Nebulus

D1 - Same ol Same ol dream I keep having, different version each time, always same theme.
I have a multitude of configurations to choose from and this time they are grids, bit like a large rubic cube.
each square has a different quality, one seems to represent wheat (must be food) etc
I think previous circular objects meant trying to create unity, this seems like calculating my options i.e not leaving anything to intuition

Woke 1.25am had trouble getting back to sleep, worrying about life
D2 - Was in a room, with a guy with a long clump of fair hair sitting back in a chair, relaxed. Light streamed into the spacious room, a dust haze off the bare flooring. He asked me some question, gesturing to the window. He was signalling outside the room as being everyone in the concensus world outside. I replied that money and material things were not the purpose of life, and meaning existed in the non-physical world only, the world between worlds. He nodded seeming happy with the reply. I hugged him and the dream ended.

I felt a bit calmer after the dream and slept a little less fretfully.

At a course I am pissed off with the lecturers, so plan a walk out. We all swarm to the exit to the disbelief of staff. However i have second thoughts and at the last minute teleport back into the lecture hall so as not to get in trouble Oo naughty naughty.
I then start to feel really bad about the lecture staff , and suddenly one of them has a terrible open sore. It look ugh like the mummies I saw at the museum maybe, I can see through to the bone and sinew ick. I ask them if they know about reiki and I use my healing powers to fix his arm. The tissue starts to grow back but I figure it will take a night to fully regrow.
The other guy wants to race, so I run with him, but cheat teleporting every few seconds instead of running.

dreamt I was lucid, my current technique seems to be getting somewhere

D1 - I am somewhere nice and sunny, its seems like it maybe morroco, the buildings are gray and there are lots of criss crossing tiny alley ways. A customer comes into my shop and I offer to give them some free stuff. I am trying to promote some cards i have made for children to collect. they look kind of strange but I have got into the idea and am quite hyped about it. He seems very happy.
I go outside with my son (?) and try to find S I spy her around the corner through an archway, unfortunately my son has headed back the other way looking for her. I have a dilema whether to tell her quickly where we are or to rush back and find him before he gets lost :/

D2 - I am making something in my parents kitchen, a weird concoction indeed. Seems like I have got pesto in there somewhere and what looks like some kind of thick pancakey thing, and other stuff Oo. My parents come into to the now darkened kitchen, I quickly hide the evidence as they serve up masses of food. As a child my parents were often quite frugal with food, waste not want not. So I feel guilty.

D3 - Stuck in some other world, I try to escape but to no avail. I feel wrapped in a blanket of fog. I have to kowtow to the empress of the vampires. Oh well, my powers are no good here. I leave but am followed by her minions. I sit in my house but there are invisible vampires on the stairs, watching my every move.

D1 - There was a creature that did not need human comforts, it moved out of the house where it had been as a human. It now lived in a hollowed out tree, surviving on things left on the tree floor. It was very cold and dark but it did not care. It just existed. Children came to the tree and it did not mind or pay them attention.
It went to work and carried out its duties with minimal interaction with others their and was able to dupe them into thinking it was a human.
The creature reminded me of the groak from the moomins.


D2 - At college sitting outside with a group of others, a girl is tuning up her guitar. A string is broken. It is a steel length with barbs on it. I offer to fix it and use my powers to melt and then stretch it back to normal.

D3 - Taking my daughter (when little) to a cinema to see a film. The cinema is on two floors and is very stark, qrey concrete walls. I buy tickets only to find the picture is not on, as the projector is not working. People are occupying themselves by eating in an upstairs resteraunt or drawing on the large screen with is not in use.
Eventually the film is back on but it is not the right film, no one cares as it is a children's film and pretty much the same. But I know my daughter will care and try to get a refund. I cannot however find my receipt or remember if I did infact purchase a ticket.

D4 - Some of the college students from the earlier dream are having a car race, the car is multicoloured with slogans all over it, mostly green thougth. We are in last place with the other cars infront bunched up. I use my powers to fix the car in time to speed ahead and win at the last moment.
In the student bar after their is a guy who was on the other team. I am concerned he will pick a fight with our team leader, so I invite him to sit with me at a table, away from the others. I then will be able to use my powers on him if he tries anything.
I ask fi who is there if she will hold my hand, I use my powers and when we hold hands it does a glowy red thing.

[comments]
I feel I have been living a life with no joy. Fairly bleak like the groak.

I spent multiple dreams stuck in the same queue in an airport. maybe things are about to take off?

D1 - On a very earthy and mountainous island. Talking to a guy about how he built a settlement their. Their living quarters hang down in buttresses on the mountsides, cool.
A Heron is flying past when a monsterous bird swoops in and grabs it in its mouth and flys past my gob smacked face.
There are scarey monsters here! A wasp the size of a truck floats infront of us, the guy is totally unfazed.
It is horribly translucent with purple markings like veins, ick. I ask him how the hell do you get away from something like that.
He does not answer, I scramble under some undergrowth but the beating wings just blow it away.
We head for his landrover, a monster bird flys along side us. He shows me how if he does not have bars on the window, it can easily dent the door or smash the meshed window Oo. The bird whacks the door, and knocks some paint off the inside of the door, leaving a rusted chunck.
He puts the bars back on and floors the accelerator, leaving the bird behind. We go along a road to an aircraft hanger.

D2 - Manager at work comes into a large empty hall. They delitberaty kick over a bowl as they are in a fowl temper. They start complaining and berating the staff their, the cleaner and cook.
A tray near me is knocked and taps me as I lay on a bench covered in a sheet. I pretend to be angry and start complaining about how rude the manager is, building up to shouting at them. I follow them into a corridor, still shouting at them.
when they get into a room, I am shouting in their face, they don't respond just look pale and afraid.
I am very angry by now and start to strangle them. This seems like not the best idea and I go off and get a syringe. I filled it with some kind of traquilizer or poison and inject them with it. I then go off to get something to tape over their mouth. They collapse.
I then start to think about where to put the body, which wood to bury them in that would not be frequented often.
Many dilemas overcome me as I realise I am not dressed to go out and need to decide which trousers and top to wear from a large pile.
One pair is a horrible garish browny green with sparkly bits Oo

[comment]
I felt strange this morning after the dream and feel different about manager at work
I feel I have realsed a little tension.

D1 - There is a person once sitting in a chair, now battered and taped, black leather. He was the big bad monkey, able to do all sorts of bad stuff. My choice is do I take his place, I decide not to and become new good monkey, do gooder.

D2 - I am on toweringly high platform in a kind of horseshoe shape, way above cloud level. Looks a bit like hull of a ship, I guess.
I have reached the next level of a game but need another peice, red, before I can enter the next stage.

Serious insomnia again.

D1 - It is very dark I am on an icy lake, I can just make out the shoreline, it is very eerie. A large lion's head appears, just the head no body. It is spirit like leaving a vapour trail behind it. Its coming for me and very big, I leg it, skidding on the ice. I just manage to get away.

D2 - I am a knight with red armour, weird kind of red, rusted red? My sword is normal silver steel. I am in a encampment after a battle. A baron is on trial. I vote against them, then standing in the dark tent, notice everyone is gone, except him looking non to pleased, again I leg it.

D3 - I am in a new house, it had a whole lot of glass inside. One part is hexgonal with sliding parts. i see some people coming to visit. So I go to hide but, I have over looked the fact that their is no where to hide due to all the glass.

[thoughts]
D1 - Afraid of becoming a leo persona, don't like being in the centre of attention
D2 - Being fiery red Aires won't magic away my fears
D3 - glass, I can't hide from myself

D1 - Siren was in my dream as a fellow teacher but me being such a "spiritual" person I remonstrated her when she complained about some paperwork. Saying "All is perfect, if you remember the way of the Tao".
I don't remember what happened after that, maybe she k.o'ed me ^^ the way of the wronged

D2 - At work again, I notice something strange about the office photo, everyone is standing around with the photocopier in the background. However I notice that four of the employees all have the same sticky up black hair (not unlike a mop) they are clearly all related.
The dream then splits as I turn the photo into a DT project cutting it in half so I can put a hinge on it and real black mop hair as a cover at the top Oo.

D3 - back in class I haven't preped for a lesson on something - science. I quiz a load of unusually tall and snooty girls outside (same brown blazers as mindcontrol ones) about contents of lesson. I get some equipment together and soldier on not knowing what i'm doing with my class.

D1 - Again an array of spherical objects appearing in my dream, each one a unique combination to be manipulated and changed to try and create the best possible combination. Now being used for something else. I have to perform sex in some specific position, I guess fits previous theme.
[Maybe to do with chakra alignment or something, idk, or unlocking something hidden]

D2 - Was in school then escape to a very muddy and grassy area where kids are in groups, some on high mounds some lower down. We are escaping/being chased. We warn others of oncoming zombie apocalypse and plan out where its best to seek shelter/acquire food and weapons. Then I decide that maybe I don't really need to do that, I could just be friendly. Dream abruptly is kind of short circuited and stops.

D1 - A man with black hair and glasses and a long tan trench coat (he plays villain in a lot of my dreams, he's ok at it), is at a counter trying to pretend to be somebody else to get money or something. The worker, an old man round man with white hair and spectacles is dealing with him.
He starts to give the villain a phone number and is half way through when I use mind control thinking "no no..don't do it!" He stops in his tracks realising this man may not be as genuine as he thought. The man gets very agitated and starts to kick off. He somehow manages to get hold of something and leaves.
Outside is a cobblestone street and shops and some houses, leading to a archway into a courtyard. There are lots of general public about but I notice a load of school girls in brown uniforms. I use mind control to take them over and set them after the villain. He is accousted in the courtyard and they drag him away with little fuss, there are lots of them
I get them to hurt him but then a part of me wakes up to the fact that I shouldn't be hurting dream characters as they are a part of myself.
With this new intent I re-enter the dream and find the villain escaping down a tunnel leading to the subway. He disappears round a corner, so I use telekinesis to drag him out. He comes flying out. At this point I get lucid, everything feels different and lighter. The guy who looks slightly different now comes at me Oo. I freeze up a bit but have the courage to try and hug my mad(?) assailant. His expression changes ansd he opens his arms to hug me breifly but then lucidity and the dream fade.

D2 -Outside my parents house (as it was many years ago) my brother is in the garden at night. Inside the lights are on. The fuel storage has been set a light by me. I realise inside is also stored framed photographs of the schoolgirls with somekind of official form and signature. I put ourt the fire and hope the damage is not to great though I can see some are burnt round the edges :/

D3 - At school I have not prepared the kids properly for some kind of school performance. Other teacher is running through some basic routine, I am planning on being off sick. Class run through basic routine but their is some swearing.

D1 - Incubating strange wiggly creatures in a translucent shed. They are hanging up, fatest specimen is rubbery slug/snail or could be ear shaped creature is selected to be most successful and is to be crossed with best robot parts.
[This dream came before robot parts one but I went back to it again]

- Children trying to create the best robot/machine from parts available. All are being made in a matrix of combinations. Most are circular in overall shape.

D2 - Wake up sunburnt from head to toe, red raw apart from white part where I was wearing a cap on my head. I slather the remaining lotion to my daughters shangrin over myself. It is already sweltering with bright sun light. Outside Island is very grassy with some palm trees. we have to make a trip across main island and over to a small island which has been designated as a car park! Oo
We breifly discuss pros and cons of this.

F1 - Its a brightish day and i'm in a carpark. I help some woman with long blond pony-tail with getting stuff into her car.

F2 - Travelling along a tightish tubular tunnel. Along the sides are snakes similar to those in prometheus (alien babies). I feel very threatened and spray acid from a gun at them. They die, melting in a very gory way. Still looking at me with one eye and one melting into just a dark eye socket.

F3 - Still near tunnel, i'm in futuristic train compartment. I need the toilet and find a strange retangular door that opens wahlaa! but am to embarressed to use it.

F4 - In dark classroom watching a video. D & M are sitting back observing. Feeling very nervous. Older kids are there, Na moves but other kid lays sprawled refusing to move. Sit down next to kid slurping a drink. I try and persuade/coerse him to behaviour. All very fraut. Feeling of low self worth.

[Comments]
Underlying feelings still remain regarding work.
Snakes may be symbolic of kundalini supressed by xmas over eating (stomach acid).

Frag1 - famous foorballers outside a glass fronted restaurant. An area with lots of tables, I go over and talk about something,

F2 - In a large school house trying to get away/hide from someone. I fly up onto a low ceiling at back of classroom it is sculpted bumpily like a rockface. I clamber as far up as I can precariously. Something is outside.

F3 - In a stationary cupboard? small room getting paint for George. Loads of forms and handwritten envelopes with nice stamps and wadges of money.
F4 - Zi comes into classroom after lesson to give me pencil sharpener, i am warey of him.