Nebulus

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I had a dream sign but it doesn't seem to relate to something happening in my waking state
so it must be symbolic of something. Trying to tell me something. Maybe that i'm trying to figure out the best possible route to take with my life

D1 - I am in a game world but it is all very primeval. The world is vast watery in texture, colosal dark shapes battle it out.
And I win and move on to the next world. All very very alien and abstract.

D2 - On holiday, in some lovely warm and sunny country, where it is warm all year round. I am in a villa, apparently we have stayed here many times before. And were privileged enough to stay in the best part of the main house. Quarters with large opulent black leather seating and animal skin rugs and large bedroom. The room is glass (dream sign).
I am walking down a thickly carpeted hallyway in the night when I see a familar woman approaching, she has long fair hair and wears a summer frock with a dark cardigan over her shoulders, white heeled shoes.

Spoiler for Sexually explicit:

We go to her bedroom and kiss on her bed. She is then under the covers and pulls them off from her. She wants me to pleasure her and I oblige. She then pulls me up to her and grabs me. I sit up and she starts sucking on me. We are interrupted by another woman I know. She is the womans partner and enquires if I want to be involved in a threesome. I feels it would be unfair to intrude and leave them to their privacy. I walk out of the room and wake up from the dream.

[comment] sleep pattern messed up, since I programmed myself to awake after each dream, now I awake approx 3am which would be ideal time for mild or something but instead I am finding it nye on impossible to get back to sleep LOL

Awoke about 7am after fitful sleep, any recall i had evaporated and I decided to just see what I could see while in hypnogoic sleep state.
Friend of mine labelled this my trance state as I do this fairly wide awake also but i'd never tried it on waking before Oo
Each scene in trance exited into the next without any morphing, much like
cards being turned to reveal a new scene.

1) scene that came into my mind was of a large tree on a skyline, tree totally black due to lighting,
picture was in smokey watercolours, dark storm clouds in a purple and yellowy sky.
I can't remember which way round it happened but the tree which had appeared densly foliaged
had all its deep blackness turn into a vast swarm of black birds which swept into the sky
becoming like a million tiny black particles forming themselves into a cloud.

2) Again in watercolours, a shamen lay taking up most of the bottom portion of the scene.
He was old and wearing full feathered headress layed out on the ground.
In the sky was a yellowed figure, half cloud half face of a indian spirit.
I could not tell if the shamen was sleeping or dying or being brought back to life?

3) A close up of a group of elven face lit by a bright white light, also hues of green and yellow.
They were smiling with bright eyes.

4) A photo realistic scene of being on a small island, with gravel paths and tended lush foliage.
A very sunny day with the sea sparkling, flashes of light from reflected light on the waves.
As I grow closer, I could smell the sea and see that a part of a gigantic lizard the scales a dull grey,
was raised above the water. The island itself was an amphibian of some kind.

5) Another photo realistic scene, outside a house, my eye was drawn to something near the roof
I zoomed in on part of a scene, within a triangle, was a viscous liquid
golden dark brown, inside it was moving, it was alive, inside was a man.
i could tell but not see.

6) I see myself sitting in bed awake. The bed has a metal back.
Next to me I cannot see who is there but I am stunned by the mirroring
of my circumstances, after the other seemingly abstract scenes and its realism.

7) Against a darkened blue, night sky. A large circle is being held by the
hand of some unseen person. Within the circle they're are to forms, one is me
another on the other side a woman, we are both held in an energy field. The currents
of which can be seen zigzagging like lighting strkes, binding us together.

8) The symbolic outline of a man is on one side of the scene, his is in the figure
of a anch sign, his legs angular and stylised. His shadow is thrown forward to
the other side of the scene. Large reddy, orange dried leaves are grouped
pointing away from him. In the distance a swarm of black birds flys towards him
out of the orange tinged sky. They turn to black dots and stream into him
I am hit by a surge of energy, like a sledghammer. My heart starts to race.
Leaves turn into phoenix feathers, with flames on edges.


my dream journal sketch of ankh man.

I awake and sketch what I can remember.There were some dreams as well inbetween
but I can't recall them, now.
I go to make coffee for my daughter (humble servant that I am)
As I look into the coffee jar, the granules are alive like a thousand
moving people.
I add the sugar and they appear to move before my eyes like the swarm of birds.
I look down at the work top and its texture moves like clouds on a large stormy
sky.
A pattern to my right again looks like many people moving and another birds.
I sit down on the carpet and the room rocks, the floor looks and is moving
like the sea, a thousand waves set in motion.

Thankfully things calm down after that. I have the reverlation that everything
is alive and in motion, time is the thing that stops us from seeing this.
I laugh as the clocks hand moving, makes me jump thinking it is another vision (?)

I open the french windows, and a large plant pot of earth is hit as the door
is caught by the wind, it scatters earth like a million black birds across the
ground Oo

D1 - dual world. When I travel at night down my parents garden I find a mirror world. With different parents etc.
I have a dinner with them
D2 - Working in a house/office people start to bug me at counter, I give them blue ID cards.
D3 - Searching for a house to buy in unpopular part of London, long commute.

D4 - Sentence ending is missing in another language. I work out it is Pleiades, in the dream it means happiness.
I don't remember its waking state meaning.
It imagine the Ankh sign becoming like a fish with its arms down swimming up my chakras. Then it takes normal form
balancing between my third eye.

I awake very serence and spaced out. Very peaceful

]D1 - I was listening to an old style record player. The record ended suddenly. The end was missing, but why?
I checked into the old files containing information on the composer.
In the modern system files the ending is shown. R brings in copy from amazon. I explain the mystery to him.

Spoiler for Idk:

D2 - laying in bed, I lean over to see person next to me. They pull the covers down. I see they are wearing short green jean shorts and tshirt, their legs are pale and long. I roll over and pull their shorts off. Then their pale panties. I am rather excited. I look at them they seem not to object. They have a forest of dark hair. I push my face into it and lick them. It all gets very warm and heady. I lick them more opening them up. Then I wake up feeling all warm and fuzzy n nice

D! - I am in a darkened room, I can just make out the size of the room in the semi-darkness. It looks smaller than my room, plus in my room the street light outside always illuminates part of the blinds.
I realise i am dreaming and think I must try and change something but am a bit non-plused by the fact that there is nothing in the room and nothing seems to happen. i remember i'm supposed to touch things to stabilise the dream, so I reach out. The wall is cold to the touch and some furniture I feel is smooth and cold. Nothing happens, but i'm really hyped about it

D2 - There is a bald guy semi-naked laying on the ground, facing away from me. I felt I needed to kill him, I have no idea why.
I reached down and twisted his neck to break it. It snapped but this seemed to have no effect on him, so I grabbed hold of his head and pulled him up. Then I flew straight up into the sky, really fast. In a matter of seconds I was up above the planet, looking down. I could see some nice detail, oceans, land masses and the void of space. But I wasn't really interested at the time. I just thought if I drop this guy from heigh enough its gonna finish him. So I dropped him and watched him sail back to earth.
Afterwards I flew back down to earth but the close I got the more it was just like zooming in on a simulation of the earth and by the time I got to the surface, the earth was fairly flat with just some bump map textures on it Oo. Perplexed I looked around but could see no evidence of the guy, and had no idea what to do.

D3 - Something about giving someone a life and parking near school.

D4 - Recurring dream about having to get ready at last moment for christmas school performance, but this time I have to perform.
I am to sing alongside some other teachers on a few numbers. I am totally unfazed by this and start singing even though I have no clue of the tune :d

[Comment]
Yay! Lucid, and seems like an obe, my first

D1 - fringle the magician is making magic, his old friend mouse-fringle makes magic on the same wavelength causing a overlapping of waves of energy, enveloping all.
Someone is bending to get through a white doorway.
D2 - Staying on holiday in italy, trapsing through the streets, as staying away from the centre means the food is lousey.
Everyone we meet is planning on moving as we head through the busy streets. Nice houses but we are quite lost if we venture further, but we are drawn despite the danger.
D3 - ?
Feelings of acceptance and non-resistance on coming out of third dream.
By the time I came out of the third dream, i had strong feelings of acceptance and non-resistance, to everything.
The dream and me were one entity, on waking the world and me were one entity.
I now experienced what it meant to say that lightning and a drop of rain were one. All was the same essence. All me.

I hope you can understand my feeling, my sensation at the time.
The feeling you get when you get to slip back and the duvet for some extra sleep but without the exited emotion about the extra sleep and without the worried emotion about having to eventually get up. Just a lovely syrupy feeling like the world is one big glob of golden honey.

People were talking on the radio, all I heard was words, people talking talking they didn't realise that it didn't matter what they said it was just sounds, They had talked yesterday and everyday of their lives, they're was no resolution to be had through words, they just generated more, like thinking just making more thoughts. Just a noise going on forever, talking was fine but not nonsensical talking.

Anyway the feeling enveloped me further, and I was in a kind of beautiful daze as I had a shave, my mind was clear.
In the shower I felt a breeze, as it was a chilly morning, the wind felt like it was a part of me. The water that rained down on me was also part of me.
It was wonderful, but such a calm warm feeling. Just a constant emotion, if it could be called that, unbroken.
Then thoughts tried to make ther way into my mind, my ego was returning, as soon as I started to fear this feeling would depart.
So I experienced first hand that the ego is generated by fear.

D1 - Someone repeatedly tried to copy my super powers. I thought they were crazy as they were doing it all wrong
It was a beautiful woman standing infront of a cresent moon, the moon had a yellow light on it.
She tried seven times making a low tonal sounds. On the last attempt she succeeded.

D2 - On holiday heading back with luggage to a car park, car was gone had to hike up a trail to another car park, feeling lost.

D3 - Going out, on way down the stairs, look in on Sam to see if he wants to come. He is already heading out with a new mate, I feel lost again, and look for an old coat reminscent of past times.

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After dream one.
My mind is contemplating dream meaning, one syncronitiy after another coming to mind of recent times.
Dream meaning comes to me with an accompaning strong physical sensation.
Meaning was that not only do opposites change into each other but other elementary forces can interchange,
such as love becomes fear, fear of losing control changes into pure love.

I felt a burning heat that moved like larva in a tight stream up my chest. At the same time the world seem to flip between waking and dream state, with everything in waking state appearing as a dream sign and sync. My mind was a total rush, as everything seemed to become clear for a moment.
It subsided and the sensations remained for about an hour.

D1 - At school, after lessons, there is some festival? on.Everyone is congregated into a smallish space. Lots of bustling,
two school children tell me that S is looking for me, and they want to help raise money for her. I follow them only to find out they are scamming me. I am very cross, and look for them but they're are way to many people and I can't see them anywhere. I decide to spend the afternoon looking through the building for them. Another teacher says he had similar problem.

D2 - I am lying on the ground talking into an old style black phone, with swirly cord. I am allowed to ask questions of someone.
Questions they would never normally ask about themselves. For every question I ask, I take one bullet from a gun. I ask stilted questions as its a bit difficult to focus when you've been shot. Each time I am getting holes torn into me. Soon enough I receive a fatal bullet. I do not care and am happy to sacrifice my life for the answers. I dramatically spray into a grey powder, loads of black dots on closer examination. Leaving powder in the air and black peices that are left of me.

D1 - Class are drawing something, all the drawings are slightly different but all are wrong, red, blue pen is being used.
Ed suggests he could help. I decide to redo lesson and take class back out on a trip to see the art they have been trying to replicate in the art gallery again. Whilst taking them I realise no way is there sufficient time to complete task, it is 2.30pm.
I meet D in corridor she is smiley and helpful, but just makes me feel inaquedate and totally stupid.

D2 - A load of old geezers are drinking in a bar, there is a large pitcher of whiskey which is being refilled. Some have hat and coats on. One looks like delboy out of only fools and horses. They are discussing someone, they don't rate. I have the feeling it is me. That I don't qualify as man enough for their liking.

D3 - Someone is jogging through semi-woodland on a muddy track. They are having a conversation as he runs along, about how his coach has been so great and a fantastic rolemodel. And as I stand by the path, near some training bars, I get the feeling that I am excluded, as i am not a good rolemodel, or father or anything.

D4 - We are at the last minute it seems again, trying to learn the lines for some performance. I try hopelessly to get the kids to remember their lines.
Rob ever helpful, seems to have put me in a barrel and i'm in dark water out at sea.
Next i'm on his boat in a small cabin, I can still sea the dark waters out the little rectangular windows.
He shows me his parasitic worm collection, they are gigantic and very horrible. I try with all my intention to pull away as the worm comes towards my face. I imagine them inside me, eating me.
He is upset about how his worms have not be breeding well, due to the dark wet weather and that the tanks have not been cleaned properly. Inside the wood in the cabin is slightly ornate, not unlike a coffin Oo.

When I awake I am not scared but later remember the extreme sensation and fear.

At school miffed at not been in time for something. I walk back into a white carpeted area with a stairwell with silver banister and cube glassed window. There is an elderly man there not unlike samuel l jackson, here has a grey checkd floppy berri on his head. i knock it off his head in my fit of rage and it flys across the the room. It falls to the floor spilling out many lead unformed objects.
I immeditetly realise the error of my ways and apologies. He agrees to help me out of my predicatment by singing with me.
But when I leave to return he is no where to be seen.

I walk into the white and silver studio, with large round platforms for the performers to stand on, with hanging microphones and headsets.
Robs group is currently performing in black outfits and time is rapidly running out. There is a main control panel where an old style cassette tape should be placed. I am convinced it is missing and question Georg about its possible whereabouts she is quite aggressive and berates me.

It is time for the performance, but I do not even know the tune let alone the song, reminscient of whiplash.
I flounder about, then the music starts, it was there all along and the performance goes fine, except for my hystronics

[Comment[
I think the lead objects represented unmanifested though forms (being situated under his hat) and that is why it was not his "time" to perform the actions I wanted him too, despite his conscious thoughts.

Otherwise usual worry about worsed case scenario for no reason but habit.

A man investigates a space behind a wall in my parents house. It is a vast dark space, filled with an old railway line (dream sign).
He can be heard playing a large grand piano he finds there, nice accoustics.
He searches in a land that is cold and dark, the earth a kind of grey clay. He is unconcerned and swims in dark waters, wearing a wet suit.
Eventually he finds an old half ruined city. He is high up on some buildings, down below is darkness. One building, with the upper storeys tiered, smaller, is covered in millions of tiny gold objects.
He shows us this using a camera attached to a tube and a light, much like something used for nonenvasive surgery.
The gold he says is not wanted by anyone these days, people only want silver.
I begin plans to get hold of the gold, gaining access via a chimney. At work I make excuses and change into normal clothes and start the search. G shows me what he has found. A first room is cleared of obstructions by lowering all objects to the ground.
My father hands out large banners he is giving a tutorial about something. Meanwhile my mother is trying to wind an old silver carrage clock, with delicate silverwork. I turn the key and it opens magically at the top, an unfurrling of metal work, revealing a secret for me.

D1 - I find out why I have been falling in love with the same red haired person through time.
I meet Matt Smith and Karen Gillan , and here is the synch


Anyway best thing is, is the time machine is a train. We travel and tracks through space and time, on outside of train for some reason.
Meeting past life red head, earlier red head this life time and later red head this life time. Which are all supposed to be same soul
Anyhow was cool.

D2 - Brother and ex-wife are in some kind of limbo, with 2 years not knowing what to do or where to live. They visit a warehouse with lots of boxes with special coding on them. I figure out how it works but can see no point for such a system as they have next to no stock.

D3 - Horse riding competiton. Our side is very confident but are tricked due to this. Our last hope is a good rider, he jumps and swings himself onto the horses back much as a gymnast onto the parallel bars. But we are still tricked it seems.

dreamt I was in some kind of labyrinth (with out bowie bless im) which was a baren landscape of white hills. There were lions wandering around. We escaped into a hallway of house sunken into one of the hills. The lion followed, mydaughter going into the kitchen and me onto the stairs. In the kitchen there were cricket bats we grabbed to use to defend ourselves
The lion was at the door between me and my daughter. So I tried to scream to warn her. But all that came was a high pitched whisper.
I felt my head would explode from exertion of trying to scream.

Funny I had been thinking I never get nightmares, so I implanted the intention to have one ^^

D1 - In large manor house, mostly white walls. A brother and sister are having an incestous relationship. I try to rescue the girl as I belive her to not want this to be happening idk seemed like the thing to do. They are making out.
I invite the brother to come to the game world. We enter it, its really weird, I think I saw this world before.
Cliffs of sculpted white, high up above crystal clear water, a bit wavey.
We enter a portal to the game world and I take his level so I have special abilities in the game world.
Once I have taken his powers I can seal him in the game world. Bye Bye.
I then make out with his sister Oo not sure she won on the deal there lol

D2 - I enter another gameworld with my new powers available. I zoom across the world and arrive floating into the enemies camp.
A large grid of marquees housing many american troops of an other era, with white uniforms.
I reach a unit that are torturing captured soldiers. the soldiers have been wrapped in some kind of blankets, like a spring roll, so they cannot move. The torturers prong them with large forks and blood streams out. I kill off the torturers.
Another person a boy with powers floats in. An american captain is there, he admires us for our powers and wants to befriend us.

Dreamt of Siren in her mermaid form, should I black wavey hair. We chatted and she was smiley and fine. Didn't punch me or anything.