limitless' limits

I havent posted in a while, this is from the 20th

Every time i dream that im in a public place, no matter where, i always dream about the same bathroom that ive never actually been to. I can remember exactly how it looks but its too hard to describe, so im just going to say it's a public bathroom. That was all i could recall from my first dream..

Second dream of the night, i was at a big dinner with family and friends at a restaurant. I was part of some sort of graduation, but it wasnt school. I knew i didnt expect to actually graduate tho, but i was still part of the ceremony and we were all wearing the graduation gowns.. I remember before the ceremony, in the dinning room, there were two toddlers running around, one of them was in a yellow onesie and the other was in red. The red one was a HUGE baby boy, he was under a year old but looked like a 2 year old. And my ex was the server for that table and every time i looked over he was playing with the baby. That all i remember specifically, but after dinner i remember waiting in the lineup to file into our seats for the ceremony.

21st,
went to a friend's party, so now i have learned that drunk sleep doesnt allow me to dream.
Had one recall in the morning, after i had gotten up and went back to sleep. It was a continuation of the night, and i walked down the hall to one of the bedrooms that i hadnt seen during the tour of the house. There was a light on under the door, so i opened it, and just saw a very empty looking bedroom, very plain, so i was like *sigh* and turned around. My cousin Kristen was in the doorway of the room across the hall. I said Hi and woke up, its odd because Kristen wasnt at the party, i always dream that shes with me.

I had 4 dreams that im aware of, but only 3 recalls. I couldnt sleep until 4:30am:

1. Woke up around 7:50am
Im with my cousin Kristen and we're outside, talking and walking down a strangely familiar sidewalk, its around midnight. We stop our conversation because we see some chick rollerskating down the adjacent sidewalk holding a conversation with a short man in a trench coat. Shes skating a few sidewalk slabs ahead of him, so we can hear them. Her voice sounds familiar. All of a sudden i hear myself yell, "Jessica?!" She doesnt seem to hear me, she turns and skates onto the grass and around a house that was on the corner. She shows up behind us and it turns out to be my cousin Jessica, who lives in Toronto. We talk and she explains that her and her business partner just bought a store front in Oshawa, to sell shoes that she designs. She also informs me that she changed her name, but i couldnt remember what it was when i woke up. Weird dream, because shes a vet.

2. Woke up at 8am
I know i had a dream, but when i woke up i couldnt remember what it was about. All i know is that near the end, a deep ominous tone took over my hearing and everything turned this very deep blue and it swallowed me as i woke up, gasping. I know that if i were more experienced with lucidity, i could have taken control at that point instead of waking up.

3. Couldnt get back to sleep til 9:45am, cat was meowing and mom had company.
Woke up at 1pm
Had a longer dream, and realized an important, "common staple" in a lot of my dreams.
My dream started like a regular dream, i often involve friends or familiar faces. This time it happened to be my boyfriend and i, and 3 other couples in a big white house that i dont recognize. I used my "staple ability" once in the beginning because it was useful at the time. After a while my dream changed. I switched rolls and i became one of the guys who was sneaking out of the house to get away from another guy. He thought he heard me and followed me out of the house and i climbed the tree out front to escape from sight. At this point i realized i was being chased by Neil Patrick Harris as Barny Stinson from How I Met Your Mother.. and he followed me up the tree. We had a pretty epic battle on the tree tops of a near by park, i could sense that they were fighting over a girl, but wasnt too clear. During the battle he turned into the Shadow Guardian from Tomb Raider, but in my dream he was hairy. We found ourselves back at the house and trashed it with our fight. Next thing i know im waking up [false awakening, i guess] as myself but im completely aware of what happened, and i go down the stairs to clean the house up so no one finds out what happened. I went into the main bedroom where a few people were hanging out and asked if i could use their ensuite shower. But the guy that i had become had just come out of there, he looked like he was in rough shape. So i asked him if he would want to go for a ride, and take me home so i can shower and change. He agreed, and i told him i would meet him in the front foyer. This is the common staple that happens often in my dreams; I go under a bed, and relax myself and i fall through the floor, so that im on the main level of the house without having to use the stairs. Its a controlled, walking-through-walls type thing. But this time its different, and i guess i have become aware that its a dream, but i have a hard time telling myself i can do it. I had to relax and sink my torso through first and push with my arms on the ceiling to get the lower half of my body to go through, and as i struggle, i wake up.

I had a weird sleep last night, stayed at my boyfriend's, slept from 2-5am, then came home. Slept from 6-9am
Had two recalls before 9am,
Didnt fully remember my first dream, but i know it was about chicken thighs. I was someone else, a woman who was cooling dinner for her family. I went to a near by farm for two chickens, and i plucked the feathers and cleaned them myself, all just for the thighs and wings. I got challenged somehow to do the same with ponies, and watched someone put them, alive into a meat grinder. But they looked like My Little Ponies, and were blue..

Second recall before 9am,
I was at a bus loop with my cousin Kristen (i think she is a comfort zone for me) and we separated so she could head back to Toronto and i was catching a bus home. I ran into an old friend, which had ended on bad terms last time we talked. We saw each other and immediately started yelling, threatening and cursing at one another, all i could make out of it was me telling her she needs to stay out of Oshawa. We got talking, and i told her how i felt about her and why i had previously ended our friendship. And she agreed that shes Nuts.

I woke up and had a hard time trying to get back to sleep, woke up around noon after a nightmare,
My family was having a little get together at my old house, and my mom came into the kitchen and put my cat Boo Radley in the sink infront of me, and i asked her what was wrong and got very uncomfortable. She gave me a very blank look and disappeared into the adjacent room for a split second, when she came back she had Boo's head and put it on the floor. I began freaking out and asked my mom what she did and she started to pick at his head on the ground. I made her pass it to me, and i put it back on. Strangely, boo looked up at me like, 'what happened?' So i tried to do some reality checks, tried to look at my hands and as i did, i woke up. After that i calmed myself down and tried to WILD, but i just fell back to sleep for about half an hour instead.

I've had many lucid dreams as a child, but i didnt think any of them then. I didnt know they can be so cool; and if you learn more about your dreams, you can control them. Finding this all so interesting obviously leads to me making an account and sharing my story.

I usually had the option as a child to save myself from nightmares. If i was having a stressful dream when i was in grade 3 and i couldnt get to the after school bus on time, i would step into my own dream to say, "Calm down, you dont have to run on the spot, just walk slowly, the bus wont leave without you, everything is fine. Wake up now"

Or if i was being bullied in my dream, the same event that may have happened that day, and it turns into a horrible nightmare. I often would step in as my own conscience and tell myself to literally fly away. They cant catch me if im flying above them right?

I would also interrupt my dreams by accident. I would be having a nice, weird dream and something in real life would wake me up a little, or something out of the ordinary would happen to make me say, "Wait, im dreaming" And after i'd be upset because i will now never know how my dream would have ended if i didnt interrupt.

All of this just makes me more eager to start my non-electronic Dream Journal and begin to recognize my dream signs that would in turn allow me to control my own dreams!