Linkzelda's Dream Journal

Just posting this to hopefully clear some things up about what people think about me finding a video game character.

I'm finding her because she said she was my dream guide.

This is part of a collection when I was a fairly new member on Dream views

Please forgive how I typed my dream journal entries and my syntax, but it's best I keep it as is.

http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/link...ome-not-25193/

10/10/11

(LUCID) I wake up in a dream with my fingers on my nose and I’m breathing. I automatically know I’m dreaming. It’s kind of dark, and random DC’s are passing by. There’s a door open, so I can see all of them go around. I ask if I can see my dream guide. I couldn’t get a clear mental image of her, but she was pretty old, but not that OLD, old enough to be a cougar (30+). Her name was Yessica Krovezkel or something like that. I think now she’s younger than my fuzzy image of her, but I started to get sexual with her (licking her asshole) instead of asking her questions LOL. I even started to get my penis out to have sex, but I opened my eyes.

Now I feel bad because that was probably my dream guide because I asked her “Are you my dream guide?” and she responded something about how come I don’t believe her or something like that.

I had another dream as if I’m Naked Snake from Metal Gear Solid 3.


I started out in the jungle trying to kill the snipers, but end up failing in killing them, so I quit. Then I’m in a different environment from MGS1 and I’m trying to infiltrate a lab, but the guards keep spotting me.


I even tried to kick with my left leg or right to hit the guard in the face, but I miss and the guard reported “Enemy attempted to kick me in the face but failed.” So I thought “Screw this!” So I got up a long ladder to reset the alarm system.



Then I’m up this long ladder and meet a lady who looks exactly like EVA and the spy she played as well.



But apparently she was named Margaret, and apparently she was my dream guide because I tried to ask her a question, but she just gave me a gray card and wrote her name on it.


I forgot her last name, but I remember the first because she also put a big “M” on the other side of the card for me to remember.

Then I woke up.


You see? She gives me a letter, and I wake up.

Now, what could be in that letter?

And because she was in rush, that's all she could give me.

I wasn't even interested in her. To be honest, if she didn't say she was my dream guide, I could care less about her.

But because she said she was my dream guide, I can't really pass up that opportunity to see if she's lying or not. She did appear randomly, as you can clearly see when I was trying to get out of the area to reset the alarm.

I hope this clears any preconceptions. I hate to see people in ignorance. It really sickens me that people make fun of a person trying to find someone claiming to be their dream guide.

04.29.2012

Hiding (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in the darkness, I don't know where I am honestly. I start to move a little bit, and I see some light somewhere.

I realize that I'm obviously hiding from someone, be it guards or something. I'm following somebody, but I can't remember who. I'm on the left side of this dark room, and I look outside because a door is open and portrays that it's afternoon or so in this dream.

It feels like we're somewhere tropical......

And Hawaii seems fitting for that, right Kaomea? I'll even throw out the possibility that it was some kind of Calypso related environment.

I try to follow the person, who is wearing a dark green shirt and jeans, but there's this random person using some kind of detection machine where if it feels the slightest human contact, it will inform the person holding it. Think of it as a metal detector that finds humans.

I think it was a female that I was following

I assume it's for that function because I'm trying to back away from it getting closer to me. I thought the person would give up, but since they're in the dark, they have to rely on this machinery.

I slowly get up, trying to avoid the machine from touching me. When I see it stop, I relax a little bit and wait, and the person continues to go a little bit further, which forces me to stand up completely.

I feel my left hand touching a bicycle, which then forces me to be even more silent until the person gives up. They finally do so, and they head out to the door in front of me.


Then........



The bicycle falls over to the left, and the pedals were moving a little bit.

....................................

But the person looking for me and the other girl didn't hear this some weird reason, despite being at least 5-8 feet away from me. I wait for the person to finally get out, or at least be halfway out to where their peripheral vision wouldn't see me moving.

Then a light to the left of me turns on.....and it's glowing a dim orange color...




Are. You. Kidding. Me................................................ ......





I decided to just remain still instead of making more noise to attract the person trying to find me. The guy looks pretty ugly to be honest with you, not to be narcissistic or anything.

He finally passes to where his peripheral vision is going to help him realize that I was there the entire time, it's just that the light wasn't on for him to find me. I see no one outside, but I still stay inside the room for a while, doing some kind of abstract counting in my head to measure how far the guy went.

But I had a weird feeling that he may have had one of those, "Wait a second....." moments.

Either way, I wasn't going to risk him coming back to trace his steps over again. I quickly run towards the left wall near the exit to go outside. I have a gun in my hand, it's silver, and maybe it's Desert Eagle, since this thing was pretty huge for a handgun, but not too big.

My back is facing against the wall, so now looking on my new left, I see a person on the other side. I quickly point my gun to him, he notices me, but remains pretty calm for some reason.

"Shhhh....Is he coming back?"


........."Yeah"



"How close is he.......?"

I hear someone laughing outside, and I think I even hear a few gunshots?


The dream bloody fades........

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04.29.2012

My Dream Guide is Brian? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm calling bull on the guy who claims to be my dream guide, but I'll post it anyway.

I'm not being stubborn, it's just my own mental conflict with the debate over one dream guide showing in many forms vs several individual dream guides.

I believe this is a continuation of the other dream in its own and unique way, because I'm still hiding from someone or something....

I decided that I should crouch down somewhere, a small crevice, anything that would keep me hidden.

The dream shifts again to where I'm looking down somewhere. I see someone downstairs headed for the exit somewhere, and I have a feeling it's that same guy that tried to find me and the other girl who was wearing a dark green shirt and jeans...

Then I look to the right of the exit, and I see a person with their back against the wall, who is fairly muscular. He's wearing a dark blue shirt with some black jeans or something.

For some reason, I said,

"Thanks for helping me...."

He looks like he's surprised or something, probably didn't expect me to say something like that.

"You're welcome." he says.

Then I think for a moment,

"What's your name?"


.................."Brian."


"Are you my dream guide?"

.....................I can't remember what he said in response EXACTLY, but he said it in words like,

"Yeah," "Bingo," "Finally....."

I honestly stopped for a moment, but before I can say something else, my eyes go into shut down mode.

You have to be kidding me right??

And what's worse, I woke up with my eyes closed, giving me the opportunity to do a DEILD, but nope, I decided to open them up, even though I know I could've went into another dream and asked this guy more questions.

I'm too lazy to sleep now, I can't spend the whole day bloody dreaming anyway.

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04.29.2012

Naked Women (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'll make this dream simple.

Two naked women, cartoon versions, one blonde, and the other a brunette or with Auburn dyed hair are running from guards in what seems to be an airport.

Their asses were pretty big, but not fat big, like just, damn............... for crying out loud, how could they possibly run so fast?

The blonde is talking to the other girl who is ahead of her, and the girl says in a loud whisper to the blonde as they're close to going down an escalator,

"Come on, the guards are starting to get more suspicious!"

So I guess they try to escape.

I don't remember anything else though.

I hope you have some time to watch this Kaomea, you probably have a sense of what this woman will be saying if you do watch it, but it does make me consider on who I'm interacting in dreams.

I can see why you want to see future selves of other people. I don't think you're doing it because you want all the spoils, and seeing them at a state that is supposed to be the epitome of their whole being, I think you're digging deeper into trying to eradicate any preconceptions you may have for another person.

Which leads me to believe that part of you is seeing a part of me in your dreams where my soul is essentially deceit-free, even though I'm not feeling it right now because of my sporadic nature in emotions in waking life lately. Going from passive to stressful, and to even small contemplations of degrading my life to the point where my dreams are the only way for me to have some modicum of hope that this reality is still worth going through.

You've mentioned that experiences in your dreams are meant to enhance waking life, and from watching the same video, it's clearly obvious omcasey1 sees things in a different light now, and if you do watch it, you'll see she admits to being more considerate, thoughtful, and appreciative of others and the environment around her.

But the question I have for you, Kaomea, is there a point in your life where you might see things differently to where you see this dimension in another dimension like casey did in the video?

I would like to believe what casey said, but this is something that has to be done on personal means. But near the end of the video, she is a bit confusing, for me at least.

It seems she's mentioning she's shifting towards the mentality of Solipsism, but at the same time, it's not believing only she is real, she starts to connect it to how all of us can create this sort of universal collective consciousness.

Again, it's hard for me to believe this until I experience these things myself, and because I know I still have preconceptions and bias towards dreaming, despite knowing that I found some things about you in your earlier life, it makes me wonder if because we have a liking for each other as friend that we're open the other person entering our realm.

I don't mean that as invading your minds, just seeing each other in the dreaming plane.

I can see why AA Michael declared his perspective to you on the person you meet in your dreams is essentially stages of their whole being, sometimes it can be an evolution, or it can be a regressed state.

I honestly do not think it's unhealthy for you to only search for future selves of myself or anyone else, that is, if you already accept infinite realities into the equation, and infinite you's, and me's....I think I'm starting to understand Michael clearly now. It's making more sense to me.

But still, because I'm inexperienced compared to you Kaomea, seeing the world based on being accustomed to this reality, it is still difficult for me to full comprehend and feel the type of energy casey in the video must be saying, but that's further proof that I should strongly consider dreaming lucidly.

I'll just put that as a long-term goal, to see things in a different dimension. To see this world in a different plane, because even though I'm clearly open to this possibility, it's my mentality of this world that constrains the potential for me to understand things clearly.

Anyway, I wanted to mention that to you, Kaomea.

When we do meet each other in the dreaming plane, promise me you'll stare at my eyes deeply, and tell me whether or not you still feel the same vibe from other projections/stages/evolutions of myself.

Because if not, I will ask youeventually.

Because when I see you in my non-lucid dreams, I see parts of you that are passive, and sometimes I wonder if you do that on purpose to tempt me to take the lead instead of being submissive most of the time.

What I'm saying is, with someone who is used to astral and etheric experiences, you sure do sustain a type of humbleness that makes me question whether or not I'm experiences patches of who you are.

Are my eyes set on looking at you in the past, rather than the future? Is this my way of my higher self understanding you quickly because He/she/it wants me to live in the past to understand why you want to see me in the future?

Tell me, are you sure your seeing my in the future, Kaomea?

It could all just be expectations you know............of who you want me to be......

Which relates to how you like as much fun as you can from your dreams, but still having control when DC's get out of hand or get too "subjective" with you.

Tell me,

What will you do when I start being too subjective, and things get out of hand?

Will you constrain me with bolts like you did with Hades?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


If Hades himself, or your projection of him can experience humility from being constrained by bolts, then the possibility of me going out of control is still there.

Anyway, that's all for now.

But I'll leave you with this.....


When I do attempt to dream, people in waking life tend to be insignificant to me. I don't mean your typical "this is a second life" kind of mentality...I literally forget about these people when I do become lucid.

At least, that happens most of the time when I enter the dream state from a WILD, and not a DILD/MILD.

When I do become accustomed to lucidity, I'm afraid there might be some parts of myself you won't like. But I just want you to know that when that time comes, acknowledge those dislikes of yours.

Remember what I said about what it takes to have a long relationship with someone? Even though you have more experience than me, you deemed what I declared as "lovey-dovey" and "cheesy."

I admit, sometimes when I do exhibit a romantic type of mentality, I feel awkward and think I shouldn't be doing this, because it feels cheesy and not worth it.

But I think one reason for that is because this world has so many people to the point where romanticism is basically a fairy tale. Anyone with the right words can tempt a woman/man in their arms, and when they realize it's the wrong person they exhibited this "love" towards, it's already too late.

Which is why I'm still insecure about having relationships in waking life. There's just so many possibilities, so many "What if I met this person instead of that?"

"What if I met someone more beautiful?"
"What if I met someone more intelligent?"
"What if I met someone more sociable?"
"What if I met someone more fragile?"
What if I met someone more kind and loving?"
What if I met someone more thoughtful?"

It's always more, more, more, more, more.

I may not understand why you wanted to engage in taboo and irrational relationships in the past, but based on what I'm insecure about with relationships and all, I think I understand why you went down that path before.

There's always the possibility of meeting someone better than the person you have now.

When we find a lover in our lives, even though attractive people still spark an interest to the person, that same person will always believe their lover is better.

But what makes me think that they're saying that is because they have added security, the risk of abandonment is low, and exhibiting effort towards someone who could be better is pointless when they have someone who can satisfy their needs.

Sometimes I wonder if this is the subjective matter of how our body dilutes our perception of things like the Selfish Gene Theory, where we are only considerate for augmenting the possibility that our genes will be passed on to the future.

People try to deny and think we're more than just animals who want to pass our genes, but really, who are the ones being fooled here?

If we're so complex to not have to full believe in that standard that we here to pass on our DNA to the next offspring, what does that say about humans in general?

Could our minds be declaring this to us to make us feel better, to make us feel that we're not just here being vessels to pass on traits to another vessel?

Are we really more than just animals? Are we just high and conceited of our own kind, humanity, to be able to think that we're the only ones on this planet, and possibly the universe as a whole to think we can pass on more than just our genes???

That doesn't even relate to what I'm trying to tell you, I think.......

Anyway. Good night...or good morning I should say....lol.

04.28.2012

Dream Views Porn (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So, I was on my laptop, and I was browsing a few inappropriate pictures.....and because I copied the image location one of them, I forget this, and I start preparing for a post.

I'm on the edit screen, and I do all that stuff and make the post. I checked the picture again, and it's basically an anime chick spreading her ass wide open.

I start panicking, because you can OBVIOUSLY see her private parts and asshole, and I start getting freaked out because people probably already figuring out that I posted porn with that picture.

It takes me a while to realize it's actually showing her private parts, because it seems the anime girl in the post was wearing brown leg stocking, but one of the holes in the stocking exposing herself appeared.

I tried editing it, but I knew some people figured out by now. Then someone, I believe it was OldSparta it was all right, and that as long as it was just a person's vagina, then there's nothing to worry about.

How did I not realize the flaw in that logic there....lmao.

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04.28.2012

Taylor on Youtube (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Took a nap today and got this.

I'm on my laptop again, big surprise....and I'm on YouTube watching some girl talk about how she started something. It started with a "T" or something like that.

I believe it was related to a fast food restaurant (whenever I do dream about Taylor, a TA for one of the classes I have for the last semester as a freshmen here, it always seems to relate to fast food....I don't know if her family owns a restaurant or something in waking life....who knows....?)

It seems this video was her when she was a little younger, maybe when she was 14-17 years of age, and I believe she was wearing braces, so her voice as the gargled type of sound from the spit developing from her mouth.

Then the dream shifts to where I'm using a black rolling chair as a vehicle on the road....

LOL.....

It was kind of fun though, spinning, then looking on the other lane to make sure no cars were going to pass.

I forgot what happened after that.

04.27.2012

John Travolta and Blonde Girl (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The John Travolta look-alike doesn't appear until later on.

I'm inside a house, and I'm near the dining room, and it's one of those fancy wooden tables with a shine to it. It had a white table cloth on it, and there's this wierd machine that looks a little bit like a mini-space shuttle machine with legs extending and landing on several sections of the table.

It's white, with black parts that attaches it to make it whole, and its feet are triangular. Me and some random DCs are supposed to use it to spread out the white table cloth.

We managed to spread it half-way, and I wondered why the table isn't being covered completely. I go to the right side where one of the DCs were sitting at, and a huge portion of the cloth was on the floor.

I go back to the left side of the table, and because the machine was still on top of the table with the cloth stuck underneath it, I have to pull the cloth as hard as I can.

After that's taken care of, there's another shift.

John Travolta is out in the backyard somewhere. The place is mostly just green grass being bored by brown fences on all sides. There's one part of the fence that you can flip to go to another backyard, and Travolta is trying to hide that same spot to prevent a girl from finding out.

The blonde girl is maybe 4-6 years old based on how tall she was, maybe 3-4 feet tall....and she wore a black or dark green dress.

The girl asks him some question that I can't remember exactly, but he makes some random and lame excuse that he went to school or something.

The girl is completely clueless, and falls for it, and declares in an adorable cute voice of a young child,

"Oh okay....I never seen you in school before though..."

and she leaves.

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04.27.2012

Room Hotel 200+ (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I put the title as Hotel 200+ because I can't remember the exact room number I was in later on in the dream...and some parts may be a bit jumpy, since I have some lapses with my dream recall, so I'll just assume I had dream shifts here.

I believe I was inside in my apartment before the Hotel, and I wanted to eat the rest of the tortilla chips with the spinach dip that was inside the fridge. There's this feeling in my stomach, like it's growling and that signals that I'm hungry, which is why I had the sudden urge to find the food and pig out on it.

It's day time in the dream, and I'm busy fiddling around with doing something in my apartment. I think I kept the entrance to the apartment unlocked, and it was slightly open too.

I saw my laptop was near the white wooden table cabinet I normally put my laptop on, and it had the same background screen in waking life of showing only the top area of Eva wearing a black bra.

(My laptop is on a chair near my bed, not on the cabinet in waking life....that could've been a time to RC if I was aware )

Then I realized someone is coming in the apartment, and I'm surprised that they randomly just opened the door and came in.

It was a blonde girl, her face is slightly cheeky, she's wearing a gray shirt and dark blue jeans I believe, and she says "Hi" to me in a cheerful voice.

It seems she found out about the background photo of Eva on my laptop, or maybe I was the one worried as assumed she found out.

I mean, the laptop was open, and any person with sight can obviously see Eva in the laptop as a background picture. But I don't think she was surprised too much by it, and I told her she can come in.

The dream shifts a little, and I think some guy is doing some kind of filtering with my trash can or something like that. He gets a transparent trash bag, uses some weird machinery that's supposed to decompress the contents in it I guess, and then he's finally done.

It smells like chicken strips with that weird spicy smell where the meat has that dark orange type of flour or batter to it pre-cooked and frozen.

I asked him what he did with my trashcan, and I forget the exact word he declared to me, but when I asked him what the word was, he's like,

"You know? De-Oxidized? You do know what that is right?"

It takes me a while,

"De-Oxidized?....Yeah...yeah, I know."

He leaves and the blonde female, I'm not sure where she went lol.

The dream shifts where outside, and I'm maybe 10-30 feet away from my apartment here, and apparently, I just have my underwear on.

I'm aware of this (not aware that I am dreaming unfortunately) and I try to cover up my body with the clothes I have on my arms. Instead of actually wearing the damn clothes, I just try to cover it up as if I only had a leaf to cover my private parts.

Then the dream shifts again to where I'm inside some fancy building, it looks like a hotel, or maybe even a college dorm area. There's some people looking at me, but it's just them glancing for a few seconds, and I think I have clothes on this time.

I see a long leg extending all the way on the floor. Whoever it is, they wore blue jeans and a sneaker, so I jumped over their leg instead of posssibly tripping over it.

Then it appears again, I walk over it........






Then again...................I do the same thing....





and it shows up one more time I believe.

(I wonder if that was Kaomea trying to trip me or something...LOL) You did say you and GypsyKiss would do pranks to wake people up in their dreams >.>

I continue walking, looking to my right and see rooms over 260+ in their numbers, and I had a feeling that isn't where I'm supposed to go, so I turn left, and see rooms around 220+ in room numbers on the doors.

I head that way and I forget what I did after that.

04.27.2012

Luisa is Married.......... (Non-lucid)
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm on the Swiftkit IRC Client, so I guess I was planning to play Runescape, or at least see if any of the channels I used to be a part of are still alive.

I go to a channel called #Integrity-PC, I'm assuming I'm in it because some of the members' names show up, but I rather not post them seeing as I'll probably forget them all anyway.

One person that used to be Voice as now an OP rank, and he tells me Luisa, one of the girls I drew in waking life, is married to someone, but I don't know who

I stumbled on this video on youtube, and gizEdwards made a video on the Swallowing Reflex and it relating to WILDS.

The first segments are generic if you read guides on stopping the swallowing on here, but the last part of using a pillow to prop your mouth to where you don't have conscious effort in keeping it closed is definitely interesting!

I can't wait to try it out, because I do keep a conscious check on my mouth region after that last lucid where I almost choked to death (from building up saliva)

It's worth it for all you LDrs who either do WILD or go home, hahaha

04.26.2012

4/26/12 No Dream Recall (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I swore I remembered at least two dreams when I woke up.....

lol, whatever.

04.25.2012

So like....I tried the WBTB, spent 30-40 minutes on it, and did a horrible job. Passed out again. I even tried to do a MILD in case the WILD failed, and this is the only dream I remembered, and it was a few minutes before I woke up.....

Chemistry Practical starting at 11:30 AM....9:07 AM now....ugh. Then Biology tomorrow....loool fun fun fun fun!

Class Jeopardy (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside a class, and we're doing some kind of Jeopardy type of game.

Yeah, that's it.

I stayed for for around 60-90 minutes last night for a WBTB, trying to relax and everything......no luck, still passed out for the WILD attempt....

I remembered more dreams, but I forgot, probably because I woke up to set the alarm at a different time and went back to sleep again.

04.24.2012

Snapshot and Dragon (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I see a flashing moment of some young Asian man in the past apparently who gets his photo taken. Then the moment ends, and I believe I see a fossilized body of that same man older.

It looks like Kim Jong Il, and it was confusing to determine if I was seeing his father at first who died after falling from a high cliff, or if it was Kim Jong Il who jumped off the cliff.

Either way, there were two random people who wanted to see how a photograph that made this weird vortex that looked like a Hurricane around a person when it was taken by camera.

The cause of death for the fossilized person was jumping into the water, passing out from the impact after trying to get some air. I see the same person when they were young, and it's like they were escaping from someone or a group of people.

I see the person breathing for air, and then he started to get dizzy, like his body was paralyzed or something. Because of this, he drowns and most likely dies.

Apparently Kim Jong Il shared the same fate? Not too sure, but the fossilized person on the ground looks A LOT like him, so it was either him in the dream dead, or his ancestor.

The two random people analyzing this, one was measuring the length of how long the ancestor fell, and how long Kim Jong Il fell?

The two guys had different results, and there's this bar that shows up that fluctuates at different points from the cliff, so one guy had a lot of fluctuations when he was at the lower regions of the cliff, while the other guy some some fluctuations here and there at certain points.


..........................

Then the dream shifts to where I'm in this dark area, and I'm floating on top of water.

Great...........


This dragon in the water pops up, and it's actually after me, but it's allowing me to hit it easily for some reason. All I have to do is dodge its attacks.

I'm surprised on how I'm managing with this, especially floating on water where I'm supposed to be slow or something (maybe I can swim fast as a natural ability???)

When the dragon exposes itself, I start slashing away like crazy before it covers itself up. So I basically dodge its attacks and repeat the process until it took a fatal hit or died.

I can't remember much after that.

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04.24.2012

Turning up Food Volume? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It seems I'm at a restuarant, and there's a table with cloth that has red and white squares spread all over. The chairs are pretty generic, mostly brown and made of wood.

The area is an all you can eat buffet apparently, seeing as you can pick out the food all by yourself. I go up to one the tray lines, it's empty of course, and I look at all of the food, looks very enticing indeed.

There's this person to the right of me that looks like someone I know in waking life named Juan. He starts turning up the Food Volume in the dream, and things get loud.

I was worried that he would get in trouble, but the people in the drema didn't care didn't care at all.

I go up to other tray lines, but forgot what I did after.

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04.24.2012

Handsome and Humble (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Some lady tells me I'm handsome and humble, I didn't see who it was though. I just remember getting off a school bus.

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04.24.2012

He Makes a 97 (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Okay, so I see this guy sitting in front of me who made a 97 on his exam/test/whatever it was. I think I made a 93, but for some reason, I was jealous the other guy made a better grade than me....meh.

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04.24.2012

Quiz, Lecture, Another Quiz (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in my Sociohoritculture class, and the TA tells us that we'll be looking at lecture slides, and then have a quiz, another lecture slide and then a quiz after that.....

fjg

04.23.2012

Looking for a Pillow cover (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a store, and I'm talking to this female employee, she looks like she's an employee, and she's being fairly annoying towards me.

I don't know if she's doing it to mask what she really feels for me, but it starts to irritate me a little bit. I don't know what she was doing with me, but my father comes in and assumes that I was flirting with her.

He starts smiling at me, and leaves me with the girl. I try to convince him that I'm not flirting with her, but he's still smiling and presuming I am. After that, I look around the store a little bit more, and there's quite a few people in it looking around.

The store overall is kind of weird, I think you could use a washer somewhere on the sides, because I do remember someone trying to take their clothes out of some kind of machine. Then I realized that one of those shirts had to be mine.

It was a maroon shirt with logo of the university's name I go to on it. It takes a while, but the man moves the shirt a little bit out of the pile, and I see a ripped hole near the top right chest region on the shirt.

I told the man that is my shirt because I know there was a hole on one of mine in waking life, but he quickly responds back to me that he had a hole in his as well. That leaves me in an awkward position, and I have to let it go.

(I believe the hole was actually on the left side in waking life instead of the right, kind of a minor thing, but still, if I was that serious with all day awareness, that could've made me lucid instantly!)

Then I tried pumping my pillow I think?? It was no use, the pillow, or whatever it was I was pumping was constantly deflating, then I decided I should buy a new pillow and cover. I believe my mother was walking with me on the right when we got out of the store.

When I told her I'm going to buy a pillow and cover, she complains about something, but I try to ignore it.

Then as I'm going to the other store, I see my father in a vehicle, but he's looking at something else from another angle, he's sitting parallel from our view, and I quickly go inside of the store before he gets the chance to see the other side.

I don't know why I'm worried about him finding us though. I go inside the store, and I think me or someone said "Howdy!"

(Wait.....I would only say that at the university....not a store...unless it was a store within the area...).

There was an Asian man as a cash register along with a black female as well. They looked cheerful overall, but probably because the store didn't have many people, so they just appreciated whoever came.

Then there's a female employee who is headed her way to me and asks me if I needed any help. I told her that I'm looking for a decent pillow cover. She acknowledges my response, and turns around for me to follow her. She shows me one that's black, but it's too girly because it was some weird stickers or some kind of girly girly stuff on it, no thank you, next item please.

She goes to the front of the store, and tries to pick some random pillow cover, but I can't remember anything after that.

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04.23.2012

What's Cooking (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a random house with my father......and even my mother. The house is fairly wide, and the walls I believe had a slightly darker due of canary yellow.

Both of them are cooking something in the kitchen, and I go over to see what it was.

Kind of a boring dream...

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04.23.2012

Playing with a Black and White Cat (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember resting on the floor, and some random image of a transparent and empty water bottle appears in the air.

Things get pitch-black for a moment, and I can see all the edges and curves from the water bottle. I think I was moving it around, either with my mind or with some kind of device.

Some cat was attracted to it, and I basically spent the entire dream trying to make the cat do random things while it was trying to catch an invisible water bottle.

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04.23.2012

Climbing Rooftops (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I can't remember a lot from this, but I believe it starts out with me hanging on the edge of a rooftop and getting on top of it. Once I'm there, the rooftop is pretty big, and it's slanted as well.

There are some random people throwing water down the rooftop to prevent me from getting inside the house. I had to do a bit of dodging, and I honestly don't know how I'm doing it, but I'm just going with what happened.

I think I finally get inside the house, and I see some random people inside, forgot what I did after that.

04.22.2012

Where's Your Shampoo? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I took a nap around 10AM and woke up maybe around 1PM. Had some weird dream, not sure if it's one, or many...

I remember walking down a street somewhere, and seeing a girl mention something about images of a creature with a mix of angels and demons combined.

Then I have a dream shift where I'm with a group of DCs, things are kind of in a 3D Cartoon environment...not cell shaded though.

We're running away from some other group trying to catch us, and we all hide in a room (I think I'm of the group, but I'm seeing this in third person or spectating them).

We get out when the other guys go in the bathroom to shower, and we all come out.

Then one of the guys asked something along the lines of,

"Hey! How can you shower if you don't have your shampoo??"

He thought we were a part of them, goes back into the bathroom showers, and we run before he realizes we're the ones that he and the group he's with need to catch.


Typical for a nap to be random like that...

04.22.2012

Green Globe (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I don't really care too much to this dream, except for the fact that this possibly was a precursor to the dream I had with Eva and the Akashic records dream...

I'm walking somewhere at my University, and I'm following a group of people, but the traffic and amount of people here started to irritate me, so I thought of trying to teleport somewhere....

The opposite of that occurs, and I find myself instantly flying up pretty quickly. I look down, and was a little scared at first, but instead of trying to think about falling down, I looked up, closed my eyes, and imagine myself propelling upwards.

Then a white light flashes before more, signaling that I teleported out of the dream environment.

I'm now floating, and I see a Green globe, and I rotate it with my mind, and I decided I should go to Houston, TX.

I feel a pulling sensation from this green globe, and feel like I'm being warped into the area I wanted to go to...

I can't remember much from that dream..

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04.22.2012

Swimming pool of Toy Balls? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside a play area that's full of what seems to be toy balls, or something like that? It was kind of dark though, and it seems there's always water in this area as well.

There's this random lady who is fairly huge, and we're just floating around, minding our own business. Then the lady started to say, "Daddy?" out of the blue, so I presumed someone else was with us.

I think I see a man who is shirtless, and is wearing dark blue shorts underwater, and the daughter I think lands on him. I was kind of concerned that her weight might cause his to open his air path in his throat, and possibly drown him or something.

Then all of a sudden, when I go back up to the surface, the girl is floating as well, and she's wondering where her father was, and I think she's close to even crying.

I go underwater again, and I see this white string near a drain that's sucking up the water, so the dad probably was sucked in there.

I can't remember much after that, didn't really care too much about this dream in the first place....too random...and it was too dark for me to associate anything from it...

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04.22.2012

Is that a Dragon? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was trying to convince some people to look up at the sky, because I'm seeing a large creature flying, and it looks like a dragon in metal armor, it had that silver color to it with some slight hints of blue.

I think I saw a redheaded lady as well, not sure if it was Opheliablue, but I was trying to nudge at whoever it was to look up. Even when they did look up, all they did was shrug and have the "I don't know" expression on their face.

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04.22.2012

Eva and Akashic Records? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

First of all, I'm glad I finally met Eva for once, she was a little bit more degraded from something...and man, this dream was scary.

I honestly thought I wouldn't have met Eva AT ALL, but it seems the intention worked by watching a few videos about her and Snake.

(I watched some short videos on the Akashic Records, and I wonder if this dream itself was the path for me to get there, seeing as you normally need a guide to shift you to the right path.....and clearly, I was following Eva like she was a guide....and there were guards.....so there has to be something precious within this library......)

Watch this video first before reading the dream if you can, there are some things that the lady said like "Cairo, Egypt" and such that you'll find that my mind did some homologous association with it the people in white robes...you'll find out what I mean...I don't know why, but I was browsing through DV articles, and typed "are the akashic recrods real?" on a youtube search bar, and found this late at night before I slept.

Things start out where I'm at an area that seems to be a green underground cave. I believe I'm in the lighter side of this area, and I finally see Eva.

There's something odd about her, there's this type of loneliness within her, she looks degraded, used up, raped, or something...it was kind of sickening, but the fact that I still saw her, she obviously had the intention of actually interacting with me for once for a little longer.

Her hair, it isn't blonde like it was before when she gave me the grey letter with the letter "M" on it with in a non-lucid I had a long time ago.

It was light orange, but you see, it looked like it was like the color because someone probably fried her hair up a little, I'm not too sure.

She looked exactly like Eva, she was quiet, but it was definitely Eva. She wore a very bright green military jacket, and she had it open.

And I saw her breasts, she left them exposed with her opened jacket, and her nipples were pink, maybe a little darker than that. I think the point of her projection was to portray that she was used up by someone or something.

As for her pants, it was the same with her regular biker outfit, it's just that the jacket was green instead of the usual Khaki type of color all over, and I believe she had black boots as well.

Her jacket was way brighter than this, so imagine it being opened completely, and you can see her bare skin and breasts exposed to you, with the edges of the jacket hanging on the sides of her nipples.

She gets close to me, but there's this type of barrier separating both of us, so she starts pushing as much as she can. I take a step back to let her open it fully, and I get closer to her.

"Eva...."

She doesn't look too desperate for small talk right now, seeing as how the look on her visage was a little bit depressed and sad. There were marks on her hair, and some of it wasn't complete. She was bald in a few areas, but she still had her long hair.

I follow her, and we go up some stairs, we haven't talked at all, I merely pick up her non-verbal cues. There are two characters talking to each other, and I stay behind Eva, completely relying on her to guide me through what seems to be a library.....

We wait for the two guys to finish talking, and it seems to be that they are wearing white robes like they're from Egypt....

(Okay something is up...but you'll find out what I mean after)...

I wait for Eva's cue to move, and she finally does, so I quickly go along with her, and we hide behind some shelves until the two Egyptian robe wearing characters move further to the left. Then Eva goes to a bookshelf perpendicular towards the direction she's going.

Like, imagine being parallel to the back of a bookshelf, and one being perpendicular to you....so I quickly dash to the bookshelf, slowly moved my head up to see that there are two or so guards on the other side.

I crouch back down, waiting for Eva to cue something to me already.

For some reason, I decided to be a little bold, and I start making a little whistle sound to attract the guards. I believe I did that because I thought the guard was too far to hear the whistle, but they pick up the sound a few seconds later.

I crouch down quickly since I saw the guard turn around immediately. I started to get tensed up for a little, feeling this weird tingling sensation in my head....I definitely made the horrible mistake in making that whistle....

I have a gun in my hand, and I believe Eva didn't have a weapon at all, so I guess I had to be the support in case things get rough.

(Normally, when I ignore a DC and get distracted with something else, they usually disappear, but she was still there....it's not my obsession with finding her that kept her there, in fact, my concern over her was temporarily faded because we're in a serious situation with the guards and everything).

I have my gun ready, and it has a cyan laser sight, and once I realized this, I quickly moved the laser sight to the edge of the bookshelf we're parallel to, because the guard might find the laser dot....but I already knew my feelings of being tensed up and fearful meant the guards were already too suspicious.

I wait having my gun aimed at the predicted path of where the guard's head should be...I started to get more tensed up, feel the guard coming closer and closer....

Then I see the side of a face taking a slow peak, and I slowly aim my laser sighted gun to their heads, but they quickly so their whole body to me and try to aim at me, but since he saw that he's not going to win this one, he's shocked, and an Exclamation mark appears on his head....

Definitely a Metal Gear Solid element there with the exclamation mark....

(It was like this, but the mark was light blue)

Anyway, since the guard was moving, I decided I might as well show myself to the others, but I didn't, I just popped my head over to the top of the shelf to see that the same guard told the other one that we're here.

So I decided to shoot the guard trying to contact Headquarters through this big swamp green radio phone....I believe I managed to shoot him before he did...

The same man with the radio phone wore glasses, a long brown leather jacket, and it he looked a lot like Ocelot when he was extremely old in MGS4.

Once he's taken care of, at least, I'm presuming he's dead or knocked out from the gun shot, I try to aim to the other guard that alerted him.

Then this other guard comes out from NOWHERE, and has holds a pump-action shotgun with one hand. I thought he was going to come after me first, but he's aiming at Eva, and she's still crouching down....I realized that she was too injured to react

He came so quick, that I couldn't even shoot him because my gun didn't even fire any bullets. He shoots Eva, I get fucking pissed, and the gun magically works, I shoot the hell out of the guy.

But instead of going to Eva immediately, I had to make sure there weren't any more guards around us, so I move forward to scan the area, and things are okay.

I take a look at some kind of weird base in front of me, and I believe I'm looking outside the library, like the door was wide open. There was this area with grass, but the type of grass you see in video games, where everything on the floor is just mashed up together.

I see the door to go to another base....and it's overall color is violet with some hues of bright pink....then I realized...

"Eva!!!"

I completely forgot about her, and I turned around, but I couldn't do it quickly, everything was going slow, the dream is starting to fade, and this would've been the point where I would've been lucid, since I felt so much emotion in this dream.....

But the dream fades quickly..

I wake up, but I still have my eyes close, I'm still thinking in my mind saying

"Eva....


Evaaaaa....


Evaaaaaaaaa"

I thought I should do a DEILD, but I might've forgetten the dream if I did...

I find it funny that despite finally meeting Eva, who had a few alterations like having orange hair (redhead), green jacket, and some other qualities.......I didn't remember her saying one word to me. Not ONE little word at all...

All she did was just guide me somewhere...and I honestly believe it was for the Akashic records, but obviously, because I was being stupid and whistled at the guards, I obviously wasn't prepared for it....

I can't believe one careless mistake I made would cause so many chain of events.

I don't remember anything, but if I do, I'll make another entry and delete this one.

Don't really think it's important to dream right now, since I'm not finding anything worthwhile anymore (excluding the shared dreaming searches).

Looking for my dream guide now seems kind of worthless, especially if no one is going to show up as yet, which obviously means I'm not ready for one.

I know some people have a hard time finding their dream guides, but I'm getting tired when people use others' stories like that to convince you that it's going to be hard, kind of like how people keep proclaiming WILD is so hard....it is at times, but just they make it seem it's impossible if you can't balance certain aspects of it.

04.20.2012

fOrceez and melanieb PM (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm PMing f0rceez about something, same thing with melanieb.


For f0rceez, all I remember was just talking about how I'm going to do a WBTB after we talked about something that I can't remember.

I don't know what I'm PMing melanieb about.

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04.20.2012

Handstand 69 (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for 18+....Kind of...:

I'm inside an apartment most likely, it kind of looks like mine format-wise. Me, this blonde female, and some guy were naked. I'm not sure if the other guy was having sex with another chick, but I'm occupied with the blonde female.

I think me and the blonde started to do a Handstand 69. She was pretty fit, she had six pack abs, and her legs where so shiny and smooth, and she was sweating a bit too, which made everything even better.

I'm pulling her legs all the way up so I can eat her, and before I go all the way, I believe I was crouching down and up a few times for some odd reason.

I look to the guy to the right who is most likely having sex with another female. He climaxes so hard, that I wonder if I climaxed as well when I was looking down on my penis.

(Oh my god, I see my penis for once in a dream!!! )

Nope, it was still hard, so I presume the guy's sperm landed on us, I was kind of irritated, and I wiped it off my underwear and other regions.

It seemed I tucked my penis through the gaps of the front of the underwear I'm wearing.

I only remember looking at my penis that was still hard after wiping the sperm off.....ugh.

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04.20.2012

MLP Pinkie Pie Humiliation (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm not really proud about this dream, but I might as well put it down anyway.....

Spoiler for 18+....I think?:

I think this is a dream shift from the Handstand 69, because I still feel like I'm in the same apartment. Pinkie Pie has her front hooves on the bed, opening her private parts to me.

I'm seeing myself in third person perspective, at least, I think that's me who is near Pinkie Pie because of the underwear and my skin color.

I don't see actual penetration, just things from up front. Pinkie Pie was begging me not to do it, and that it was too big for her.

I'll leave it at that.

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04.20.2012

Large Katara and Little Aang (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Katara is like a giant compared to Aang. She has him on her hand, and she's using her fingers to roll him around like he's some kind of cute little animal or something, and it feels he's enjoying it too since he's rolling down the creases of her palm.

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04.20.2012

Trailer Food Areas (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outside, having several fast food places around me. It's one of those areas where there's a busy traffic, and a lot of parking with a lot of places to go to.

I'm looking around some areas, tempted to go to them to get something to eat, but I end up not going to find something else more enticing.

Then I see one of those Trailers that sell food, and I go up to them, by this time, I think I was sitting on a white truck or something. So I get off it, and go up to them, then I turn back, and realize my wallet was stuck between the creases of the back of the truck.

I quickly grab it, go back to the trailer food area to see what they have, they said something, but that just makes me reject them as well. I look around to my left after I turn my back on them to see another area having a lot of heated food wrapped in aluminum foil.

It seems the employees were just waiting for customers to come in.

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04.20.2012

Elevator Settings (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm with a random group of people, and we're waiting for an elevator to come open to us. The settings were kind of weird, but I can't remember what exactly.

I end up talking to some female and declared what I think she really has, which was dementia, or something like that. It took her a while to admit it, but she gives up and decides to click the elevator button for people with dementia.

Too random for me to understand anything that went on in this dream.

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04.20.2012

Trap Spell (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I think I'm in a fast food area, and there's this entity in a cloak, probably black or dark brown, not too sure, and it appears they are after me.

I panic a little but I'm aware that I can defeat them easily, or at least delay their movements and escape by using some kind of spell. The reason why I know this is that it feels like I'm in a video game, and I'm seeing things in third person perspective.

There's a HUD displaying on the bottom right hand corner, and there's a "+" pad, like you would see on the Nintendo Wii Remote, and there's something on the right side of the pad on the screen.

It looked like some kind of brown container or coffin??

I feel myself selecting it, and it instantly traps the person in some weird container I can't even remember, and the container was fairly huge. I thought this was the time where I should start hitting the container to damage the entity in it, but it only is breaking it apart to help them get out.

Once they do, I escape through the door, and I think the dream resets to where the entity was there. I use the spell or whatever it is again, and I forget what I did after.

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04.20.2012

Bus 24 and Melanieb? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There are a lot of shifts in this dream.

The room overall is different shades of blue and green, mostly turquoise,

I'm inside a lecture room, or something like that, and there's this person who appears to be a guest speaker, and he's asking the students what are the remaining three answers showing in red question marks.

I believe the question itself was asking what keeps organizations together. (Then I realized this dream was related to the Sociohorticulture class that I have, and how it's relating to a previous slide lecture I was at).

Some of the students answer, but they always ended up not knowing the last one, so they would try and say something that was said before. I think the max they could say were 3 words.

I raise my hand to say,

"Motivation to keep people in them........"

and two more things that I can't remember, but I do know that the last one was something that was repeated since it was easier than just sitting there looking dumbfounded.

The dream shifts to where I'm outside, and it seems I'm waiting for a University bus to arrive. I take my shirt off for some reason, and I see a bus coming near me.

I thought it would stop since I'm at the Bus Sign for it to pick and drop people off, but it passes me, and I'm wondering why. Then I realize it was Bus #25, so this wasn't the stop for it.

I think another bus was arriving after that, but I can't remember if it was #24.

The dream shifts again to where I'm standing near a curb, and I looked at a lawn sign


It said something about "Pornstar," or "Ex-Pornstar."

I felt as if this was referring to Melanieb, I don't know why, maybe it was during a dream shift, I probably experience something related to her, and presumed that this sign was some kind of association towards that.

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04.20.2012

Temple in Sephia (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My recall for this was too hazy, but I'll still try to remember whatever I can.

I see a picture of a temple with some kind of orange barrier around it, and it was all in Sephia color.

04.20.2012

Class (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember sitting in class with someone that seemed familiar. The class color setting was dark brown overall.