what i saw.

Here I lose it.

2.
I'm in a bed again. Not my room from WL, but in the dream, it's my room. I remember I wanted to look back and see myself laying in the bed. I look back and bed is empty. I look again, trying to trick my mind into showing someone there, but no luck. Bed is empty.

I make a decision to walk through doors again. I'm hoping this time, door will take me to some exotic place. I walk through a few of them, and last one takes me to my childhood room from WL and from previous LD. This makes me laugh histerically. Haha, my room=exotic place. Nice one, subcon.

3.
I'm on a sidewalk in a strange city. Not too modern. Looks like a pedestrian zone. I realize I don't have a plan and don't want to just walk around aimlesly. So... I grab the first guy and drag him into the small shop. It's tiny. Just a panel with some merchandise behind it, a clerk, and space for 5 people tops.

So I stand this guy int he corner of the panel and the front door. I Know I don't have much time left. I pull his pants down, I pull my pants down and I give him a BJ. While I do that, I observe some dust and a fly on the pult to not forget I'm dreaming and I keep repeating "I am dreaming" to keep aware. Too bad though, because soon after i wake up. Maybe new policy is in order. Me first, BJ next?

Not sure if they were WILDs or DILDs. First one felt like a WILD, but others... Didn't get any transition at all. Both times I just realized that "I see". Either way - THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU and LOVE YA

And I'm happy, that I was walking and NOT flying. Finally.

Monday 12.02.13

Last night bed 11:30pm

I'm in a garden at my childhood house. Lots of people there. There is a man, that is walking around the cellars hallway and also the yard. He walks around slowly, with sinister purpose. I have a gun and it seems like i also have ammo. It's in a small ammo box. Ammunition is small, golden in color, or yellow brass.

I tell someone to lock all their doors and to call my mom and others to stay in their apartments. That's when i see my mom, cluelessly peeking out of one of the doors leading to the yard. I yell at her to get back inside and lock the doors.

In the meantime, I keep shooting the guy, with no effect. I keep reloading the gun, but now the bullets are getting all messed up. They are tiny, deformed, and mixed in with stuff like lint and other stupid things. The intruder is now heading towards us. So I run up to him and knock him out cold.

I'm asking a neighbor if I should call 911, or the non-emergency number. She says non-emergency, since we got him neutralized.

Saturday 11.30.13

DR1 - I'm walking through a city that looks like my hometown. But it's not, It's Poland. We walk in a bar, that's just a hole in a a wall. Arched wooden doors. It's packed. We sit at a small, round, high table. There are couples everywhere. Except, they are not really couples. I think they just paired up after arrival. And not all are happy with the way they are paired up. We realize we came to the wrong bar.

DR 2 - I'm walking through a city again. This time it's Australia. I can clearly feel the distance from my home continent. I'm on the other side of the world. We see some ladies walk by and ask them for some good, not too expensive restaurant. They laugh. There is nothing that't not expensive.

DR3 - Still in Australia. I'm talking about a job offer in Bendi national Park. Sitting in managers office at the visitor's center. Sliding glass door behing me is opened and I have a view of a man-made small animal pool. Water is greenish, as if full of algae. I see a snake swimming in the water. I call my mom to look, but by then, it had turned to a crocodile. I'm excited to see a crocodile.

Still in Australia. now talking to different people about a job. I follow a female manager to a mess hall. A male manager tells me, that he has two openings - one is a manager of 2 workers in a dining room. Can't remember the other one.