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I was sitting on a deck from a part of my waking past with my sister. The cannal surged up an started flooding violently into the area we used to have a large water garden. I became lucid because that was strange. I just relaxed and attempted to recreate a fantasy version of the garden. It was actually very fun aand fufilling. I then went around and visited with thee DC of my recently deceased father and we looked at amazing colorful vivid fish and stuff. I lost most of my lucidity and started to wake. I used DEILD to re-enter the scene, but that is the next dream entry.

In this LD I transformed myself in a mirror into a Wolverine type super-hero with claws and all.

It started getting lucid because I felt someone in the bed with me trying to cuddle up and grope me. I realized it was another man, a friend I have known for a long time. I am not gay, and would not be attracted to this loser if I were, so I got out of the bed a bit confused and embarresed. He got up and tried to kiss me. I avoided him and told him to knock it off. He started getting hostile and angry accussing me of making so much money that I thought I was some sort of prince or something.
This whole scene made no sense so I became lucid. I teleported away to a random front room. Some guy came in and started acting hostile and trying to push me while saying random stuff, so I teleported away again.
I felt like my brain was going to mess with me like this, so I would either have to deal with it or the whole lucid would be wasted and stupid. I summoned a mirror and looked at myself in it. I decided that I would have a little fun with the whole thing. I normally never have violent dreams, but IRL I had a very bad troubling day. I used the mirror to transform into Wolverine, but with a cool mask. I sprouted long claws, but there were 4 of them and they were shorter than in the movies.
The guy burst in again and started towards me. I was not really mad or anything, but hey, if my brain wants to force a conflict maybe I am in need of a little release. I went at him like Wolverine would, but there was no blood and it was not graffic. After a moment or three he disappeared and I went about random wandering around in the LD for awhile.

A nice long WILD in which I had a missle flying on a kite string, and would let it pull me along really fast.
This WILD lasted for perhaps 20 to 30 minutes and my recall is a little fuzzy on some parts. Basically I had another quiet morning to WILD, and it did not go as smoothly, but after about 30 minutes I got it. In one of the first scenes I drempt up a rocket that was tethered by a long kite string. At the end of the string was a triangle handle like for water skiing. I could ignore it and stand still or decide to get pulled super fast behind it. I raced across open landscapes for awhile, then along a freeway.
I landed and walked around the landscape trying to make the DCs more vivid. I went into a grocery store and the DCs were animated and pretty life like, but when I tried to talk with a random shopper, his voice was muffled and unintelligible. I am sure I could infer or understand what a DC wanted to say, in a sense, but the audible component would not develop well. I tried to closely examine a female DC but shee shrunk in prespective and seemed only the size of a doll.

Oh well, I went back outside and flew around behind my rocket on a freeway again, then landed where I decided a university was. I went inside annd saw people from my past, about 5 or 6 randomly selected DCs from waking life (decades past). I almost got distracted into a nonlucid state by conversation (audio in check now). I was hoping for a female DC to come along on my adventures, but these were animated and exibited free will, so I decided I should try to convince one rather than force my will on thhe dream. DCs that have no animation can be to puppet like and offer little of intrest, so I left them with free will and wandered away down by where I decided a coast was to look at what DCs would randomly pop up. I used the rocket kiite again. I saw DCs but did not succesfully engage with them, tthey were again kind of puppet like, so I went back to the room with the interesting DCs.

Before I got there the scenery was loosing color and becoming somewhat washed out. I almost lost the dream here. I started to look at my hands and do some mudra (hand postures) but it was fading fast. I tried to visualize my hand and move just a finger. The visual quality had gone down to black and white cartoon like. I think I was loosing REM but tried to hold on. The weird problem I had was attempting to move my dream hand brought awareness of my waking hand which twitched and tried to move. I had to be very careful here. I stopped trying to move the fingers out of fear that this would now wake me. I just intensely stared at my dream hand until it came back into focus. I suceeded in stabilizing and this bought me about 5 more minutes.

The scenery was now vague and washed out, having a more line drawn feel to it. I went back to the room with the animated DCs. They were kind of blurry and interacting with them had devolved to assuming who a blurry person might be and exchanging thoughts, as the audio was also getting washed out. I went outside instead. I started flying bejind my rocket kite back down to the beach and then along a city street. The visuals had started to recover, but still lacked. I think I had used up all the REM for awhile. I enjoyed flying for a couple minute around the town before I woke. Dur~20-30 min.

I had the privalage of sleeping late as the morning is X-mas eve. I had over 10 hours sleep and almost thought I would not be able to sleep. I started with a pillow over my eyes flat on my back. I started counting with my breaths while focusing on feeling each part of my body. I got to 39 and all the way up my legs before the first drifty feel, so i started over. I got to a point where I was spacing off at about 12-15 breaths and would start over. After completing the body twice I started activating my chakras. When I had completed one cycle of opening all 6 standard chakra, i was mostly asleep, and counting to 4 or 5 was too challenging. I needed a bit mmore awareness or I would actually loose conciousness.

I noticed I was feeling a sort of REM atonia, the narcotic feeling that commes to limit bodily thrashing in a dream. I will allow myself to shift positions after I hit this point and was loosing awareness too fast, so I shifted onto my side. I could now here the air cleaner again and was a bit awake, so I just started backk with counting and was asleep again within a second or two.

I suddenly heard movement in the house. A radio started playing. I assumed it was my wifes alarm going off for some reason. I figured my attempt may be ruined. I could hear the DJ saying stuff and music was playing loudly. I also could here that my 20 year old son must be up and making noise.

Something did not seem right and I decided that these noises were probably advanced HH as I was now in full REM atonia. I could also see parts of my room but they were off. I must be in a LD now and just needing to realize it.

I got out of bed and it did seem dream like, but fairly real. I decided that it must be a dream. I tried to phase my arm through the bedroom door and it worked. I woke up in my bed at this point, but was pretty sure it was a FA. I got up again and went to the front room. My son was in the front room and looked up. I did an RC by running my tongue over my top teeth and then clacking my teeth together. The sensation and sound were muffeled as if I had been to the dentist (novacaine) and had cotton in my ears. Fully lucid and in a vivid REM cycle now!!!

I walked out side and my son followed me asking what I was up to. I explained that it was a dream and started to levitate. "See, clearly a dream as I can levitate." I wondered allowed, what did I want to acomplish? My son's DC suggested "how about calling out to the Buddha like you wanted?" I was levvitating about 12 feet above our front yard and said, "really? I wanted to do that? What, like Sid Hartha Buddha?"

I decided to try it. I flew up into the sky and made the classic hand postures (mudra) he is normally shown having. I called out Sid Hartha about 5 times. I did it just fine, but wonderd why I would have that as a goal, being I am Yogi not Buddhist. This in fact had never been a goal of mine, it was just something my subconcious made up on the spot, through the DC. I started sounding the Ohm mantra instead floating maybe 100 feet up, and kept the mudra in order to stabilize.

I saw the sky was vivid and a night time scene with stars. I decided for the moment to fly towards a group of stars. Then I remembered that It was the ToTM snow challange I wanted to do a second time. The first time was not how I had wanted it. I changed the sky to day (no sun, but day light) and started to form clouds. I made the clouds get that weepy look they have when they are pouring out their content. I focused on that grey winter sky look. It started to snow in a nice snow flurry kind of way. Not pretty snow flakes, but blowing aggressive snow falling fast all around me. Ok, task done, but I hate snow in general, so time to move on.

I wanted to get very high off the ground so I kept going up. My brain was filling in tree tops, and every time I cleared a giant trees top another loomed way above me. I got irritated after the fifth super-giant tree appeared still taller than me I had flown. Oh well, why fight it.

I looked around and was up at the tops of sky skrapers so I went over to them. I spent about two minutes just screwing around flying up and down the buildings seeing how detailed each looked. I decided that the dream was at about the 10 minute mark, and figured this late into my sleep (11 hours now) I would likely have only a few minutes more before I would have to struggle to stay asleep. I decided to play with a female DC. I was not feeling sexual, but to achomplish a quick and pleasant dream control task, this seemed like a reasonable task.
I flew up along side a sky skraper and knew there would be people inside. I saw into anoffice and focused ona DC that was a woman at a desk. Not especially prretty, but that is easy to change. I phased through the side of the building into a hall/stairwell and then walked into the office. The DCs had little animation and were almost just my puppets, but that was ok. I went to the woman and gently placed my hands on her sides and encouraged her to stand. She responded to light pressure from my hands and walked with me back out into the hall. My brain tried to spice things up by placing two male coworkers there who would have tried to stop me. I saw the formation of the idea, and used mental control to prevent the tought from developing. The DCs just froze into scenery. I took the woman out onto a balcony and tried to take her flying. I floated out between the buildings with her, but my mind tried to tell me levitation is harder if you carry someone. We started to float downward. I supressed that thought and up we went again, but I decided just to land on the next building.

I laid her back on the deck and looked at her. I pictured her lovely and sexy and she was (very). I was not feeling randy or anything, but just wanted to see how detailed i could make her. I pushed up her blouse enough to see her belly, and gently ran my fingers along it. Stunning detail! I could see her skin tone and feel the flesh respond to any pressure my fingers exurted. I undid her pants and slid them down just a few inches slowly then noticed her under ware were pink. I examined the look of her hips and her underware. The pink was impressively vivid.

I started to have a bout 15% awareness of my waking body. I needed to stabilize now! I focised on her rib cage and placed my hands there. I tried to really feel her ribs and the heat from her skin, while looking at her lovely skin tone (slightly tan caucasion), but it was only delaying the progress towards waking. I reached about 40% awareness of my body, and decided that I may as well wake up.

I woke up and decided not to try to DEILD as I needed to get my day started. Dur~10 min.

There is not alot to tell here. I posted last time about seeing my father in a dream and getting lucid because he is now deceased. I decided to name my father as a dream sign. I will dream of him often enough but will never runinto him IRL.

Last night it worked perfectly, with one flaw. I was dreaming when my father said something. BAM! Instant lucidity. I made the connection, realized it was a dream and became fully lucid. The only flaw was that because I miss my father I immediately got kind of excited and totally forgot to stabilize until it was too late. I was only lucid for about a minute when things started to fail, so I started slapping my palms against my thighs, but I woke up anyways.

The new idea I have is to program my brain to RC any time I talk with anyone after I have gone to bed. If I am talking with 'anyone' when I should be sleeping, then of course I am dreaming. It is not practicle for begginers, but I want to play with the idea.

This is hardly worth making an entry, but it was vivid enough to write down. Just a plain old DILD in which I changed a DC into a pretty woman and enjoyed myself -insert short oral sex scene here -

I bother to DJ this one simply because the climax was so real that I needed to check when I awoke. I thought maybe I actually physically had climaxed, but no, just in the dream. I like dreams like that.

Had a short pleasent DILD. I was doing this or that and my father said something. IRL my father is no longer alive. I realized this and became fully lucid.
I do not think this was a case of actually comunicating with him like the other dreams. However, seeing my dad seems like a powerful dream sign, so I will keep that in mind. It was a work night and I was not up for a big adventure, so I just visited with the dad DC for a few minutes. This time I chose not to mention him being dead, as that seemed to make him irritated in another dream.

This one is worth documenting because of the transition, plus it is a bit funny.

I was passively observing my dreams, and not trying to control or become fully lucid, but something odd was going on and a touch of negative emotion was there. I actually paid attention to see what the dream was doing.

Some how it looked like my brain was trying to have a bad dream, a closer look reveiled creepy figures. I became fully lucid and entered the dream to see what was up. It was "Evil Elves" I was somehow dreaming about creepy little guys about 3' high with nasty teeth.

I laughed "Evil elves? Let's try keebler elves!" So I turned them all into little 3" high Keebler elves.

I just went back to passively watching (semi-lucid) and the bad dream stuff never came back.

A short and cute litttle WILD. I did a standard WBTB and tried for a WILD.
Before to long the standerd HI stuff resolved into a scene. I had chanted the song "Let it Snow" as my anchor, so i at once knew what my goal was. I think it may have been in nREM because of the cartoon quality of the graphics. I decided to just go with it and have an anime type LD, unless it advanced to life like on its own.

The first thought was of the charlie Brown x-mas special. The scene morphed into a very nice rendition of Peanuts cartoon graphics. It was kind of like the scene when they pick out the x-mas tree. It was snowing a little and snow was on the ground. However, my goal was to make it snow, so this scene was not going to work.

I decided that maybe I should go inside and then come out again with it not snowing. I saw a house and something in the window. the cartoon thing was working very well so I kept it up. I decided that it would be that cat Garfield.

Suddenly I was inside the house watching garfiled in the thirdd person, but was also kind of experiencing being Garfield. The house was very X-massy with garlands and other stuff. The graphics had resolved far beyond comic strip level, with bright vivid colors and some slight 3D effect. Still much more cartoon than real life, so I kept up the cartoon theme. I was actually finding it fun.

I made Garfield climb up the chimney to the roof. I saw him enter the fire place, and then the dream shifted to 1st person, as I climbed out onto the roof as Garfield. It was not snowing. I focused on making it snow. The funniest thing happened! It did start to snow, but it was cartoon snow! Little white pokadots slowly drifting down and slightly moving from side to side, like in the Peanut's X-mas special. I thought that was wickedly funny! I should have stabilized at this point, but was so busy being humored by the snow that I lost lucidity.

I did make it snow, but will also be attempting this task again, as I did want to really make it snow like a real blizzard.

This one is worth recording, as the end of the dream was do to my stupid bladder, but this had an effect on the plot.

I was going around semi-lucid, just watching a dream and not caring to take part. I realized my body was needing to pee. I puulled more awareness into the dream, and tried to fight waking. Fully lucid now, I imagined that I was at a certain place and a familiar resteraunt was there. I was oppossed by busy traffic, but simply leaped over the entire street.
I wanted to see first if i could render the inside of the resteraunt correctly and find the restroom. I also wanted to see if i could convince my body that a dream piss had relieved some bladder pressure. I did get to the restroom, and things started normal. I was sure my real body would not wet the bed or anything, so I started relieving my bladder in the dream urinal, to attempt to buy more sleep/dream time. I suddenly had the dream go hay-wire. I was looosing control of details. I had somehow stepped into the urinal? My pants were wet. I could not make my legs work properly. I just HAD to allow myself to wake, so I could pee! Fine! Stupid F-ing bladder.

In this dream I entered an area that was like a warehouse. It was messy and debre was about the place. My recently departed father was running a lab working on various fish tanks. He had some workers about. He told me that he had to fake his death so he could conduct his work in secret. That made no sense as his work is with fish and coral. I became lucid, but did not attempt to change anything. I listened to him for awhile, wondering why my brain chose this story.
His workers told me it was important to keep this a secret. I decided to leave. As I was walking out, somehow I knew a plot point, which was that spies would try to kill me so I could not tell.
Two armored dump trucks came barreling down the street at me. I decided that I had enough of this, so I used TK to fling the first truck into the sky. The second one took two quick attempts, the ifrst one just made the truck lurch. The secong flung it like a toy into a tree or house.
That is the most interesting part. After that I just messed around for a couple minutes. I started to wake a bit, and suddenly thought I should do the lesser TOtM making it snow. I focused and leaves started falling from the sky, not snow. I adjusted and went to change the leaves to snow, but had woke to much and lost the dream.

This one was about late Nov 20012. I wanted to record it because a couple parts were interesting in that my normal abilities fouled up. Some elements make me think I may have been in AP.

The first thing is when I attempted to pass through walls and later a cealing, I met with resistance. I could not easily pass through, so I had to reach out and tear an opening in the surface. I walls/cealing felt as if they were made of honey combs. Not hard to tear apart, but sticky and wax like.

Second is later when I was flying about, i saw a truely detailed and vivid fluffy cloud. I attemooted to reform it into a giant spider shaped cloud, with legs and all. It was not readily reshaping, and I noticed i was settling back to the ground. I tried to stay airbourne and change the cloud, but ended up sinking again, then the strain woke me up.

I have no idea why the password would be Maple syrup. It seems a little silly, but I am not rying to 'guess' the password, I am trying to get it froma dream. Last night I specifically tried to reach Link and get a password, by entering a WILD while using the mantra, "get lucid, get the password."
I appeared as a 3rd person observer of men standing around a big tree doing something. I asked "what is this?" and heard a loud voice say "Maple syrup." I then entered a normal unrelated LD. So, I will submit it, why not/

Password: Maple Syrup
Lucid: yes
TSA: 7.5 hours
D.S.: disembodiment
Env: out side on grey day

Not much to report as far as exciting content. I had 2 LDs last night, both DILDs. The general context of the one that kept collapsing, was that I was with a man and a woman and we were traveling on foot through modern ruins. No point in describing the details, as I chose to not get up and bother trying to recall much of it. Mostly we just screwed around jumping fences and looking at stuff. I did however have the dream begin to collapse three times. I was able to save it by stabilizing at the last second. I would start tapping my indexx finger against objects while chantinng "this is a dream" and being very careful not to move my real body. Note to self: start stabilizing every couple minutes regardless of how stabile the dream appears. Dur~ 12 minutes.

This was a DEILD in the early morning. I remembered that I wanted to contact Link and get a password.
I tried to focus in on Link. A picture formed and suprisingly it was almost the same as last time. A hand was writing on a ledger, then moving down a line, over and over. Then an image flashed of a meter or gauge with a moving line.
All of this was reminding me of the theme given in my other attempts, that being lines, and a measurable thing divided into unit like a spectrum or the marks on a speedometer.
Then an image flash of a white gel like substance, that looked about like vanilla yogurt. I find that odd as the other two drems specifically refrenced a gel or cream like substance. Dur~3 minutes