non-lucid

april 8 2016

since I got here on 31st, my dreams are weird. Almost abstract.

- pregnant
- something something
- looking down many stories to the bottom of a highrise building, knocking down boxes and trying to aim them to fall on some bad guys
- climbing up on a tower made from not stable boxes in order to fly from it's top to the other side, realizing the tower is about to fall so jumping ahead in hopes of taking flight before I hit the ground

Maybe my diet consisting almost entirely of bacon, sausage and beer is to blame.

3.27.16

This is a small part of a loner dream.

We are walking on a dirt road. There is a ditch to the left which is filled with fast flowing flood water. The tiny baby goat or lamb jumps in it and I watch it in disbelief how it's being carried down the stream.

I look around but nobody is taking action. I don't really wanna do it but I just have to. I jump in the water and start paddling fast expecting to be getting close to the lamb. But I realize right away with a surprise, that this 5 feet wide ditch is filled with grass that grows in bunches like this.


The water is kinda cold and yellow murky from the mud it's carrying.
There is very little space between those bunches and I'm practically standing on top of them with very little room to swim.

I can't swim here at all, but thank god I see how the lamb had enough of it and it pulls itself out on the shore.
I get out too and I cuddle him in my arms as we keep walking.

Not really sure about feeling from this dream. Maybe being inadequate.

3.24.16

Took a nap after coming home from early shift.

Somehow I notice some signs that the big earthqake is coming withing minutes or hours. I start preparing, packing some water, opening garage doors so we can get out fast, wanting to pull a car out so I can get to my car that looks just like the one I have IWL.

3.22.16

Last night bed 11ish-8am.

DR1
My mom is driving an open top car, on a winding road. Ocean on the left, hill on the right. I look over the ocean and the sunrise is just spectacular. The skies are so beautiful, and the ocean is so calm and almost white, only a touch of lightest blue. I tell my mom to look but she is not looking, so I tell her to stop and she slows down and pulls to the hill side of the road so she can look. ( I think I got this because I watched kardashians and they were driving in snow)

DR2
I'm working for someone who knows and works with celebrities. It's New Year's Eve and we are prepping for a party. I get a phone call but people that just came are so loud, I tell the person to hold on, I need to walk to the back rooms of the house where I know it's quiet.

So this person tells me that I defaulted on paying for some Amazon purchase. I tell her I didn't and I find some receipts saying that I paid it off on January or February 23rd.

She tells me if I want an Amazon card, I need to get my blood tested. So I go the another room where someone I know is talking to me about it and asking me which arm I want to have blood drawn. I say neighter. This whole time I'm holding a tiny cute puppy in my arms.

Somehow they talk me into it and I lay on the exam table, puppy still in my arms. I gave her my left arm and she puts a needle in it. I look up and Pierce Brosnan with his partner walks in. He looks sharp in black tux and white shoal. It's 15 min to midnight. I wonder what are people thinking about seing me there.

3.18.16

Remembered when waking up.

1. I'm trying to give a ride to 2 people by telling them to get in my purse. Purse is normal size and we already stuffed their bags in it. Not these 2 females are suppose to fit there. I know it's not possible but I also know it is. It is giving me uncomfortable feeling.

2. I just dropped off a young boy at the school. I am debating with a teacher and this boy how is something not teacher's fault. She can't go back and re-teach kids that she taught 2-3 years ago when that knowledge was not available.

3. I'm at my grammas house, outside in the yard. There is a bed outside or something. I'm not sure what I'm doing. There is lots of yellow colors.

3.18.16

Last night bed around 10pm. Woke up from nightmare at 1:26am.

I don't remember having this nightmare since childhood. A few nightmares about churches, but not this same feeling.

DR
I'm in a church thats illuminated by soft yellow light of many candles. There is some force that I'm desperately trying to stay away from. I know it knows I am there, but I'm trying really hard to stay away from it's sight.

There is some singing and I either sing or participate in the last song that I'm still humming when I wake up. It's a well known classical piece.

I'm quickly putting away a chair behind a curtain in a room, not wanting to be seen. Then I quickly kneel on a side of large bed with other people. It's some kind of a ritual, not in a bad way, more like celebrating or rather commemorating. Jesus/baby Jesus is on the bed, or just a representation of him. Bed sheets are yellow/golden and white, same as everything else in 2 rooms I can see. The bed is large, it fills up the whole small room. This room doesn't have walls on at least 2 sides, only corners, and golden/whitish heavy drapes are hanging in these corners.

I never see this force, but the image of it I have is that it's something taller than avarage human. It never really hurt me, I don't know why I am so scared of it. The childhood recurring dream with same force is me walking around the neighborhood at night and this force being there as well.

3.16.16

Day shifts this week.

I woke up and retold myself a dream to remember it later. But now I don't remember it. Too bad, it was pretty good.

DR later on:
Something about festival, or award ceremony. They are calling names of artists that were chosen to sing and they are all happy about it. I get a preview of a british boy's choir singing. This is so detailed and clear. I watch from only 5 feet away how these kids sing. I hear and understand the words and I notice how different they sing as individuals.

3.14.16

Last night bed around 11pm or later.

DR 1 - Bus - remembered at 5:37 am

I'm on a bus with lots of kids. Something happens to the driver and I take over. But there are no breaks. I drive for a long time, winding roads, greenery. Lots of people. I yell out to them to call the cops, call 911, we have no breaks and need help. But they ignore us, don't believe or just act as they didn't hear me.

After a long time we are approaching some old church. I aim it as some wall in hopes it will stop us without hurting anybody. Big door with sign something like "prayer room, or praying in progress" is on the large wooden door straight ahead so I turn the wheel left into a wall where there were no people. I get out of the bus, get on my knees and kiss the cobble stone floor thanking god, while thinking wtha heck am I doing.

Later I'm talking to a nun. She is thanking me for saving everybody but I don't want to make a bid deal about it.

DR 2 - Work - upon waking up around 8am
Long dream being at work. I'm with few others in a break room. Someone opens the door and there is a crowd of people. I'm like why the hell are they waiting outside of the break room. I'm telling someone that if he opens the door and let's them in, he will have to take care of them.

On the salesfloor - there is a bunch of spaghetti sauce jars and some really large ones, size of a bucket are sitting on top of it all, slanted, ready to slide down. I'm about to go tell someone when I decide to take a picture of it first.

As I'm leaving, a dude gets on a forklift that looks like tractor and starts driving it around, bumping into shelves and pushing them out of way. I barely jump away twice and I'm yelling at him to stop. I'm thinking he is an employee bacause of his badge, but when he gets off and walks away casually, I realize it was a customer and I wanna arrest him.

I see my wallet on the cash register and it has all the cards missing. There is some kind of a safety person right there so I tell her, fill out the report, then i find an envelope with all my missing cards. Someone returned them.

3.12.16

Day shifts this week. Last night bed 9pm - 3 am. 4:30am shift.

I am with another adult and 2 kids. Walking on some kind of a berm and seashore I think in Sweden. We suppose to get to the other side of the bay, across the water. There is a narrow path I see, surrounded by water. It's a low tide and we can walk across on the rock all covered in green moss and still wet.

At some point we walked up on a hill that was along some other path and I saw the bay in the distance, with a smallish town huddled on it's shore. Windows all lit up, otherwise only dark silhuettes of the houses were visible, because it was at night.

3.10.16

Last night bed 10:30 - 7am

DR 1 3:04am

Some kind of invasion, I'm hiding in rooms.

DR 2
I'm standing in a metal bar door in a very busy, large, one story house. Guy comes through those doors often, throws wad of money into the opened safe in the wall.

I figure, there is some non-legal action going on and in case of robbery or police raid, I'll just slap the safe door shut and close and latch the metal bar gate and we don't lose any money, only what is on the floor.

Sun is setting and the glow of the sun is getting darker through the windows. I see some shadows and police badges. I walk to the back of the house from room to room, looking for a window or door to get out. I find one and walk outside. I'm walking through this huge compound of buildings, equipment, by other room full of people. More like a small village. I lay in grass behind some water tank when I see police approaching.

This was quite detailed.

3.9.16

Day shifts this week.

Last night - I'm walking in a park area, look down and I see a coin. Look closer and there is a huge pile of pennies and a bunch of old coins, all half sticking out from dirt. I walk away to cut a piece of plastic off of some large piece to put the coins in.

Maybe a week ago:
I'm looking at this structure made of aquariums sitting on top of each other. There are all kinds of aquatic creatures and plants in there. One is really cute - a red/orange creature with 4 legs and a body, kinda like a centaur, but miniature, size of a snail.

2.28.16

Last 4-5 weeks doing mixed day-night shifts. Effin up my everything.

Slept few hours in the afternoon after early shift and before midnight shift tonight.

Weird dream. I was climbing, flying on some vines or bushes, as I would in a lucid.

I'm trying to get to a country on the left side of the map, maybe americas. I'm not sure I can fly there with my astral/dream body, so I decide to take a plane with my astral body.

I'm wondering how will this work. Is my physical and astral bodies both there with me, or my physical is at home sleeping? If it's just my astral, how will I actually "get" to that country and "be there". If it's my physical with me as well, how am I LDing/astral projecting?

2.23.16 Tuesday
Yesterday third night of midnight shift.

Can't really sleep, bed at 5pm - 10:30

DR 1:
I'm waiting at the dentist. She announces through a PA system, that she will work an extra hour for more profits and I hear 2 names of patients she will take. Somebody declines or something so it's my turn. But then she says she is getting a headache, lol, so I will go back the next day.

DR 2:
I'm following someone through some dirt path in the fields to see where the end up.

DR 3:
My brother is visiting so we wanna go to eat out. We are in some smallish elongated town on the edge of something to the south. I grab a turist brochure and show him restaurants marked with stars for ratings.

DR 4:
I'm in a room that has huge glass windows on at least 3 sides. I'm sitting and kinda meditating, while looking at the yard in the back of the house, or at least trying to have a quiet moment. This is not my house, not sure why I'm there.

I look to my right at a distant scenery of fields and small towns. I point out some very low hanging dark clouds that are touching the ground and it looks like it's raining over there and very windy. Suddenly there is a huuuge gust of wind and everything is moving. The huge metal electric towers are swaying, trees going back and forth, cars on the highway in front of the house are moving left and right.

My mom opens the front door all worried and even before she says 'tornado", I see the fully formed skinny funnel. I grab my socks and shoes and start putting them on, when someone says it's about 3 miles/km away and we are ok, and should go inside.

Back inside, I see "stuff" flying in the air. Huge chunks of debris. There is a porous building block bouncing off the road and a piece of the wall size of a WV Beetle flies by the window. I say we should go to the upper floor to find a room without glass, but I realize if something like that hits us, it will obliterate the whole house.

2.21.16

Yesterday work 5am-1:30pm. Slept from 4pm -3am : D

I kept waking up and recalling the dreams. But I sitll forgot details and some dreams.

DR 1:
Japanese Invasion
We are getting together at school. Younger kids going into older kids classrooms. They are moving there from classrooms on lover levels of the building, because we expect invasion.

Japanese army is suppose to be near and coming closer. They told us to stay indoors. I really want to see the news so I go outside between some bushes to go get my tablet, because that's where we hid them. We were not allowed to keep any.

I see a few open-top military vehicles coming by. I met a japanese man and his daughter on a dirt path through those bushes. I put my hands together, bow down and say some japanese word. I know it's not correct, but I'm hoping it will do. And it does, they greet me also and we just pass each other.

DR 2:
Japanese knife

I open a long package and it's a japanese cooking knife with white handle. The blade is intricate and designed to cut different things in different parts of the blade. I think I got it from a friend. But in next dream my mom tells me that she got herself one too and I ask her how does it cut.

DR 3:
Girl

Spoiler for girl:

I walk up to a group of guys with few girls and ask (the guys) if some of them wants to do it. One blond girl says "ok, I'll go with you". I'm thinking ok, but I'm not sure how this will work. She lays down naked and I go down on her. I'm not really liking it and I'm keeping my mouth closed. I tell her that this is my first time with a girl. She says "well after this, you will not able to say that anymore". I'm trying to do a good job but I know I am not. Somebody else comes and takes over for me.

DR 4:
Movie set
I'm standing outside and women next to me are talking about directors. I ask them which studio they work for and they say "the new one, but they can't really say the name".

2.18.16

5am-1pm shift yesterday. Nap most of the afternoon and night. Dream recalled just before 4am.

(This one was few days ago: I'm on some tour in North Korea. We walk around and have some meals. The tour guide is suspucious of me because apparently that is my second consecutive tour and they think I'm a spy)

Today:
DR 1:
I am living on a top floor of a scryscraper. Some residents are talking in a hallway about safety. Somehow we find out that they cut corners while building the structure and someone said they inspected the part that is still under construction and there are parts of walls and support structures missing. The building can crumble at any moment. I feel the urgency and me and my mom start packing.

We make it to the ground. I look up at the cloudy night sky and I can see the unfinished part of the building starts to shake and buckle. I yell "look it's coming down" and parts of it are starting to rain down. I see people holding on to it while falling. Now I am one of the falling ones. We ar really high up and I'm liking it. My stomach starts to feel like on a roller coaster and I'm enjoying the fall. I wonder if I will finally hit the ground, as I never do in any of my lucid falls (this was non-lucid).

There was lot more details in the building and on the ground before and after this, but they are all so vague.

I'm talking to someone, I think it's AURON. Looking at some readouts from my dream stats. There is one line of text in blue, looking like a URL link. I say "oh ok, it's blue, looks like I was lucid then, when I "went" to fall with others, because I love falling."

DR 2:

There is a body of water with some monster keeping hostages on some floating structure. The traffic is closed off nearby so police can take care of this.

I'm sitting in a huge orange/yellow construction truck and I aim it straight down an almost vertical slope heading for the water. Some of my friends does some magic and makes the slope slippery with snow and ice. I gun it and drive the truck in the water. I poke a tiny needle hole into the monster and he slowly deflates.

DR 3:

I'm at the airport carrying people in my cab. With another cabbie we decide to take some passenger and his luggage.