Nightingale42

Slept from about 5pm to 130am.

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normal dream
dream sequence leading to lucid
Lucid


I’m in a game store. E is working there. I'm there to get an expansion to some game we've been playing. She pulled out a sheet of paper that I thought at first was a job application but wasn't. I got what I needed and left. The journey was... odd and mostly forgotten till I went down some stairs - trying to get back to some people I knew. The bottom of the stairs was blocked off by a bunch of people in chains. Teenagers. Apparently someone threw a party when they were babysitting. Groups of us (people in the area- bad place/time) were sectioned off into different rooms. They had a group of adults come in - looked like bikers - hard people. To scare us? They started a trivia game - a question about taco bell - something that had stuck with taco bell since the founding of the first store. I had first try on this one. I brought up how the founder was rumored to have been big on live sacrifices and asked if that had anything to do with it. He said it did not and I gave up to the next person. It was apparently something that played in the background of a lot of taco bell commercials. A reference to a movie or game or some such that did not exist.

My mate and I were in a car together. He pulled off to the side and someone was.. following him? Trying to get to him. He drove off and up the rode a bit. Made me get out of the car and kept going. I started following him on foot - almost up a hill till I got to a parking garage. I was distressed that he left and worried about him. As I was walking there was a bunch of other people on foot going the same way. One guy had on roller skates - I think he was one of the ones after my mate. I’m in the parking garage - some sort of gathering of people here. I was naked. Grabbed someone's jacket and then she got upset with me so I gave it back. ((Here I think I became briefly aware of my body due to discomfort in the dream and a light sleep - and I thought going to bed sleep deprived would make me sleep deeper)) I tried to imagine clothes on myself because it was silly that I was feeling insecure. It worked - briefly. Something loose and guy like. Comfy. Then it disappeared. I decided I didn't care and wandered down to the stream (down a hill off to the side of the garage). It was very murky, but I got in anyway. I wanted it clear so I visualized this strongly and it cleared. I was giggling joyfully in my new found powers. I swam around a little - enjoying the feel of the water and the trees all around the river. I swam back to the bank near the garage - all of the dream characters that were in there had come down. Clustered near where I jumped in. Someone was afraid of getting a cd out of a cd player. I held my hand out to it and willed them to open one by one (there were several cd trays in a column). The last was a tape, not a CD. It was supposed to be a message to someone (me). I decided to oblige and listen. Instead of putting it back in the player I made it start playing in my hand and used the center piece that turns the tape to turn the volume up. I had another little tehehe moment of playfulness at making this work. There was nothing I could decipher in what came out. Music and gibberish. ((I had felt this dream slipping in several places and brought it back. I loved the sensation and control and didn't want to let it go. There was no real 'ah hah! I'm dreaming!' moment. It was rather gradual. I was aware within the dream that both the lucidity and the body awareness were due to the light sleep. I pushed the body awareness down to barely noticeable so I wouldn't full myself out that way when I was still playing. I felt in the dream that the message must be important if my dream characters were bringing it to me like this, but I think it just wound up being a way to drag me back under. At this point I had a false awakening and started writing all this down. I then 'went back to sleep'))

Dystopian type world – mega corporations. The milk company wants to make cheese. I (head of the cheese corp) deny them the ability to – don’t want the competition.

My mate and I are having sex – like REALLY good sex. We somehow manage to make it to the bathroom (for a shower?) while still going at it. There was some sort of portal in the bedroom. A new friend of ours is in the living room. There is an altercation between her, a different friend of hers (over the phone), and my mate.

My mom had died. I did not initially have an emotional reaction to this (shock?). I didn't like that so I forced myself to cry until I actually felt grief. When I paused for a breath I heard sobbing behind me. I went over to the stairs (house I grew up in) and she is sitting on them - looking like she did when we lived there. Something about the emotions I felt at her passing made her solid to me. I gave her a huge hug. We talked a little and she started to fade but I used some sort of mental trick to stabilize her. I got an email telling me an ex had died. I told my mom to tell him he is a douche when she saw him. There were people over. me adjusting the temperature - was too hot ((likely rl temp registering)). There were a bunch of old ladies in the living room doing some sort of craft. My mom was trying to do whatever craft it was with them. She aged her face at some point - made it super wrinkly - like 80 or so. I was asking a friend(a) (who was now the dead person instead of my mom) if he had seen the way to move on. He told me he had. That it was a doorway in his (my old room) room. It had a red heart or red figure of a woman (can't quite remember) on it. To entice him? I told him all they needed was techno music playing behind it. He laughed.

((remembering now something else. A... feeling/sensation - possibly from a different one where I kept dying? a sensation of holding on to my essence, my self as I went through these transformations. I would intentionally kill myself and come through the other side intact. I think the dead people in this dream might have briefly made me remember that sensation while in this dream))

Haven't updated this in a while due to relatively crappy recall for the last month or so. can't seem to maintain a 'normal' sleep cycle and this seems to REALLY screw with my recall. I have had several entries in my physical journal, but typing all of them out is going to be far too much of a pain. I will, however, post the dates of the more than two or so line entries - 5/14, 5/15, 5/17, 5/19, 5/20, 5/25, 5/28, 6/2. I think not posting them here has also contributed to the decline in recall. My comp was down for several weeks though, so I have an excuse there at least.


slept 430am-730am. had broken sleep from 8-11, but remembered no dreams from that time.

There is a montage of several different scenes, but only remember the one that... expanded. A guy is on a tour in the future - the people are on these hoverbike type vehicles (all different - their own i'm guessing) with free range of motion. The guy its focused on started falling asleep on the tour and kinda fell off the other's train and hit a tree branch. He wandered around for a little bit till he ran into a Trex attached to a harness and in a parade type deal attached to several other dinos (more passive) and santa clause leading them. Something my guy did knocked the dino out of his line - it started following the guy. He pulled the T Rex around and did a full on charge of the santa train. Apparently something like that was supposed to happen, but not until the end of the float/parade. The commenters are talking - well, one guy and the santa guy are talking. The trex is referred to as santa's knight. When I was rushing towards him (as the guy on the bike), there was this howooo noise - halfway between a wolf howl and a siren that I was suing to encourage the dino to move ((If you've ever heard the tornado sirens, it was essentially that)). The T-rex was more the stature of a velociraptor.

My old house. My old room. There is sand... The AC kicked out for a little bit and it's *much* warmer upstairs than down. There are a couple of asians in my room with me - they have something to do with the sand - cleaning it? They don't speak english. When I go upstairs there is a doctor that is supposed to give me a shot to boost my resistance to getting allergies to the sand, but all the sand they brought was dirty already. I think this is my fault and feel bad. To test my potential allergic reaction I go through some sort of weird gauntlet that turns into a Monaco ((x-box game i've been playing)) looking 2f thing. When I get through it (after some loud alarm like noises) there is a health/healing for me to use.

Sleep from 3am - 10am

I go to my mom's work to give her something. I was going to stay but realize i'm just going to be board for several hours and have my dad take me home. She works was for a law firm, but she was only one of the three people working there and the place was tiny and attached to a few little stores. Largish open area for the main office and one little sectioned off area for the boss.

Dream starts just before the zombies start coming. There are a really bizarre weather phenomenons - flash floods, tornadoes, wildfires, etc. I'm at some sort of yoga retreat. there is a male instructor and several people lined up along with me. we are all lying in our own little dugouts in the ground. we are in the middle of a forest with natural hot springs in the ground beneath us. At one point I turned the water on because I was cold and I missed a few words the instructor said (it filled my dugout like a bathtub). So did the person next to me. I apologize. I had tossed my clothes off to the side - kind of in the woods - back the way we came here? There were fires going on around the word. They caught some trees near us. I freaked and ran to get my cloths. They were just past some trees that were on fire. We were trying to decide what to do. We knew something bad was coming. A zombie wandered into our camp and someone mashed its brains in. I was asking if my grandmothers place ran on propane. Probably not - most houses switched over. there were little teepees a little in the woods. I almost thought we could stay there but then saw they were miniatures. we would never fit. There was a house a little ways into the woods that we wound up staying at. || A young guy comes to his home. His mother is ecstatic - 'you're alive, he's alive.'. the father gives him an axe to the head. They had never been close... The father figured he had to have been bitten. When he (the son) died he came back almost immediately all gray like. He was put down. Someone had a business card for Buffy. || Older family member - grandfather? - has a bald head from chemo. All this fighting to extend his life and now he dies anyway. He did get to spend a little more time with his loved ones though.

sleep 530am-4pm

I'm asleep at home in bed. My mate calls - I was supposed to pick him up from the airport or train station or something. I call him back - can't get ahold of him. I leave and head towards him. He calls as i'm near a hotel. I pull over. I can't understand him and my phone is dead. I call him on the hotels phone. Somehow as i'm on the phone I leave my purse in the hotel and wander outside and get on a bus. When the bus starts moving I realise what is going on. I'm still on the phone. I pull the cord, but we are on the freeway and aren't stopping for a while. Loki is bitching about me missing his calls and tells me he isn't coming home for a while - work. The bus finally lets off in a kind of major bus pit stop. there are books everywhere but no list of the bus routes - I don't know when the next one that can take me home will be there. A bus arrives, but the scrolling text above it that should tell me where it is bound is missing.

At a weird apartment with my mom and dad. I'm making an egg with fried rice but my mom doesn't want rice. I give her the one egg, apologize and tell her i'll make more. I feel bad because I can't make some for my dad as well because there aren't enough eggs. 'I don't think shes looking in the right fridge' -dad?. sure enough, there is another fridge with tons of food in it. The apartment is all open - one room open to the next open to the next. Makes it easy to rent more rooms.. there is no one living next to us so the openness was never an issue but they were using a fridge in a room that wasn't rented out to us. I was worried the landlady would find out and fine us. There are a few rotten (green insides) eggs I throw away. We had just moved into this place and I have to keep asking where everything is. There is an oven type thing in a island in the kitchen. If you move this piece of metal, you have an oven. If you move it the other way you have a toaster oven. the previous owners left something in the oven - a pizza? Someone there wants coffee, so I go looking. I know we have a coffee maker and coffee somewhere. I found the tea in a cubby hole on the ground of a shelf in a corner. I bitch to my mom about its inaccessibility and start moving them elsewhere. Turns out my parents have tons of coffee, but it isn't where the tea is.

Visiting family - cousins are there. I felt bad because I hadn't gotten anyone presents
fragmented sex dream (completely unrelated to above )

sleep from 6am to 4pm

'cookie dough' was code for 'i love you' (halo)
i was going to school - had four classes and another 4... like another day?
My mate is upset - drinking Jack Daniels - I don't want him to leave again. ((personal neurosis - my mate isn't a drinker and has never left me)).

I'm cleaning up stuff on the ground There are a whole lot of leaves. Some of the leaves can be turned into kittens if you do some sort of little ritual - saliva on the leaf I think. I was going to pick out a few choice leaves and give the kittens as presents. Someone was there sweeping the ground up - janitor or something. I yelled at him to stop and he said he couldn't - it was his job. I managed to grab a few leaves anyway.

Some sort of competition is going on. You have to defeat the other competitors in battle. Kill them, but they would respawn after the fight. I killed this bug thing and it made a high pitched noise - letting everyone know I killed it and to exact revenge. I didn't think this fair - That was the point of the game after all ((this was indoors))

In some sort of prison. There are hammock bunk beds. The person on top is almost literally on top on the bottom hammock.

sleep from 550 am to 2 pm. no remembered wakings


My mate and I traveled up the beach and down the beach and past a punk rock bar. We went through a house that no one was living in with a cloth bag holding some goodies. on the way out of that house there was a woman with a basket of laundry heading inside. Got down to the beach area and it was just me (ish - I think I might have been black). Something was mentioned about me being a survivor. I scoffed, looking at my current life, but then remembered how I got here. That I can hop to in a pinch. I've gotten soft though, living like this. The dog is talking - trying to get a guy from upstairs (in an apartment complex) to come down for a date. yelling in fact. I think all the guy hears is barking ((I'm remembering a dead friend now - David - maybe something to do with the apartments he used to live in)).

Went to a restaurant with my mate and some friends. I was a little late getting there. There was a pillow so I could lay down. Someone ordered cheese sticks. I nabbed one. There was a bar. Downstairs was a forge. A friend (rob) of mine was there - Ironing out some marks in a few metals pieces he had just made. He was just starting out - hadn't done much smithing. I came back up and layed down. someone was asking for the slayer. I was sleepy enough I didn't budge (I was the slayer). Eventually she suspects me and we start talking. Just chit chat. me telling her how cute her necklace is or something - making her think I'm not who she is looking for. Someone comes up from the basement - its started to flood - we have to go NOW! we all run - out and up a hill. I have a bunch of stuff in my arms - a book or two and some other things. I'm trying to protect them from the spray behind me. It surges forward - splashing my back and then dragging my ankles back as it regroups for its next surge. I'm kinda in front of everyone else. I get up the hill. someone (mate?) drives a car up. At the top the girl finds me again. Spike pinned her and handed me a sodden splinter of wood. I bitch and am still hiding who I am from her but she is buying it less and less. I find a more appropriate wooden stick and use it on her. drive it through her chest, but it doesn't work. she is a vampire - her forehead is all wrinkles. she gets away somehow and the hole is a missing chunk in her windpipe. She disappears and is found but in the body of a little boy. I am not going to kill a little boy.

I'm in an arcade with my mate. Lots of video games. I think we left most of the people playing other games (no video) or having other fun (dancing, skating, etc). something weird happens with one of the games.

Loki was feeling his keyboard and looks at me because it was kinda sticky. I told him it was dirty and I had to clean it. The sticky would go away soon.

5/3
sleep 10pm wake 7am

Terraria - constructing something - can't get the lava level quite right for auto killing mobs

((sry for the confusing wording here - was still mostly asleep and remembering as i went along))think i'm having a hard time remembering my dreams because i'm turning to musings in my dreams. There are rectangular projections of various parts of this womans body. There were a few different demo models. the rectangles are concentrated heat spots. I got this dream bc I was music about where humans were hottest. i was looking at a more traditional heat image at first, then the rectangle thing. the computer read the hot spots and then a projector was used to put them on a human body.

I was visiting my dad's side of the family. I was pretty much in the middle of nowhere - at least a couple of hours away from any sizable human population, though there was a small community ~30 min away. I had hurt my left foot somehow. I was thinking nerve damage. It hurt as if it had be charlie horsed, but only in one spot - middle, kinda to the outside and mostly on time. The pain was very intense and the heads of house were trying to help me with it (aunt, uncle). I had to go back to... mom's side or civilization or somesuch and the time it took was in issue. My dad was going to drive me.

5/4
zombie apocalypse. had to leave Totoro behind for one run, and the second was a run onto a sky tram on one. we were at the house i grew up in - much modified. there was training going on. and water. on the skytram i was seeing that the spots we missed in terraria had turned much more corrupted. a musical started with me as a princess. it was a spell gone wrong or something - a curse? and my hair was blond and had occasional purple streaks in it. ((the fuck?? i erm... totally forgot half of that dream apparently. teach me to not type them out the day i have them >_<))

5/6
asleep - tentacles come through anyway.

spike sexins

((wow... erm... that was... disjointed. i'll try not to go so long in between typing these out >_<))

Finally have a fully fleshed out dream again. The first dream I recorded last night was in the dark and only kinda sorta looking at the page - very much asleep. Jottings continued throughout the night till I woke up and wrote the last two out.

Sleep ~230
Wakes: 550 (br), 858 (bioclock kicking in for my 9am alarm), 1030

Almost had sex with Spike (Buffy)/..(some guy i knew in high school TB). People showed up before I could go play. I was texting him on a weird device (looked like one of those old pocket sized electronic games... or mb an old calculator - rubber buttons, small display area) and all of us were using odd objects (one was the body swapping device Faith had (Buffy), but it did something else). A few allowed air mobility - not actual flight though I don't think.

There was cotton like candy. was in the sky. It turned into clouds and changed the scene.

I found/ran into this guy covering up what appeared to be murders. He was fine with being caught and blamed for it - expected it, but he didn't do it. He was trying to destroy the chalk, but I got there before he could. The chalk could change thing - whatever you drew came to be. The gods/fates were going to leave me a piece, but I got too greedy and tried to take more and so all of the chalk went away. I wanted to draw the candy clouds.

The gang (Buffy) and I were arriving somewhere for a normal meeting. Giles told me spike wanted a word. I stayed to harvested a few pieces of waterleaf (terraria) but I couldn't pick them up - inventory full.

Running through a field. I had waited until the 'first god appears'. By this is was meant animal life - I had to wait till it returned to the field. I'm guessing it was spring. When I ran through it I was running past all these animals - bunnies with colorful butterfly like wings being the most memorable. Behind me I saw a huge centaur come out of the woods into the field. I thought 'this is a true god of the forest' and kept going. I saw on the ground some animal tossing ants in front of itself. The ants were fighting... something. apparently the animal's only purpose was to do this every spring.

In an old time prison. We organized an escape with a large distraction. When most of the guards are preoccupied we approach the fence (me and a friend of mine - he becomes my mate later in the dream). There is a guy there with a mat with shoes on it. I ask him why and he says some mystical sounding bullshit that really means nothing but implies that he will shoot us if we go for the fence. I talk to him a little till decides he likes me and tell him we are going to walk along the fence 'so please don't shoot us'. I find the gap and wait until he is distracted to bolt. Two others follow, but I don't pay them much attention. If I don't commit everything to the run I wont get away. It is forested initially. When the forest clears a little I see a town. - well, the industrial side of it anyway. I keep running one direction as much as possible - I dart around impossible to go over objects, but try to correct my course by going the other way around the next obstacle. Every now and then I see one of my fellow convicts following me - I notice that it isn't just my partner following - there is another guy. I have to keep going - get out of range of the patrols. Its getting late and I'm trying to think of where we will stay tonight when I stumble into an alley (very well lit - more of a building that happens to be outside. There are a lot of boxes all over the place - storage area as well as kitchen) where this guy is cooking. He asks me 'cow?' while holding out his hands - he has a smallish piece of meat and a bunch of chopped up veggies. I know I'm going to have to eat after that long of a run and so I consent gratefully. The two others arrive behind me. I try to go spend time with them and my partner pushes me back towards the cook saying something to the effect of 'he is the one feeding you, don't neglect him'. The two of them find some scraps to eat while I go back to the cook. Some time during this I managed to grab a piece of plastic (containing food) that game me a decent cut on my right thumb, about a quarter to half an inch long. I don't remember it really bleeding, but the gash itself was ruby red ((When I woke up the pain of the cut was still there)). They boys point out the guards coming from the entrance behind us. This alley is a dead end and so we give up the idea of running. We try to hide, but there is no where to hide. I can't see the boys from where I am but assume they are recaptured. A male guard finds me first, but then I see a female that worked at the prison ((councilor perhaps?)). I apparently knew her and was appalled by her helping the guards fine me. Betrayed. I jumped her - legs wrapped around her waist to hold me to her as I punched her repeatedly in the face. The first guard pulled me off of her. I tell them teary eyed that I can't go back. I can't live there. I just can't. I would rather die. And so the guard raises his gun and shoots me. I wake up.

Woken early by loud noises. 4-5 hours of sleep
sleep 2-3
wake 7

Giles (from Buffy) is getting info from some 'thing'. demon. It claims he is a wash-up - out of practice and old. that he is an empty threat. He threatens back and makes a display till the demon 'takes it back'.

Making an addition to the house in terraria. The second house is a background of glass and dirt and is holding all the electronics we found in hell. We are setting up a waterfall between the two houses for asthetics. Rob started the second house.

definitely don't feel like i'm getting enough sleep - maybe that is hurting my recall more than i thought it would. i'll take some melatonin tonight to get to sleep earlier.
sleep 2am
wake 9am

Found a Harry Potter gun. well, it wasn't the gun itself but blueprints for it. told what material was needed for what part. there was a weird bubbly part at one end made from several different ores. brought it to a group of people that agreed humanity wasn't ready for it. to get to the building they were in I had to pass garbage containers and other objects that could move. 'suspicious looking trash can' (written on it) for example. they followed me/moved when I wasn't looking.
I was swimming at one point (there was an island type deal - i was going in this crevasse to get to the two treasure chests underwater. they started moving (turned into mimics sort of - they still had treasure inside of them if i could pacify them). i think i died and respawned (mimics trapped me underwater). someone there told me i should use some sort of swimming enhancement - speed or fins or water breathing or somesuch ((I've been playing a lot of Terraria on Xbox))
I think the inanimate objects were having a revolt or strike or something. They were still defining themselves by their usefulness to humans however and couldn't carry out their rebellion.

((well, I managed to flesh the fragments out a lot more than I thought I would be able to. Still feel I forgot overly much, but "I think I was swimming at one point" turned into an actual remembrance, so I count it a win))

nearly a dreamless night - luckily i barely pulled these back before getting up
sleep 1230/1am
wake 1030am

Watching a language learning show for children. It used a little dog and some other animals. The longer it went on the more cartoony it was. I was trying to guess a color in one exercise. a different one was flashing through different images of rain and other weather. I was supposed to pick one that was a certain level of wet. Instead I was trying to match the color of the overall picture to a word. The end of the show had the dog playing around pretending to pee on stuff (along with another dog). Then he pulled a bit of ground/grass over himself like a blanket and went to sleep.

The government was after me for something - big brother dystopian government. There was a tracker jacker chasing me. We found out that this specific type of bird food threw their tracking ability off. Some guy in an outdoor class had some and was feeding it to birds in a feeder. After that, I always carried a little bit of the food around to keep the trackers off of me. I was in a bathroom one time with them outside it waiting for me to come out. Someone distracted them long enough for me to get away. They sent a boy after me - made me fall for him and used him against me. They had injected me with something that weakened my will - I was very pliable and prone to weeping after that. They boy I was in love with helped them take me captive. I believe he loved me too, but truly felt he was doing what was in my best interest by taking me captive. They used a boat to take me away from my old life and into their captivity area. I was simply depressed after this. Deep depression - the kind where everything means nothing - don't care enough to do anything. Was mostly naked in a common area - getting to my cloths in a locker of some sort. didn't care though.

Indoors basement like area in a huge complex building. some guys were playing video games in a common room. Maybe guitar hero.

went to sleep a little on the drunk side. finnally getting back to where i notice my wakings during the night. the dreams are still very murky - probably a 4/10, but at least i'm pulling a little more back again.
sleep 130am
wake 440am
wake 730am
wake 1030am

Locked up in a movie theater because someone was heard threatening to blow the place up. I had been trying to get back to the party with my mate. went through a door that was supposed to lead back to the party, but just opened into another theater room. when we tried to go back to keep looking we weren't allowed out. I was having claustrophobia/extreme issues with the restriction. (was crying/panicking and hiding in my mates shoulder)

We all got on this mass transportation thing - me and a friend or two and just random people. It was really really fast cart that traveled through the air like a tram but really really high up (impossibly). one person that seemed squeamish about getting on the tram launched herself out the side - she was dangling from ropes and very much enjoying herself. maybe she was just claustrophobic or something. I dangled a little as well, but it was unintentional - I slipped or something. I was fine - i used her ropes and she supported me a little. i was also enjoying the rush.

There were cats and kittens in a different dream - cant quite seem to place them though. was positive. I keep seeing their adorable little faces.

nothing again from last night, but i took a 2 hour nap around 11 and managed to pull back a decent bit. not going to record them here because all three of them were just me trying to get off - apparently i was really horny when i went to sleep >_< in any case, at least i pulled some back - even if i was only because i took a nap.

sleep ~12am
wake ~6/630am
attempted to go back to sleep till 9, didn't work out - was 'awake' and annoyed by neighbors radio.

Visiting partners mother. she lives in a house with two other women. the two other women seem to be in a relationship. They help us leave - I don't think they wanted us there. we didn't wake up till 2pm - it was very warm (the warmth being what woke us up) - but our plane didn't take off till really late (after 10pm) so it was ok. we had to go back to the hotel to pack. apparently we hadn't intended on sleeping over there.
In the house upstairs - two beasties after me. largish - wolf or big cat or something. I think I am whatever they are. there is some sort of communication

running from something (might have been the beasties above)

memory of flight. how or where is forgotten. the outside seems most akin to void when I try to remember it.

((Woke with tool playing in my head - 'i barely remember, who or what came before...'))

((Kind of irritated. yeah, that nightmare was disturbing, but not worth loosing this much friggin recall. I know that if I had had more awareness in the moment that it could have been easily dealt with, and that I should get to the point where I CAN deal with nightmares. *sighs* I feel like i'm building up my recall from scratch again. oh well - bit by bit))