non-lucid

- Trying to get into a college library at closing time, everyone was streaming out when I needed to get in. Going against the flow of people.
- Not knowing what to do.
- Being told to teach English instead of ICT.
- Searching around looking for something I could scavenge to make metal parts for musical instruments. Finding metal latices of metal cubes. Finding cupboards full of old metal gizmos, wondering if I could break them apart to use.

D1 - At an office with lota of and lots of files bound up with string and some in leather. K is best employee and is showing me how to do something. We then go into the main office with and old desk and chair (no computer, it is pre-computers).
When I use the old landline phone and go to put my mouth to the phone a woman with wavey hair kisses me repeatedly. Its nice and warm and soothing.
mini-chain - somewhere else in the building a man (looks like a old police canteen) is being given a custard pie then a meat pie for his good work?

D2 - In a game world (repeated dream). The world is vast and outside in large fields. I am following a path through the levels.

D3 - I am in a cramped house/apartment but it just constists of a small hall which leads from a room which is like a changing room with benches to a bathroom. My partner leaves and I am left with Mr B . I go into the bathroom as I am late for work.
I look at the hairs on my face, not in the mirror but all around me, as my hair is standing out really long, from my face and head.
It is suspended as though either there is no gravity or it is alive. But infact it has the energise of the universe pulsating through it, causing it to be directed in certain directions like many millions of medusa snakes.
This hair sequences is oh so incredibly vivid.

Had a nightmare again. This time I was in an old house, victorian with old style lamps. Cold and creepy.
The lights went off and I was left alone, my daughter went out.
I could make out stairsdown in the half light but didnt want to go down as I knew there was a big ol monster down there.
So I sat and are cakes, even though they were making me feel sick, to take my mind off the fear.

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When i'm depressed I over eat. So that figures.

Programmed myself to wake after every dream, which I did but I find it very much like coming up for air then plunging back under the murky waters, quite disorientating. So lots of chaining.
Also I tried FILD a lot.

D1 - Escaping from my father I travel across europe. I am being traced by a chip sticking out of my iphone.

D2 - Staying in Ireland, in a farm house. Waking up early in a bedroom, with double windoes overlooking the farm courtyard. I am a child but do not want to go visiting the farmyard animals with the other children.

D3 - I am a child again and I am unable to stop the bathroom tap running (a phobia of mine when I was younger). I am yelling for my My mum to sort it out.

oooo I don't really remember having dreams where i'm a child before Oo, must be deeper.

I had about four false awakenings LOL

D1 - In a large dinning area with lots of tables with white cloth on with a few people around. The hall was L-shaped with double doors at one end. All the food seemed to be horrible seafood, grey looking creatures. My daughter and I didn't know what to do as they're was nothing palatable to eat. Feeling nausea

D2 - In an apartment feeling calm and peaceful, a warm feeling of tranquility washing over me. There are square windows without frames, it looks like a place I used to live. It is early morning but I am not rushing, I am laughing about something with a friend.
I lay in bed and look at an ipad, it has a function to encode the video I am watching from Irish to English, I laugh at the absuditiy of it, as the people only had a sligh accent LOL.



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I realise I haven't felt like I have a home for a long time. Not having anywhere to call home is not a nice feeling, hence the nausea.

I was in an apartment on holiday and had just got out of bed. I went downstairs into a brown brick stairwell.
On exciting the block I saw a man who was dressed with a long flowing cloak and headress. He was sneaking somewhere with his children and unbeknown to him I had seen him. It was a hilly desert region with small houses built into rock sides.
I reentered block not sure what to do. I found I was trapped in the stairwell so I called for my daughter to let me in.
Even though she was only small in the dream I knew she had super powers and could help me out.
She made the door appear again and came with me downstairs.
When we exited the apartment, we appeared to be in London, loads of people in the street. And Red london buses going up and down.
I was sure there was something wrong with this and kept asking is this really London as it did not seem right.
I found it hard to believe the DCs and was perplexed as to what had happened.

Had a long chain dream.

In a large town hall, in a seated area listening to a forum on healthy living. Lots of opinions and ideas raised. It seemed to be mostly women in the audience, seems its related to some course of study.
I notice a couple if the women, though young are very sizeable.
From here we move onto another room, where there is food and beverages. I think its a break before the next part of the day.
I am bored and want to see what is going to be happening next.So I snoop around the building. It is a kind of labyrinth with lots of interconnected rooms on different levels, although it is quite a confined space. I realise that it used to be a school annex and they are using resources that were there previously. I notice old health displays and pretend food. My eye is drawn to a box of cornflakes and a plastic yellow corn cob next to it.
There is not much of interest here, however it is very quiet and kind if cosy.
I go through to the other room where everyone is still chatting and find a women. She has long fair hair and is fairly plump. I take her through into the empty part if the building and we start making out.

D1 - I am at a workplace and am handed a printout, showing three spellings of name listed on a long list of names. All mispellings are of my name. As a result I am not sure if it is a mistake or if I have a choice.
I look at the different possibilities for job relocation and where I would be working.
There are two possible places one really hard to get to. I am worried and believe it may be due to a mean boss.
Silky helps me look at different possibilities.
I then realise I will be doing two jobs with the same hours!


D2- I am in some kind of small japanese style room, all is white linen. There are shiny copper pans stacked in small space to reach up to ceiling.
I start to climb up precariously to exit in ceiling, where they're maybe food.


D3- In a strange medieval city, on the outskirts I am wandering lost and having no idea of the time or place, or even my name or origin.
Also it appears I am peniless and quite miserable. Night approaches and I reach an area near some docks.
i am approached by a group of men, clearly surrounding me. Soon enough i am captured and press ganged with others. I an tied up and await my fate gloomily. I am offered wine which i fear may be drugged so I ignore it and it splashes down me. The others take it and I realise it is to dampen the pain of what is to come.
so when I am offered a last time I accept. It is cold and I am already cold and tired in the half light. A cloth is then pressed back into my mouth. We are hauled away and I am sunk under water tied to boat. I am slowly numbed by the wine, cold and icy water.


D3- I am trying to get portion of white line? on a peice of paper. I use my powers as a vampire and start to shred the paper with my teeth instead.
Silky grabs the other end she is in werewolf form.
When we both get to the middle we eat at each other but it does not matter as both our wounds heal. It seems we are making out in a very animalistic way.

My dream recall has been zero from having a little vino on hols

Nvm

last night i just remember the end of a dream. I was flying around some world, I think I was in my holiday world, all sea and islands with spares greenery.
I sensed a friend was around, so I flew around and found her. She was kind of busy so I had some trepidation of bothering her. She was standing ona seni submerged bit of rocky island. She was wearing a white dress , kind of silky and it flowed in a twirl , if that makes sense. On her head she had a tiara thing going on weaved into her jet black hair, which was pulled up a little. She was partnered with her boss, who was preoccupied with fighting a monster. She was dressed in red robes, oriental looking and had dark fair hair.
i offered to use my magic, including secret magic to make them more powerful so they could beat the monster more easily. They agreed and when finished I left them be.

D1 - F & E are using different methods to do some magic but it is silly as they are not in the right environment to practise it.

D2 - Outside a workplace, it looks a bit like a tourist agency. The windows are floor to ceiling and there are lots of posters on the windows. I need to get inside to get hold of a box containing some sort of technology, heaven knows why, but it is urgent.
Unfortunately I am ashamed at needing to and do not want to approach the manager there.
I wait outside and when some office workers appear, I follow them, they are suited. They go to another entrance further along and I am disappointed as this won't enable me access.
I secretly use my powers to teleport the box outside to where I am standing. I open the cardboard box and rumage through it. There is a big white main bit and lots of smaller components. I find to smallish cuboid bits wholed out, with some metal bits inside and start to make measurements that I need to aquire.
I sense the manager is returning to the office and will notice it is missing. Not wanting to be found outside with the box, I embarressingly enter the office. The employees suspect nothing, as I have been there before, and I am able to wander through to a back room where the box should be. I continue to examine things.
For some reason the box is now much larger as I worry about the bosses return, and is filled with clothing. It is women's clothing, lots of dresses. There is also a military uniform, looking very seargent pepperesque. I feel this last item will endear me to the boss, who is female and has military connections.
The boss a lady with tussled greyish silver hair and glasses with thin frames, enters and makes her way towards where I am.
I wake up Oo.

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The glass which is a dream sign, I think maybe relates to feeling fearful of exposing my true self to the world

Also I am about to go on holiday, so maybe why the travel agents

D1 - I have no idea, there is some kind of big ominous robot, quite smooth and grey and green, it is backlight so pretty dark. Either side are duplicates that are half size. There is some significance to all this and of course it all seemed important in the dream lol.

D2 - Queueing with a load of kids, also a woman with a buggy and baby inside. We are waiting for some kind of rations.
I am feeling worried. The queue is super slow, it seems we will be waiting a long time. Everyone is acting like its an everyday happening.

D3 - Some guy has come into my mum and dad's garden, wandered in (this actually used to happen lol). I am busy talking urgently to someone and so do not have the time to talk. My friend gives him the low down on the best file compression algorithum for using on his mac.

D4 - I am in the back of someones yard, it is a real mess. I am doing gardening to make some extra money, I am quite happy till it hits me that this money will not be enough.
I go taking people on tours of london, even a Harry Potter tour but again I get little money. I try to find out how to encourage more people on my tour and am busy learning my lines, and reading up on places of interest.
I am frustracted and worried.

D1 - Annoying boss is trying to fool me into doing some work, complaining that my work is not up to standard. She is sitting side saddle on a desk, talking total crap (no change there) to a trainee. I ignore her comments and walk off.

I try wake back to bed, focusing on last nights dream, about being in a large house
D2 - I see the white kitchen door in my dream. The paint on the door starts to flake as if time is speeded up or under the heat of a flame gun. The bumps and undulations of the flakes turn into folds of fabric, transforming the door into a light emerald green almost see through fabric. It is now a door but also a green blouse being worn by a lady, with long black hair. There is a brightness, from within maybe causing the see through state of the blouse. The door is now a double door and swings open as I am filled with joy, as it is the persons chest and heart opening to me.

I awake with the vision still in my head, feeling very emotional. I try to get back to sleep but am now wide awake, it is about 4am.

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I pulled these tarot cards today, which are relevant to yesterday's dream and possibly this one.



The embrace card has a plant growing from deep underground!
and the manifest card as a snake like white energy

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D1 - I had a recurring dream (long term) of being in a large house. The house was incredibly familar though it was not one i've ever been in the waking state. It was a sunny day and the house had a load of rooms all on the ground floor. I was trying to stop someone from getting in, with a great feeling of vunerability. The house had a main front door which was easy enough to lock but the back door which was way back in the kitchen (seemed to remind me of a house from my childhood, my Aunties) had a wooden fairly plain white door. I knew the lock very well and kept trying the small silver key in the lock but it was just turning and not locking it.

D1 Part 2 - In the same house in the front room standing with a girl next to a padded red sofa. We are talking about new beginnings and that if you are serious you need to sow your seeds deep. Only then will things be deep rooted and survive the tests of time.
So we start a journey down into the depths of some subteranean place, deeper and deeper, it is all very red and purple down there and dark. We eventually get deep enough in that other world and plant our seeds. On return I find that plants? of some kind are growing out of my dna and sprouting from my arms, this is good apparently. Things have taken root at a deep level.

D1 Part 3 - In the same room in the house, the girl is gone and a boy is their, I am now on a white sofa talking to him. he has blonde hair compared with her black hair. We are talking about synchronicity.
At this point the phone rings, it is a white corded landline. I change my talking voice the sound of the phone making a strange melody
then the doorbell rings, it is the girl. And I continue my melody adding the new electronic sound, like a strange magpie to my existing melody. The sound would be very hard to describe lol. but is very clear in my dream, a trill whir of lots of high pitched sounds melded.
I see the pattern as a three dimensional shape of many sides, snake like, its sides have shades of white flowing through it.

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I have a great fear of opening up to people but obviously would like people to come into my home and have visitors, if they are safe.
It is a lonely existence hiding.
I am hoping to make a fresh start and build relationships with people in my life.
I see synchronicities everywhere.

D1 - Harry potter and Hermione are doing a tour, recounting to people their story, but it seems like an endless tour.
Repeating the same droning speeches over and over, Herminone is gettomg wprn out, she is wearing a lovely velvet jacket in light blue and matching hat, her hair hangs in ringlets she is mostly asleep.

D2 - I am in a darkened room, light comes in from underneath one blind. I am waiting for an email from someone but keep only receiving ones I don't want.

Dreamt I had old boss and we were at work, but then something happened and we all had to go down a lift shaft of a building that was a very narrow tower with lift at its centre (had a dream about that before).
We went underground, all that was there was lots of wooden crates. It was weird what were we supposed to do?
We had no work to do. What would our new roles be? It seemed that we were unable to adept to our new situation...