non-lucid

11/16/15

Sleep 4pm-10pm

We are somewhere outside, by the water. Something happens and I need to be inoculated. So someone carves few slow, deep cuts into my right hand, between the thumb and pointy finger. I feel crappy, as in sick or something. Someone says it needs to be done again, so they recut the cuts and make some new ones. Lots of cuts, all deep and wide with dark red blood.
(watched walking dead just before bed)

11/14/15

Afternoon sleep after sleeping all night last night (was off).

I hear a sound outside of my moms kitchen. I go out on a balcony and don't expect to see anything, because it;s cloudy. But I do see a large commercial airplane. It's making a sound that's not consistent with it's size. There is some writing in blue cursive on it's trunk, but I can't make it out. I yell at my mom to get me the binoculars. She says they are in a sock drawer. I'm frustrated coz that's not helping me, I want her to bring it to me.

By then the airplane landed and it's a small helicopter with cockpit made out of clear plastic in a shape of a bubble. It almost looks like a model controlled from ground, but it's a full size one. The place it landed on is a small frozen lake surrounded by ice and snow and hills.

Now I see water to the right, under the full moon. I say that's strange, because it should not be visible. Then I notice that the water is all the way to the second story balcony and windows. I tell everybody that the house is floating away now, same way as in other 4 dreams I had about house moving/floating away.

Water starts to come in through the windows and I jump there to close them more tight, and so does my dad. I yell at my brother to get some more towels, but he says no.

11/14/15

I had a night off last night. Slept from 11pm or so - 8am

DR:
I am in Asia, perhaps Vietnam. In some kind of a run-down hotel. Something about bathrooms.

A chef makes scrumptious looking asian meals, like General Tso's and some pork belly.

I'm stocking some chocolate cake. Now I'm in the office of US envoy in this asian country. He is telling me that there is no escape for us, we are gonna be all killed no matter if we are trying to escape on a bus, or oter way, or stay in his office. So I ask him if it's ok to eat that chocolate cake. He says sure.

I go back and eat the whole damn thing. First I only take a chunk of the frosting and want to cut it up so nobody notices, but then I say srew it and eat it all. But before that I make me a plate of that asian food and add some mustard that my friend is asking for. I remembered after I woke up how it all tasted.

Just before this I'm watching an opposite wall in this hotel, where on top part mice start to pour out of an invisible opening. There is hundreds of them. They stay on this short ledge on top of the wall. I tell this to the envoy and I tell him that good chunk of the wall is missing there.

(Just before bed I watched the movie Chef where he was cooking these awesome looking dishes. This is the food part of my dream. The mice - I saw a roach farm on tv that same day.)

11.07.15

sleep 3:45pm-10pm

Finally recall.

I'm somewhere in US with my mom. She says we are going somewhere to see our family. So I buy a plane ticket.

Sitting on an airplane. Window seat. I notice that it's rather comfortable. After you squeeze into your row, the seat itself is larger and more comfy than on other planes. I realize it's because this is a smaller plane.

Somehow I don't know where we are going. We just landed and are taxiing to the airport building. Going under few bridges that look like tunnels. I tell my mom this looks like tunnels in town where we live in europe. Just then I glance a city in the distance and it's New York. I tell her "we are in NY, NY!" Is that where we were going? She says yes, so I'm like cool, I got the right plane ticket.

Some people are getting off, so is my mom. I get up an start walking to the door, but stop to grab a in-flight magazine to learn what type of an airplane this is so I can travel with same one next time. I'm only few seconds behind others, but by the time I get to the door, flight attendant just closed it. I say I'm getting off, so she opens it and I quickly walk out.

There is no airport building, only a dirt field. I look back and there is a chain link fence with small, faded metal sign saying the name of the airport. I'm trying to make it out and remember it. The last part of the name is ...Field.

We walk into some small bar. My mom shows the barkeep a map and asks him how to get to the marked address. It's a crossing of 2 streets. Barkeep writes down few bus line names. A bus arrives outside and leaves. I say there was a bus, but he says we should take a tour bus line, otherwise the bus driver may get mad.

I look at the map. My mom keeps mentioning we need to get to Bonaventura. But the name of 2 cross streets is different. Then I remember that Bonaventura is a name of the building her mom's sister lives. We are going to visit her. I saw the building on the google. It's very nice, with a doorman and all.

2.
We are sitting at the table as guests on come cooking competition. There are 4 kitchens for the competitors. They have teams of 4-5 people. My mom is asking them a lots of questions just to be annoying. I tell her to stop, they need to think what they gonna cook. When she doesn't stop, I walk up to the group of judges and I wait for them to finish evaluating before I tell them about mom. They say it's time to leave anyway. My mom is not happy, but I tell her that guests are allowed to stay only for first half anyway.

11.07.15

nightshifts, but today was off (last night)

No recall last 2-3 days. Other than working at my work. Tireing. Pls stop.

November 02, 2015

Sleeping 2pm-10pm

We are inside some building. Collecting things to evacuate. Vince is there. I look at the clock and it's 9. Actually 3 minutes past. The end of the world is any second now. I pull up the window shades so we can watch how it will happen. It's ok. It won't be long now.

10.29.15

Sleep 3:30pm - 10pm

I'm with a huge crowd of people, hundreds, maybe thousands. We are starting something new, like a new school maybe. They are putting us in order and I end up being #1.

Some kind of a test but not really a test, or they don't tell us. But something happens and people are trapped under water. I'm on the bottom of some U-shaped ditch that's very deep but not that wide. I look up and I see many feet of water above me. Water is clear and there is lots of items in it. I do something and I save the people but I don't see details how or what I did.

Now we are sitting outside again. He announces the results of the test, who was the best. He calls my number, #1. I have to stand up and I say hi while I look around at everybody.

10.28.15

Still on nightshifts since my coworker is on vacation.

Today:

Ophelia is visiting. We are in my mom's house. I'm telling her about my new dutch oven and she askes if it's certain brand. She is distant and not very interested. Other people that are with her are more important to her, but she is not really with them either. I ask her if I can take them out for dinner, but someone in her group shows me their itinerary with restaurant already included, and I'm not invited. I hear her on the phone later, something about protective custody or restraining order and I get an image of her son.

Yesterday:

1. We are visiting an outdoor place where they reenact medieval events. Somebody is getting a mock hanging by lady on a bridge over a dry creek putting a rope around guys neck, then running with it. I don't think the guy likes it anymore.

2. My female friend leaves to pick up her kid from school. It's :39. I go potty and through a small glass window on the door I see 2 people walk by. This shouldn't happen because we are inside her house. I get a bad feeling about it.

Few more people walk by and stop by the door. They want me. Their leader, young, skinny tall guy tells me to get out. I ask him to give me pls few seconds to finish my business and I'll open the door, no problem. I get a sence of impending doom, like something you never thought would happen is happening to you and that's it, you are done.

I open the door and we discuss the difference between like and love. They start putting white rope around me but suddenly I fight back. I keep taking the rope off, wiggling away from it, cutting it off while they keep trying to put more and more loops around me. I say NOPE, I keep taking it off, then I punch the guy. I look at him close and now he is a huge guy and I'm thinking it's not gonna be as easy as I sometimes imagine it to be.

3. I have a new smart phone and I'm taking pictures with it. I just remembered (reading reviews of enamel dutch ovens cracking) that as I tapped the screen, a huge crack opened on it from top to bottom and there was a separation of 1/4 inch of so. I looked at it in disbelief. how the heck did it crack, I was reasonably gentle.

10.26.15

This was yesterday during afternoon sleep, before my nightshift. Last day of nightshifts, as today I'm starting day - afternoon shifts.

I'm in Bulgaria, in a hotel by the sea. From the street it looks like rather small hotel, size of those in Miami beach. One side looks at the street, the other one on the ocean. It sits right on the sand. But the thing is, the sand is eroding and that make the building sit on a top of a 35 feet tall cliff made of beach sand. We are laying outside on towels when one of us starts to slide down. I grab him by the hand but when I see somebody else safely sliding down the steeply sloping cliff, we slide down too.

We are trying to decide wather to move someplace else, ecause this might be dangerous.

I look out the window and see a low tide. I go outside wanting to walk along the beach for a long distance, to look around. There are wet flat rocks where the water receded from and I'm looking at the distance to see if it's coming back soon. Someone points out a channel made in the rock that has water trickling in it, and that is the way water will return.

The whole scene is beautiful, authentic, detailed, colorful.

Now we are inside because it;s raining. It's dark outside. I hear 3 lound bangs as lightnig hits the top of the hotel which now is a huge tower, kinda like the Empire State Building. Someone jokes "3 bangs" referring to some scenes from horror movies. We say it was bound to happen, since it's the tallest building in the state and maybe of the hemisphere.

I look outside and there is a bright ball shaped object moving out of site and back. I start yelling "ball lightning" and I get a tiny bit uneasy. others look too.

Then I had this new version of "looking for a restroom" dream. I apparently had 3 buttplugs I had to take out. So I'm carrying a cheap plastic cup of oil with me, looking for a restroom. The cup is cracked and leaking and I'm holding my hand under it to catch the drips. But people are looking at me anyway. I come into a restaurant looking for a seat so I can do it in private, but I get frustrated thinking how is having a seat in the restaurant gonna help me? Its not the same as the seat in the restroom.

10.22.15

yesterday sleeping 1pm-10pm

Bad dreams. Demons. Not ghosts, but demons. I remember faces. One scene - I'm standing with another person and when a demon walks between us, we can detect it. There is a strange "pull" or electricity. Losts of abstract stuff.

10.17.15

sleep 2:30pm-9:40pm

Just before waking up:

I am visiting Peru with my dad, brother and other people. We are walking through some ancient place. Advanced civilization used to live there. I was wondering just how advanced they were, if having modern type doors makes them advanced.

It's a elongated site as if on the edge of a mountain or a cliff. Lots of ruins of buildings. Everything is in reddish clay.

My dad tells me that when he visited last time, they didn't go all the way to the end. And I should go there, because the view is great. As I'm walking, I look down and I find a 20 peseta coin. It looks old. I squat down to look for more. I remember my dreams how I find coins in them just like this.

We keep going and there is what seems to be the end, but I look beyond and the real end is there. It's a window opening in the clay wall.

Somewhere along this I look at the map of Peru to see where is this site, and my brother buys a brochure. I realize we got there by airplane and see our location to be in middle or middle north of Peru. I know it's not Machu Picchu, because I'm wondering why we didn't go there, and that perhaps next time we do that. It's not Puma Punku either, because I recall that name in a dream as well. I'm trying to come up with a name of that site. I know where we are, just the name eludes me. I know it's not as famous or visited as the others mentioned.

As I carefully fold my map of Peru, I grab another one that my brother left behind and I fold it too. I will take it for a friend of mine who collects maps. I bet he doesn't have one from there.

When we are back at the hotel, I'm walking on the grass field, coming back to hotel and taking pictures of the area with my red phone. I know ecaxtly how the phone works and I snap a few pictures. As I'm walking through this field which is not a lawn, I think to myslef to be careful of snakes and stuff, it's Peru afterall, an exotic country.

I'm asking when are we leaving, because I need some postcards and suveniers. They don't know, but I get from my aunt, that plane leaves at 19:30. I ask her "so, that's 7:30, right"? She says yes. So I say that we will be leaving at least 4-5 hrs before that, so around 2:30 or so.

I'm looking at some pottery that is somehow ours. It was perhaps part of a suvenier package we recieved. The small abstract object the size of opened hand is from black clay and the grooves are filled with fresh red clay/soil. As I'm cleaning it off, I tell my mom I'll leave some of that red clay on it, it will make it more authentic and I like the contrast with black.

10.12.15

Sleep 2pm - 9:25pm before nightshift

Had tons of dreams. After I woke up I put on Dark Matter that I have been watching last few days. A scene came on in which one guy was being stiched up by his enemy who just cut him in a swordfight.

This reminded me of my dream, in which I was held by some people, most of them were females. Those were doing most of the things. It was long and detailed, but now all I remember is me sitting on a bed, dressed only in socks, asking them please don't make me do this. Then I'm laying down and that's all I remember.

9.27.15

Sleep 2pm 9"45pm before night shift

I intended to wake up around 7 for a 30 min WBTB then nap on a sofa like yesterday, when I got a DILD. But I was too sleepy to do that. Instead, I got one of the longest, most vivid and detailed, interesting and beautiful dreams I had in a long time.

DR 1:
I missed mom's call. I'm trying to call her back, so I open the contact list. As I do that, about 15 tiny thumbnail pictures and videos start to load as a list of contacts. Screen is smallish, so the names are cut off. I pick one that says "call ..." because I thin that is mom, and I hit dial.

Someone answers but says nothing. Instead a video starts playing. Rather a live feed and I recognize my mom's street. I start talking, asking if it;s her.

Pisture changes and now I see a young boy playing on the beach. I recognize him as a kid I used to babysit. I realize I called his mom and somehow I see the video she is taping with her phone at that moment.

Somehow I'm transported to that location. I'm sitting on a beach, kids and their mom is there. I look at the ocean and I can't believe it. It is incredibly georgeous. Saphire blue, see through to the bottom. Waves are mixing in some whites into the blues and the sunshine is giving some light effects like what you see on the walls or ceiling of an indoor swimming pool reflected of the waves that are splashing around. I'm looking around and waves are hitting the beach from few different direction, then retrieving back to the ocean. The blue is incredible blue.

I look at the sand and it's pure white. I say to kids that it's time to go find some seashells. As I look up and down the beach, I don't see any large ones. So I just look close to me where we are sitting and a few colorful small ones are there.

Then we are sitting in a small swimming pool. Kids are in the water, I'm sitting on the edge. It looks like a small gazebo. It's separated from the ocean by a metal gate on one side, so water comes in but not anything dangerous. I ask them how is the water, because I was freezing. (I had the AC on and was getting really cold)

DR2:

I'm traveling back to California. At the house, I look out the window and I'm amazed. There is not much land around. The house ( I see it now from above) sits on a piece of land that is not bigger than the house itself. All around us are small islands, channels of water and ocean.

Islands are all elongated in same direction. As if they were leftovers of the land that tore itself apart by being pulled from 2 ends. Some islands have trees on them and they look like tops of hills or mountains that used to be there before.

I ask what happend and they say "liquifaction".

I feel the house moving, as if floating away on the water. I tell them that it's the same sensation I had in a dream not that long time ago. (it's true, dream of house floating away on the sea of lava in India - "Volcano in India")

DR3:
I'm taken to a house to visit someones family. (All these 3 dreams are somehow connected)

I walk into the house and we are walking by a living room full of people. Another one, also full of people sitting on sofas and chairs, watching TV and just lounging around. I realize they have to have more than one living room because the family is huge.

I say hi to all of them and they reply. Some I meet face to face and I'm surprised some are black. I wonder who married into black family. They are all very nice but I sense some tension.

A boy walks up to me, says hi and I shake his hand. His face is disfigured.

Another very tall young man walks up to me. He is in boxer's shorts and he is telling me that he is in the boxing championship in Saudi Arabia and he is doing quite well. I shake his hand and it's all rough and also disfigured, and his face too. I realize that you can be successful like that as well.

I walk into a very small bedroom. The bed is right next to the wall and the window and the ocean is righ against the window. As the waves are splashing around, they are starting to spill into the room. I yell at someone to come and do something.

DR4:

We are on the ocean. I look to the righ and a humongous wave is coming at us. It's a tsunami and we all say this is it, we are done. Goodbye.

9.22.15

Yesterday before night shift

1. I just got home from USA. It's been about 5 years. I ask my mom if she turned my library books in, coz they must be overdue by now.

I call up the library and ask them about it, and then I ask about their location. I tell the librarian that all I remember is that it's in new location near a place where I used to go to have fun as a child. She thinks I'm joking and she tells me to google it and she hangs up. I'm trying to recall the location and how to get there, and few images jump in my mind, but they are not adding up.

2. I'm with my mom at an ice cream shop. An asian shopkeeper lady gives me a bowl and explains how to use the white plastic "spatula" to make ice cream scoops.

I start making balls and put them in my bow and before I know there is at least 10 of them. All different flavors. I realize I overdid it and ask my mom if she wants some from mine. She says that she will get her own. It's not expensive, maybe only 4 dollars for the whole thing.

Mine are starting to melt so I start to eat. I'm getting full but I want to have lemon one. I scoop to the bottom but what I pick up is a hardboiled egg that is so soft and watery. The whole thing tastes awefull. I dunno why dream ice cream always tastes so bad, like now I almost never want to have ice cream again.

9.20.15

sleep 3pm 11pm

No matter how long I sleep, this is just not doing it for me. Feels like I slept only 2-3 hrs. Maybe because when I'm waking up is when normal people go to sleep and my body knows it.

DR
My cats are fighting some animal. It looks like a snake. They get beat up, but they win. At the end, I escort the animal which now looks like a wolf from Avatar the movie, to his home. I do this so he gets home safely. He is all nice now, but I can feel the pent up energy inside of him. I have him on a leash so people don't get scared by him, but we communicate verbally and he is inteligent. On the way there there are some people and 3 racoons cross our path. One has babies hanging on her. We get to a place that looks like nobody is there, just the nature. I ask him if this is suitable for him and I hope it's not too far from his real home where he came from.

DR
I'm in a huge house. It's raining and hose starts to move. It's being taken with a current. We are all in a large room with glass ceiling and glass all over. When the house slovs down for a moment, I tell everybody to get to smaller room without glass. We get to the kitchen by the main entry. I have everybody pack a backpack. I tell kids to pack anything they see. Some clothes, a toy, a book. We didn't have many things right there so I just wanted them to take whatever we had.

Someone tells me to tell my parent and what time is it over there. i look and it's 3 pm or 3 am. I tell them that with speed of information, by now they must know about the floods.

When the house stopps, we are in downtow. We get out and with other people from other houses we watch houses collaps. We stopped by an imposing, very old, tall, scary church. I know that is our new place, near the church, since that's where the house stopped. But then as buildings nearby collaps, the enormously tall statues on the church, toggether with it's walls start to crumble and fall. Same happens to our house.

Suddenly we are moving again. I look to the front and we are on the bus. It's taking us to safety. There are people in middle of the road measuring the road divider stripes, since they were washed away.