non-lucid

2017, 08-10

Game of Dreams – Innocence Saved, Innocence Lost

Eddard: I am in what looks like a living area in a castle. I am pacing, worried. My daughter is missing. A man tells me my daughter has been found. I ask where she is then. The man says she is in the throne room seeing the king and queen. This pisses me off. She’s been missing for four days and that’s the first place they take her?! I go out the door, heading for the throne room. I know where to go and I get there to find my daughter surrounded by a bunch of hostile faces, I see them as assholes. The king and the queen are there with the prince. I go over and put my arms around my little girl, asking if she is ok. She says she’s hungry and tired, but not hurt. I am pissed, I demand to know why my daughter wasn’t brought straight to me and been given a chance to rest and have something to eat before being dragged in here. The king, a fat man I know to be named Robert, says he thought it was best to get this business over with.

I am still annoyed, but I let things go on. The Queen claims Arya and her friend attacked Prince Joffrey and then her wolf bit him. Arya and Joffrey both tell different accounts of the event. I ask how serious Joffrey’s injury was. They seem hesitant to discuss the injury. A man comes into the room with Sansa, she claims she doesn’t remember what happened. Arya calls Sansa a liar and attacks her. I hold Arya back and tell her that is not productive. The Queen wants Arya punished, but Robert says sometimes children will fight. He says I should take care of disciplining Arya and he will take care of Joffrey. He gets up to leave, he has clearly had enough of this whole affair.

The Queen isn’t done yet. She says there is still the matter of the wolf. I say I have yet to see any evidence that Nymeria has done anything. The Queen holds up a shirt with a shredded and bloody sleeve. Nymeria chewed Joffrey’s shirt? She said Joffrey’s arm was in it. Joffrey says his arm was almost chewed off but there’s no injury because Sansa is a sorceress and healed it. I ask if I’m seriously expected to entertain that notion. If Sansa has healing powers then we’d better get her back to Winterfell to heal her injured brother! The Queen says she will not have a vicious beast in her castle. I tell her it wouldn’t be right to throw Joffrey out, he’s only 12. She gets red with anger and says she meant the wolf! Robert reminds her that the wolf got away. She said she wants both wolves put down. I tell her no one is going to hurt those wolves. I am thinking to keep protesting until the wolves can stay with Sansa and Arya but then I am thinking the Queen might arrange something to happen to them just out of spite… so I think better of it and say fine, I’ll have Lady, and Nymeria if we can find her, taken back to Winterfell. The Queen says she wants them dead. I tell her that’s not going to happen. I’ll send them back to Winterfell… for their protection, not hers.

I take my daughters from the room before the Queen can protest any further. Once outside Sansa is saying it isn’t fair to have to send Lady away, she didn’t do anything. I tell her I agree, but the only way to keep Lady safe from the Queen is to send her away. If Lady stays, then the Queen could fabricate another attack or just order her guards to get rid of Lady and I might not be in a position to stop her. Sansa looks sad about it but finally agrees. I tell her that Lady will be waiting for her at Winterfell when she comes to visit or if circumstances in Kings Landing changes enough that we can safely bring her back. Arya asks what about Nymeria. I tell her I’ll get some people to look for the wolf, and if we can find her, she will go north with Lady to be safe, too. I tell Sansa we should go say our farewells to Lady and get the wolf beyond the reach of the Queen as soon as we can. Lady is tied up outside and I leave Sansa to have time to say goodbye to her wolf before she is escorted back home.

Some soldiers on horses ride into the area. They have a bloody sack on one of the horses. A man, the name Sandor Clegane, The Hound, comes to mind, comes over and looks pleased with himself. He says they haven’t found Arya but they got her little pet. I think they already killed Nymeria and I am pissed. The Hound dumps the bloody sack on the ground and laughs. He opens the bag and I react quickly, turning Arya away from the horror. It’s not Nymeria, it’s a boy, no doubt Arya’s friend, practically cut in two. I want to kick The Hound’s ass. I ask if he really had to cut down a child?! He smiles and says the kid ran. I ask if he’s trying to tell me he’s so incompetent that he can’t capture an unarmed fleeing child without cutting him in two?! We’d better hope Joffrey never gets distraught and runs away! You’ll come back to the King and Queen saying, “I have good news and bad news, your Graces. The good news is we brought the Prince back. The bad news is he’s in two pieces.” Sandor says no one dares say that to him! I ask him then which is it? Is he too incompetent to capture an unarmed child without cutting him in half, or is he a sick and pathetic fuck who takes pleasure in murdering defenseless children?! I notice Arya is holding on to me and crying. I immediately feel bad about making that scene in front of her, making a painful moment even worse. I put my arms around her and tell her how sorry I am about what happened to her friend. Sansa comes back with Lady, she is also crying. I want someone to pay for making my daughters cry. Sansa wants Lady in her bed with her just one more night. I am walking with them back to our quarters when I wake.

2017, 08-08

Game of Dreams – Of Weddings and Bullies

Daenerys: I am at a wedding, a big outdoor wedding. I realize I am getting married, but that can’t be right… I don’t see Altaïr anywhere. I want to marry Altaïr. The man beside me is a large and strong looking man with black hair down his back in a braid as long as Sephiroth’s hair with small bells hung in it. He is speaking a language I don’t understand, not paying attention to me. And I’m supposed to marry this guy? My brother is sitting below me on a hill and glaring up at my periodically. There is food and drink constantly brought to me and I eat nervously. Some men fight over a woman and one of them dies, everyone accepts this as normal. Then there are lots of gifts. Some slaves (I don’t want slaves!), some cool looking books, three egg shaped stones they say are dragon eggs, and the man I married gives me a beautiful silver horse. He lifts me easily onto the horse and I ride her around a bit. I immediately love that horse. Now it is time to go? My asshole brother grabs my leg too roughly and says I had better please my new husband or I will wake the dragon like never before… I see no dragon! I kick my leg to shake my brother off and tell him he had better stop being an asshole or I’ll shove his face up a dragon’s ass! He looks surprised and asks what has gotten in to me.

I ride my horse after my new husband. We find a spot and I know he wants to have sex… but I don’t even know this guy! I don’t want to have sex with him! I expect he will just start violently having his way with me, but instead he starts caressing me, being gentler than I’d expected from the way he acted at the wedding. But I still don’t want to have sex with him! I’m crying and he pauses to brush the tears from my face and say the word no. No as in don’t cry? No as in don’t be scared? I’m not sure… And I don’t have to do any more because the dream ends.
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Sansa: I am riding a horse outside under bright blue skies. The skies look bluer than I ever remember seeing them. I am not alone, there is a boy, Prince Joffrey, riding beside me. My first impression is that he is an asshole… but I think better of calling him that. My next thought is he is a prince I am supposed to marry… but I don’t even know him, though I guess I should give him a chance. We ride through a forest, exploring here and there. Joffrey seems like a decent guy, I’m not sure why my first impression was that he’s an asshole. We keep going and soon find a couple of children playing with sticks as if they were swords. This is where Joffrey shows his true colors.

Joffrey gets off his horse and shows me why I thought he was an asshole. Joffrey starts making fun of the boy for beating on a girl. The girl is my sister, Arya. The boy drops his stick and kneels before the prince, but that does no good. Joffrey pokes at him with his sword and tells the boy to pick up his stick and fight like a knight. I tell Joffrey we should just leave these two alone. Joffrey says this boy was beating my sister, we can’t just leave. He pokes the boy’s cheek and draws blood, saying he won’t hurt the boy… much. That’s when chaos breaks loose.

Arya attacks Joffrey with her stick to keep him from hurting the boy. Joffrey turns on her and attacks viciously, breaking her stick with his real sword. The boy runs into the trees with no thought for Arya’s safety. A wolf comes flying from the trees and clamps down on Joffrey’s arm, making him drop his sword. Joffrey cries out and says to call the wolf off, which Arya does. She looks at his mangled arm and says the wolf didn’t hurt Joffrey… much. Arya picks up Joffrey’s dropped sword and throws it unceremoniously into the river nearby before chasing after the boy with her wolf going after her. I go to check on Joffrey’s arm and he gets pissed at me. I tell him it’s his own fault for being a bully. He says he’s going to tell his mother, I resist an urge to slap him. I tell him not to be such a baby, I can fix his arm. I grab his arm and focus healing energy through it. The bite heals completely, much to Joffrey’s amazement. But he doesn’t thank me, he scoots away from me and says I’m a sorceress and then runs off into the trees. What a loser… Everything fades.

2017, 08-07

Game of Dreams - A Fall and A Healing Touch

Bran: I am playing a virtual reality game of Assassin’s Creed. I am in a medieval setting and I know my goal is to make it to the top of a broken tower. I climb a tree to reach the roof. I make my way across the rooftops, jumping and climbing with ease. I reach a stretch with a row of stone gargoyles just perfectly placed to swing from one to the next like on a child’s jungle gym. I swing from one to the next and then I hear voices from what I’d thought was an empty part of the castle. I get closer and hear a man and a woman talking about getting rid of the hand of the king, I immediately think they’re talking about my father! I swing to the gargoyle over the window and hang upside down to see who the culprits are, I’ll need to know who they are when I tell my father. When I peek in the two of them are making out. I remember hearing the man call the woman “sweet sister” so that means brother and sister are making out… I make an involuntary sound of disgust. The man looks over and I recognize the queen! The man comes towards me, I try to climb back up but the gargoyle breaks and I fall, grabbing the ledge by the window. The man reaches for me and says to take his hand. Not a chance! I’m sure they don’t want this secret getting out! I try to move away from the window but I’m too slow… the man grabs me and pushes me out into open air, I fall into my bed and wake.

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Tyrion: I am in a library. It is an old fashioned looking library with old leather bound books. I get up and leave the library. There’s a stairway going down outside. I hear people below talking about a boy who got hurt. A man calls the other as a prince, the prince sounds like a boy. The man says he wishes the injured kid would hurry up and die. The prince says it’s the wolf he can’t stand, the howling kept him up all night. The man says he could put the wolf down. The prince says there’s so many that the Starks would never notice. What a couple of assholes! I go the rest of the way over to them and respond to the boy’s comment that no one would notice the missing wolf. I say I’m quite sure the Starks can count to six, unlike some princes I could mention. It then occurs to me that the boy should go give his sympathies to the parents of the hurt boy. He calls me his uncle and says he doesn’t care about that boy! What an asshole! Someone should slap him in his ugly mug… so I do. He looks stunned then whines that he’s going to tell his mom! So I slap him again, making his cheeks a matching red. I tell him he can tell his mom all he wants, but first go tell the boy’s parents how sorry he is that their boy is hurt and emphasize if they need anything at all, the boy is glad to help. He runs off, I’m feeling quite satisfied as everything fades.

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John: I am in a stairway that seems to be leading up a medieval castle tower. I am going up to say goodbye to my brother, he has been hurt. I also know that he is actually my half-brother, and his mother doesn’t want me there. But I want to see my brother before I have to leave. I climb up the stairs more quickly and when I get to a door at the top I open it slowly. The woman is sitting in a chair beside a bed where my brother lies, unresponsive. The woman asks what I’m doing here, I say I’m going to say goodbye to Bran. She says I should leave. She gives me a dirty look that could curdle milk. I ignore her look and walk over beside the bed, on the other side from the woman. She says she’ll call the guards. I tell her to go ahead, I have every right to say goodbye to my brother. I go over and take Bran’s hand. He is so very skinny, almost skeletal. I see under the covers that his legs look like they’re bent wrong… didn’t anyone even bother to set the bones? I know it’s a medieval setting without a lot of medical knowledge, but really? I wish I could do something, something to heal him. I am focusing on healing him as I hold his hand. There’s movement under the covers. The woman gets excited and looks, but the movement stops. The legs look better now. The woman is talking. She says she prayed for this… she prayed to the seven that Bran could stay with her, that Ned would change his mind… she’s crying. I don’t know what else to do, so I say this isn’t her fault, she didn’t want him to stay with her like this… She gets mad at me and says she doesn’t need my absolution. I say of course she doesn’t… but she needs her own absolution, don’t blame yourself. Before she can respond I leave the room and everything fades.

2017, 08-02

Someone Else’s Skin

I am in a dark forest at night and there is snow falling lightly. I am on a horse, and there are two men there with me also on horses. One of them is young but seems to be the leader. We are all dressed in all black. The other two are arguing about whether some people we are after called Wildings are in fact dead. Did the cold kill them? Garrett says cold can kill, and shows that he lost both ears to the cold at some point. I gather that the one man who looks like a leader is Sir Waymar Royce and the other man is Garrett. They call me Will… so I’m a man? Garrett tells Sir Royce that he believes the Wildings are dead because I said so. Sir Royce wants to see the Wilding camp I found, so we head off.

Sir Royce is riding a big horse, really too big for the terrain, and Garrett and I are on smaller horses. We get to the base of a ridge and then go on foot, leaving Garrett with the horses. At the top of the ridge we look down into the Wilding camp. There are no bodies, but their gear was left behind. Sir Royce sees this as an “I told you so!” moment, and I ask why they would have left their weapons behind. Sir Royce wants me to climb a tree to see if I can spot the Wildings so I do. I see no Wildings but I see strange specters approaching. I look down and see Sir Royce is engaging one in battle. He gets wounded and several specters surround him to finish him off. I call out to distract them and jump down among them. I pull out a sword and use the song Battery by Metallica to charge it with light energy since these look like demon specters. I cut down the one Sir Royce was fighting and turn to face the others as the first lets out an unearthly shriek. I take down a second and then a third, their shrieks echoing in the night… and then everything fades to black.

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After the darkness clears I am somewhere else. Now its daylight and I am on a small horse or pony, going through a medieval town with some other people. I feel I am a young boy now… We go to a town square where a man is being executed. I see the man has no ears, and that triggers a memory of Garrett in the dark forest, that’s Garrett! A man is pronouncing Garrett has been sentenced to death. I start to say something but a boy near me stops me. I say I know the man being executed, the boy says there’s no way I could know that man… he’s an oath breaker from the wall. I look back and see the man take a large sword and cut off Garrett’s head. One man there seems to find it funny. We leave on horseback heading for a castle. The man who did the execution (I find myself thinking he is my father) is explaining that the person who hands down a death sentence should be the one to carry it out.

Two of the boys had gone ahead to race back to the castle but we catch up. One of them (my brother Robb) is holding something squirming. There is a HUGE wolf lying dead. Robb is holding a cub! It’s adorable! I want to pet it. The other boy (half brother John) hands me a cub and I cuddle it. After arguing for a bit it is decided we (me and my two brothers and two sisters) will keep the cubs and raise them as our own. The boy who laughed at the execution seems disappointed that we aren’t going to kill the cubs. I give him a dirty look and ask what kind of person would want to kill innocent cubs? We head back towards the castle. John stops as we move away from the wolf and finds one more cub that he keeps. I am thinking I should have said something about knowing Garrett, but there’s no point to it now. Everything fades…

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After the darkness clears this time it is night again and I am in a forest of some kind. Now I feel like I am a grown woman. There is a man sitting near a creepy tree with a creepier face carved in the trunk, I have the thought that man is my husband. I approach him and say the name that comes to mind… “Ned?” I almost add “Flanders” after that but I stop myself. Ned asks about our children and I tell him they are inside trying to choose names for the wolf cubs… but wasn’t one of those wolf cubs mine? No… that was a different dream, where I was a young boy… and that seems really weird to be thinking. I have bad news for my husband… a letter. I take it from a pocket and hand it to him. He reads it and then looks grief stricken. His old friend John (not my brother / son) had died, and he is taking that hard. I hug him to try to help him feel better. He keeps reading and finds another old friend named Robert who is coming for a visit. That cheers him up some. He starts talking about all there is to do to prepare for a visit from the king and a whole lot of people. Then everything fades again and I wake up.

2017, 07-26

Let It Snow
I wake up in my own bed, a false awakening. I get out of bed and dress before going to the other room. I look out a window when I don’t see my mom around. She is outside with Max, throwing snowballs at Max, and the entire ground is covered with at least six inches of fresh powdered snow! Bearing in mind that I live in a desert that almost never sees snow, definitely not in the hot summer in July, I go outside immediately and get involved with throwing snowballs at my mom. We get in a big snowball fight and are having loads of fun when I wake up.

This was another false awakening, and I get out of bed and wonder how seeing all that snow didn’t make me do a reality check. I dress and go to the other room. Outside the window I see that things mostly look as they usually do except for some snow that is in the shade under the trees in our yard. I wonder why my mom didn’t wake me up earlier to see the snow since it’s such a rare event. Then I wake up for real.

One Life to Live
I am in an office that looks like it belongs to some executive of a big company. I see some other people in there, and one of them looks familiar. He looks like Asa Buchanan from the old daytime soap opera One Life to Live. He is doing something with a letter and looks up at one of his people, who looks like a hired goon. He says those fools will never worm out of this now, he owns everything they have. I think he is being an asshole and bullying someone so I go over and take the note right out of his goon’s hand. It is a forged document giving Buchanan Enterprises full ownership of some business. Asa asks who I am. I tell him it’s not nice to cheat and I tear the letter to shreds. Asa gets mad and says I shouldn’t have done that. I say he can’t threaten me. He says his hired goons will take care of me. I tell him I’ll kick their butts if they try anything. He says there’s no way I could do that. I grab the arm of the goon closest and twist it, flipping the man to the ground. I say I can do what I want. One of the other goons shoots me right in the chest. Nothing happens except I have a hole in my Assassin’s robes. I say that’s annoying, I like these robes. I see Asa’s shocked face before I wake.

2017, 07-18

Snakes!

I am at my house with my mother. It isn’t the house we currently live it, rather it’s the one on Calle Kino where we lived quite a few years ago. We go outside to take the garbage and recyclable bins to the end of the driveway. I push one and she pushes the other. We get them out ok and then turn to come back in. When I turn around I stop so quickly that I fall on my ass. There is a rattlesnake not far in front of me. I am probably within striking distance right now. I start to move slowly away from the agitated snake. I glance behind me to make sure I wasn’t heading towards anything dangerous and I see another rattlesnake behind me! Looking around I see a total of five rattlesnakes around my mom and me. I manage to get to my feet and then my mom and I take the only opening to get away from the snakes.

Once we are back safely in the house my mom seems to completely forget the snakes ever existed. I, on the other hand, am paranoid of finding snakes in the house. I look around the rooms but I see no snake. I then hear a bark from outside. We have an enclosed porch on the back of the house and the dog is waiting outside the sliding glass doors that lead outside. I recognize the dog as our current dog, Max. My mom opens the door and goes into the enclosed porch. It is getting dark out now so I can’t see into the corners of the enclosed porch. I get a flashlight and shine it into the darkness at a suspiciously shaped object. It’s a snake! There’s a snake in the enclosed porch now! I tell my mom and she urges the dog to hurry from the outside door into the main house. We go in after and close the door. I look at a cage on a table and see my hamster inside. I am thinking I haven’t fed my hamster for far too long. I sprinkle food into the cage and the hamster eats happily. I am wondering what to do about snakes when I wake up.

2017, 07-17

Eve Online

I am outside lying on the ground and looking up. I see the stars above me shining brightly in the night. They seem to be shining brighter than usual, but I think that is just because the city lights aren’t as bright right now. I lie there and watch the stars, getting lost in the depths of space. It feels like I am actually floating up towards the stars. Soon I am looking at what appears to be a jump gate like they have on the game Eve Online. And there are so many spaceships going into and coming out of the gate! There are so many that I am constantly expecting to see them crash into each other, but somehow they don’t. Considering it looks like a setting in Eve Online, I am also surprised no one is fighting. It seemed there was always someone fighting around the jump gates in Eve… I continue watching the ships come and go and soon it feels like I am right there among the ships as I watch them all fly by.

Now I am in my Fire Valkyrie flying among the Eve ships as they go in and come out of the jump gate. I have somehow made this transition without realizing anything is strange, now I feel I am playing Eve Online and the Fire Valkyrie is just a normal part. I fly through the jump gate, not remembering where I am going but hoping there aren’t any gate campers on the other side. I emerge in a low security sector and wonder why I came here since there is unregulated PvP fighting here. And, of course, there are gate campers waiting for some fool to do what I just did. I start looking on my scanner to target the gate and get out before I get destroyed… but then I stop myself. I’m in my Fire Valkyrie, not some cheap Eve ship! I’m going to teach those assholes a lesson!

So I turn and face my attackers. There are several battlecruisers that look familiar but I can’t remember what they’re called. There are also numerous smaller ships that I don’t recognize. They are ganging up on me. I set to it, dodging most of their attacks and the ones that hit don’t get through my shields. I return fire and start blasting their ships to pieces. One by one their ships are destroyed and the pilots are left in their escape pods floating in space. I don’t target the pods because I remember that the people who destroy the pod when the pilot goes to escape are the biggest assholes. So as I destroy all of their ships I let the pods make their escapes, and soon I am alone by the jump gate. I hope they learned not to gang up on ships they assume to be weak, because that ship might not be as weak as it appears!

2017, 07-09

Computers
I am with my mom in a computer store. We are looking around for an external blu-ray drive for her to plug in to her computer so she can load some new software to it. I’m glad we’re getting it for her because I will be able to borrow it to use on my laptop that didn’t come with a drive built in. So far I have to download any software I want to add and there are some things I also want to back up to disc. I look at some video games and I find a box set of Ratchet and Clank games for the PC. I pick it up and look at it and I find they are different games than those released for the Playstation 2. I wonder why I’ve never heard of these and I grab the box down. I continue looking around for the external drive, and I soon run into my ex-boyfriend James. He seems taller than I remember. He is an employee here. I ask when he got this job. He says he has always worked here. My mom comes up beside me and says she doesn’t want anything bought from a store employing that asshole (pointing at my ex). I look at the Ratchet and Clank game I’m holding, I really want it. I am going to pay for it but I wake up.


Book Alley
I am in my own house, but it’s not the one where I currently live. I look around the house and then go out the back door into a small back yard. It’s a typical yard with green grass and some shrubs around the outside edge. There is a gate in the back for putting trash out into the alley. I look around in the small yard for a bit then I go out the gate in the back. I see a typical urban alley leading off in both directions. Apparently it is no longer used for access because both ends have been blocked off. I see an old book display has been discarded in the alley. There is an orange tabby cat peeking from behind it. I try to approach, but the kitty runs away. A white cat jumps off of the book display and I catch it in my arms. After a short cuddle I set the kitty down. I walk down the alley to the other end of the alley and I find there is a makeshift awning set up over a couple chairs and bookcases with books on them. It looks like kids might have set it up to come out and play and read in. I bring the discarded book display down and set it up under the awning, putting a few of the books on it. I look at the books and I see a lot of children’s books. I see one that looks like an antique. It is leather bound and cool looking. I open it and find it is an old book of fables. It is such a cool book that I decide to borrow it and read through some of the stories. I plan to return it later, maybe with some more books to add to their collection. As I am walking away with the antique book I wake up.

2017, 07-05

Shot Down

I am at work and it seems like a normal day. I am not at my waking life job, instead I am at a job I had quite a while back doing data entry. I work in a government office in a large room with many other people. My ex-boyfriend James works there with me and he is sitting just a few desks away. I’m not happy about having to work at the same place as him, it feels so awkward, but I need the job so there’s nothing to be done for it for now. I have to go use the bathroom, so I get up from my desk and try to get to the restroom as quietly as possible, though I’m not sure why I saw the need for such secrecy. James sees me going and says hi to me, completely foiling my attempt at stealth. I walk the rest of the way to the restroom normally only to find an Out Of Order sign hanging on the door.

I still have to use the restroom, and I’m sure I’ve seen another one somewhere. I continue down the hall. I wander quite a ways away from my work area and in an area that is more of a warehouse than an office. I don’t pay much attention to the change of scenery, I keep looking. I find a restroom but when I go in I see that the toilets are right out in the open, there are no stalls. No privacy at all. I don’t want to go there in case someone comes in so I keep going out the door at the other end of the room.

Now I’m outside at what looks like some kind of loading dock. There are trucks parked along the building. I look around for a restroom. A man gets out of a truck and asks what I’m doing here. I say I’m looking for a restroom. He pulls out a machine gun and aims it at me. I’m not lucid, and I step back in surprise. I tell him I’ll look elsewhere. I turn to leave too quickly and I fall on my face. I hear the gun cock and I roll over to raise my hands in a “don’t shoot” gesture but he’s already shooting. I feel numerous bullets tearing my body apart, but I don’t feel it as pain. I just feel some pressure where the bullets hit. Everything is fading to black and I wonder if I will wake up on the other side, dead in this world. But when the dark becomes complete I just wake up.

2017, 07-03

Blind Photos
I am with a couple other women at a national park of some kind. We are there to put together photos for a project we’re doing. One of the women with me has a nice camera to do the photography with. We start on the tour, which involves following a path along the edge of a deep canyon. There are beautiful sights all around, tall cliffs, green forested areas, and far below there is a river glistening in the sunlight. We walk for a while and the woman with the camera is taking a lot of photos. I notice something that we should make sure to get a photo of. It’s a section of the cliff on the other side of the canyon that somehow has created the illusion that the rock itself is flowing like a waterfall. The woman with the camera doesn’t seem to care. When she isn’t using the camera, I take it and then I take a photo of the strange rock phenomena. The woman gets mad at me for taking her camera. I am annoyed but I return it, I am annoyed because I thought we were all supposed to help with this project. We go back to the entry area at the park and the woman with the camera meets up with a man in a doctor coat. They are discussing how to cure her blindness… but if she’s blind then how was she taking photos? I am thinking about that when I wake up.


It’s Time to Duel!
I am in an apartment or small house that is not my own. I am there sitting in a bedroom with my ex-boyfriend James. I am looking through some YuGiOh cards and pulling some of them out to use in a new deck idea I have. I am actually choosing cards without much real idea of how they will work together. As I am doing that James comes over and starts looking at the cards I have chosen. He looks through them and makes comments about my choices. I tell him to mind his own business. I know I will have to duel against him in the tournament and I don’t like the idea he is getting a sneak peek at all of my cards. He will know exactly what to expect, and I count that as cheating. He insists he is only trying to help. I decide to leave and make my deck on my own. I take my cards and get in my car to drive home. I think maybe I can stop at Walmart and buy more cards, and if I get something good I can add it to my deck to give James an unexpected surprise. I pull into Walmart and park, going into the store. The rows of shelves are like a maze, and I am not sure where to find the YuGiOh cards. I am looking at some transforming Star Wars action figures that caught my eye when I wake up.

 
Free Cash
I am in the mall by myself. I look around, not sure why I have come to the mall right now. I walk down one of the paths and look at the stores along the way. The halls make the mall more of a maze than a normal mall. I keep following the different hallways and now I am mainly looking to find a way out of this crazy place. There are other people shopping in the mall but they seem oblivious to the idea the mall’s layout is anything other than normal. I turn down another hall and I see something on the ground. When I get closer I see it’s a small stack of cash. I pick the stack up and glance around, no one is paying any attention to me. I keep going down the hall and I find a nook with some seats in it. There is no one else there so I sit down and start counting my money. To my disappointment they are all $1 bills. The bills are as crisp and new as if they were just printed today. I count through them and determine I probably have about $50. While it’s disappointing that they’re singles, finding $50 is nothing to spit on. I get up and slide the money into my pocket. I still had to find a way out of this crazy mall. I go back out into the main hall but then everything around me fades to black and I wake up.

2017, 06-29

Off With His Head!

I am in what looks like a medieval city of some kind. The buildings lining the narrow streets are made of stone and wood and they look like something out of a fantasy RPG game. I walk along the street and I notice that everyone seems to be heading in the same direction. I figure that is probably the direction I should also take, so I follow the crowds. We move through the city streets and approach the largest building I can see from where I am. It looks like it might be some kind of church or temple. The crowd is tightly packed here, and it is hard to move forward to see what is going on. Finally I get closer and I see everyone watching has their attention fixed on what is happening on the stairs leading into the temple. There are numerous guards in mail and plate armor at the foot of the stairs to keep anyone from advancing farther, and more people up above. Whatever is about to happen begins.

There is a young boy wearing a crown who somehow seems to be in charge of things there. He stands and begins to speak loudly and with authority. "My mother wishes me to let Lord Eddard join the Knight's Watch... stripped of all titles and powers, he would serve the realm in permanent exile. And my Lady Sansa has begged mercy for her father.” He pauses here and looks over at a girl who is standing off to the side with a woman in a crown and some other guards. He smiles at the girl and she seems visibly relieved. After pausing, the boy continues. “But they have the soft hearts of women... so long as I'm your king, treason shall never go unpunished! Sir Ilyn, bring me his head!"

As one of the guards advances on the prisoner the girl off to the side is in hysterics, screaming unintelligibly, trying to pull away from the guards who are now holding her back. Another guard forces the prisoner to his knees as the guard approaching produces a large sword. I don’t know where the feeling comes from, but I am at once filled with the determination that this should not happen, that man should not die here. But I have to act fast. I get up to where the guards are barring approach to the temple, so I go off to the right and climb the side of a building with more agility than I knew I had. Some people are calling after me to ask what I’m doing, but I ignore them. I feel like I’m playing Assassin’s Creed. I’m almost out of time! I run along the roof and jump down on the other side, surprised I didn’t hurt myself at least a little… I’m not going to make it, so I focus on a force field around the prisoner so when the executioner brings the big sword down he hits an invisible barrier. He is stunned by the force of his own blow and stumbles back.

The boy gets mad when he sees the sword bounce back, saying he wants the man’s head and he wants it now. He’s a little boy having a tantrum. I come forward, and the guards immediately threaten me with their swords, surrounding the boy protectively. I tell them not to worry, I’m not here to harm the boy who wants to pretend he’s a king. That makes the kid even angrier and he starts yelling that he IS the king and now he wants my head on a pike next to the traitor’s. The woman in the crown is glaring at me. She says she knows who I am, I’m that magi that stole her wolf pelt from her before! She asks why I have to keep interfering with her. I tell her I’ll stop interfering when she stops trying to put the innocent to death. The prisoner is looking around, apparently confused as to what is happening. The girl that had been screaming runs over to the man. The guards are distracted by me so they let her get away. My force field lets her through to the man and she hugs him, crying on his shoulder. The boy is calling for all three of our heads now, though no one is paying him any heed. I am wondering what to do with Eddard and Sansa but I don’t get time to think. Everything fades to black and I wake up.

(Q says they are in my inner world, Eddard was in bad shape and is healing now.)

2017, 06-24

Nerimeno?

I am in a wide open green field. I look around to try to figure out where I am. I have no idea how I came to be here and I find that strange. I am thinking about doing a reality check when someone calls my name. I turn and see a man there with me, he looks Mexican and he also looks annoyed. He asks what I’m doing here. Without waiting for an answer, he says I’m not invited here, so I’d better get out before he gets really mad. I don’t find his threat very concerning so I just look at him. He seems to have an aura of dark energy, it looks like he is using dark energy. But what about his inner flame? I am seeing unstable dark energy that needs to be stable so I think I should use a song to help restore his inner flame and stabilize his energy. He asks what I’m looking at, then says my time is up. He’s going to kick my ass and he doesn’t care if I’m lucid!

He attacks me with a dark energy blade that he forms out of nowhere, moving as fast as lightning. I form my right arm into an Alex Mercer blade and block the attack. I am thinking I had better get his dark energy stabilized before someone gets hurt. I focus on the song Iron by Within Temptation to try to stabilize his dark energy by giving him a dark inner flame. “You can't live without the fire, it's the heat that makes you strong! 'Cause you're born to live and fight it all the way! You can't hide what lies inside you, it's the only thing you've known, you'll embrace it now and never walk away, don't walk away!” A circle of purple flames surrounds the man, burning up high all around him. The fire is absorbed into the man and is gone. I am wondering if that did any good.

I am approaching the man to check closer when a portal opens in the sky. A creature comes through the portal, it looks like a humanoid dragon, or a man with dragon wings… I see that the creature is bigger than any human I have ever seen, and it looks pissed. It flies out of the portal and speaks in a growling demonic sounding voice, its eyes glowing a demonic red color. The dragon snarls that Hukif belongs to him and he won’t have some fool like me coming in and interfering. I ask who the fuck he is and he says he is the one who will destroy me for my interference. The song by Within Temptation is still going on, and I direct the next part at the dragon. “You need not fear me, unless you are a dark heart… A vile one who preys on the innocent. I promise, you can't hide forever in the empty darkness, for I will hunt you down like the monster you are and pull you into the very bowels of hell!” The dragon comes at me, attacking pretty straight forward. It is clear to me that he doesn’t consider me a threat at all. I focus on the song Enter Sandman by Metallica and hit him with alternating dark and light energy that explodes like a mixture of matter and antimatter. He shouldn’t have underestimated me!

After the explosion clears I don’t see the dragon any more. I’m sure I didn’t vaporize the dragon, I could tell he was more powerful than that. Apparently I took him by surprise, however, and he has taken off to reconsider his plan of attacking me. The man there with me, the dragon had called him Hukif, is still more pissed at me. He says I need to butt out of other people’s business. He says he has never needed my help in dealing with Nerimeno, and he doesn’t need or want my help now! He tells me to go home and mind my own business. I tell him that as long as he minds his own business, I will do the same. But that means leaving MoSh and his inner world and everyone who lives there alone, too. He scoffs as if he would have no interest in such things but then says fine, if I will go away. I say that’s all I needed to hear. Everything around me fades to black and I wake up.

2017, 06-22

Healing Rain

I am in a beautiful garden. The sun is shining and it is a beautiful day out. I briefly think it was expected to be so very hot, but it’s not. I conclude that the garden with the trees and flowers and flowing stream is keeping the area cool somehow. Without giving that any more consideration I begin wandering through the garden. I see there is a woman in the garden with me. She is a pretty Japanese woman wearing a kimono and she is tending to some of the flowers. She looks over at me and acts surprised to see me. She says she wasn’t expecting company and doesn’t have any cookies. When I give her a puzzled look she says she is Asuka and this is a dream, I should do a reality check if I don’t believe her. So I pinch my nose and find I can still breathe… this is a dream!

Once I’m lucid Asuka says she doesn’t know where MoSh is. I tell her my goal was to come here and heal her anyhow whether MoSh is around or not. She looks a bit puzzled and says she feels fine, but healing energy never causes any harm so go ahead. I focus on the song Voices from the Macross Plus soundtrack and light energy surrounds and flows through Asuka. I am wishing there was some way to keep her from getting infected with any unstable energy, and then I feel rather stupid for not thinking of it sooner. I reach into my white Assassin robes and pull out a Witchblade bracelet. I hand it to Asuka and tell her to keep it on, it will protect her. She takes it and slips it on her left wrist. She says it’s pretty. I say I can’t believe we hadn’t thought to give it to her sooner.

Asuka goes towards the house and says I can meet up with MoSh when he gets into the dream. I look around outside the house but I don’t see MoSh. I go through the house and out in front and look around. I see MoSh outside on the sidewalk petting a dog. I call his name but he doesn’t seem to hear me. I head over towards him and tell him this is a dream. The dog is holding something that MoSh seems to be trying to get hold of. I can’t see what it is. I go over closer to MoSh and I hear him talking to the dog, telling the dog to drop it. The dog gets up and trots down the street. I am about to call to MoSh again but he heads down the street following the dog. I am about to follow him but I wake up before I get more than a few steps down the street.

2017, 06-14

A Song of Healing

I am at a mall with my mother. It’s similar to a mall in my local area, but not exact. I know I have been to this mall before, however, in previous dreams. No thought that I might be dreaming occurs to me now. My mom and I are going into a clothing store and looking for some new clothes for me for work. I look around but I can’t find anything I like that will actually fit me. So we leave and head for the theater at the mall where there is a live performance of Harry Potter, and the author J.K. Rowling is even going to be in attendance for this presentation. We go to the theater and wait in line to go inside. Once inside I see J.K. Rowling surrounded by people asking for her autograph. I also see someone I don’t want to see… so instead of waiting to try to get J.K. Rowling’s autograph I pull my mom into the theater to get a good seat, or that’s the reason I give her for my hurry.

In the theater there are already quite a few people seated so my mom and I pick a spot. I look around and see quite a few people with popcorn and I think that would be good, but the person after me knows my mom and might see her if she goes for popcorn so I say I don’t want any when she asks. People keep coming into the theater and I watch carefully to see if the man outside is coming in. I don’t see him. I look to the front of the theater and I see a different man looking at me. He clearly recognizes me. And somehow I know he works for the man who is looking for me. I look to my mom but she is gone. Another man comes over and says to remain calm. He says he’s a friend and will make sure I get out of here safely. He gives a dirty look at the man up front who is watching me.

The man beside me looks under my seat and finds poison darts. He asks the man watching us what the poison would do to me. He says it would land me in the emergency room. I say it would be lethal if I drank all four of them. The man beside me says no, don’t talk like that. Another man, a fat man in an oversized t-shirt, comes over and takes one of the darts from the man beside me. He says he hasn’t tried this yet, and breaks the cartridge open and drinks some of the fluid inside. He looks like he’s getting high off of it. I look back at the man beside me and then I hear a woman a couple rows back let out a cry. I look just in time to see J.K. Rowling collapse in shock. I look to see what she saw and I see the man who drank the poison now has no nose, it looks like it melted off his face, but he looks higher than ever.

The man beside me urges me to get out of here. I head out of the theater but on the way I lose track of him, and then I am in the hall of the mall alone. I head down the hall, looking for a bathroom. I open a door and find myself in someone’s house. A woman is there and she looks pissed at me. I think she is pissed because I just walked into her house, so I turn to leave but the door to the mall is gone. The woman starts yelling at me and demanding to know if I’m sleeping with him. I ask who. She says MoSh, of course! She says I’ve been fucking him, haven’t I?! I tell her MoSh wouldn’t want to get involved with me, I’m too old for him. Then I realize what is happening… this must be Asuka, I was going to heal her! I focus on the song Voices from the Macross Plus soundtrack. Light energy flows through Asuka and she calms down. She says she doesn’t know why she said what she did. I tell her it was unstable negative energies. I am about to say more but everything fades to black and I wake up.

2017, 06-12

Nuclear Cleansing

I am in a forest area near a stream. I am in what appears to be some kind of base camp, a central location from which some important operation is being organized. There’s a tent and a lot of papers lying around. I think a stiff wind will send everything flying. There are several people there with me but I don’t recognize who they are. We are looking for something in the area but I’m not quite sure what. The plan is for everyone to split up and search in a different direction. I say that sounds like a good plan to cover more ground, but it looks easy to get lost out there… so one person should stay at the base camp that way if anyone gets lost they can call out and follow that person’s answering voice back to base camp. But apparently I’m the only one who thinks someone might get lost because everyone else dismisses my idea without even thinking about it.

So all of us head off in different directions, searching through the forest for… I stop and remember I don’t know exactly what I’m looking for, so how will I know if I find it? I look back to see if anyone is still here but everyone is already gone. I wander down a trail and I somehow intercept one of the others as they look. I start to ask what we’re looking for but I don’t get a chance before he asks what the fuck we’re looking for. I tell him I don’t really know, I was hoping he would know. We go around a bend and I see what looks like a toxic waste dump site. I look at the mess and wonder how it can be cleaned up. I comment to the man I’m with that if President Trump gets his way there will be at least one of these in every neighborhood, it’s never been easier for little kids to get superpowers… or more likely just die horrible deaths. He says Trump is going to start World War III before he gets a chance to kill the environment. I comment that World War III will just be another path to horrible deaths. He agrees.

I head back to the camp thinking I have found what we were looking for. I find a woman walking around camp very carefully. She says to be careful where I step, she found a little mushroom house. She says that means there are smurfs around here, and I should be careful not to squish any. I watch her pick her way carefully around the camp for a bit, I wonder if she has been too close to the toxic waste and it’s affecting her mind. I think I should find someone else to tell about the toxic waste. I turn to see if the man I was with before is still there, but he is gone. I wonder where he went off to. I walk away from the camp and to a road. I see people standing on top of a hill and I go over there. Maybe I can tell one of them about the toxic waste.

As I get to the top of the hill I see what looks like a military fighter jet fly overhead, spraying some strange liquid on the ground below. I feel the moisture land on my skin and wonder how toxic it is. Am I about to die a horrible death? They are shaking their fists at the plane as it leaves. Another plane flies overhead, a standard prop powered plane. The jet turns around and sets a course to intercept. It fires to shoot the slower plane down. After a short time of trying to evade the attacking jet, the prop plane drops something. Somehow I know it’s a bomb. A nuclear bomb. And it’s not far from here, so we’re all about to get toasted. The object hits the ground and detonates with the expected blinding light. I cover my eyes and wait for the burning blast. It doesn’t come. I feel the wind pick up around me but it is only warm, not burning hot. I open my eyes and the other people are staring at me. A woman asks what I’m doing. She says it was only a cleansing bomb. Since we were unable to find the toxic waste dump they have cleansed the entire area. I look out where the two planes are and see they are going away. No need to shoot the prop plane down since the bomb was already deployed. This whole thing seems weird, but I wake before doing a reality check.